All language subtitles for Blackbird (2019) (Blackbird (2019)) (ENGLISH)

I've got this.

I've got this.

Oh.

I know.

Well, don't just stand
there and watch.

Go fucking do something.

Oh, please.

Oh.

It's the snap.

Come on.

No.

Do not you love it?

Are we too early?

Michael.

What?

We're not going to a party.

Are we too early?

Oh, no.

Of course not.

No such thing as too early.

You're perfect.

Michael, roads were wide open.

Good to see you, Paul.

Hi.

Hi, John.

Hi, Grandpa.

Hi, Dad.

Thank you.

Hello.

How you doing?

Good.

You?

How you doing?

Good.

Fine.

Okay.

Okay.

Michael, you... No.

I'll get the... I got
you a little something.

Really?

Sweetie.

It's nothing.

It's just...

It's just a little
something, you know.

We didn't really know...

Well, I can't wait to see what the
stores recommend for an event like this.

What is this?

Come on.

Let me help with this.

I... Let me
just... No, I got it.

Jonathan, you want to
hand me the... I said I have it.

It's fine.

Okay.

It's fine.

Fine, guys.

There we go.

Oh.

Salt and pepper shakers.

Look at that.

How sweet is this?

Look, it's you and me.

Uh-huh.

And we're dancing.

We have to fold back and forth.

Look at that.

That's so cute.

Now you can think of me whenever
you put salt on your wounds, darling.

Or pepper.

Or pepper.

Or both.

Thank you, Jonathan.

That was very... Someone's here.

Okay.

Yeah.

That's... All right.

So your beds are all made up.

And ready.

Perfect.

It's Liz.

Jonathan.

Oh, great.

Look what Jennifer made.

Jennifer, you made this cake.

Wow.

Look at this.

The size of a human head.

To be in a village.

Yes.

Oh.

Thanks, darling.

Okay.

Okay.

Why is she here?

Oh.

I know.

I told dad it should
just be family.

Salt and pepper shakers.

What was I thinking?

I think she liked them.

Oh.

Oh.

She pretended to.

She never pretends well enough.

What does that mean?

She lies just badly enough
so you know she's lying.

Oh.

Come on.

I really think she liked them.

I do.

Besides, it's like
she said, it's not like

there's a perfect gift
for this kind of thing.

They're probably from
Kenya or Peru or somewhere.

I can only imagine
the carbon footprint.

Carbon footprint and all.

I thank you.

Hi, hi Liz.

Hi, you look great.

Wow, your hair looks great.

It does, it really does.

Hi Liz.

Jonathan, look at you.

He's a great student.

Straight A's.

One B.

Mom.

Thanks for coming, Liz.

Sure.

I know it really means a lot
to Mom that we all do this.

Yeah, it does.

It's a privilege.

Anything we can do?

Here's an interesting article.

The local annual Thanksgiving deep-fried
turkey festival apparently is going vegan.

Unbelievable.

They're pretty.

Your mother always had
a thing for white tulips.

Always the white ones.

Even at college.

What's she doing?

She'll be right down.

She's fine.

What if she needs help?

She's fine, Jennifer.

Whatever she's doing,
she'd rather do it herself.

Good.

Is everybody okay?

Good.

Everybody's fine.

We're doing great.

Jonathan.

Oh?

Jonathan has a hard
time talking about it.

No, I don't.

When's it happening?

Soon, kiddo.

Hello.

Hello.

The flowers look beautiful.

So no one's drinking coffee?

Oh, let me... I can get that.

I'd love some.

Yeah?

Please.

Here.

Mom, you want some?

No, I'm good.

Dad?

No, I'm fine.

Liz?

Mmm.

Please.

Cream?

Yeah.

There you go.

Thanks.

Go?

Looks good.

Here you go.

Thanks.

Should someone call her?

I'm sure she's on her way.

But she made that.

Wow.

You sure that's a good idea?

Hey.

Oh.

Chris.

Hey.

Didn't know you
were... Good to see you.

Hello, Johnny.

I'm so happy that you came.

Were you kidding?

Of course I did.

Don't we have someone
to get drunk with?

Jesus Christ.

Look at you.

Hi, sweetie.

Mom.

I'm not a kid anymore.

Hey.

Hey.

I'm Chris.

Oh, okay.

I'll take that.

Good to meet you.

Yeah.

You're hot.

Must be breaking your heart.

Hey, sweetie.

How are you?

How are you?

Chris.

Good to see you.

No, no, no.

Come here.

Hi.

Hi.

You know what?

We only made up one single bed.

That's okay, Mom.

I can help them.

I can make my own bed.

No, no, no.

Let me help.

Yeah.

We can catch up
at the same time.

Okay.

Come on.

Let's get some coffee.

Yeah.

Great.

Okay.

Elizabeth.

Oh, fabulous.

Right in the back.

Yeah.

It's been a while.

Yeah?

We thought you might come
to Jonathan's school play.

Sorry.

I wanted to.

I really wanted to be there.

But there was...
I can't remember.

Something.

Mm-hmm.

Here.

Thanks.

Then Dad's birthday.

I wanted to be
there for that, too.

Uh-huh.

Hey, thanks for all your texts.

What?

Reminding me.

Oh, yeah.

Sure.

Everybody thought you forgot.

So, yeah.

I realized that.

Well, it's happened.

It has.

It wasn't intended as criticism.

Mm-hmm.

Towel's in here, I think.

So, how's the dance
program going?

I dropped out.

Oh.

Oh.

I thought you made this big
discovery and finally found your thing.

I didn't make a big discovery.

I found that it wasn't my thing.

So long as the weird
acupuncture thing and

the quilting thing and
the yoga therapy thing.

Very sympathetic.

None of them are your thing.

All these things
that they pay for.

Okay.

Here we go.

And while we're sharing,
what the hell is she doing here?

Uh, what's Mr. Dahl doing here?

Mr. Dahl happens
to be my husband.

Yeah.

Well, Chris happens
to be my husband.

You said you'd split up.

Well, we got back together.

Are you even sure you're gay?

We've been together for
nearly a year and a half.

God, a year and a half.

Oh, come on.

What?

Disappointment?

A crisis?

Drama?

Because what was it?

She was, you said she was an
immature, irresponsible shit for brains.

Maybe I should wait downstairs.

Yeah, maybe you should.

Thanks.

I'm sorry.

Shit.

Chris is helping
me get through this.

Ever thought about that?

You promised not to bring her.

No.

You told me not to bring her.

There's a difference.

Okay.

Okay, please.

Just...

Give mom this one weekend without having
the whole world revolve around you, Anna.

It's just one weekend.

Will you do that?

Hmm?

Can you do that?

Can you quit being
a fucking bitch?

Okay.

Fuck.

It's like 35 pounds.

Really?

It was mostly cutting out sugar.

Uh-huh.

And then cheese,
which was the horrid part.

Cheese.

How do you think she's doing?

Dodging every emotional bullet.

Yeah.

And how are you?

I'm... How are you?

A little tired of people
saying, and how are you?

Yeah.

Sorry.

How's work?

Work is, uh...

An undergrad last week refused
to read The Odyssey because

it was literally everything
that was wrong with the world.

The Odyssey?

Mm-hmm.

The Odyssey.

Okay.

Three down.

H-I-J-K-L-M-N-O.

Five letters.

What?

That's it?

That's it.

H-I-J-K-L-M-N-O.

Huh.

Yes, I'm surrendering
to should play.

So I get a funnel?

Ha-ha.

Thanks.

H-I-J-K-L-M-N-O.

Five letters.

That is... That's
the whole clue?

What are they doing?

That's it.

Playing soccer?

It's hard to tell.

What is that?

It's a toy.

So, are you and Chris
living together now?

No, it's... we've been
a little on and off.

When I was your age, I had
someone I moved in with four times.

And out four times.

With all my belongings,
all my books, and my cat.

That crazy cat.

That crazy cat.

It's a lot of moving.

For a cat.

Right.

Well, I was confused.

I was out there
fighting for a free love.

So how could I tie
myself down like that?

It gets easier, I guess.

Oh, yes.

The old woman lied.

Water.

What?

Water.

H-I-J-K-L-M-N-O.

H-2-O, five letters, water.

That's the answer.

H-2-O.

That is brilliant.

He's good, your dad.

He is good.

The best.

Did you know that
next to Q, X, and Z, J is

the least used letter in
the English language?

Honey, have some cake.

Your mom's cake's over there.

It's so delicious.

Try some.

It's so good.

You have to try it.

Jonathan, your shoes are wet.

You should put them by the door.

Well, you know it's time.

When you have to start drinking,
you should leave from a paper cup.

Mom, I'm fine.

I'll get it.

I'll get it.

It's fine.

I'm not.

Be careful, Jennifer.

I never liked those glasses.

I hated those glasses.

Okay, so...

Finding Nemo?

Oh, okay.

Oh.

I think she got it.

Um, your black has the cake.

Oh!

Holy!

I'm okay now.

Oh, the candles.

Do you remember that night at Pete's
party on the farm when we tried acid?

Yes.

I think you persuaded me.

We needed to listen
to the fireflies because

they were trying
to tell us something.

Probably not to do any more
acid and just stick to mushrooms.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

Please look after my girls.

You don't need to ask them.

They're okay, aren't they?

They're okay.

Hey.

Thank you, Lily.

Thank you, Liz.

You're up early?

Couldn't sleep.

Yeah.

How are you going to do it?

Didn't they tell you?

They told me not to worry about it and to
make sure Grandma has a nice weekend.

Well, they're probably
just trying to protect you.

But I want to know.

You sure?

Tomorrow, after you've
all gone, I'll put her to bed.

Okay.

I'll give her some
medicine and a glass.

And then she'll go to
sleep while I sit beside her.

And then that's it.

Yeah.

It's illegal, right?

Yeah, it's...

It's illegal here, but it's legal in
some states, in Washington, Oregon.

We could have
gone to Europe, but...

This is...

This is our home.

This is the house that...

that she built.

This is...

where Lil wants it to happen.

Seems okay to me.

She doesn't seem that bad.

Do you know how ill she is?

You've seen how she walks, how
she can only use her right arm, right?

In a few weeks, it's
possible she won't be able

to move at all, to talk,
or even to swallow.

So I'd imagine the horror
of not being able to swallow.

She'd be surrounded by machines to
help her breathe, to remove the saliva,

and so on.

And we'd have to feed her
through a tube in her side, there.

She doesn't want that.

And she's decided that...

that now's the...

now's the time to do it
while she's still in charge of...

of what happens to her.

Will you go to jail?

After she's gone,
I go out for a walk.

I get back.

I call 911.

I tell them what's
happened, that, uh, she must

have taken the medicine
while I was out, and, um...

And something like...

Yes, I'm sure she's dead.

I'm a doctor and everything.

Yeah.

I tell them.

I tell them I went
out for a walk.

And that's why we have to do it now,
while she still has the use of her arm.

Waking up.

Morning!

Morning.

Mmm, cholesterol.

Sleep well?

Good morning, everybody.

Smells amazing.

Whoa, Jonathan.

It's been forever.

It's really not that early, Dad.

Are Anna and Chris up?

It's 8.30.

No, Jonathan, why don't
you run up and wake them?

I can do it.

Anna, Chris, you up yet?

I'm dead soon.

You coming down?

Bet you'd do it.

Pancakes.

Yep, that should do it.

You want some help with that?

This is one of the
oldest foods in history.

They unearthed
a tomb in Samaria.

Anybody want tea?

You want tea, Liz?

Tea?

Where is this from, by the way?

It's Beluga.

It's the same as we had... Jono,
pass the salt and pepper, please.

A little bit more expensive.

Jono, salt and pepper, please.

You know, the Indian independence movement
started when Gandhi asked the Indians to

make their own salt in an act of
defiance against the British Empire.

Just think about it,
how something so...

insignificant could lead
to something so powerful.

You were always such a rebel.

Did you hear that?

I'm a rebel.

I think she was kidding.

Dad, she's choking.

Dad, she's choking.

I'm fine.

Fine.

Wow, we really lucked
out with the weather today.

Yeah, we did, didn't we?

Maybe we should go for a walk.

A walk?

What do you want to do, Mom?

Mom, what do you want to do?

I think a walk sounds
like a nice idea.

Then tonight, just to keep you on
your toes if it's alright with everyone,

I'd like to celebrate Christmas.

I mean, it's so much better than
boring old Thanksgiving, right?

And I think, darling, maybe you
could make us a big Christmas dinner.

No, it's a bang.

No, it's a bang.

And, uh, Jono, maybe you could
go with your dad and find us a tree.

Great.

Okay.

The axe is in the barn.

The axe?

Don't get arrested.

And then afterwards, Jono, why
don't you help me decorate the tree?

Sure.

Wait, are we in your presence?

Oh, I like that
line of thinking.

Santa will bring you
an inheritance, yes.

Cool.

Are you rich?

Jonathan, come on.

Fine.

The only stipulation being it has
to all be spent on hookers and blow.

Sounds good.

She means it.

Is this really what you want?

I mean, you could wait
for an actual Christmas.

Jennifer, don't
fucking ruin this.

Okay.

Well, I could, um, I could
be Santa if you want.

That's a great idea.

Okay.

Bacon.

No more real shit for me.

I'm gonna have this bacon.

Hip replacement surgery used to ask
for the hips back upon the patient's death.

They would have
to sign a release.

And they would go
back to the morgue.

Listen.

Is it your idea that
you want to have it?

I like it.

So do I.

Plus, it's so, so chic to
have a lesbian in the family.

You know that?

We tried it once, remember?

Was it 73 or 74?

Yeah, it was definitely
a drunken attempt.

Maybe a lack of technique?

Oh, I thought your
technique was fine.

She's...

She's fragile, isn't she?

Anna?

Anna.

No, she's fine.

She's absolutely fine.

She's just a little flighty.

All this back and forth.

Is that a sign your
relationship's right?

Or that it's broken?

Maybe they don't
really love each other.

Or maybe they
really love each other.

Yeah, useful analysis.

Thanks.

I'm out of gas.

What?

I'm out of gas.

Are you okay?

Yeah, I just... I need a...

Wait, wait, wait.

Sit down.

Hey, hey, Paul!

Jen, can you come?

Oh!

Beautiful!

Invigorating, isn't it?

Yes, it is.

It is.

It is invigorating.

What?

Jonathan, cover your ears.

Why?

This is...

This is where you
were conceived.

Oh, my God.

That is gross.

Here.

Right here?

Yeah.

Oh, God.

We were visiting with a colleague
of Paul's who lived right near here.

And, well, the wife is
just fucking annoying.

Oh, God.

She would never stop talking.

Never stopped talking.

Never stopped.

Yak, yak, yak.

Never stopped.

Even when she was eating or swimming
in the ocean, she would never stop.

And all that came out
of her mouth... Oh, shit.

She was the worst.

And so I pretended to
be sick and ran outside.

I came here and then...

he cured me.

He cured you?

Okay, TMI.

And then we just got
so fond of this area that

we bought some land
when it became available.

And then, well, we couldn't
even afford it at that time.

Couldn't afford you then?

No.

Al, I'm not surprised you come
from someplace so beautiful.

Aw.

That's deep.

That is deep.

What about me?

What about you, sweetie?

Where was I conceived?

Oh.

Do you know, I
don't really know.

I do.

I know.

I know it was when I went with
you to that convention in Buffalo.

We stayed at that horrible
motel near the airport.

And I got bed bugs.

I remember that.

But it was totally worth it.

It was totally worth it.

Completely.

All right.

Shall we move on?

Come on.

Do you know it?

Yeah.

Left-handed!

Anna?

Anna?

Anna?

I know.

What did you think I was doing?

Playing Candy Crush?

Taking a nap?

Getting high?

Anna?

Anna?

Okay.

Okay, yeah.

Yes, I did.

I did.

And I'm sorry.

Can you blame me?

Yes, I fucking can blame you.

You never give
me a fucking break.

Look.

You arrive late, as always.

Looking like shit.

God, no one even knows
where you are half the time.

You disappear for a month
eating mushrooms in the desert or

whatever the hell off the grid
means just as mom gets sick.

You expect me not
to be judgmental.

I'm sorry you feel that way.

I just wish that with so little time left
you made more of an effort for the family.

That's all.

I am going to do that.

You okay?

Yeah.

You sure?

Made up my mind.

Tomorrow, when
they're about to do it, I'm

going to call 911 and
report a suicide attempt.

Okay.

Um...

Shit.

Okay, that's...

Are you sure?

Because she says she's ready.

I'm not ready.

She's ready, but I'm not.

I don't know.

It's too fucked up.

I thought you were
against this, too.

What about BSing vegans?

You want me to
take care of that?

Oh, yeah, well, maybe some
sweet potato or something.

I don't know.

Ew.

That it?

Yeah, that's it.

What?

Magic potion.

I mean, where's it from?

From our home.

Google?

How do you know it's gonna work?

Trust me, darling, there's enough
pentobarbital in that little package to

kill off half of Manhattan.

As you can imagine, everything's
been organized within an inch of its life.

Yep, I can imagine.

It is a little insane.

No, no, no, it's not.

It's, uh...

Look, people in this situation,
in their lives prematurely, are

characteristically not insane,
not even... not even depressed.

They're usually intelligent, articulate,
analytical, and deeply, deeply controlling.

Sweet potatoes.

On it.

Okay.

Okay.

This is nice.

Huh?

Doing Christmas?

Yeah, I guess.

I like this.

Spending time together.

Man and boy in the wild.

We should do more of this.

Sure.

Hey, here's your
fun fact about trees.

Do you know there's
more non-deciduous trees

in Norway than the
entire continent of Africa?

That's fascinating, Dad.

Isn't it?

Because...

Here we go.

A lot of good choices over here.

Yeah.

Fantastic.

Ah.

How about this one?

That one?

Yeah.

It's kind of small.

How about this one?

Okay.

Good.

Good option.

Here we go.

Whoa.

Whoa.

Fuck.

You okay?

Yeah.

You sure?

No, I'm good.

Yeah.

I'm just used to a
different kind of axe.

That's enough.

We need something else.

What about rosemary for these?

Does that really go with beef?

Oh, definitely.

Honey, what can I do for you?

I'm fine.

I'm fine.

It'll wear off.

This has happened before.

You should sit down.

Maybe some ice?

Maybe some frozen peas.

Thanks for being so helpful.

You really suffering?

No.

I'm really... It's fine.

I mean, it's not funny,
but it's pretty funny.

It is kind of funny.

I don't even really need these.

Jonathan.

Yeah?

Do you want to help?

Sure.

So why don't you start
hanging and if you put

anything where I don't
like it, I will yell at you.

Okay.

So are you going to give me some
super important life advice now?

No.

Old people are supposed to be insightful
and, you know, pass on your experiences so

I remember them at
crucial moments in my life.

Well, we old people are just pretending
to be insightful to give you the impression

that life adds up to something
meaningful and comprehensible.

It works.

Actually, I think that
the trick is you just

show up and you
give life your best shot.

Although, handwritten thank you
notes and being on time don't hurt.

Got it.

Your mom made this one.

Cool.

So is there anything that I
should know about you that

the rest of the family is
going to find out in the future?

I don't know.

Do you want to have kids?

Yeah, I think so.

You gay?

No.

Trans?

No.

Anything else I
don't know about yet?

No.

Sorry.

What do you think
you want to be?

I want to be an actor.

Wow.

Wow.

Do they know about that?

Um...

Nobody knows about
that except now you do.

Well, I will take your
secret to my grave.

You're doing great.

Wow.

Smells amazing.

That is a tremendous
tie, Michael.

Well, thank you.

It is a tremendous tie.

Where is she?

Oh, she'll be here.

Jen.

Thank you.

Short measures.

Michael.

Thank you.

I think I might go check.

Hi.

So when do we eat?

Fantastic.

You look amazing.

Wow.

Mom, you look... Thank you.

You look beautiful.

Thanks very much.

Everybody ready?

It's on the front.

Okay, ready?

Everyone say cheese.

Emmentaler.

Emmentaler.

Good, good.

Paul, did you get the tie?

Oh, Dad, could we get one?

Merry Christmas.

Yes.

Got it.

All right, sit.

I'm going to make the toast.

It's a surprise.

To...

wonderful life.

Wonderful life.

Wonderful life.

Mmm.

Mmm.

Wow.

So this is a... It's a
French Pinot Noir.

Tastes sunshine?

Good sunshine.

Oh, here's Jonathan.

This is amazing.

Yum.

No, no.

He won't.

I've had wine before.

When?

Well, it's illegal, so... Yeah.

You're not getting any.

So he's killing Grandma.

Ooh, nice comeback, kiddo.

Whoa.

Very smart.

You're going to make an
excellent lawyer someday.

Actually, I'm going
to be an actor.

An actor?

Yeah.

And isn't that a
damn fine thing?

It is.

Well, there's plenty of time to think about
it, so... I don't need to think about it.

I know it.

Actually, yeah.

I think Jonathan may have written
a little something for his grandma.

What?

Yeah.

Really?

No, please.

It's kind of rough.

I don't want to do it right now.

I've only just written it.

Go for it, dude.

Okay, whatever.

Okay.

Here goes nothing.

Hit me.

Family, family.

More than a man.

It's a clan.

Sometimes you
gotta make a stand.

Make a plan.

Raise a hand.

Seize the day.

Find a way.

Embrace the solution.

Feel the right way.

But things are frightening.

Thoughts like lightning.

Emotion heightening.

Sorrow for tomorrow.

And tomorrow time is proud.

Feeling hollow.

But better die alive to strive.

Say goodbye.

Feeling whole.

In your soul.

That's the goal.

So let it roll.

Wonderful.

I'm a big guy.

Please don't laugh.

Please do not encourage him.

This is really great.

No one's watching this?

Thank you.

Very good.

Jonathan, this one's for you.

Cool.

Thanks.

Hmm.

What is it?

A book.

Yeah.

It's Rilke.

Rilke.

Ooh.

What?

$100.

No.

I never had one of these.

How are you
supposed to spend it?

Hookers and blow.

Yes.

Do you remember these?

Yeah.

Thank you.

Well, tell them.

It's so beautiful.

She bought this for me.

Where were we?

We went to that
little antique shop.

Yeah.

In Venice.

That was a great trip.

The best trips ever.

She saw this as some
little antique tunas.

Imagine you wore this.

And you thought you were
going to be a Contessa.

A lot of clothes.

Love you, Liz.

Oh.

Do you remember?

Yeah, I remember this.

It's Grandma's ring.

It's the only thing
I liked about her.

That is actually true.

And I don't blame
you, sweetheart.

She's a nightmare.

Wow.

Michael.

I get a present.

I had to look all over for this.

Oh, my God.

Yes.

He's never going
to take that off.

Put it on.

He's never going
to take that off.

He's never going
to take that off.

What do you think?

Jonathan, I'm going to your
parent-teacher conference wearing this on.

This was the first
kind of serious piece of

jewelry that I bought
for myself at your age.

This is...

This is beautiful.

Oh, look at that.

That really suits you.

Thank you.

You're welcome, sweetheart.

I love it.

Thank you.

You can always use another one.

Oh.

Oh, my God.

Yeah.

Mom needs one.

Oh, it's your favorite color.

Oh, my God.

It matches.

Oh, my God.

Lily, I'm afraid she
already has one.

That's not your only present.

I want you to have this.

I've never taken it off
since your dad gave it to me.

22 years ago.

Oh, God.

Okay.

Okay.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

I think maybe I haven't taken this off
in even longer, but maybe now it's time.

What's next?

No.

Although, although, although we're apart
you're a part of my heart but tonight you

belong to me below me way
down, way down upon the stream

Jingle bells, jingle bells
Jingle all the way Oh,

what fun it is to ride in a
one horse open sleigh Hey!

Thank you, husband.

Thanks.

I could die happy right now.

So could I.

I love these plates.

Well, you can have them.

They're yours.

I'll just eat out
of the pot then.

Yeah, with your salt and
pepper shaker by your side.

Yeah, I'd like that.

I mean, if that's okay with...

Hey, maybe you could
pick something too.

How about my vinyl?

You used to love all those R&B
records and Nina Simone and Prince...

Yeah, you know, maybe we
could wait until you're actually dead.

I think it's time for a joint.

What?

Really?

Oh, what are you looking...

Come on, I was at Woodstock.

What's the big deal?

You weren't.

Well, I was nearby.

I was there in my mind.

Bullshit.

Nowadays, you never meet anyone
our age who wasn't at Woodstock.

True.

Allegedly.

Allegedly, I have some.

Oh, what kind?

Just Napa Valley grass.

Not strong enough.

Sweetheart, you get mine.

What?

Mom?

You should never smoke
weed unless you are dying.

Okay.

Or having sex.

I already tried it.

What?

Did you hear that?

Excuse me?

What?

I don't want you to end up
like some unfocused pothead

who just drifts through
life staring at the clouds.

Hey, I'm right here.

Yeah, well, you're not
exactly the perfect role model.

And you are.

Just in time.

Oh, come on, Dad.

Oh my God.

Thank you.

Great.

Great.

Let's all get stoned.

Jesus, what is this stuff?

You like?

Are you kidding me?

Yes, that is some
next level shit.

You sure?

Mm-hmm.

Okay.

It's been a long time.

We'll hold the smoke.

Count to ten.

Hey, I too was at Woodstock.

Metaphorically.

Okay.

Maybe I wasn't.

Okay.

Come on.

No way.

We're here to do
something together, right?

Yes.

Wow.

Hold it.

Oh my God.

Hold it.

When will I feel it?

In a little, just a little bit.

Whoa, yeah.

Just chill.

You okay, Mom?

Just chill.

Good?

I don't know.

Oh no.

Oh my God.

We are terrible parents.

Oh wait, stop.

Does it have tobacco in it?

It's just Michael quit smoking.

Sorry.

It's fine.

I'm sure it's fine.

Okay, you know, I'm
really not that bossy.

I'm, I'm actually.

Come on, pass it on, Dad.

Yeah, I'm sorry.

The other way.

You know, I know, I know you guys already
talked about it, but I wasn't there.

And, uh...

Anyway, I just wanted
to say that I understand.

Well, thank you, Chris.

It's just weird.

You're here now.

But tomorrow you'll be dead.

And we know.

But I'm here now.

I'm really here now.

And, you know,
once we set a date...

Actually, it's
funny, but it... It...

I stopped worrying about dying
and I could focus more on living.

Weren't you afraid?

Are you?

Well, I'm not dying tomorrow.

Well, at some point.

Yes.

I mean, we all know that
it's... It's gonna happen.

I mean, we all know that it's...

I just didn't know that I would know that I
would know when it was actually happening.

No, but isn't that the point?

I mean...

We sort of... we forget.

In order to just
get on with living.

But living is so much
better if you don't forget.

Because then you don't
get caught up in the bullshit.

And you can take a risk.

And you can bend some rules.

You know?

The days go by too slowly.

And the years go by too fast.

That's so cool.

What's that?

It's music, Dad.

Look, I am...

I am here now.

And I'm full of good
food and incredible wine.

And...

I'm satisfied.

And happy.

I have my...

my guy.

My grandson.

My actor slash rapper.

My oldest friend.

And the two kids
that I am so proud of.

And the ones that they love.

The two kids I'm so proud of?

Yes.

Why would you be proud of us?

Why wouldn't I be proud of you?

You barely know us.

What?

What is that supposed to mean?

Look, sweetie.

I raised you to be
strong and independent.

And you are.

Really?

Really.

No, we're not.

Anna?

Look, I'm sorry to break it to you,
but you have two daughters who are,

in their own way,
seriously fucked up.

What are you talking about?

I don't think that that is necessarily...
Look, I might be crazy, but I'm not stupid.

What are you talking about?

Remember when Chris
and I went away for a month?

Yeah.

Well, I wasn't
living in the desert.

Where were you?

I was in a psychiatric hospital
because I tried to kill myself.

Jesus Christ.

I can't fucking believe you.

Oh, please.

Did she threaten to
cut her wrist with a

plastic knife so she
could get some attention?

Shut the fuck up, Jennifer.

Because that is what she does.

You didn't raise
us to be strong.

You just raised us not to
bother you with weakness.

You're like Martha
fucking Stewart, Mom.

Anna.

What a great mom.

You wanted everybody
to think you were.

Be creative with your mantra.

Be whatever you want to be.

Just don't disturb the
grownups while you're doing it.

And be sure to
clean up afterwards.

Dad.

Stop.

Dad.

I

think I have to go to bed now.

Let's clear the table.

She wants to be
alone for a little bit.

What?

She didn't overstate it.

She's lucky that she survived.

Of course.

That's how she describes it.

Because she wants
maximum sympathy.

All right.

What do you say you
and I go have a talk?

Come on.

Why wouldn't she tell us?

Well, she said you'd say it
was about attention-getting.

That you'd say it was about her.

It was about maximum sympathy.

No, no, no.

Maybe you're right.

But then I gotta ask what made
her need that kind of attention?

We'd been on
and off for a while.

I wasn't sure.

She wasn't sure the usual shit.

But...

When the ambulance came, I couldn't
even bring myself to get in with her.

Hold her hand.

Whatever.

Just be with her.

All I wanted to say was
run, and so that's what I did.

Is she okay now?

Is she okay?

No.

Well, she's bipolar.

What does that even mean?

It means a shitload
of meds forever.

So why aren't you running now?

I don't know.

I like her.

I like her family.

Look, I...

What?

Your mom seems so sure.

And I really, I really do
believe that it's her decision.

What are you trying to say?

Anna's not exactly well.

And so I don't want Anna's
perspective to ruin... Say it.

Anna's gonna call 911 when
your mom has taken the pills.

Wait.

Wait!

What the hell are you thinking?

You let her do what
she wants to do.

You got that?

You let her do what she wants.

You can't make that call.

Do you understand me?

Tell me you understand.

I'm not ready.

I don't care.

What if...

What if Dad is wrong?

Maybe it'll be another six
months before it gets real bad.

Maybe a year?

He's a fucking doctor.

He knows what he's doing.

It doesn't matter.

Doctors are wrong all the time.

Mom knows what she wants
and he knows how to do it.

That's enough.

I want to know her.

I want her to know me.

Don't you get that?

I need more time.

So do I.

But this is Mom's decision.

It's her life.

It's her death.

I'm sorry you're sick.

I'm not sick.

I'm... Yes you are.

Okay.

What are you doing?

Don't go through my shit.

Xanax.

Syrax.

Don't touch my shit.

You know who they
give this stuff to?

They give it to sick people.

I'm not sick.

They just keep things in check.

I'm okay when I take them.

But your brain chemistry is fucked
and you can't trust her emotions.

So shut the fuck up from now on.

Let her do what she wants to do.

Look at me.

Look at me.

I am sorry.

That I've not
been there for you.

I will be better.

I promise.

I promise.

I will be better.

But this is Mom's decision.

And...

That is how it's gonna be.

Okay?

She understands.

Chris...

Thanks.

Yeah.

Hey.

Uh...

What are you doing?

Looking at photos.

Uh-huh.

Here we are.

Mexico.

Me.

Dad.

Mom.

Liz.

San Francisco.

Xana.

Me.

Dad.

Mom.

Liz.

Hiking.

Banff.

And... Um...

London.

Me.

Anna.

Dad.

Mom.

And Liz.

Her best friend.

Yeah.

Right.

And... His lover.

Something.

No.

No.

I mean...

He told me years ago
that Dad and Liz had dated.

You know, in college.

Before Mom even knew him.

I never thought...

Just never put two
and two together.

And then...

Last night.

Yeah?

What?

I saw them.

Kissing.

But like... But like...

For real.

They were probably just...

What?

Just... They were
probably just...

Comforting each other.

No.

No.

No.

What if... What if
he's in love with her?

What if he always was?

I don't think that
that's something that...

I mean, wouldn't that
cloud his judgement?

You're really tired, honey.

I'm not fucking tired, Michael.

What do you think I should do?

I think you should sleep.

But should I tell Mom?

Should I...

Should I tell... Should
I tell them both?

That I will not
support this after all?

No.

Your Mom has made her decision.

But what do you think?

Look, Lily's been very clear from the
very beginning... What do you think?

What do you
think about all of it?

You.

Right here.

Right now.

What do you think?

I think this is a really
difficult decision.

And that the family...
Do you think anything?

Do you feel?

Yeah, I feel things.

Of course I do!

What?

It's impossible to get any
kind of reaction from you!

If I threw this wine
in your face, you'd just

tell me what district
the grapes were from.

That is not true!

I think I'm...

Caught!

I'm so sorry.

Oh my God.

Honey, here you are.

Will you close the blinds?

You want to sleep some more?

I want to wake up again.

I just woke up one morning and I
couldn't remember what healthy felt like.

But it didn't scare me.

It was a relief.

So I cancelled my plans
with Chris that night.

I took a shower.

Isn't that weird?

I watched the
happy people on TV.

I ate a handful of pills
and drank a mug of vodka.

Passed out.

Then Chris came over anyway.

He wanted to surprise me.

She called 911.

The ambulance took me to
the hospital and pumped me out.

I stayed three weeks.

They gave me medicine and I
still take it and I'll keep taking it.

And that's okay.

Why didn't you tell me?

You always told us to be strong.

Oh Jesus.

Be free.

I didn't want to be free.

I just wanted to feel like me.

I am so sorry.

I am so, so sorry.

So sorry, baby.

You just found
out you were sick.

I didn't want you
to worry about it.

Oh my God.

You have no idea how happy it would
have made me to worry about you.

Let me worry about you.

Oh.

I'm so sorry.

I love you.

I love you, sweet girl.

I'm sorry.

Haha!

Do you want me
to... No, sweetie.

I got it.

I got it.

Mommy?

You okay?

Good morning.

Hey.

Hey.

Good morning.

Okay.

Okay.

So.

Today.

Can we all try to just behave
as normally as possible?

Just read the Sunday
paper and nap.

Play the stock market.

Write a play.

Make a matchstick model
of the Empire State Building.

Just a normal Sunday.

I need to have a
normal lazy Sunday.

I need that from you.

Okay?

Yeah.

Okay.

Okay.

Great.

Okay.

Good.

Um.

No juice?

Jennifer?

No, I'm not thirsty.

Did I make some coffee?

No.

Jonathan, why don't
you pass the juice?

Sure.

Anna?

Thank you.

What?

Would you come
with me for a minute?

Okay.

Remember when you
were about eight years old?

It was summer.

And you came rushing into
the house and you said that

you had seen Dad and
Elizabeth kissing in the woods.

And everybody
just laughed at you?

Do you remember?

Yeah, I remember.

And people said you were crazy.

And people said you were bad.

Yes.

You said I was bad.

Well, I think you were...

I think Dad and Liz are...

lovers.

Last night, I saw them together.

Think about it.

Every family vacation
she's been there, every

important occasion, it's
always been Mom, Dad, and Liz.

Why?

I mean, that's not normal.

We've grown up
thinking that's normal.

That is not normal.

Okay.

Do we tell Mom?

No.

No, we can't.

We can't.

Can we?

Oh, fuck, I don't know
anything anymore.

Look, if he's with Liz, he
can't make a rational decision.

What if she's manipulating him?

We've known Liz all our lives.

I don't believe that's her.

I'm not saying she's doing
it deliberately, but... but...

We tell Mom we've changed our minds and
we're not going along with this anymore.

Yes?

Jonathan.

Go upstairs, please.

Why?

Don't ask questions.

Just go upstairs.

Jonathan.

I want you to go upstairs now.

Too bad.

I don't want you to hear this.

Hear what?

I'm part of this, Mom.

He's right.

He should be here.

What's going on?

Can we just see this through
with a bit of ordinary grace?

Ordinary grace, you
fucking hypocrite?

Alright, sit down.

Whoa, okay, no, please
don't tell me to sit down, okay?

I won't.

I won't sit down.

I won't.

This... This is sick.

Jennifer, whatever it is you want to
say, do us all a favor and don't say it.

Everything's been said.

Oh, not quite everything.

Don't do this, Jennifer.

What the hell is going on here?

Maybe you shouldn't
go through with it.

Maybe you don't have all the information
you need to make an informed decision.

What are you talking about?

Dad?

What?

Dad.

What?

Tell her!

We're not going
to let this happen.

It's not right.

Jennifer, we have gone over and over this
for months, and we came to the conclusion.

As a family, we agreed
that if this is what I want...

But I don't think you
know what you want.

How dare you?

We got behind this on the
basis of a lot of assumptions.

Assumptions?

What assumptions?

Hey, hey, let her talk.

Please, we're talking
with Mom right now, okay?

Dad, not you.

We?

Anna and I agree.

Anna?

Anna.

Yeah, Jennifer and I agree.

I cannot...

No, I cannot back
down from this.

No.

Well, we can.

Jennifer, this is not
what she needs right now.

You can shut up.

This is not your decision.

It's not yours either.

This is your mother's choice.

Is it?

Really?

Or has she been helped along?

Huh?

What are you saying?

Look, I choose.

I choose.

Look at me.

I choose not to be locked
in a body that cannot walk

or talk or eat or drink or
even breathe on its own.

I am choosing not to
be fed vanilla fucking

flavored protein drinks
through a tube in my side.

I choose.

I choose.

I am choosing.

There are moral issues, okay?

Ethical issues.

Do not make my last act on
this earth in defiance of you.

Please, don't do that to us.

Jennifer, what's going on here?

I saw you last night.

You saw what?

What did you see?

What did she say?

You two.

What are you talking?

So what?

What are you talking about?

Jennifer.

No, no.

You don't get to speak.

No, no, no.

I really think it's
my turn to speak.

You say I'm having some
love affair with your father, right?

Well, you are, aren't you?

Aren't you?

Christ.

Jennifer, you know what?

You are always
such a fucking prig.

Look how lucky you are.

A husband who adores
you, an amazing kid, and still

you're always straightening
every picture in the room.

I never managed this.

Family.

Here's my family.

The people I grew up with.

The people I loved and love.

Don't.

Take that away.

Please don't take that away.

You didn't answer the question.

You didn't answer
the question, Liz.

Answer somebody.

Answer.

Or I'm gonna call 911.

What?

What?

I'm not kidding.

I'll make the call.

Oh, good.

What will you say?

I'm gonna say there's
been a suicide attempt

and that they need
to come right away.

Answer me somebody.

Do it.

Anna.

Are you sure you
want to do this?

Don't, don't, don't.

Wait, wait, wait.

Of course they're
having an affair.

Of course they're
having an affair.

I begged them to have an affair.

I implored them
to have an affair.

What?

All our lives?

Oh, no.

No, no, no.

How can that be okay?

How can it be okay for my best friend
and my husband to love each other?

Don't you see that that makes
a space so that I can do this?

Don't you see?

Love is everything.

Love is all there is.

Why didn't you tell us?

Would you have approved?

I'm sorry.

It's okay.

Okay, now I'm scared.

Of course you are.

But maybe you all should...

It's time.

Now?

Now.

Yeah.

I'm...

I'm done.

I can feel it.

I know it's coming toward
me and I do not want it.

So if it's okay with
you guys, Jen, Anna.

Okay.

But I want to be with
you when you die.

Are you strong enough?

Yeah.

Yeah, she is.

I'm with Anna.

Just don't let me die
with my mouth open.

Don't be frightened.

Where am I going?

You tell me, kiddo.

Somebody knew.

But tonight you belong to me.

What's next?

No.

Although, although, although
we're apart, you're a part of my heart.

But tonight you belong to me.

Just follow me.

Follow me.

Way down, way
down upon the stream.

Very, very sweet it will seem.

Once more just to dream
in the silvery moonlight.

My honey, I know, I know with
the dawn that you will be gone.

But tonight you belong to me.

Just a little only.