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Previously on The Affair...

Everyone says to you when you're young,

"Who do you love? Love is all you need."

And it sends you into a panic.
At least it did for me.

I got married young.

I had a great girlfriend.
She was beautiful.

She was rich. She was artsy.

I wanted to be beautiful,
rich and artsy,

so I married her. And I loved her.

[Cole] Uh, sorry.

Mr. Solloway, this is my wife, Alison.

- I had a fling.
- Uh, with who?

[Helen] Alison?

[Noah] I love you.

I love you, too.

[Noah] I have to leave.

I'm in love with someone else.

Get out! Get out!

[Alison] I read your
book, Noah. I'm sex?

No marriage could survive me?

You make it seem like
I-I came on to you,

like I practically threw myself at you.

Hey, Cole?

Can you just stay?

[Noah] Maybe this was the mistake.

No, please, don't say that.

I had this stupid idea,

that you and I could make a
new start together and...

all the pain we caused everybody else,

it was for a reason, because
we were meant to be together.

I never thought it would
be all... pointless.

[crashing]

- [grunting]
- [Helen] It was a deer.

It was a deer!

Don't! Noah! Noah!

[Noah] Alison, if I don't do something,

they're gonna convict me.

[Alison] I know, just...

Just tell the truth.

Your Honor... I'm guilty.
I killed Scott Lockhart.

- [gallery gasping, murmuring]
- What the hell are you doing?!

- Sit down and stay there.
- [gavel banging]

[Alison] When you get out,
you may still think

you have me to come home to.

And what you're trying to
tell me is I-I-I won't.

I'm sorry.

Hey.

I operated on your son.

Oh, God. Dr. Ullah.

[Margaret] I'm thrilled
for you, darling.

This fellow's quite a catch.

Handsome, polite, a doctor.

[Vik] Do you think she even realizes

- these cans are hers?
- No, I don't.

And she's not going to if you
keep moving them for her.

Hi, Daddy.

[grunts]

Hey.

[chuckling] Hey. Look
at you. You look great.

I have a date.

[Ben] So, what happened to you?

Why'd you stand me up?

Go home to your fucking wife.

- [grunting]
- [yells]

[James] They found her body.

[Noah] She's dead. They're
ruling it a suicide.

- Where is Mommy?
- [Cole] All we have to do is

think about her and
remember her, and that way,

she will always be with us.

Priya?

Vik didn't tell me that
you were coming over.

He told me his pants are falling down,

so I'm taking them in.

I know, I just... I didn't
want to bother you, so...

Why would it bother me to do
something nice for my son?

Does it bother you to care
for your children, Helen?

[Helen] Vik.

Vik!

I'm not getting treatment.

That just doesn't make any sense.

I'm not gonna sit around
and watch you die.

I have pancreatic cancer!

There is no cure. No hope.

Vik? Is that your car?

Yeah, I just got it.

I know the best road in Malibu.

Let's see how fast this
car can really go.

I want to get home, and I want to drink.

- [Helen] You're pregnant?
- [Sierra] Yes.

That's what I was trying to tell you.

Why are you trying to tell me?

I want to keep it. I
want to be a mother.

I don't want to go.

I want... more days. I want more life.

Vik okay?

Vik is going to die.

If there was one person
I would want to be with

when I die,

it'd be you.

♪ I was screaming into the canyon ♪

♪ At the moment of my death ♪

♪ The echo I created ♪

♪ Outlasted my last breath ♪

♪ My voice it made an avalanche ♪

♪ And buried a man I never knew ♪

♪ And when he died, his widowed bride ♪

♪ Met your daddy and they made you ♪

♪ I have only one thing to do ♪

♪ And that's be the wave
that I am, and then ♪

♪ Sink back into the ocean ♪

♪ I have only one thing to do ♪

♪ And that's be the wave
that I am, and then ♪

♪ Sink back into the ocean ♪

♪ I have only one thing to do ♪

♪ And that's be the wave
that I am, and then ♪

♪ Sink back into the ocean,
sink back into the ocean ♪

♪ Sink back into the o... ♪

♪ Sink back into the ocean ♪

♪ Sink back into the o... ♪

♪ Sink back into the ocean ♪

♪ Sink back into the ocean ♪

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[indistinct chatter]

[Sasha] I was in a dark place, man.

I just finished the second
film in The Maze franchise,

and I was on top of the
world, but inside...

...I was empty.

So, I looked at my life
and I asked myself,

what's wrong here? What's missing?

Authenticity.

That was the answer. Integrity.

Courage. And that's when
I picked up your book.

[chuckles] And it just
spoke to me, man. It did.

I thought, this is my life.
And this man understands...

everything.

[chuckles] That's, uh, I'm really glad

- you felt that way.
- People don't really know me, you know?

They-they, uh, know my movies.

They see me as this action hero,

this sort of modern-day James Bond.

But that's all an act, of course.
I mean, that's not who I am.

But this book... this is me.

- This is my story.
- Yeah, it's my story, too.

[both chuckle]

I guess, you know, my
story's your story.

I know it's a real act of faith,

putting your work in the hands
of another artist to interpret.

But I want you to know,

I'm not going to let you down.

I've got this. I've got you, okay?

I've been waiting a very, very
long time for something to direct.

So, enough about me, tell me about you.

Tell me about Noah Solloway.
When did you write this?

How many years ago?

Oh, God, uh... I guess
it was eight years ago.

- Eight?
- Mm-hmm.

Mm-hmm. And how did it happen?

I mean, did you just, you just
sat down one day and thought,

[chuckling] "I'm just gonna
write a whole book."

Well, no, no, no. Well,
not exactly. No, um...

Well, I'd-I'd written
a-a book before this.

- Yeah?
- Yeah, it didn't do very well.

- Tragic.
- Right. And, um,

so I was, uh, I was
teaching in Brooklyn.

I love that. That's a great detail.

So human.

- Please go on.
- Uh... yeah, so, uh...

So, teachers, um,

so, teachers get their summers
off, so, uh, my wife and I would

take every summer and take
the kids out to Montauk.

And we'd spend a month with my in-laws.

Let me just, uh, pause
you there for a second.

- Your wife Ellen...
- Helen.

What?

Uh, she's Ellen in the
book, but actually...

That's... doesn't matter.

- She's, uh, wh-what about her?
- She is a great character.

- Thank you.
- Yeah.

She's funny, she's down-to-earth,

- self-deprecating.
- Right.

So, why did you do it?

- Do what? Have an affair?
- [chuckles] Nah.

No. I get that part.

I mean, that's reasonable, you're a man.

No, the part that I'm struggling
with in telling this story,

the part that I'm struggling
with is, is why you, no,

excuse me, sorry. Why does
Daniel leave his wife?

Well, I mean, it, uh...
well, that's kind of

what the whole book is about.

Yes. I get that. So help me out.

Um... well, I'm not sure there's
an easy answer to that,

to that question, but, um...

I don't know, I was,

I was pretty unhappy.

I reached a certain age
when I felt I should be

more accomplished, more
confident, more wealthy,

just more, really. And...

um, Helen and I had been
college sweethearts.

You know, I loved her,

but... our relationship was, uh...

I guess it just, it seemed to me

that that was what was holding me back.

Mm-hmm.

Is this at all helpful?

Yes, absolutely. Mm-hmm.

So you said you met

- in university, right?
- Yeah, that's right, mm-hmm.

- What was she like?
- Who, Helen at that time?

Mm-hmm.

She was kind of a cool girl.

She, uh, she grew up

in New York City, she was
up on all the trends,

she knew the bands, and... Excuse me.

Can I get, can I get
some cream in there?

- Of course, sir.
- Thank you.

So the first night you did the dirty,

- [chuckles]
- what song was playing?

- Sorry, what? Uh...
- What-what song was playing?

I mean, you just said she's
into all these bands.

Was it something avant-garde
or new or foreign,

or what was it?

[chuckles] Uh... Springsteen.
I think Tunnel of Love

had just come out...

Uh, S-Springsteen.

[quietly] Springsteen. I love that.

Anyway, uh... uh, sorry,
what were we talking about?

Why you left your wife.

Right, yeah, so, um...

so, anyway, I, um...

I... I met this, uh, another woman,

who, um, and I fell in love with her,

and she seemed to be everything
that my wife wasn't.

I come from a family of alcoholics.

Oh. I'm sorry.

Thank you.

I thought I'd avoided it.

I thought the gene
skipped right over me,

'cause I've never had a problem
with controlled substances.

So it wasn't until years
later that I realized

that I was an addict...
for toxic relationships.

[groans]

- Fuck me.
- What's wrong?

[groans] I just can't
stand coffee with cream.

It's like a drink for children.

Well, anyway, that's why I was

drawn to your book.

And the Alison character.

I get it.

I totally get it.

Sorry, wh-what's going
on? Are-are you...?

- What do you mean?
- Is...

- Hi.
- Oh, hi.

I never do this.

Oh, that's okay.
[chuckling] That's fine.

But I was just wondering if
I could give you my number.

Yeah, sure. That's very kind of you.

- Uh, Sasha.
- I'm Tali.

Oh, I see. You mean business.

[Tali] I just love you
and I'd love to show you

how much I love you. Anytime.

That is so kind of you,
Tali. Thank you so much.

- Thank you.
- Thank you. [chuckles]

Um...

fuck, I hate it when they
write in permanent ink.

Sorry, does-does that, does
that happen to you a lot?

Yeah. Oh, quite often, actually.

Okay, so... [exhales]

we've covered Alison,

- we've covered Helen.
- [phone chiming]

Now, what we haven't covered is...

we haven't discussed the ending.

Uh... the ending?

Mm-hmm. The ending.

So, in your script, it ends... I mean,

he hits her with his car?

Yeah, that's, well, that's,
that's the ending in the book.

Do you love it?

Do I love what?

The ending.

Uh, yeah...?

Yeah, like, "Yeah!" or like,
"Yeah, but I'm not sure."

Sorry, I, uh, I'm having,
uh, I don't understand.

Are you... is-is the ending... the...

Is there something in the ending

that's not working for you, or...

I don't... [chuckles]
I don't understand.

Do you know what? You're great.

You're, you're truly great. And I...

Listen, I just love that
we're doing this together.

- Really, I am.
- Me, too. I just...

- Look, uh, Sasha, I hate to...
- [phone chiming]

Uh, cut this conversation short.

My girlfriend is-is
waiting for me outside.

- Yeah, yeah, yeah, go, go, go.
- So sorry.

We've got tons of time to discuss this.

We're not shooting anything for
three months and... No, no.

I've got this. No, come on. [chuckles]

- I got it.
- Okay, thank you.

Yeah. You look sharp.

Where are you headed? Wedding?

No, no, I'm... a funeral, actually.

[slow, somber music]

♪♪♪

[whispering] It just seems
really out of character.

So what happens now?

We're waiting for our mom.

Then we're going over to the
grave site to bury him.

I thought Hindus cremated their dead.

[Whitney] He was half
Hindu, half Muslim.

He planned his own funeral, so...

he took some stuff from one culture,

- some from the other.
- Ah.

Are you kids hungry at all?

I got some munchies in
the car. We could...

We're fine, Dad.

Okay.

[exhales] Look, I can drive
you guys to the grave site

if you want. That way you don't

have to wait around for Mom.

Any takers?

Look, Dad, why don't you just head back?

We'll see you at the house.

Maybe we should...

Right, right, yeah.

- [chuckling]
- Hey. Hi, Bruce.

Good to see you, Noah.

How are you, Noah?

I'm fine, I'm fine.

It's good to see you both.

This is, uh, this is Janelle.

How nice to meet another
one of Noah's women.

- [chuckles]
- Actually we were both leaving,

so, uh, the kids are gonna
go to the grave site

and we're gonna see everybody
back at the house.

Where is Helen?

- What's going on in there?
- Uh, I think she went

to go talk to Priya about something.

I should go back in
there and check on her.

- Oh, no, I'll go. I'll be...
- No, no, no, no, Margaret, no.

You-you stay with Stacey.

It's okay.

Uh, I'll go, uh,

I'll go see what's happening.

- I'll be right back.
- Uh, okay.

[Helen] Priya, we discussed this.
I showed you the document.

Perhaps, Helen, he didn't
know what you had written.

Oh, for fuck's sake, he dictated it.

I just wrote it down, and I
promised him I would do it.

You can't just ignore his
dying wishes. Are you insane?

His soul cannot be released
unless he's cremated.

He's still here. He's still with us!

He doesn't know he's dead!

- What's going on?
- What are you doing here?

I just, um, I'm checking on you.

[Priya] Listen, Noah,

Vikram cannot be reincarnated

unless he's released from this
body, and this body is dead.

- It is now his prison.
- [Helen] He wanted to be buried.

I told him I would bury him.

That is because he was dying

and you were his caretaker

and he wanted to please you!

That's not true!

Abdul...

Oh, Jesus fucking Christ.

Helen.

Look, what do we do?

Well, unless there's
some written mandate

from the deceased, it's standard for

his next of kin to decide
what happens to the body.

Oh, no, she-she is, she is his
next of kin. She's his wife.

[whispers] She says
they weren't married.

If he's going to be cremated

by Hindu law, it has to be

in the next few hours.

Hey.

She can't do this. It's
not what he wanted.

I know, I know,

but he's dead, Helen. He doesn't care.

He asked me to bury him.

Right, I get it, it's just...
Look, if he was here right now,

don't you think he'd be trying
to make his mother happy?

That's the whole point. She
bullied him his entire life.

I'm not gonna let her do
it to him in death, too.

You can't win this, Helen.
She's his mother.

You're supposed to be on my side.

And I am, it's just...

Imagine this was one of our
kids and someone was trying

- to tell us how to bury them...
- Shh. Just fuck off, Noah.

- Helen...
- Fuck off.

Do what you want.

[door opens]

[door closes]

They say it's standard
operating procedure that they

would be doing this for anyone

in my position, but
that's just bullshit.

I've already held the
job. The fact that they

are asking me to reapply is...

Yeah, it's-it's crazy.

And humiliating and sexist and racist.

Look, they're just making
you jump through hoops.

You know they're gonna rehire you.

The point is, I shouldn't
have to jump through hoops.

Yeah, right.

[Janelle] Noah, are you even listening?

Sorry, yeah. No. No, I'm here.

Look, I agree with you,
they're treating you badly,

but I think it's just
bureaucracy, you know.

I really don't think it's, uh,
anything personal, Janelle.

Of course. You wouldn't.

Well, what's that supposed to mean?

[sighs]

What do you think this house costs?

I don't know, 2 million?

I don't know, I think
it's more than that.

At least three, maybe four.

Does she even work? Must be nice.

Look, she's been through a lot.

Welcome to the club.

- Hey, Bruce.
- Ah.

Will you take a look at this view?

Yeah, it's something, isn't it?

You've done well for yourself, Solloway.

I'm man enough to admit that.

- I don't live here, Bruce.
- Huh?

No, th-this is, this is Helen's house.

[chuckles] Right.

That's how Margaret feels as well.

- [Janelle clears throat]
- Oh, hello.

Hello.

Uh, can I trouble you for another drink?

- What?
- A brandy.

[chuckles] Of course.

Coming right up.

Janelle, I'm...

I didn't think you had it in you, Noah,

but I was wrong.

Just, uh, will you excuse
me for a second, Bruce?

Janelle. Janelle, I'm sorry, I...

I'm really sorry. It's-it's
not what you think.

- Oh, no?
- No, he's...

- There's something wrong with him.
- There certainly is.

No, he's losing his memory.
He thinks I'm still married

to Helen. He thinks I own this place.

He asked me to get him a drink.

Right, he didn't realize who you are.

He didn't realize he just met you.

Oh, so, because he didn't recognize me,

he just assumes I'm the help?

Right, I guess, uh, that's
not better, but, um...

No, it's not.

[sighs] I need to leave.

- Janelle.
- [sighs]

- Hi, Helen.
- Hi.

- Thank you for being here.
- Oh.

Yes, of course. How are you?

I'm okay. I'm... I don't know.

Uh, I can't wait for all
these people to leave.

[Janelle] Right, of course.
I am so... I'm so sorry.

[Helen] Thank you.

Um, the valets are being
complete dicks, uh,

and I really don't want to
deal with it right now.

Do you think you could talk to them?

- Uh, yeah, what's the problem?
- I don't know.

They're telling me they don't
know where to park the cars,

and I'm like, that's your job,

- to know where to park the cars.
- I'll do it.

You should be with your kids.

- [Helen] Really, you don't mind?
- [Janelle] Not at all.

- I'm happy to.
- Thank you.

She's a keeper.

She's so beautiful and
so self-possessed.

Yeah.

Just try not to fuck it up.

Thanks.

How are you, uh, how are you holding up?

[quietly] I don't know.

Helen.

You're gonna be okay. You're the
most resilient person I know.

[slow, somber music]

♪♪♪

Is there anything I can do right now?

Don't go.

[sniffles]

[sighs]

[phone chimes]

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[sighs]

So what kind of painting do you do?

Oh, portraiture mostly.

Oh. Does that sell nowadays?

Not really.

So what's your plan? To make money?

Ugh, I don't know.

His visa is about to expire,
so no one will hire him.

O-Once I get a more, uh,
permanent situation in place,

I wouldn't mind teaching for a while.

- Really?
- [Whitney] Well, until everybody

realizes what a genius he is.

Mm, yeah, right, of course.

Whit?

Oh, yes, please. I'm sobering
up, it's becoming intolerable.

Colin?

Oh, Dad, he doesn't drink.

My whole family are drunks,

so I figured it'd be
best if I never started.

Come on. It's starting, let's go.

[Colin] Okay.

[Vik] Hey, guys.

How's my funeral? Is it awesome?

Um, I know this is a little weird.

I-I, I wish I could be there,

with all of you, instead of...

[sighs] wherever I am now.

But I have some things
to say to the people

I imagine are in this room.

[clears throat]

Mom, Dad,

I love you.

I'm sorry

I let you down.

You've been such

wonderful parents,

and, uh... I really wanted to be there

to take care of you when you got old.

But I want you to know

I have had such a happy life

because of everything you did for me.

So don't be too sad, please.

And stay close to Helen

and the kids.

Helen. [clears throat]

Actually, uh, I'll come back to you.

I'm not ready yet.

Kids, Stacey,

Trevor, Martin, Whitney, my salamanders,

I love you guys.

I came into your lives eight years ago,

and I had no right to be there.

I had no claim to your hearts,

and you guys just...

you took me in.

You gave me the family I
never thought I'd have.

It has been such

a privilege to watch you grow up.

And Whitney.

I can't believe I'm gonna
miss your wedding.

Although I do like this Colin fellow.

[mouthing]

So... you know what, I'm gonna
give you my toast right now.

Um...

Whitney,

what I really want for you

is the happiness you deserve.

[atmospheric, melancholy music]

♪♪♪

Helen?

Helen.

Helen?

Hmm.

What time is it?

It's eight o'clock.

My God, did I fall asleep?

Yeah, we decided not to wake you.

Let you get some rest.

[sighs]

Where are the kids?

Whitney and Colin took them to a movie.

Where are my parents?

Their hotel.

Everyone's gone.

I cleaned the house.

You did what?

Thank you.

You hungry? There's some leftovers

- in the fridge.
- No.

You want some wine?

Sure.

Fuck, I forgot about the
valet. I have to tip him.

- Are they still out there?
- I don't know.

I'm gonna go check.

Helen. Helen, come here.

Relax. I'll do it.

[rolling sound]

[front door opens]

[Helen] What are you doing?

Trash day tomorrow, right?

Wait, stop!

You sure? 'Cause everyone else on
your street has their trash out...

That's Vik's job.

Okay, but... Vik's not here right now,

so why, why don't you let me...

I don't want you to do it.

Well, do you want to do it, Helen?

- I mean, it's pretty heavy.
- I want Vik to do it.

Okay, uh...

Why don't I just...?

You know, do you remember earlier

when you said that I was resilient?

Yeah, I meant it.

Mm-hmm. Do you ever wonder
why? Why I'm so resilient?

- I...
- Because ten years ago,

you walked out on our lives and
left me alone with four children

to go fuck a waitress you'd
just met in a restaurant.

And I had to raise these kids by myself.

And I had to rebuild my life by myself.

I had to be resilient.

And for you to say that to me,
like it was some kind of choice.

I'm sorry, it was, it was
the, it was the wrong word.

Why don't we just go back inside...

You know who had a choice? You.

Vik didn't have a choice.

He got cancer.

Helen, I'm... I'm just
trying to help here.

I'll do anything you want.

Why him?

I mean, why not you?

[tense music]

♪♪♪

[Thea] I'm gonna get you,
I'm gonna get you.

- [yells]
- [Madeline giggles]

[Thea] Come here.

- I got, I got you!
- [girls laughing]

You can't get me, you can't get me.

- Oh, yeah?
- [squeals]

[giggles]

- Tag.
- Okay.

Everyone's gone, party's
over. It's time to come in.

Aw, but we don't want to.

It's dark outside. It's bath time.

- All right.
- [groans]

Hey, girls, girls. Hey. Look...

There's two more left.

- [gasps]
- Can we do 'em, Mom?

Please, oh, please, oh, please, Mommy.

Oh, please.

- Okay, but after that, it's bath time.
- Yes.

- [Thea] Okay.
- [Madeline] I want the pink one.

[Thea] No, I want the pink one.

[Madeline] It's my birthday.

[Thea] You had the pink one last time.

[Madeline] Watch me!

Watch me!

- [Paul] Whoa!
- Wow!

[Paul] Oh, that looks beautiful!

Ah... That's amazing.

[girls cheering]

It's my birthday, it's my birthday!

- It's my birthday!
- [laughing]

Yay! [giggles]

[whoops]

All right, girls. You got to go get

some sleep, but take a bath first.

- Go on, go on in.
- Okay.

[gentle music]

♪♪♪

Check zone one. Oxygen.

[automated voice] 22.5.

Optimal.

Shut off zone one.

Oxygenate zone two.

Shutting off zone one, living room.

Oxygenating zone two, bedrooms.

[floorboards creaking]

Off.

[exhales] Girls are asleep.

Madeline knows.

Knows what?

What's the weather in
Houston this weekend?

[water running]

She knows she's adopted.

How?

I don't know but when I
was putting her to bed,

she said I wasn't her real mother.

What'd she say?

She said, "My real mom's a queen

- and I'm a princess."
- [chuckles]

Hon... she's six years old.

- She knows.
- No, she doesn't.

I-It's just a fantasy.

I don't think so.

Hey.

Madeline was really happy
that you were here tonight.

I mean, you've been working so much.

Yeah.

So what are we gonna
do for your birthday

- this year?
- Nothing.

Ah, come on, we got to do something.

I'm serious, if you get me a
cake, a present, anything,

I will leave you.

Can we just skip it this year?

If that's what you want.

I'm sorry, it's just...

...this is the age my mother died.

I didn't know that.

I don't think you ever told me that.

Yeah, we'll skip it.

Done deal.

Thanks.

Coming to bed?

In a minute.

[both panting]

[slow music]

♪♪♪

[grunts]

- What's wrong?
- It's fine.

Just... finish.

[grunts]

[grunts]

[grunting]

[panting]

[grunting]

[moaning]

[Paul sighs]

What is it?

Joanie.

What's going on?

Come on, talk to me.

I miss my dad.

[exhales]

[exhales]

[sighs]

[tense music]

♪♪♪

[inhales deeply]

[exhales slowly]

_

[chatter, laughter]

[soft music playing]

♪♪♪

[woman moaning upstairs]

[woman laughs]

[indistinct chatter]

[laughter continues]

[woman moaning loudly]

[woman laughing]

[moaning continues upstairs]

[CaShawn] Inhale. Two, three, four.

And exhale. Two, three,
four. Good. Now invite

- your baby to come down.
- Come down, baby.

[CaShawn] Tell her not to be afraid.

Tell her everyone is waiting for her.

I think it's actually a boy.

That's because you've been
brainwashed by the patriarchy.

Now, inhale. No, not until I say.

Now inhale.

- [inhaling deeply]
- Two, three, four.

And as you exhale, invite her down.

[Sierra] Please come, baby.

[groaning] Nothing's happening.

She's not coming because she
can sense your ambivalence.

I'm not ambivalent.

[CaShawn] And your shame
around her gender.

- [Sierra groans]
- In through the nose.

Out through the mouth.

- [inhaling deeply]
- In through the nose.

- Out through the mouth.
- Excuse me, do you think maybe

it might be time to take
her to the hospital?

- Hi, Helen.
- Hi.

I mean, she's been at this

for over 24 hours, I
think she's exhausted.

- [moans]
- Sure, we can take her

to the hospital. If you
want them to commence

a cascade of pharmaceutical
interventions

that will invariably lead to a C-section

and handicap her child.

No, no. No. No hospitals.

I had all four of my children

in hospitals and not one
of them is handicapped.

She committed to a natural birth.

Sierra, this is ridiculous.

The point is to have a healthy
child, not to experience

- hell on Earth.
- Oh...

- Oh, oh, another one's coming.
- [CaShawn] Okay.

When this one hits, I want
you to welcome your daughter

into this sacred realm
and really mean it.

- [Sierra moaning]
- Breathe. In.

- Two, three, four. Out.
- [moaning continues]

Two, three, four. Can you please leave?

- [moaning]
- You're turning this

into a stressful space for her.

[Sierra moaning, panting]

She's in labor.

[moaning continues]

[door closes]

[footfalls approaching]

Any change?

[somber music]

♪♪♪

♪♪♪

Try to hang in there just a
little bit longer, okay?

[sighs heavily]

[sighs]

[Priya] Helen?

I'm leaving.

I'll come back later tonight.

Just a sec, Priya.

Helen, what time is the hospice nurse

- coming back?
- Um...

she should be here any minute.

Okay.

Then I'll go and check on Abdul.

- Okay.
- And then I'll come back

- by six o'clock.
- Okay.

Please let me know if anything changes.

Yep. I just, I need you to take a look

at something for me.

- What is that?
- It's the order of events

for Vik's funeral, I just...

want you and Abdul to...

take a look at it, make sure
there are no surprises.

I'm sure it's fine.

Well... he wants to incorporate stuff

for both of you and I don't
want anyone to get offended.

This is what he wants?

Yeah.

- It's fine.
- Could you take it home

- and show it to Abdul?
- No.

I'd really like him to
sign off on it, too.

Helen, I cannot take this
piece of paper to Abdul.

This is unbearable.

[door opens]

[door closes]

[exhales]

[sighs softly]

[typing]

[whispers] Clary sage oil?

[chatter, laughter]

[woman singing indistinctly]

[singing continues]

Come, Helen. Join us. We'll make room.

N-No, thank you.

[Helen] What are they doing?

Oh. They're manifesting
Sierra's daughter

from the celestial realm

into her corporeal being.

How are you?

Uh, Gaelle, do you have
any c-clary sage oil?

[chuckles] Of course.

Yeah. I never leave home without it.

Why?

[woman singing indistinctly]

♪♪♪

- [Sierra moaning]
- [water running]

All right.

- Hey.
- [Sierra] Is... is that my mom?

Did she make it? Mom?

- [CaShawn] No, love.
- [Sierra] Who is it?

It's Helen.

Helen? Helen, can you
come in here, please?

Uh, yeah.

[panting]

[Helen] What's going on?

[quietly] Please, please
take me to the hospital.

Thank God. Good idea.

She wants to go to the hospital.

That's because she's in
the transition phase

and she's almost ready to push.

No. You're a Nazi. I'm
taking her to the ER.

Helen, you've obviously never
had an unmedicated birth,

so you don't know what's going on.

This is all completely normal.

We just need to let her
go through her process.

[Sierra moaning]

[moaning loudly]

Ow. Ow, Helen, that hurts.

What are you doing?

This baby might be upside down.

It could have the cord
wrapped around its neck.

She hasn't slept,

she's too weak to push.

If we don't take her to the
hospital, they both might die.

- What?
- Oh, my God, Helen.

Sierra, you're not going to die.

Get out of here, Helen.

- [knocking on door]
- [Gaelle] Look who finally

- made it. Helen?
- [Sierra shouting]

[crying]

Oh, golly. Just in time.

[shushing]

Okay, ladies, as soon
as this contraction

is over, we're gonna
move her into the bed.

- Are you ready, Sierra? Okay.
- Uh-huh.

Let's lift her gently.

One, two, three...

There you go, okay.

Shh. Be careful.

Okay.

[whispers] Be careful. There you go.

[Sierra panting]

There you go.

[Sierra panting, moaning in distance]

[dramatic music]

♪♪♪

[knocking on door]

Helen, go home.

We have everything under control here.

Melanie is one of the
best midwives in L.A.

And nothing is going to happen
to Sierra, I promise you.

I will call you as soon
as the baby gets here.

We all understand how important it is

for Vik to meet his child.

[Sierra moans loudly]

[Melanie] Gently. One, two, three.

[Noah] Hey.

The nurse let me in.

What happened? Why are you so wet?

I was next door because
Sierra's in labor,

and I got in the shower with her.

- She's in labor?
- Yup.

Why isn't she at a hospital?

Why are you here?

I want to talk to you about the kids.

What about the kids?

God, my hands itch.

When was the last time you
ate something, Helen?

I don't remember. Is something wrong

- with one of the kids?
- No, no, they're fine.

But they want to come back here

and they want to say goodbye.

I don't think that's a good idea.

- Why not?
- Because it will upset them.

Well, I think banishing them to Topanga

is upsetting them more.

They can handle it, Helen.

They're almost adults.

Look, I know it's a lot for you,

having Vik and them in
the same house, but...

I think they need to be here for this,

- I really do.
- Well, I can't handle that.

Well, what if, what if I came with them?

What?

What if I stayed here,
just for a few days?

I mean, you need some support on this.

You're not... you
shouldn't be on your own.

I need to change my shirt.

[quiet music]

♪♪♪

[Vik exhaling]

What's happening?

His body is shutting
down, and he can't clear

the secretions in his throat.

Is that a death rattle?

We're getting close.

If there's anyone who should
be here to say goodbye,

now is a good time to call them.

Um, can I just get a little privacy,

just for a few minutes?

Of course.

Thank you.

[door closes]

I guess you're ready to go, huh?

[exhales, swallows]

Okay, you should go, Vik.

I promise you, I will
make sure this baby

is taken care of and...

will know all about you

and what an amazing man you were.

You are.

[wheezing softly]

You know, the problem with you dying

is I hate everyone else I know.

- [knocking on door]
- [Noah] Helen?

- [knocking continues]
- Helen?

- What?
- Helen, can I come in?

No, not now.

[baby crying in distance]

We came as soon as we
could. Are we too late?

Is he...?

[Sierra clears throat]

Vik?

Can you hear me?

Vik, this is your son.

This is Eddie.

♪♪♪

[Eddie coos softly]

- I'm so stupid.
- [Noah] No, you're not.

- Yeah, I am.
- No.

He's gone. He's already gone.

[Vik wheezes loudly]

What's happening?

[inhales sharply]

[exhales]

Oh, my God. Regina?

- Regina?!
- [footfalls approaching]

He's passed.

He knew.

["The Beauty of the
Rain" by Dar Williams]

♪ And you know ♪

♪ The light is fading all too soon ♪

♪ You're just two umbrellas
one late afternoon ♪

♪ You don't know the next
thing you will say ♪

♪ This is your favorite kind of day ♪

♪ It has no walls ♪

♪ The beauty of the rain ♪

♪ Is how it falls, how it falls ♪

♪ How it falls ♪

♪ And there's nothing wrong ♪

♪ But there is something more ♪

♪ And sometimes you wonder what ♪

♪ You love her for ♪

♪ She says you've known
her deepest fears ♪

♪ 'Cause she's shown you ♪

♪ A box of stained-glass tears ♪

♪ It can't be all ♪

♪ The truth about the rain ♪

♪ Is how it falls, how it falls ♪

♪ How it falls ♪

♪♪♪

- ♪♪♪
- [dialogue inaudible]

- ♪♪♪
- [dialogue inaudible]

♪ But when she gave you more to find ♪

♪ You let her think
she'd lost her mind ♪

♪ And that's all on you ♪

♪ Feeling helpless if
she asked for help ♪

♪ Or scared you'd have
to change yourself ♪

♪♪♪

♪ But when she gave you more to find ♪

♪ You let her think
she'd lost her mind ♪

♪ And that's all on you ♪

♪ Feeling helpless if
she asked for help ♪

♪ Or scared you'd have
to change yourself ♪

♪ And you can't deny this
room will keep you warm ♪

♪ You can look out of your
window at the storm ♪

♪ But you watch the phone ♪

♪ And hope it rings ♪

♪ You'll take her any way she sings ♪

♪ Or how she calls ♪

♪ The beauty of the rain ♪

♪ Is how it falls, how it falls ♪

♪ How it falls ♪

♪ The beauty of the rain ♪

♪ Is how it falls, how it falls ♪

♪ How it falls ♪

♪ How it falls, how it falls ♪

♪ How it falls ♪

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