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I've got this.

I've got this.

Oh.

I know.

Well, don't just stand there and watch.

Go fucking do something.

Oh, please.

Oh.

It's the snap.

Come on.

No.

Do not you love it?

Are we too early?

Michael.

What?

We're not going to a party.

Are we too early?

Oh, no.

Of course not.

No such thing as too early.

You're perfect.

Michael, roads were wide open.

Good to see you, Paul.

Hi.

Hi, John.

Hi, Grandpa.

Hi, Dad.

Thank you.

Hello.

How you doing?

Good.

You?

How you doing?

Good.

Fine.

Okay.

Okay.

Michael, you... No.

I'll get the... I got you a little something.

Really?

Sweetie.

It's nothing.

It's just...

It's just a little something, you know.

We didn't really know...

Well, I can't wait to see what the stores recommend for an event like this.

What is this?

Come on.

Let me help with this.

I... Let me just... No, I got it.

Jonathan, you want to hand me the... I said I have it.

It's fine.

Okay.

It's fine.

Fine, guys.

There we go.

Oh.

Salt and pepper shakers.

Look at that.

How sweet is this?

Look, it's you and me.

Uh-huh.

And we're dancing.

We have to fold back and forth.

Look at that.

That's so cute.

Now you can think of me whenever you put salt on your wounds, darling.

Or pepper.

Or pepper.

Or both.

Thank you, Jonathan.

That was very... Someone's here.

Okay.

Yeah.

That's... All right.

So your beds are all made up.

And ready.

Perfect.

It's Liz.

Jonathan.

Oh, great.

Look what Jennifer made.

Jennifer, you made this cake.

Wow.

Look at this.

The size of a human head.

To be in a village.

Yes.

Oh.

Thanks, darling.

Okay.

Okay.

Why is she here?

Oh.

I know.

I told dad it should just be family.

Salt and pepper shakers.

What was I thinking?

I think she liked them.

Oh.

Oh.

She pretended to.

She never pretends well enough.

What does that mean?

She lies just badly enough so you know she's lying.

Oh.

Come on.

I really think she liked them.

I do.

Besides, it's like she said, it's not like

there's a perfect gift for this kind of thing.

They're probably from Kenya or Peru or somewhere.

I can only imagine the carbon footprint.

Carbon footprint and all.

I thank you.

Hi, hi Liz.

Hi, you look great.

Wow, your hair looks great.

It does, it really does.

Hi Liz.

Jonathan, look at you.

He's a great student.

Straight A's.

One B.

Mom.

Thanks for coming, Liz.

Sure.

I know it really means a lot to Mom that we all do this.

Yeah, it does.

It's a privilege.

Anything we can do?

Here's an interesting article.

The local annual Thanksgiving deep-fried turkey festival apparently is going vegan.

Unbelievable.

They're pretty.

Your mother always had a thing for white tulips.

Always the white ones.

Even at college.

What's she doing?

She'll be right down.

She's fine.

What if she needs help?

She's fine, Jennifer.

Whatever she's doing, she'd rather do it herself.

Good.

Is everybody okay?

Good.

Everybody's fine.

We're doing great.

Jonathan.

Oh?

Jonathan has a hard time talking about it.

No, I don't.

When's it happening?

Soon, kiddo.

Hello.

Hello.

The flowers look beautiful.

So no one's drinking coffee?

Oh, let me... I can get that.

I'd love some.

Yeah?

Please.

Here.

Mom, you want some?

No, I'm good.

Dad?

No, I'm fine.

Liz?

Mmm.

Please.

Cream?

Yeah.

There you go.

Thanks.

Go?

Looks good.

Here you go.

Thanks.

Should someone call her?

I'm sure she's on her way.

But she made that.

Wow.

You sure that's a good idea?

Hey.

Oh.

Chris.

Hey.

Didn't know you were... Good to see you.

Hello, Johnny.

I'm so happy that you came.

Were you kidding?

Of course I did.

Don't we have someone to get drunk with?

Jesus Christ.

Look at you.

Hi, sweetie.

Mom.

I'm not a kid anymore.

Hey.

Hey.

I'm Chris.

Oh, okay.

I'll take that.

Good to meet you.

Yeah.

You're hot.

Must be breaking your heart.

Hey, sweetie.

How are you?

How are you?

Chris.

Good to see you.

No, no, no.

Come here.

Hi.

Hi.

You know what?

We only made up one single bed.

That's okay, Mom.

I can help them.

I can make my own bed.

No, no, no.

Let me help.

Yeah.

We can catch up at the same time.

Okay.

Come on.

Let's get some coffee.

Yeah.

Great.

Okay.

Elizabeth.

Oh, fabulous.

Right in the back.

Yeah.

It's been a while.

Yeah?

We thought you might come to Jonathan's school play.

Sorry.

I wanted to.

I really wanted to be there.

But there was... I can't remember.

Something.

Mm-hmm.

Here.

Thanks.

Then Dad's birthday.

I wanted to be there for that, too.

Uh-huh.

Hey, thanks for all your texts.

What?

Reminding me.

Oh, yeah.

Sure.

Everybody thought you forgot.

So, yeah.

I realized that.

Well, it's happened.

It has.

It wasn't intended as criticism.

Mm-hmm.

Towel's in here, I think.

So, how's the dance program going?

I dropped out.

Oh.

Oh.

I thought you made this big discovery and finally found your thing.

I didn't make a big discovery.

I found that it wasn't my thing.

So long as the weird acupuncture thing and

the quilting thing and the yoga therapy thing.

Very sympathetic.

None of them are your thing.

All these things that they pay for.

Okay.

Here we go.

And while we're sharing, what the hell is she doing here?

Uh, what's Mr. Dahl doing here?

Mr. Dahl happens to be my husband.

Yeah.

Well, Chris happens to be my husband.

You said you'd split up.

Well, we got back together.

Are you even sure you're gay?

We've been together for nearly a year and a half.

God, a year and a half.

Oh, come on.

What?

Disappointment?

A crisis?

Drama?

Because what was it?

She was, you said she was an immature, irresponsible shit for brains.

Maybe I should wait downstairs.

Yeah, maybe you should.

Thanks.

I'm sorry.

Shit.

Chris is helping me get through this.

Ever thought about that?

You promised not to bring her.

No.

You told me not to bring her.

There's a difference.

Okay.

Okay, please.

Just...

Give mom this one weekend without having the whole world revolve around you, Anna.

It's just one weekend.

Will you do that?

Hmm?

Can you do that?

Can you quit being a fucking bitch?

Okay.

Fuck.

It's like 35 pounds.

Really?

It was mostly cutting out sugar.

Uh-huh.

And then cheese, which was the horrid part.

Cheese.

How do you think she's doing?

Dodging every emotional bullet.

Yeah.

And how are you?

I'm... How are you?

A little tired of people saying, and how are you?

Yeah.

Sorry.

How's work?

Work is, uh...

An undergrad last week refused to read The Odyssey because

it was literally everything that was wrong with the world.

The Odyssey?

Mm-hmm.

The Odyssey.

Okay.

Three down.

H-I-J-K-L-M-N-O.

Five letters.

What?

That's it?

That's it.

H-I-J-K-L-M-N-O.

Huh.

Yes, I'm surrendering to should play.

So I get a funnel?

Ha-ha.

Thanks.

H-I-J-K-L-M-N-O.

Five letters.

That is... That's the whole clue?

What are they doing?

That's it.

Playing soccer?

It's hard to tell.

What is that?

It's a toy.

So, are you and Chris living together now?

No, it's... we've been a little on and off.

When I was your age, I had someone I moved in with four times.

And out four times.

With all my belongings, all my books, and my cat.

That crazy cat.

That crazy cat.

It's a lot of moving.

For a cat.

Right.

Well, I was confused.

I was out there fighting for a free love.

So how could I tie myself down like that?

It gets easier, I guess.

Oh, yes.

The old woman lied.

Water.

What?

Water.

H-I-J-K-L-M-N-O.

H-2-O, five letters, water.

That's the answer.

H-2-O.

That is brilliant.

He's good, your dad.

He is good.

The best.

Did you know that next to Q, X, and Z, J is

the least used letter in the English language?

Honey, have some cake.

Your mom's cake's over there.

It's so delicious.

Try some.

It's so good.

You have to try it.

Jonathan, your shoes are wet.

You should put them by the door.

Well, you know it's time.

When you have to start drinking, you should leave from a paper cup.

Mom, I'm fine.

I'll get it.

I'll get it.

It's fine.

I'm not.

Be careful, Jennifer.

I never liked those glasses.

I hated those glasses.

Okay, so...

Finding Nemo?

Oh, okay.

Oh.

I think she got it.

Um, your black has the cake.

Oh!

Holy!

I'm okay now.

Oh, the candles.

Do you remember that night at Pete's party on the farm when we tried acid?

Yes.

I think you persuaded me.

We needed to listen to the fireflies because

they were trying to tell us something.

Probably not to do any more acid and just stick to mushrooms.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

Please look after my girls.

You don't need to ask them.

They're okay, aren't they?

They're okay.

Hey.

Thank you, Lily.

Thank you, Liz.

You're up early?

Couldn't sleep.

Yeah.

How are you going to do it?

Didn't they tell you?

They told me not to worry about it and to make sure Grandma has a nice weekend.

Well, they're probably just trying to protect you.

But I want to know.

You sure?

Tomorrow, after you've all gone, I'll put her to bed.

Okay.

I'll give her some medicine and a glass.

And then she'll go to sleep while I sit beside her.

And then that's it.

Yeah.

It's illegal, right?

Yeah, it's...

It's illegal here, but it's legal in some states, in Washington, Oregon.

We could have gone to Europe, but...

This is...

This is our home.

This is the house that...

that she built.

This is...

where Lil wants it to happen.

Seems okay to me.

She doesn't seem that bad.

Do you know how ill she is?

You've seen how she walks, how she can only use her right arm, right?

In a few weeks, it's possible she won't be able

to move at all, to talk, or even to swallow.

So I'd imagine the horror of not being able to swallow.

She'd be surrounded by machines to help her breathe, to remove the saliva,

and so on.

And we'd have to feed her through a tube in her side, there.

She doesn't want that.

And she's decided that...

that now's the...

now's the time to do it while she's still in charge of...

of what happens to her.

Will you go to jail?

After she's gone, I go out for a walk.

I get back.

I call 911.

I tell them what's happened, that, uh, she must

have taken the medicine while I was out, and, um...

And something like...

Yes, I'm sure she's dead.

I'm a doctor and everything.

Yeah.

I tell them.

I tell them I went out for a walk.

And that's why we have to do it now, while she still has the use of her arm.

Waking up.

Morning!

Morning.

Mmm, cholesterol.

Sleep well?

Good morning, everybody.

Smells amazing.

Whoa, Jonathan.

It's been forever.

It's really not that early, Dad.

Are Anna and Chris up?

It's 8.30.

No, Jonathan, why don't you run up and wake them?

I can do it.

Anna, Chris, you up yet?

I'm dead soon.

You coming down?

Bet you'd do it.

Pancakes.

Yep, that should do it.

You want some help with that?

This is one of the oldest foods in history.

They unearthed a tomb in Samaria.

Anybody want tea?

You want tea, Liz?

Tea?

Where is this from, by the way?

It's Beluga.

It's the same as we had... Jono, pass the salt and pepper, please.

A little bit more expensive.

Jono, salt and pepper, please.

You know, the Indian independence movement started when Gandhi asked the Indians to

make their own salt in an act of defiance against the British Empire.

Just think about it, how something so...

insignificant could lead to something so powerful.

You were always such a rebel.

Did you hear that?

I'm a rebel.

I think she was kidding.

Dad, she's choking.

Dad, she's choking.

I'm fine.

Fine.

Wow, we really lucked out with the weather today.

Yeah, we did, didn't we?

Maybe we should go for a walk.

A walk?

What do you want to do, Mom?

Mom, what do you want to do?

I think a walk sounds like a nice idea.

Then tonight, just to keep you on your toes if it's alright with everyone,

I'd like to celebrate Christmas.

I mean, it's so much better than boring old Thanksgiving, right?

And I think, darling, maybe you could make us a big Christmas dinner.

No, it's a bang.

No, it's a bang.

And, uh, Jono, maybe you could go with your dad and find us a tree.

Great.

Okay.

The axe is in the barn.

The axe?

Don't get arrested.

And then afterwards, Jono, why don't you help me decorate the tree?

Sure.

Wait, are we in your presence?

Oh, I like that line of thinking.

Santa will bring you an inheritance, yes.

Cool.

Are you rich?

Jonathan, come on.

Fine.

The only stipulation being it has to all be spent on hookers and blow.

Sounds good.

She means it.

Is this really what you want?

I mean, you could wait for an actual Christmas.

Jennifer, don't fucking ruin this.

Okay.

Well, I could, um, I could be Santa if you want.

That's a great idea.

Okay.

Bacon.

No more real shit for me.

I'm gonna have this bacon.

Hip replacement surgery used to ask for the hips back upon the patient's death.

They would have to sign a release.

And they would go back to the morgue.

Listen.

Is it your idea that you want to have it?

I like it.

So do I.

Plus, it's so, so chic to have a lesbian in the family.

You know that?

We tried it once, remember?

Was it 73 or 74?

Yeah, it was definitely a drunken attempt.

Maybe a lack of technique?

Oh, I thought your technique was fine.

She's...

She's fragile, isn't she?

Anna?

Anna.

No, she's fine.

She's absolutely fine.

She's just a little flighty.

All this back and forth.

Is that a sign your relationship's right?

Or that it's broken?

Maybe they don't really love each other.

Or maybe they really love each other.

Yeah, useful analysis.

Thanks.

I'm out of gas.

What?

I'm out of gas.

Are you okay?

Yeah, I just... I need a...

Wait, wait, wait.

Sit down.

Hey, hey, Paul!

Jen, can you come?

Oh!

Beautiful!

Invigorating, isn't it?

Yes, it is.

It is.

It is invigorating.

What?

Jonathan, cover your ears.

Why?

This is...

This is where you were conceived.

Oh, my God.

That is gross.

Here.

Right here?

Yeah.

Oh, God.

We were visiting with a colleague of Paul's who lived right near here.

And, well, the wife is just fucking annoying.

Oh, God.

She would never stop talking.

Never stopped talking.

Never stopped.

Yak, yak, yak.

Never stopped.

Even when she was eating or swimming in the ocean, she would never stop.

And all that came out of her mouth... Oh, shit.

She was the worst.

And so I pretended to be sick and ran outside.

I came here and then...

he cured me.

He cured you?

Okay, TMI.

And then we just got so fond of this area that

we bought some land when it became available.

And then, well, we couldn't even afford it at that time.

Couldn't afford you then?

No.

Al, I'm not surprised you come from someplace so beautiful.

Aw.

That's deep.

That is deep.

What about me?

What about you, sweetie?

Where was I conceived?

Oh.

Do you know, I don't really know.

I do.

I know.

I know it was when I went with you to that convention in Buffalo.

We stayed at that horrible motel near the airport.

And I got bed bugs.

I remember that.

But it was totally worth it.

It was totally worth it.

Completely.

All right.

Shall we move on?

Come on.

Do you know it?

Yeah.

Left-handed!

Anna?

Anna?

Anna?

I know.

What did you think I was doing?

Playing Candy Crush?

Taking a nap?

Getting high?

Anna?

Anna?

Okay.

Okay, yeah.

Yes, I did.

I did.

And I'm sorry.

Can you blame me?

Yes, I fucking can blame you.

You never give me a fucking break.

Look.

You arrive late, as always.

Looking like shit.

God, no one even knows where you are half the time.

You disappear for a month eating mushrooms in the desert or

whatever the hell off the grid means just as mom gets sick.

You expect me not to be judgmental.

I'm sorry you feel that way.

I just wish that with so little time left you made more of an effort for the family.

That's all.

I am going to do that.

You okay?

Yeah.

You sure?

Made up my mind.

Tomorrow, when they're about to do it, I'm

going to call 911 and report a suicide attempt.

Okay.

Um...

Shit.

Okay, that's...

Are you sure?

Because she says she's ready.

I'm not ready.

She's ready, but I'm not.

I don't know.

It's too fucked up.

I thought you were against this, too.

What about BSing vegans?

You want me to take care of that?

Oh, yeah, well, maybe some sweet potato or something.

I don't know.

Ew.

That it?

Yeah, that's it.

What?

Magic potion.

I mean, where's it from?

From our home.

Google?

How do you know it's gonna work?

Trust me, darling, there's enough pentobarbital in that little package to

kill off half of Manhattan.

As you can imagine, everything's been organized within an inch of its life.

Yep, I can imagine.

It is a little insane.

No, no, no, it's not.

It's, uh...

Look, people in this situation, in their lives prematurely, are

characteristically not insane, not even... not even depressed.

They're usually intelligent, articulate, analytical, and deeply, deeply controlling.

Sweet potatoes.

On it.

Okay.

Okay.

This is nice.

Huh?

Doing Christmas?

Yeah, I guess.

I like this.

Spending time together.

Man and boy in the wild.

We should do more of this.

Sure.

Hey, here's your fun fact about trees.

Do you know there's more non-deciduous trees

in Norway than the entire continent of Africa?

That's fascinating, Dad.

Isn't it?

Because...

Here we go.

A lot of good choices over here.

Yeah.

Fantastic.

Ah.

How about this one?

That one?

Yeah.

It's kind of small.

How about this one?

Okay.

Good.

Good option.

Here we go.

Whoa.

Whoa.

Fuck.

You okay?

Yeah.

You sure?

No, I'm good.

Yeah.

I'm just used to a different kind of axe.

That's enough.

We need something else.

What about rosemary for these?

Does that really go with beef?

Oh, definitely.

Honey, what can I do for you?

I'm fine.

I'm fine.

It'll wear off.

This has happened before.

You should sit down.

Maybe some ice?

Maybe some frozen peas.

Thanks for being so helpful.

You really suffering?

No.

I'm really... It's fine.

I mean, it's not funny, but it's pretty funny.

It is kind of funny.

I don't even really need these.

Jonathan.

Yeah?

Do you want to help?

Sure.

So why don't you start hanging and if you put

anything where I don't like it, I will yell at you.

Okay.

So are you going to give me some super important life advice now?

No.

Old people are supposed to be insightful and, you know, pass on your experiences so

I remember them at crucial moments in my life.

Well, we old people are just pretending to be insightful to give you the impression

that life adds up to something meaningful and comprehensible.

It works.

Actually, I think that the trick is you just

show up and you give life your best shot.

Although, handwritten thank you notes and being on time don't hurt.

Got it.

Your mom made this one.

Cool.

So is there anything that I should know about you that

the rest of the family is going to find out in the future?

I don't know.

Do you want to have kids?

Yeah, I think so.

You gay?

No.

Trans?

No.

Anything else I don't know about yet?

No.

Sorry.

What do you think you want to be?

I want to be an actor.

Wow.

Wow.

Do they know about that?

Um...

Nobody knows about that except now you do.

Well, I will take your secret to my grave.

You're doing great.

Wow.

Smells amazing.

That is a tremendous tie, Michael.

Well, thank you.

It is a tremendous tie.

Where is she?

Oh, she'll be here.

Jen.

Thank you.

Short measures.

Michael.

Thank you.

I think I might go check.

Hi.

So when do we eat?

Fantastic.

You look amazing.

Wow.

Mom, you look... Thank you.

You look beautiful.

Thanks very much.

Everybody ready?

It's on the front.

Okay, ready?

Everyone say cheese.

Emmentaler.

Emmentaler.

Good, good.

Paul, did you get the tie?

Oh, Dad, could we get one?

Merry Christmas.

Yes.

Got it.

All right, sit.

I'm going to make the toast.

It's a surprise.

To...

wonderful life.

Wonderful life.

Wonderful life.

Mmm.

Mmm.

Wow.

So this is a... It's a French Pinot Noir.

Tastes sunshine?

Good sunshine.

Oh, here's Jonathan.

This is amazing.

Yum.

No, no.

He won't.

I've had wine before.

When?

Well, it's illegal, so... Yeah.

You're not getting any.

So he's killing Grandma.

Ooh, nice comeback, kiddo.

Whoa.

Very smart.

You're going to make an excellent lawyer someday.

Actually, I'm going to be an actor.

An actor?

Yeah.

And isn't that a damn fine thing?

It is.

Well, there's plenty of time to think about it, so... I don't need to think about it.

I know it.

Actually, yeah.

I think Jonathan may have written a little something for his grandma.

What?

Yeah.

Really?

No, please.

It's kind of rough.

I don't want to do it right now.

I've only just written it.

Go for it, dude.

Okay, whatever.

Okay.

Here goes nothing.

Hit me.

Family, family.

More than a man.

It's a clan.

Sometimes you gotta make a stand.

Make a plan.

Raise a hand.

Seize the day.

Find a way.

Embrace the solution.

Feel the right way.

But things are frightening.

Thoughts like lightning.

Emotion heightening.

Sorrow for tomorrow.

And tomorrow time is proud.

Feeling hollow.

But better die alive to strive.

Say goodbye.

Feeling whole.

In your soul.

That's the goal.

So let it roll.

Wonderful.

I'm a big guy.

Please don't laugh.

Please do not encourage him.

This is really great.

No one's watching this?

Thank you.

Very good.

Jonathan, this one's for you.

Cool.

Thanks.

Hmm.

What is it?

A book.

Yeah.

It's Rilke.

Rilke.

Ooh.

What?

$100.

No.

I never had one of these.

How are you supposed to spend it?

Hookers and blow.

Yes.

Do you remember these?

Yeah.

Thank you.

Well, tell them.

It's so beautiful.

She bought this for me.

Where were we?

We went to that little antique shop.

Yeah.

In Venice.

That was a great trip.

The best trips ever.

She saw this as some little antique tunas.

Imagine you wore this.

And you thought you were going to be a Contessa.

A lot of clothes.

Love you, Liz.

Oh.

Do you remember?

Yeah, I remember this.

It's Grandma's ring.

It's the only thing I liked about her.

That is actually true.

And I don't blame you, sweetheart.

She's a nightmare.

Wow.

Michael.

I get a present.

I had to look all over for this.

Oh, my God.

Yes.

He's never going to take that off.

Put it on.

He's never going to take that off.

He's never going to take that off.

What do you think?

Jonathan, I'm going to your parent-teacher conference wearing this on.

This was the first kind of serious piece of

jewelry that I bought for myself at your age.

This is...

This is beautiful.

Oh, look at that.

That really suits you.

Thank you.

You're welcome, sweetheart.

I love it.

Thank you.

You can always use another one.

Oh.

Oh, my God.

Yeah.

Mom needs one.

Oh, it's your favorite color.

Oh, my God.

It matches.

Oh, my God.

Lily, I'm afraid she already has one.

That's not your only present.

I want you to have this.

I've never taken it off since your dad gave it to me.

22 years ago.

Oh, God.

Okay.

Okay.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

I think maybe I haven't taken this off in even longer, but maybe now it's time.

What's next?

No.

Although, although, although we're apart you're a part of my heart but tonight you

belong to me below me way down, way down upon the stream

Jingle bells, jingle bells Jingle all the way Oh,

what fun it is to ride in a one horse open sleigh Hey!

Thank you, husband.

Thanks.

I could die happy right now.

So could I.

I love these plates.

Well, you can have them.

They're yours.

I'll just eat out of the pot then.

Yeah, with your salt and pepper shaker by your side.

Yeah, I'd like that.

I mean, if that's okay with...

Hey, maybe you could pick something too.

How about my vinyl?

You used to love all those R&B records and Nina Simone and Prince...

Yeah, you know, maybe we could wait until you're actually dead.

I think it's time for a joint.

What?

Really?

Oh, what are you looking...

Come on, I was at Woodstock.

What's the big deal?

You weren't.

Well, I was nearby.

I was there in my mind.

Bullshit.

Nowadays, you never meet anyone our age who wasn't at Woodstock.

True.

Allegedly.

Allegedly, I have some.

Oh, what kind?

Just Napa Valley grass.

Not strong enough.

Sweetheart, you get mine.

What?

Mom?

You should never smoke weed unless you are dying.

Okay.

Or having sex.

I already tried it.

What?

Did you hear that?

Excuse me?

What?

I don't want you to end up like some unfocused pothead

who just drifts through life staring at the clouds.

Hey, I'm right here.

Yeah, well, you're not exactly the perfect role model.

And you are.

Just in time.

Oh, come on, Dad.

Oh my God.

Thank you.

Great.

Great.

Let's all get stoned.

Jesus, what is this stuff?

You like?

Are you kidding me?

Yes, that is some next level shit.

You sure?

Mm-hmm.

Okay.

It's been a long time.

We'll hold the smoke.

Count to ten.

Hey, I too was at Woodstock.

Metaphorically.

Okay.

Maybe I wasn't.

Okay.

Come on.

No way.

We're here to do something together, right?

Yes.

Wow.

Hold it.

Oh my God.

Hold it.

When will I feel it?

In a little, just a little bit.

Whoa, yeah.

Just chill.

You okay, Mom?

Just chill.

Good?

I don't know.

Oh no.

Oh my God.

We are terrible parents.

Oh wait, stop.

Does it have tobacco in it?

It's just Michael quit smoking.

Sorry.

It's fine.

I'm sure it's fine.

Okay, you know, I'm really not that bossy.

I'm, I'm actually.

Come on, pass it on, Dad.

Yeah, I'm sorry.

The other way.

You know, I know, I know you guys already talked about it, but I wasn't there.

And, uh...

Anyway, I just wanted to say that I understand.

Well, thank you, Chris.

It's just weird.

You're here now.

But tomorrow you'll be dead.

And we know.

But I'm here now.

I'm really here now.

And, you know, once we set a date...

Actually, it's funny, but it... It...

I stopped worrying about dying and I could focus more on living.

Weren't you afraid?

Are you?

Well, I'm not dying tomorrow.

Well, at some point.

Yes.

I mean, we all know that it's... It's gonna happen.

I mean, we all know that it's...

I just didn't know that I would know that I would know when it was actually happening.

No, but isn't that the point?

I mean...

We sort of... we forget.

In order to just get on with living.

But living is so much better if you don't forget.

Because then you don't get caught up in the bullshit.

And you can take a risk.

And you can bend some rules.

You know?

The days go by too slowly.

And the years go by too fast.

That's so cool.

What's that?

It's music, Dad.

Look, I am...

I am here now.

And I'm full of good food and incredible wine.

And...

I'm satisfied.

And happy.

I have my...

my guy.

My grandson.

My actor slash rapper.

My oldest friend.

And the two kids that I am so proud of.

And the ones that they love.

The two kids I'm so proud of?

Yes.

Why would you be proud of us?

Why wouldn't I be proud of you?

You barely know us.

What?

What is that supposed to mean?

Look, sweetie.

I raised you to be strong and independent.

And you are.

Really?

Really.

No, we're not.

Anna?

Look, I'm sorry to break it to you, but you have two daughters who are,

in their own way, seriously fucked up.

What are you talking about?

I don't think that that is necessarily... Look, I might be crazy, but I'm not stupid.

What are you talking about?

Remember when Chris and I went away for a month?

Yeah.

Well, I wasn't living in the desert.

Where were you?

I was in a psychiatric hospital because I tried to kill myself.

Jesus Christ.

I can't fucking believe you.

Oh, please.

Did she threaten to cut her wrist with a

plastic knife so she could get some attention?

Shut the fuck up, Jennifer.

Because that is what she does.

You didn't raise us to be strong.

You just raised us not to bother you with weakness.

You're like Martha fucking Stewart, Mom.

Anna.

What a great mom.

You wanted everybody to think you were.

Be creative with your mantra.

Be whatever you want to be.

Just don't disturb the grownups while you're doing it.

And be sure to clean up afterwards.

Dad.

Stop.

Dad.

I

think I have to go to bed now.

Let's clear the table.

She wants to be alone for a little bit.

What?

She didn't overstate it.

She's lucky that she survived.

Of course.

That's how she describes it.

Because she wants maximum sympathy.

All right.

What do you say you and I go have a talk?

Come on.

Why wouldn't she tell us?

Well, she said you'd say it was about attention-getting.

That you'd say it was about her.

It was about maximum sympathy.

No, no, no.

Maybe you're right.

But then I gotta ask what made her need that kind of attention?

We'd been on and off for a while.

I wasn't sure.

She wasn't sure the usual shit.

But...

When the ambulance came, I couldn't even bring myself to get in with her.

Hold her hand.

Whatever.

Just be with her.

All I wanted to say was run, and so that's what I did.

Is she okay now?

Is she okay?

No.

Well, she's bipolar.

What does that even mean?

It means a shitload of meds forever.

So why aren't you running now?

I don't know.

I like her.

I like her family.

Look, I...

What?

Your mom seems so sure.

And I really, I really do believe that it's her decision.

What are you trying to say?

Anna's not exactly well.

And so I don't want Anna's perspective to ruin... Say it.

Anna's gonna call 911 when your mom has taken the pills.

Wait.

Wait!

What the hell are you thinking?

You let her do what she wants to do.

You got that?

You let her do what she wants.

You can't make that call.

Do you understand me?

Tell me you understand.

I'm not ready.

I don't care.

What if...

What if Dad is wrong?

Maybe it'll be another six months before it gets real bad.

Maybe a year?

He's a fucking doctor.

He knows what he's doing.

It doesn't matter.

Doctors are wrong all the time.

Mom knows what she wants and he knows how to do it.

That's enough.

I want to know her.

I want her to know me.

Don't you get that?

I need more time.

So do I.

But this is Mom's decision.

It's her life.

It's her death.

I'm sorry you're sick.

I'm not sick.

I'm... Yes you are.

Okay.

What are you doing?

Don't go through my shit.

Xanax.

Syrax.

Don't touch my shit.

You know who they give this stuff to?

They give it to sick people.

I'm not sick.

They just keep things in check.

I'm okay when I take them.

But your brain chemistry is fucked and you can't trust her emotions.

So shut the fuck up from now on.

Let her do what she wants to do.

Look at me.

Look at me.

I am sorry.

That I've not been there for you.

I will be better.

I promise.

I promise.

I will be better.

But this is Mom's decision.

And...

That is how it's gonna be.

Okay?

She understands.

Chris...

Thanks.

Yeah.

Hey.

Uh...

What are you doing?

Looking at photos.

Uh-huh.

Here we are.

Mexico.

Me.

Dad.

Mom.

Liz.

San Francisco.

Xana.

Me.

Dad.

Mom.

Liz.

Hiking.

Banff.

And... Um...

London.

Me.

Anna.

Dad.

Mom.

And Liz.

Her best friend.

Yeah.

Right.

And... His lover.

Something.

No.

No.

I mean...

He told me years ago that Dad and Liz had dated.

You know, in college.

Before Mom even knew him.

I never thought...

Just never put two and two together.

And then...

Last night.

Yeah?

What?

I saw them.

Kissing.

But like... But like...

For real.

They were probably just...

What?

Just... They were probably just...

Comforting each other.

No.

No.

No.

What if... What if he's in love with her?

What if he always was?

I don't think that that's something that...

I mean, wouldn't that cloud his judgement?

You're really tired, honey.

I'm not fucking tired, Michael.

What do you think I should do?

I think you should sleep.

But should I tell Mom?

Should I...

Should I tell... Should I tell them both?

That I will not support this after all?

No.

Your Mom has made her decision.

But what do you think?

Look, Lily's been very clear from the very beginning... What do you think?

What do you think about all of it?

You.

Right here.

Right now.

What do you think?

I think this is a really difficult decision.

And that the family... Do you think anything?

Do you feel?

Yeah, I feel things.

Of course I do!

What?

It's impossible to get any kind of reaction from you!

If I threw this wine in your face, you'd just

tell me what district the grapes were from.

That is not true!

I think I'm...

Caught!

I'm so sorry.

Oh my God.

Honey, here you are.

Will you close the blinds?

You want to sleep some more?

I want to wake up again.

I just woke up one morning and I couldn't remember what healthy felt like.

But it didn't scare me.

It was a relief.

So I cancelled my plans with Chris that night.

I took a shower.

Isn't that weird?

I watched the happy people on TV.

I ate a handful of pills and drank a mug of vodka.

Passed out.

Then Chris came over anyway.

He wanted to surprise me.

She called 911.

The ambulance took me to the hospital and pumped me out.

I stayed three weeks.

They gave me medicine and I still take it and I'll keep taking it.

And that's okay.

Why didn't you tell me?

You always told us to be strong.

Oh Jesus.

Be free.

I didn't want to be free.

I just wanted to feel like me.

I am so sorry.

I am so, so sorry.

So sorry, baby.

You just found out you were sick.

I didn't want you to worry about it.

Oh my God.

You have no idea how happy it would have made me to worry about you.

Let me worry about you.

Oh.

I'm so sorry.

I love you.

I love you, sweet girl.

I'm sorry.

Haha!

Do you want me to... No, sweetie.

I got it.

I got it.

Mommy?

You okay?

Good morning.

Hey.

Hey.

Good morning.

Okay.

Okay.

So.

Today.

Can we all try to just behave as normally as possible?

Just read the Sunday paper and nap.

Play the stock market.

Write a play.

Make a matchstick model of the Empire State Building.

Just a normal Sunday.

I need to have a normal lazy Sunday.

I need that from you.

Okay?

Yeah.

Okay.

Okay.

Great.

Okay.

Good.

Um.

No juice?

Jennifer?

No, I'm not thirsty.

Did I make some coffee?

No.

Jonathan, why don't you pass the juice?

Sure.

Anna?

Thank you.

What?

Would you come with me for a minute?

Okay.

Remember when you were about eight years old?

It was summer.

And you came rushing into the house and you said that

you had seen Dad and Elizabeth kissing in the woods.

And everybody just laughed at you?

Do you remember?

Yeah, I remember.

And people said you were crazy.

And people said you were bad.

Yes.

You said I was bad.

Well, I think you were...

I think Dad and Liz are...

lovers.

Last night, I saw them together.

Think about it.

Every family vacation she's been there, every

important occasion, it's always been Mom, Dad, and Liz.

Why?

I mean, that's not normal.

We've grown up thinking that's normal.

That is not normal.

Okay.

Do we tell Mom?

No.

No, we can't.

We can't.

Can we?

Oh, fuck, I don't know anything anymore.

Look, if he's with Liz, he can't make a rational decision.

What if she's manipulating him?

We've known Liz all our lives.

I don't believe that's her.

I'm not saying she's doing it deliberately, but... but...

We tell Mom we've changed our minds and we're not going along with this anymore.

Yes?

Jonathan.

Go upstairs, please.

Why?

Don't ask questions.

Just go upstairs.

Jonathan.

I want you to go upstairs now.

Too bad.

I don't want you to hear this.

Hear what?

I'm part of this, Mom.

He's right.

He should be here.

What's going on?

Can we just see this through with a bit of ordinary grace?

Ordinary grace, you fucking hypocrite?

Alright, sit down.

Whoa, okay, no, please don't tell me to sit down, okay?

I won't.

I won't sit down.

I won't.

This... This is sick.

Jennifer, whatever it is you want to say, do us all a favor and don't say it.

Everything's been said.

Oh, not quite everything.

Don't do this, Jennifer.

What the hell is going on here?

Maybe you shouldn't go through with it.

Maybe you don't have all the information you need to make an informed decision.

What are you talking about?

Dad?

What?

Dad.

What?

Tell her!

We're not going to let this happen.

It's not right.

Jennifer, we have gone over and over this for months, and we came to the conclusion.

As a family, we agreed that if this is what I want...

But I don't think you know what you want.

How dare you?

We got behind this on the basis of a lot of assumptions.

Assumptions?

What assumptions?

Hey, hey, let her talk.

Please, we're talking with Mom right now, okay?

Dad, not you.

We?

Anna and I agree.

Anna?

Anna.

Yeah, Jennifer and I agree.

I cannot...

No, I cannot back down from this.

No.

Well, we can.

Jennifer, this is not what she needs right now.

You can shut up.

This is not your decision.

It's not yours either.

This is your mother's choice.

Is it?

Really?

Or has she been helped along?

Huh?

What are you saying?

Look, I choose.

I choose.

Look at me.

I choose not to be locked in a body that cannot walk

or talk or eat or drink or even breathe on its own.

I am choosing not to be fed vanilla fucking

flavored protein drinks through a tube in my side.

I choose.

I choose.

I am choosing.

There are moral issues, okay?

Ethical issues.

Do not make my last act on this earth in defiance of you.

Please, don't do that to us.

Jennifer, what's going on here?

I saw you last night.

You saw what?

What did you see?

What did she say?

You two.

What are you talking?

So what?

What are you talking about?

Jennifer.

No, no.

You don't get to speak.

No, no, no.

I really think it's my turn to speak.

You say I'm having some love affair with your father, right?

Well, you are, aren't you?

Aren't you?

Christ.

Jennifer, you know what?

You are always such a fucking prig.

Look how lucky you are.

A husband who adores you, an amazing kid, and still

you're always straightening every picture in the room.

I never managed this.

Family.

Here's my family.

The people I grew up with.

The people I loved and love.

Don't.

Take that away.

Please don't take that away.

You didn't answer the question.

You didn't answer the question, Liz.

Answer somebody.

Answer.

Or I'm gonna call 911.

What?

What?

I'm not kidding.

I'll make the call.

Oh, good.

What will you say?

I'm gonna say there's been a suicide attempt

and that they need to come right away.

Answer me somebody.

Do it.

Anna.

Are you sure you want to do this?

Don't, don't, don't.

Wait, wait, wait.

Of course they're having an affair.

Of course they're having an affair.

I begged them to have an affair.

I implored them to have an affair.

What?

All our lives?

Oh, no.

No, no, no.

How can that be okay?

How can it be okay for my best friend and my husband to love each other?

Don't you see that that makes a space so that I can do this?

Don't you see?

Love is everything.

Love is all there is.

Why didn't you tell us?

Would you have approved?

I'm sorry.

It's okay.

Okay, now I'm scared.

Of course you are.

But maybe you all should...

It's time.

Now?

Now.

Yeah.

I'm...

I'm done.

I can feel it.

I know it's coming toward me and I do not want it.

So if it's okay with you guys, Jen, Anna.

Okay.

But I want to be with you when you die.

Are you strong enough?

Yeah.

Yeah, she is.

I'm with Anna.

Just don't let me die with my mouth open.

Don't be frightened.

Where am I going?

You tell me, kiddo.

Somebody knew.

But tonight you belong to me.

What's next?

No.

Although, although, although we're apart, you're a part of my heart.

But tonight you belong to me.

Just follow me.

Follow me.

Way down, way down upon the stream.

Very, very sweet it will seem.

Once more just to dream in the silvery moonlight.

My honey, I know, I know with the dawn that you will be gone.

But tonight you belong to me.

Just a little only.