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Thank you.

I think while the bellman calls me a cab, I'm going to check out.

Is there anything else we can do for you, Miss Weaver?

St. Gregory touch. Always need you to please.

I think everything's in order. Thanks.

Goodbye. Bye.

Janet Weaver McDermott checking out.

Well, your old fraternity's invading the St. Gregory, huh?

Hope it's still standing in the morning. Ah, they're good guys. It shouldn't be

too wild.

You going to join the festivities?

I think my Joe College days are over. Not that I don't have plenty of fond

memories. Hey, Kendall.

Oh, Mr. Chapman.

How are you?

Billy Griffin, Blaine Chapman. Delta Beta's guiding light.

Treasurer of the Chapman's Alumni Club, spiritual leader, you name it.

Just looking out for my boys. Well, Dave was just reminiscing about the good old

days. Oh, I heard some pretty hairy stories about Kendall.

Oh, knowing Dave, I can imagine.

Nice meeting you, Mr. Chapman.

See you later.

How's everything shaping up?

It's going to be a very special night for the pledges.

I appreciate your working on the accommodations for us.

It's the least I can do.

Come on, I'll show you the hospitality suite.

You want to join the alumni club?

We could use some new blood.

I'll have to wait till after I pass the bar. Any more extracurricular

activities, I'll need a transfusion myself.

It's Peter.

Forget to set your alarm?

I had an early meeting over on Van Ness.

Figured we'd ride in together.

Could have saved you the trip. I'm a little under the weather.

Want a cup of tea? Sure.

It's Janet, isn't it?

I guess it shows.

Christine, there's so much we haven't talked about.

My ex -wife, especially.

You don't have to explain.

But I want to.

Act is.

I need to.

You see, when Janet wasn't drinking, we were very happy.

When she slipped, we both went tumbling over the edge. Problem is, I couldn't

pull her to her feet.

But you must have tried.

Living with an alcoholic, your survival instincts take over.

You get hard.

Insensitive.

A defense mechanism?

More of a way of... of coping with the guilt, especially when you start blaming

yourself.

You don't think you're really the cause of all the problems, do you? Peter,

that's ridiculous.

Is it?

I've carried around guilt for years.

I'm sure that's why I had a... difficult time committing myself to you,

Christine.

I can understand feeling guilty because she couldn't help her.

But you don't believe you turned Janet into an alcoholic, do you?

Maybe it's the truth.

I think the truth's a lot more complicated than that. And I think it's

found out what's really going on. Have you talked to her?

Since what?

I spoke to Janet last night.

She was planning to check out this morning, go back to her friends in

She's going through a very difficult time, Peter.

We still have a lot of things to work out.

And if you don't resolve your feelings for Janet, you'll never resolve them for

me.

This is going to be terrific.

Excellent work, Dave. Well, I remember my initiation.

Hope they won't be too rough on the pledges.

Oh, come on now.

Everyone knows that hell night is against the law.

Boys are just going to have some good, clean fun.

Yeah. Oh, you want to see the Carlisle room? Set aside a block of tables for

tonight's alumni dinner. Sure.

Oh, I don't believe you met my son.

Dave Kendall, Tony Chapman.

Delta Bate is president. Oh, how are you?

The infamous Dave Kendall.

The legend has a face. Man, I've been eating your dust for years.

This is the guy that dated all the Omicron.

But I only married one of them.

You want to check out the restaurant with us?

No, I've got to talk to my dad for a sec.

Okay, I'll wait by the elevators. Nice meeting you. Nice meeting you.

Yeah.

Now, you go easy on the pledges.

Only reason I rented this suite for you is because the house is on probation.

Don't give the dean reason to close you down for good.

Well, if he was to stick up for his dad, that'll never happen.

Yeah.

I mean, besides, it's just another hell night.

Just a little character building, that's all.

Mm -hmm.

I'll have a couple of kegs set up, huh?

Courtesy of the old -timers.

What? You old... Not a chance.

Give us a few minutes, please.

Maybe I was running away when I checked out this morning.

But why?

What are you afraid of?

God, I hate this.

I was doing so well. I was on my way.

What?

When I took that physical for the hotel job, they found something.

Something in my heart.

Jenna, what's going on?

It's called alcoholic cardiomyopathy.

I guess my heart couldn't take all the years of abuse.

Well, they put you on medication, haven't they?

Whatever good it'll do.

The alcohol has caused permanent damage to the heart muscle.

The doctor says it's untreatable.

You mean there's nothing they can do?

Except try to make me feel comfortable.

When I found out, I tried to run away from it.

I was not being naive.

But you can still live a normal life, can't you?

They gave me a drug to strengthen the contractions.

That's about all they can do.

I'm dying, Peter.

I'm not saying that to be dramatic.

Just stating the facts.

Well, the facts can lie.

We'll get another opinion.

I already did.

I have six months.

Handsome little devils, aren't they?

Yeah, what have we here?

Ooh, a good year.

Hey, don't let the casserole go to waste, huh?

And sweeten it with, uh, Tabasco.

You know, one of these days we gotta let my dad

know he's too old for this kind of stuff.

But not for another 10 or 20 years.

Checking up on us already, Dad?

It comes with the territory.

Relax. Looking out of trouble for your evening.

I'm counting on it, son.

Don't let my old man fool you. You should hear the stories he tells.

I guess you have already, huh?

You know how it is.

Fraternity means everything to him.

You and Janet talked things over?

Why don't you tell me what was going on? It wasn't my place.

Besides, certain things shouldn't be learned secondhand.

She's a young woman.

It just doesn't make sense.

I thought she was going to L .A. to look for a job.

She was just running, didn't even know where.

What does she want you to do?

I don't know yet.

I'm having dinner with her tonight.

I'll just have to find out then.

I have a sales meeting.

You told me to see her. Now you're upset?

We haven't spent much time together lately.

I miss you, that's all.

I have to take care of this. I know.

And I have a hotel to run.

No matter how difficult things are, I can't let our personal problems

with that.

Christine.

I love you just as much.

And I'm very concerned about what you're going through.

So, where do I go from here?

I can't tell you what to do, Peter.

I'm right in the middle of this with you.

I can't see into the future any more than you can.

Let me hear it.

What are you?

Garbage.

Can't hear you, Howie.

Garbage!

And how about...

A little mother's milk, chicken chest.

Oh, I feel sick.

Don't you want to be a brother, Howie? Good job.

The sooner you start drinking, the sooner you'll be one.

Mmm, that's it, Howard. Go for it, Howard.

You are way out of line, Pledge.

University rules prohibit physical or mental jeopardy on initiation night.

So does our fraternity.

So does California state law.

So is that so.

Well, too bad the governor couldn't make it tonight. You're on your own, Hewitt.

Grab him, guys. All I'm saying, say... Yeah,

a little love tap for you, Mr. Hewitt.

Yeah, we have the Excalibur here, gentlemen.

All right, have that worm blindfolded and have him assume the position.

Now, you were saying something about physical jeopardy, Mr. Hewitt?

It was very kind of you to ask me back here for dinner.

You make it sound so formal.

It's just that I didn't want to burden you with my problems.

I mean, that was the story of our marriage, wasn't it?

Not the whole story.

You're being kind again.

God, the two of us is something else, the way we dance around our feelings.

We used to do a lot of that, remember?

I'm going to say something I'll probably regret.

But I have to anyway.

Peter, I lived with you and loved you with all my heart.

We shared so much together. Our lives, our hopes, our dreams.

And the hurts that came after.

But we created a bond you can't just erase.

I need another chance.

Janet, I've given you so many.

Just give me one more.

You said you'd always be there for me. You made a promise.

Or was that just a dream I had? No, it wasn't a dream.

I remember exactly what I said.

Then please let me stay here with you.

I don't have anyone else.

What do you say, Hewitt?

Hewitt.

Hewitt, you okay?

He's talking it, man.

Someone get some water.

Hewitt.

Hewitt.

You better get a doctor. He's unconscious.

He's faking it. The hell he is. You shouldn't have hit him so hard.

You shouldn't have hit him so hard.

Morning. When?

Don't be jealous.

Why not?

It's a human reaction.

You're making assumptions that aren't true.

Just one question.

Is Janet moving in?

I don't know if I'm coming or going anymore.

You're staying.

Here, with me.

And Janet?

Is she staying, too?

The Windsor suite was vacant, so I put her up from the night.

We talked to try to sort it out. I just can't turn my back on her. I know she

needs you, Peter.

Just don't forget I need you, too.

Chapman, what's going on?

Oh, it's nothing serious.

One of the pledges got loaded. Tried to backflip off the coffee table.

Is he all right?

Well, he banged his head when he fell. He'll be fine.

The pledges weren't allowed to drink during initiation.

Well, you know how kids are.

Just some beer.

Hewitt got a little carried away.

Sounds like it.

Mind if I see him?

Well, the boy's sleeping it off.

What are you getting so worked up about?

Well, you're the one who's getting worked up, Mr. Chapman.

Mine? I'll be at the frat. We're working on a fundraiser to remodel a house.

Hewitt?

Hi.

I'm Dave Kendall. I work here at the St. Gregory.

Most with Delta Beta.

How you feeling?

Must have been some fall.

Fall?

Mr. Chapman said you fell last night and hurt yourself.

I didn't fall.

They beat me.

What? Who did?

They did.

They beat me.

Peter, you're not even listening.

I'm sorry.

There's a lot on your mind, isn't there?

Remember last year, when Christine was about to leave?

Didn't have anybody to talk to, and... I had you, Billy. I haven't forgotten

that.

Well, nothing's changed.

Jen is very ill.

And she needs me now.

So does Christine, and I need her.

But I don't want to spend the rest of my life feeling guilty because I walked

away from my responsibilities.

I want to please both of them, and I don't know how.

Maybe you should start by pleasing yourself and be selfish.

I think a better word is honest.

Hewitt is half unconscious.

The kid is very confused.

He sounded like he was in terrible pain, but there wasn't anything confusing

about what he told me. Believe me, if someone had beaten him up, I'd be the

first one to know.

Besides, the fraternity's taking care of it. He's not suing the hotel, so why

make an issue?

The kid looks half dead, that's why. I don't understand why he wasn't taken to

hospital. The boys called me up to the suite as soon as it happened, and the

doctor said it wasn't necessary.

If he even saw one.

I resent that.

I'm sorry.

Look, I know how much the fraternity means to you, but... As an officer of

alumni club, it's my job to protect its reputation.

I thought that meant something to you, too. It does, but not at the expense of

cover -up. For God's sake, this isn't Watergate.

No, it's Delta Beta.

And right now, the future of this fraternity rests in my hands.

Fraternity. It sounds like you've forgotten the meaning of the word.

Why all the sound and fury?

You idiot, what are you going to learn?

Come on, Dad, give me a break. It was an accident.

Besides, you're the one who always talked about the importance of Hell

That little carry -away, so what?

It'll be a big so what if Hewitt presses charges.

Well, maybe you should talk with him.

If Delta Beta goes down, I go down with him.

Now that can look on my resume.

When I joined Delta Beta, I thought it was just a social club.

I wanted to belong.

My father was a member.

Well, yours was too, wasn't he?

He still talks about it.

A man after my own heart.

What he never talked about was how cruel the guys can be.

Initiations can sometimes get a little out of hand.

A little?

There isn't another fraternity on campus that condones hazing. They were

breaking the law.

And I know that they'll never make that mistake again.

But the fraternity is a team, Alan.

They want you to be a part of it. It builds character, makes us winners.

What about your son?

He could have killed me.

Well, I had a long talk with Tony. He's terribly sorry.

Is that why he hasn't come to see me?

He's too ashamed to face you, Alan.

Hey, he had a hell of a time facing me.

But given all I've said, don't you think it's best to put this thing behind you?

It's best for you and your son.

I mean for all of us.

Just as it's helped me all these years, I promise you Delta Beta will be there

to help you.

Give them another chance, son.

I think your father would agree.

I thought this would be a little easier than facing you across your desk.

Janet, wherever it is, it's very difficult.

I never meant it to be.

I didn't come back to steal Peter away from you, if that's what you think.

People can't be stolen from each other, you know that.

But what is it you want?

Maybe now's the time to just say it.

I'm afraid of dying alone.

So you've turned to Peter.

I don't want to do things underhandedly, and I don't want to manipulate him.

Or you either for that matter.

I just thought that if I was totally honest, you might understand.

That you want the man I'm in love with.

Obviously, it's Peter's decision, too. I can't twist his arm.

That's what you're doing, consciously or not.

Aren't you forgetting there are three in this equation? What about Peter's need?

You were very much in love, Christine.

And no matter what happened after that, those feelings never totally disappear.

Then you do want him back.

It would be for less than six months.

You'll have the rest of your life with him.

You want me to just step aside, wait in the wings?

Even if I did, he's not going to be the same man six months from now. I won't be

the same woman.

I can't turn my feelings on and off like that.

Neither can I.

And I need him, Christine.

And you think I do?

Hi. Tell me, chicken soup, right?

No wonder you look better.

I'll survive.

Alan,

I want you to tell me exactly what happened last night.

I had a few beers, and I started showing off, and I fell on my face.

You should be trying out for gymnastics.

Good morning. You told me you were beaten up.

Did I?

I must have been out of it.

Yeah, you were.

But it still sounded like the truth.

I got drunk and fell, okay?

That's it.

That's the whole story.

Sorry, I don't even think that's half of it.

Alan, the National Interfraternity Council is trying to prevent incidents

this.

If you won't cooperate, how can they?

Look, I appreciate your concern.

But it's over.

It's never going to be over until you tell me the truth.

Will you stop playing lawyer?

You're not the prosecuting attorney. I'm not on the witness stand, all right? So

just do us both a favor and leave it alone.

I'm keeping the faith.

Just like my old man.

Good old Delta Beta forever.

You told me to bring the sales manager's report.

What's this all about?

Us.

I don't want you to think I'm neglecting you.

You have a lot on your mind.

Let's not talk about that. She went back to Sausalito.

Am I filling in?

Never.

No one can replace you, Christine.

No one ever will.

She's not looking over our shoulder. But that's how it feels.

Not to me.

Peter, you're hurting me.

Christine, I'm sorry.

I love you.

And Janet at the same time.

I want you. Don't you understand that? We're part of each other now. I won't

give that up.

I can't compete with your past, Peter.

Even if I could, I can't do battle with a woman who's dying.

Don't run out of me like this.

It took me so long to find you, I don't want to lose you again.

I'm trying to be fair.

Do you have to work so hard at making love just to convince yourself you still

feel something for me? I don't have to convince myself.

Obviously, I still have to convince you.

Not anymore.

Go back to her.

You'll only end up hating me if I tell you not to.

Guys? Can I talk to you for a minute?

I'm Dave Pendle. I work at the St. Gregory.

Any of you at the hotel the other night?

Why do you want to know?

Because I'm also a Delta Beta.

For the good of the fraternity, I think it's important to find out what really

happened to Alan Hewitt.

Uh, sorry.

We, uh, we weren't there.

Well, if it isn't Perry Mason.

You don't know when to quit, do you?

Losers quit.

Losers also flunked the bar.

Winners pick themselves up and start all over again.

Sounds a real charmer, Mr. Chapman.

That's enough, Tony.

Why can't you let this thing go?

Alan Hewitt is willing. Why aren't you?

If I pretend nothing happened, I'll be just as guilty as every other member of

this house.

of what we do, he's not going to give up on it.

Oh, I don't know.

I think he'll change his mind.

He's a little more convincing, that's all, Dad.

You haven't heard a word I've said.

I didn't sleep last night.

I kept seeing you rushing out, kept calling you back.

It was like a nightmare, only I was wide awake. Look, I need your help right

now, your understanding.

Peter, what choice do we have?

We both know what's right.

You keep forgetting how much I love you.

How can you say something like that?

Every minute of every waking day I think of you. Then why can't we compromise?

Oh, I get you from nine to five and she has the evening shift.

Oh, that's beneath you.

You're right.

Everyone expects me to be sweet and agreeable, Miss Perfect.

Everyone, including me.

Well, I'm not.

Who said you were?

Peter, I'm human.

I have flaws.

I break.

When I fall.

You've seen that with my bulimia.

Even though I expect you to do the right thing.

I haven't stopped falling since Mrs. McDermott arrived.

She's not my wife anymore.

We're not talking marriage licenses. We're talking feelings.

I'm not the same person I was when we divorced.

But you're still Peter.

Your needs have changed.

But the heart is the same.

That's what Janet's reacting to. For someone who just complained about being

Miss Perfect, isn't that what you're doing?

What I'm doing is trying to live with myself.

Mr. Chapman has boxed me off at every turn.

He even spoke to the dean and convinced him it was an accident.

I don't understand. He's supposed to be a responsible adult.

Supposed to be.

From what I hear, once he left college, nothing worked out for him. That's why

he's so involved with the fraternity. That's all he has.

Guest relations.

Yes, just one minute.

Dave? This is Dave.

You know, I have an uncle that used to be like that. Sure. Big man on campus. I

can't meet you till later this afternoon.

That's all he'd ever talk about.

One day my aunt... Great, great. I'll meet you then.

That was Howard calling one of the pledges. He wants to tell me what

the other night. He's going to meet me in the park behind the humanities

building.

Howard?

Next time you'll really be a Trump.

Anybody get the license number of the truck?

Are you okay? Yeah.

No truck, just a stone wall I keep running into.

I don't get it.

Special delivery message, courtesy of my old fraternity.

Maybe they never heard of Western Union.

I'm sure you're all right.

Thank God my face isn't my fortune.

You know, Billy, I didn't think it would come down to this, but if they want to

play down and dirty... Hey, this isn't college fun and games anymore.

Maybe it's time to call in the professional.

Like a cop?

But before I do, there's one person who still might help me turn things around.

Oh, what a wonderful evening it's been.

Almost like nothing's changed.

I know we have some adjustments to make.

Janet, there's something I have to tell you.

Sounds ominous.

No, just the ground rules.

I'll look after you.

Be there as long as you need me. But I can only do it as your friend.

Not as your husband.

But I need more than friendship, Peter.

Janet, we can't keep living out our past.

Trying to make up for our mistakes.

But why not?

I'm willing to make the effort. Why can't you? Because I won't lose

Janet, please, I'm just trying to be honest with you.

Honest with myself.

As someone once said, you can't go home again.

If you'll excuse me, I'm feeling rather tired.

Oh, my God.

Mr. McDermott.

What happened? She suddenly swayed. Janet.

Janet. You okay?

Janet. Hurry, call an ambulance.

Leave her in a stable now.

Oh, thank God. I didn't know what to do, so I started with CPR.

It might have saved her life.

She was upset. Could that... No, no, no. Her emotional state has nothing to do

with her condition.

She's suffering from congestive heart failure.

Could have happened any time.

May I see her?

Try to make it short, will you?

Don't worry, Peter. I'm not ready to die yet.

I'm sorry I upset you.

We were just playing the same games we used to.

Why should the rules suddenly change?

Because we've changed.

But we can still help each other.

What I wanted from you, you couldn't give me.

Not when we were married, and not when there was no one else to turn to.

I tried denying my symptoms, but I can't.

I also tried denying the fact that you don't love me like you used to.

I can't keep doing that either.

My ex -husband was just leaving.

Bye, Peter.

Look at me.

I said look at me!

Are you satisfied with yourself?

I'm sorry what happened, but why believe me?

You let them get away with it once, so they figured why not try it a second

time? You know, I just read in Newsweek that over the last eight years, nearly

40 guys have died because of hazing. Hundreds more have been injured.

What about the next group of pledges?

That can end at someone's funeral.

You don't understand.

My father was Delta Beta. I know all about fraternity loyalty. Do you think

here because my face hurts?

I'm here because they're destroying something I love, something I always

Help me, Alan.

Better yet, help Delta Beta.

What I didn't realize was how much Peter loved you.

I didn't intend to, but... I played on his sympathies and his guilt.

Yours too, I guess.

You were frightened.

I still am.

So is he.

He also blames himself for all your problems.

That's because I was afraid to take responsibility for them myself.

AA teaches you to recognize your weaknesses and turn them into strength.

The one part of the program I hadn't come to grips with.

I'll be leaving here in a few days, but not to return to St. Gregory.

Sounds like you've made peace with yourself.

Whenever anything went wrong, I always looked for someone else to blame.

Someone to hide behind.

Especially Peter.

I don't need to do that anymore.

then isn't it time to free him of the guilt so he can make peace with his life

too?

Gentlemen, can I have your attention, please?

Working with some of the other members of the Chapters Alumni Club, I have

up an extent to remodel a plan. I thought we were going to discuss Alan

You're out of work, Colin.

You're all out of order. This is a closed meeting.

I'll be short to throw me out.

A little different face to face, isn't it, Tony?

I used to be so proud I was a member of this house.

We had a very simple motto.

Truth is honor.

Anybody here want to tell me where the honor is in beating a blindfolded kid?

Where the truth is in refusing to acknowledge a wrong?

Hey, look, if we want a sermon, there's a church right down the street. And a

police station around the corner.

This is Alan Hewitt's signed affidavit.

Unless you guys want to face criminal charges, I suggest a visit to the dean

might be in order.

I know he's as anxious to hear the truth as I am.

May I see this?

Sorry, Kendall.

I called your bluff.

And I'm calling yours, Mr. Chapman.

Alan.

You shouldn't be up.

Do you think you could give me a ride to the police station, Dave?

Sure.

Be careful what you say, Hewitt.

I intend to be careful and precise.

Right down to the last ugly detail.

So much to say to each other.

Now all I can think of is goodbye.

When does he plan to release you?

Soon, I hope.

The doctor wants to see if the new medication will help me breathe a little

easier.

And then what?

Janet Weaver rides off into the sunset.

Janet.

I never meant to hurt you.

I know you didn't.

There were some good years.

A lot of good times, too.

Olive trees and rocky beaches.

I never loved anyone like I loved you.

Will you forgive me?

You don't need to be forgiven for anything, Janet.

Yes, I do.

I made you my scapegoat.

The truth is, you are always my hero.

I hope you're satisfied.

Not only has Delta Beta been thrown off campus, but the national organization

revoked our charter. The police are investigating.

Charges may be filed. I wish it hadn't come to that, but if you're looking for

someone to blame, check the nearest mirror. I had a responsibility to the

Our house, Dave. But your son came first, didn't he?

You know, all of the guys, we always looked up to you.

You let us down.

My whole life is this fraternity. I know.

And that's the saddest thing of all.

More than coming home to an empty room.

I'm so glad you're here.

My rooms were empty, too.

Did you talk things through?

We made our peace.

Our goodbyes.

What about us?

We almost lost each other once before.

I couldn't bear to go through that a second time.

I don't blame myself anymore for her becoming an alcoholic.

I don't blame myself for her death.

Oh, Peter.

I'm sorry.

You passed away an hour ago.

You ever regain consciousness?

I sat in the waiting room trying to make sense of things, and

all I could think of was you.

how much you mean to me how much i love you i don't want to lose you