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you won't be the same person after

watching this video you see the porn

history they try to tell you that all

their actors are having a good time

everybody's making money from it the

consumer you watching the porn industry

you're having a great experience and

everything is all rainbows and sunshines

everything is good but this video is

exactly what the porn industry doesn't

want you to watch this is the Dark Truth

behind the porn industry and what the

porn industry doesn't want anyone to

find out about I'm gonna be exposing and

unveiling certain porn stars and many of

you you will know these female actors

you will also know some of these male

actors within this video that are going

to be exposing the truth behind the porn

history and how much they regret getting

into the porn industry because again the

world tries to tell you that porn is

healthy porn is good for every single

person these women they're making a

whole lot of money from it they enjoy

sex they love sex all these different

types of things but that's the furthest

thing from the truth because again it's

not all rainbows and sunshines and this

is going to be a very explicit video

that women are not going to be in the

most modest dressing obviously they're

porn stars they're entertain

whatever you want to call them and

they're going to be talking about a lot

of graphic stuff so viewer discretion is

advised but you're not going to be the

same after watching this let's get into

it

during my short stint and porn they're

really extreme acts were what was

popular and that's why being the number

one performer in the industry at the

time everyone wanted to make money off

me so they pushed me to do these things

and it just gets really extreme like you

were saying abusive I don't want to go

into too much detail like honestly some

of my experiences are really humiliating

for me and I wish that they never

happened there's stuff going on like

people getting pissed on men are pissing

inside of women

down their throats they're

sorry oh don't cry

I've lost my whole family and

it sucks so a lot of times when people

ask me if they should do porn I tell

them no

I tell them that it makes life really

hard it makes dating really hard it

makes your family life really hard it

makes intimacy hard if you're putting

yourself out there and the world is now

judging you you have to be okay with

being shamed every day of your life I

don't even want to have children because

I do porn because I'm worried of the way

that people will treat my child with me

personally my mom was supportive in the

beginning she kind of just let me do

whatever that I think it was a good

thing I had a lot of freedom has time

progressed and I became successful I

started to feel like my mom was using me

so that she could live a more luxurious

lifestyle when I started to set like

these boundaries not giving her money or

things like that it made our

relationship a bit more difficult and

almost toxic and so it sucks I don't

have a mom anymore I don't talk to her I

miss having a mom I feel like you can't

rewind and you can't go back I don't

have that really relationship with her

anymore I don't ever think I will and

that bums me out bumps me out a lot I

talked to my dad and he struggles with

my my job being in the industry he's

also religious recently I wanted to go

visit him and he said that I can't go

visit because his wife my stepmom

doesn't want me there I'm not allowed to

go visit my dad anymore because my

stepmom doesn't like that I do porn but

then he told me that

and I was like can we like go get coffee

and like go like get breakfast and he's

like I don't want to be seen in public

with you and that just being hurt so bad

and it sucks I lost my family I don't

talk to like my brothers or sisters I

think that they all kind of like try to

take advantage of me and stuff or

they're just like my dad don't want to

be around me that's not how it was it

wasn't just hey do you want to come do

porn it was more so oh you're beautiful

like would you like to do some modeling

oh uh you know you have a great body

like I think you'd be great nude

modeling uh things like that and after I

came in toward the studio you know it

was very respectable it was a gorgeous

location it was uh in Miami in Doral

Florida

um it was clean everyone who worked

there was nice all of their cubicles

were decorated with family photos like

it was nothing dodgy or that made me

uncomfortable and after do like it the

first time I went in wasn't the first

time I I filmed a porn movie

um it was the second time the the first

time was more so do you want to do this

like sign the paperwork etc etc so these

guys they just saw you frankly as a

money machine absolutely but you still

had no advisors you had no lawyer you

had no nothing so I was 20 what 21 year

old has a lawyer on retainer I I I'm

just trying to get my head around how

stressful this must have been and

whether even now because you sit here so

poised and obviously a lot of time has

passed and you've moved on but do you

think there is some sort of

post-traumatic stress that is in you

from this experience yes and I

pose and it brings me deep shame it

makes me feel like

it makes me feel like uh

I lost all right to my privacy which I

did because I'm one Google search away

yeah it's days like this where I realize

I need to go play with myself

for a living

eight

hired

and then I think to myself

maybe a nine to five won't be so bad you

know I know you don't feel sorry for me

but

after four years you know my just

sits there please please ma'am no more

not again I'm just like no I'm sorry

I'm sorry the pain

and around and around

and went

what pornography did to me

was it changed how I thought

felt

about women

they began to look at them

even more so

as a sexual object

I lost the ability

to have a loving and caring relationship

I thought I was still able

that I was fooled

one day

I left the set I was done for the day I

got in my car

started it up drove two blocks pulled

over and turned it off

and I started crying

I wanted out so bad in order to get off

that merry-go-round

it's the last movie I ever made

and I never went back

into my life

earning a lot of money and I was

struggling to pay my rent because I had

a really really bad drug addiction I

would spend thousands and thousands of

dollars on drugs a week because I

started off with cocaine but then

eventually I was battling with the

heroin addiction to tell that I was like

I was like super high my eyes look all

glossy so I was also battling with

severe suicidal thought it took Brittany

more than one attempt to leave porn but

in the end it was religion that gave her

the final push she needed

started going to church and I went to go

film a porn scene in Las Vegas and I

brought my Bible and on the airplane I

open up Revelation 220 and it says I

have this thing against you you tolerate

that woman named Jezebel and she leads

my people into sexual immorality I've

given her time to repent and if she

doesn't repent I will cast her children

and her into a sick bed

like oh my goodness I was like God I'm

so sorry

so I ended up going to set that day and

I quit the porn industry I filmed my

very last scene that day and then I was

just done

I would pop as many pills as I could get

my hands on and then just drink and

drink and drink trying to overdose when

I would wake up for my suicide attempts

I would get drunk like it was that

realization that

hated who I became I hated money and it

was killing me

and at the very end I called my parents

when I said

I really messed up

that was the night my parents answered

the phone

so through recovery my parents have been

there when I treated in porn

I got my family back

now we talk every single day

there is nothing

that is worth the life I chose

now that I'm out of the industry I want

to be a wife

and I want to be a mother

and one thing that I really want is I

want to be a friend

I want the truth to be known about porn

so the scene starts and right away it's

just

poor it was just this bomb of just

physical abuse you know and

I knew that going into that it was going

to be like that but I mean it was just

sort of

whoa you know it really took me off

guard I was 24 years old when I entered

porn

I was a burned out prostitute stripper I

was a single mom addicted to drugs and

alcohol

I was the kind of person of the Prime

Minister preys upon

industry preys upon people who are

already damaged so they can damage them

more

that was that girl

they promised me Fame Fortune attention

they promised me I would be the next

biggest hottest porn star and they

promised me that would be kept safe

that porn people are the cleanest people

in the world and that if we get our

tests every 30 days for HIV then I'll be

kept safe

are you sure of course babe we of course

we're sure you'll be safe

well

after about 30 movies

I got burned and I caught two sexually

transmitted diseases one of those

diseases was HPV human papillomavirus

which I had never heard of

and another was a non-curable disease

herpes

catching herpes back in the 90s was like

catching HIV I mean your life is over

you're going to be forever stuck with

this disease and it devastated me

and I try to kill myself with

prescription pills I didn't care anymore

I had herpes on my mouth my lips my

throat my anus everywhere I was a

monster how far I had come I joined the

porn industry I was promised glamor same

fortune I hear him standing

in the worst human ugliness you could

possibly see in the mirror and I was

devastated

and I thought my life was over I like

many of the porn stars who catch a

non-curable diseases STDs are rampant in

the porn industry

and what what's horrible is these people

don't understand that even repeat

infections

are breaking down their immune system

over you know after they have so many

STDs sooner or later they're going to

live with the long-term health effects

like I am I'm 43 years old now and I

still have problems with my period with

my cervix I had to have half of my

cervix removed because of all the herpes

lesions and I couldn't have babies after

that praise God by the grace of God that

I have children I'm blessed but I did

lose four children because of the damage

to my sexual organs

Portland history does nothing more than

damaged lives damages the lives of the

workers it damages the lives of the

General Public

it damaged the lives of the men who are

viewing pornography who are addicted to

porn I I was constantly going to urgent

care I went to Urgent I had to be taken

to urgent care I think more than 10

times and then the actual emergency room

I had to go there twice I was constantly

getting sick with strep throat mono

getting the flu like I was constantly

getting sick and also you know with

infections down there like bacterial

vaginosis urinary tract infections yeast

infections and then eventually towards

the end of my career I caught herpes

um but yeah I was constantly getting

sick and not just that because of the

types of scenes that I was doing I

couldn't eat I was not allowed to eat

and so I would go days without eating

and just really munch on on Gummy Bears

and energy drinks just so I could get

through my scenes so I wasn't healthy at

all

I think what happens

so often

with

people who are in the industry that they

have this trajectory that they see their

life going

and when you start to view yourself as

being a product that your value is

indicative of that service and that

service being sex

and for 30 people who were dear to my

heart that I knew personally they were

in the industry the same time as me

what was next

they didn't see any light at the end of

the tunnel so 30 of those people have

taken their life I want to continue

telling my story

because while pornography in itself is

so dark and so detrimental to people

I think that there's an underlying story

within my story and it's that your past

doesn't have to Define you and your

mistakes don't become you like that's

not who you are

I think there's too many people that

deserve a second chance that don't give

themselves a second chance because of

mistakes they've made every every

everyone makes mistakes and that that is

my biggest message for people it's like

regardless of what you've done an event

or a series of events don't Define who

you are like each and every person is

valuable and they have gifts and talents

and Charisma and they have something to

offer you can't choose what happens to

you but you can always choose how you

respond to it