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Transparent Cradle (Toumei na Yurikago)

Episode 08 - A Pregnant Woman's Anxiety

You can see the heartbeat.

The CRL is 16 millimeters... It's about 8 weeks and 4 days.

The expected birth date is...

December 3rd?

Correct.

I've been studying books.

Do you have a job?

Yes.

Don't push yourself.

Miyamoto-san! Good morning!

- You're here early. - I wanted to get it done quickly.

I forgot that my youngest had swimming class today.

My oldest has cram school and I have part time work.

That's no good, please rest today.

That's right.

I'm already past my prime.

I was surprised to find out I was pregnant this year.

My husband also said that a third child would be unreasonable.

I'm glad I made a reservation for an abortion soon.

Nakamori-san! Are you okay Nakamori-san?

Try to return home by 3 o'clock.

Are you okay?

I'm sick of it.

It shouldn't be like this...

I had to be removed from a project at work and I'm not confident of becoming a mother.

I want to run away...

It's tiresome.

But it isn't going to last much longer.

If I got pregnant...

I thought I'd be happy every day.

I didn't think I'd be so anxious...

My mother who had three children told me

that even by the third child, she was still anxious.

Pregnancy causes anxiety.

The root of anxiety for pregnant woman

comes from thinking about whether or not they can protect their child.

That's evidence that you're already a splendid mother.

Am I really?

I think so.

Do your best.

I will.

Nakamori-san is a section chief at her company?

She's the type that thinks things through and acts accordingly

but she hit a wall due to her pregnancy.

Since some things can't go as planned.

You're not eating?

You can eat this Ao-chan.

That's bad for your health.

But this is Sensei's.

Sensei keeps the hot water on.

Must be sleeping.

There's only one today?

Yes.

Goodbye.

Excuse me.

Is it okay to leave from here?

This is the side entrance, please use the entrance.

I'm sorry.

Really?

Right now, I'm 8 weeks. The scheduled date is December 3rd.

Sayako-san is...

I'm glad.

You've been preparing for pregnancy for awhile.

I was going to report it when I entered a stable period

since I didn't want to trouble you.

- I'll back you up. - Thank you very much.

Me too!

I'm just agreeing. Sorry...

Thank you.

But please do your job as usual.

I'll continue working until the middle of November.

After that, please allow me two weeks for maternity leave.

Mochizuki-san is preparing to take the midwife exam.

But that's just after giving birth to your baby.

The exam takes place in February, so it's fine.

I'll return to work at the end of February.

I've also found a good nursery.

Don't work too hard.

I'll be fine.

- Congratulations Sayako-san! - Thank you very much.

A boy? A girl?

Well...

- I don't know what to do know. - Why are you like an amateur?

Sayako-san was going to become a mother.

Sayako-san is surely not worried about anything.

Saya, are you okay?

Are you okay Saya?

Sorry I'm not feeling very good.

Um... can you come out just once? Saya!

I can't get out right now! Do it outside!

Huh?

I'll do it at the station!

Bye, I'm going.

Hurry and go already!

Saya, you know, I looked it up

and morning sickness means the baby is healthy.

So it's fine.

Bye... I'm heading off now.

Looked it up?

Who are you talking to?

I'm an obstetric nurse!

Are you okay Sayako-san?

Yeah.

Nakamori-san needs an IV drip.

- Shall I ask someone else to do it? - I'll go.

- But... - Don't worry so unnecessarily.

I'm pregnant, not sick.

Sorry.

But, really, I'm fine.

Um... Um...

- Sayako-san, hey... Hey! - What? What is it?

Wrong?

The IV drip for Nakamori-san that's currently on the stand,

I think Okazaki-san is planning to induce.

It's getting worse and worse.

After all, being pregnant is scary.

I'm very sorry.

It's fortunate that no atonin was added to the IV drip.

I don't think there was any impact.

Even so, this is unforgivable.

I see.

I'm truly sorry.

I will definitely ask others to check it out later.

Please do.

Since this was decided last week...

Can you dispose of the gauze?

Yes.

When cleaning is finished, should I have Ohno-san go to the delivery room?

Please do. It'll be a help.

Let me help!

Kawai-san, aren't you bad around blood?

For half a year, I've witnessed operations in the operating room.

Huh?

What is it?

Obstetrics is a bloody business.

If you say you're afraid of blood, then you're not fit to work here, right?

Bloody...?

What's that?

I'm home.

Don't turn on the lights.

Huh?

Having the light on in the evening hurts my eyes.

Understood.

Listen.

Yeah?

Why don't you quit your job?

Honestly, you seem tired.

Now my income alone is enough.

As a nurse, isn't your job something that can be continued at any time?

I won't quit.

Please cooperate.

You said that we should have a child.

No, you said it's what you wanted to do so...

Then what?

Did you not want it?

No, that's not it.

It's you who's going to give birth

but I feel tired when you do.

Even working full time...

It's fine to do as you like.

You're always like this.

Even now that we're married.

I even had to ask you to marry me.

What is it?

Why do I always have to decide big things?

You're the one who gets uncomfortable if you can't make the decisions.

What?

Sit down.

Okay.

Mochizuki-san, you no longer have to take the night shift.

Huh?

No, I'm fine.

I think my morning sickness will settle soon.

But one day you won't be able to work the night shift.

You can't work at night after you have a child.

Well...

Just working in the day would be sufficient.

You're a nurse that draws people in.

Don't try to give me temporary peace of mind.

Obstetrics is a 24 hour workplace.

If I can't do the night shift,

then wouldn't it be impossible for me to work properly as an obstetric nurse?

It wouldn't!

If you force yourself, it'll effect your child.

If you keep working selfishly,

then isn't the child pitiable?

Firstly, physically speaking,

a pregnant woman's fatigue burdens the baby in her stomach.

Don't you know that?

I would like to be like Sakaki-san.

Huh?

Pregnant women are rushed to obstetrics 24 hours a day.

Yui-sensei has his hands full with delivering babies.

Therefore, I want to become a certified midwife.

You can't want everything.

Since you chose to have a child.

Kawai-san can take the night shift.

You are now able to control your behavior.

You can attend school and work without a hindrance on your social life.

You want to stop taking the medicine?

I'm anxious about not having the medicine.

It's like the amulets are gone.

I'm sorry but I want to stop.

Why?

- Ouch! - I'm sorry!

Ao-chan!

Yosuke-san...

I've been wearing this the whole time, huh?

Seems so.

Geez. It must have been that mischievous brat at the nursery.

You seem to be well liked.

You seem happy about that.

And today?

Is Mitsuki-chan sick?

Well, she's been crying and not feeling well.

I was told it's tooth decay.

Tooth decay?

Yeah...

Mitsuki-chan has already grown teeth?

Amazing.

I was told there's no need yet to use a toothbrush.

Yet in 7 months, she has tooth decay.

She doesn't have any injuries.

Even though I'm proud that's she's a good and healthy child

it's impossible to live without injury forever.

Even if they get sick or injured,

all you can do is care for them and smile.

Health is just like this.

Right?

Well, how can you live without getting sick or injured?

But health

is good for toughening kids.

How cute.

Can you increase the medicine to six tablets a day?

You got it from a family doctor.

It isn't working at all.

I can't work like this.

Even if you increase the medicine, it won't be harmful.

Working is important.

If you take the job of obstetrician away from me now, then nothing remains.

That's why I understand.

Those feelings that you can't let go of work.

But you want to say that women are different?

No, I have tried not asking pregnant women what's more important to them, their work or their baby.

It's almost intimidating to make that choice.

That's right.

But if you've decided to have a child

there's no room for that choice to start with.

Mochizuki-san, you've decided to give birth, haven't you?

Yes.

If that's the case, then you should give priority to yourself and your baby.

If your physical condition is bad and you can't do your job, then please take a rest first.

Pregnant women shouldn't do more than necessary.

That's the same as putting your unborn child in danger.

I understand that.

But some people have to work.

If you don't work, will you not be able to eat tomorrow?

You're intimidating.

I know that.

Your current bad condition could be alleviated with resting.

Please take the day off.

Sayako-san!

If think your body feels the way it does

because your baby is telling you to take a rest.

Your baby is also worried about you.

Yeah.

Sorry for bothering you.

Please apologize to everyone for me.

Nakamori-san?

Mochizuki-san...

I don't feel good...

Miya... Miyamoto-san!

Nakamori-san! Nakamori-san!

Are you okay?

Why?

You can give birth.

Don't say things like you don't like it anymore or you want to run away!

Don't you have a lot of money?

You live in luxury!

If you don't want to give birth then don't!

Huh?

It hurts... It hurts...

Stomach... Did you hurt your stomach?

Hello, Ao-chan?

Nakamori-san needs to go to the hospital, her stomach was hurt.

Get a stretcher or a wheelchair please!

What should I do?

Please hold on!

Let's protect your baby!

You didn't hit your head, right?

Miyamoto-san?

Miyamoto-san!

I'm sorry...

I'm sorry...

- Ouch! - Put her on the delivery table.

- Kawai-san, help me. - Okay.

Sensei's on his way, prepare the ultrasound.

- Take her jacket off. - Okay.

- Ao-chan, prepare the sphygmomanometer. - Okay. - It hurts!

You'll be fine Yayoi-san.

Do your best!

- It hurts... It hurts... - What's the situation?

Her heart rate is stable. The ultrasound is being prepared.

- Roger that. Please remove her pants. - Okay.

Yayoi-san, Sensei is here now. You'll be fine.

- Do your best! - Raise them.

The baby is definitely okay.

I'm glad...

I'm glad!

I've been told she had an abortion here,

there was no trouble with that?

Right.

The surgery went well.

She came here with her husband.

Along with the risk of having a child at 41,

due to the fact that there would be a high economic burden,

she wanted an abortion.

Where are your children?

It's already evening.

It's fine.

The oldest child is there today.

I see.

Is it a girl?

The youngest is a boy...

I said it before.

As long as they're okay.

And your husband?

There were a lot of people giving up like I was,

that's why I was convinced.

But, from that day...

Whenever I see a baby or a pregnant woman, for some reason...

Why didn't I think about giving birth to my child?

It might have been impossible,

I should have thought it through.

Even though I can't give birth now...

I should have told you I wanted to give birth!

Sayako-san!

Sensei! Head nurse! Sayako-san...

- Are you okay Mochizuki-san? - Mochizuki-san!

You can give birth.

You live in luxury!

Excuse me!

Excuse me!

I'm Mochizuki!

Excuse me!

Anyone there?

How annoying...

Sorry, thank you for the help.

No problem, she's this way.

Right now, she's getting an IV...

Are you okay Saya?

Saya?

- Don't go around saying unnecessary things. - Is your hand okay?

I'm fine.

- You're so loud, calm down. - Huh?

My IV will be done in 10 minutes.

Okay.

This is the first time I've entered this room.

I caught a glimpse of the operating room.

It's the delivery room.

It's amazing.

Today, you responded quickly so the crisis wasn't too big.

After all, being a nurse is your calling.

That's right.

That's why I want to work.

What's wrong?

I like this job and have more than twice the experience of ordinary people.

I'm also confident.

Why do I have to give it up?

You don't have to give it up, you can keep working.

But I can't do it like this, due to my condition.

I'm different.

I've tried my best to be able to do it.

Actually, being pregnant and doing the night shift may be impossible.

The midwife exams too.

If my returning causes my child to cry,

I probably won't want to come to work.

I'll be stepping away from my own ideals.

But I'm healthy, have a home, a job and money.

I'm able to conceive normally and have a child.

If I want anymore than that, it's a luxury.

Even so, I'm still thinking about it.

I don't want to give up.

A mother like this...

This poor child.

I've thought about how to support her.

Like the housework or childcare.

If you work hard, anything is possible.

Right.

But the most difficult thing is that I can't help.

I want to say something to her

and I want to help her but I don't know how.

We don't have a uterus

As an obstetrician, even though I understand the changes

of a pregnant woman's body medically, I don't understand how they feel.

Sometimes I feel regretful about it.

It's an impossible thing for me as a man.

But since I don't understand,

the feeling of wanting to understand is strong.

A female doctor can understand other women naturally

but I can only gain experience and work hard towards the same thing.

You're abnormal.

I'm abnormal.

Oh... I see...

Head nurse said you should eat as much as you can.

It's like I'm a patient.

Isn't fine if you are a patient?

I think it's better that you're pregnant rather than sick.

After all, bodies are tough.

I think being sick isn't a bad thing.

When people get sick, they tend to think about what to do next It's unexpectedly positive, isn't it?

He came again?

What?

- Huh? Huh? - What happened?

I looked it up.

How painful labor pain and childbirth is.

Huh?

I ate raw oysters

and haven't gone to the bathroom while enduring the worst pain of my life.

I was also told that it was as painful as being beaten

with a metal bat by a major leaguer continually.

What?

I bought laxatives and drank the whole bottle.

Huh?

What are you doing? Hurry to the bathroom!

I can't! Isn't this what some people have to endure for 3 days?

It is, but...

- You, it'll feel painful but you have to do it. - No...

- Otherwise, I won't be able to understand it. - I can't... Huh? Huh...

Don't be shy!

With force!

With strength!

Quit it!

Huh?

It's not like I want you to understand it!

I don't want you to know how painful it is.

I don't want you to help with this.

I'm just...

I'm just...

Well... Mothers are really great.

That's enough!

Go to the toilet already!

You absolute idiot! Masochist! Pervert!

Sorry.

I'm sorry, he's an idiot.

"I just"... What?

Huh?

Don't ask me that.

But...

I just wanted to talk to him about... something I can't say.

Please give me a vacation for about 2 weeks.

Please exempt me from the night shift for now on.

Can you ask Kawai-san to do them from now on?

Sorry for the inconvenience.

Mochizuki-san, what do you think is the best thing for a woman who wants to continue working after giving birth?

Huh?

How about adding to the nursery?

I think I could continue the night shift if there was a place to keep my child even at night.

That's also important.

But...

I think a workplace should be a place

where if a woman wants to return, she can do so anytime.

I think so as well.

So please don't give up.

You are a necessary person at home.

Yes.

I'm sorry.

I guess I spoke harshly.

No... I did.

I made the choice not to have any children,

I don't think I was wrong.

But you certainly think about it when you look at a person who chose differently.

You wonder if you made the right choice.

I wonder why women compare themselves.

Isn't it because we understand?

Our feelings.

No matter our position, I somehow understand.

So, rather than comparing ourselves,

I think we can sympathize with each other.

That's right.

Mochizuki-san!

Nakamori-san!

Huh? Are you okay?

Yes.

My foot is just sprained.

Has your morning sickness subsided?

Yes, considerably.

Thank you very much for the other day.

I'm glad your baby is safe.

Thinking that I had miscarried,

I couldn't forgive her.

But somehow... I understand her feelings.

What you said helped me.

Let's do our best.

In birth and in work.

Okay.

You also told me before.

Let's do our best.

You telling me "let's do our best" gave me the courage.

Sayako-san, you won't be coming in tomorrow.

I'll be back soon.

In just two weeks.

I see.

But, after giving birth, I might not be able to return to obstetrics.

Saya!

He's here.

Wow! He's running.

I should have told you to wait at the hospital.

It's fine, you didn't have to pick me up.

- Here, here, here. - What? What?

Thank you.

Sorry, thank you for your time.

- Do the two of us not suit each other? - No... it's not that. It's not that.

No, no... Not that. Um...

What will you do today?

- Huh? - Huh?

Right? I wonder what we'll do today.

Well, there's nothing.

But I've thought about it.

Our child will be pitiable.

Huh?

I've concluded that our child will be pitiable.

Somewhat.

What do you mean?

If Saya wants to aim to the be the ideal nurse, then that's fine.

Just don't let our child feel lonesome.

I know you're troubled over whether you'll be a good mother.

Since I also wonder whether I'll be a good father.

It's definitely going to be difficult raising a child.

But, at any rate, that's our problem.

I wanted to find out what I can do for my child

and the answer is having a happy family.

It's definitely like that.

Um... I'll leave here later so please go ahead.

The two of you... No, I mean the three of you.

You're just saying that because you're worried.

- Go ahead, go ahead. - What are you doing? Hurry and come on.

I'm afraid of being myself.

I'm afraid of making difficult decisions.

- How about it? - How about it?

- More! - More?

Ready...

- This is fun. - Great!

Still, we have to move forward.

Pregnant women... are strong.

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