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911, what's your emergency?

Tell me what's going on, ma 'am.

Deputies are already on the way, ma 'am. Are you hurt?

Sammy, you still there?

Found her sitting in the middle of the room.

Which room?

The bad one.

The bad one?

Is she hurt?

The medic said she was pretty dehydrated, but fine otherwise.

It's someone else's blood.

I haven't been able to hide it here yet.

Loan.

Sorry?

Her name's Cora Loan.

Hey, Cora.

You need anything? You want some water or something?

Can you tell me what happened?

Can you tell me his blood is all over you?

I just wanted him back.

He told me we could get him back.

Who told you?

seven years.

Why?

You gotta help me hide all this shit.

You know Elowen's mother?

What is it?

Do you know where your son is, Miss Elowen?

Yeah, of course.

Of course I do.

Okay, what the fuck is this? We're just following up on the welfare check, ma

'am. Can you just go confirm that? Yeah, please.

Center, 15th and M2.

That's a negative at the residence.

The pain of losing someone close to us can feel unbearable,

loneliness, helplessness, just a feeling that no one else on

the planet Earth could possibly understand.

And yet everyone in this circle has felt that way to one degree or another at

some point.

And just to have the courage to sit in this room, to be here, together.

With this kind of healing, that is the first step toward taking back control.

It just gives me this warm feeling in my heart knowing that it might give you

just a tiny bit of comfort to hear it and to share it.

Because having this group has given the loss of my Beverly a meaning that I just

never thought would have been possible.

I owe that to everyone.

We've got to pivot to Thursday for next week because Bingo has the room

reserved.

All right. Thanks for coming, you guys.

Today is his birthday.

Or it would have been.

It would have been his birthday.

I've never really shared here.

I think because I thought that just by coming, I was somehow moving forward or

working towards something.

Healing?

Maybe. I don't know.

Looking for an answer to a question, I guess.

I think I might have just been kidding myself.

There probably isn't an answer.

But I search and I search for that thing.

You know, that little thing that just might help trigger something or help me

remember.

But there's just nothing.

They're just staying high.

That is all there fucking was.

And I didn't care what anybody did to me or what anybody took from me as long as

I was high.

And I promised myself that I would be sober when he came back to me.

And I have been sober.

A very long time now.

I mean, I don't even know how I'm supposed to act anymore, you know?

Or what I'm supposed to feel. I mean, what am I supposed to do with all this?

Am I supposed to hold out hope?

I mean, a mother is supposed to hold out hope, right?

What kind of mother would I be if I just gave up?

But what if I just don't have any?

What if this is all just bullshit?

Guess it's about that time of year.

Hey, Cora.

Allison. I was in the area, so... Yeah?

Well, I'm fine.

You can cross this off your guilty conscience list or whatever it is you

I'm around, you know. You're around?

You want to go grab a beer?

How are you, um... How are you doing?

Existence.

Today.

I see

how

people look at me, you know.

Probably just don't even know what to say.

Yeah.

Well, when they do say something,

I spend the whole conversation comforting them.

I mean, how does that work?

And then they end it with some bullshit they don't even mean. I swear to God, if

I hear we're in this together from one more fucking person.

I miss Mom.

I bet that big house feels pretty quiet.

Well, I actually kind of like it.

Just me and my ghost.

Noah loved that house.

You know she kept a room for him?

Yeah, I know, I know. Yeah.

And I sleep in there sometimes.

Sorry, I forget how to talk to people.

Look, I'm not going to pretend that I know what it's like to live your life,

for what it's worth, it never leaves me.

Not even for a second.

That came pretty close to we're in this together.

You gotta go.

Something wrong?

No. You just gotta go.

I cannot do anything to help you unless you tell me what happened.

Cora.

Let me help you.

Okay? I really do want to help you.

There was a man.

What?

What can I get you?

Hey.

Hey. Oh, what's up? I was in the neighborhood. I thought I'd grab a bite.

What's good?

Good?

Um, the burgers are safe.

Meatloaf, not so much.

That went dangerously.

Thank you.

You can do that.

What?

Oh, well, I'm off in a few and there ain't nobody here anyway.

What are you, the waitress police?

You want anything besides water?

No.

What?

Don't be weird.

Your butt.

My little girl's favorite movie.

Oh.

So that was two.

You know, there's a theory.

The entire story was in the dad's mind.

Male clownfish are known to eat their eggs.

They'll protect the nest, make sure everyone's safe.

And then turn around and just start...

The theory is that the dad ate all the kids, so he never really even ever had

email.

So he goes on this journey, just goes off searching for him to ease his

conscience.

That's dark.

I really need to thank you.

Thank me?

For sharing.

I know that's no small thing, and it helps people.

We're all alone until we find out that we're not.

Well, that just kind of came out.

I mean, I'm glad if it might have helped somebody, but my motivation was not

that noble.

actually means nobody in Latin.

Nemo. So the movie is actually called Finding Nobody?

Are you okay?

Meet love.

Her clothing get processed?

Affirm. Blood swabs?

Everything's off to the lab in the a .m. What about, um, 911 calls, missing

persons reports, anything like that? No, nothing.

Who the fuck's blood is on you, Cora?

An animal, maybe.

What? You saw that creepy shit. What if it came from a, I don't know, goat or

something?

Field kits show presumptive positive for human hemoglobin detective.

Is she a hype, Sarge? In her day.

She's gotta be using them.

Maybe.

Can you stop coming to group?

Yeah, I think I'm really busy right now, so...

All right, I mean, one minute.

I don't really think that that's... One minute.

We've all been a little worried.

I'm fine.

I don't think I can do it anymore.

Group. It's just, it's all getting to me a little bit too much.

Is there any way I can convince you to come back?

I really appreciate everything that you've done for me.

I really, really do.

I mean, it is far more than anybody else's father, but I just, I can't do

anymore.

Any of it.

Cora, how badly do you want to heal?

How what?

What kind of question is that?

What if I told you... What

if I told you there was a way to truly heal?

Heal it.

You did it.

What if he could see him again?

Is that supposed to be funny?

I mean, what the fuck does that even mean?

Exactly what I just said.

some metaphysical bullshit, like a seance or something.

Something like that.

Okay.

I really do appreciate your concern, but I got things that I got to do.

You do?

What do you have to do?

Things.

Real, tangible things that I can touch with my hands and I can see with my

Cora, I'm offering you a chance to undo this.

Cora, you know what happened to me, right? You know I lost my little girl.

Please. She's alive.

I got her back.

She's alive and well, I'm telling you.

She's alive.

Cora. What did he mean by that, that he got his daughter back?

Cora, you've got to help me out here.

Why did he say that? Because it was true.

What was true? That he found his daughter somewhere? No, no.

He brought her back.

Back.

From where? Fuck, I don't know.

Where do you go when you die?

I'm telling you, you don't know every fucking thing.

Yeah, well, let me tell you what I do know.

I know that that little girl is dead because I saw them pull her lifeless

out of the water.

I'm telling you. Mill County got the guy, Cora.

It was some car he had in Sioux Falls. I mean, full confession, physical

evidence. And did I mention a body?

She is alive.

They changed her life. last name of the ex -wives, and they moved to some richy

bitch part of Boston, alive and well, I'm fucking telling you.

Becky, or better leave some shit.

Go look it up on your back computer.

Tell me No

right here

What

name

You know, the fish had gotten to her. She'd

been down there a while.

It was

not long after that when a woman...

She was... I still don't know.

But she started to tell me these things. Well, she's told me what I'm telling

you.

There is a way to get them back.

Back where?

Where did they go?

I'm gonna get in your truck.

Only because I'm cold.

But if it gets weird, just don't be weird.

It's a ritual.

Like a dance?

No. Like a ritual.

It's old, like Mesopotamian or something.

They just know, and the same way they know your story.

Hello?

Uh, yeah, no, I'm sorry, she's passed.

Yeah, this is your daughter?

Uh, no, the other one?

Mm -hmm.

Yeah, yeah, okay.

Thank you.

Where oh where could the little boy be?

The monster mom needs Nicole to lend.

I found you Mr.

Magoo!

Yeah, she left me.

I know.

Yeah, a long time ago, right?

Noah went missing.

Noah?

Yeah, well, yeah.

Right.

You're served.

The fuck?

You stay away from her house.

I can go where the fuck I want.

Yeah, well, that paper says otherwise. 100 yards.

You have a nice day.

Hey, how does it feel to know that you're just shitty at your job?

I mean, you did find his shoe, though, right?

So you got that going for you. You didn't completely go home empty -handed,

then you just sort of gave up. I mean, who does that?

Who gives up on a missing kid?

And maybe it's just too tough, you know? Tough case.

Too tough for a lady cop.

I'm a feminist, you know. I'm all for you. I'm on your side.

I want to get you up there on top and on the bottom, down on your knees, rolling

around. What's up, lady cop? You forget something?

Well, you got a syringe sticking out of your pocket. Why? Fuck my life.

What about any weapons?

You got any weapons in the trailer that I need to worry about? No, no, no, no,

no. Don't even think about it.

Hey, hey.

You stay away from Cora.

You understand me?

She's looking for an excuse name.

Just say it.

Yeah, I'm Big Sisters in Rescue.

Say it.

Yeah, I gotta stay away.

You wanna pick that up?

Go ahead.

I give you permission.

That paper says 100 yards, but I want you to pretend it says 100 miles.

Can you say that for me?

On your mom?

Good boy.

His name is Noah.

Any electronics in the house?

Uh, no.

No, like, internet or anything.

I mean, there's one, like, tiny spot on the upstairs near the floor that you can

get cell reception.

Okay, good. No, we don't want any interference, no distraction.

This is real pinecone?

Mm -hmm.

And the salt?

Yeah, that's kosher, like you told me to.

Good. No, that's good.

Table salt has iodine in it. It has to be kosher or sea salt.

It's very specific.

The afterlife is finicky about his condiments.

Look, I understand if you're not completely sold on all of this, but I

know right now how committed that you are.

Very real.

In any deviation.

He didn't mean to offend you or anything. I really didn't. I'm sorry.

It's like, you know.

I mean, come on. There's like a damn shackle blown to the floor for Christ's

sake. We should just call this off. What? This cannot be done.

Halfway.

and I agreed to this and you're right. I'll do whatever it is that you tell me

need to do.

And I'm sorry.

Truly.

This is going to be very painful and I cannot stress that enough. It is

something that you have never known.

I'm going to need to get you clean.

It's not that bad. Yeah.

Hey, Cora?

Yeah?

I'm not coming in.

Are you in the bathroom? I am.

I forgot to tell you about the salt.

So the salt creates a protective layer.

But also, it also absorbs negative energy.

That's great. Thank you.

Okay, so once you soak in it, you're going to rub with it like I showed you,

then rinse with clean water. All those impurities will go down the drain.

Awesome.

Okay, you got it? I got it.

Thank you.

Sit down, Piers.

Make yourself at home.

Can I ask you something?

Of course.

Why is there so much sadness in your eyes?

Is there? Yeah.

Yeah, there is, and I can see it, but I just, I can't figure it out.

I mean, you got her back, right?

You thought you lost her, but you got her back.

No strings.

You know I haven't seen her, right?

What?

Are you serious?

I just have something to take care of before I go.

She's safe with her mother.

I'll go out there and visit her as soon as I get everything squared away.

Whoa, whoa, whoa, what?

It's for your protection.

My protection? What does that mean?

Wait, you never told me that this fucking thing was for me. You're only

need this for today.

After this, it won't be necessary, I promise.

You have to remember, everything you're going through, I have done.

This is... This is just how it works. You either trust me or you don't.

I don't know.

No,

that's great.

But this part is the most physically demanding of you, especially because

so malnourished and probably, you know.

But it was very important and critical to get all those impurities out of your

system. You do exactly what you need to do, okay? Great. I'm just going to get

this show on the road here and tell me what I have to do.

Nothing.

Don't do anything.

You just stand there.

Just be open.

Repeat the rite exactly as I say it.

And no sitting.

Stand only. It's very important. I got it. I got it. Let's go. That's

I get it.

We come of our own accord.

We come of our own accord.

We seek only that which is made available to us.

We seek only that which is made available to us.

We reject the natural order and remove ourselves from the spiritual covering

light.

We reject the natural order and remove ourselves from the spiritual covering of

light.

Stop. I need to stop.

Abel, I want to stop. I need some water.

Amen.

What was that?

What was that?

I was floating.

I was floating in the air.

Oh, my God. No, no, no. No, no. I felt it. I felt it.

There was like an energy in my chest.

Oh, my God.

This is real.

I'm going to hold my baby again.

We seek to bring the dead back to the living.

We seek to bring the dead back.

to the living.

All right, you're here with me. You're safe. No, I'm not safe.

Yes, you are. Well, you're not safe. Okay, look at me.

Honey, just look at me.

There we go.

It was like a daylight just shut off.

Like something flipped a switch.

Okay. No.

Okay.

No.

We have to go back.

We have to go back.

It was like we invited...

There's an order, and we need to follow the order.

But... But what?

No,

get the fuck out of here. That's the first thing you're gonna say to me? Hey,

Wyatt, the restraining order's still good.

I renew it every fucking year. God, Cora.

The answer's still the same. I got nothing for you, okay? I got no money,

nothing, so get the fuck off my porch.

You don't even know what I was here for.

All right, you know, I'm gonna call the cops.

Fuck. We both know your phone don't work for shit, I hear.

Holy shit, Cora.

I thought you was a church -going girl. Clutch my pearls.

Unless that's your daddy. Okay, Abel, it's fine. I got this.

Oh.

Your daddy killed himself.

Yeah, man.

I mean, don't I know you?

No, man, I don't think you do.

No, yeah. Oh, shit, my bad.

Your face was all over my TV for I don't know how long, right? Yeah.

Yeah, fuck it.

Local celebrity.

Pulling that girl out of the gourd. Hey, shut up. Shut the fuck up. You can't be

here. I can be anywhere the fuck I want to be, little lady.

Fucking her able, huh?

Yeah? Are you able?

Abel? Okay, well, she asked you to leave, so... You know what? It's okay.

Really, he's nothing.

He's just a strung -out piece of shit.

Pot and kettle, Coral.

Pot and fucking kettle.

Your, um... Your new man friend, he, uh... He didn't, like, know you, like,

really know you.

Like all those addicts you suck for dope.

Hey! Hey, man! Hey, man!

What? What the fuck's it gonna do with that? I'm gonna take it off your fucking

head if I have to. Hey, Knox, hey!

Fuck!

I'm going!

You know, you two deserve each other.

We're fucking parents in the world club.

Leave! I'm going!

Man, well, you guys probably just, like, hold each other after doing it, and

you're just like, oh, I'm the worst parent. No, I'm the worst parent. No,

you did your best, and you're like, well, your best ain't fucking good

Well, I lost my kid.

My kid fell down a fucking hole in the earth. How the fuck are you going to

with that?

Well, I just gave up on my fucking kid. Yeah, that's pretty bad.

Well, you know what's even worse? I don't even care what the kid does.

I'm really sorry, Abel.

That is not your fault.

Yeah, that's really nice and all, but, uh...

I shouldn't let other people paper my shitty life choices.

Are you sure you're ready to do this today?

What?

Wyatt fucked up everything good in my life.

And he has not taken this from me, too.

I cannot come up with the words to explain to you how difficult today

will be.

We go on.

We come of our own accord, and we do what we will, not what we are told.

Today, we ask for grief.

Today, we ask for grief.

Grief of the highest order.

Grief of the highest order.

Remittance for that we wish to receive.

remittance for that which we wish to receive.

I wasn't drugged.

I saw the places.

I was there.

Okay.

Look, I, uh... I'm trying really hard to sit here and listen, but it's really

hard with all the shit that we've been through with your... With my what?

Hey, with my what?

With your choices, Cora. With your piss -poor fucking choices.

You run away from everything.

You know, you sabotage whatever you can't run away from. You put every

chemical you can find in your body, right?

You know, I never even know what's up or down with you.

Okay. Yeah.

Well, I'm sorry that I can never live up to the golden child bar that you set.

No way.

What do you want me to fucking say? And how many times do you want me to fucking

say it?

Why didn't you call me? Oh, you could tell me that I was fucking crazy, that I

was fucking using,

you wanted to see.

That shit was real.

It was real.

And it was the only way.

You weren't going to bring him home.

You got a minute?

Yeah, what's up?

What am I looking at?

Autopsy of the Turner girl pulled from the gorge last year.

Yeah, I recognize her. What's with the school printer?

From Blanchard Middle School in Boston.

Taken last month.

You ready?

No.

How are these things still here?

My mom had some kind of sealer put on them, and I think they're starting to

their age.

It's going to show itself today.

Remember, this... is a barter, not a gift.

Stay in that circle.

If you forget everything else, remember that.

Stay in.

We come of our own accord.

We come of our own accord.

Invitation has been extended.

Invitation has been extended.

Grief endured.

Grief endured.

We now offer the

symbols of your arrival.

We now offer the symbols of your arrival.

Come to us now.

Come.

Come to us now.

Thank you.

to once more Saber's Innocent.

Told you.

Fucking go.

What the...

Take your day, Cora.

Day of payment.

Noah.

Where's Noah?

Sorry, Abel.

Wait.

What is it?

It's just a goat.

No. I want to see Noah.

The first is for flesh.

The second, blood.

The third, bone.

Eat.

What? Eat.

So that Noah's flesh, blood, and bone can be mehel.

I carried the seeker in exchange for my daughter, and brought back to the

living.

And though I did not see her again, I consider my payment just and fair.

If the left of Cora drink, so the right is complete.

When do I see him?

I know that if you drink, Noah will be alive in the flesh.

That is Cora.

Drink it.

The woman who bestowed this gift upon me paid her price.

And I paid mine.

As have countless souls through millennia.

You made clear this was worth the toll. So pay yours.

You must carry it.

You must carry the seeker.

To the next soul who needs it, it is the way!

It's the only way!

Jesus Christ.

Did you broom me?

Fuck you.

In the group. In the group.

Were you just looking for somebody to pass this thing on to?

I offered you rebirth.

The divine gift.

In return, you took everything from me.

You robbed me.

You've never seen my little baby girl again.

Because you can't follow simple fucking instructions.

You fucking deserve this now!

and despair to the end of the whole thing.

Yeah, I know.

I really need to see you tonight.

No, no, no.

What?

Can you score?

Sweetie Pie!

Ooh, peekaboo.

I see you.

Hey.

I got your shit.

And you still got your clothes on.

Dope ain't free, Cor.

What is this, girl?

Keith, you... This vessel is tainted.

Unclean.

Let's get her cleaned up.

We're going to get you a shower.

And then what?

And then I'm going to bring you over to holding until we can get all this

figured out.

What's holding?

It's quiet there. Nobody's going to bother you. No.

No, no, no, no, no. I can't be alone.

Please, you can't leave me alone.

We're going to need to revisit all of it after you get a little bit of rest. No.

Hey. Hey, get your fucking hands off me.

What the fuck? Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey. This is not helping.

You need to calm down.

Can you do that, huh?

I'm going to do everything I can to figure all this out, okay?

You owe me that, Allison.

You know me.

You know me.

Not her.

Okay. She'll stay here.

It's just you and me, okay?

Come on.

Thanks.

Hey.

Did her girl come back in? Yeah, she's clean. Nothing on board.

And Wyatt?

Just got off the phone with his PO. Said he spent MIA for weeks. There's an

active warrant.

You think she did him?

No body, no murder.

But she's washing somebody's blood off her in there.

No way to know until the labs come back.

You're not going to find him. He's gone.

It took him. Okay, okay.

You got to believe me.

Just give me a little bit of time to figure all this out, okay?

We really are in this together.

Don't leave. Dora, I won't be long.

You can't leave me in this fucking place, Allison. I mean, what the fuck?

are safe in here, okay? This is just how it has to be.

Didn't you hear a fucking word that I just said?

You cannot leave me in here alone.

The thing is coming for me.

It's like I let it out.

Allison, I fucked the whole thing up, and I let it out.

I'm not going to let anything back.

I will.

Cookie, your help.

You hurt?

No. Need the restroom.

And I need your help.

Please.

No, please don't go!

Thank you.

also take residence within you.

Does not a boy need its mother?

You've come to the end, child.

Take me.

Thank you.

Bye.