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'250 days a year, two and a bit hours a day, 600 hours,

'37 days a year on this train with these people.'

Excuse me, you're in my seat.

I'm sorry, is it reserved? No, there are no reservations.

'I shouted at this woman on the train today. That's me.'

The nutter on the train.

Let's go out. Just me and you.

Somewhere that's not a parents' evening or a school play.

Love you. Love you too.

That was completely out of order yesterday.

I wanted to apologise. Oh.

It's this journey, you know, it makes people tense.

Especially me on a Monday morning. I'll see you tomorrow, 7:39.

Just don't let me find you in my seat, all right?

Joking. Sorry.

Just so you know, I'm going to be late one night a week from now on.

Matter of fact, I've joined a gym.

I used to play a bit of football. A footballer? When?

1983.

You reek of chlorine.

And what does Ryan say?

Just because we're getting married, he doesn't need to know everything about me. Except he does.

Are we about to make a mistake?

I don't care.

We need to press the button.

Oh, yeah.

Here, let me. No, I can do it.

It's just a bit greasy, isn't it?

Give it to me. W-W-Wait. Watch, watch this.

Agh!

Oh, sorry. It's OK.

Ooh. Ooh.

Sorry, am I disturbing you?

No, look. I'm turning it off, see?

Where you going? Brush my teeth. Garlic.

Well, if you need a drink that badly...

No, I'm just...

I'm just nervous, that's all.

Yeah, me too.

Here.

Champagne and toothpaste. Oh, it's absolutely vile.

God, you're so lovely.

Agh! Sorry! No, it's OK.

I just need to get this...

My laces.

You know, I feel a bit...

Can we...?

Maybe we should just get some air?

Yeah...

Yeah, let's... Let's do that.

I'm sorry, I feel like I've messed this up.

The version in my head was a little different.

What happened in that version?

Well, I could get my shoelaces undone for a start.

You haven't messed it up.

Besides...

it's still early.

Why do I feel like I need a cigarette?

I don't even smoke.

Also, this is a non-smoking room, so...

Think that's the least of our worries, don't you?

Are you worried?

Me? No.

A little.

You?

Yeah, I worry...

I worry that when I get home and put the key in the lock,

there's going to be this low rumble and the whole house falls down.

That won't happen.

No regrets.

No apologies.

OK.

So look, I'm on the 18:49 if I stay awake that long.

I'm on lates, so...

So, what? 7:39 then?

7:39.

Well, erm...

Thank you and... No, thank you.

One last time in broad daylight?

Shall we risk it?

The last time ever.

Last time ever.

I'd better concentrate.

Dad!

Hey.

What's this for? You know what it's for.

Well, let's hear it, then.

Nothing like buying your daughter's love.

It sounds so much better, doesn't it?

She's back! At last!

Oh, no offence, but you look knackered.

Yes, thank you. That's been pointed out already today.

That'll be from Kerry's sofa.

Well, do you know what's never happening again? Go on.

You are never, ever, EVER,

spending another night away from me for the rest of your life.

Hooray!

Oh, hang on...

No, can we stop now, please?

How long you been on for? Like, two minutes?

Yeah, but...

my heart's not in it tonight.

Yeah, I didn't think so.

OK, well...

what shall we do instead?

To Monday nights, eh?

And a strict exercise regime.

Sorry, is this a jam jar?

It's a thing, a gimmick.

There it is, right there.

Did you hear it? What?

My mid-life crisis kicking in.

A sports car, a tattoo - that is textbook.

Yeah. Something practical, eh?

Like a landline or my national insurance number.

Or you could run a marathon. Well, I've joined a gym.

Or have an affair.

A one-night stand with a stranger on a train.

Except you're not a stranger.

Stop, stop, stop, stop...

I feel like a teenager.

Touching each other up on the train - it's ridiculous. Let's go somewhere private, then.

I'm not going in the toilet, Carl. No, we could go to a hotel, you know?

Or do you think that's a bad idea? It's moving things on.

So it is a bad idea, then?

Oh, God. See, I knew this would happen. I'm sorry, I just...

I just wanted to say, you know? Get it out there, see what happens.

I'm sorry. Just forget it.

Unless you want to...

It's not about wanting to. We can't just do whatever we want.

Can't we? Why not? Just this once, just do it and see what happens.

What could possibly happen?

When I get off this train I'm going to go home to Ryan.

And I'm going to kiss him and get in bed with him

and tell him that I love him and I will mean it, too.

I know and I don't mind. Oh, great. Well, as long as you don't mind!

No, I mean, I do mind. It's just...

I haven't stopped loving Maggie just because we've started...

This is our stop.

Tell me it's not just me. Hey, it's not just me, is it?

Because you know I'm not the stalking type.

No, it's not just you.

Hello. Yeah, stayed late at work, you know. Quick drink after work.

Well, see you in the morning.

Stupid, isn't it? So stupid.

Who's he going to tell? He doesn't know us.

I know but it's my fault, getting carried away.

Well, we'll just have to be more careful in the future.

The future?

Let's...

..sleep on it.

Hm?

What is this exactly? Ah-ah! Keep watching.

Oh!

It's for the honeymoon?

Longer than the honeymoon.

Much, much longer.

They say it's a brilliant place to raise kids.

We don't have kids! Yes, but we will have. We will.

I'm going to miss my train. Look, Sal...

I know I'm not always on the ball but I know when you're not happy.

I can see it when you head off for the train.

As far as I'm concerned, my sole aim,

my number one priority in life now, is to make you happy.

And I'm going to give it 110%.

110% is not possible. Well, that's your opinion.

No, it's not an opinion, it's ACTUALLY impossible.

Hey, nothing's impossible. No, giving it 110% IS impossible.

Oh, for Christ's sake! It's a figure of speech!

Look...

this could be a whole new start for us.

New job, new friends, hopefully a new arrival.

Change.

I thought that's what you wanted.

Can I ask you something personal?

Oh, here we go. Typical men.

What? Everything's a competition.

You don't know what I'm going to ask.

You want to know who's better in bed. No, I don't!

Well, he's not better, it's different.

Very attentive, very keen.

It's like being in one of his classes. There's warm-up,

stretching, warm-down, plenty of hydration to hand.

Gives it 110%.

So no complaints, then?

Only that sometimes I'm not in the room with him. That's all.

Let's not do that again.

What? Talk about the others.

It's not on.

It feels like...

Well, it feels like what it is.

Betrayal.

For Christ's sake... Hey, come here.

What?

Well, we're having our first argument.

No, I mean it. I'm serious. I don't like that.

It makes me sad.

How would you feel if I asked that about...

I can't even say her name! I'm sorry.

Let's just keep it on the island, yeah?

We're going to miss our train.

I thought all this exercise was meant to tire you out.

Yeah, me too.

It's just, erm...

It's work stuff, you know?

Do you want to talk about it? No, it's OK.

You go to sleep.

I'm just going to lie here till it gets light, you know?

So it's gym night tonight - I'll be back late.

Do you think it's making any difference? I mean, physically.

Promise me you won't get too big.

'Ryan wants us to move to Australia.'

Australia? Yeah, he said we could live by the sea.

He's got relatives there, he feels we'd belong.

And the quality of life - it's a great place to bring a child up.

What, you're pregnant?

No, Carl.

Sorry, Australia? Yeah, I know.

What, so you'll just... You'll give up work? Or what?

Well, it's a bit of a commute otherwise. Sorry...

Why are you joking about this?

Because I don't know if I'm going yet. Well, do you want to? I mean...

I'm really trying to hate the idea but I can't quite. I mean...

I need something new, I need something to change.

Well, I don't want anything to change.

Carl, I'm getting married!

You don't think that might throw up some difficulties?

Oh, by the way, I can't meet you that day - it's my wedding. It's different.

Unless you want to come. Why don't you bring your wife? It's different.

What's the difference? I won't see you any more.

Why don't we...

Let's just try and enjoy now, yeah?

Yeah.

Let's spend the whole day together next time. Let's just...

..spend it together.

We'll go into London and we'll be...

We'll be like tourists or something.

OK, we'll be tourists.

It's just one day off.

I have to say, it's not ideal.

Well, I wouldn't ask if it wasn't important, would I?

Can't what's her name, the lady wife? Maggie, she's called Maggie...

She's been called Maggie for the last eight years - why don't you write it down or something, eh?

It's just one day off so I take my son to see this university.

That's all. Well, since you feel so strongly about it.

Thanks. Carl...

Carl, I wonder, could you tell me what it says outside my office?

What?

The sign, there. What does it say?

It says, "Head of Commercial Property."

One more time?

"Head of Commercial Property."

Thank you.

That is where I used to live. My first flat.

We were over there.

Tiny little bedsit.

And that is where I work.

And there's my office. See my boss.

Oi! We're skiving! Hello!

Smile.

You're such a tourist.

What do you need a picture of Big Ben for?

I need to photograph some pigeons.

What shall I do?

I don't know.

Maybe I'd better delete them.

Yeah, I think so.

Come here.

'What are you staring at?'

I'm just taking photographs.

Click.

Click.

How was university?

Did it have good facilities?

Great facilities.

Listen, could you turn that off for a second?

I just wanted to say that when I was your age...

..because I was once...

..I always did the sensible, responsible...

..ordinary thing.

And I'd hate to think that you get to my age and you have the same...

..regrets.

Are you drunk?

No.

I just think you should follow your heart, all right? You should...

do your theatre or whatever

and you do it with my blessing, OK? Do you understand what I'm saying?

OK.

I mean, just a simple, "Thank you, Dad." Would it kill him?

For nine grand a year plus maintenance? Kids, eh?

Yeah, you're better off out of it, mate.

Well, I don't mean that. I don't mind really, cos I love them...

Carl...

I'm letting you go, Carl.

I thought so.

When you closed the blinds, I thought, "Here we go. Bullet in the head time."

I can't lose my job, Grant. I'm sorry, it's out of my hands.

It's not your decision?

By which I mean I have no choice.

You're expensive, Carl, you make mistakes, you lack motivation...

My head's been elsewhere. It has.

But I can address that, I mean, I am addressing it.

And it's time for you to do something different.

I can't do anything different. Find something. Take time!

There'll be a package - you've been here a while, so it's generous.

It won't be enough. You don't know what it is yet.

Will it be enough for the rest of my life?

For my family, for my kids?

Change is always scary. You're telling me.

But it's a very fluid job market. You think so?

With all those shiny new graduates out there. Do you think that's what they're looking for, eh?

A solid, middle-aged salary man?

I can't lose my job, Grant.

I'm sorry, mate.

And don't call me "mate".

Don't kick me in the head and then call me "mate".

I love you.

So much.

That's nice.

Now go to sleep.

'This train is for London Waterloo.'

Why didn't you tell her last night? Cos you know why.

I mean, if I don't take the train I...

Go home and tell her. Straightaway.

What about us?

We'll be apart for a while.

You know, for 12 years I have hated that train.

Wasted hours, just routine.

And now that I don't have it any more, I'm...

I am lost.

You'll be back soon.

I think - and bear with me on this one -

I think it's a good thing.

No, listen, I'm not saying it's not a shock and I'm not saying "don't worry",

cos I know you will. But we've got savings.

They're not meant for this, though, are they?

Well, what else are they for?

University, you know, holidays, retirement.

Then we'll economise. You can refund your season ticket, cancel the gym.

We can live off lentils and make clothes out of old curtains.

Sell one of the kids. Don't make fun of me.

I wouldn't dream of it. But we are fine, we're luckier than most.

We can live off my salary while you can look for something more local.

Something that's not going to have you clutching at your left arm in five years' time.

And I'm not even joking, I do keep waiting for that call.

Work's hard, isn't it? It's meant to be hard.

Yeah, but it's not meant to kill you.

I love you, Carl, but you have been unbearable these past few years.

Sorry but it's true.

No, I know. This is our chance to start afresh.

I'm too old to start anything.

Well, you're old but you're not too old.

It's just humiliating. I mean, What'll the kids think?

They'll understand. It's shaming, you know? I feel ashamed.

For what possible reason?

Of course, once you've joined you'll be able to use

the facilities in all of our branches,

open...

Kerry... Yeah?..could you just take over for one second?

Will you please stop doing that?

Christ. I've got to get out of here. I'm going to go for a run.

Now? It's pouring with rain. Why don't you wait till morning?

Have you seen my phone?

Why do you need your phone? Just so I can listen to music.

Oh, there it is.

Don't look at me like that. I'll only be what? Half an hour. OK?

Quick, quick, quick! Do you know, I had to stand on the train on the way home?

I was so indignant about it.

I wanted to say, "I'm a pregnant woman! How dare you?!"

Maybe you should stop.

Work? You want me to lie in bed for 32 weeks?

I'm not ill, I'm pregnant. No, I know, I know.

I just want to keep you here, all by myself.

Every minute of the day. Bit like a hostage?

Exactly!

My beautiful hostage.

Oh, it's Kerry.

Wants me to cover for work tomorrow.

When can we tell people? At the wedding?

Yes, we can make an announcement.

Will we need to adjust your dress?

CRASH!

It's a recruitment consultancy, they're not promising anything.

They just want to "assess my skill set". Whatever that is.

I didn't even know I had a "skill set".

You didn't mention anything last night.

I've only just checked my e-mails, haven't I? It only came last night.

It's a last minute thing, they just want a chat. It might be nothing.

It might lead to something. Exactly.

I've got to rush, I'm going to get the 7:39.

It's a bit early, isn't it? I've still got my season ticket, haven't I?

Might as well use it.

Look, I'll give you a call, let you know how it goes. Bye.

I'm thinking of cancelling my membership.

Are you sure that's a good idea? My situation has changed.

Yeah, mine too.

OK, well...

I'll get the cancellation forms.

Unless you want to talk me out of it?

You look smart. I hope it's for an interview.

No, it's not an interview, it's a consultation.

So it's an interview about an interview, you know?

Well, that's good. See? I told you.

Back on the train in no time.

Yeah, I hope so. Fingers crossed, eh?

There's no interview.

No, I thought not. I've missed you, Sally.

I've missed you too but, Carl... I know, but I mean like a lunatic. I'm sitting at home...

Carl, what do you expect to happen?!

Describe the sequence of events! How does this end happily?

I have absolutely no idea.

No, me neither.

So what?

Is this is it?

Goodbye, yeah?

Come here.

Oh...

Oh, no.

What? What?

Carl, I'm so sorry.

Maggie...

Maggie! Don't you DARE!

Shall we find somewhere? To what? To talk.

I do not want to talk and I don't want to cry in public.

Christ, I've been humiliated enough as it is.

Do you want me to explain? I want you to go away.

There's a train in two minutes. Do not get on the same train as me.

Of course I'm going to get on the same train! Maggie...!

That's my season ticket, Maggie!

How was the interview?

Maggie... With the recruitment people, did it go well?

I was so pleased when you told me, watching you skipping

out the house all full of hope and dressed up.

Don't be like this. Oh, what? Am I making you feel uncomfortable?

She's a friend of mine. A little more than a friend.

Yeah, a little more, yeah.

How long has she been more than a friend?

A month.

And how many times have you been more than friendly?

Six or seven.

Well, at least it's not double figures. And when was the first time?

That train strike. You know, when I was stuck up in London.

When you spent the night in the hotel.

It was just going to be the once. But you couldn't help yourself? No.

Oh, couldn't resist, it was too much.

The attraction was just too strong It wasn't like that.

Well, things aren't going that well with Mrs M.

Not the same old spark. Not surprising after all these years.

We never talked about you. It's got nothing to do with you.

Oh, I think it's got something to do with me. But it's not because of you.

I've always been happy here, there's never been anything missing here.

I've always loved it here, I've always loved you.

So why? Is she younger?

No. Yeah, a little bit but... you know, in many ways you're similar.

Well that's flattering, that she reminds you of me.

That's not what I... I'm just trying to explain. I don't want to hear it!

What could you possibly say?

That you were stuck in a rut? Me too!

That you felt invisible, under-appreciated,

not special any more? Me too!

That you sometimes wanted more sex or different sex?

Or you felt old and tired and ugly and dull

and you just wanted to know what it felt like to be fancied again?!

There is nothing - NOTHING - that you don't feel that I don't feel just as much and maybe more!

But I don't do anything about it

because I have a family that I love and I would not betray them!

I met someone.

And I felt something for her and she felt something for me.

All right? We never looked for it.

If I'd sat on a different seat or got on a different train,

this might never have happened. And I know you don't want to hear this

but we couldn't help ourselves, OK? Do you love her?

I love the idea of her.

I love seeing her and I love being with her.

Do you still love her?

I think I possibly might, yeah.

But I love you too and, I mean, I love you both.

Doesn't work like that. The new one pushes the old one out.

I'm going to stay here

and you're going to pack a bag before the kids come home.

What are you going to tell them? I don't know yet.

Right, you ready? OK, don't laugh.

"I, Ryan, take you, Sally, to be my wife

"and these things I swear.

"I promise to love you and to take care of you.

"I promise to listen to your problems

"and to do my best to understand.

"I promise to support you financially..."

I'm not sure about that bit, might be a bit too practical.

"..but to respect your independence too."

"But most of all I promise to be your friend."

Sorry. That won't happen on the day.

Well, I don't mind, as long as you don't pick up.

"Hi, can't talk now, I'm at the altar." So, carry on.

Erm... "But most off all I promise to be your friend

"and to give you 110%,

"whether it's mathematically possible or not."

Little joke there.

Oh, you don't like it, do you?

I mean, well... This is just a first draft. Sorry, give me one second.

Yeah, no, no. Go, go, I need to...

How are you? 'A bit shaky, to be honest.'

She's talking to the kids now and then I'm going to see them tomorrow.

Christ knows what I'm going to say.

'I am so sorry.'

'It's not your fault.'

Isn't it? It feels like it is. Sally, look...

There's no reason any of this should affect you.

'You know, I've not mentioned any names.

'Maggie doesn't know who you are, so you're...

'You're safe.'

So you should just stick to your plan.

'Carry on with your life and...

'..be happy.'

OK?

You ready? Where are you?

One minute.

Ryan...

I've been seeing someone.

I've been seeing someone. A relationship.

Tell me his name! Just a man I met on the train. No!

Carl. Carl is his name.

He know about us? Yes. He knows we're engaged?

What about the baby?! He doesn't know about the baby. Ryan, you're frightening me!

Is it his? No!

How do you know? How do you possibly know, you stupid woman?

Because we were always careful. You're hurting me, Ryan!

We're fine, everything's fine!

I'm sorry!

I made a friend on the morning train.

And, erm...

I hadn't made a friend for a while and...

I know you look at adults

and think that we've grown up and out of all that stuff but we haven't.

Anyway, the friendship turned into, well...

..something else.

And it was meant to be a secret. Not that that makes it OK

but you weren't supposed to get hurt, you know?

Or your mum either.

If there had been any other way, I... What? Not to get found out?

It wasn't something that Sally and I... Sally!

..entered into lightly.

Just so you know, this moment here, right now,

sitting here with you two - it's the worst moment of my life by far

because I love you two and I hate the fact that I've hurt you.

So does this mean I'm going to have a stepmum?

No, no it doesn't mean that.

Cos you and mum are getting back together?

I don't know. I don't know.

I'd better go.

Mum said to give you this.

Bye, Dad.

But I don't understand - you could have got away with it.

I didn't want to "get away with it".

Standing there in front of everyone thinking,

"This is the happiest day of my life - I got away with it."

A vow's a vow, isn't it?

Besides, he'd have found out somehow.

Was he angry?

Well, he wasn't that fussed.

No, I mean was he violent? You know, did he...

Did he hit you?

I think the thought crossed his mind.

It's the first time I've ever seen him lose control. I...

I didn't think he was capable. God, if he'd hit you, I'd...

I wouldn't get too heroic. He's in slightly better shape than you.

I'm sorry, I...

For weaving your web of temptation? Well, no...

I've made my own decisions.

God, and now I've got to tell my parents

and his parents, all our friends.

Oh, Christ. It's like trying to...

stand still in a burning house and I just want to run out and I can't.

Well, maybe we could. What? We'll just go away.

Together? Yeah.

My mum and dad have got this cottage. It's miles away from anywhere.

You want me to meet your parents?

Christ, no!

They won't be there - that's the point. It'd just be us.

I've got a key -

just a place we can hide for a bit, you know?

Just catch our breath.

Ryan! Do you know what you've done, you bastard?! Ryan!

Do you?! Do you?!

Please! DO YOU?!

So he met your fiance, then?

He has.

I didn't expect this to happen. No, of course you didn't.

I've never really thought about you. Which is wrong, I know.

Oh, you think so?

He was a bit lost, I think and...

I was too and we just... We happened to find each other.

He does adore you, you know. That never changed.

I know it isn't any consolation. No, it isn't.

But I don't think we're bad people.

No, bad people never do.

Mrs. Matthews?

I told them not to call you - it's completely unnecessary.

They said you were unconscious.

Concussion.

Just some cuts and bruises, that's all.

Well, at least something good has come out of all this.

You should see the other fella. Not a mark on him.

I thought he was a jogger. I thought he was just going to jog on

and then he started kicking the crap out of me.

He's a professional athlete, for Christ's sake.

It hurts when I laugh.

Yeah, me too.

Well, I only came to turn off your life support and you're fine so I'll say goodbye.

Maggie... I can't do this, not yet.

We were a team.

A really good team. I thought so anyway.

So I don't want you under the illusion this'll to make us stronger

or that we'll be able to chat or some crap like that, cos it won't.

This has destroyed us.

What do you think? It's beautiful.

So are you absolutely sure? I'm absolutely sure.

But how can you be sure?

Biology, arithmetic.

We were stupid about some things,

but we were always careful about that.

But even then so there must be a tiny chance...

Carl, if he or she gets to five years old

and suddenly has your eyes then I'll give you a call.

But I know the baby's Ryan's.

Congratulations. I'm sorry.

That combination.

God, no wonder he hit me so hard. You're lucky he didn't kill you.

I bet want to kill me as well, don't you?

That's why I'm here.

So, how are you feeling?

Confused.

Nauseous.

Scared.

I thought about it happening for years but...

..I never imagined doing it alone.

Can we watch just one thing?

Yeah, sure.

I always thought pregnancy was supposed to be an aphrodisiac.

I think that only works if it's your baby.

I can hear the sea.

Yeah, me too.

I couldn't sleep at all last night.

Me neither.

I thought it was supposed to be soothing.

No, not because of that.

It's just that I wanted to say...

look, I know this wasn't in the plan

and things got out of hand and stuff and...

..it's not what we expected or what we wanted but...

..but one thing I don't feel -

what I won't feel...

..is regret.

Cos I don't regret meeting you, Sally.

And I don't regret kissing you or falling in love with you... Carl.

And I want you to consider that you, me and...

Carl, you don't need say it. Why not?

Because you don't mean it.

We were better on the train.

We were better there - it was just us two.

Out in the world, we'd just...

It wouldn't work.

I know what you want...

and it's fine.

We had a fine time for a while, didn't we?

You're sure you don't want me to come with you? I'll just come to the station or something. No.

All that hanging out the window, waving goodbye? It's all right.

Be good.

I always was before.

So...

There's just no point being stubborn.

I've decided to look on this as a wobble.

A wobble?

Yeah.

You've just had a wobble.

I've never heard it called that before. Sal, please.

Just let me continue.

Basically, there's too much at stake here.

Not just our futures and the baby's but...

the deposit too,

and all the organisation. And I refuse to throw all that away.

So I'm prepared...

to just say, "There.

"OK, that... That happened."

And now we continue exactly as planned.

In other words,

I forgive you, Sally.

You've just had a wobble.

Can I come in?

"Such a wagoner as Phaethon would whip you to the West..."

Is that, "Phae-ton" or "Phae-thon"? Or even "Thae-thon"? Could be.

No, go on, carry on. It's really good.

"..and bring in cloudy night immediately...

"Spread thy close curtain, Love-performing night.

"That, unawares, eyes may wink, and Romeo,

"leap to these arms, untalked of and unseen..."

Sally!