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- You got this. - We have lost comms for diver two.

We're losing one of my divers here.

Come over. We have one more.

Where is he at now?

- Drop the fourth. - We're running out of time...

But I can't move it. I can't move it.

- I've got this. - We can't give you any slack.

Setback. Pass setback.

Hang in there, buddy.

- It won't move. - Bridge.

You've gotta get us back over there.

Topaz. Topaz. Topaz.

Aberdeen Marine Control. What's your position? Over.

Aberdeen Control, we are 64 miles northeast of you.

Heading for old field block 22/14-B. Over.

Thank you, Topaz. Update one on job. Over.

Ah, four in.

- Hiya, Rob. How you doing, sir? - How you doing, Chris?

- Yeah, yeah. Good, mate, yeah. Hi, Ally. - All right?

- Hey, Chris, you all right, mate? - Good, thanks, yeah.

- Yeah. Yeah, sorry. - As long as you have got that.

It's, uh, yeah, Morag wanted a bit of a tour of the ship.

Good day. Yeah, good morning.

Mustard's always worth having.

See if we can get in, what have we got there?

Oh, it's Jimmy Kyle from the Black Isle.

Might have to edit this one out.

So, I know I like to make out that, uh, life on board's pretty Spartan.

Uh, so what I'm about to show you, uh,

is obviously gonna dispel that, unfortunately.

Because behind me...

is a bona fide, uh, sauna.

Behind door number two, believe it or not...

sunbed.

When Christopher went off-shore, we enjoyed sending videos to one another.

We've got a new calf on the croft today, isn't it beautiful?

That is the big news, big news from home.

Hi, guys.

It gave us a little part of each other, we could share in each other’s lives,

while we were apart.

And it reassured us that we were both happy.

♪ We wish you a merry Christmas ♪

♪ We wish you a merry Christmas ♪

♪ We wish you a merry Christmas ♪

♪ And a happy New Year ♪

Merry Christmas, Lemons.

It was a really, really exciting time in our life.

Did you get the little sign?

It's gorgeous.

We were due to be married in April that year.

We were building a house at that time, too.

Enjoying that?

Beep, beep.

And I had started

a new job as the head teacher of the local primary school.

We had so many plans for the future.

It was wonderful.

Okay, I think I'm running. Hi, Morag.

Six lads living in there, but looks like the lights are all off in there.

What you can actually see on the outside there

is, uh, the little camera they use to monitor us.

That's pointing into the toilet, so they can watch us have a shower.

Think what you will.

I had a good understanding of Christopher's work.

All of these tunnels,

gases and depths.

Christopher often described it

as going into space, but under water.

Nice to see ya.

- Yes. See you in 28 days. - Yeah, thanks, mate, yeah.

So, uh, this is the moment of truth when we get on board, when we, uh,

check the board to see who we're gonna be in sat with,

'cause that can pretty much make or break your trip.

And that's the two other people you're gonna be spending

the next month locked in a tin can with, so...

And if you can see it at the same time as me.

Yeah, team three, Chris Lemons, Dave Yuasa, Duncan Allcock, okay.

- David Yuasa interview. - B cam, mark.

- Hi, Dave. - Hi.

Uh, there are some people that you get on great with.

Other people that you don't get on well with,

and no one wants to be in with a knob.

Duncan I knew very well. I'd worked with him

over the years quite a few times.

He's got a very good reputation on the boat.

You do have to be a certain breed to work in an RC.

Slightly unhinged, um, a little bit abnormal.

They don't have problems, they have solutions.

Certainly, the guys that I've worked with

are one of a kind.

Dave's a very cool guy.

Uh, he... He doesn't get stressed. He doesn't get anxious.

Very, very logical. Who keeps himself to himself.

I'm not famed at work for, um,

being a particularly, uh, emotional person.

I think, uh, "Vulcan" is how a few people have described me.

Chris was relatively new, I'd not dived with him.

But I think he dived with Duncan quite a few times

and, um, Duncan was his, uh,

his sat daddy.

That sounds weird now I've said it out loud, eh?

I was there for Chris' first sat.

And then we did four sats in a row after that, together.

The bond you get with that is massive.

I got to know him very, very well.

He was a very amiable guy.

I had a little word with Duncan and said, "What is this Chris guy like?"

And, uh, I got a thumbs up, and I was happy to go in with him.

Captain Strong, we're six hours away from the job.

This is all we're currently suffering from aches and pains, bruising,

joint discomfort, skin numbness sensations.

Hi, boys.

Uh, as you can see there's not a huge deal of space.

Probably only half a foot or so between the bunks down here.

Dunc's in there, uh, getting his ready.

And then this is the living end, got, sort of, benches and, uh,

a bit of a table.

One of the very few port holes we've got,

so that's pretty much the only sight of the outside world that you have.

So, I got to crawl through these little tunnels

to get from place to place.

And down this way is what we call the "wet pot."

So, I just push that door open.

Basically, the toilet and the shower room, so various ablutions, that kind of thing.

Yeah, if I stand at my full height,

there's absolutely everything I can knock my head on.

It's a real pain for me,

that's why I've always got gashes all over me.

And the magic of it is, once you've done the full circuit, you're back to...

You're back to where you started and a cup of tea. And a cup of tea. Yeah.

Mind me chocolate stash.

That's ridiculous, Duncan, how much you got...

How much have you got in there?

- Just a bar for every day. - A bar for every day.

I've only started just to check them out.

- Yeah. - Glad I'm in with you.

Okay, lads, if everyone's ready, we'll go for blowdown.

Okay, lads, we'll stop and check for leaks.

On this particular job, we were working at 100 meters.

So, they pump into the chamber,

the equivalent pressure of 100 meters of water in heliox.

Which is a mix of helium and oxygen.

And then we are effectively at an equal pressure to the seabed.

That's a seal confirmed.

I'll continue with the blowdown.

As soon as you get a breath of helium gas,

you start speaking with a squeaky voice.

- Okay. Cheers, lads. - Yeah, mate.

The first 30 seconds is always quite humorous.

After that, the novelty wears off.

Okay, lads, we've reached depth. Blowdown over.

Thank you.

Sat is a very odd environment to live in.

There's very little privacy.

Your whole world seems to shrink to the size of the system.

Living in sat is extremely intense.

I think everybody copes with it differently.

Most divers have got two personas.

They've got their work persona and their home persona.

At home, I'm David, a father of three.

And Dave is a professional diver.

He, um...

He's responsible only for the job in hand.

Chris was definitely a little more anxious.

Not been sat diving long.

Trying to make sure that he is, uh, keeping up with everybody else,

that he has got all the right equipment, that he's not gonna embarrass himself.

But very conscious that people are watching his every move.

Quite a lot of pressure.

He wanted to look good for everybody. He wanted to be a good diver.

The best diver.

Before I got into sat diving,

I always, kind of, looked out at the North Sea

as the... The premiership of diving.

There's a lot of DSPs there. There's a lot of diving going on there.

And this particular job, the field we were working at

was about 12 hours steam away from Aberdeen.

So that... That puts you pretty much in the middle of the North Sea.

The North Sea can be unpredictable,

and the weather wasn't very good at the time.

The boat was moving around a fair bit.

The North Sea is definitely

one of the most dangerous environments in the world.

The water temperature's four degrees on the seabed,

which is a killer.

I realize there's dangers on the job. I realized that.

But Chris had reassured me continually that he would be safe.

That he wasn't in harm’s way.

I thought that he was happy in his saturation tank.

So, no, I didn't ever worry.

Aberdeen Control, Aberdeen Control. This is Topaz. Over.

Go ahead, Topaz. Over.

We are on live oil field. Block 22/14-B.

Holding, we have to start work immediately. Over and out.

- Ready? - Yeah, I'm ready.

Okay, everything is on zero.

One, four, five, six running.

Okay, that's all thrusters in DP mode.

I have two GPSs selected for reference systems.

Yeah.

Okay, Captain, we are on DP now.

Okay, boys, five minutes' notice to getting in the bell.

Well, the divers are my puppets, I'm the, uh...

The conductor of a small band, they are, uh, my hands and my feet.

And they, uh, essentially do what I ask them to do.

When the diver's in the water,

I am the most important person on the vessel.

And everyone will defer to me.

Okay, first man entering the bell.

Duncan was the bellman, he wouldn't be diving that night.

He'd be in the bell looking after the divers.

Dave Yuasa was diver one.

And Chris Lemons was diver two.

Bridge, that's bell off the system at 2013.

2013 off system.

Okay, boys, taking you down now.

Bridge, that's bell at surface at 2021.

Thank you, ROV. Coming through now.

Reached working depths of 90 meters.

When you're lifting the helmet onto the diver's head,

you're looking at their eyes.

You can then see if the diver's happy or frightened out of his wits,

because you can see more white than eyes.

At no point that evening was Chris anxious.

He was raring to go.

He wanted to prove that he was as good as everybody else.

Chris, here's the lights.

Here's the lights, Chris.

Bridge, that's diver two in the water at 2037.

That's you on onboard graph, Chris.

Duncan, tend to diver two's umbilical.

When the diver is out of the bell, he is completely reliant on his umbilical.

It gives him his hot water which he needs to keep him warm.

Gives him gas to breathe and also lighting and communication with the surface.

It is literally your lifeline.

Diver two, that's you clear to drop off the bell.

Dropping off the bell is one of my favorite parts of diving.

I love the feeling of weightlessness.

You're effectively flying down to the seabed.

If your visibility is bad, you really don't know

what you're dropping into.

Or when you're gonna be landing.

It's a dark and confusing place to be, on the seabed.

It can be extremely easy to get lost.

Diver two, the job should be

30 meters to your northwest.

The umbilical is your physical tether to the boat.

And if you ever need to get back to the bell

you will follow your umbilical.

That's your route back to safety.

In the dark it's almost harder to get to the job than to do the job.

The seabed plays tricks on you.

The first ten minutes is quite a stressful time.

I notice it in their breathing.

Bridge, both divers on the job at 2049.

The structure we're working on is called a manifold.

Inside there, you've got a number of, uh, wells.

The oil will come up out of the ground

and from there it gets piped off to a platform.

The job in hand was gonna be to remove, uh, a piece of pipe work.

And we were gonna float in a new piece into its place.

When you're working with divers you are almost reaching through the screen

and turning the knobs for them.

You do get emotionally involved with them.

You feel their successes and failures in the water.

And basically, you see A and B.

We're opening and closing them in a sequence.

And then doing a pressure test.

Once you've got your divers on the job,

as bellman, you can relax a bit more.

See what I've got in me sandwiches for half-time.

There's never a day I go to work and don't enjoy it.

Me first inspirations for diving,

were definitely from watching Jacques Cousteau on the TV

and thinking, "That is exactly what I would like to do."

Visiting coral reefs,

swimming along with all the animals.

It just looked absolutely superb.

It was a dream for me to be a diver

and go under the sea.

And, uh... Dave, you keep working on it, all right?

Go ahead, shut it.

Roger that.

Christopher came to diving a little bit later in life.

- He was looking for direction. - Normal reading.

No leaks.

Diving was something that he was extremely passionate about.

I would never have considered asking Christopher

to take a different career path.

Never.

That's what he wanted to do, that's what he was passionate about.

If I was as passionate about a job like that as Christopher was

then I wouldn't want anyone to stop me, so I definitely wouldn't stop him.

That night the weather was not good.

There was an 18-foot swell, 35 knots of wind.

We were on the limits of diving.

But it wasn't undiveable.

Weather was rough.

But in the North Sea, nothing special.

It was perfectly safe.

If you can call this job safe, it's not...

Come on, it's not safe job, yeah, so...

I was in charge for controlling DP computer.

Keeping vessel in, uh, exact position,

so divers can be safe in the water.

This moment, vessel was steady.

And then it started.

I saw alarm, which I never seen before.

Immediately, after this alarm,

more faults coming one by one.

We have really big, uh, big problem, because we are losing control of the...

Of the vessel.

We are losing position.

The bridge gave me an amber light.

Its suddenness and the immediacy of his voice told me

that, uh, this wasn't a normal amber light.

Leave everything there, leave everything there, Chris.

So, I wanted my divers back on the bell as quickly as possible.

Get out of the structure, boys.

Yeah. He's here at the bell, Duncan,

come up on diver one, diver two, back when you can.

Stand by to come up on diver one and diver two.

Roger that. No problem.

In a series of seconds, we had a red light.

I've never had a red light.

The bridge had lost control of the vessel and its navigational systems,

so it will drift with the weather.

And as soon as we got to that stage it was a sailboat.

I was surprised at how quickly the ship moved.

It rapidly picked up speed.

'Cause we had no control over the ship,

we had no control of what was happening on the bottom.

Divers were still connected to the, um, bell

and bell connected to the vessel.

So, basically, we can track diver.

It's... It's the worst scenario

which, uh, DP on diving support vessel can... Can expect.

Go back underneath the bell.

When we came out of the structure,

I was expecting the bell to be basically in front of me over here.

I could tell from the root of my umbilical

that in fact, it was now behind me

and the manifold itself is in between me and the bell.

They have to climb their umbilicals

up the side of the structure,

traverse across the top and climb their umbilicals back to the bell

to their safe haven.

But the, um, structure was the obstacle that they had to clear.

Hop up onto the structure, boys.

When I was nearly at the top,

I noticed that Chris didn't seem to be going any further.

I could tell something was wrong.

Chris had a loop of umbilical wrapped around this outcrop.

He was trapped.

It started to get tighter and tighter.

I've never seen an umbilical this tight.

Chris could see the tension in it. He was asking for slack out of the bell.

He couldn't get the slack out of the bell because the ship kept moving away.

Chris, we cannot give you any slack.

We've got an enormous ship, 120 meters long by 20 meters wide,

being pushed by 35 knots of wind.

And Chris was our anchor on the other end.

I didn't see a scenario where he was gonna get out of this.

Chris' umbilical went so tight, that it actually started pulling

his stainless steel umbilical right off the wall.

I was shitting myself.

I was literally waiting for the inevitable, it...

Just to all go through the hole in the floor.

And if I got between it and the hole, I would be going out with it.

Chris, you... You gotta clear that umbilical yourself.

I'm trying to make my way back to Chris to help him.

We're, maybe, less than two meters apart,

the visibility is good enough that we... We can look into each other’s faces.

I can see that he's in trouble.

But that's now me at the end of my umbilical.

And I can't get to him.

His umbilical is getting thinner.

I can hear it creaking.

It's the noise that something makes before it breaks.

- Lost comm to the diver two. - Help.

As I was getting pulled away from Chris,

it was almost like watching a film.

And that was the last I saw of him.

And I could hear his umbilical ripping...

as the strands in the umbilical broke one by one.

Bridge, we have lost all eyes on the job.

There was nothing I could do now to help Chris.

There was no way of getting back to him at that point.

Uh, I turn around and start climbing back to the bell.

There's a lot of resistance.

It felt like I was climbing back through a river.

I don't think I was thinking too hard about the tragedy that was unfolding.

At that point, my priority was to get back to the bell

and look after my own safety.

I'm worried that maybe I'm going to get pulled in

to another structure down there.

And I knew that if I got caught up in one of them,

it would've made a... A very, very bad situation a lot worse.

I was hoping I was pulling Chris in.

But in my heart of hearts I knew I wasn't.

Um... I knew there was nothing on the end.

Hot water hose came in first.

Broken and tattered at the end.

And I had another couple of wraps of umbilical to pull in

before the broken end of his gas hose came in.

Now, that is making a... Quite an immense noise.

I put my hand on the regulator to turn it off.

You never ever turn a diver's gas off when he's in the water.

It's tantamount to killing him.

I did feel as though I was letting Chris down.

That was the end of his lifeline to the bell.

I, um...

I could've cried at that point. I didn't know whether to be sick, cry,

whatever, I just shouted.

"I've lost me diver, I've lost me diver."

And, uh...

I didn't know what was happening to Dave, so...

I had to be sensible and pull myself back together.

I got back onto the stage, underneath the bell,

and I waited there.

That's when I had a little bit more time to think about what had happened

and... And what was going to happen.

In air diving, you've always got the option of, um,

of being able to swim up to the surface, but in sat diving,

the only place you can go, literally, the only place you can go...

is the bell.

Normally, you're connected to the bell by your umbilical,

but he's got no umbilical, so the bell isn't anywhere near him.

He's got no options at all.

I knew he was out there on his own.

And all he had was his two bailout bottles.

If we lost our main supply in an emergency,

we would have enough gas in the bottle on our back to get back to the bell.

It's not designed to keep you on the seabed for any length of time.

There's no other gas he can get to.

He's limited to what's in his bailout bottles.

And they're not that big.

It is literally five minutes.

We had a time critical window till we get back and recover Chris.

So, I got everybody up.

We need every mind focused in case we miss anything.

I was in the next team that was supposed to go diving.

And the life support supervisor came on the comms, quite serious,

and he said, "Stu, I've got a problem."

I said, "Well, does that make it my problem or is it just your problem?"

And he came back with, "We've left a diver on the manifold.

We're going to set in the medical gear, you're the diver medic,

just go and get ready."

There's always several diver medics in saturation.

You have to have one in each team.

Usually it's... It's cuts, it's grazes.

I was scared, because...

this was something that was so out of our normal working routine.

You don't want to have to be involved in something like that.

That's not gonna end well.

The situation was desperate,

and we're still out of control, drifting away from Chris.

Computers that control the dynamic positioning

weren't operational, they were redundant, all three of them.

Computer that was running the DP...

it failed.

The backup which ghosts it all the time...

it failed.

And the master computer, it failed as well.

So, you have a situation where the impossible has happened.

The vessel could not be controlled using the computers.

So, we are just drifting.

We have to try to...

To get back control.

Captain decides to take computer out of the loop

and use fully manual system.

This system is designed to use in a harbor

when you don't have waves, wind is not too much.

The bridge crew had to learn how to control the ship with, uh,

four thruster handles.

Problem is that they are installed on two, uh... Two consoles.

One man doesn't have four hands.

No one ever anticipated having to do this.

I never saw a captain and chief officer doing this before.

Sometimes it was going very well.

And then, was coming one, uh, big wave.

It was changing our heading again.

Bridge, you've gotta get us back over there.

They want us to be there quickly,

but, uh, we are doing what we can do.

In saturation, you start to get a bit of a sixth sense

for your particular vessel, the sounds it makes.

The engines were thrusting really heavily.

The boat was moving around in quite an erratic way,

it was moving from side to side.

And that was quite a rough ride on the bell.

I was constantly trying to calm myself down.

I knew Chris, I knew Morag,

I... I was wondering...

how we're gonna explain it to, uh, her.

"We went on a dive and he never came back."

Um...

Yeah, I was struggling to contain myself.

Even though I could work out that he's run out of gas,

I had to believe that Chris was still alive and recoverable.

First, we had to find him.

And the ROV was the only tool I had at the time that was functioning.

ROV, can you try and find my diver, please?

Now, the ROV can swim in the water

maybe 150, 200 meters away from the ship without too much problem.

So, we headed to the structure.

It was the most logical place to find Chris.

But we didn't know whether or not Chris was on top of the structure

or beside it, on the seabed below.

It was very long feeling when the ROV was flying, flying, flying.

It was explained to me that it was an idea to give

Chris, uh, some sign that we are coming back.

So, um, he can find extra energy power, um, to stay alive.

It was getting closer and closer

and I remember staring at the ROV screen, black and white,

asking, "Can anyone see anything?"

We willed that structure to appear.

Then, it appeared.

The ROV technician said, "Craig, he's all right."

I said, "How do you know that?"

And he said, "Well, he's... He's waving at us."

Before we arrive with ROV,

I was sure that we recover him, after this, I didn't know.

You have to remember that that's not just... Just some person.

That's the human you know, who was sitting, uh, next to you...

passing on the corridors.

One hand for the ship at all times.

There we go, health and safety.

He was coming to the bridge sometimes.

- Hey, Chris. How are you? - Very well, thanks.

- How are you? - Not bad, thanks.

Now you can see him absolutely alone.

A lot of people were shocked at the image.

But I took a massive boost out of that.

Well, for one, he was on top of the structure,

which was crucial for his recovery.

And he was twitching.

He was still alive.

We were still some distance away from where we needed to be.

And we still didn't have DP control of the vessel.

We were moving back to the structure manually...

which was very difficult.

The ship didn't seem to be making the progress as quickly as we thought

and everything was slowing down in time.

Slowly, but surely the twitching... it stopped.

And in my mind's eye, that was a final phase for Chris.

Some couldn't face the reality of it, they didn't want to be involved

in a situation that would, uh... Would be a very dark time.

I think all those thoughts were starting to run through people's minds,

"What happens next?"

After 25 minutes,

uh, we... We couldn't really find anything to grasp.

We were sure that he was...

It was going to be a body recovery.

It was odd being on the bell,

thinking about what had happened.

I don't remember being particularly upset about Chris, um...

Shit happens, he was a... He wasn't my best mate,

he wasn't one of my kids and, um, it was a diving job,

and it had gone wrong.

I started praying as hard as I could.

Um, I'm not a religious person at all,

but, uh...

In moments like that...

But at no point did I lower myself

to think that we weren't gonna get him back.

Definitely not.

There was no way where...

I was going to go home

and explain to Morag that Chris wasn't coming back.

We try everything to get DP system back online.

We never had first options and last options.

We never had checklist, what to do, step by step,

in case of problem like this.

It was more like brainstorm and, uh, trying everything what we can try.

One of the last options was to do hard reset.

There was nothing else what we can do.

And we wait.

We've gotta get a good card soon.

You know, we've pulled all the bad cards out,

we've gotta start getting some luck now.

Lucky for us, the system get back online.

Oh, it was amazing, good, uh, good news.

It was massive relief for me

and everyone on the bridge.

As soon as DP was back online

and we put vessel in, uh, auto mode,

we can move straight back to Chris.

But maybe we are too late.

Now we were making real progress.

We were getting closer and closer.

My adrenaline's still flowing. I wanna get it done.

I kept asking, "Are we nearly there yet?"

Dave was keen to go.

I... I remember holding him back.

Duncan, take up all of Dave's slack.

It's like having a dog on a leash.

Until I give him some slack, he can't go anywhere.

Craig was telling me the distance.

"You've got 50 meters to run."

"Thirty meters to run.

Twenty meters to run."

I could see the lights of the ROV.

I could see Chris.

Okay, Dave, you're clear to go.

I wasn't surprised by what I saw.

A dead guy on the roof of the manifold.

I knew that it was gonna be hard to get back to the bell.

The dead weight of Chris was very heavy.

The boat was moving up and down.

But I'm there to do my job and do what I'm told to do.

I wasn't thinking, "This is Chris Lemons.

This is the guy who's building a house.

This is the guy who's engaged to be married."

He's a thing that needs to be taken from one place to another.

I tried not to think Chris was dead.

Possibly deep down...

I had a thought he might have been.

I gave him two deep breaths.

I am just hoping with everything I've got

that I can bring him round.

That I am gonna make him breathe again.

It's very hard to communicate to people

quite what I went through and what I felt.

It's a time that I reflect on quite a lot.

I often try and put myself back in that position.

To jog my own memory,

or to try and recreate what happened,

because I have the same questions.

Thanks very much. Thank you, Cheryl.

Chris, we cannot give you any slack.

There was this very, very violent bang.

And then there was instant silence.

It's very disorientating when it's so, so dark.

It's the most absolute blackness I think I've ever seen.

All my efforts at that point were focused on finding my structure.

Getting to the top.

That was to make it easier for them to rescue me.

But, uh, I didn't know where I was. I couldn't see anything at all.

I was panicking.

There was a real danger of walking out in the wrong direction

to, effectively, no man's land...

and never be able to find your way back.

But I had to make a decision. I... I couldn't just stand there.

I had to choose a direction.

It came down, essentially, to pot luck from there on.

Then I bumped straight into the structure.

It was 11 meters above me, the platform that I needed to be on.

I'm expecting to see the lights of the diving bell above me.

There was nothing.

I was completely alone.

I've probably got five or six minutes in this bailout.

I must've used it for two or three minutes getting myself up here to the top.

Even if the diving bell had been directly above me,

it would've taken the remainder of the gas that I had left on my back

just to get back there, if I was lucky.

So, at that point, once you've calmed and done the maths,

you realize that your chances of...

Of getting out of this are almost non-existent.

The cold is something I don't have any recollection of feeling.

It doesn't make much sense, really,

because I know that I would've been very cold, very quickly.

I feel as though I can recount everything from that night,

but the fact that I don't remember being cold.

I begin to question how lucid I actually was.

If it didn't last all the time I thought it did.

Maybe I fell unconscious straight away.

I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry, Morag.

I... I was explicitly aware of what I was about to lose.

Uh, I have very vivid memories of thinking precisely that,

thinking I'm not gonna see... I'm not gonna see the...

The house I'm halfway through building, finished,

which we'd put so much into.

I'm not gonna see...

I'm not... I'm not gonna...

I'm not gonna see my wife on the...

On the day we get married, and...

It's, uh...

Why am I, a little boy from Cambridge, in the blackness, about to die?

There's nothing to hide behind, you know. That's the moment you're going.

What sort of person are you?

Were you scared or are you just telling yourself that you weren't?

Were you calm?

'Cause I'm not so sure.

My thoughts drifted away to the damage I was gonna do.

Our hopes and dreams.

- All these plans we had for the future... - Yeah.

About to be dashed.

I... I can remember it becoming harder to breathe.

Harder to suck down the air that you want.

I remember feeling it was coming.

And then... And then nothing.

I knew we'd got him.

He was gonna live.

I was just so elated.

At that point, I didn't know if he had any brain damage,

I didn't know if he'd be the same Chris.

I didn't know if he'd ever speak again,

but I knew he was breathing. He was alive.

And he got stronger with every breath.

I can remember flashing lights.

Something wasn't quite as it should be.

It was very reassuring to see Duncan.

He's been a bit of a father figure to me in many ways throughout my career.

It's very comforting to see a friendly face.

I'd decided that he was more than likely dead.

I think I'd started to come to terms with the fact that he was dead

and that we'd recovered a body.

Camera's back...

I... I got into the bell. I could see Chris sat down there.

And, um, he was definitely not dead.

That was very confusing.

I mean, I remember asking...

Chris, you all right, buddy?

And he said, "Yeah."

He seemed fine.

It was an extraordinary moment.

A lot of people were relieved.

Obviously, for Chris's sake...

but also for their own personal well-being.

They didn't wanna be involved in a diving fatality,

and now they weren't.

I remember almost feeling a little bit pissed off with him.

In the same way that when you've...

If you have a child that wanders off when they're not meant to,

and you're frantically looking for them, when you do find them,

as well as the relief you've got, you've also got a little bit of anger.

'Cause they've put you through something...

that's been quite traumatic.

That's the bell on the surface.

It wasn't until I went and had a shower

that I realized how exerted I must have been.

I remember trying to wash my hair,

um, in the shower and my hands were cramping up,

and my hands were like claws. My fingers were stuck.

And that's when I thought, "I've, um... I've worked hard today."

Down at the bottom door.

All right. Dave, I'll come and talk to you later. Thanks for your help.

- Okay. - Yup.

I couldn't have felt more proud of, uh, myself and Dave that day

for what we achieved in that bell.

I did my job.

And I would expect nothing less, and the divers did their jobs,

and the bridge crew did their jobs. Everyone did their jobs,

so, you know, you don't pat yourself on the back for that.

You turned up that day and that's what you get paid for.

Last man leaving the bell.

Dave and Duncs, they'd done enough.

It was our job to look after him from that point on.

I, for one, couldn't believe we'd got away with it.

I couldn't believe that he was just gonna...

We're gonna warm him up, put a tea cozy on his head,

and he's gonna be good to go.

That... That was incredible to me.

I can remember, after everything had calmed down,

we were doing hourly checks,

and I thought he was kind of just...

not dozing, quite, but he was relaxing.

And, uh... And... The only...

I'll have to do that one again. Sorry. Yeah.

Hmm. Yeah.

The only time I ever...

felt serious, um...

I was just halfway through taking his pulse,

and he just kinda looked over at me, he said, "Stu, do you know it's okay?"

I said, "Uh, yeah, I know you're okay. Yeah."

He said, "No, no, it's okay. I was just...

I was just drifting off to sleep, you know,

I was kinda sad for a bit, but then...

I was cold, and I got a bit numb, but it was, like, falling asleep.

It's not that bad."

That was the only time that, uh, anything really got emotional for me,

and that point was... It kinda hit home

that he had basically...

He decided he was gonna die.

He's, uh... trying to tell me that dying's okay.

And that really... That really got to me.

How I survived is a very good question.

I... I don't think I will ever really know.

I always assumed that the lowering of my body temperature

effectively shut me down and allowed me to survive

on what minimal oxygen remained in my system.

Also, I'm fairly certain that the high levels of oxygen

which we carry, you know, emergency breathing gas,

saturated my tissues effectively with oxygen

and allowed my organs to keep functioning

even though I had nothing left to breathe.

These are all theories, though. Beyond that, um,

I'm... I'm still waiting for someone to...

To give me the right answer. I... I'm not sure I'll ever know.

I received that phone call that everyone dreads.

Your whole world falls apart.

Just kept picturing him

lying there on the... The bottom of the ocean, helpless.

That's always, you know, when it happens to...

Something like that happens to someone that you love...

I couldn't get that image out of my head.

It didn't matter that he was speaking to me and telling me that he had survived.

I needed to physically touch him and see him.

It dawned on me that we're going to be okay,

we were going to be able to realize those hopes and dreams,

and live our life together.

There's one person in the room in here who's definitely gonna hate this.

He's probably one of only two men in this room who's given me

a decent kiss on the lips.

There's diver two in the water at 91 meters.

Hey, Chris. Don't fuck it up this time.