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APOLLON BY DAY ATHENA BY NIGHT

I want to go back to the sea.

In the blue mirror of the waters,

I want to reach out, and be seen.

I want to go back to the sea.

I want to go back to the sea...

Damn, a dolphin just jumped!

Defne, why aren't you watching?

It'll be really rude if I don't stop by at Brother Aydın's.

I'll find you in Side.

Alright then.

Don't you worry about me.

I'll be around. No worries.

Excuse me?

Anyone here?

I was really tired. I had to get some sleep.

I couldn't find anyone at the reception.

OK. Well then, welcome.

Let's go downstairs to check-in.

Sure, I'll be there in a minute.

This thing has gotten too old, just like me!

Identity Number.

Defne Üç.

How interesting! Mother's name Eve, father's name Adam.

What a coincidence.

Parent names the state issued to orphans. Back in the 80s.

Oh I'm so sorry. I don't know what to say.

Oh dear...

Selma, you're humiliating yourself. Shut up already.

OK I'll be quiet now.

You have to press Ctrl-3. I told you a bazillion times.

You just can't learn, can you?

Thanks.

You just love strays.

I couldn't get any sleep in Aspendos.

The same had happened in Troy.

It's clear. I'm about to get my period.

Wow. So it's been two months on the road.

I got ruins coming out of me, left and right.

The ruins, and the remaining.

My money is running out.

Hüseyin says we should go back to Istanbul for some rest.

When did he and I become a "we"?

I can't give up now.

I can't go back without finding you.

The Side Museum.

Maybe you worked here once.

I'll look... I'll look for you here too.

Shit, Hüseyin was right!

- Let's talk tonight, it's my break. - What break?

Girl don't go! I have a special proposition for you.

Come!

I saw your mother. But I have a condition.

Oh relax will you?

Let's just get it done, then we'll solve my thing. You promised.

Girl wait.

Do I look OK? Am I decent?

Sure. Really decent.

Cold bitch.

Wait up!

Dear, I wish you didn't smoke.

So?

What did my mother leave me, do you need a signature?

Come on, tell her. Word by word. Cut to the chase.

Hazar I'm not a lawyer.

I'm a computer programmer.

I met your mother's ghost.

You got the mumps on your 6th birthday.

They put a grommet in your ear.

You were hospitalized for two days.

Your mom got you walnut lemon ice-cream.

It was your favourite.

This was your secret.

Kept hidden from the doctor.

It was hard to find that flavour but she did.

Of course I did.

I never left her alone.

I sung lullabies at night. That's how she relaxed.

She never left you alone.

She sung lullabies at night. That's how you relaxed.

Dandini dandini dastana...

Tha lambs went into the fields.

Exactly as I sang it. Sing it to her!

Dandini dandini dastana...

She used to laugh just like that, my sweetie.

The lambs went into the field.

What the hell?

Fuck off.

Tell her! She peed in the shower yesterday, like when she was a kid.

- No way, I can't tell that. - Tell her. I'm her mother!

You peed in the shower!

It was her childhood habit.

She saw you.

It was your childhood habit.

Then she did the laundry.

She washed it at 60 degrees. Her purple dress shrunk.

She loves that dress. Her classmate Cucu got it for her.

You did the laundry after the shower.

At 60 degrees.

Your purple dress shrunk.

Cucu got it for you. From school.

That's why you got sad.

OK she believes you.

Hazar.

Nazife wants to tell you something very important.

And what would that be?

My love Hazar, I never wanted to leave you alone.

I swear to God. I love you so much.

She never wanted to abandon you.

I swear to God. You're her love.

But I don't want you to waste your life.

You followed a creep and moved here.

Go back to university.

She doesn't want you to waste your life.

Go back to university.

You forgot the creep. Say he's useless.

She says to stop seeing that useless creep.

Why the hell are you in Side my child?

Why are you in Side?

Don't get upset my love.

I'm always here with you. I'm protecting you.

Hear me, my child.

Don't get upset.

My love.

Hear me.

How can I hear her?

How can she hear you?

You're supposed to tell her!

- Can she hear me? - Yes my child.

- Yes. - Listen up.

I don't know who the hell you are,

but you seriously have some mental issues since you're here.

My mother left me when I was eight.

She took off after she killed my father.

She abandoned me to my grandma, whose breath smells like rotten eggs.

That bitch lied to you, I was gonna come back.

I'm such an idiot.

I thought she left me a small inheritance.

She didn't care for me when she was alive, why would she when dead?

Don't say that dear.

She was a whore. I'll never forgive her.

I don't know where you came from.

But if I ever see you again, I'll kill you.

No! Please!

I was going to come back for her. Tell her!

She was going to come back for you.

But she didn't.

Fuck.

Nazife? Nazife where are you going?

Nazife stop!

Nazife where you going!

Nazife I said stop!

You screwed it up!

If you spoke properly she might have believed us.

I told her everything you wanted me to.

We had a deal! You said you saw my mother's ghost.

You will help me Nazife.

Nazife stop!

I never saw your mother's ghost.

Go on, get lost.

Hey, what's up?

Was sister Nazife able to find you?

Why do you send over these pyschos to me?

Oh no!

She said she saw a lady that could be your mom.

Didn't she?

Also, I had to speak with her daughter. Nightmare.

Was sister Nazife able to explain herself to her kid?

I can't say it was productive.

As for me, I did indeed visit Brother Aydın's.

Poor guy, he's gotten so old now.

We worked at his pension with Mustafa, back in '92.

Vacations are for the rich, we're the working class.

I'm not interested Hüseyin.

Oh I think you are.

No I'm not.

Get interested 'cause I'm the only friend you've got.

We're not friends Hüseyin.

You're a ghost.

Well you're not much different, are you?

LEGENDS OF ANATOLIA THE FISHERMAN OF HALICARNASSUS

APOLLON'S SACRED TREE IS DAPHNE. APRIL 1984.

You scared me to death!

Well it can't always be you people scaring me.

How old are you?

Take that Hüseyin, real telekinesis!

- You're breaking my heart. - Don't go mushy on me.

Is that nice, what you've done?

OK sorry.

Apology accepted.

Now listen Defne, my telekinesis thing...

What did you do today? Learn anything?

Why are you interrupting me?

I can't deal with you now.

Did you find anything about my mom?

I swear, I got nothing.

But this morning, Sister Nazife, she really seemed genuine.

She said she saw a woman with a birth mark on her wrist.

I don't get it.

Don't you guys have a line of communication?

Actually, There's a secret frequency.

Hello Afterlife.

How many times do I have to tell you.

If you run into each other, that's it.

We can't teleport, nor get uploaded.

It's the same, like when we were alive.

The only difference, no intervening with the physical realm.

But I'm gonna change that with telekinesis.

I'll move the world Defne.

And then the revolution!

I'll look around properly tomorrow.

She's definitely here somewhere.

- She's looking for me too. - Don't you worry yourself.

We're gonna charge in from all fronts.

Keep your heart calm.

You've been with me for two months Hüseyin.

You still didn't tell me what you want.

Let's be clear, I don't want any tension later.

What's your deal?

An ex-girlfriend?

Family?

If you need to talk to your political group, I won't do that shit.

Oh this sad youth... oh this sad shadow of a flower...

I can't take another poem.

Do I have to want something? Is everything reciprocal?

Everybody wants something.

Dead or alive, you're all the same.

I don't want anything.

Let's just be friends, that's all.

Hello Defne, I made some tea for us.

- I shouldn't. - Nonsense.

This is a very special tea. I brewed it with local herbs.

- It's nice isn't it? I told you. - Sure.

I need to ask your advice. What do you think of that carpet?

I dunno. Fine I guess.

- I don't like it. - Sure.

It was my husband's favourite carpet.

Selma dear, what's going on?

Do you want to get rid of this carpet?

Would you help me if it's no trouble?

- It is trouble. - No trouble at all.

None at all.

Selma, what are you doing? Don't you dare.

- Let's put it in the depot. - OK.

That poor girl died of cancer last year.

That's her sister. She took care of her for a year.

I know them well.

Like you said you knew my mother, Nazife?

Missy Defne.

Maybe we could try talking to Hazar again?

You and me couldn't vibe properly.

Try for some real team spirit?

Another method? Let's try our luck!

I told her whatever you told me to.

But who will listen to you if you speak like a robot?

If you wanted to talk to her, you'd find a way when you were alive.

Little shit! How dare you?

How dare you!

If only I could drag you by your hair right here.

Come, come get me. Do it!

- Come come! - Go to hell!

Get lost! Freak!

Big ass whore!

Damn you!

Hüseyin!

Where are you?

What is it?

Come here! Quick!

You come! The view is amazing.

I found the tree!

No way! I'm coming.

It's the same isn't it?

It's the same.

It sure looks like it.

I knew it.

My mom was here Hüseyin.

She'll come again.

She has to.

Listen, I have to say something.

I've been meaning to tell you for a while, but I couldn't.

This mother of yours.

Why hasn't she appeared to you yet?

I mean it's been two months since you started seeing us.

She's probably looking for me too.

She just couldn't find me.

There must be a reason.

What if she already crossed to the other side?

It's not possible.

You know best.

I'm going back to the Apollon Temple.

You better continue looking around here.

At your command, captain.

God willing.

Hüseyin. Come here. Quick.

Just spoke with Master Dilaver. He saw noone that could be your mom.

Poor man had a stroke during the harvest.

His heart just stopped. Tough death.

His kin migrated, but he can't abandon the orange trees he planted ages ago.

Shush! Come with me.

Firstly, thank you my friend Hüseyin.

Thank you my dear Hüseyin. Come now.

Did you just call me dear?

I finally found someone that can help us.

We lost her because of you.

I'm at fault again!

I've been working my ass off for you all morning.

I can't believe it.

How old are you sister?

I'm Hüseyin. Pleased to meet you.

I've been around since 1993.

I'm Defne. And you?

Oh man, I'm sorry sister.

Why haven't you crossed over yet?

Oh dear.

You forgot why you stayed too. You're that old.

You understand what she says?

I certainly do.

Could you not speak when you were alive?

Or it happened after death?

Oh I see.

Madame.

Can you help me with something?

Did you see this woman around here?

She's your kind. A ghost.

If there's something you want in return, I'll do it.

If you could look at it again.

She's my mother.

- What does she say? - She says read.

I'm asking if you saw this woman in the photograph?

Ok calm down. I'm gonna fix it.

Listen sister.

This girl has been looking for her mom for some time.

Just look at this wretched thing.

Look, how miserable she seems.

She's in a plight.

Maybe as our elder sister you can help us?

Defne, she says read.

This is gonna be fun.

If I read this, will you help me?

Fine.

What shall I read?

"Cybele. Cybele is the main goddess of matriarchal societies in Anatolia."

Defne dear.

Maybe with a bit more feeling, from the heart?

"Cybele...

"was the mother of all gods and goddesses.

"She was considered the Goddess of life and fertility,

"the mother of all gods and wild nature.

"As such, many times, she was invoked as the Great Mother.

"Cybele was also a moon goddess.

"The crescent moon represented her youth,

"the full moon her maturity and pregnancy,

"and the waning moon her maternity."

She says OK. It's enough. Bless your heart.

Are you gonna help me now? Where's my mother?

The amphitheatre?

Tomorrow morning.

At nine. OK.

So my mother is really going to be there tomorrow morning?

You don't think she lied do you?

The elder sister? No way.

Seemed honest to me, she's an ancient woman.

You had said the same thing about Nazife.

You know, the last time I spoke to my mother was a year before I died.

We couldn't really get along.

She didn't approve of our organization.

I said, "but Mom, we have a cause."

She said, "Son, you'll give me a heart attack."

I dunno...

I thought that she would never truly understand me.

Hüseyin, come! Behind the bushes!

What the hell?

It' the hotel owner's husband. He's one of you.

Is he an Alawite?

No he's a ghost.

What a chump. Even his pajamas suck.

He looks like an undercover cop.

- Well he was a policeman. - No way.

- Let me whack him. - Don't be stupid.

Don't hold me back. Lemme kick his ass.

He can't see us together,

he'll understand I see him too.

Chill out.

Nothing will happen to you when I'm by your side.

Just calm down.

I can't get into trouble.

My ghost quota is already full.

Alright I'm off.

You'll be forever young.

Younger than me.

I want to know what your voice sounds like.

Do I look like you?

I wonder about that too.

What are you up to?

I had to get in somehow without getting caught by the Captain.

- I need to tell you something. - Not now.

I don't think we should go to the amphitheatre today.

Why not?

I dunno... Now listen Defne, there are some truths in life...

Hüseyin, don't be ridiculous. Shut up man.

Girl, I'm trying to be helpful. Don't bust my balls.

Hüseyin I have no more patience. Do you get me?

This thing has to be solved today.

Either help me, or stop following me like a tail.

It's not like you're any use to anybody.

Let me tell you something.

The world doesn't revolve around you.

Other people have feelings too.

You better accept this first, or...

you'll end up very sad.

Take care of yourself.

Defne?

Could you come here?

I'm in a hurry Ms Selma.

What do you think of this chest?

Sure, get rid of that too.

Yes, it's a bit kitsch.

- Shall we put it away? - Yes please.

- Is this OK? - Sure

My mother-in-law gave me this as a wedding present.

We couldn't have children.

I wanted to adopt.

But Hayri refused.

My mother in law supported me too.

But Hayri still said no.

Apparently he couldn't raise some bastard.

He blamed me for being sterile for years.

Yet he was the one who was sterile.

I should go. See you.

Where is she?

Is she here?

Hüseyin knew it from the beginning.

Don't blame him girl, he found out last night.

And I, the last. You people stalled me.

I told you I saw your mother. Not her ghost.

She's alive. Alive and kicking. Thriving.

Defne dear, I brought you herbal tea.

Leave me alone.

If you need anything I'm downstairs.

She's up!

I embraced many, thinking they were friends

I embraced many, thinking they were friends

Black earth is my faithful beloved.

Black earth she is.

I wandered in vain, got tired for nothing

got tired for nothing

Black earth is my faithful beloved.

Faithful she is.

I devoted myself to many beautiful ones

devoted myself, I did

I received no faith.

Or no use.

I took everything I wished for from the earth...

Are we ready for our tour guys?

Welcome to Side.

Did you know Side means pomegranate in the old Anatolian language?

One of the oldest cities in Anatolia, Side was founded in...

Apollon and Athena were the protectors of the city.

According to the latest findings, we believe the temple is Athena's.

The most notorious myth of Apollon concerns Daphne. The Tree of Daphne.

The Fisherman of Halicarnassus, especially talks about this myth.

- What is this myth? - Apollon falls in love with young Daphne.

He harasses her.

She tries to get rid of him but can't.

She begs for help from the Gods.

The Gods feel sorry for her, they turn her into a daphne tree.

Then Apollon roams around freely.

The girl is forced to live trapped in a tree for the rest of her life.

I wasn't going to tell it this way,

but I did love your approach.

Let's move on to the Medusa frieze, our time is almost up.

This is the end of our tour my friends.

Thank you for joining me on this historical journey. Good bye.

Excuse me.

- Hello. - Hello.

Did you like the tour?

- I did. - Well you knew most of what I recounted.

My name is Hazar.

What a lovely name. Well take care of yourself Hazar.

Sorry.

I wanted to ask...

Do you do personal tours?

I'm doing a research.

About the Cybele rituals. Maybe you could help me?

- Do you want to go to Lybre? - Yes... to Lubre, sorry Lybre.

You found the right person Hazar.

Would you take me there for a tour?

- Let me see where I can fit you in. - Tomorrow?

- What about tomorrow? - One moment.

- Tomorrow morning at 10? - Sure.

My private tours are 600 liras.

But I'll ask 450 from you, for our shared love for Cybele.

This is my card, my IBAN is there, wire it in the morning.

Then, I'll pick you up here in the morning OK?

- Good bye. - See you.

- 10 in the morning. Don't be late. - OK.

You're hurting your back.

You didn't take your pills either.

What if your blood pressure rises again?

How are you?

Fine thanks.

Get lost. Don't just stand there.

I'm sorry for yesterday.

You're our guest, enjoy your stay.

Yeah, eat your own shit!

Madame. Madame!

Where are we going?

Brother forgive me.

What the hell did I do? Someone, help him...

The man is dying. I'm so sorry. It wasn't on purpose.

Where the hell are we?

Madame?

Madame?

Madame!?

Where did she go?

Ms Antiquity?

Hüseyin what's wrong?

Defne I fucked up real bad.

What did you fuck up?

I was doing telekinesis.

Oh dear God forgive me.

I accidentally shot a man.

Shit, was that you?

What happened to him?

The ambulance came and saved him.

But he lost three fingers.

Well Ms Antiquity, where were you?

What?

Me... digging?

This is an archeological site. I can't just dig illegally.

The sister is asking for something, help her.

She says,

I helped you find your mom, you must help me too.

No I can't.

That day...

you promised, you said you would do what I wanted.

I can't!

I was there too, you promised her. Keep your promise.

Damn you!

Defne I didn't say it. She did.

I'm going out.

Alright then.

We're almost there. It's right behind the hill.

- You're not speaking Hazar. - I got a bit car sick.

Oh dear.

Are you OK? How's your stomach?

I'm good, it passed already.

Are you ready for our tour?

- I'm ready. - Alright then.

We believe that the Mother Goddess followers,

chose this protected location against raids from the sea.

During the sacrificial rituals for the goddess,

pregnant women would dance in circles for their babies to be born healthy.

How old are you?

- Excuse me? - You look so young.

Oh dear Hazar, you flatter me. I'm 57, you?

- 35. - You also look younger.

- You OK? - I'm fine.

- Here. - Thank you.

You'll be fine in five minutes.

Are you married?

No.

Sorry. So sorry, that was a horrible question.

What is your research for? For a PHD?

I haven't decided yet.

Where do you live? In Istanbul?

In Istanbul. Near Beyoğlu. In Tophane.

I used to live in Galata during university.

Galata used to be unsafe then but our gang loved it.

I love Istanbul. But the world is huge.

I took my backpack when I was 22, and I hit the road.

First Europe, then Asia. I stayed a long time in Asia.

Did you ever visit the Wall of China?

No I didn't.

China is amazing. One never finishes exploring it.

But three years ago, I settled in Antalya.

I said "I'm a woman of the Mediterranean."

You travelled the whole world. By yourself.

Sometimes with friends, sometimes strangers.

I have a free soul. Can't stay in one place. I need to move.

Let me share a secret. I'm saving up to go to Greenland.

How amazing.

Sorry?

I mean I'm so happy for you. You did everything you wanted to.

Nobody held you back.

What's going on here?

Take it.

Look at it. The picture.

I'm Defne.

You brought me into this world.

Stop. Where are you going? I want to speak with you.

I want to understand. Please. Wait!

You will stop!

Yes.

Exactly, put it back in it's old place.

Defne?

Are you OK?

Where are you going?

The Saturday Mothers, gathered again to protest in Istanbul.

For 25 years, the Mothers sit-in for their relatives lost in police custody.

The protests are inspired by the Argentinean mothers' sit-in protest,

that had started in the 1970s for people lost during the junta.

LOST IN POLICE CUSTODY.

Let us hear Berivan Aslan, mother of Hüseyin Aslan,

lost under police custody in 1993.

We want the bones of our children, we want their graves.

I want my Hüseyin's killer.

My mind is always with my son, where is he, what happened to him?

My son wasn't brought to me alive.

His corpse wasn't given to me.

If they had said here is his grave, I'd accept it.

I don't know what happened.

For years I've been searching, looking for my Hüseyin.

- Hello. - Hello.

I had urgent business in Istanbul. I couldn't call.

I didn't pay you either.

Someone called Samiya came looking for you.

She said you went on a tour together.

She asked for your number but you didn't leave it.

I guess there was a mistake.

I don't know anyone called Samiya.

I see.

The same room? Let's go.

Hi.

Thanks for your help guys.

Strength to your arms. Dig it girl!

Dig it properly!

Shall I come with you?

Don't hold yourself back. Say what you want. We got your back.

I'm sorry for the other day.

You were born on the 22nd of December 1984.

Social services took you right then.

It was the hardest thing for me; to not look at your face.

Your grandparents were teachers.

They died in a car crash a year before your were born.

I was wrecked.

I was an only child. We didn't have close relatives.

A friend from university supported me, Ihsan.

We travelled the Mediterranean with Ihsan in the spring of 1984.

When we got back to Istanbul, Ihsan ran abroad for political reasons.

I was four months in when I realized I was pregnant.

I didn't want to be a mother, but it was too late for an abortion.

I took many hard decisions in my life.

But the hardest was to seperate from you.

You wanted me to find you.

That's why you left the book, the photo in my cradle.

You didn't even let anyone else name me.

Apollon's sacred tree Daphne.

You didn't want me, but you wanted me to love you.

Maybe you thought a photo wouldn't mean much to me?

How would you know that an orphan,

seeks her mother throughout all her life,

at any age, however improbable,

at every single opportunity?

I'm sorry.

I can't give you what you want Defne.

Did you come here to tell me that?

You shouldn't have bothered. I got that in Lybre.

I came to tell you that I can help you in another way.

You too, left me something. The recorder. In the car.

Until my mother died...

I also saw spirits that hadn't crossed over.

You too will probably see them until I die.

I thought this gift was only mine.

I didn't know it would pass on to you.

Sometimes, to aid the spirits cross over,

they need help from the living.

If there is a situation you can't solve by yourself,

you can call me. I will help, unconditionally.

- Let me check up on her. - Wait here.

I'll brew you some tea.

You deserve so much better than this.

I don't understand.

Don't listen to that horrible voice Selma.

You deserve so much better.

I have to go now.

But I'll be back...

Calm down.

- Hazar. - Get lost. I don't want you.

No more running away little miss. Open it. We will talk.

I want to speak, Hazar.

I have things to tell you.

Sit.

Your mother...

Nazife...

She killed your father to protect you.

But then she had to escape because

the authorities didn't accept it as self defense.

Since she had to live on the run, she couldn't find a proper job.

She had to work as a prostitute.

She sent all the money she earned secretly to your grandma.

The money was put aside for you, but your grandma never told you.

You think you went to all those good schools with granny's pension?

Your mother tried to see you in her waking life.

She didn't abandon you Hazar,

she was forced to abandon you.

Even though she is dead, she's always with you.

She's following you, protecting you.

She's here right now, isn't she?

I'm here my love. I'm here.

I'm sorry.

- I'm sorry. - Don't my love.

Just be well.

My one and only.

She says you don't have to apologize.

She forgives you.

That's not enough water.

You'll kill the flowers.

Now it's too much.

You can't do anything!

You idiot!

Selma? Honey?

Selma what are you doing?

Selma, I beg you.

Good bye uncle.

Right, then.

Hüso dear,

don't upset yourself.

Thanks sister.

Don't call me sister, what if you need me one day?

What are we looking for?

We'll know when we find it.

I think it's from the Roman period. Belongs to a woman.

She's certain it's here.

Alright then.

What's her name?

I don't know.

She is mute.

It's been too long. She forgot her name, her language.

When did you start seeing them?

Just like you.

But I wasn't hit by a gas canister.

I was only 10. I had a bad fall from a bike.

I was in a coma for three days. When I recovered,

I realized the nurse telling me stories was a ghost.

Hüseyin, who waited by your side, is he here?

He's here.

- I think we found it. - No way.

Wait don't go on.

What language is this?

I think it's Luwian.

Congratulations sister.

I'll take it to the museum.

I know the archeologists.

OK.

She's thanking your mom.

She's thanking you.

I'm thanking her.

I'll call you when I get to the museum.

Sure.

See you.

I came back here for you.

I didn't let you explain.

I never listened to you.

I'm really sorry Hüseyin.

I saw your mother.

Come on, let's go to her together.

Isn't that what you most wanted?

You stayed for her.

Come on, let's go to her.

Ever since the first day we met,

I waited for you to ask this.

But Defne, whatever I say to her,

it won't change a thing for her.

But she'll want to talk,

She'll want to know Hüseyin...

She'll...

want to know where you are, where you are buried.

I'm with you.

Come on let's go to her, together.

The only thing I want right now is to hug you.

That's not allowed either.

Damn my ill fortune.

Yours or mine?

The only thing I want is to hug you too.

Be strong, Defne my friend.

Don't you worry. We're here. We're not going anywhere.

We're not going anywhere.

People like us, we're everywhere.

All we ask, is that you listen to our stories.

We'll watch over you. And you'll watch over us.

"My name is Rhea.

"You know me as Happatula,

"the head priestess of the temple of God Temmuz.

"However, my true loyalty is to the Mother Goddess.

"Tonight, I will be burnt alive in the festivities.

"I was accused of betraying the King.

"I knew this day would come.

"I rescued the slave girls brought to our temple

"and entrusted them to the mountain people.

"I too was once a slave brought to this temple.

"All my friends who helped me have died.

"Now it is my turn.

"My time is running out.

"I am afraid... very afraid.

"But I have no regrets.

"I will shine.

"I will go shining.