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[woman] Previously onQueen Sugar:

I think you're two minutes away from relapsing

-and you're not doing anything about it. -What?

When was the last time you called your sponsor?

I can't get the image of you beating him out of my head.

I scared you.

Why did you say all those things?

I thought I was doing something good for all of us.

But I see that it was just good for me.

[man] We share the pain it takes to move forward.

Right now is where we hold the line.

Where we say, "Enough".

Y'all good?

-Yes. -Hey.

See you tomorrow, baby.

Nova Bordelon, you're not supposed to be here.

-I know, but-- -So I don't need you

squatting in my booth all morning like a sad puppy.

You wouldn't give me the time of day

when I stopped by the house, so I'm here.

I'd really like for us to talk.

I mean no disrespect,

but it's been months,

and we're still family,

no matter what.

I'm not giving up.

Please don't give up on me.

[sighs] Nova...

I got memories...

that I'd left in the past seeping into my bones again...

invading my mind, my marriage.

It don't feel good.

That's on you.

You're right.

I'm more sorry than I ever been about anything.

I should have discussed what I was doing with you...

with everyone...

got your blessing.

And if I had said, "No, don't do it,"

would you have listened?

♪ Dreams never die

♪ Take flight As the world turns ♪

♪ Dreams never die

♪ Take flight As the world turns ♪

♪ Keep the colors In the lines, take flight ♪

♪ Dreams never die

♪ Keep the colors In the lines ♪

♪ Keep the colors In the lines, take flight ♪

♪ Just feels so good

♪ Now we're moving and grooving Can't get enough... ♪

[doorbell rings]

♪ Taking over From my head to my feet... ♪

-Hey. -Hello. How are you?

-I'm good. How are you? -Good.

-Good to see you. -Yeah, you, too.

-Are you ready? -Yeah. You?

In...

deww-- ptoo!

Thanks again for taking him.

City Park is one of his favorites.

Yeah, it's no problem. I'm just happy

to be spending time with my little buddy.

-Definitely. High-five. -High-five.

You have your overnight stuff?

-Okay, have fun, you two. -Thank you.

Let's do this.

Let's do it.

I love you, Mom.

I love you, Blue.

All right, see you.

[Darla] Bye.

[Micah] So...

♪ Got me moving and grooving

♪ And I can't get enough

-♪ Feels so good -[telephone rings]

♪ Now we're moving and grooving Can't get enough ♪

[ring]

[ring]

[ring]

Hey, Mom.

What's up?

Hey, Darla, how are you?

You won't believe who I just ran into at the coffee shop.

Your best friend is in town, Jordan.

Jordan's in town?

We haven't been in contact for years.

Of all your friends, she was always my favorite.

Yes, I know you've always liked her,

but it's really short notice,

and I'm super busy.

Something wrong, Darla?

No, nothing's wrong. I'm just--

[sighs]

What's her number?

[Charley] For you.

For your birthday.

My birthday's not until next week.

Yeah, I know. I, uh...

I-If I change my mind,

I-I didn't want to wait to try and thank you.

For the other day.

For your help.

Thank you, Charley.

I don't think my birthday

is gonna be much to celebrate this year.

So the decision on the highway's Prop K is coming soon.

Once it hits, I'm back in campaign mode nonstop.

So, uh, this is sort of

the last chance to do

a little getaway.

You wanna come with?

You're going somewhere?

Sure. Why not, right?

Then, I'd love to.

Okay. Let's go, then.

[car stereo playing R&B]

Didn't know you liked this song.

[chuckles]

[turn signal clicking]

So how are you doing?

Better. Better.

Thank you for--

for taking care of me.

And for writing that counter-article.

I appreciate you using your new celebrity power for good.

So have you heard about the mill?

What'd the insurance company say?

They won't cover it

since the police suspect it's arson.

I need to find proof of Frances Boudreaux

and Old World Energy's connection to the fire.

Old World Energy.

Sounds like a place where bad things happen.

You know I can help with all this...

Old World Energy, dig a little.

I'm still a journalist.

I can get at the real story.

You don't have to do all this on your own.

[insects buzzing]

[woman] Cedar & Oak Women's Retreat

believes in the rejuvenating power of nature.

You know, we offer guided meditations,

raw meals, hikes to our natural hot springs,

all you need to expel negative energy.

No distractions.

Just you and nature.

Well, that's exactly what we need.

-Right? -Right.

Thank you for this. It's very cool.

Welcome home. [laughs]

[Charley chuckles]

Cozy.

Thank you.

Is there a restroom nearby?

Oh, the outhouses are down that path right there.

Okay, now I am going to leave you two to get settled in.

Rustic.

It's like when we were little,

camping with Daddy, right?

Sure is.

Okay.

[calliope music playing]

[camera clicking]

[laughs]

You're such a ham, Blue.

Virginia salted.

That one's so funny.

-[laughs] -Can you send it to my pops?

And I wanna show it to my friend Joie.

Oh, yeah, sure. You know,

I think I met her mom a couple weeks ago.

Miss Deesha, right?

Yeah, yeah.

Yeah, she's pretty cool.

You like her?

I think Pops likes Miss Deesha.

-Yeah? -Like likesMiss Deesha.

You cool with that?

You know, Blue, I remember when my parents

started hanging out with other people.

At first, it made me sad,

'cause I thought it meant

that we weren't gonna spend any time together,

but I met the other people,

and they were nice, you know?

And I think that my mom and dad are actually happier.

So you didn't feel sad anymore,

ever?

Sometimes.

Sometimes, but you know what?

There's a bright side,

-a big one. -What?

You get two Christmases.

You get two birthday presents.

You get two graduation parties

once I get my college letters.

And you get two separate rooms

that you can decorate a-and play in.

Double presents is pretty awesome.

It is, but you know what, man?

If you ever feel sad, that's okay.

I just want you to call me if you do.

Okay?

[mouths word]

-You promise? -Promise.

-You're gonna call me? -Deal.

All right. Deal.

[birds chirping]

Remy?

I know it's hard for you to hear,

but I did have genuine feelings for him.

You'd broken up with him,

and you two never-- you know.

We never slept together?

Right, so I honestly felt like it could be okay.

The problem was

I didn't talk with you first.

It's the same with the book.

I acted before communicating with you.

I won't ever do that again, Charley.

Ever.

Nova.

I don't think I've ever fully understood you.

I've wanted you to.

Why do you think you rushed in like that?

I mean, what's going on that-- that you do that?

Trying to figure it out.

I-I think...

if I'm honest, something Aunt Vi said earlier

got me really thinking,

and she's right.

I didn't want your no

to stop me from doing what I wanted to do.

Deep down, I guess I suspected

you'd disapprove of me and Remy.

I wanted to explore a relationship with him,

so I jumped in before you could say no.

It's the same with the book, maybe.

So you're of the school

that it's better to ask for forgiveness

than permission?

How'd that work out?

I hear you.

This is a flaw in me that I have to correct.

And I will.

I promise.

I went out with my coworkers last night

to this lame-ass conference reception.

It was like a bootleg cotillion.

[laughs]

Remember those ugly dresses we had to wear?

I'm convinced our mothers wanted us

to grow up to be more miserable than them.

Yes, I've, uh--

I've had the same thought.

And I'm so ready to get the hell out of D.C.

You're lucky you left.

Every party is the same tired guys

who work on the Hill.

I don't know.

I've seriously been eyeing New Orleans.

-What? -Yeah.

How do you like it down here?

I like it.

St. Jo is nice...

quiet...

slow.

Right. [laughs]

You must be out in New Orleans, like, every night.

[laughs] So...

where's the party tonight?

I really don't know.

I'm not about that life anymore.

Not about that life?

What are you talking about?

We basically invented getting turnt.

Thank you.

Not getting a drink? Oh, right.

Your mom mentioned you're all dry now.

You don't mind if I have a little fun, do you?

It's fine.

I'm fine.

Mm.

I'm gonna slow down, too.

Ah, one day.

We used to get so lit. [laughs]

Oh, my God. Remember that night in Georgetown

at Thomas Cane's house party?

You and your man at the time--

-What was his name? -Ralph Angel.

You said y'all were on a break,

but I know you just wanted to party,

which was so worth it, because it was epic.

What did we even take that night?

Whatever it was had us so out of our mind.

That was a long time ago.

Seven, eight years?

Whatever it was,

still one of the best nights ever.

One minute, you were downing jell-o shots,

and, the next, you and Thom were all over each other.

Y'all gave us quite the x-rated show.

Well, before he dragged you upstairs.

People saw us?

Everybody saw.

Y'all were buck wild.

Get it, girl.

Next thing I know, Thom was old news.

All about you and Chase.

He took you to the bathroom, and you guys

were in there for, like, an hour.

I had to pee so bad.

Chase?

Chase Loweston?

I don't...

I-I don't remember him being there.

Yeah. That's how messed up we were.

Um, I...

have lost track of time, and, uh,

-I have to go. -Are you okay?

I gotta run. I gotta pick up my son.

♪ I long for you

♪ All the good I've known Has turned to sorrow ♪

♪ We swayed the day

♪ Afraid I've fallen too far

♪ Ease my sadness

♪ Ease my sorrow

♪ Ease my sadness

[Micah] How's that lemonade?

This lemonade is killing it.

It's killing it.

Mmm, mmm.

You know what? I gotta go.

All right. Uh, I'll go with you.

I can go by myself. I'm big.

-You sure? -I am sure.

All right.

[cell phone chirps]

[chuckles]

[cell phone chirps]

Blue?

Blue!

Have you seen a kid, uh, come in here?

He's, like, this tall.

Uh, he was just over here.

He has, like, a blue shirt,

has, like, a shark on it.

I don't know. Sorry.

[mutters]

Excuse me. Blue!

Blue!

Hey, little man. Are you lost?

I-I lost my cousin.

-Oh. -I had to go really bad,

and he was not there.

Happens all the time. You can come wait with me

while he comes to get you, okay?

Let's go.

We got a 9-20-F waiting at station C.

Step on in.

Hey, he'll find you.

Sync? I don't want to do that.

Where's the home button?

Can't see anything on this itty-bitty screen.

Need some help, Miss Violet?

I'm pretty good with stuff like this.

I don't need help.

♪ I don't care

♪ I feel like I been found

♪ Mmm...

Okay, fine.

Okay.

What did you want to do?

I want to know how many steps I have so far.

♪ There's music all around...

Slow down.

You just hit this button there.

Oh, okay.

You know that you can also

check your e-mail on that, too.

Why on Earth would I wanna do that?

I will just stick to the basics.

Thank you.

No problem.

All right.

Keys. This.

♪ Yeah

Blue!

-Hey, back up! -That's my cousin.

-All right? -That's my cousin.

No, no, no. Gotta back up.

-That's my cousin in the car. -All right.

Let me just see some I.D. Come on.

What do you need to see my I.D. for?

That's my cousin.

I want to see your I.D.

Show me your I.D.

Have I committed a crime?

I asked you to do something.

I expect you to do it.

Don't put your hands on me. I didn't touch you.

No need for hostility, okay? Just show me your I.D.

I don't need to do that.

-Let him out of-- -Hey! Hey!

All right, get your hands up.

-What-- -Come on. Get your hands up.

Need you to be calm.

Blue. Blue, everything's gonna be all right, okay?

Blue, do you know this young man?

That's my cousin, Micah.

All right, you stay here.

Okay, kiddo.

You okay?

You sure?

Yeah.

[Darla sighs]

[muttering] Where's the guys?

Darla?

You okay?

Yeah. I'm just, um--

just looking for Blue.

Micah brought him to the park.

Well, they're not here.

They at City Park, over in N'awlins.

[sighs] Right.

Yes. I'm sorry.

Sorry.

What you been doing today, Darla?

I'm just, um--

I need to-- um, Blue.

I need to find my son.

Okay. Come on. Let me take you home.

-Come on. -No, I don't need to go home.

It's okay, baby. I'm not gonna hurt you.

I don't need you to take me home.

Okay, I tell you, let's go find Blue.

-Let's go find Blue, baby. -No.

-Come on. Come on. I-- -I'm fine. I'm fine!

Let's go find Blue.

-Okay, but I can walk. -Okay?

-All right? -I can walk!

All right. Okay.

-Just, um... -All right.

So I see you and Miss Genevieve

been looking real cozy nowadays, Mr. Prosper.

-Uh-huh. -[laughs]

Look, I may or may not have seen y'all every day

-in a certain booth... -Mm-hmm.

at a certain pie establishment

in this here fine town.

-[laughing] -Uh-huh.

I mean, I-I don't know.

"May or may not have."

Yeah, well, I-I tell you,

it's nice to keep company with somebody.

-Mm-hmm. -Mm-hmm.

Yeah, but she's a-- she's a good woman,

-got a kind heart... -Mm-hmm.

and I admit I'm kinda sweet on her.

-Whoo! -Ahh! I like that, Mr. Prosper.

Show you, right.

That's some good news right there.

Yeah. No, it's mighty nice, yeah.

Seems like we all doing pretty good

in the love department these days.

Mm, you know.

-Vi's the best woman in town. -Yeah, she is.

And speaking of booths at fine pie establishments,

I've seen you and that pretty lady lawyer.

Yeah, she real cool.

-Like her a lot. -Mm.

Feel like she see me,

good, the bad.

Mm.

Don't take that for granted.

Y'all getting serious, huh?

Serious enough, I guess.

Got a little date tonight.

Talk to her about taking things up a notch...

-Mm! -making it exclusive,

see how she feel about it.

Ralph Angel gonna have a whole girlfriend.

-[laughs] -I ain't mad at you.

"A whole"? [laughs]

Ain't a half.

[laughing]

Hey! What's that?

[insects chirping]

I don't think we've shared a room

since we were little at Daddy's.

Well, sometimes at Daddy's.

[sighs]

The summers.

There was another time.

When?

That weekend I visited you in L.A.

in '99.

[thunder rumbling]

You were still in high school.

I was a freshman at Tulane.

Your mom had a guest room, of course,

but we said we wanted to stay together.

Oh. Yeah.

Yep, I remember that.

Seems like forever ago.

It was forever ago.

You took me to this party.

The house was the size of St. Jo.

[chuckles]

We got there,

and you said, "All my friends are here,

so be cool.

Just act like you belong."

I don't remember saying that.

You ditched me most of the night.

I was so out of place.

Everyone looked like they had just popped out of a Ralph Lauren ad.

I finally found you.

I overheard your friend ask if I was your sister.

And you said...

"She's just my half sister.

She's all right...

but you can't choose your family."

I don't remember saying that.

I remember being so excited

that my big sister was coming to visit.

And then being devastated

because you spent the whole time...

putting me down...

about my house...

my clothes, my friends.

You took me to places you knew I couldn't afford...

over and over again.

Nova, I was treating you.

It didn't feel like that to me at the time.

For some reason, I always feel small around you.

Still.

For a long time, I thought that was on me.

At some point, I came to feel it was on you.

But both are wrong.

Sometimes things are just...

the way they are.

Every time I think we're--

we're starting to understand,

it's clear to me, after all this time,

we still don't know each other

as well as we think we do.

[panting]

I can't-- I can't, uh...

[sniffles]

Just can't-- I can't remember it.

Blue doesn't--

Blue doesn't deserve this.

Oh, God.

It's my fault.

What's-- What's your fault, baby?

Look at me.

You and me, we got a past.

But I know you been doing better than this,

so what happened?

Gotta let it out...

whatever it is that made you do this to yourself.

I can't.

I can't talk to you about this.

You're gonna let this thing take over again...

destroy everything you've worked for?

I mean, I...

I-I didn't know what I was doing.

I was-- I was so out of it that night.

Oh, Blue.

Go on, baby. Speak it.

I, um...

I f-- I found out there were...

two-- two guys

that I don't remember any of it.

I don't-- being with them.

I-I can't figure it...

Then, nobody made sure

you was okay enough to be involved in all that?

I was--

God, I was so messed up. I...

Guess I was really high.

I was gone.

I shouldn't have been there.

God.

Oh, I shouldn't have...

Darla...

baby, you listen to me.

Listen.

If you are out of it...

then you were not in the right mind

to agree to anything.

Do you hear me?

And that ain't just my opinion.

That's the law.

-[sighs] -You understand?

But I--

"But," my ass.

There is no "but" here.

I was...

I mean, maybe...

maybe I didn't say no.

And maybe you did.

Or maybe you didn't say nothing,

'cause you couldn't.

If you can't remember any of this...

[shudders]

It was hard for me, too.

But he was my husband.

And I was young...

and thought this was

just the way it had to be.

I even stopped saying no...

because it didn't seem to matter.

Blamed myself.

Thought there was something wrong with me.

But I know now...

that it wasn't right then,

and it ain't right now.

No means no.

Don't matter the circumstances.

And even if you-- you don't say no...

or can't...

don't no man or anybody else

have the right to take advantage of you.

That's rape.

[men laughing]

-What's up, buddy? -Hi.

You have fun with your big cousin?

I sat in the back of a police car.

Police car?

What?

I just-- I lost track of him for, like, one second,

and-- and the cops found him.

They weren't nice to him, Pops.

Young man, it's okay if you ain't okay.

You know that, right?

You all right?

Yeah, I-I'm just tired of it.

We can't never get so tired

we start letting other folks tell us who we are.

-You hear me? -Yes, sir.

You keep your head up. Don't let 'em put you

in that place, that dark place.

You know, you keep living, loving, growing,

and doing for others. Th-That's the key.

Just like we do for you,

you make sure you do it for somebody else.

Yeah.

[Prosper] You hear?

Yeah, I hear you.

Thank you.

[cell phone buzzes]

What's up, Aunt Vi?

Ralph Angel, I need you to meet me at Darla's.

Darla's? Got Blue right here with me.

Meet me here right now, please.

Alone.

All right.

I-I'm sorry to, uh,

have called you over like this,

but, um...

I-I wanted to talk to you

before Blue got home.

I ain't got no idea what this is about.

Y'all just sitting there like that.

Truth is, I'm scared already.

There's nothing to be scared about.

The truth is a light,

even when it don't feel like it.

I, um...

I wanted to, uh...

talk to you about, um...

the night that Blue was conceived.

-[sighs] -I-I found out that, um...

there were two...

Two?

Two what?

Two, uh...

two guys...

that I was with.

I don't remember.

[shudders]

Look, I, uh--

I don't...

I don't remember, because, uh...

I was out of it...

completely.

I-I realized...

for the first time, that, um...

I couldn't have agreed to be with them...

in that state.

I, uh...

I didn't realize it before,

but, um...

I realize it now.

I was, um...

I was, um...

I'm sorry.

No.

Ain't gotta be sorry.

Ain't gotta be sorry, all right?

You ain't gotta be sorry.

I'm gonna give you both some time.

Ain't gotta be sorry, okay?

Um, I'm sorry for drinking...

for what happened before...

and for putting you through this.

Hey...

Ain't nothing to apologize for.

We gonna get through it.

Hear me?

All you been through...

you ain't gave up yet

on yourself, on Blue.

Huh?

Whatever it take, Darla,

you know I'm right here with you.

You know that?

I'm right here.

Okay?

Ah, my Blue. I...

I'm scared.

Yeah, me, too.

Please don't see him differently.

Don't change nothing.

Hear me?

Gonna be all right.

Come here. Come here.

[cell phone buzzes]

Damn.

♪ I know it's there

♪ But I can't hear you say it

-[knock on door] -♪ I know it's there

♪ But you fail to break it...

-You can come in. -[door opens]

♪ But you just won't say it

Hey.

♪ Baby, when you're Strong enough ♪

♪ Strong enough

♪ Show me where The lights are off ♪

♪ Lights are off...

Thank you for staying.

How you feeling?

Empty.

I could stay a little longer if you want.

You have to go to work.

I gotta go to work.

It's too early.

Maybe you just lay down for another hour or so.

I'll make sure you don't oversleep.

Hmm?

Okay.

Okay.

♪ Worlds below The words you use ♪

♪ I know it's there

♪ But I can't hear you say it

♪ I know it's there

♪ But you fail to break it

♪ I know it's there

♪ But you just won't say it

♪ Baby, when you're Strong enough ♪

♪ Strong enough

♪ Show me where The lights are off ♪

♪ Lights are off

♪ Tell me how you feel inside

♪ Can't you let go now?

♪ Baby, when you're Strong enough ♪

♪ Strong enough

[vocalizing]

[woman] Go, Ree-Ree.