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Stretchable.

What do you mean by stretchable?

Daddy's hard. You can't move him.

He gets mad and that's it.

Mommy gets mad too, but she's more like putty.

She gets mad too.

That's when it's the most stretch.

Putty, I wonder, how is it that you stretch her?

You just... Can I talk now, please?

Is it okay if Mommy talks?

Yep. Okay.

I'm not stretchable.

I'm not putty.

That's her experience of you. That isn't true. I try very hard to be in control

of her and everything, but maybe I'm not even going to be there at all.

Well, perception is reality, so... Also, I don't get sad.

You seem sad right now.

You do seem sad right now. We're here to talk about how to get you better. All

we do is talk about me.

I can be sad. I mean, I'm allowed to be sad, right?

Well, of course.

But you must know that this is all tangled up together, and you of all

should know. I know, I know. But this isn't how things are

going to get better.

Mommy, please don't cry. No, no. Then I'll cry.

We want the tube removed.

No, you can't kill me!

No, she won't do what she has to do because she knows that she has the

net.

Things are not stable enough right now. It's clear that we have different goals.

You want her to get better before the tube can be removed. I think the tube

needs to come out and then she can get better.

We all have the same goal here.

But... What I'm learning as we're talking all together is that you and I

spend some time, just the two of us, without her here, to talk about some

serious issues.

I'm going to need you to restart the two feedings at night, and I need you to

start... Did you get the kind with no cheese? I can't explain this to you

time, sweetie. They would just laugh at me and say it's bread, okay?

I'll take the cheese off when we get home, of course.

Is it the kind with the little green and black things in the sauce?

It's the same kind we always get.

That kind has the things in the sauce. I can't, I can't eat it.

Like, can you, like, scrape it off and put it in the cup? You don't even want

the two batters. It's just me who wants it out. You have to be.

Jesus.

Oh. Oh.

You got it your way. No cheese.

Did you will that to happen? Are you some kind of witch or something?

Okay, straight to the table.

Actually, no, wash hands first and then straight to the table. I don't have to

go to the bathroom, though.

No one's making you go to the bathroom. I'm just asking you to wash your hands,

please, like we always do.

Is Daddy coming?

Where's Daddy?

He said maybe bedtime.

Where did he go again?

He just got back, though.

Are you done?

Yeah.

I did have to go to the bathroom.

Okay.

Yeah. The bathroom has water in it.

Okay, that's good.

No, I need it on the floor.

Come quickly!

Are you coming?

Mommy!

Oh my god.

What?

Why didn't you tell me as soon as we came in here?

I just noticed.

Because I had to go to the bathroom so bad.

I don't like how it feels on my sock.

Where's it coming from?

How deep is it?

Are we going to die?

Is the house going to fall on top of us?

Mommy, can you lift me up and carry me out?

Yeah, just stay there, okay? Hold on.

Mom, why are you leaving me?

Please stay on the toilet, okay?

Peace out.

is familiar or real ever every time i feel this way i get further and further

away from being in myself and i i can never get back when you think about time

how do you see it how do i see time um time is

a series of things to get through each goal is a cliff there's nothing at the

end of it but then it comes and And there's just another cliff.

You know about holotropic breathing?

Uh -uh.

Yo, this shit is lit.

Basically, you trick your brain into thinking it's dead, and you see the

universe. You know what I'm saying? So you don't feel the paranoia and guilt.

Something's wrong.

I mean, I've got a friend who does, like, radiation like that.

Nah, see what I'm saying? This is like hyperventilating. When you die, they say

you let off this chemical, and when you're dreaming, you let off the same

chemical. It's sort of like that, you know? You make your brain think it's

but... Being brain dead is still alive.

Holographic, Rutherford?

Holotropic. Holotropic.

Is that real?

What?

The dead brain thing?

Oh, yeah. I mean, shit.

I guess anything could be real.

Anything could be bullshit, too.

You know what I'm saying?

But you know that feeling like when you're not...

Yeah?

Are you making fun of me?

Miss, I don't even know you.

Okay. Um, yes on these, but no on the wine.

Why?

The law prohibits me from selling you this one right now.

But it isn't even two.

It's $1 .58.

Right, but... By the time I ring these up, it will be back, too.

Huh.

Um... I'll just get the peanut butter cup to put them in my room.

Will do.

I can't talk about this anymore. I'm telling you, please.

Hey, hey, look, if that's what Dr. Spring thinks is best, then we have to

to Dr. Spring. There is no we, though. It's just me.

It's not fair.

I'm telling you. Fair?

Listen, I'm working, all right? I'm dealing with a lot of assholes. You have

idea.

I know, I know. The problem with that logic, though, is that I'm not a

housewife. I work, too. Mommy.

Mommy, this hotel is gross. Good morning.

Disgusting.

Wow.

You guys look just like twins. Anybody ever tell you that?

No, you're the first person to notice and or say that.

Everyone says that.

Hey, cutie.

Want to see a trick?

Yeah.

Whoa.

How'd you do that?

Mommy you should take it. She's never gonna eat it

Yeah

to love you?

No. You can train them to love you.

Well, I would love if you would finish your bacon. That way I can tell

you got 100 % on breakfast.

And once they love you, you can get them to do everything, including tricks.

Let's start with one bite.

You've missed the last few weeks of family sessions.

Yeah.

I told you what happened. Our entire ceiling fell down, and with all that

and we're living out of the hotel.

Uh, so we need to schedule something as soon as possible to talk about our goals

and the treatment process. Yeah, yeah. Okay, yeah.

Uh... Yeah.

Mm -hmm. Mm -hmm.

Oh, you meant now.

Okay. All right.

Um... Well... Uh... Let me look at my schedule.

I should probably do that. I know that you already know this, but you can't

start letting feelings of guilt and control about this illness and treatment

affect you.

It's no one's fault.

That's right. That's what I keep hearing.

Also, I really need you to start taking care of yourself.

Yes. No. Put my oxygen mask on first. Mm -hmm. Mm -hmm. I'm just going to have

to get blunt here.

She needs to reach her weight goal in the next week.

If she does that, then we can put tube removal and discharge dates on the

But if she doesn't do that, I'm going to have to reassess the level of care,

because obviously something is not working here, and this is what I need to

to you about.

When can we sit down properly?

Yeah, fine.

September 7th.

It's September 15th.

September 20th.

I mean, September...

September 20.

Hey!

Hey!

I told you not to do that, and the next time I will report you to the building.

We have no authority to report me. You won't be allowed in the lot. I'll have

you closed. I'm not in there long enough for this.

Whatever.

The apartment is a 13 -minute walk, but I might as well be on Mars.

I just, like, every time I go check, it looks worse, and I have no control.

Have you tried discussing a compromise with your landlord?

Perhaps they could section off the room with the hole.

Then you could live freely in the rest of the apartment.

Live freely with asbestos and 100 -year -old dust in black mold spores.

That's your advice.

It's not advice.

It's a question to consider.

I should really...

show you this hole it's an entire nightmare on my ceiling

when does charles return this is week three of eight i mean

you should know that don't you write things down it's your job to remember

boring details of my fucking life we do have to stop now we are out of time i

have another patient coming so wait now what about the 10 minute warning yeah i

Just wasn't paying attention. You didn't respond to the email that I sent you

about my dream.

I don't respond to my clients' dream emails.

Okay, so if you don't bring it up, then what is the point?

Okay, you got me. I had a dream, and I need to talk about it today, and I

get any time because you didn't give me a warning.

We can discuss the dream you emailed the next session.

Well, it's actually a different dream.

Well, I don't really... About you.

Okay, quickly.

Okay. I was in a hospital day room or a recreation room or something, and I knew

my daughter was also in the hospital, but far away, another part.

And it didn't look like the hospital she was in.

Last year, though, when everything happened, it was different. It was

I was waiting for Charles to come get me so we could pick her up. But instead,

you were there and you wanted to sit really close to me. And I was like

away from you on the bench and you kept inching closer.

And I got my phone out to text Charles because I was nervous he'd come in and

he'd see. And then you tried to grab the phone and then you started to...

to try to get me to drop it.

And I was like, I was really enjoying it. But I was so scared that Charles

come in and he would see.

All right.

OK.

All right. You got to tell me.

We'll talk about it next time.

OK?

We won't talk about it next time.

You know that.

There's no thread.

There's no thread at all.

Yes?

What now?

Hi, yes, so sorry, have to leave, stop work.

What?

Okay.

Okay,

what is the issue then? Can you tell me? This has been going on for so long. Do

I need to get a new contractor?

It's spread.

It's full. It's very full. You understand? Very full. Spread?

Not easy to explain.

Not my language.

Sorry,

what? I don't understand those words.

How long will you be grieving for your mother?

I need a date, OK? It needs to be fixed. Just give me a date. My husband and I

will be returning to. I'll be back in one week.

OK, well, fine. I'm going to be going there and checking on what you've done

far. And I'm going to be taking pictures.

I can see you now.

I'm really happy to hold this silent space for you, but as usual, I am

as to what you might be thinking about.

It's all I can think about.

Tell me what's going on.

Well, I keep telling you. It's like I keep saying to his doctor. He doesn't

smile. He looks at me weirdly, and he's just very uncomfortable all of

the time, and no one will do anything about it.

You know what I would love and what I think would be extremely helpful is if

could come to a session without Riley.

I think it would be... I know you think you can't. I can't. But I think if you

got a sitter who you trusted... Did you hear about that nanny in New York?

The mom came home from work and the nanny had stabbed both of her kids to

in the bathtub.

That is real.

That happened.

A situation like that is very...

Very, very unusual, okay? Most people have caregivers who can trust, but...

Well, I believe you can. I just think you don't want to or you're afraid, so

let's stick to what's impractical. I need to protect him.

From something specific?

Because something very bad is happening.

One second, I just have to... This could be about my daughter.

I'm so sorry.

Yeah, look, look, I'm not Riley's doctor, so I can't speak

to what may or may not be going on with him. We can only talk about your

feelings, about what you perceive is going on with Riley, which is why I do

believe medication... I'm not perceiving it. It is happening.

And I feel... Awful about it.

Okay, listen.

When you're having these feelings of deep panic at home with Riley, just put

in his crib or carrier or somewhere safe and draw a bath.

Just breathe until your heart isn't racing anymore.

Come out and get dressed.

Start the day over again.

Put on some real clothes.

These feelings that you're experiencing, they're very, very, very scary.

Okay? Very dark.

And that's why you need to keep moving.

You need to keep going.

You need to be busy.

You can't sit inside the fear and doubt and scariness.

Directly before the judge read Ortega her sentence, she begged for forgiveness

for her unspeakable crime. She stated she was sorry for what the judge had

called pure evil.

She then spoke about how untreated mental illness was to blame. The judge

not convinced.

She will be serving life in prison with no possibility of parole.

Same.

You would not believe what I have entered.

Okay, so, I don't know if you recall, but there was this pair of absolutely

Davoonianca Davoon gorge leather gloves that I saw on the reel -reel.

I wake up this morning, banned.

Banned. Yeah.

I know.

some cheese today.

Daddy,

can I get a hamster? I already told you, you're not getting a hamster.

No, no, no, no, no. She's not getting a hamster. She's not getting a hamster.

Where are you? I hear something weird.

Oh, yeah, Dad, I'm catching a game.

A game? Yeah, yeah, we got here this morning and there's a minor league team

here on the island where we go. That must be nice, huh? Doing things

What's that like?

I told you, it's a rodent. And just something to look after for no reason.

Please, please don't ask again. And don't ask daddy things I already say no

Dr. Springfield, this is a big week.

Did she tell you that?

Yeah. I think you can do it.

But I'm already doing it my best.

I know, but you have to do a little better, and we can get rid of this

and everything will be okay.

I'll be better.

Okay, well... It's not up to me.

It's up to you.

What book can I read you tonight?

I'm too tired.

Just a song.

Okay, what song?

The Dead Whale One.

Sit beside the

breakfast table.

Think about your troubles.

Pour yourself a cup of tea.

Think about the bubbles.

You can take your teardrops and drop them in a teacup. Take them down to the

riverside. And throw them over the thigh.

To be swept up by a current. And taken to the ocean.

And be swallowed by some fishes.

And be eaten by some fishes.

And swallowed by a whale.

You're so old.

You decompose.

I don't mean to say we're all robots, but I wonder if you had been raised the

way your mother had been raised. I mean, she had a father who just took off,

didn't come home.

Then another man entered her mother's life, and she became attached to him,

he bailed out.

You know what you're saying.

I did have that phone line.

Very similar.

Okay, my question is, if you had been raised as your mother had been raised,

you think you probably would have knocked your kids around too?

See how many you can catch now. Okay, okay, okay. Open.

Wait.

Was this in my room, please?

Definitely before, too.

I'm going to need to see your ID, ma 'am.

You've never asked me that before.

Ma 'am, I'm going to need to see your ID.

You really want me to go all the way back up to my room, get my ID, and come

the way back down here?

It's a rule.

Aren't you only on the second floor anyway?

When is this the fucking rule? You should find my ID. Ladies, ladies,

It's behind you.

Ladies!

I'm not going back behind you. Ladies, whoa, whoa.

Ladies, calm it down, bro. I don't fucking know.

It's not that deep.

She's fucking barking at me. Just use my ID, bro.

I can't do that. Why not?

I can't use your ID for her wine.

Well, then, it's my wine.

She's just paying for it.

Name's Jamie, by the way.

Got a like?

Not interested.

In what?

I need to be alone.

Who the hell?

Motherfucking thank you would have been nice, man.

Outside, just getting some fresh air. I don't like it when you leave her there

by herself.

Even for a second, it isn't safe.

I'm just outside for a minute, getting some air. You know, the windows don't

open in there.

Stop everyone from killing themselves, obviously.

All right, yeah, yeah, yeah. But what if she wakes up and she's scared? Yes, she

never wakes up. And anyway, I have someone at the hotel now.

Babysitter. Really? Where'd you find a babysitter? Who is it? His name's James.

His name is James?

He's a male babysitter?

Did you call...

call me a bad mother or what i mean you have no idea what it's like not to be

able to go outside even for a minute by yourself you can go outside whenever you

want to you can go wherever you want to the machine doesn't fucking stop and

there's nothing to do oh my god who is the one who went to a baseball game

and who is the one who filled her bag with gloop 500 times saw patients picked

her up had to do dinner where she only got 20 and then had to try to do this

look i gotta go the reception's really bad here everything's fine

Here are pics of Holt.

Forgot to send today. I went during lunch.

What is movie?

Babies, zombies, babies, mothers, eating babies.

Here's what I found. A court has reopened in...

24 years after Meryl Streep portrayed

the Australian mother wrongly jailed for killing her child.

Chamberlain has always insisted...

If you want this, if you want that, come to my sugar stack.

Hey, hey, hey, you know what would be super fun and like a really, really big

kid type of thing to do?

I can't hear you. I said, you know what would be super fun and a big kid type of

thing to do?

What? I dropped you in front of the door. Go and find yourself. Oh, my God,

that's so cool of you.

No. Why not?

All the moms locked in. Here, Mom.

No problem. No problem. Thank you. Okay.

Exciting news. Guess what? Guess what? Eva will walk you in.

Go. Go. Go.

Mommy, I'm scared. Make sure you don't leave. I need you.

I need to be with you.

I'm your mama, okay?

Please. Please. You are my mama.

I'm going to look at him. Dave, you do it.

that if you touch a baby bird, the mama bird will not come back if they don't

touch them.

That must have been some dream. I'm not done.

You kissed me.

I said you kissed me.

Yes, I heard you. In your dream, I kissed you.

Yeah, and then the next day, I felt... crushing guilt.

And I knew somehow that your husband had called me an asshole.

You know, Steven, we can talk about these feelings apart from your dreams.

But... I

can't help it if in my dreams you always want to kiss me.

What's the difference between going outside on hotel property when she's

sleeping and going all the way home?

In one, I guess I'm just a regular mom making a shitty choice, and in the

I'm a straight -up shitty mom.

Well, it's not my role to decide whether you should or whether you should not.

No, no, no, no, no. I shouldn't. I know I shouldn't. I shouldn't even leave her

for a second.

It is your job to say.

Just tell me not to do it.

Tell me what to do.

I don't think you want me to tell you what to do.

You know what to do. No one will tell me what to do. I'm supposed to know how to

fix this. I'm supposed to know how to fix her.

What is it you think it's your job to fix?

She has to weigh 50 pounds by next week. Dr. Spring said that's a gain of 2 .5

pounds. Right? Each day is supposed to be 2 ,500 calories in, compensating for

her resting rate at 1 ,800 calories burned. That's got to be at least 80 %

each meal for seven days, plus the tube, and that's if she just lays still all

day. And if it doesn't, then something about not getting the tube out and

reassessing the level of care. I mean, what do I do? I would like you to get a

good night's sleep.

So would I, but I'm asking you a thing, an actual thing, a problem to fix, and I

need help with this. Am I supposed to just sit around and watch it fail and

is just going to go on forever? What do I do?

Okay, that means there's no drinking, there's no drugs, there's no... Are you

listening to me?

Why don't I like you?

I know you want to answer me. Just forget it.

That is incredibly unfair.

Why is this so important to you right now?

I just want someone to tell me what to do.

Oh, my God. Maybe his name should be S'mores.

That's really nice.

I said don't open the box.

I just want to see him. He's scratching.

He doesn't like being in the box.

He's trying to get out. Can you hold it closed, please, and keep it closed?

He's scratching me.

He's supposed to love me. Close the box. I can't.

Mommy, he's getting out.

Hand it to me.

Hand it to me. He's going to jump out. Give it to me. I can't see. Give it to

me.

We don't have to change information.

What? My kid is in that car. Do you hear her crying, huh? You scared her to

death, you dick.

Hey, mom, it was barely just a tap.

Don't fucking call me mommy. She thought we were going to die. Don't fuck with

me about my child's safety.

Huh? Give me all your information.

What the fuck is that?

I miss you. Come back here.

Everything is under control.

You know that I love you and I think you're the best and so

proud of you for everything and you can do it and you're almost all better.

Stop, I just love you too much.

You smell like wine.

Hello?

Because, um, if this is an emergency, you need to hang up and... It's, it's

an emergency. I just, I forgot to call you yesterday.

What?

Well, you told me to take Riley for a walk after I took a bath and calmed

and, and I did it, and I forgot to call you.

Oh, okay, yes. Um, well, uh, that's good.

And, um,

uh... I do feel, though, that I should tell you that this number is really for

emergencies only.

Okay?

Oh, I'm sorry. I just couldn't sleep thinking that you were worried.

I wasn't worried.

You weren't? You weren't thinking about me?

I said that you could call me if you couldn't calm down. Not that you had to

call me. But are you safe, Caroline?

Are you...

Okay, well, let's talk about this in session, okay?

I'm sorry, I'm obviously bothering you. It is not your fault, and I'll see you

next week.

Well, can I come in tomorrow?

It's just waiting until next week seems too long.

Well, let me check my schedule, and I will text you a time, okay?

Are you fucking kidding me? Shit.

Hello?

Hello?

Hello?

Hello? Is anyone here doing their job?

Want some help with that?

No trick.

Got a knife.

Sweetie? Little Bear, open up. It's Mommy.

Little Bear.

Open up.

The fuck's your problem? What?

Whoa. What, you infested me or something?

What are you talking about? Don't flatter yourself.

Why are you looking at me? What do you want? I don't want you just sitting

outside and by yourself. Some creep might walk past us. What creep?

How the fuck do I know a lady? There's creeps all over this place. Don't call

lady. My bad, miss.

Don't call me miss. Don't. Just don't.

Male.

Proud. Yeah.

Slag. Oh, my God.

Your thottiness.

Housewife.

At this point, I don't even know what to refer to you as. I'm going to just call

you female.

Yo, crazy pants.

I was going to partake in surfing the web for some things that I'm into, if

catch my drift. And just putting it out there, you're more than welcome to join.

No pressure. Just saying.

What kind of stuff?

Like.

Where you can buy people and stuff?

I don't know.

Never bought a person, so... But you could? Or sell one?

I mean, I guess so, but I don't come on the dark web searching for that kind of

shit, so... Aren't there places on there where people, like, show each other

videos of murders and people that are holding caps?

Can we change the subject?

Let's buy drugs. Let's get some shit, right? Come on. What do you want? What

you into?

I don't know. Do they have, like...

Cocaine or something?

When was the last time you tried cocaine?

What do you mean? It's a very popular drug. I like it.

All right, well, I'm getting Molly, so we'll get both.

The thing is, I don't get paid till next week, so I need you to cover me.

Oh, oh, no, no, no. I see what this is about. Where are you going?

I'm going back to my room.

For what? You don't even have a key. Besides, your daughter's passed out.

desk lady's definitely in a coma by now.

Calm down.

Come sit down. Let's order.

Jeez. I could put it on my credit card, I guess.

What? No.

The 400. I could put it on my credit card. No, no. See, man, it can't be

back to you. It has to be anonymous.

Oh. Then how do you pay for the stuff?

All right.

What we could do is we could go to a pharmacy or something real quick and put

on, like, one of those gift cards. Or maybe you got Bitcoin or crypto or some

shit like that. No, I don't have any of that stuff. And I can't get in a car and

leave my daughter alone in the middle of the night.

You leave your daughter alone all the time. No, I don't. That's just if I go

the field.

Ha! I literally seen you leave your daughter alone myself with my own two

What are you?

Are you stalking me or something?

Concerned citizen.

I mean, takes a village, right?

I'm not sure how we can talk about anything helpful if you won't even look

the eye.

You asked me for this extra session.

No, I can't.

He must be so mad at me.

Mad at... Oh, because you called me? No, no, no. I'm not mad at you.

Let's move on.

Please.

You have a daughter.

Why didn't you ever tell me?

Well, this isn't about me.

But now I know that you know.

You know.

I don't know.

You need to tell me.

It's not your fault.

But it is mine.

Okay. You know, Caroline, I think that it may be time that we consult with

someone about some medication for you.

I can't take medication. I'm breastfeeding.

You want me to kill my baby?

Of course not. I just think if a doctor thinks it could be beneficial, then

maybe we need to prioritize your health over

breastfeeding. Just right now.

You know, you need to take care of yourself so you can take care of Riley.

I have to go to the bathroom.

Well, we only have... 15 minutes left i have to go now

okay well would you can you wait till after the session no

Obsession. So, my patient, she has this baby, and she said she was going to the

bathroom, and then she left the baby with me, and she's gone. I'm with a

patient. Please, I need your help. I really need your help. I'm with a

Also, I'm not your supervisor. This was a professional issue. This is not a

treatment issue.

Jokey, this is an emergency.

Whatever's happening in here is not as important as what I'm going through

I need your help. Goodbye. This is an emergency.

You can go back.

Hello? Hello, hello, hello. Yes, hello. I am your wife's psychotherapist, and

she left today in the middle of her appointment, and I...

middle of her appointment today and um you gotta stop you gotta stop i have no

idea what you're even talking about who is this uh is your wife named caroline

prim and you are um your baby's name is riley and you're your next friend okay

yes right well my wife doesn't have a therapist okay well she has been my

patient at the center for psychological arts in montauk since she was about six

months pregnant with riley and um today well this is news to me well

whether

You knew that she was my patient or not. What I'm trying to say to you is that

this is an emergency, and I really... She left your baby here with me, and I

need you to come and pick him up. What do you mean?

What do you mean?

What do you mean what I mean? She's not answering her phone.

She's probably in the bathroom by a fucking vending machine. Okay. I suggest

that you call her. Maybe she would pick up if it was you. I'm going to text you

my address to come and get the baby.

Jesus Christ. I'm sure she's okay. I'm sure she's okay. I cannot...

I'm sure she's okay. You know, this is so fucking typical of her.

Okay, well, she probably just needed some space.

I'm going to text you my address.

So you can come and get her. Listen to me. Listen to me.

I'm at work right now.

I am at work right now. That's why she's supposed to be taking care of the

fucking baby, so I can work.

Okay? Here's what I'm going to do. I'm going to text you my address. I'm going

to dance it. You can drop the baby off anywhere. I'm sorry.

Well, I can't.

I am very concerned about your wife. This is an emergency.

You know, you've used that term twice now.

This isn't my emergency.

I'm not the one who lost my fucking wife. I need you to come down here and

your baby immediately.

And if you're not here within a half an hour, I'm going to call the police. I

will text you the address. Thank you very much.

Yes?

May I come in?

I'm expecting a patient.

I just buzzed in.

Would you mind waiting in my office down the hall just a few moments?

Your office?

Who are you, the boss?

No, just another therapist.

I have an office. It's down the hall. Door is open. You'll see it.

This is my time. She's mine right now. You can't make me wait.

Okay, this is an emergency situation.

You can either wait in my office or you need to leave the building entirely.

Is that a baby?

Is that your baby? You have a baby? I mean, do you guys have a baby together?

Okay, this situation does not concern you, okay? Make a choice.

Okay, I'll be in your office, but I won't wait that long.

I mean, can you believe that I got talked into getting this fucking hamster

after all of that?

My God, I... She's right. I really am so stretchable. It's disgusting.

You know, when I was in medical school, I had to do a stint in a medical

experiments lab, and we were testing the efficacy of a drug on rats.

Oh, I... So cool. And it worked.

is we'd take the rats and we'd drop them in this guillotine thingy,

chop their heads off individually, peel the skin back,

and then look at their brains under a microscope.

I'm just so curious about the process of that. The rats,

the steel chainmail gloves, German, they're beautiful.

So you'd put on the glove and you'd put your hand in the cage.

The rats would just attach themselves to the glove, like clinging for dear life,

you know?

And then when you got to the guillotine box, you had to shake them off.

Really shake them.

I was always worried that the rat would get hurt when it hit its head on the

guillotine, you know?

But their brains were always fine when we looked down at the microscope.

Oh.

Rodents are resilient creatures.

Mm -hmm. Yeah.

I'll tell Steven your session's canceled.

You have to take care of this.

I love you.

Just tell me, was she suicidal, homicidal?

Nope. Mm -mm, no. No, she was obsessed with protecting the baby.

And, uh...

Yeah, she wouldn't hurt the baby.

And she didn't talk about suicide. She wouldn't abandon Riley.

She just did abandon him.

Right. Well, you know, I mean, you know, permanently, forever.

Is that it? I have another patient waiting who really needs my help.

It's fine.

It's more common, you think?

A woman tries to run away from all the responsibilities, everybody gets all

upset, and they come back with their tail in their legs.

Hi, it's me again, your tenant from 22 Algonquin, Unit 1, you know, the one

the giant fucking hole in the ceiling.

Your repairs guy ran off and it's getting worse and I want to know why

doing nothing and why you're happy for my daughter and I to be staying a flop

house full of freaks while I continue to pay your rent. And I have a very, very,

very important patient that is a prominent lawyer and I am not afraid

Visa gift cards. What denominations do you have?

Do you have a minute to talk before the children come out? Sure. Okay, come.

So, I've noticed that you still haven't made the appointment for family therapy

like we discussed the other morning. It's not assistant so crazy at work.

So, I can't stress to you enough how important this is.

I'm on your side here.

Yes. Yes, yes, I understand.

We need her off the machine.

Yes, so do I.

Okay, I'm going to be frank.

We need her off of it as soon as possible for her to remain here.

And to do that, she needs to gain faster.

Okay, well, but we have until next week, right? The 50 -pound goal.

No. The way things are going, she's not going to make that goal.

What do you think?

We do weigh -ins every morning. She's not going to make the goal. Because the

goal you set was impossible.

We were set up to fail.

It's unrealistic.

We're going to have to reassess the level of care.

What does that mean?

Well, we can discuss it in our meeting.

You know what I would love and think would be so good is if we could get a

on the calendar for the surgery.

A concrete goal that we can all work towards. It's not a surgery.

The tube removal? Well, a procedure? Whatever you call it.

It's not a procedure either.

When it's time to remove it, the doctor just pulls it out.

Pull it out?

Yeah, it just slides out.

They can just really just pull it out?

Yeah, it's that simple.

But what happens to the hole?

It closes up on its own.

Oh.

It's kind of like when you get a cut on your tongue.

It wants to close up.

Oh.

Oh, hi.

Is James here?

Who are you?

I'm his neighbor.

I'm there, in that room there.

He's not here.

Oh, do you know when he'll be back?

I just have something to give him.

Give it to me. I'll see who gets it. No, no. I have to give it to him myself.

It's a value.

A value.

Yeah.

A value.

in with yourself.

Right now, your only job is to breathe.

We're in the work phase of this breath.

The more you relax your body right now, the easier it gets for you.

Recognize we're accessing the body's wisdom, so let your mind go.

Mind your attention within the movement of your breath.

Start noticing any sensation in your body.

And see what catches your interest or your curiosity.

And hold this place in a way you want to be held. You probably notice any

movement. The intensity builds up in your body.

And that's okay.

Rather than find what's going on.

I'll be quick because I have to get back, but I just had to show someone

going on in here.

Okay.

There's a room filled with plastic art everywhere.

Nice. So, is this your kid room?

I told you. The fucking ceiling fell down.

What the fuck is that?

That's it. That's the hole. That's why I'm at the hotel. That's why you're

staying at the fucking hotel?

Oh, my God. Come on. You could have slept on your couch for a couple of

What? Look at it. It's been two months, and they refuse to fix it.

There's dust and mold everywhere.

Hmm.

So, what's up there?

forever.

They said a pipe burst.

Oh, shit. It's right there. There you go.

I did the, you know, the thing, the breath thing. What?

I think it took me here.

I think. Maybe. Maybe.

That's why I wanted to come and see it. Man, you need guidance with that shit.

You can't just be doing it.

What? What are you doing? Man, they lied to you, sis.

It ain't even no pipe for me. Shh.

Look. Come see.

It's a clean break, I'm telling you. Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

What the fuck?

Man, my cousin Craig is a general contractor.

You know somebody that knows somebody that can fix this shit. God, Jiffy, yo.

You look like you got some, uh, like, debris on your furniture. You know how

debris will post in?

It's gonna post you. I said no!

James?

The topic today is something that's so fundamental that it's actually a little

silly to talk about.

But it is so important to your child's recovery. And more than that, to your

ability to help your child recover.

Can anybody guess what it is?

Blame.

And anybody?

Shame. Thank you.

So as parents, a lot of times we look too closely at ourselves, right?

And we start to ask ourselves, is this my fault? Could I have done anything

differently? What if this?

What if that? But all that does is create a thinking trap.

And that does not help your child.

So what I'd like to do, if we look at Melanie.

Do you want to put some words to your feelings?

Yeah.

I... Sometimes I just think that it is all my fault.

Do you have something to say to Melanie?

No. Whoa, no.

Never mind. Don't mind me.

No, no, no. I want to hear what you have to say.

You keep telling us that it isn't our fault. Yeah.

But it is.

Excuse me?

I mean, if it isn't our fault, then we're really super fucked. We're just

walking around pretending we have power to change something that we don't even

understand because it's not our fault, but we know how to change it even though

it's not our fault. This is actually good. This is actually good because now

have a lot. No, no, no, no. I know.

I have to go.

No, no, no. It's our fault. It isn't fair, but it is our fault. I mean,

how I see it. That's it. That's what this whole thing is, is our fault.

Stop and sit down. No, no, no. I don't want to talk about it. I already know

and I don't have to meet you because I know what you're going to say, which is

that she failed and that I failed because you set us up to fail.

No one tries hard if they have a safety net.

Nobody. Okay, and you should know that, Dr. Spring. I'm going to be here for the

rest of my life pouring shit down that tube every night until I die. Do not

leave that door. And none of this is helping any of us. None of it.

Come back.

Hey. Hey, well, why are you calling? Isn't a parent group going on right now?

couldn't sit there. I'm in the car. I'll pick her up later, but I can't stay

there. What do you mean you couldn't sit there? I can't do it. I can't do it.

She's got to get better, but she's not going to make the goal, and I don't know

what's going to happen now. Listen, you need to get back in there. The hole is

getting bigger. What hole? The two -hole?

No, no, the apartment hole.

The goddamn hole.

Why can't you just keep tabs on those guys? Because, you know, the guy's gone

for a week. There's no one working on it.

What? A week?

When were you going to mention it? I'm telling you now. It's very complicated

explain over the phone. No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. Just, just, just send me

pictures. No, no, no, no, no, no. No more pictures. I'm not going back. I'm

never going back there. I talked to Rob. What are you talking about?

And he's so full of shit. He's not doing anything. And by the way, I think he

has a deal with the motel.

Because... What?

That's right.

Why? How do you expect anything to get back to normal then?

It won't.

What are you talking about? It won't!

All right. Are you in your right mind now? Are you done?

Also, there's a woman missing.

What? Who? What are you talking about? Who's missing? Be patient. She's

She left and she's not picking up her phone. Okay, okay.

Let's take a deep breath. Start from the beginning. No, no, no, no, no. I can't

talk to you about this. Why aren't you going back into the group? I'll just

to my therapist later.

Hey, hey, slow down, slow down.

Everything's fine.

Everything's fine.

I just looked in the bank accounts.

How often... Every day.

Every day. Every day?

Come on. Hold on, hold on, hold on.

No sitting idle in vehicles.

Please move the car for yourself. I have a right to sit in my car without you

harassing me. What? Yeah.

Are you talking to somebody? Yeah, there's this creepy asshole who's

me every fucking day. He harasses me. He's obsessed with me. He's back at my

window wanting something.

Are you going to leave the parking lot or get out of your car? Oh, my God. Are

you serious?

I will call the police. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Call the police. Call the police.

Yeah, I'm going to call the police on you. I never want to see you here again.

Oh, my God. You're harassing me.

And anything in particular keeping you silent right now?

The fact that I want to be silent is keeping me silent.

I think. This isn't about you.

What I mean is I think. I mean, I pay for your time, right? So I can

do anything I want with that time. And right now,

I just.

Want to lay here without you talking.

Well, you did not have to come here for that.

Go lie on your own couch.

Do you wish I lied on my own couch instead of coming here?

All I'm saying is you chose not to be alone.

I'm alone.

No, you're not alone.

I'm here.

No, you aren't. Not really.

What we can do.

Can we just not?

Seriously.

Okay.

You know what? Did I ever tell you that I was pregnant before?

Like I've been pregnant twice.

I never tell anyone this.

It was when Charles and I were first dating, and I

got an abortion right away.

Like, I took a pregnancy test and then just went to a random clinic the next

day.

I got the surgical kind with the vacuum thing, and it

hurt really badly.

The nurse held my hand.

And for some reason, I didn't realize how badly it would hurt, but it really

did.

Yeah, it was almost 20 years ago.

I'd have a kid in college by now if I hadn't done that.

You love to tell me I don't get it.

What is it you think I don't get?

What is it you're so sure I can't help you with?

I'm one of those people that's not supposed to be a mom.

I'm not a mom. I'm not.

This isn't supposed to be what it's like. This isn't it. This can't be it.

one can do it I can't do you have any kids

What am I doing?

This isn't working What do you mean?

We can't see each other anymore

I got here early.

You'll have to wait outside.

Uh,

look, I don't know why you aren't answering your cell, but Dr. Spring

and... It's Dr. Spring. You cannot bring your daughter here for further

treatment until we have... Ah!

You are too much. You know, you are. I don't know what kind of number.

You

mentioned

an aphorism from the Bible about a millstone. Would you say what that is?

It's better to tie a stone around your neck and throw yourself in it.

See, then cause someone to stumble.

All right, make sure I'm getting that. Better to tie a millstone around your

neck and throw yourself in the sea rather than to do what?

Cause someone to stumble.

Stumble. To cause someone to stumble.

Okay. What were you trying to accomplish?

Take your children's lives.

all Gen Z group think?

Nick, what are your thoughts?

And?

Hello?

Yeah. Mm -hmm. Mm -hmm.

Mm -hmm. That is totally unbelievable, right?

That's completely unbelievable.

All of it.

What, Doctor?

I don't care what she said. I'm telling you, I had a work emergency, and I

couldn't stay. I had to leave. It isn't my fault.

You know, I came right back to pick you up when I was supposed to, like I always

do. I just couldn't stay for the group. But, you know, I work with a lot of very

sick people, honey, and sometimes they are sick in a different way than you.

I told you I don't care what she said.

I'm your mother.

She loves me, though.

She said so.

She said that?

She loves all of us. The kids.

There's no right to tell you that. She's a doctor. She doesn't have a right...

It's true, though.

You know, I don't think we need the program anymore.

I'm better? Yeah, I think... Maybe, yeah. Maybe we... We just do it. You and

What would happen?

So many wonderful things. You would... You'd be able to get the tube out and

could go back to school and you'd be eating everything delicious in the whole

world. I mean, wouldn't that be great?

You can do that.

Do what?

Make me better. I won't need the machine.

Well... And better they said that. I think maybe.

You know, and... And if not, then we'll just do it.

You know?

You're better than you were, and duck spring's not the boss of us.

Mommy?

Yeah.

I'm really sorry, but I'm not better.

Please don't be mad or sad that he said that.

you in the lobby.

What? Who?

Won't say.

Come down or don't.

Thanks for checking on me.

Oh, you would not believe the day I had. After you just left me.

All alone abandoning your spooky ass apartment with my bones sticking out my

leg. I called you an ambulance. No big deal. What else did you expect me to do?

I had to get back here to my kid.

Mother of the fucking year. I almost forgot.

I don't know. And what exactly am I supposed to do with shit brick of

Flush it. Okay. It must be nice.

Why did I give you any crutches?

Fuck them crutches.

You're here.

I hope that's okay.

I accidentally followed you this one time, and you live here?

Are you okay?

I'm okay.

Okay. Where did you go?

I had to get out of there.

Okay, I understand.

Do you really understand?

I think so.

No, this is a mistake.

This is a mistake because I thought that you understood and that I wouldn't even

have to say anything. Let's calm down. I think what we should do is get in a car

right now and go straight to the emergency room.

Hospital? Yes.

Why? Because it's a safe place to go if you don't feel ready to go home. What

about your daughter?

My daughter? Where is your daughter?

She's up there. She's sleeping.

I don't want to go to a hospital. I don't want to go to a hospital.

I want you to help me. I'm trying to help you. No, because you don't

You don't see it.

They look at us and they're...

Nothing there. You need to calm down. No, no. No, I am fine. Okay, I am fine.

But you don't know. Just breathe. In and out, Caroline.

Take a breath. Just breathe.

and a tiny square.

Thank you.

Why are you here?

You okay?

When did you get here?

Why are you here?

Where is she?

She's asleep.

With the babysitter? Yes.

Look, I just... I couldn't think. I couldn't function. I couldn't do

All I was doing was thinking about you and her and the apartment, so I had to

come back. I was scared. I wanted to help. Wait, wait, wait.

What? You just gotta know how to talk to these guys. That's all.

Did you look at it? The hole? Did you see it? Did you see anything?

Oh, yeah. No, it, uh... It was not fixed.

Now it's fixed.

Okay. Okay. I think... I think we should just... Let's just go.

You don't see how it got so bad?

How did it get so bad?

Are you trying to blame me?

No, I'm not blaming you. I just... I just want to get out of here. It just...

was a huge... I want to get out of here.

Do you love me?

Yeah.

Hey, hey, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait. What?

Mr. Rush.

You were the one who was in a rush to get back here.

I don't want to be here anymore.

We are here.

All right, let's relieve the babysitter. I'm exhausted. I want to get to sleep.

I'm excited to see her, even if she's sleeping. I know, but why don't you go

downstairs and get us some wine or something, and I can relieve the sitter.

are you talking about?

What's going on? What's going on?

There's something going on.

Open the door.

Me?

I don't have a key.

Right. Yeah.

Oh, God, don't tell me you left her here without... No, no, no, no, no, no, no.

I have a key.

I think I am.

Hey.

I'm, uh, I'm her dad. I'm Charles.

Nice to meet you. You must be the babysitter.

Babysitter? Yeah, James, right? Right? Jamie, right.

Oh, thank you for, uh... Oh, hell no.

I'm not doing this shit with you, yo.

Not doing what? What are you talking about? Not a fucking babysitter, dude.

Excuse me?

Your daughter woke up and was crying, scared shitless. So I pounded on the

fucking door till she finally opened it.

I had to tell her I was a friend of your wife.

Bro, it took me forever to get her to go to sleep. And by the way, I had to give

her a band -aid. She had some shit oozing from it. Hey, okay, okay, hold

Listen, who the fuck are you? What the hell are you doing in my room? Your

Yeah, this is my wife, that's my child, my room. I just fucking told you who I

was, and you need to ask your wife. I got this cast on my leg.

He's the babysitter. He's not the babysitter. He just told me he's not the

babysitter. Who the fuck is he? Can we just go inside? She can hear everything

that you're saying.

First of all, can you even explain to me why her machine is off and the tooth is

outside of her body? I ain't in this shit, man.

Hey,

hey, look at, yes, hi, daddy's home.

Oh my gosh, look at you. You're beautiful.

But I didn't believe her because Dr. Spring said I do.

But look, it's right.

Wes, what are you saying?

Look, no tube.

What? The tube is garbage now.

I can go back to school.

Oh my God. But Daddy, I still don't want to eat food. Why?

Because it's too much. What's going on?

Will you take me to the playground tomorrow? What did you do?

What did you do?

I'll be better.

Sit beside the breakfast table, think about your troubles.

Pour yourself a cup of tea, then think about the bubbles.

You can take your teardrops, drop them in a teacup.

Take them down to the riverside and throw them over the east side.

Be swept up by a current and take...

Impressive.