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[ Thunder crashing ]

Meredith: When we're hurt, our body sends signals

to form blood clots directly at the injury

to help stop any bleeding.

[ Thunder rumbling ]

[ Indistinct conversations ]

[ Car door closes ] [ Sighs ]

[ Breathing heavily ]

Thanks.

Are you okay?

I lost control, Meredith.

I was angry,

and this bar...

it was just awful.

They're predators. They're destroying lives.

It's our body's system of checks and balances.

[ Wind howls ] Yeah, well, this wind is picking up.

We better get going.

Catherine says you haven't gotten a new sponsor

since Ollie died,

you're not making meetings,

and now you're destroying bars.

You need to get your head right,

get your head in a place where you can take care

of the people who depend on you.

It's a system that's supposed to save our lives.

[ Bang, branches crack ]

Aah!

[ Wind blowing ]

Or so we hope.

[ Wind howling ]

[ Knock on door ]

Okay -- Ben?

Sorry I woke you,

but I, uh, I didn't know the rules

about using my key

during our separation.

[ Sighs ] We are not separated.

We are taking time apart

so that I can focus on bringing my stress down.

It's a sabbatical.

Yeah, I know what you call it.

And even though I'm not sleeping in this house,

I still want the people who live here to stay safe.

Wind storm's on the way.

It's supposed to get pretty ugly.

I, uh -- I was gonna board up

the windows before my shift...

Oh.

...if that's okay with you.

Yes, of course.

Just try not to wake up Tuck.

I will hammer the nails into the boards

as quietly as possible.

I'll do Tuck's windows last.

[ Door opens ]

[ Wind roaring ]

Oh.

[ Door closes ]

♪♪

[ Sighs ]

♪♪

[ Rain pouring ]

♪♪

Hey. Hi.

[ Wind howling ]

♪♪

[ Howling continues ]

There's a -- There's a tree down over on Madison.

Yeah, I saw.

God, it's crazy out there.

They said it's only gonna get worse

throughout the day.

So, are we talking about the weather, Maggie?

That's our new thing?

[ Footsteps approach ]

-Hey. -Altman.

Am I gonna like the reason you're here?

Well, I couldn't sit in my hotel room today,

and you're gonna be inundated with patients.

Owen: Hey.

Hey, any update on Betty?

-No. -Nothing.

I'm gonna take Leo upstairs.

Yeah. See you, buddy.

Ohh.

[ Murmuring indistinctly ]

[ Clears throat ]

Nobody got much sleep

last night.

Yeah.

How much longer you in town?

Um, I'm -- I'm not really sure,

but if you need help with anything,

just let me know.

Okay, thanks.

Their kid's been missing for three days.

I couldn't dump any more on them.

That's very thoughtful.

[ Exhales sharply ]

[ Knock on door ]

[ Door opens ]

[ Sighs ]

Oh, is, uh, Karev around?

His mess is.

Oh, uh, this is a matter

for the chief.

Um, I'll come back later.

Uh, if you peel that tape, you'll find my name,

and I'm here, which says a lot more than Karev,

who seems to think "interim"

means "sloppy" and "whenever he feels like it."

So just say whatever it is.

[ Door closes ]

Um, well, I was close

to Frankie Shavelson.

Oh.

Oh, yeah. I was so sorry to hear...

Are you all right?

Yesterday, I, um,

went into a bar and --

Richard, no. I didn't drink,

and I didn't hurt anyone.

I lost my temper.

There was property damage,

and I was arrested.

[ Sighs ]

Well, I'll need to inform the board,

and there will be an inquiry.

I do need to bench you for today.

You'll get some rest, catch up on charts.

Just stay away from patients.

Can you manage that?

I can.

Thank you, Bailey.

[ Telephone ringing ]

[ Door opens ]

Where the hell is Alex Karev? [ Door closes ]

[ Snoring ]

♪♪

[ Snores loudly ]

[ Moans ] Mm.

You have pillow marks on your face.

I haven't slept that hard since I took that stupid job.

I'm gonna nap for like -- for like five more minutes.

I feel like I got at least eight hours.

[ Mutters ]

Oh, crap!

Crap!

What? [ Sighs ]

♪♪

Okay, breathe in for me, Cece.

[ Cece inhales ] Good.

[ Clears throat ]

Oh, Dr. Grey,

I have something to show you.

I normally don't take pictures,

but I couldn't help it.

I snapped this one while he wasn't looking.

Cece, save your strength.

He has distinctly kind eyes

and a playful sense of humor,

and he's a surgeon in this hospital.

Dr. Lincoln.

Yeah, I know who he is.

And?

And, DeLuca, I'm waiting.

Yes, uh, her respiration's getting more labored,

she's complaining of more shortness of breath.

It's probably the pleural effusions.

Meredith, I just showed you perfection.

And I don't have the time.

Have you looked at me?

I'm the one who doesn't have time.

Okay, so then I'll make it quick.

Let's prep her for a pleurocentesis.

Uh, hey, is, uh...

is everything okay?

Just check back in an hour.

♪♪

[ Wind howling, rain falling ]

♪♪

Jo: Hey, did you check the weather?

Do I ever check the weather?

Uh, it's windy. That's helpful.

Okay.

[ Wind roars ]

[ Door slams ] Oh, uh.

Well, t-they're telling everyone to stay off the roads,

that there's three accidents on the I-5.

The bridge is closed. I mean, we're screwed.

Yeah, well, if it's that bad, then the hospital's slammed.

We need to go.

[ Wind roaring ]

[ Bang, mailbox thuds ]

♪♪

[ Door slams ] [ Breathing heavily ]

We can't help if we're dead.

♪♪

No, no, no, Karev. Stay there until it's safe.

We'll figure something out. We always do.

Owen: Okay, we got burns, car-wreck injuries,

and flying debris has given us a ton of blunt injuries

and several penetrating traumas.

[ Chuckles ] Wind storms are my favorite. [ Chuckles ]

Yeah, you're gonna love this.

[ Indistinct talking ]

♪♪

[ Man shouting indistinctly ]

[ Indistinct talking continues ]

♪♪

We're supposed to love this?

[ Chuckling ] Oh, ho, ho.

Impalement-palooza.

Bailey, I don't think we have room

to treat all these patients,

and Seattle Pres is already closed to trauma.

[ Indistinct talking continues ]

♪♪

Bailey: Hey!

Uh, hello!

Everyone -- Hey, be quiet!

[ Talking stops ]

Listen up.

We will move all stable patients upstairs

to clear beds.

We will stock disaster supplies

on all floors.

And we will notify the blood bank

to have extra units on standby.

We are staying open for trauma, but sheltering in place.

This is a brick house,

and no amount of huffing and puffing can blow us down.

Woman: Whoo! Whoo!

[ Applause ]

[ Chuckles ]

-Yeah, I still got it. -Okay, come on. Let's go.

-You need something. -Come to the OR.

Did you eat the rest of the chips?

Apparently only a third of the staff can make it into work.

Oh, the -- the barbecue ones, the blue bag?

They're sending floor nurses down to the E.R.

Apparently anesthesia's working triple.

Ugh! Where are the chips?

I ate them last night. Oh.

[ Sighs ] I feel like a crappy leader.

I mean, who the hell abandons the ship

in the middle of a disaster?

Maybe it's not a disaster.

We've hardly seen each other since we got married,

and we're stuck here,

so what if we make this our second honeymoon?

[ Smooch ]

With no food?

We have jelly and bread and beer and...

Expired mac-and-cheese.

[ Electricity crackles ]

[ Wind howling ]

[ Sighs ]

It's fine, because we have a gas stove.

[ Dial clicks ]

Oh.

[ Stove clanks ]

When's the last time we cooked?

[ Stove clanks ]

[ Wind howling ]

Right there. Trauma one.

-Okay. -Go, go.

No more trauma rooms.

Next incoming can go to procedure room 4.

Avery needs me in 1. Could you --

Go, go.

Schmitt, I told you trauma 2.

Trauma 2's the -- the selfie stick in the brain, and --

Helm, you got a problem with brains?

Love brains. Trauma 2.

Schmitt, go to the clinic with Dr. Kim.

We need to clear the patients per the protocol.

On it.

I'm not afraid anymore. Of the s-selfie stick.

I can do it. Too late.

Think about that on your way to the clinic.

-Bailey. -Altman.

Uh, cardio consult in trauma 1.

Oh, I was just about to ask you for privileges,

but now I don't need to.

Go.

You live here now?

Woman: Dr. Ford, 3235. Dr. Ford, 3235.

Why did I get a glass door?

Hold tight, Georgia. We got you.

Qadri, hand me a 4x4.

Dr. Grey. How was sunny L.A.?

Not so sunny.

Do you think it violated the fascia?

Uh, not sure.

I am worried about a thoracoabdominal injury.

I thought you weren't coming back

until tomorrow night.

Plans changed.

Well, if you're home,

maybe I won't drink a whole bottle of wine

and eat a whole carton of ice cream by myself.

There's fluid in the upper-right quadrant.

Missed the liver.

[ Instrument clinks ]

Can you make a fist for me?

Now open. That's great.

There's no major damage. Qadri, clean and stitch.

[ Glove snaps ]

Good to have you back, Grey.

So, you said your plans changed.

Did your VIP patient die?

No, the -- just the plans, they just changed.

Qadri, let's get her up to CT, please.

[ Indistinct conversations ]

[ Telephone rings in distance ]

[ Breathes raggedly ] I can see it

out of the corner of my eye,

but I can't feel it.

You can't feel it because your brain

doesn't have any pain receptors.

I know you're scared, but I need you

to stop moving around so much, okay?

I have a selfie stick in my head.

It's not even mine. It's some idiot teenager's.

How is she talking this much?

Adrenaline, maybe? I don't know.

How we doing?

I told CT you'd be on your way any minute.

Wh-When are you taking it out?

You can take it out, right?

Please take it out.

Phoebe, I am gonna do everything I can to remove it,

but when I do, there is a strong possibility

that your brain will bleed or swell.

I just want to prepare you

in case you want to call anyone before surgery.

My mom.

Can I call my mom?

The paramedics said they had my phone.

We'll find it.

♪♪

Bailey, I need to -- I just --

Oh, go, go.

Yeah.

♪♪

Do you see yourself?

I told you not to go outside in that mess!

Do you see me? How about some sympathy?

And stop shouting!

Nobody can hear themselves think with you in here.

Can someone please check my ears

for years of damage?

So, you two are married, then.

Decreased breath sounds on the right.

He's got a small pneumo. [ Coughs ]

We were having a fight.

Which he started.

So I went outside to get away from her.

Which is all he ever does.

And I slammed the front door on her perfectly.

Rivaled the Great Door Slam of 1987.

And then someone's [coughs] mailbox slammed

into our sycamore.

But I couldn't undo that door slam,

so [coughs] I took a walk.

Like an idiot.

I can't tell if there's a pericardial effusion.

I'm getting a pulse in the neck,

but I'm worried about an underlying injury.

So, I'm standing in front of the Hoffmans' house

when their stupid Christmas decorations caught the wind,

and, ta-da!

I should be in Santa's workshop.

It isn't even Thanksgiving.

Veronica: It's enraging.

I wrote a letter to the neighborhood association.

I write one every year.

[ Louie grunts ]

Hm?

Oh, thank God.

Owen.

[ Sighs ] You two got this?

Yeah.

[ Indistinct conversations ]

What happened?

I'm okay. It barely stings.

She walked here from Yesler and got hit by a tree branch.

So she says. Follow my finger.

She needs a few stitches.

And a CT scan and a tox screen.

I don't need that.

It's just gonna say I'm high.

I'm sorry.

I know I messed up, but I want to get clean.

I came back because of you and Owen and Leo.

♪♪

[ Voice breaking ] I have to go.

I have a surgery. Um...

Just tell the nurses she's an addict

and don't give her anything.

♪♪

I'm so sorry.

Hey, it's gonna be okay, okay?

♪♪

Jo: Come on, come on. Where are you?

What's all that stuff?

Just wedding gifts.

I can't find Bubby!

Is Bubby a security blanket or a pet rat?

[ Gasps ] There you are!

This is Bubby.

She gave me hot meals when I was living in my car.

I didn't have grandparents.

I can't believe the real answer is sadder than a pet rat.

Trust me when I say your mac-and-cheese will be made with love.

[ Envelope rustles ]

Oh, no. What?

What is it?

Our marriage license. So?

So if you don't mail it in, it's not official!

Was that my job?

Kinda!

So we're not married?

[ Cellphone rings ]

Hello? Yeah.

What's up, Schmitt?

Uh, Dr. Karev, Josh Gordon's in the clinic

with abdominal pain and vomiting and...

Got it. Will do.

[ Sighs ]

Dr. Karev said to put in an NG tube

and admit him to peds.

I'll take Mrs. Aguilar over,

then I'll be back to handle Josh.

I've got Josh. No, no, no.

His electrolytes are all over the place,

probably an SBO,

and I have experience with adminis--

Yeah, I know. You've got all the experience.

You've had a lot more patients than I've had.

But I've had patients, too,

many with small bowel obstructions and NG tubes,

so I've got it.

But if you want to help,

you can walk him to peds when I'm done.

[ Telephone rings in distance ]

[ Sighs ]

Mommy, I don't want you to be worried.

I'm okay.

It happened on my way to work.

[ Sighs ] No, work's good.

Amelia: Helm, we'll keep her in a sitting position.

[ Breathes shakily ]

C-Could you go by my house later after the storm

and take over for the dog sitter?

♪♪

I might be a little longer than I thought.

And don't forget, he only gets one treat after dinner.

♪♪

Thanks, Mom.

[ Chuckles weakly ] You're the best.

You're the very best mom.

[ Breathes shakily ]

I'll call you after?

Be safe. Love you.

[ Sobs ]

Sorry, I just -- I don't like to scare her.

[ Sniffles ]

We understand.

Ready?

[ Breathing heavily ]

[ Inhales ]

♪♪

She's plenty scared.

♪♪

[ Faucet running ]

[ Scrubbing hands ]

[ Door opens ]

-Hey. -Hey.

Welcome to the North Pole. Huh.

You should've seen his wife screaming at him

all the way up to the red line.

Marital bliss. [ Chuckles ]

You take him to CT?

No, there were a dozen patients up ahead of us in line.

I'm thinking we cut the top off

and just pull the cane out from the bottom.

Works for me.

How's Betty?

Oh, um, she seems to be mostly okay.

-Thank you, by the way. -Yeah.

Staying means a lot.

Owen, I --

I need to tell you something.

-What? -Not here -- later.

Can we grab a cup of coffee after surgery?

Uh, sure.

We -- We -- We need to get in there.

Okay.

[ Doors whir ]

[ Monitor beeping ]

[ Respirator hissing ]

Basin. Oh, my God. Oh, my God.

Cottonoid.

And fibrin glue?

Yeah, just a little. Good.

[ Alarm blares ]

Agh, damn it. Suction. What happened?

Stick must have been tamponading her vertebral artery.

Helm, suction.

[ Alarm continues ]

♪♪

Maggie: He said I don't talk about my feelings enough,

that I don't share enough.

He should do more surgeries with you.

What?

Okay, it doesn't look like it damaged the fascia.

Qadri, do you want to do the honors?

Pull it out? Yes.

Maggie: Straight up. Straight.

Good.

Good.

♪ Havin' trouble sleepin' with you next to me ♪

[ Glass clatters ] What, am I just supposed to change overnight?

Okay, let's wash it out and start the repair.

Irrigation.

Do you think I'm overreacting?

This woman had 50 pieces of glass in her.

It could have killed her.

You and Jackson, it -- it sucks,

but no one's gonna die.

♪ I sink like a stone ♪

♪ Stone in your water ♪

♪ Stone in your water ♪

♪ Tell the truth ♪

♪ You know you cannot keep me safe ♪

♪ There's more pain in love than we could find in hate ♪

[ Clears throat ]

Uh, I was calling for Catherine Fox.

Who is this?

Koracick?

♪ So if you ever leave, at least it's bittersweet ♪

♪ I dive in you like water ♪ [ Alarm blaring ]

♪ I sink like a stone ♪

Pulse is dropping, and her pressure's through the roof.

Because she's herniating.

Should we give her mannitol or start hypertonic saline?

It won't work. What? Why?

Her brain stem is going dark.

Let's check her pupils.

[ Alarm continues ]

♪ Be gentle with me ♪

Fixed and dilated.

♪ Have patience... ♪

Taryn: But she was talking. [ Beep, alarm stops ]

She -- She talked to us. She -- She talked to her mom.

She was lucid.

The stick was right up against her artery.

Any attempt to remove it was a risk

for hemorrhage and uncontrollable swelling.

She never had a chance.

No.

Can you check to see if she's a donor?

She is -- B negative.

All right, let's, uh, close her up,

get her up to ICU until we can call it.

Helm, let's go.

B negative?

Yes, why?

That matches Cece Colvin.

♪ In your water ♪

[ Wind howling ]

What are you doing? There's no more patients.

Just making sure you get back okay.

Ready?

Don't worry about me.

I'm waiting it out over here,

and not because I'm scared or weak

but because it's the sensible thing to do.

The winds are picking up.

[ Sighs ] Listen, I'm sorry

if I came off harsh in the elevator.

You were an ass.

This -- This is exactly what I didn't want.

I don't need the drama, the -- the hurt feelings, the freshly coming out.

I don't need the shame spiral.

Look, you're really sweet,

but I can't guide you out of the closet

like some kind of gay Sherpa, all right?

I'm not the drama. You're the drama.

And you're also clueless if you think it's safe

to cross the ambulance bay right now.

Ever heard of the Venturi effect,

Mr. "I'm So Experienced"?

It means wind speeds

can easily double in between two buildings,

creating a tunnel.

There's a reason they call Pacific Northwest windstorms

"Big Blows."

This is an extra Big Blow!

See, I-I can't even touch that.

[ Chuckles ]

At least stay low to the ground.

[ Wind roaring ]

[ Nico grunts ]

Nico!

♪♪

Nico!

[ Wind roaring ]

♪♪

Nico!

[ Groaning ]

[ Panting ]

[ Groaning ]

♪♪

[ Bang ]

Hurry! In there!

♪♪

[ Door creaks ]

♪♪

[ Door slams ]

Are you okay?

Nico: Yeah, I think so.

[ Both breathing heavily ]

Ohh! That was...

[ Grunts ] Dude.

You're welcome.

[ Breathing heavily ]

[ Saw whirs ]

Owen: Okay, ready? Here we go.

Jackson: All right, keep going.

There's no injury to the jugular so far.

Teddy: Are you even pulling on it?

Listen, slow and steady.

I don't want him to bleed out.

We're buying him some time away from his wife.

We might be doing him a favor.

[ Chuckles ]

So, did something happen, something bad?

[ Instrument clinks ] Not now.

Carotid's intact.

[ Sighs ]

Listen, if you're sick or something, you should just --

Owen.

[ Sighs ] Wait.

Is this, whatever this is,

why you came back to Seattle in the first place?

Why didn't you talk to me before now?

Well, 'cause I didn't want anyone to...bleed out.

Oh, so it's definitely bad.

Can we just focus on the surgery?

Great. My field's clear.

[ Gurgle ]

[ "Carry You" by Ruelle playing ]

♪♪

I'm officially declaring her.

♪ I know... ♪

Her radionuclide scan shows no cerebral perfusion.

♪ To breathe... ♪

She's brain dead.

I'll touch base with UNOS and our transplant coordinator.

Helm, you'll --

Tell Dr. Grey?

Yes, right away.

♪ You've lost the will to fight ♪ [ Cellphone ringing ]

♪ Is anybody out there? ♪

♪ Can you lead... ♪

Hello?

Woman: Honey, is that you?

Are you out?

Mrs. Moss, um...

♪ Is anybody... ♪

This is Dr. Shepherd.

I was your daughter's surgeon.

♪ All be all right ♪

[ Indistinct conversations ]

♪ You are not... ♪ Just go ahead and yell, okay?

I know you're mad, and I get it, so --

Thank you.

For coming back.

You can always come back, okay?

♪ Singing you a song ♪

Please, always come back.

♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

Okay.

♪ I will carry you-ooh-ooh... ♪

[ Sniffles ]

♪ I will carry you ♪

♪ I know you can't remember... ♪

[ Water runs ] What is so wrong in your life

that you can't listen to my problems?

Maggie.

No. [ Scoffs ]

Did Jackson tell you what happened?

Because even if he did, that shouldn't matter.

You're my sister. You should have my back.

Do you love him? Do you still love him?

Yeah, of course, but that's not the point.

No, it is the point!

[ Sighs ]

♪ Is anybody out there? ♪

Catherine has advanced chondrosarcoma on her spine.

She's my VIP patient. She's why I went to Los Angeles.

♪ Is anybody... ♪

It's big, and it's bad, and he's gonna need you.

So, unless he's revealed himself to be some sort of sociopath,

just make up with him,

or, at the very least, be his friend.

Does Jackson know? Does Richard?

Not yet.

Meredith. I know.

And you broke HIPAA to me with Teddy, so we're even.

[ Doors bang ]

I, uh -- I found them. He didn't.

Found what?

We may have organs for Cece.

♪♪

[ Gurgle ] Owen: [ Sighing ] Okay.

Okay.

[ Candy cane clanks ]

[ Sighs ]

♪♪

Grazed the liver, missed the colon.

I don't see any damage to the spleen.

Jackson: How's the heart?

Well, the cane passed anterior to the pericardium.

There's only a small hole in the diaphragm,

and it missed the heart completely.

Yeah, and the bowel only has a few serosal tears.

Irrigation?

Yeah, I can't believe it.

He's completely unscathed.

Honestly, I'm kind of disappointed.

[ Chuckles ]

♪ You-ooh-ooh are not alone ♪

-Owen. -Hmm?

♪ I've been here... ♪

I'm pregnant.

♪ Singing you a song ♪

With your baby.

I'm sorry I waited so long.

Dr. Altman, they're asking for you in the E.R.

Another cardiac case.

Yeah.

♪ I will... ♪

I'm on my way.

♪ ...carry you-ooh-ooh... ♪

Congratulations?

♪ I will carry you ♪

♪ Is anybody out there? ♪

[ Indistinct conversations ]

[ Wind howling ]

Teddy, are you and Owen finished?

Oh, I'm sorry, what?

With your surgery.

Oh, um, they were just about to close,

and -- and then I got called out.

Okay, thanks. I, uh, have to talk to him.

And, um, thank you so much for your help.

I can't tell you how much I appreciate it.

Oh, yeah, of course.

-Hey, Altman! -Excuse me.

Yeah? Help me out.

Wow.

Where are all the orderlies?

They're stretched thin, so maintenance is helping out.

This entire hospital is stretched thin.

You should shut it down before someone gets hurt.

What? You want her to close trauma? Yeah, I do.

Every hospital in the area is shut down, and --

And this is a brick house.

Get him to CT. Got it.

Jackson: You know, for what it's worth,

I was the last one to find out about Harriet,

and she's the best thing that ever happened to me.

Could you -- Uh, do you mind talking to...?

Go ahead. Go. I'll talk to his wife.

[ Door creaks ]

[ Monitors beeping, whirring ]

So I can get my transplants today?

Yeah, there's a few more tests that Dr. Pierce has to run,

but if they check out, yes.

Who's the donor? Do they have family?

All I can say is that it was someone

who was hurt in the storm.

And the storm's gotten so bad

that UNOS can't physically send the organs

anywhere else.

So they're giving them to me?

Why the face?

You weren't the next person on the list, Cece.

You were nowhere near the top

because your body's been through so much damage,

and with procedures like these,

you're at risk for catastrophic bleeding.

You'll be under anesthesia for hours,

which can only increase the possibility

that you'll clot or have a stroke.

There's a chance it won't work.

There's a chance you might not make it off Dr. Grey's table.

What's wrong with this one, again?

He's right.

You don't have to accept the organs.

We are taking a huge risk.

If I die today, I die fighting.

I'll die knowing I did everything I could,

but, Dr. Grey, if you don't fight,

if you don't try, if you don't do your part

and squeeze all the light and love and joy you can

out of this one life you've been given,

I'm gonna haunt you from my grave.

[ Chuckles ] Okay.

Okay.

Now give me those organs.

Because I'd much rather haunt you from above ground.

I will see you upstairs, Cece.

♪♪

Okay, so, let's recheck her potassium

and correct her coagulopathy, okay?

♪♪

Yes. Uh, yes to...?

Drinks. I'm assuming the offer's still standing?

-Really? -Yeah.

Definitely.

Um, you want to try tonight? Sure.

I mean, if the bar's still standing

after the storm.

Let's do it.

♪♪

Someone who knows us thought we'd want this?

Kepner registered for us.

Wait, what is the point of the tiny bowls?

Oh, those are ramekins.

They're, like, uh, good for crème brûlée and stuff.

Mm, who are you?

Izzie -- Izzie, she baked a lot.

You know what I'm thinking?

[ Gasps ] We shouldn't talk about our exes

on our honeymoon?

No. Mm, we return all this crap,

make a fortune,

buy a bigger TV.

[ Exhales ]

I love you.

I love you.

[ Chuckles ]

[ Dishes clink ]

[ Wind roaring ]

[ Bag pops ]

For your face.

There's some swelling.

What?

What happened to your glasses?

The band snapped when we were climbing in the rig.

Can you see?

Yes, I can see.

Just not perfectly.

They're probably broken on the ground

or blew away into a tree,

which is all your fault.

You done?

Yes.

No. No, I'm not done.

You know what's also your fault?

The fact that you think I have a shame spiral,

because I don't.

I'm not spiraling. I'm a nerd.

I'm no more ashamed of being attracted to guys

than I am of anything else in my life.

♪♪

Do you know what I did almost every night

before I went to college?

I sat in my mom's basement

with three other debate-club kids

playing "Dungeons & Dragons,"

a-and it's the same basement I live in now.

Trust me when I say no one was having sex.

With guys or girls.

Sex was...

[ Sighs ]

Sex was like the Sunsword.

♪ Oh, I, oh, I, oh, am I getting through? ♪

It's a magical weapon in the game

that's really hard to find.

It's basically like a talking light saber, but --

Never mind, doesn't matter.

The point is...

sex wasn't on the table for us.

So I didn't know I was gay.

I-I knew [chuckles] that I had feelings for boys,

but I didn't understand it.

♪ Could change your mind ♪

Not until you kissed me.

You kissed me,

and I felt the opposite of shame.

I felt like I existed,

and everything fell in place.

For the first time, it felt like

I was holding the Sunsword, and I kno--

♪ Oh, maybe I can... ♪

Are -- Are -- Are -- Are you just kissing me

to get me to stop talking?

No.

♪ But, oh, maybe I can change your miiiiind ♪

♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh ♪ ♪ Cha-a-a-a-a-nge ♪

♪ Can I change your mind? ♪

♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

Hey.

Look, I know... [ Door closes ]

...I probably shouldn't have said all that to Cece,

and I-I get it if you're mad, but I-I had to say --

It was brave.

Not many doctors are brave enough

to tell that kind of truth.

You impress me, DeLuca.

Well, you amaze me, Dr. Grey.

And while I'm feeling brave,

I'm not sorry I kissed you at the wedding.

'Cause it's all I've been able to think about ever since,

and I know you have options,

but...I want you to know that I'm one of them.

I am your attending.

No, no, no. Don't do that, okay?

This isn't some kind of abuse of power.

I'm not an intern. I'm a senior resident.

You dated my sister.

Maggie doesn't care. Like, deeply doesn't care.

DeLuca.

Meredith.

Andrew.

Look... [ Sighs ]

...I think there's something here,

and we can keep going through all the excuses of why not,

but I think you feel it, too.

♪♪

I'm having such a week.

I don't trust my thinking.

So I'm gonna walk out of here, okay?

But I'm gonna think about what you said...

when I'm able to think.

Okay?

Okay.

Okay.

♪♪

[ Glasses clink ]

Cheers. To our second honeymoon.

Cheers.

Mmm.

Ahh.

Beer tastes better in this.

If we keep all the gifts,

does that mean we have to write thank-you notes?

-Not it. -Not it.

I don't care about the license. I feel married.

Me, too.

But we should still mail it in.

Yeah.

♪♪

Louie's fine?

He -- He was an appetizer on a festive toothpick.

Yes, and, surprisingly, nothing vital was pierced.

Ohh. He needs to rest, okay?

Stay quiet for several weeks or so.

[ Breathes deeply ]

I know it sounds like we hate each other, the way we go at it,

but I have loved him every day

of the 45 years we've been together.

But still, that's 45 years of marriage.

I mean, we would have never made it without fighting.

Louie -- he likes a dramatic exit,

but he scared me half to death today,

because... [ Breathes shakily ]

[voice breaking] ...because, you see,

he always comes back.

No matter the fight, he would -- he would come back.

Thank you.

Mm-hmm.

♪♪

♪♪

[ Knock on wall ]

I am gonna re-read this entire thing,

and then I'm gonna get a new sponsor.

Well, I think that is an excellent idea.

'Cause I'm pretty sure

my wife is having an affair with Tom Koracick,

and I'm afraid, if I don't get a little more serenity

than I already have right now,

that I'll kill someone

and go back to jail for good.

Catherine and Koracick?

Well, not everyone is Bailey and Warren.

Ben and I...

aren't sleeping in the same house right now.

I asked for a sabbatical.

You don't take a sabbatical from a marriage.

You take it from a job.

I worry every minute of the day

about whether he was suffocating from too much carbon monoxide,

blowing up in a burning building,

or falling off a stupid ladder.

[ Sighs ]

I worried about him dying.

A-And all that stopped just because you asked him to leave?

And you're not worried anymore?

You gave up your job and your husband.

What's next -- Tuck?

Bailey, you're trying to fix the inside from the outside,

and I know because my insides are a damn mess.

You need to get some help, Bailey.

♪♪

[ Door opens ]

Hi.

You got a minute?

[ Door closes ]

[ Sighs ]

Been thinking about yesterday.

That was kind of the first big fight we've ever really had.

Jackson, I-I don't know how to say this.

No, it's okay. You don't have to say anything.

Maggie.

[ "Bones" by Garrison Starr playing ]

♪♪

Jackson, I'm so sorry.

♪ Ooh ♪

It's your mom.

♪ Oh, child, when you are weary ♪

♪ Weary deep down in your soul ♪

-Hey, Helm. -Hey.

You're taking Phoebe up for the procurement?

Yes. Uh, Dr. Grey's meeting us in O.R. 2

while Qadri preps Cece.

♪ I won't ever leave you... ♪

I'm joining. Thanks.

[ Elevator bell dings ] ♪ Oh, no, no, no, no ♪

♪ Oh, child, when you're in darkness ♪

Hey. No!

What? I'm -- I'm going to the O.R.

You're following me.

I'm going to your O.R. I'm on the case.

Okay, uh, I will stand over here,

and I will be silent, and I won't look at you.

♪ Takes some getting lost to be found ♪

Coming in, careful.

♪ Ohhhhh ♪ Go. Go, go, go.

-Hey. -Watch it.

Hey. Hey, hey, hey!

♪ Ain't no grave gonna hold you now ♪

Teddy, we need to --

Owen, I'm -- I'm heading back into the O.R.

I got this.

Hey, we got this.

♪ Ain't no chain gonna hold you down ♪ ♪ Oh ♪

♪ Ain't no grave gonna hold you now ♪

How could you have kept this from me?

Don't act like this should've been easy.

[ Elevator bell dings ] ♪ Ain't it time to bury them bones? ♪

Hey!

I have been looking for you everywhere

because I had to see you and tell you that, um --

whoa -- um, that I want to apply

to be Betty's official foster mom,

which might mean that Betty and I have to move out for a while

for bureaucratic whatever, but, um...I love her.

You know? Like, we love her, right?

♪ Wash me clean in the water ♪ ♪ Oh, take me down ♪

What? Did something happen?

Sometimes our body's signals get messed up...

♪ Ain't no grave gonna hold you now ♪

♪ Yesterday done came... ♪

...and our failsafe goes haywire.

[ Electricity crackling ]

[ Pole crashes ]

Instead of making clots, our body destroys them.

What is it? [ Sighs ] Amelia, I need to --

We need to --

[ Clank, elevator creaks ]

♪ Wash me clean... ♪

And the thing that's supposed to help us

only hurts us.

[ Clank, elevator creaks ] Oh!

♪ Wash me clean in the water ♪

What's happening?

[ Clank, elevator creaks ]

♪ Down to the river ♪

♪ Wash me clean in the water ♪ [ Clank, powering down ]

♪ Take me down to the river ♪ ♪ Ohhh ♪

♪ Wash me clean in the water ♪ [ Buttons click ]

♪ Take me down... ♪

We're stuck.

It means we start to bleed...

♪ Wash me clean in the water ♪

♪ Take me down to the river ♪ [ Hits panel ]

♪ Wash me clean in the water ♪ ♪ Oh, take me down ♪

♪ Take me down to the river ♪ [ Heart beating ]

♪ Wash me clean in the water ♪

♪ Wash me clean in the water ♪

...and everything shuts down.

♪ Wash me clean in the water ♪

♪♪

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