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The previous day

Transparent Cradle (Toumei na Yurikago)

Episode 06 - Someday, I wish

How cute.

I wonder if my child would be this cute.

Oh, hey, hey!

Please wait! Please wait! Please wait!

Give us a lift! Give us a lift!

I wish it would have waited a little longer.

It doesn't matter, I don't have any money.

Um...

How much longer?

About an hour?

An hour?

I see... I'll go back after all.

Really?

Why isn't it written here?

What is it?

Nothing...

Um...

Ouch...

Hey!

I'm... fine! It's okay.

What should I do?

Hey!

This is Sakaki-san's... No, these are cherished here.

- Hey! - What is it?

How much does an abortion cost?

Huh?

You should do it here.

Sensei is very courteous

and I think he'd understand your circumstances if you speak with him.

I don't have 100,000 yen.

That man wouldn't consent to it.

Your parents...

I haven't seen them in 4 years.

Where I'm going now, if you have someone accompany you, it can be done for 30,000 yen.

This kind of thing is dangerous!

It's fine.

I've done it once before already.

Do you know what pregnancy is like?

A child is born.

If you don't want to be pregnant...

You're too irresponsible!

Say it to that man too.

Anyway, come on.

You run away and I'll break the roses.

Only for the roses.

What do you mean?

What's with her?

The baby isn't growing...

Does that mean it died?

No... rather than dead, the correct thing to say is that cell division has stopped.

I thought I could finally...

I thought I had been working hard...

It isn't your fault.

I'm sick of this!

Why am I seeing such a thing?

I understand. This is a difficult thing.

I want a divorce.

Aki-san, what are you saying?

Hitoshi-san said...

When I told him I was pregnant...

Is it really my child?

We're here!

Here?

There are no signs... This is totally illegal.

This is an illegal act! I'll report this!

Yes, yes, yes, yes.

What... I'm sorry.

It's stuck again.

Let me.

Thank you. Come in.

What? A friend?

She's accompanying me today.

She's an obstetric nurse.

Oh! I see!

- No, I'm still an apprentice. - Well, come in.

Excuse me...

Then I'll get the towels from over there.

Thank you.

What?

Do you have underwear to change into?

Oh, I forgot...

Papa, a girl's come here!

Okay!

- It's fine, I'll figure something out. Right. - Yeah.

I'm coming down now!

Okay! Yes! Yes, welcome! Yes.

It's difficult but it's good you came.

Oh, welcome.

It'll be fine.

- What's wrong? - No...

Your eyes are open wide.

Oh, um...

This young lady.

Right?

Oh, Mama!

Yes?

Water!

Huh? Can I drink some?

I tell you every time. It's not good to drink water before surgery.

That's right. Then let's finish this quickly.

Let's go. Okay?

Yes.

Yeah, let's go.

Does that old man perform abortions?

You must be hungry.

Please eat some rice balls.

Excuse me.

Thank you very much.

You must be bored.

I'll turn on the TV.

Oh, sumo wrestling will start soon.

Aki-san will be hospitalized from today so she can be observed.

No, that should be fine, you should talk it out with Hitoshi-san.

Okay.

Yes, then excuse me.

Is Aki-san's mother-in-law a cause of stress?

Didn't you say it?

Since she was a young bride, they were probably hoping for an heir quickly.

What would you think if you knew a pregnancy caused by your son was difficult?

Let's stop.

It's a private thing.

You've seen his huhner test haven't you?

I know his sperm count is low.

Hitoshi-san was strange about it.

But, after I got pregnant,

I felt like my world had gotten brighter.

Of course you did.

Many hard tests had to be done.

I was really happy I could forget about it.

But it was different for Hitoshi.

He said it suddenly.

Casually even.

Is it really my child?

How awful.

It might be shock but...

Now everything's collapsed around me.

And...

The child is gone.

I can't hold on any longer.

If the child could have been raised safely,

Aki-san could have still had a bit of hope.

But thinking a child could have resolved things is wrong.

However, I don't think it would have.

A woman's stage goes up when she becomes a mother.

She could become a more broadminded person and brush aside her husband's jokes.

But you become a mother because of a pregnancy.

I think it's good.

After you become a mother, you have to keep living confidently.

I didn't chose that road.

Head nurse, you're strong.

What happened?

No, it's nothing. My menses just started.

You can leave first.

Didn't you just finish the night shift?

Women are great.

I think so too.

You can come to the front desk.

No...

I'm Aota.

Aoi's mother.

Hello.

I came to deliver her school uniform.

Sorry.

She often forgets it.

Has she inconvenienced you in any way?

Does she listen to what you tell her?

A little.

As expected.

However, she's quite aware and carefully records and checks everything.

- That's... - If you want to teach her, please do so relentlessly.

She won't understand unless she's told.

Oh, no, no, that's not it.

Aota-san is someone that

can naturally get close to patients

and tries to understand patients from the bottom of her heart.

She's unambiguous, I think that's great.

Is that so?

So it's like that.

You don't need to worry so much.

It's just... that she's a clumsy child...

so I'm glad.

She's courageous and serious, I think she's suits being a nurse.

- Hey... Huh? Are you okay? - I'm sorry...

It's my old age.

I cry when I'm happy.

Then please take care of it.

I think she appreciates you.

Really?

Purple lost.

What am I doing?

Huh?

Hey! Huh? What happened?

- She was in the back room! - She fell asleep!

Asleep? Okay.

Is she okay?

She has a cute face and is sleeping well.

Just let her sleep.

Would you like something sweet?

Please eat some dorayaki.

I'm already full.

I had 3 onigiri.

Oh, I see.

I'm glad.

Then take it as a souvenir.

How about rice crackers? Rice crackers...

Um... may I have one.

Here you are.

Did you ask for a letter of consent?

We don't need it.

But even if you asked for it, people wouldn't write the true reason.

There's no legal rule that it must be done.

Well, even if I ask for a name, I get fake ones.

Last month, we had 3 Yamada-san's.

Right, right.

But the fee is very cheap.

No, I'd really rather it be free

but I heard that it was illegal.

That's why we get the minimum fee.

But if it's cheap and you don't ask for names, won't more people seek abortions without feeling guilty?

When you know about such places, you don't think of anything and keep making babies...

I'm sorry...

It's fine.

I was an obstetrics and gynecology nurse.

So I understand.

Well, I don't know what to say.

I don't have a sign out there.

I see.

But people come constantly.

Not just young people.

We also get wives who have children and elderly too.

Some people come from far away.

I don't think that any woman that goes on the operating table would want to have another abortion.

I missed it!

I hope this world becomes an easier place for women to live.

Jeez, she kicked the futon off again.

How are you?

I'm hungry.

There are onigiri.

Onigiri...

Can you get up?

Please call the nurse if you need anything.

I told my mother.

I'm the reason you can't have a child.

Because it's my responsibility, she can't blame you.

I was wrong for saying such a bad thing.

Wondering if the child was mine...

I should have said something kind while you were working so hard.

Since I'm the reason you can't have children...

I don't think it's wrong for you to have other men...

That's why.

Something's wrong with me...

I can't make you happy.

I saw your happy face for the first time in a long time when you told me you were pregnant.

I know you haven't been able to laugh in a long time.

Maybe it'll be like this in the future.

Therefore...

It's better if you're free.

Sign it and turn it in.

I have things to take care of at home.

Bye.

Excuse me.

I... don't care about that person.

I only have to worry about children.

I'm now forced to go my own way.

I don't understand the pressure from my mother-in-law or the world.

After all, as a woman...

Like I have to have a child.

I really want to have a child.

I want to have a child.

I have to go home.

I'll remove it.

I wonder if I really want to have a child.

So take this with you.

And also...

Here, this too.

Sorry for last year's zodiac.

- It's fine. - It's just bus fare.

You shouldn't walk too much right now so take the bus.

Your friend is also tired.

No...

The bus will be coming in ten minutes so you have to hurry.

Bye...

Now hurry up!

Take care of yourself!

You can come back any time!

You take care too.

Don't die.

I won't.

See you later.

Goodbye!

The bus is in an hour.

Dammit, the two of us didn't have to look at the time table together.

Do you like dorayaki?

Yummy. You eat some too.

Thank you very much.

Why don't you talk casually?

We're the same age.

How old are you?

17.

- The same age?! - How old did you think I was?

Well... I thought you were an adult.

What's your name?

Aoi.

What about you?

Harumi.

Harumi-chan then.

"-chan?"

Well, that's fine.

How's your body?

Are you okay?

I got medicine.

That old man's medical skills are good.

Even though he looks like that.

But...

Why did you come here anyway?

Weren't you thinking about surgery at our hospital?

I didn't want to be disappointed.

If you want that kind of surgery,

a normal adult would question why

and then tell me not to do it.

I knew about this place.

I didn't need an unnecessary sermon.

You're named Aoi, right?

Didn't you say so?

It's irresponsible for me to be pregnant.

You're honest.

Sorry.

But the two of them didn't say anything.

They greeted me like a grandchild and didn't say a word blaming me.

Then even said I could come back again.

How stupid.

I can't come back again.

But... I absolutely can't come back.

Let's never come again.

It's decided.

I was really trying to hard.

Harumi-chan, can I ask you something?

Why did you do this?

My parents are tough and my relationship with my mother is bad.

We had a fight at home so I left, one night I encountered a bad guy by chance and something happened.

After that year,

My mother gave me a bad look when I returned home.

Like she thought I was dirty.

Then, somehow...

Somehow it doesn't matter...

How stupid.

Because I'm stupid, my baby would be stupid too.

Huh?

Why would you want to come back to me?

You should go somewhere where you can have a good birth.

That friend that came today looked like her.

Really similar.

It's been over 20 years now.

Hey you! You left this!

Hey!

If we had let her come in

and did the surgery, she wouldn't have died.

I'm sorry...

The weather is nice.

A picnic would be great.

Do you always talk to them?

This...

I think it's a good thing.

Aota-san, you saw an abortion during first day at work.

You've continued well.

Sensei, may I ask you something?

Why do you perform abortion surgeries?

I don't want to do it.

I could refuse to do it.

But even if I refuse to, that pregnant woman will get it done at another hospital.

There are women who are refused from having it done and choose to commit suicide.

That's why I try to think this way.

An abortion is an operation that allows you to get pregnant one day when you're properly prepared.

So it has to be treated as carefully as possible.

I think that abortion and childbirth are similar.

Both are done in order to live a new life.

Someday...

I wish...

Okay! Wait a moment!

What! I'm sorry.

It's been awhile.

- Who is it? - Honey!

Honey, come and look!

- Here! - Honey!

Grandma, grandma, here.

Come here, come here.

Maybe, you'll come someday.

I think that abdominal pain and bleeding will occur soon if left untreated.

Since there's a possibility of bleeding a lot, I think you should do the surgery after all.

Although it'll be painful, please take the surgery.

That's fine.

We'll also ask for your help in the future.

I was relieved that the two of you came.

I won't be divorcing.

We were originally good friends.

I thought it through.

So... I want to have a baby.

After all, I want to have a baby with Hitoshi.

You want to have a child?

I want to have a child.

That's why I want to do my best.

I'll help you.

You also talk to patients like that.

I don't Aki-san's business has anything to do with me.

Until earlier, I thought that I was pregnant.

Huh?

Huh?

Huh? Huh?

- What's with that reaction? - Nothing...

Would you like to eat some dorayaki?

You're too panicked. Why do you have dorayaki?

- No, thank you. - Sorry.

So...

I'm disappointed.

I know I'm not pregnant.

Right.

But I think there's another reason I'm disappointed.

I keep thinking about it.

Is it work or am I actually pregnant?

I can't respond promptly if someone asks me if I really want children.

But, if someone asks if I want to continue working,

I can say that I want to forever in just a second.

I like my work.

But I can't choose not to give birth.

I even think about my husband.

It's somehow so complicated.

That's why I wanted to get pregnant.

Once I become pregnant, all I have to do is prepare to give birth.

I wouldn't have to worry anymore.

But it's no good.

But when Mochizuki-san has a baby,

I think that baby will have a very thoughtful mom.

What do you mean?

By coming into your life, it'll solve the biggest problem you have.

It'll be a child that's considerate towards their mother.

It'll definitely be a good child.

Right.

That sounds good.

I'll give this to you.

Huh?

What's wrong?

I just attended an acquaintances' abortion.

She told me this.

"I'm stupid so my baby will be stupid too."

She didn't want to give birth.

But, no matter how said it is, I think the baby left a message.

Even if you make a mistake towards a person.

I see.

If you make a mistake, it can't be helped if it's troublesome.

Thank you.

It's nothing.

Aota-san is amazing too.

Huh?

Your view on things is amazing.

Mononomikata?

Mono...

Mono? Mononomi?

What is that?

Why don't you know that?

It's not easy giving birth to a baby and it's a serious thing.

Sometimes we pass by each other and are unable to meet.

But I hope someday that you'll come back.

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