All language subtitles for S05E05 - White Light

You're the best thing that ever happened
to me. No, no, no, no, no. You're the

best thing that ever happened to me. I
want you to stop dealing with Julie

Chandler. I don't force my merchandise
on any of my customers.

Feels like a jungle in here.

I need a big boost or I am dead meat.
Baby, there's got to be another way.

You want to mess up your life?

I cannot stop. What are you, my father?
I'm your friend.

you still think.

Feels like a nightmare.

I wish it was.

So you could wake up and start all over
again.

But it's not a nightmare.

This is real.

And it hurts so bad.

I love you so much, Joey.

How did we ever let this happen?

My mouth is dry.

I'm breathing so fast that it feels and
I don't know why.

I want to run away, but I can't seem to
move.

Oh, whenever you come around into the

room.

like a jungle in here. I'm about to come
down and get control.

But I feel like a stranger lost from
another world.

All eyes are on me. So naked, it's plain
to be seen.

Oh, I can't hide.

I can't hide.

Who turned up the heat?

Hey, Amatula, why don't you introduce me
to your sister?

What's this?

I think he means me, Danny.

Hey, Lou, this is my mother. Wait a
minute. I met your mother.

The woman was a total loser.

This is the winner.

Hey,

Danny, you want to dance?

I've been thought of as getting scared.

Feels like a jungle.

Was she great or what?

Darling, you're slipping.

I mean, you usually talk about how great
you are.

That's true, man, but this time the lady
outclassed me. Oh, that's why I love

him, because he's so, so cute.

Oh, Julie, control yourself.

Can't believe it. Somebody finally got
this guy hooked.

Yeah, and I'm not letting him go either.
You don't have to, girl. You just keep

your eyes on him 24 hours a day. It's
what I do with any guy I'm going with.

You know, I thought it'd never happen,
but I finally met somebody who's

than me.

Just goes to show you what a little
makeup will do.

Speaking of which, do you have my purse?

Yeah, here.

Thanks. Will you guys excuse me? Sure.
Yes.

Well, wait a minute. I think my beauty
can use a little work, too.

Not bad, Donovan. Not bad at all.

I'm in love, man.

This is the real thing.

I hear you.

I don't think I'm going to get any
better.

Besides, you don't want to leave Chris
in there too long by himself.

Are you coming?

Yeah, in a minute.

You sure like living dangerously, don't
you?

I was pretty blind when I came to you,
Julie.

I was so happy.

Couldn't see what was going on.

Nobody else could see it either.

That's as far as I've gotten.

That was wonderful, Miss Chandler. Both
the words and the music are of

professional quality.

Really?

That was great.

Is that a cold?

No, it's just an allergy.

You know, Miss Chandler, the voice is a
very delicate instrument. It must be

cared for and protected.

You sound just like my father.

It's just that I detected a certain
nasal quality in your voice lately, and

has me concerned.

Well, okay. I'll go and see a doctor
just for you.

Find a good one. Make sure he's not a
crack.

I'm beginning to think you are my
father.

You could do worse.

I want to cook for you.

Julie, you're a woman of many talents,
but cooking isn't one of them.

Then tell me one of them.

That's one.

You make me very happy, Chris.

Same here.

You're the best thing that ever happened
to me. No, no, no, no. You're the best

thing that ever happened to me. No, no,
no. You're the best thing that ever

happened to me.

Okay, you win.

This is why I don't have your essay?

What are you talking about, Miss
Sherwood? I handed it in yesterday.

I'm talking to Julie.

Well, I'm trying, Mr. Wood. It's just
that I... She is. She's trying, really.

Drew, we can answer for ourselves.

All right.

I'll give you two days to turn in the
paper.

I know.

Count on it. Right?

Right.

Look, dinner's off. We've got to get
that paper in. Oh, come on, Chris. Don't

so serious.

I'll get it done.

Dinner at my place.

Eight o 'clock.

Be there.

I love when you talk tough to me.

We were so happy, Julie.

I hated being away from you, even for a
minute.

Because every time I saw you, things
kept getting better and better.

Stop acting like it's bothering you. You
know you love it.

Happy birthday, babe. Thanks. All right.

Open it.

I

can't

believe it. I mean, my mother thinks Lou
Mackie is sexy.

Oh, it's got to be his eyes.

Haven't you ever noticed?

love you too daddy listen thanks for
sending me the money things are just

expensive here than i thought they would
be yeah when are you gonna come into

town oh great great listen i met this
this guy and i

think you're gonna love him yeah i know
i do yeah julie we're out of guacamole

hold on okay just a minute okay dad i
have to go okay okay

I love you.

Okay, tell Mom I love her, too.

Okay. Bye.

No secrets.

That's what we always said.

But there were secrets.

I thought I know you, Julie.

But I didn't know you at all.

No, no, we're dancing, Donlon.

But this is important, man.

So is my class. Talk on your own time.

All right, everybody, back in.

Five, six, five, six, seven, eight.

Look,

Chris, I know that it's hard for you to
understand, but I only do a little every

now and then.

It helps me.

It sure didn't look like it was helping
you in dance class.

I'm just a little tired, that's all.

I'm just... I'm trying to do too many
things at once.

For your allergies.

Danny?

Mom, what are you doing here?

Oh, Danny, he called.

Dad called?

Not him.

How you doing?

Hey, nice.

Very nice.

Listen, you always get this dressed up
to go bowling?

Only when I hope to throw a 300 game.

You two are going bowling?

Hey, I reserved the best alley in the
place for us. It's way over to one side

we can have a little privacy.

Sounds very romantic.

I'm going to set up the lane.

Ma, do you know what bowling means to
Luke?

It's like getting engaged.

Danny, will you listen to me? Hey!

Cold Duck, November 84.

A vintage hit.

Ma. Danny, I was married to your father
for 22 years.

22 long years.

Now, I'm not saying how old I am, but
let's just say I wasted half my life

the man.

I thank God for only two things. That I
have you, and I'm still a young woman.

Ma. Half my life, Danny.

Hey,

Pilgrim.

Were you off to the mall, sir?

Huh? I thought I smelled garbage.

Such hostility.

Let me remind you, Pilgrim, you're the
one who called this meeting. You called

me. Yeah, well, I want you to stop
dealing with Julie Chandler.

You said I was.

Nobody told me nothing.

Well, then I can't confirm.

Come on, Pilgrim.

I can't divulge my client list. That
would be unethical.

Yeah, well, from now on, she's your next
client.

I don't force my merchandise on any of
my customers.

They come running to me.

Well, next time she comes running, head
the other way, or I'll come looking for

you, Hunk.

That's a confirmation.

I know what's going on.

What's that mean?

I've talked to your other teachers.

It isn't only English you're failing.
It's math, it's social studies, it's

science. I know.

I'm really going to work harder.

This school is very important to me.

You don't act like it.

I didn't know I was doing that bad.

Bad?

My friend, we've gone long past the
point of bad.

You're very close to flunking out.

I can't do this.

I have got to finish this paper and hand
it in to Ms. Sherwood by tomorrow.

Plus, I've got to finish this song for
Mr.

Swarovski. Plus, I've got to study all
of these other midterms. This is

impossible. Julie, you're trying to do
too many things at once.

Ms. Sherwood class has priority, right?

Right. So forget about the other stuff
and concentrate on that.

I'm so far behind. You know, I have to
read this whole book, plus write a paper

on it in one night.

Okay, worst comes to worst, you make it
up next semester.

Oh, that's great, Chris. That's really
helpful.

If I don't pass these tests, there is no
next semester.

They're kicking me out.

What am I going to tell my parents?

My father took a loan out so that I
could move here.

I can't, Flunk.

I can't.

Where are you going?

I'm going to go find Helen. No, no, no.

Using that stuff isn't the answer.
That's the problem.

Chris, look, I need a boost, okay? I
need a big boost or I am dead meat.

there's got to be another way.

Look, Smith.

Just please don't try and stop me this
time.

Just help me make it through this one
night, and then I promise you I will

touch it again, okay?

Look, if I don't pass, then I have to
move back to Michigan.

And what happens then? I mean, I would
die if I couldn't see you.

Please just try and understand.

It's okay.

What's happening, man? How you doing?

I'm glad you came by, man. I'm kind of
bored. What, are we going to see a movie

or something?

Oh, yeah. That sounds great, you know,
but I'm kind of busy right now, you

Anyway, man, I got to run. We'll do a
movie real soon. What do you say?

Yo, film ground.

Hey, how you doing, man?

You want to step in my office?

Yeah, yeah.

Who is this guy?

He's my friend, man.

Leave him over here.

Look, Conk, he's got nothing to do with
this. You understand what I'm saying?

He doesn't?

Then what is Leroy doing here? What is
he, your accountant?

A reporter from Rolling Stone?

A distant cousin? What?

Come on, man, he's my friend. I told
you. This is not cool, Pilgrim.

This is not business as usual. I think
I'm going to walk.

Come on, Conk. Hey, check this out.
Check this out. You know what I'm

You can dig that, right? Come on.

Come on, man. All right, all right. Now
take care of yourself.

You hear? Yeah, yeah.

Chris, man, are you crazy?

Look, I know you're not doing what I
think you're doing.

It's just a little coke, man.

Oh, you're real cool about it, too, huh?
You gonna do a ride of him broad

daylight? Yeah, buy a couple grams once
in a while. No big deal, all right? I

don't want to hear about that. That's
your business. You want to mess up your

life? I cannot stop you. What are you,
my father? I'm your friend. Then stop

worrying about a friend, all right?

When was the Texas War for Independence
fought?

1836. Remember the Alamo.

That's right. And the name of the
Mexican dictator?

General Santa Anna, and he killed John
Wayne.

I saw the movie.

You haven't missed one yet.

Well, it helps studying with you.

You better go.

Why? It's not that late.

I know, but I have all this work to get
done, and if you stay, I never will.

It'll be all right?

Yeah. What do you think I'm going to do?

Well, nothing, nothing. I just worry
about you.

Honey, you can't keep your eyes on me
every second.

Besides, there's nothing here, and I'm
totally clean.

You sure?

Yeah, I'm sure.

Besides...

Love is the only drug I need.

Now, if you only start eating kilt.

Get out of here.

I was really proud of you, Julie. You
had me convinced.

I didn't know what a tough time you were
in for.

I guess you didn't either.

Don't you know it's making me go bye
-bye?

Why is he going to my coat? Oh, Lord.

I don't know.

Dusty, you've got to stop grabbing me.

I'm sorry, girl. I hadn't even realized.

Leroy.

Julie, she was nowhere near you.

What are you talking about? She's
practically breathing down my neck.

Look, Leroy, every rehearsal is the same
thing. All I'm asking for is a little

room to move.

Maybe you have all the room you need.

Do I?

Look, this is supposed to be part of our
midterm grade, right?

You're supposed to help us look good.

You're going to look great.

The number works.

All you have to do is let yourself go.

Let myself go, huh? You got it.

Hey, hey.

I suggest you get back in that line.

Oh, yeah? And what if I don't?

You know something, sister?

You walk in the thin line and you're
taking this way out of proportion.

Oh, yeah? Am I?

You better cool out.

Well, I think you better call, because I
quit.

An F?

You give me an F, that means I'm going
to fail this semester.

I'm afraid so.

But that's not fair. I mean, there's a
lot of good work here.

Julie, you didn't even bother to use
punctuation.

For instance, period.

There's little dots at end sentences.

Because I thought I was being original.

I'm afraid you're confusing originality
with incoherence.

Now, any further discussion, we'll have
to wait till the end of class.

No, I want to discuss this now.

Julie, sit down.

You think that I don't know what's going
on here, but I do.

You want me to fail. Julie.

That's right.

You make up all of these papers and
these tests just to make me look like a

jerk. Julie.

And then you sit around in the teacher's
lounge and you laugh about it. I mean,

I've heard you.

Julie, you're bleeding.

Oh.

Leroy.

Can I talk to you, man?

Sure, what's on your mind?

Look, it's about Julie.

The way she walked out today and all. I
just want you to know, man, she's under

a lot of pressure.

Yeah, I can understand that.

Look, man, don't flunk around, all
right?

Look, Chris, I'm not flunking her out.

She's flunking her own self out.

And you know that score you made the
other day?

It wasn't even for you. It was for her.

You're covering for her.

Man, she's handling it.

She's got it under control.

Hey, do you really believe that
yourself?

I'm sorry.

Stay right here.

Oh, you gotta get some help.

No, please don't call my parents.

I won't call your parents.

I won't.

I never should have stopped.

I like this.

Not on the one.

I can't help you unless you want to be
helped, Julie. I can't drag you to the

treatment center. Don't work that way.

Chris, you gotta find a home for me.

Please.

No,

I'll find a doctor. No, no, no.

I'll do anything you want.

Anything.

Just please find out for me just this
one time.

If you love me, please.

I'm so scared.

I'm so scared.

Of course, you've got to find out for
me. I love you, Julie. I do love you.

Can't you sell them or something, man?
They're like brand new.

Pilgrim, my business depends on liquid
cash flow. You give me coin of the

and I give you toot.

That's how it works.

Trading stuff is medieval.

Come on, Hunk. We're out of cash for
Julie.

Oh, here we go.

Any handsome flowers? Give me some
violins. My life isn't depressing

have to listen to you whimpering.

Hunk, they're state -of -the -art
equipment, man. I hate to get rid of

stuff. You know that.

give me next time?

A pint of blood?

What am I going to do with you? I can't
let you onto the streets.

You're embarrassing.

Don't ever ask me for another favor.

Hunk, that's great, man. That's great.
Thanks. You won't be seeing either one

us anymore.

Thanks a lot. Hold it. Hold it.

Run that by me again.

Julie's one of my best customers.

Yeah, yeah. Well, she is, but you
know...

She can retire her nose if she wants to,
Hunk. Sure she can.

That's why you spent the last 15 minutes
on your hands and knees groveling. You

know, all you people are the same.

One denial after another.

It's not for me. I could take it or
leave it. No way.

But meanwhile, she keeps packing her
nose and packing her nose. Come on,

Pilgrim. Get yourself a real life.

What you want.

you couldn't get out of bed. Oh, these
rocks.

They're white.

You only got four grams, so I think you
got ripped off. I think Hunt ripped you

off because I think those drums would at
least happen out.

But this stuff looks hardly stepped on
at all.

I'm telling you, Chris, you really saved
my life.

Saved your life?

Saved your life!

How you doing, stranger?

Hi.

How are you?

I'm in the hallway and you don't even
say hi.

I thought, you know, you might call
and... Goodbye.

That's the way things are, Julie.

Oh, how'd you do on your midterm
performance?

Oh, you need my song.

That's what they pay me.

Gosh, how they weigh me down.

Ten cents a dance.

Dandies and rough guys.

Tough guys who tear my gown.

Seven to midnight I hear drums.

Loudly the saxophone blows.

Trumpets are tearing my eardrums.

Customers crush my toes.

This is a nightmare.

What's that? I found my hero, but it's a
queer romance.

All that you need is a ticket.

Come on, big boy, dance, dance, dance.

Take a bow, Bob.

Ma, let's hear it. That was the last
number. Ma!

Are you sure they liked me? Are you
kidding? They never seen anything like

Danny, did you see what Lou gave me?
Hey, watch and learn, kid.

Oh, nice, Bob.

See this world?

I always wanted one with swirls. I had
that custom made for her own sweet

hand. And I thought you were measuring
me for a ring.

I looked at the description on it.

Remember, if you bowl a strike in every
frame, life becomes the perfect game.

300 pins of love, Luke.

That's beautiful.

That's poetry.

That's the stupidest gift I've ever
seen.

Excuse me?

You know, what would Dad say if he found
out about this?

You mean Casanova? No, there's a
difference.

You see, Dad's a guy. You're a woman.

I can't keep it, Lou.

Sure you can. It's paid for.

I can't go out with you anymore either.

It's making Danny too uncomfortable.

You're nothing personal, Lou.

Hey, I understand.

You just don't like the idea of your
mother going out with a slimehead, is

it? That's it.

Yeah, well, let me tell you something
about this slimehead kiddo.

He happens to think your mother's the
finest, most decent person he's ever

known. Lou, don't. No, Gina.

It's about time this kid heard it.

Your mother's the kind of woman who
comes along maybe once in a century, if

much.

Now, maybe I don't deserve her, but who
could?

You, Lou.

Danny, I love you with all my heart, but
I deserve a little happiness, and Lou

makes me happy.

If I stop seeing him, I'm going to be
real sad.

I don't think that's what you want.

Is it, Danny?

Is it, Danny?

I'm thinking, I'm thinking.

Hey, you can keep the ball.

Thanks, sweetheart.

Well, come on now.

Let's go bowl a couple of frames.

Be right with us, sweetheart.

Darling, you're not hearing me.

Word has it around the teacher's line
that she's being kicked out of school.

What does that have to do with me?

Well, they're going to tell her
tomorrow.

So what do you want me to do about it,
man?

I just figured you want to tell her
first, man. Prepare her.

Forget about it. I don't even see her no
more.

Just because you don't see her, that
doesn't mean you don't care.

Does it?

Julie!

Julie, you okay, honey?

You alright, sweetie?

Hey, did you know you're okay, man?

Hey! Hey, did you know you're gonna be
alright, man?

You wanted to see me, Mr. Trotsky?

Yeah, I got something for you, Mr.
Donovan.

It's Miss Chandler's song. I thought you
might like to have it.

Yeah.

Are you all right, Mr. Trotsky?

Let me ask you something, Mr. Donovan.

What's wrong with young people?

They have the world in the palm of their
hands. Why do they insist on throwing

it away?

Is there not enough sorrow, enough
suffering? I don't understand. It's

Total, utter madness.

Hey, baby, have you seen Hulk?

No, I'm looking for him.

Don't you know it's making me go bye
-bye? Why he's going to my door? Oh,

I must hide it.

The next song was written by a friend of
mine who had a lot of talent.

She let it go to waste forever.

I loved her very much.

That's forever, too.

strangers standing here waiting on a bus
and I need to hold you

the way that I hold you send

me a letter in a bottle to find you
something I wrote about us that

I never told you come so close to you

Your voice on my answer machine said you
were

thinking of me. I got the message and
I...

Shows me why we are the same Nothing I
could ever change

Cause I'm with you Won't wait till
tomorrow

We'll be what we started on that day