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Episode 07 - Small Notebook

Have you been polishing without sleeping?

Good morning!

Look!

It got cleaner.

It comes off little by little.

I'll keep doing my best until it's restored.

I'm sorry...

Since you liked this and bought it...

It's fine to use it like that.

- Hey, yesterday... - Here's the toothpaste.

This is the best since it's the most abrasive.

The steel ball works better than the sponge.

Use this red toothbrush.

Doing it like this makes it prettier.

I already told you it's fine!

But this is something that you...

Something like that... is only 1,000 yen.

It's fine to buy another one.

Today is the new school term.

Are you going to work without sleeping?

Isn't it strange for you to be polishing all night?

I'm sorry.

Well, no... no, no, no. Um...

Well um... you've done enough already.

Right?

Yeah.

Even your hair is wet.

You look like a child playing with water.

What?

Didn't you say 18 years old are adults?

18 years old are still children.

Oh, if you say so.

Shall I make breakfast?

Yeah.

Yeah?

Mom will be glad if it gets shiny like before.

That was the only thing in my head all night.

Mika-chan?

Aota?

Who's that?

I'm Ishiguro Aoi!

We went to elementary school together.

My parents divorced so my family name changed.

Aoi-chan!?

Yeah, yeah.

Huh?

What? No way! Huh? How nostalgic!

- It's been a long time. - How surprising! It's been a long time!

Currently 36 weeks pregnant... Suspected pre-eclampsia...

Sayako-san.

- Yeah? - What does this mark mean?

It means that someone is dead.

Huh? Mika-chan's mother passed away?

She's not in contact with her father or brother?

You're a childhood friend, right?

Stay by her side.

I'm sure she'll be relieved.

Okay.

I can't believe that you're a nurse.

What? Is it strange?

Your blood pressure is still high.

And your urine protein is too.

Let's do our best for your baby.

You're a diligent nurse.

I'm still just an apprentice.

Since I'm in a four year high school.

Huh?

You're working hard Aoi-chan.

I am.

Isn't that a mother and child notebook?

Yeah.

You've written so much and your child hasn't been born yet.

It's fine.

I want to write as many books as possible and show my child when they've grown up.

That's...

This is from before I was born.

The one you always had before?

Because I had this, I've survived.

I also knew that little notebook.

I have never been able to open it.

She'll get angry again...

I did that.

I poured the powder out of the window.

I'm sorry.

The water... is being used by them.

How about the park?

There's water there.

- Let's go! - Yeah!

Where have you been?

The park...

A girl from my class, Mika-chan,

was being bullied by boys and I covered her in chalk powder.

Since Mika-chan turned all white,

we decided to wash it off in the park.

But that's because the water at school was being used by the boys.

And there was a dog in the park.

Didn't you hear the chime at 5?

You heard it and thought it would be fine?

Or did you not hear it?

I didn't hear it.

You promised you'd be home by the 5 o'clock chime.

You have to practice your math and kanji.

I'll do it now.

Now?

It's already 7 o'clock.

Today, copy kanji and do math problems,

it has to be turned in tomorrow.

Then you have a third grade drill.

Aren't you a fourth year student?

How can you not calculate simple addition?

Is this on purpose?

Are you making fun of your mother?

Wait!

Sit down!

Can't you sit quietly?

Is it okay to eat?

Do you not understand that your mother is mad?

Listen to me Aoi!

Things are tough between you and your mom?

Yeah.

Mika-chan too?

It's different at my house.

I don't want to go home.

Hey, why don't I show you something good?

My treasure.

Mother... and...

It says "Mother and Child Notebook".

It was written when I was born.

I read it.

It makes me laugh.

"Mika-chan, when you were born your face was homely."

"The first thought I had

was that if you look like this as an adult, I'm sorry."

What? It's funny.

"I was very surprised today."

"Your poop was completely white."

She even wrote about that?

I read it everyday and it still makes me laugh.

Anymore?

No more.

I'll only tell you about the funny ones.

Huh? What else is there?

Some happy things.

Aoi-chan should have one too.

Look for it.

Yeah...

Your blood pressure is stable.

The protein in your urine has lessened

so you don't need to be hospitalized.

I see...

Well, it says you've already had a physical examination at the maternity hospital.

What did the clinic tell you?

In light of my pregnancy, I needed to stay away from salt and stay home as much as possible.

Do you want to be hospitalized?

Do you need a referral for a hospital?

It's not that far, so I'll be okay at home.

This is just a guess so please tell me if I'm wrong.

Ishizawa-san, do you have a home to return to?

Are you having troubles?

Sorry...

You can be hospitalized here until you give birth so don't worry.

But we'll have to talk about support after you give birth.

I... was in an orphanage.

But I had to leave the facility after I turned 18.

I was also kicked out by my boyfriend.

That's...

Even though your stomach is so big.

Awful.

Is it really awful?

It is awful, naturally.

Only a bad guy would kick out a pregnant woman.

That kind of man deserves to go to hell!

That's just like you!

But I thought it was normal to get kicked out.

- It's here? - Yeah.

Be careful.

We're here.

Here?

This is your home?

Yeah...

It'll be fine! Like your living alone!

Really? Come in. We'll have a snack.

Yeah.

Who are you?

I'm sorry!

Mika-chan...

Who told you to come in?

I'm sorry Mom.

Sneaking in to steal food!

Thief!

You're still carrying that around?

What's so interesting about it?

I'm sorry, Mom!

This dirty notebook.

Give it back! It's my treasure!

What?

This is garbage!

Hurry up and go away!

Mika-chan, are you okay?

Don't worry.

But...

The notebook got taken.

I was a child of my mother's previous marriage.

My mom got remarried and had my little brother.

I just got in the way, didn't I?

My new dad hated me a lot.

Isn't it strange that I still have this?

Yeah.

I'm relieved when I see it.

No matter how bad it got back then,

I still thought that I was loved.

That's dangerous, Takkun.

Scissors are dangerous.

That's dangerous!

It hurts!

What's wrong?

- It hurts! - Mom... Takkun was...

It hurts!

What are you doing?!

That scar on your face...

Yeah.

It was noticed at the hospital

so I haven't seen my mother since.

And that notebook?

Why do you still have it?

When I found out I was pregnant,

I was still at the facility.

I couldn't say it.

My boyfriend hates me and I have no money...

I thought I was going to die.

Isn't it strange...

At that time, the Child Consultation Center contacted me

to tell me that my mother had passed away.

It seems to be about you.

Take only what you need.

After that, it'll be disposed of.

That's...

I didn't think that I was so hated.

But, despite that, I got determined.

I even said that it would be better if I was never born.

That I should die.

Nonetheless...

"...completely white."

I can't forgive my mother.

But I don't hate her.

I wonder if I can understand how she felt when I become a mother.

I hope so.

And you?

Huh?

Is your mother nicer?

Much...

Then Ishizawa Mika-san can be supported?

Okay.

Then thank you for tomorrow.

Excuse me.

- Is the Health Care Center going to cooperate? - Yeah.

A welfare officer will be coming.

As well as someone from the orphanage.

I'm glad.

They'll refer her to a home for mothers and children as well as explain adoption to her.

Will she be separated from her baby?

Just because she was abused, it doesn't mean Ishizawa-san would abuse her child.

But, since there are many ways to raise children, I think it's best if she knows.

Even if it's their own child, you don't know if they'll love them or not.

Not everyone knows that.

I think I'd be very anxious if I was pregnant.

You don't seem to have a good role model around.

Your mother was very worried.

What's wrong?

My mother doesn't like me.

Huh?

My mother and I haven't been doing well for a long time.

It's my fault.

But that's...

Always.

My mom wonders why she has a child like me.

She always told me I was embarrassing.

And yesterday, she told me I was strange.

I'm sorry...

It'll be fine.

Ishizawa-san's caused you to remember a lot of things.

Sorry, I didn't know.

I'm truly sorry.

Sorry for the inconvenience.

Well, it's fortunate that there were no injuries.

But the water in the pool is very dirty now...

Um... why was she in the pool?

Can you explain yourself?

Mika-chan's indoor shoes were hidden.

We looked hard for them.

I saw what looked like her shoes in the pool.

Did you jump in?

It seems she climbed over the wire netting.

But I was wrong.

It was a volleyball, not the shoes.

It was stupid of me.

I think the sixth year class accidentally dropped it in.

It can still be used if it's dried.

If you use the air pump from the physical education storeroom, then you can still use it.

Smelly!

Hurry up!

She fell into the pool.

Ouch!

Come quickly!

Aren't you embarrassed for being like this all the time?

You're strange.

I didn't tell Mika-chan about it

but I was also looking for the Mother and Child handbook.

You're strange.

But I was afraid to see what was written

so I couldn't open it.

Turn it in.

After that, my parents divorced

and I was probably the cause of it.

This is something that psychiatry has recently begun looking into.

I can't be certain of it but Aoi-san possibly has a disease called attention deficit hyperactivity disorder.

Huh? She has an illness?

Possibly.

Aoi-san's unexpected behavior is caused

by a congenital brain dysfunction.

It's the same as a child with asthma suffering seizures.

Aoi-san concentrates too much and her surroundings disappear.

She's unable to suppress impulses.

The same as asthma...

So Aoi-san having a strange mind

has nothing to do with how you raised her.

I can't forget my mother's face at this time.

I wonder how much she has suffered.

Just for being my mother.

Did you pass?

Yeah.

What? I didn't get a call so I thought you didn't.

I passed.

I thought it best to tell you in person.

I was so worried.

Mom, I'll be a nurse.

Yeah.

Congratulations.

I want to see my mom's happy face.

I've always thought that.

But I rarely managed to do it.

Aota-san?

Ao-chan!

I need to make the bed in room 3.

Hey, tell me if it's too difficult.

Okay.

Thank you very much.

As long as the children are fine.

After all, you have to worry about injuries and accidents.

That's right.

Just in case,

you should have facility management liability insurance.

Working in insurance now much be tough, huh?

You might go out of business first.

It's fine.

We're a major company.

Um... hello.

Aoi's...

Thank you for the hot water for the milk before.

Mitsuki-chan?

That's right.

Mika-chan, do your best!

I see the head. Keep it up!

Mika-chan, keep going!

Yes, you've given birth.

It's a girl!

- Here, ok. - Ok.

She's full of energy.

How cute.

But I'm so ugly.

- Congratulations Mika-chan. - Thank you.

Mitsuki-chan's grown so much. You're doing your job as a dad properly.

No, I managed to come early today.

Yesterday, I went to pick her up at 9 in the evening.

Recently, I only ever see her sleeping face.

There are times like that.

But I think that I have to do better.

You're impatient.

I thought I wasn't a good parent.

I was easily irritated.

But, I've thought about it.

Things have changed.

I have to work hard because Mitsuki's the most important thing.

If I'm irritated, it'll just make Mitsuki feel bad.

Isn't that strange?

That's why I decided to stop smoking and smile more.

Ma-chan, who died, told me so.

And Mitsuki smiled too.

Is something wrong?

That's right.

It's better if you smile.

Mika-chan, should I carry her?

No, I want to do both.

You're really going to have to write in a second book.

I want to record my current feelings.

Someday, I might forget it.

On August 10th, a week before schedule,

I felt labor pains.

I went to the hospital in a hurry.

That day was a rainy day.

My belly made it hard to get the boots on.

It was very discouraging to give birth alone.

You wouldn't come out.

But when papa came, she was born.

A filial daughter born when mama and papa were together.

When you were born, you were so cute.

Everyone said a newborn baby looks like a monkey, but you didn't.

You were really cute!

Ao-chan, come here. Here!

Come over here.

Come, come!

Come here Ao-chan!

Come here, come!

Over here!

Come!

Ao-chan, come here!

Yeah, yeah, yeah...

Amazing!

Ao-chan walked.

She came to me after I told her to.

It was incredible!

It would be nice if she could start walking as soon as possible.

We could go to various places together

and make a lot of fun memories.

Get older quickly!

Mama will definitely protect you

so please grow up healthy

and be sure to be happy.

From Mommy, who likes Aoi the best in the world.

Sorry, sorry, I forgot!

Add the coffee to both at the same time.

I'd like a cup of tea though.

Huh? Then black tea is good.

Why "black tea"...

That little notebook was full of love.

But that pure love

won't continue forever.

Sometimes the shape changes

as it's wounded or distorted.

You can use it.

Okay.

Just for a moment,

there was a witness that I was loved in this world.

We can live.

- Here. Thank you for waiting. - Thank you.

- Is it coffee? - Yeah.

- Did you put it in? - Yeah.

And I feel like I can love someone someday.

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