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I am thrilled that this day
has finally arrived.

The opening of
the Phoenix Street Free Clinic.

[applause, whooping]

And of course, the dedication

to my late husband,
Douglas McBride.

I'd like
to extend a special thanks

to all our friends,
and especially my children

for coming out today.

I only hope
that I did Doug proud.

You did, Vanessa.

Doug would be thrilled
to have his name associated

with someplace that is
going to do so much good

for so many people.

And your speech didn't just
acknowledge

how wonderful of a man he was.

It really captured
how compassionate

and dedicated
he was as a doctor.

Yeah, Nicole's right.

It was a lovely tribute.

Dad would have thought
it was on point.

Thanks, Donnell.

Uh, how are you holding up,
sweetheart?

Okay, I guess.

It's really hard
to hear you talk about Dad

in the past tense.

But I like that everyone coming
through the clinic doors

will get to see his name
on that plaque.

It kind of keeps him alive
in a way.

I can't take the credit.

The dedication was
Joey's suggestion.

Congratulations, you two.

This is a huge achievement.

You should be proud.

Raise a glass, partner.

We did it.

Yes, we did.

And now that
the clinic's doors are open,

that means another center
is bound to close.

And I'll drink to that.

Meaning?

Meaning this is the last time

that I'll refer to you and I
as "we."

Now that everything's
up and running,

I expect I'll be seeing
a lot less of you.

Well, that would be tragic,

since we worked
so well together,

and I have become quite fond
of the liquor

that you keep in the back room
of your casino.

I'll send you a case.

Save you a trip.

[laughs]

He's hilarious.

Ooh, I love a man
who plays hard to get.

Well, still no word from Kat.

Do you know why she wanted us
to get together?

She's giving 007 vibes again,

but we worked out our recent
beef, so it can't be that.

She enjoys the suspense
of keeping us in the dark.

Like I said...

Sorry I'm late.

Thanks for coming.

Hi.

I figured it'd be easier

to catch both of you up
at the same time.

What's the big news?

I found a place to live,

and I'm moving in tonight.

♪ ♪

I knew you were planning
to leave,

but I didn't expect it
to be instant.

Neither did I.

Where I'm going is perfect.

When you know, you know.

Well, I love that for you.

So, spill.
Where you off to, coz?

Let me guess. You chose
the condo you texted me about,

didn't you?
The one with the view?

This place is so much better.

Close to the studio.

Ideal location.

1228 Jasmine Lane.

But that's...

Yup. I'm moving in
with the grands.

Would you mind taking
a few photos of the kids and me?

DEANNA:
We already have a bunch

-by the clinic, Mom.
-Sure,

-but those were formal.
-KIAL: I'll go get some drinks.

Plus, I can never have enough
photos with my two heartbeats.

Get in here.

Wait. Uh, he should be here
with us for this one.

You're right, sweetheart.

♪ ♪

[camera clicks]

Ms. Thomas, congratulations.

Glad you could make it,
Dr. Feel Good.

Excuse me?

You're so handsome.

It makes me feel good
just looking at you.

I'm glad to see Leslie wound up

and pointed away from me.

Poor guy.

I just wish she didn't
lay it on so thick all the time.

I don't know if I ever
officially thanked you

for helping Mama fund
the clinic.

Where did you learn
all the people skills

that your mother did not?

Probably from cleaning up
all her messes.

But I am grateful to you, Joey.

Mama is, too,
even if she hasn't said it.

All I did was
transfer some money.

You did a hell of a lot
more work on the ground.

The clinic never
would have opened on time

if it wasn't for you.

And getting Derek Baldwin
on board as general manager.

Good call.

He did a great job
at the opening, didn't he?

Agreed.

Too bad he couldn't
join us here.

He wanted to stay and make sure
things are running smoothly.

He still has
that fireman's work ethic.

Oh, speaking of which,
I better go check in with him.

Excuse me.

Mind if I have a word?

Because I think it's time
you and I had a one-on-one.

I presume you're not here
to talk about the clinic.

I am not.

Since we have a double date
coming up, I thought,

why not get the initial
awkwardness out of the way?

Good idea.

It would be awkward
to be trapped in a booth

with one of Vanessa's
overprotective friends.

You must have been
just as excited as I was

when Vanessa floated the idea
of us going to dinner together.

Not at the top of my
social calendar wish list, no.

And yet, we both agreed.

Vanessa's hard to say no to.

You aren't known for
playing along just to be nice.

Vanessa matters... a lot.

I'm glad to hear.

She is my best friend,
next to my sister,

and it is clear
she is very taken with you.

I am concerned
about complications

inherent to your relationship.

Noted.

But she is happy,

so I will be supportive

unless and until there's
a reason for me not to be.

You know, your sister Dani
gave me a similar warning.

And I respect the Dupree sense
of loyalty

and protectiveness
when it comes to Vanessa.

Look at that, we have something
in common after all.

I see that you have stayed out
of the spotlight,

even though we both know

this clinic wouldn't
have been possible without you.

Never been one
for the spotlight.

True, but it's interesting,

you also kept your distance
from Vanessa.

Well,
I'm not an insensitive jerk.

This is a very sensitive day
for the family.

I thought that Vanessa could use
the time and the space

to focus on her kids.

Especially since
it's Deanna's first time home--

first time in their home--

since her father died.

I'm aware of the circumstances.

Look, all I want

is for today to go as smoothly
as possible for Vanessa.

-Eva.
-Okay, I'll call you right back.

Eva, this is Deanna and Donnell.

-Ah.
-Eva is Leslie's daughter.

-Great to meet you two.
-Hi.

Mom said you were a lifesaver.

I don't know about all of that.

Don't be modest.
Eva is the only person

who can keep her crazy mother
on track on a good day.

-Mom, chill.
-No, she's not wrong.

And your mother
is pretty impressive

because she's the only one
who can hold her own with mine.

So, there's that.

You'd be perfect
as a volunteer at the clinic.

So, what can I say
to get you on the roster?

I'd happily consider it,
but I cannot commit.

Oh, surely
you don't have a problem

working under a strong woman.

No issues working under a woman.

My free time is very limited.

I'm already committed
to several hospitals

-and rehab facilities, though.
-Hmm.

Oh, honey, I am so sorry
to keep you waiting.

No worries.

What's wrong, Nic?

You afraid
that this fine man might enjoy

spending more time with me?

Kial, do I have a reason

to worry about you leaving
this function without me?

-No.
-[Leslie laughs]

Well, maybe next time.

I'm going to take off.

-I just wanted to say goodbye.
-Oh.

Thanks, Joey, for honoring
our father this way.

I was proud to give
to such a good cause.

And I'm glad
that you both could make it.

It meant a lot to your mother.

Yes. Having you both here
meant the world.

It was nice to meet you.

Well, let me walk you out.

I have one last matter

to discuss with you
about the clinic.

Sure.

So, where do you guys go
to college?

-We're both at Banneker.
-Oh.

-Cool. Do you like it?
-DONNELL: Of course.

It's the best HBCU
in the nation.

Facts.

Well, my boyfriend is
an academic advisor there.

Oh, nice. What's his name?

EVA:
Izaiah Hawthorne.

VANESSA:
Deanna and Donnell

will be headed back to campus
this evening, so...

I'll be over later.

It's been a long day.
Call me tomorrow.

Hey, are we okay?

Absolutely.

Go enjoy your time
with your kids.

I will.

I started packing up and
moving things out this morning,

but it's gonna take some time
before I get everything out.

I wouldn't have predicted
this particular move,

but if it works for you
and the grands, you do you.

Thanks. And I'm hoping
my very handsome

and very athletic boyfriend
will lend a hand.

Sure, but, um, what happened
to wanting your own space?

Why would you move in
with Anita and Vernon?

Have you seen their home?
It's giving palace.

And it's only temporary
until I find the right place.

You know, I'm... I'm not
putting a timeline on it.

Okay, then what's the rush?

Chelsea and Madison need
their privacy.

Plus, I've already
lost enough sleep

listening to them go at it
every night.

-Madison's a screamer.
-Kat.

Well, she really is.

-TMI.
-KAT: The point is,

the brides-to-be
can start playing house

without me cramping their style.

You get to keep
your bachelor pad,

and I get my own
luxurious guest wing

under the roof
of the people I love.

Everybody wins.

I'm not so sure about that.

Kial, these are Vanessa's kids,
Donnell and Deanna.

-Nice to meet you.
-It's nice to meet you both.

Donnell will be
Samantha's escort at cotillion.

Mm. I have to admit,

this whole cotillion thing
is very new to me,

but thank you to Nicole
for helping me along with it.

Yeah, no,
it's-it's the move right now.

And my sister went through it,
too.

-Hmm.
-Samantha will be very lucky

to have you by her side.

I'm still blown away that
the free clinic was her idea.

Yeah, it's incredible.

Yeah. Too bad
she couldn't be here

after putting in
that kind of effort.

And it's a... it's a nice party.

For a bunch of old people?

I'd never say that.

Well, Samantha did get
to attend the opening,

but you know how it is
when you're trying

to get yourself into
a good school like Banneker.

-Every test counts.
-Mm.

Exams wait for no one.

So, Donnell,

besides being the cotillion
hero, what do you enjoy?

I guess I'm a lot like Samantha.

I... I enjoy school.

Definitely doesn't feel
like a chore.

And... and I'm pretty busy
on campus with my fraternity.

We... we do a lot
of community service work.

Hmm. That's nice.

Um, yeah. I was kind of going
down that same pathway

until the MCAT-- it kind of
took up all my spare time.

NICOLE:
How are things going
for you at school?

Fine. My friends and professors
have been understanding,

and I have Donnell.

He helps.

Well, I am glad that you have
a strong support system.

I know that you were
seeing a therapist a way back.

Are you still
keeping those sessions going?

Yeah.

You've been seeing Mom
a lot more lately.

How is she?

Without Dad, I mean.

I think Vanessa is doing well,
all things considered.

Yeah, I figured.

Watching her, you know?

I see you're enjoying
the festivities

with all your friends.

Well, I'm fine being alone
for a hot minute,

unlike all the insecure women
in Fairmont Crest.

So, what'd you do?

Scoop Joey out of here early
just to keep him safe from me?

You know, your little buddy
Nicky over there--

she put on a big show earlier,

marking her territory.

All you ladies need
to get a grip.

I'm just having fun.

I'm not looking
to steal anybody's man.

History says otherwise.

Ted was different.

Hey, here's a thought.

How about we not do this now?
Hmm?

Today's about the clinic, right?

You good?

Why does everybody
keep asking me that?

Because everyone knows
today is hard.

And I can tell
you're totally not okay.

And you're okay?

You're okay with everything
going on here?

I agree with Eva

that we should stay focused
on the point of today.

So as much
as it pains me to admit,

you did a nice job, Leslie,

with your portion
of the program.

Hmm.

Guess it wasn't so bad
after all, huh?

I was impressed by your words
about the clinic

and how kind you were
when you introduced me.

Well, in some ways,
we aren't that different.

I mean, two mothers who want to
look good in front of our kids.

Hey, Mom, quick question.

How long have you been screwing
Joey Armstrong?

I'm a little lost here, Kat.

Your grandparents lived with you
while you were growing up,

so I figured you'd understand.

They moved in with us because
it made sense financially

and so that
they could be around for me.

But you're fully grown and
hardly need to be taken care of.

I mean,
you have tons of options.

Mm. If you're worried
about things changing, don't be.

I'll still stay at your place,

and you can stay with me
whenever you like.

With Anita
and Vernon Dupree there?

Well, you're not a screamer,
so what's the problem?

I didn't need to know that,

but even if you do get loud,
that house is so big,

no one would ever
really hear you.

Comforting.

I don't think Anita and Vernon
would want me sleeping over.

Besides,
your grandmother is sick.

There's a zillion entrances.

You can sneak in and out
without them ever knowing.

Like I'm in high school?

What's the big deal?

As far as Gran's sickness
is concerned,

that's one of the reasons
why I asked to stay with them.

I want to be there to help out.

How hard did you
have to sell them on it?

It didn't take much convincing.

They welcomed me with open arms.

-Really? That's good, then.
-Yeah.

It just shows how overwhelming
things have been for them.

Look, I-I think it's selfless
that you want to help out,

but you should know
that some days are

gonna be hard on you, too.

I doubt it.
They have a full staff,

best medical care available.

It was really hard for my mom
when Abuelita got sick.

It's a lot to deal with
day in and day out.

You don't think I'm up for it.

That's not what I'm saying.

I just want to make sure
that you're prepared because...

Because what?

Because you're
all over the place, Kat.

-Well, so are you.
-CHELSEA: Okay.

Uh, uh, maybe
we should dial it down.

First, you wanted
to move in with me,

but when I pointed out
that you really weren't ready,

then you went all in
on getting your own place.

Now you're switching lanes
again.

You need to think things
all the way through, mi amor.

Have you considered
the long-term consequences?

You're trying
to make it sound like

you're concerned
about how it'll affect me,

but what I'm hearing is,

you don't like
how it'll affect you.

Please, Deanna,
where is this coming from?

You don't even need
to answer my question.

I'm not blind, Mom,
and I'm not stupid.

Can we just...
just go somewhere and talk,

just the two of us?

Yes, but maybe
you should go discuss this

where there isn't an audience.

What's the problem? I bet this
isn't news to anybody in here.

Look around. Do you see
a single shocked face?

It's not like
you were trying to hide it.

I saw the way you and Joey
were looking at each other.

This isn't the way to do this.

What kind of man comes in here
and dedicates a building

to your dead husband
and drops all that money

unless he's getting something
in return?

And, clearly,
you're serving it up.

Deanna, stop.

-Don't tell me what to do.
-Please, Deanna.

You like to act like you're
this fierce, independent woman.

You can't even go six months
without a man.

You're pathetic.

And selfish.

When Dad was drinking and
gambling through his problems,

where were you when you were
supposed to be helping him?

You have no idea how badly
I wish I could have saved him.

Not bad enough.

How long?

How long until
you started screwing him?

And how could you choose him?

Joey Armstrong, the man
whose casino killed my dad.

Enough!

Dad died
because he made the choice

to go out and drink
and get behind the wheel.

Okay,
it was a terrible decision,

but that's not on Joey.

Why are you defending
a man like him?

Because this isn't
what you think.

You don't even know him.

And you do? Huh.

You do... really know him?

Please, honey, if we can just go
somewhere and talk about this.

I don't want
to hear your excuses.

I can't even look at you.

As long as you are
with that man,

I will never come back here.

-Deanna, please!
-No.

I'll go, Mom.

You-you just stay here.

After all this time,
Deanna finally came home,

and now she may never come back.

She was only reacting
in the heat of the moment.

She still loves you
and needs you so much.

I expected her to be upset

whenever she learned about Joey,
but I...

I wasn't prepared for that.

I was living in a fantasy.

You were hoping for the best.

Well, now it's time
to face reality.

Maybe,

but Deanna isn't reacting only
to you dating another man.

[stammers]
I could never replace Doug.

It's not like
I've forgotten about him.

Deanna can't grasp that.

Her emotions are raw.

She's still processing the pain
from losing her father,

and she is looking to blame
anybody for his death but Doug.

And right now,
"anybody" is Joey and me.

I... Yeah, I feel like
I can't breathe...

whenever I think about how much
Deanna's struggling.

I-I thought
she was doing better.

We... we went to that show
the other night.

We... we had a lovely evening.

Would you mind
if I say something?

I mean, I don't know
if it'll help.

I can't guarantee it,
but it might.

Please.

When my, uh...
when my wife died,

my kids were the only reason
why I got out of bed every day.

Eventually, there were
more good days than bad.

But even then, out of nowhere,
something would strike a memory,

and a pain would come...
crashing over my face.

And I just had to keep
reminding myself

that they were the only reason
why I had to do this.

Were they angry at you?
Did they blame you?

Uh, my eldest, no.

My youngest...

Man, Noah, he was tough.

But they're kids.

What can you do?

You are dealing with your loss

so that you can be there
for them.

Deanna doesn't have
any compelling reasons

to fight through her grief.

This is the first time
she's dealing

with anything this devastating.

She doesn't have the perspective

that comes with age
and experience.

Well, Donnell's just as young.

Because he's managed to lean
into what gives him purpose.

His school, his fraternity.

His father's memory.

And taking care of you.

Everybody deals with grief
in their own unique way.

So...

what do I do about Deanna?

All you can do is love her.

Don't bombard her,
but keep reaching out,

letting her know
that you're there,

even if she doesn't believe it.

In time, and with help
from her therapist,

she will find her reasons

to keep putting one foot
in front of the other.

And it won't be
because of pain and resentment.

See? I'm not the only one
who can get a little messy.

Really? It's about you?

You can't show any compassion?

You know I am not the one
to get all soft about things.

But if I were
that kind of person,

then I'd say I feel bad for
Blondie and the two little D's.

Auntie, they are not bouncing
back from this anytime soon.

Okay, we need
to talk about this.

Oh, now you want to talk?

Well, you can start by
telling me how long you've known

that Mom was messing around
with a criminal.

I'll make it easy for you.

Couple of weeks? Months?

End of last year.

And you didn't tell me?

Do you really wonder why?

This is not what you think.

Then tell me what it is,
because the way I see it,

Dad is dead because Mom
wasn't paying attention

-to the warning signs.
-Yeah, no.

I got that from the scene
you just caused.

-And I had every right to.
-Will you just shut up?

Damn.

Okay, it is my turn
to do the talking.

I think this tricycle
needs to be a bicycle.

I'll check on you later.

Okay. You're not totally wrong.

Your decision to live in a wing

at Anita and Vernon's
does affect me,

but I would have thought
you'd discuss it with me first.

I only came up
with the idea yesterday,

and you were at court.

It didn't occur to me

that I should wait
and ask for your permission.

Not ask, just talk.

See how I might feel
because that's what couples do.

We discuss things.

But by your own admission,

I didn't even cross your mind.

It's a real shame that the
beautiful event we had today

ended on such a terrible note
for the McBrides.

But social media
and the local news are saying

the opening was fantastic.

As they should.
And what else are they saying?

How it's gonna fill a real void
in the underserved community,

and how doctors

with some serious cred
are volunteering there.

Mm-hmm. Okay.
What about the rest of it?

The rest of what?

Girl, I did not get all dressed
up like this for nothing.

Fishing for compliments?

Mama, you already know
how you did.

I don't remember a damn minute

of what happened
behind that podium.

It's like I was just...

I was nervous as hell,

worried I'd come off as
some imposter to those people.

You know,
this is my time to prove

that I am just as worthy
of respect

as any of them
up in Fairmont Crest.

Mama, stop.

The truth is,

you were amazing.

Really?

Yeah, and I can prove it to you.

It's oddly quiet.

Oh, I gave the entire staff
the day off.

I'd actually blocked the
whole day off for the opening.

I just didn't plan for such
an abrupt and unsettling ending.

I feel for Vanessa.

Your youngest son--

did it ever get as bad
as it did today?

Not quite.
You hurt for them,

but you realize
there's not a damn thing

you could do to help
and make it easier.

I can relate.

I would have done anything

to trade places
and shoulder my kids' pain.

[sighs]
As a parent, I understand

why Vanessa did what she did--

leaving Deanna in school
for as long as she was

in her little bubble.

But as a psychiatrist, I know

that you can do your kids
a disservice

by shielding them from the
things that they need to know.

And what about as a best friend?

I am absolutely heartbroken
for that family.

But I know this.

Donnell and Vanessa
will not give up on Deanna.

I just pray
that things don't get worse

for that family
before they get better.

Everyone's been
tiptoeing around you for months.

You know, treating you
like you're made of glass.

Well, news flash.

You're not the only one
who's hurting.

I've done my best to step up
and take care of you

and to take care of Mom.

But I lost Dad, too.

And I... and I feel that
every single day.

Mom lost her husband,
who she'd been with

literally since she was younger
than we are now.

Exactly, and now Mom's moving on
with Joey Armstrong

like those years don't count.

So how can you sit there
wearing Dad's watch

and be okay with that?

When I first found out what
was up, I-I felt a way, okay?

Um... I had a ton of questions.

But then I talked to Mom,

and I-I spent time
with her and Joey.

I tried to understand
the situation, and I realized

that she was still grieving.

And everyone handles that
in their own way.

But when Mom tried
to talk to you,

you just got salty
and-and you walked off.

Well, there's nothing
that she could say

that would make me
feel different.

'Cause it's easier for you
to judge than listen.

You've decided that

if me and Mom aren't burying
our heads in the sand

and refusing to accept the fact
that Dad isn't coming back,

that we're doing it wrong.

I know that Dad
isn't coming back,

but I'm choosing
to honor his memory

instead of pretending
like he never existed.

What happened?

You were right.

Feel free to shower me
with I-told-you-so's.

Never. Never.

But you're welcome to my drink

if you think it would help.

All right,
tell me what happened.

My daughter hates me.

I didn't mean to take you
for granted or shut you out.

I should have been
more thoughtful, and I'm sorry.

It's all right, mi amor.

And thanks for saying that.

Apologies are hard,
and it means a lot to me.

I guess after all this time,

I'm still getting used to being
a real girlfriend.

I just want to be in on
the important conversations.

-Know what I mean?
-Yes, and you will be.

Actually, I want to share
something with you right now.

Oh? What's that?

God, I wish I would have known
you during my family crisis.

I just really
could have used somebody

who was just grounded to talk to

when everything
kind of fell apart for me.

You must have had a friend or
somebody you could confide in.

I didn't want to talk to anyone
about what I was going through.

Not even a therapist
after your wife died?

Oh, my kids, yes.

They were my priority.

But... [laughs]

me, no.

You know, I thought
I could just do

the whole tough-man,
he-man act, you know?

'Cause that's what
we men do, right?

It was a crock,
but that's how I was raised.

And then you decided
to take a job

where you travel and move around
every three months.

I figured if I didn't sit still,

then I wouldn't
have to outrun the pain.

You can't outrun
what's living inside of you.

Yeah, no kidding.

But you have decided

to settle down here,
for a while at least.

Well, you know that thing,

that thing that's inside of me--

it's... shifting.

Something that I want...

I don't want to run from.

[both laughing]

I took a video of your speech
so you can see for yourself.

Look at this.
This is my favorite part.

-You ready?
-I hope so.

LESLIE:
When my daughter was little,

there were times
I couldn't afford

to take her to the doctor.

I'd lie awake, hoping
she'd get better on her own.

A free clinic like this
would have felt like a miracle.

So today, I stand here,

thinking of every family
that's ever gone without,

proud to offer care,

dignity and hope
right here in your community.

Ooh. Okay.

I, um... [clears throat]

...wasn't sure
I should share all that. Ah.

You spoke from your heart,
and it was really moving,

especially to all the people
who need that clinic.

Now they know that someone
who started it understands them.

-You did good today, Mama.
-Oh.

Thank you.

You know as well as I do that
Dad would want Mom to be happy.

And from what I've seen,
Mom is very happy with Joey.

Is he the type of guy
I would have chosen for her?

Hell no.

But he is who she chose
for her own reasons.

We're not inside
that relationship.

And she shouldn't
have to give up on that

because you're miserable

and want everybody else
to be miserable, too.

You think that I want
to feel like this?

I think you're afraid
to move on.

Afraid of letting go
of these feelings

because you're afraid
that you'll let go of Dad.

But that's not possible.

We will carry on all the love

and all the lessons he taught us
in everything we do.

For the rest of our lives.

That is how
we will honor his memory.

I can imagine what went down
after I left the party.

She wouldn't even look at me
when I said goodbye.

Did she put something together
between us?

She saw something between us,

and she put it together.

She-she ripped into me
in front of everyone.

"Angry" doesn't begin
to describe it.

She was enraged.

Vitriolic. I...

I hardly recognized her.

I'm so sorry.

I can't imagine
how much that must hurt.

Like... like my heart's
been severed

by someone I love
more than my own life.

I-I didn't even get to explain

because as soon as she was
finished excoriating me,

she just... she stormed out.

Do you need help
tracking her down?

No, no.

Donnell went after her,
and I know she's safe, and...

she doesn't want
to talk to me right now.

Um, a-as much as I...
I wanted to...

needed to tell you
what happened,

it's not the only reason
I'm here.

Deanna said something
that I can't get out of my mind.

And what's that?

Uh...

she asked me if I even knew you.

It was like a... like a bolt
exploded through me,

because if my kid sat me down

and asked me basic questions
like, "Where's Joey from?"

or, "What's his family like?"

I couldn't begin to answer.

I...

I couldn't... begin to answer

because you've barely told me
anything about your past.

Well, I thought
you liked the mystery.

This whole "still water runs
deep" thing I've got going on.

I'm serious, Joey.

If you and I are going
to have a chance

at a future together, I need
to know who you really are.

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