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Thank you.

To be able to be here together in the walls of Elizabeth's own creation

Knowing her as I did through her

work she was

Most proud of what she built here.

Her home.

And while she may not be here now, she has survived by her two greatest loves,

her work and you, Jill,

her wife.

I must say, I do take some of the credit for you two ending up together.

And now, the National Gallery has been in touch with me.

They wish to hold a retrospective of all of the... How did you know her?

You can't speak.

It's not a church.

I didn't... I didn't know her.

Joanne bought it.

I didn't call him.

Well, then who did?

Nobody here even knew he existed.

I don't know. I didn't call. I don't even know who he is. Did she not tell

about... About what? About him. About him.

I'm sorry. I think there's been a mistake.

Jill called me a couple of days ago and told me that...

I don't know what you need, but you shouldn't be here.

Joe, it's Jack.

You call me and tell me... Are you OK here?

Yeah, yeah, he's just leaving. No, I'm not leaving. I was, uh... I was

invited. She asked you to leave, mate. Be respectful.

They're her family.

I'm her son.

I want him to stay.

Bye.

I'm sorry about that.

About her.

Who was she?

Elizabeth's sister.

You don't remember inviting me?

Where are you staying?

I can stay in town. It's not a problem.

Oh, no.

No, you should stay here.

Of course.

Did she know where I was?

All this time?

Why didn't she call me before she passed?

It was sudden.

She was very ill.

There's a room down the hallway. You can stay.

Pass this, but... I can't just wait around for you to let me back in again.

Let me help. Oh, no.

Oh.

Are you sleeping here?

Yes.

While she's still here.

Look so much like her.

I don't remember her at all.

Didn't your family tell you anything?

Nothing.

No one ever took me in.

For long enough, at least.

I'm sorry. I thought she, uh... You knew that.

I'm very tired. I think we need to rest.

Good night.

She is okay.

Who is?

Jill.

What is this?

You are holding me here, Jack.

Your mother What

is

It's okay.

Once time I saw her.

But she wasn't well.

Yeah, that's a trick.

It's predictable.

Everything okay after yesterday?

With Helen?

I can't do this anymore.

Stay in town tonight if you don't want to be alone.

Last night, I'm sorry. No about this morning. I No idea how I

ended up that way

She

drowned

We couldn't find her

body under the ice.

And then when we found her, she had rocks in her pocket.

Did she leave her nine?

She didn't need to.

I've been having trouble sleeping, too.

I wake up in different places.

I find my things in different places.

As if someone's there.

She's not gone. Jill, stop.

Please.

She called you.

That's why I didn't know yesterday.

She spoke to me, too, last night. Through you.

She has more to tell you tonight.

It doesn't feel like you.

What are we doing?

We need him to be together like this.

How? He doesn't even know you.

You wanted to know who you were.

Is that what you want?

I don't want to lose you.

You left me.

We were together.

Why?

I thought it would stop.

Did it stop?

No.

Nothing changed.

The pain just... followed.

I'll tell you when you're not here.

Alone.

Me too.

Tomorrow they will come and take your body to Cremate.

What will happen then?

And if it leaves?

He won't.

What if...

You can't speak?

Why not?

Ask.

You took your own life.

Why?

Pain.

Is that why I was taken?

You couldn't take care of me?

I could.

And why didn't you?

My sister, Helen.

What does she have to do with it?

She made them take you away from me.

Why?

She said I was unfit.

That I was dangerous.

That I couldn't look after you.

Is that true?

No, that's a lie.

Why would she lie?

To get rid of the problem.

You said I was holding you here.

Okay.

You know it's strange when she

is me.

I have no memory.

Like you've been sleeping the whole night.

She's here.

You okay?

When I was with her last night, I remember, Tony.

It was just a moment, but... Who?

Me and her.

You didn't know about me before I arrived.

No.

I'm the hell in you.

Helen's family.

And yours?

Your family, I mean. They were... None of them were here at the funeral. My

family's not here.

And my family's not in my life anymore.

Will you go back?

No.

What about you?

Me?

You came here alone?

Just me, really.

And no one back home?

A boyfriend.

Ben.

Friends in the family, huh?

He laughs like you.

Only not as loud.

This cat laughed.

He's going to leave.

He has a life, Liz, and a partner.

But I can't lose you twice.

What if he leaves? It was time.

For how long?

Until you're ready. Ready for what?

What happened? Who did this to you? I fell.

What has she told you?

Why are you here?

I'm here for my sister. Yeah, well, it's a bit late.

I'm here for the sister that I want to remember.

I want to be there when you scatter the ashes, so will you tell that to Jill?

I'm staying at the lodge.

I'm not staying for you.

The next time we do this, you do me everything.

You know why?

You can ask her.

Tonight?

Now.

All we have to do is fall asleep now.

Jill needed her wife just like you need your mother.

I don't want that.

I don't want that stuff to happen with me.

Okay.

Helen is here.

She came to the funeral. What's wrong with that? Jack, he will leave.

You will lose me.

What does Helen have to do with it?

Jack, you can come in.

Is everything all right?

Oh, the kids, Curtis' kids, yeah, they're out.

Jack, why are you here?

This is why.

You shouldn't be here. Was he here?

Me.

You had them take me from her?

Yes.

A call had been made.

From your daycare.

There was concern about you, your behaviour

and your body.

There was bruising found.

So I went to check on you and her and when I pulled

up I could already hear you.

Crying.

Never in my life heard a child cry like that.

So I made the call.

I've let them take you.

She... She needed...

Help, but you, you needed... You deserve

better than us.

Our family, we...

I

can tell you these things, they don't just stop.

And I wouldn't change it, what I did.

You were young enough that there was a chance that you'd remember nothing.

And I took it.

Whatever you thought that you would find here,

it doesn't exist.

Did she fight to keep me?

No.

Why wouldn't it be true?

I remember her.

Your mom?

Yeah.

What did you find out, Jack?

Jack, please just talk to me. I'm trying.

Tell you. Tell me, tell me what?

You lift again. I know, I know.

And I'm sorry.

I just, uh, I needed to do this for mine.

If I ask you a question, you have to answer it, right?

Yes.

But do you have to tell the truth?

Yes.

Did you ever want me?

Yes.

Then why didn't you fight to keep me?

Helen.

She made the call.

I know that.

But they don't take kids on a call alone.

So, what did they see when they came?

I was sick.

I've heard that from you, from Jill, from Helen.

I just want to know what they saw.

I want to know what you did to me.

Just say it.

Just tell me the truth.

I did my best.

Just like he did to Jill.

I loved Jill. Then why did you leave? I haven't.

This is what you do to people you love, huh?

I'm leaving.

He's letting me go.

No. Come to me.

No.

Don't make me.

I can't live.

No.

No!

If you kill her, you're still trapped here.

I haven't let you go.

Amen.

I need to stay awake

Jill!

I have her ashes.

Leave them at the door, please.

Well, I wanted to be there when you scattered them.

Today's not good.

But I will come back tomorrow then.

I want to be alone.

Does that mean he's gone, Jack?

Did he go?

Yeah, he's gone.

It's going to sting, but it helps.

I let her.

If I let her hurt me, she wouldn't hurt herself.

I was trying to save her.

It wasn't always this way.

Now I see what...

So why?

She didn't raise you.

She heard you.

I'm sorry.

Because I remember when I was younger, she...

She

owed me and she wanted me.

But there is love in her too, Jack.

That's who I was trying to save.

That's who we've been holding on to.

She's 40.

Yeah.

He's laughing.

He doesn't know what to do.

Yeah.

I don't know what to do.

I don't know.

Undone?

Eddie, Eddie, Eddie.

If you wake up and she's just run.

She'll just switch.

We all have to wake up as us.

It's gone.

I have no idea where I'm going.

Home, maybe.

You?

Can I take you to the airport?

No.

There's no flight today.

Well, if you do, tell me.

What happened?

I hid it.

Packing.

Is that okay?

I think I just need to rest.

I didn't mean to rush you.

Check.

Say something.

Yeah.

You can't do this.

You can't do it.

I've let go of you.

I've let go of you.

What? Leave!

You have to let her go.

I'm sorry.

Amen.

I'm here, Jack.

I'm here.

Jack, I'm here.

Jack, I'm here.

It's me.

It's me.

This way.

I live without you now I call without your name

I breathe without you now And breathing felt the

same I walk without your feet

Without your weight I fall to

sleep And the lake lies

heavy in its water and a lake lies

heavy and still while my mind

goes fishing out for answers my feet

walk heavier

And I'll never, ever, ever, ever see you again And I'll never, ever, ever, ever

And I'll never, ever, ever, ever mess you up And I'll never, ever

leave you And I'll never know your face when it's old

And I'll never save you, baby, from

Save you from the cold

And the lake lies heavy in its waters,

And the lake lies heavy and

dear, While my mind goes fishing for

answer, All my feet walk heavier.

I'll be over you And I'll never, ever, ever, ever

see you again And I'll never, ever, ever, ever miss you And I'll never,

ever, ever mess you up And I'll never, ever leave you And I'll never

know your face when it's over And I'll

never save you, baby, from

your face when it's over and i'll never save

myself from the