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Previously on
"Suddenly Amish."

I want to show you stuff
that I have hidden away.

I am shunned.

By helping me, I'm offering
James a chance at redemption.

We're gonna have
to take your phone now.

Welcome to the Amish.

If I'm not strict enough,
I might be the one

paying the price.

I am escorting
you off the property.

- He's chasing me
with a [bleep] axe.
- Go!

♪ My name is Judah ♪

♪ Yeah ♪

♪ And I am bi ♪

I'm scared.

I don't think that the Amish
accepts anybody in

the LGBT community.

Imma just keep my little
secrets to myself.

We're flirting under
Amish terms.

There's a connection there.

But I just like talking to him.

I'm leaving.

With Matt leaving,
it sucks for Kendra

because I thought there was
a little something brewing

with the two of them.

It's, like, hard.

I definitely have
a soft spot for Kendra.

If I want to be Amish,
I have to face James again.

Are you kidding me right now?

- Oh, Jesus.
- Oh!

Matt, why are you back?

I think James is maybe
a little interested in Kendra,

and if Kendra would conform
and stay, that she could

possibly be a future partner
for him.

Allen's saying, part of my
reason for chasing Matt off is

because I wanted
Kendra to myself.

I don't know, did I?

I have to be honest with you,
you and Kendra would not be

a good match.
- OK.

You would get into a cat
and dog fight, and you'd be

over with, like, within
two days.

Less than two days.

Cats and dogs get along still.

Mm-hmm.

I guess.

I'm not sure what Matt's
intentions are for coming back.

Maybe it is to come see Kendra.

But if that is
his primary motivator,

then it won't last long-term.

Well, Matt, we came to
a conclusion, you can stay...

- Awesome.
- ...and then we'll take
it from there.

- OK.
- Welcome back.

It was three against one.

I think there's some
darkness in Matt.

I have to do my due diligence
and keep a close eye on him.

Keep the community clean.

When did y'all leave
the other house?

- We discovered
some bats, so, uh...
- Perfect.

...we'll be staying here
for a while.

Wish I knew you were coming.
I would have cleaned my room.

I'm willing to give Matt
the patience that he needs

to see if this is
really what he wants.

- Go ahead, Matt.
- Thank you.

In the Amish culture,
forgiveness is very important,

and forgiveness comes
with patience.

If you're ready, we'll take
you up to your room.

Yes, I would love to see.

I would highly encourage
James to maybe practice

a little more patience.

We'll make him
sleep out in the corn.

As much as I like Matt,

I don't want Matt to
be back here.

I feel like we all worked so
hard to get to this point,

and I don't want him to mess
this up for any of us.

So, I'm not sure how
we're gonna work this out.

We'll figure it out.

We got some space
over here for you.

- Perfect.
- I have a
mixture of feelings.

I want us all to make it,
but is he committed?

What about these beds?
Three in a row.

- That's cool.
- Would that work?

Um, yeah, I mean,
I'm fine with that.

Sure.
OK.

Having to live under James'
roof with James, I don't know

what's gonna happen.

I don't know if these
doors lock.

- Are you here
to stay, Matt?
- I don't know.

In the Amish world,
church is everything.

It's not just about...

your faith, it's also
about community.

It's the all-consuming thing in
the Amish lifestyle.

For the six people that were
invited to come in,

to understand and experience
the church experience is

extremely important.

It's more important than
putting away their technology.

It's more important
than changing clothes.

It's about doing life
with others.

I've never been to
Amish church before.

I don't know what to expect.

I don't know what
it's gonna be like.

I'm used to the loud
African American experience.

Going to
the Amish church is one of

the things that I really
wanted to do.

So I'm psyched that we get to
go, 'cause nobody gets to go

from the outside.

Matt is not yet compliant,
so we're gonna give him

his Amish clothes for the day
out of respect for the church.

But after the church service,
he's gonna have to give him

back until he's compliant
and he's ready.

Matt wearing the Amish
clothing is a little bit like

a wolf in sheep's clothing.

We need to watch him hard

so he doesn't eat
the rest of our sheep.

- Following James.
- See that barn?

Oh, yeah.

Amish churches are
generally in a barn.

In the Amish church service,

you will show up the fellowship
prior to starting church.

And then there's a three- to
three-and-a-half-an-hour

service, and then there's
the fellowship meal.

It's a full day.

Walking up, I already
felt, like, an eerie vibe.

There was no one in sight,
and then there were,

like, three girls, a little bit
younger, walking up,

and they're instantly like...

So I was like, "OK, this is
how it's gonna be."

Yeah, we definitely look
like outsiders.

Then this guy walks up
to us, and he's like,

"OK, girls over here,
guys over here."

And we're like,
"Oh, we're separated."

The church knew we were
planning to bring these

English to church, so they were
kind of expecting us.

I don't think they are
too upset.

I don't know if they're too
excited either.

They definitely have
their guards up.

Right now,
I'm living in Lancaster,

but I'm from Atlanta.

I feel like a pepper in
a saw bucket.

Like, there was no other
African American folk up

in there, so I was like,
"Hold on."

Their songs were
very, like, elongated.

Their vowels were,
like, we were on the same page

for, like, 20 minutes.

I just pretended to look at
the book

because I didn't know
what else to do.

Amish sermons,
for the most part,

are in Pennsylvania Dutch
or German.

I have no idea
what they're singing.

I have no idea what
they're saying.

I don't know what
the sermon's about.

But BJ looked at me,
I looked at her--

she seen me
see her see me,

and we was like...
gave each other the eye.

So we stepped out.

So after the service,
we all headed back home.

I am really happy we came
because that was really

interesting to see.
- Yeah, that's how
I feel too.

Like the singing was beautiful.

- They're still there.
- They're still
there.

They were eating.

Yeah, because they have like
a little lunch, I guess,

like, after church every time.

As soon as we got to the farm,
we realized that James

and Aaron were still at church,
so maybe they're having lunch.

I'm not sure, but I'm sure
they're having a good time.

Church is a very sacred place
that not a lot of people get to

go to, so I want to eat it up.

And I know the other people
were tired and they were ready

to get home,
but stayed a little longer,

had some conversation.

They invited us to stay even
longer after the food.

Why did you guys run off
and leave us?

Even though I might not be
able to understand the Dutch

and I can't hear everything
being said, I could still read

the body language of everybody,
and to me,

it was such an awakening.
It was transcending.

What did you think of church?

I felt like church was cool.
It was really interesting.

I feel like I wish I could have
understood it more, but we were

there for three hours with no
backs on our chairs,

so I needed a break.

I needed a second to
relax and recuperate.

Wait, you stepped out
for a few minutes.

Yeah.

Well, also, BJ stepped out as
well, so why would

you think that--
- Yeah, I did too.

I personally felt like it
was very important for them to

go to church.

I wanted them to understand...

the whole community is
built around religion.

I don't think that they got it.

Aaron, he sat there through
the whole thing,

but everybody else,
they just could not sit still.

Like, I just wish they could
have just sat there

and just been respectful...

and just, you know,
it's not that hard.

Let's have a silent prayer.

The silent prayers during meal
times, it's a time that

we reflect on being thankful
for the food we have,

the family we have,
you know, everything.

But most importantly,
we need to thank God for

his blessing upon it.

I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry.

Hallelujah.
Amen.

When there's a silent prayer,
normally the person that says,

"OK, let's pray in silence."

James should have said,
"Let's ask the blessing,"

and then he should have done
a short blessing on this meal

in his head.
- It was like a Bluetooth.

Like, we all, like,
sync up to James.

And then he should have said
"amen" out loud so that we know.

The food looks great,
and I was ready to dig in.

And just to, you know...

- There's music playing, right?
- There's music.

OK.

Sounds like
a Rumspringa party.

Where are they?

Rumspringa is
a time for youth to decide

if they want to stay Amish
or join the world.

- Sydney, pleasure to meet.
- Jess, nice to meet you.

- Rebecca.
- Pleasure to meet.

There's some that dress
English, drive a vehicle,

and of course,
many of them drink.

I was born and raised in
a very conservative church,

so conservative that
we didn't have Rumspringa.

So I kind of missed out
on Rumspringa years.

Hi, I'm Kendra.

There's a possibility
I might still be with the church

if I had Rumspringa.

I would have pursued those
curiosities earlier

rather than later, probably.

We wanted to go hang
out at the Rumspringa party.

James was letting loose.

I ended up joining
into the party.

I'm human too.

I like to have a little fun.

Oh!

We decided it might
be a good idea to give

these English a little bit
of a break.

We've been tough on them,
we've been strict, so we'll

give them a little taste of
what Rumspringa is like.

Maybe they'll actually want to
be Amish even more.

Tonight we're all
on Rumspringa.

I just wanted to
get a little cozy with Matt.

He did not leave my side
and I was like, "OK."

So I'm still trying to play it
cool, but it's cute.

We're like hanging out.

We are breaking
the rules with the alcohol.

It's a slow process.

You can't expect me to
be Amish overnight.

Jesus drank wine.

Why are we depriving ourselves

of the beautiful grapes
that Jesus gave?

Like, let me have
a glass of wine.

Maybe if we party
together and have a little fun,

maybe we'll connect with them
a little deeper level

Maybe on a shallower level,
I don't know.

James just keeps
staring at Kendra.

- What the...
- Baddie!

You'd be Amish except
for the moves.

Do you see what I see?

I see it.

I know, that's what
I'm saying,

like, you can put whatever
clothes on me,

I'm still gonna be...
- Still Kendra.

- the Amish twerk?
- Yeah, they do.

What is the Amish twerk?

Uh, uh, uh.

Kendra twerking,
looking at Matt.

- James energized by...
- Excited.

Yeah, by Kendra's twerk.

And then Emma's gaze at James
watching Kendra twerk.

She was not happy about him
giving those stares.

Oh.

- Why do you think that is?
- She a little jealous.
She jealous.

She is a little jealous.
She knocked that hat right off

his head so quick.

Oh, here come the lanterns.
Perfect.

Fire.
Fire dancing.

There you go.

- Look at him.
- Fire dancing.

Yes! Get it.

OK.

We got wine, wanna drink it?
Is it a Cabernet?

Oh, what do you know
about Cabernets?

James is wild.

And I'm like,
"Homeboy who chased Matt off

with an ax is now like,
the crazy party animal."

Like, I feel like he needed
that release.

Yield not to temptation.

- Who's thirsty?
- Oh, God.

A little wine for
the stomach's sake.

Oh-- Oh, my God.

- Keep going.
- There's lanterns everywhere.

I saw a lot of strange things
with Emma and James.

It's like friendly
flirting, maybe, but awkward

for everyone else.

You ready to go to bed?
Bed time, .

I feel like it's hypocritical
how James is so harsh on us,

but then, like,
he's wrestling Emma.

Wrestling match?
I didn't see one.

- Did you?
- No, I didn't see anything.

He's supposedly the super
strict Amish man, but, like,

I see what he's doing.
I got eyeballs, too.

Uh, there's a lot of
hypocrisy going on with...

a lot of things.
James is getting drunk.

I mean, that's in the Bible.

You're not supposed to drink to
excess, as well as

doing all of this extra stuff
with Emma, and I don't know

if they think they get
a free pass

because they're cousins,
and it's...

James didn't want me to fight
him, because he knew I would

lay him over real quick.

Actually, you did pull my leg
out from under me one time.

It might be somethings going on,
I ain't gonna speak about.

- Mm. Fair. That's fair.
- I don't know.

Then I need more tin foil.

I think my confidence has
definitely grown here from

day one, where I was like,
you know, had my lashes,

my hair, like, my style.

Having all that taken away,
I definitely struggled with

because I think it was,
like, something I kind of was

hiding, I guess, behind.

And now that I don't have any
of that, it's just, I feel like

I've grown for myself
and been able to be,

like, a lot more confident.
- OK, I have this for the eggs.

I'll put them on here.

Both of your knees are
messed up?

- Yes, that's what I was saying.
- From fall-- you fell on
both of them?

Yeah, my skin was coming
off of my knees

- Hi, Allen.
- Hi, Allen.

- Hi.
- Hi.

- Can I borrow you a second?
- Yeah.

Uh-oh.

- What up? What up?
- Fellas?

- Hey. How you doing?
- Good.

What are you guys doing?

Allen wants to talk to us
about something.

Seeing that you all spent some
time in the community

and made quite a few changes,

I feel like a father figure
to you all.

I guess I just wanted to talk
about relationships.

Now is the time to talk about
the birds and the bees of life.

We highly encourage
a hands-off relationship.

- Sorry.
- Be serious.

I did notice you, Matt,
you know, with...

you and Kendra, I really hope
it works out for you,

if that's what you guys want.
- Thanks, Allen.

I would highly encourage to
take things slow and easy.

Definitely, yeah.

I agree.

It is a bit hypocritical.

James is doing all of this
extra stuff with Emma,

and if I brush against
Kendra's knee,

I get an hour-long lecture
about it.

In our culture,
we believe that the women are

to be respected.

They are there for a helpmeet.

They're not just a sex figure.

I felt like I was back in
my homeschool days where my mom

went and rented the puberty
video from the library.

Awkward!

I had a question with
relationships and premarital

sex and pregnancy.

What do Amish do if
that happens?

Is that an absolute shun?

Yes, there will
be consequences.

That's why you gotta do,
like, the pull out method.

You gotta make sure you
get in and get out.

Yeah, and then you shoot
the gun, and then you,

like, make sure the bullets
is re-up.

Wait, no.

So when the bullet is already
shot, it's too late
to pull out.

Yeah, so let's change
the analogy now.

You park the car,
and then before you get out

the car, you back out,
and you don't even--

Put it in reverse.

Put it in reverse,
and you don't even get

out the car.
- I think that's
a good analogy.

I understand that.

We also believe that if God
wants us to have a family,

he will provide it.

And when the children
are growing up...

it is our responsibility to

teach them what's right
and what's wrong.

This is my chance to have
a conversation with Allen about

my sexuality and see if
I'm even accepted in this space.

So let me ask this.

Say somebody, there's two
members of church,

maybe, men or women and they are
in a same-sex relationship.

How does the Amish--

How is-- is that an automatic
shun as well?

I was kind of shocked
by this question.

I don't understand why Judah
was asking me this.

Yes.

That is not acceptable.

It's clear to me that I can't
tell Allen that I'm bisexual.

I'm really at a crossroads
right now because, if I do

decide to date an Amish man,
I'm going to be shunned.

But at the same time,
I could fall in love with

an Amish woman.

So I don't really know how this
is gonna play out.

I'm just giving it to God
at this point.

- Hello, Mr. Bishop, sir.
- How are you, Judah?

Good.
How are you?

I'm going to meet with each of
these six people on

an individual basis.
- Hi, Aaron.

This following up with
the English people and help

them sort through, find what
they're looking for.

That's my job.

The bishop is a very important
part in the community.

A lot of people will respect
the bishop more than just about

anybody else.
He's almost like the king.

People go to him for advice.

A lot of people are
kind of scared of him.

Have a seat.

In the next couple weeks,
we will have a day of reckoning

to see how well they have
integrated into the community.

At that time, the church will
decide whether they can

continue pursuing membership
in the Amish church.

- Wow, your appearance
has changed a lot.
- I look different, right?

Yep, definitely.

- You definitely would almost
pass for an Amish person.
- Almost.

So tell me about
your experience so far?

I see you haven't
changed the clothes.

I have not gotten Amish
clothes yet.

I just got back a couple of
days ago.

I was excited to talk to him,
but also very nervous just

because of how our conversation
went last time.

You look beautiful today.
Do you feel beautiful?

I actually do.

Like, this color and then
the covering, I think

the covering is
the cutest thing.

One thing that I've been
really learning is that putting

on all this is a lot
of discipline.

- It's a lot of what
I don't want to do.
- Yeah.

It's been good.
It's been bad.

It's been a ride.

One of the biggest cons about
Amish living would be like

how strict the rules are.

Honestly, if I be real with
you, Bishop, this thing, like

really feels like a cult.

And I feel like James just
comes from a really strict

church that they have to have

specific shoe soles,
specific clothes.
- Yeah.

- And it kind of scares certain
people away...
- Yeah.

...if you're not strong-minded.
- Yeah.

So what has been the greatest
challenge for you?

- I struggle with the heat.
- Oh, OK, no AC?

It's huge for me, Bishop.

I was just so scared of what
he was gonna say to me.

I didn't know what to expect.

- We talked about
your hearing needs.
- Mm-hmm.

Did you find
the community helpful?

Um, it's different, but I did
get some new hearing aids.

It's, you know, my brain's
doing a lot of this.

Got it.

I get the fact that it feels
like a cult to you,

but the reality is the Amish
people find themselves in

an era that they didn't choose.

I'm actually impressed with
your level of openness

and your humility.

Stepping into a new culture is
not an easy thing.

For outsiders coming in,
my greatest piece of advice is

always lay down your own
agendas and just focus on

becoming one with
everybody else.

And if you come in
any other way,

that's a recipe for disaster.

I had a, uh, altercation
with James.

James was pretty upset
about me being divorced,

and he chased me off the
property with an ax, so...

I would say that was
an over-excessive reaction.

Yeah.

It's really hard to take
an energetic young man like

James and where he came from,

the strict order
that he came from,

and he's making
choices today

because of that
strict order.

Why did you come back?

- I felt like there was some
unfinished business.
- Journey.

Yeah, very unfinished journey.

How do you feel about the rules
in the Amish community?

More Amish people that I meet,
they're very cool,

calm, reserved, and that's just
not me, but as far

as the cooking,
the cleaning, dressing more

modestly, not using my phone,
that I'm totally cool with.

So with Kendra, she has bought
into how serious modesty is

to the Amish culture.

Even through all, it may seem
negative, but I do appreciate

the positive aspects of it.

With Judah, I think the biggest
hurdle for him to

overcome would be
his individuality.

He values that highly.

He sees that as a great asset,

and the Amish would see
that as a detriment.

So it's important for Aaron to
understand not being able to

have the specific hearing aids
that he has is

not a punishment.

It's a freeing up of
the technology

that he's clinging to.
- I appreciate you.

So good to see you.

- Bless you.
- Thank you.

So if Billy Jo wants to join,
I don't think anybody has

a problem with that.

Esmeralda and Matt seem to
be the outliers.

It will take a lot of
discipleship to integrate them

into our lifestyle,

but God brought them all
together for a reason.

Hi, welcome.

The bishop put me on this
mission to help these English

join the church.

I have to be straight.

I am not sure how
it's going to go.

Just following up with you,
caring for the English,

just wanted to hear
your perspective, how you felt

they were doing, how
they were integrating.

I think it's a battle
for all of them.

OK.

I'd say, you know, it's
a culture shock, obviously.
- OK.

We've been trying to,
you know, and give them some

grace and let them take it at
a slower pace than some would.
- OK.

They don't realize how hard it
is and what all is involved.

OK.

What you're saying is,
we're coming from two different

worlds and they're trying to
integrate into our world

and they're figuring out
that it's really hard.

It's interesting watching
them battle with

the culture shock, definitely.

Do you feel like you've gotten
to know these people well

enough that you could be
an advocate for them?

- We should do better with that.
- I agree.

Appreciate those thoughts.

Yeah.

Except James has blue eyes?
Green eyes? Gray eyes.

- No, they're... orange-ish.
- Blue-ish.

OK, it's just
reflecting you.

Oh, it is?

James and I have been
very close over the years.

He's helped me a lot.

He's been very impactful
in my life.

I would say we've been
best friends.

- Would you date me, James?
- I don't know.

I don't know.

Oh, you did great.
You're really good.

I don't see why we'd be bad for
each other anyway.

We do enjoy
each other's company.

You have to understand,
we're also very young.

I'm 23 years old.
I respect James a lot.

He kind of...

taught me a lot of what I know.

I know.

We never hooked up.

There's plenty of things
the English will have to do

to fit into our community.
There's plenty of work.

We believe that hard work can
help build your character,

so there's one person

that needs a little
bit more of that.

Oh, my God.

I think James gave me this
almost impossible task of

mowing the lawn with a rusty,
broken lawn mower,

on purpose because he doesn't
like me very much.

I think James could be
targeting me specifically

because he likes Kendra...

...so he may be trying to get
me out of the way.

Is it getting stuck?

I'm more so unsticking
the mower than I am

mowing the lawn.
And the handle's breaking.

It's a little uneven.

Do you want to just say
it's broken and we can go to,

like, the creek or something?
- Yeah.

OK.
They won't know.

- Just leave it.
- Oops.

- OK, we're gonna go this way.
- Whoopsie.

They'll be like,
"What happened?"-- mm...

Getting to know Kendra
and exploring things with

Kendra is slightly
more exciting

because it's forbidden.
'Cause we're not supposed to.

This is so cute, actually.

Allen talked to me
about touching.

- Allen talked to you
about touching?
- Mm-hmm.

- What did he say?
- Because he saw my hand
on your knee.

He was saying that,
like, little touching,

like, a hand on the knee
or something like that just,

like, leads to...

more things that...

they're not OK with.

So they just, like, don't do
any touching at all.

That's crazy to me.

That's part of, like,
the getting to know you,

like, process, like--
- Yeah.

Because if you're
not compatible,

like, sexually,
or even, like,

physical connection
like that...
- Yeah.

...like, what happens if you get
married and then you're like,

"Mnh-mnh"?
- "Don't like this."

Yeah.

I don't know.

I feel like it's hard to
get to know people in,

like, a group setting.
- Yeah.

Well, I mean, even us at
the house, like, I'm trying to

get to know you and then
it's hard because, like,

people come in and...
- Yeah.

...it's just, like, so hard to,
like, actually get to know you.
- Yeah.

- It's not what I'm used to.
- Yeah, same.

- Like, that's for sure.
- Yeah.

I think things between
me and Kendra have

gotten to a really tense place,
physically, because, I mean,

I would like to touch her
and explore,

other than just sitting
and chit chatting,

because what's the difference
between that and, like, friends?

Like, you know, like,
when you're romantically

interested in somebody,
you want to, like, make some

physical contact,
and we're not allowed to.

If we were in the modern world,

I would have kissed
Kendra by now.

You have to be an arm's
length away.

What the [bleep]?

Emma caught me off guard.

I'm so pissed right now.

What the [bleep],
is wrong with this girl?

It has to be about
an arm's length.

I'm making you a stick,

so you know.

The Amish, how they date,
it's very monitored.

They do believe in hands-off
courtship, so no holding hands,

no touching, nothing.

I've never seen any Amish
kissing in public.

I think you could be shorter.

Yeah, what if
you just, like...

We're not gonna sit with
a stick between us.

That's crazy.

Me and Kendra are in our 30s,
and Emma's in her 20s,

so that makes it
even more like...

Get out of my face right now.

At first, I was like, "Oh,
I'm going to become Amish."

But in that moment,
I was like, "I don't care
about any of that."

I just wanted to
be real.

Emma, we're coming swimming.

Do you want us to
bring the stick?

Ooh.
Oh God.

Whoa.

Emma, do you approve of this?

It's for safety reasons.

Matt and Kendra's date was
not a normal Amish date.

Like, there's a respectful
way of doing it,

and there's
a disrespectful way.

Normally, it wouldn't be any
physical touch or anything

like that, but the whole thing
was very different from

what I was used to,

so I just kind of
gave up doing anything about it.

Well, I thought maybe
they didn't want to be Amish.

- Allen, Judah.
- What's up, y'all?

Hello.

- We went swimming.
- We went swimming.

- Swimming?
- Yeah.

Y'all look as guilty as ever.

We went to like
a creek or a...

- It was a creek.
- Yeah.

- A creek.
- We went to a creek.

- Was he a gentleman?
- Yeah.

Ooh, ooh, ooh.

I have a problem with you.

You're an English guy trying to
drag off our Amish ladies.

We can't have that.

Matt's leading Kendra astray.

And Kendra struggles
with temptation.

I have to put a stop to this.

You can't think about
dating an Amish lady

in the Amish church
if you are formally married.

- OK.
- What are you doing here?

Is Kendra formally in
the Amish church?

No, but she is joining
the fold, and you're trying to

drag her back out.

Well, we'll talk about that
if she's formally in

the Amish church.

Right?

James is getting in my face
after this date.

I don't know what's going on
with James and Kendra,

but this needs to stop.

We're kind of getting to
the point where I'm like,

"I'm about to break all
your [bleep] rules."

We're going to have to work on
your attitude yet.

What makes you feel entitled
that you don't have to

follow the rules?

You are living among the Amish.

Why would you want to
disrespect them?

Follow the rules,
just like the rest of us.

I'm worried about Kendra.

Matt's trying to pull her away.

I don't want him to pluck
her out of the fold.

This is not how the Amish do.

We don't go to a motel before
we're married.

There's only one motel
close by.

I need to go find them.

Next time on
"Suddenly Amish."

You don't have a right to
go knock on their door

and antagonize them.

It's morally wrong to live
in fornication.

What makes you feel
that you both are entitled

to just go have some alone time
in a hotel room?

You don't feel like you owe
all of us an apology

for how you both acted?
Trifling ass bitch.

I feel like I lost two kids.

Right now the mission looks
kind of rough.

As house parents,
it's your job to try to get

everybody back on track.
- I got it.

- I got it.
- You got it.

- I got it.
- You can do it.

I got it.
Close my hand.

You're a man.
Come on.

You know, I'm out here
doing things I never

thought I would do.
- Ah!

I kind of get the feeling that
there's something in his life

that he's keeping a secret.

I actually don't mind
doing this.

It's kind of fun for me.

I do sense that Aaron will be
more likely to embrace

the Amish lifestyle.

- I don't know about the rest.
- Family split,
friends split.

It is tough.
You guys know that.

I might seem like the bad
guy, but I'm doing this to help

my standing with the church.

I just can't do it anymore.
It's not who I am.