Original subtitles

Downloaded from YTS.BZ

Official YIFY movies site: YTS.BZ

What took you so long?

OK, couz, let's do this.

Dylan, go get Rob.

Go, go, go, go, go, go, go.

He's an EMT.

OK.

Great.

Are you OK?

How are you doing?

How you doing?

Don't talk to me.

OK.

Let me see.

Give me one sec.

Hey, this baby's crowning, so we need to--

- I need to move. - Yeah.

Stop, stop, stop, stop, stop.

I got pillows.

I got pillows.

All right, where do you want them?

Under my arms, behind my back.

OK.

Just kind of everywhere.

Rob!

Rob!

Rob!

Rob!

What do you want, Dylan?

It's my mom.

She needs your help.

Dad's out of town.

She told me to get you.

All right.

Come on, Sher.

You got to keep pushing.

I am pushing.

You got this.

Come on.

Oh.

Don't just stand there.

Go get some hot towels.

I told you to get Rob.

I am Rob.

The other one, with the six-pack.

Come on. Keep pushing.

You got this.

All right, this baby's coming.

Keep pushing.

Come on, you got it, Sher.

You got to push.

Keep pushing.

Rob!

Rob!

Somebody!

Somebody!

Hey, what's up, buddy?

It's my mom.

Erica's with her, but she's having the baby.

All right, let's go. Come, go.

Come on. Come on.

Come on.

You did a good job.

Thanks.

Thank you.

I just hope the baby's OK.

He's perfect.

So the ambulance is on its way, get you both checked out.

I can take Dylan tonight.

No, that's OK.

I can stay with him.

All right, I'm taking them to Riverside.

- All right, thanks, Jake. - Thank you.

You got it. Take care, Rob.

Will they be OK?

They're going to be great, Dylan.

I need another beer.

He is a terrible EMT.

Yeah, that's because he's a plumber.

- Terrible. - Yeah.

Come on.

And just two years later, it was my turn.

I was already nervous coming in, but you guys are--

you all have that same sad, sad look on your faces.

You planned this, didn't you?

I know this is a serious situation,

but you guys don't have to be so serious.

Duly noted.

You're going to do great.

They say that when you're

in a dangerous situation, your whole life

flashes before your eyes.

What they fail to tell you is that God

is there the whole time.

This is my story.

Josh!

Josh!

Hurry, it's positive.

Oh.

Oh, yes.

Let me see.

Hey, buddy, you're going to have a little brother or sister.

That's awesome, mom.

Oh, I can feel it.

This is the one.

Hey, mom.

You'll never--

You're pregnant.

How did you--

Moms always know.

OK, but please, just--

I'm so happy for you.

Don't tell dad.

I love you. - Love you.

Bye.

Bye.

That's good.

I really missed you.

We haven't done this in a while.

We haven't, and I really miss doing this.

We got to make it a point.

How's Kate doing?

Oh, Kate's doing amazing.

Actually, speaking of Kate.

So, what's this about?

It's not my birthday.

You don't get it?

You're pregnant.

Yeah.

Congratulations, Resi.

Come here.

Give me a hug, honey.

Oh, I love you.

Oh my gosh.

Are you OK?

I hope so.

You need ton put some ice on this.

Come on.

Hold on.

Hold on.

Go slow.

Come on. You can do it.

Come on.

Oh, it hurts.

It hurts.

I'm sorry, babe.

All right.

Are you OK?

OK.

Thank you.

Yeah.

All right, Erica, you know what?

We're going to try some muscle relaxants with some Motrin.

See if that helps.

All right.

And if it doesn't work?

We'll order an MRI, see what the results are,

follow it up with some physical therapy.

For about how long?

We'll try that for a couple weeks, and we'll go from there.

See how it goes.

And then came my dad's

birthday with my brother, his wife,

and my mom's notorious singing.

Happy birthday to Bob

Happy birthday to you

Happy birthday, sweetheart.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Cade, didn't grandma do a good job singing?

Yeah, yeah.

Make a wish.

OK.

All right.

Who wants cake?

I do.

Oh my god.

Are you OK?

It hurts.

It's hurting to breathe.

Do you want me to call Dr. Jones?

It's been two weeks.

Mom, are you OK?

If it hurts to breathe, you really should get to the ER.

Why don't you take it home and Bob can take her to the ER?

I mean, they can be there all night.

Yeah.

Are you sure? - Yes.

I mean, it's after 9:00. By the time they see her--

But I don't want to go to school.

I want to stay with mom.

I'm sorry, Cade.

It's late.

Cade, grandma's right.

You have school tomorrow.

And mom will be OK.

OK.

It's OK, Cadey bear.

I love you.

OK, bud, let's go.

There you go.

Thanks, Dad.

Yeah.

Thanks.

Sweetheart, call me later.

Maybe they just wanted to let you know if they

found something at the ER.

Yeah, it's probably nothing too serious.

What else did he say?

Nothing much.

He just asked that we both come in this afternoon.

Why won't he tell you that on the phone?

I don't know.

He was busy.

One thing he just said was to make sure that you come with me.

OK.

OK.

Erica, Dr. Jones is ready to see you.

Good afternoon.

How are you guys doing?

Pain was bad enough to go to the ER,

but they said it's just pneumonia.

I spoke to the radiologist.

What's going on, Doc?

It's not back surgery, is it?

I'm sorry to say, it's stage

IV inflammatory breast cancer.

And unfortunately, it has spread to your bones.

So what does this mean?

It means I'm a goner.

Not necessarily.

Dr. Corsi is a top-notch oncologist.

We've got you in to see him, the first available appointment.

Are we sure the test is accurate?

It's been read by two radiologists,

but you guys are more than welcome to get a third opinion.

What are my options, Dr. Jones?

I'm not an oncologist,

but I do know an aggressive cancer needs

to be treated aggressively.

Now, more than likely, they're going

to want to terminate the pregnancy

and have you guys follow up with chemo and radiation.

Call mom and dad.

I'd speak to Dr. Corsi first,

see what kind of treatment or plans that he has for you, OK?

OK.

I'll wait.

You guys hang in there.

Sorry.

You're going to get a second opinion, right?

Of course.

I can't leave him without a fight.

Don't talk like that, Erica, please.

What if the diagnosis is right?

Then, we beat this thing together--

just like mine.

Hey, guys, come on in.

Resi, listen to me.

First, we pray, then we fight this thing

with everything that we've got.

You don't have to smile.

Let's pray.

Our father, who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name.

Thy kingdom come.

Thy will be done on Earth as it is in heaven.

It can't be that Cade's still asleep.

Oh, and thank you.

For what?

Breakfast.

Oh, I wasn't going to let a little cancer

stop me from my wifely duties.

I didn't hear you get up.

I haven't slept yet.

Do I need to ground you like your dad?

I know.

I know.

But you aren't my dad.

I was doing some research about inflammatory breast cancer.

And I saw a bunch of abortion videos.

Josh, Josh, they were--

they were awful.

Why do you watch stuff like that?

Because this is my reality.

I mean, the first opinion, it's just echoing the second opinion.

And I'm not getting a third opinion.

The second radiologist was a jerk.

All right, well, that might be,

but that doesn't take away his degrees or his knowledge.

Whatever you decide to do, I'm on board.

Thank you.

I needed to hear that--

maybe once a day.

There was this-- there was this movie I watched,

though, called Unplanned.

And it's about this woman named Abby Johnson.

It was-- it was amazing.

So Abby used to work at Planned Parenthood.

And I guess she had some sort of awakening.

And now she's some pro-life activist.

I only care about you and what you want to do.

Good morning.

Good morning.

I just thought I'd stop by and see if you made a decision yet.

Please don't pressure us right now.

I've already told you, we haven't decided yet.

Just promise me you won't sacrifice your life

for a baby I don't know.

But I do know this baby, mom.

And it may not have a choice, but I do.

I also wanted to ask if you could

come to our church on Sunday.

They put you on the prayer list.

It would mean the world to me.

Can we think about it, mom?

We just want to pray together.

Hello.

This is she.

Fell off a ladder?

Is he OK?

I got to go.

What happened?

What happened?

Mom!

Mom, is dad OK?

I'm Dr. Sardelli.

And I had an opportunity to review your MRI.

And it shows two small herniated disks pinching

nerves in your neck and back.

Do I have to be off work?

Do you work on ladders?

Yeah.

It goes with the job.

Yeah, well, you'll be off work at least a month

then.

And I'll make sure to get you an off-work note.

I'll also get you a prescription for physical therapy.

You'll have to call and follow up in two weeks.

Thank you, Doctor.

D, I don't know what I'm going to do.

I've never been off work in, gosh, in my whole life.

Geez.

Don't even think about it.

You can barely stand.

Give me my jacket.

You stay put.

They're getting the paperwork.

I'll pull the car around.

Oh, geez.

Dad, where's mom?

She stayed home.

She's not feeling well.

I know she set this all up, and--

well, it is what it is.

I'm here for the both of us.

OK.

Hey, Cade.

Let's go.

So Paul said he learned to be content in any situation.

He offered everything up in prayer and supplication.

These are the names of his son of Israel,

who went to Egypt with Jacob, each with his family--

Reuben, Simon, Levi, and Judah.

What's going on?

Everywhere we went today, I was looking around

and just asking God, why me?

Even church, why can't these people

who've already lived their lives,

why can't they get cancer?

Why me?

And I can't turn it off.

Oh my god.

And the old lady in the front row with the hat--

I'm horrible.

You're human.

And it's probably perfectly normal to feel that way.

Mom, I feel the same way too.

Hey, is this Erica?

Yeah, this is?

Oh, hey, this is Abby.

How are you doing?

I'm OK, Abby.

Thank you so much.

Do you know Cade's jersey is?

Josh, I don't.

Maybe check the laundry.

I'm on the phone.

With who?

Abby Johnson.

Hey, Abby.

Thank you so much for calling.

Yeah, of course.

It sounds like you've got a lot of serious stuff going on.

Yeah, the doctors say that if I keep the baby,

they can't treat the cancer as aggressively.

And then we can both die.

They're suggesting that I abort.

Do you mind if I ask, how has your faith journey right now?

Not at all.

We both believe and trust in God tremendously.

And I really want to keep this baby,

but what if we both die in the process?

That's scary.

Do you have any other children?

Yeah.

He's seven years old.

And honestly, the thought of leaving him

and my husband with a mother and a wife just has me petrified.

Are there other treatments that they can try if you

do decide to keep your baby?

Yeah, but the treatments aren't

going to be as aggressive.

And they're really not giving us much hope.

That's why the doctors are suggesting that we abort.

And what does your husband think?

He'll support me no matter what.

I don't want to have the abortion.

I can't take an innocent life.

You know, Erica, I can't tell you what to do.

But I can tell that you're a woman of strong faith

and that you love your children, including

the child in your womb.

And I'm not an expert at many things, probably nothing.

But I do know the love of motherhood.

And motherhood is tough because it

requires us to do hard things.

God calls us to do really hard things.

And I don't know, Erica, maybe God

is calling you to do the hardest thing

and make the hardest decision that you'll

ever have to make in your life.

I just--

I already love this baby so much.

Well, of course, you do.

And no matter what, this baby will always be a part of you.

And a part of you will always be in this baby.

Can we pray together?

I'd like that.

All right.

Dear God, I just ask that you be with Erica right now

and her family and--

I think--

I think I'm going to go for a drive.

Do you want--

do you want some company?

No, I just want some time alone.

OK.

Grandma!

Oh, honey.

Another nightmare?

Yes.

Do you have nightmares?

Of course, I do.

What do you do?

Remember.

Remember your own nightmares?

No.

No, silly.

I just remember that God loves and protects me no matter what.

Are you sure you're not sick anymore, grandma?

To Saturday morning ritual, remember?

Breakfast followed by?

The visit to the chapel.

How could I forget, Resi?

You forget a lot of things.

I don't know.

I even bet you don't remember where

my favorite spot used to be.

Come on, think about it.

Got on one.

I'm so glad we got to do this.

Me too.

I remember the first time I took you here.

You were so tiny.

You couldn't even see over the pews.

You remember that?

Yeah.

That was cute.

And here you are, you're going off to college.

Dad.

You're my little girl.

Dad, stop being such a drama king, OK?

OK.

40 miles down the road, not Honolulu.

I can do this whenever you want.

Thanks.

Good afternoon.

I'm Dr. Corsi.

Pleasure to meet you, Erica and Josh--

or is it Joshua?

Oh, Josh.

Hubby Pants.

Hubby Pants?

Thank you for the unexpected chuckle, Erica.

Certainly.

Now, give it to us straight, doc.

What are my options?

Well, first, I'd like to say how sorry I am that you

have to go through this.

Thank you.

Thank you.

After looking at your scans, I'd

like to refer you to Children's, where we can treat the cancer

with chemo and radiation.

Now, due to the aggressive nature of this cancer,

we'll have to terminate your pregnancy.

And then, we start treatment.

Termination is not an option.

Do you understand?

I've made my choice.

Look, I understand, Erica, but I would not

be a good doctor if I didn't tell you that termination

is the best option.

Neither of your odds of survival are very good at all.

In fact, the cancer will feed off the pregnancy hormones.

Look, God's going to wrap his arms around this baby.

It'll be just fine.

Do you understand what you're risking here?

I do.

And I wouldn't change it.

I'm at stage 4.

Exactly.

That's why I'm trying to advise you that this

might be the wrong decision.

Maybe for some people.

But Dr. Corsi, not me.

OK.

OK.

We should start treatment as soon as possible.

We're going to hold off on the radiation.

Chemo can work on its own, but they do work better together.

Oh, OK.

Is there any way that we can wait till after Christmas?

I think that would be fine.

All right, it's a pleasure to meet you, Erica and Hubby Pants.

Merry Christmas.

Merry Christmas.

Oh.

Oh, look at this.

Wow, they're having fun.

They sure are having a good time.

Oh, man.

Hey, someone's here.

Who could this be?

It's Santa!

Ho-ho-ho!

Merry Christmas.

Santa, come in.

Ho-ho-ho, young lady.

Ho-ho-ho, Santa.

This gift is for you, mom.

For me?

For you.

OK.

Here, I'll take the box.

Here.

Mom, squeeze the belly.

Yo-yo, congratulations!

You're going to have a granddaughter

named Ellanore Giana.

Oh, that's so nice.

Oh, you guys.

I love you, but I wish you weren't going through this.

I know, but I'll be OK.

You better be.

Are you good?

Yeah.

Let's see what we have here.

This is for you, my dear.

Thank you.

Pick a color.

Any color.

Blue, third from the top.

Good choice.

Thank you.

Did you do that?

I did.

Wow.

Hi, I'm Julie.

I'll be your nurse.

Erica.

This is my cousin, Sher.

Hi.

Hi.

It always warms my heart to see family support.

No, I'm very lucky.

Actually, could you do me a favor?

Would you just mind giving us a second, so we could pray?

Absolutely.

I'll give you five. - Perfect.

Thank you.

May I?

Yeah, please.

Dear Lord, I thank you so much for Erica

and this precious little child.

I pray for peace for Erica's heart and quick healing.

It's in your name, we pray.

Amen.

Amen.

Now, this might feel a bit warm going in, OK?

All right, you call me whenever you need me, all right?

Awesome. Thank you.

You're welcome.

Chocolate-covered strawberries.

Hey, girl, hey.

Yo-yo!

Thank you so much.

Seriously, thank you.

This is just--

Bob, lunch is ready.

Bob?

You want to eat in here?

No, I'm not hungry.

Since when?

What's wrong?

I just feel so useless because I'm not working.

And on top of all that, I've turned

into a full-time babysitter.

Well, you just need to get over that.

You know how many fathers would jump

at the chance to help their daughters the way

you're helping Erica?

Do you know how many can't afford it?

Give me a break.

You just don't get it, do you?

I do get it.

You're a workaholic.

And you can't stand that you have

to spend your time helping Erica instead of

working to be underappreciated.

At least I'd feel more productive than watching

our daughter die.

Hey, Erica.

How are you doing?

I'm a little sore, but I'm OK.

It's good to see you.

Hey.

Hey, Cade.

What's up, buddy?

Good.

Do you have any new video games we can check out?

Yeah, the computer in the other room.

All right, let's go get them.

What is that?

It smells great.

It's my essential oils diffuser.

They say it's supposed to help with the cancer.

So what did your doctor say?

Our chances are pretty slim.

And by slim, we mean to say that they

told us we had a 1% to 2% chance of conceiving a baby.

Dr. Schmutter.

Doctors don't know everything.

And besides, it's not up to them.

It's up to God.

Thank you for that.

I have something to give you both.

You always keep such a beautiful home.

Thank you, Pastor.

How are you doing, really?

Trying to hang in there.

Well, hopefully, this will help.

The ladies made a care calendar for babysitting,

cleaning, and meal prep.

I just need you to accept the help.

I'll take that as a yes.

I've got to get going.

But can we pray first?

I thought you'd never ask.

Dear Lord, our father, please keep

Erica and Josh in your sight and under your protection.

In Jesus's name, we pray.

Amen.

They say every cloud has a silver lining.

And then just six weeks later--

Guys, are you pregnant?

Yes.

Is that triplets?

Yes, indeed.

Oh my gosh.

That's awesome.

Congratulations!

That's amazing.

Thank you.

I'm going to be an insta dad.

I'm so excited for you--

both of you.

This is awesome.

Thank you.

You were right.

He is in charge.

Erica, how are you feeling?

A little bit of pain.

But honestly, you guys made my day.

This is so awesome.

Congratulations, both of you.

Thank you.

OK, Jeannie, you're all set.

We'll see you next time.

Thanks, Dan.

No problem.

Sorry.

Oh, you don't have to do that.

I heard your story last time I was here.

And I couldn't stop thinking about you.

The beads on this bracelet are a memento from my Europe trip

I took a few years ago after I went into remission.

It's beautiful.

I'm Erica.

Jeannie.

Nice to meet you.

You too.

I know what you're going through.

It's my third time.

Is there a tissue?

You girls are 10 times stronger than I would be.

You think that now, but you'd be surprised

how much fight you really have, especially

if God's in your corner.

Thank you so much.

God bless.

She was so nice.

Yeah.

Yeah, my wife had chemo yesterday.

She's been throwing up for the last four hours.

I couldn't believe I lost my ring.

Hey, Erica.

Hey, Doctor.

I ran into Dr. Corsi, and he has

something he needs to tell you.

Erica, I think it's time that we admit

you and tell you to deliver.

But that's not for another two months.

You said that this was just dehydration.

I know, but the calcium levels in your blood have increased.

And that means that the cancer is

moving rapidly into your bones, causing your pain.

So what I would like to do is do a blood

transfusion before your next chemo treatment

to see if that helps.

And then you're going to need to be monitored.

We can't do that.

I need to see Cade.

Josh--

There won't be a problem.

You can have him here every day.

We have a large private room for you in maternity ward.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

Thank you.

Thanks, doc.

- You're welcome. - We'll figure it out.

We'll make it work.

It's all going to work out.

I can do this.

You get to see him every day.

So the girls from church are going to get Cade to school

every morning that dad's going to therapy.

Dad, if you could please pick Cade up from school

and bring him here every time that he doesn't have practice?

Sure, not a problem.

Thank you.

I know how much you wanted to get back to work.

Oh, I can't wait.

But you're more important.

Whatever the case, I still love spending time with you.

Now, if we could get some pictures of Cade and us,

as many as we can get our hands on, at least,

I'd really appreciate it if you guys brought those in.

If I'm going to be here for the next two months,

I'd really like this place to feel a little more homey.

Mom and I just want to let you know how proud we are of you.

Thanks, dad.

Oh, I need a notebook.

The gift shop will have a notebook.

I'll get it.

Thanks, mom.

I was just trying to be strong for everyone.

Here he is, just as promised.

Cadey Bear!

Good to see you.

Good to see you.

Mom, how have you been?

I've been good.

How have you been, Cadey Bear?

Good.

Are you OK, mom?

Yeah, I just miss you so.

I miss you too.

When are you going to be able to come home?

You know, God needs me to stay here

right now just to be able to protect your little sister.

You know that, right?

And when God's done and your sister's here,

then she'll be able to come home, and you can protect her.

OK?

OK.

Oh, hey, dad.

Gosh, it's cold.

Yeah, it is cold in here.

I'm cold too.

Are you sure you don't want to change your mind?

I can't stand watching you go through this.

Mom, you beat cancer.

Grandma beat cancer, and so did mum.

It's a horrible hereditary track record.

Yes.

Yes, but I beat it with surgery, radiation, and chemo.

Remember?

Now I talked to Dr. Corsi--

How dare you?

How could you do that?

This is my baby.

I don't want to lose you.

I don't know what I'll do.

You're still trying to run my life.

I'm not trying to run anything.

This is just like you.

You were the same way when I was getting

married at the Baptist church.

Erica!

Please leave, mom.

Erica.

Please leave.

I don't want to talk about this. - Erica--

Just go!

Hey, what's wrong?

I don't want to talk about it.

Why?

I suggested Erica reconsider having this baby.

You said what?

I suggested Erica abort and get the radiation.

Diane, we've got to support her.

I know!

But this is killing me watching this.

Come here.

Oh, honey.

Watching this is just--

You have to stop and think how Erica feels.

I can't.

I just don't understand how and why she's doing this.

Remember, she's fighting for her daughter's life

too, just like you, babe.

Just like you.

Dear Lord, help us.

So how are you doing?

This thing has taken a terrible turn.

I need more than scripture.

Pastor, I keep praying.

And it just seems useless.

I mean, the possibility that she might not make it,

the bills, taking care of two kids,

I don't know if I can do it.

Look, Josh, I'm here for all the spiritual needs you

have, but I'm not a counselor.

Have you thought about seeing one?

Erica's been trying to get me to go to one.

And?

And I think it's ridiculous.

Me sitting around, spilling my guts to a total stranger

that I'm paying?

You're in the worst crisis of my life.

Please think about it.

She's excellent.

She's also a parishioner.

I think she can help.

Come on, mom.

I just want you to know how much I

love and miss you, Cadey Bear.

Sleep OK?

No, this sucks.

You need to ask the doctor for something.

I know.

And I saw him earlier.

Just I forgot.

I can't always be there for you.

I can't.

Resi, how was breakfast?

Once you've had one hospital's scrambled eggs,

you've had them all.

What did they taste like?

Suffer, cardboard, and loneliness.

Yes.

Nailed it.

Morning, folks.

The name's Ernie.

I'm your housekeeper.

So if y'all need anything-- and I mean anything at all--

please don't hesitate to call.

Will do.

My man.

Oh, thank you, Ernie.

All right.

Well, he's quite entertaining.

I like him.

Excuse me, ma'am.

Call me Diane, please.

Ms. Diane, please don't worry about that room.

I'll take extra special care of it and her.

Thank you, Ernie.

Thank you.

I knew then how much mom

and I really needed each other.

Voila!

OK, now that's impressive.

Come on.

Thank you.

Oh, thank you, but that's way too pretty to get dirty.

Oh, nonsense.

There's plenty more where that came from.

Can I get you anything else?

Maybe.

Don't be shy now.

Do you think you can make me a Cadey Bear towel like that?

I can certainly try.

Really?

Oh, no problem.

Would you like any water or anything?

No, no. Just that.

That'd be awesome.

All right, call if you need anything.

Dear God, I know you've got this,

but I'm not real sure I do.

Please give me the strength to endure.

Amen.

What a beautiful day.

85 degrees today.

Can you believe that?

Oh, it's so nice out.

How did you sleep?

Josh, I'm so uncomfortable.

I just want to go home.

Can you take me home, please?

Please don't make this harder on me than it already is.

You know I hate to see you like this and in a place like this.

Maybe I'm making the wrong decision.

You made your choice, and I'm on board.

I told you I was going to need to hear that again.

Sorry, it's a moment of my weakness,

but I know I'm making the right decision 100%.

You don't have a weak bone in your body.

Imagine what I could accomplish with just

an ounce of your strength.

Keeping the kitchen clean?

Heading to break, ladies.

If y'all need anything, speak now or forever hold your pee.

Clever, Ernie.

Very clever.

Don't look so surprised.

I'm a man of many talents.

My wit being one of them.

Well, speaking of your talents, our girl in 502

loves your animal folding skills with the napkins.

She talks about those every day.

Thanks.

I needed that today.

Y'all ladies have a good one.

You too.

I'm sorry.

I have a busy day at work.

Why didn't you answer my calls?

Can you ever forgive me?

Well, hello to you too.

I just can't let you do this without speaking

my piece, that's all.

Why do you always have to try to undermine me?

Mom, I'm a grown woman.

And I make my own decisions.

Because every time I look at you, I can't help it.

No matter how hard I try, I still

see my little girl, the one who needed me to speak for her.

But you didn't need me.

You never needed me.

That's the truth.

Always so independent and strong and comforting.

I remember what you told me when I was diagnosed--

God's got this.

And I wish I could feel the same, but I just can't.

This is killing me, Erica.

Mom, I always need you.

But this is my baby.

And that's what matters.

She'll be fine.

But what about you?

OK.

I guess we'll just agree to disagree then.

I love you.

So, what did you do today?

Usual.

I went backpacking through Europe

and going to Belgium and Germany.

I made a stop in Switzerland.

Good places for chocolate.

Oh, the best of chocolates.

I got to read my Bible.

It didn't go great with the Bible, sweets and all.

I would really enjoy some chocolate.

And I want more chocolate for you.

Heavenly father, we ask that you touch and heal Erica.

And we pray in our loving savior's name, Jesus Christ.

Amen.

Amen.

All right, good day.

Thank you.

How's it going?

All right.

Yourself?

So it's not perfect, but I tried.

I borrowed your son's picture.

I hope you don't mind.

Oh my gosh.

Oh, wow, Ernie, this is--

I couldn't have asked for anything more perfect than this.

Thank you.

So I did good?

Yes, thank you.

This is awesome.

You did better than good.

This is fantastic.

You're welcome.

Ready for your last treatment?

Oh, hey, Ernie, how are you?

All right.

Yourself?

That's amazing.

Oh, who did that?

The fantastic and talented Ernie.

Stop it.

It was nothing, really.

Ernie, this is incredible.

You're so talented.

Thank you.

Wow.

Y'all have a good one.

He is the sweetest.

Wow.

Should I go get the nurse?

Take me to her.

Do you think we can bring Cadey Bear?

I think you can do whatever you want.

I love this.

It's amazing.

I love this.

Erica Shea, what a happy day.

Oh, that rhymes.

You just noticed?

You good?

Mm-hmm.

You just finished your last treatment.

Can you tell the live studio audience,

how do you plan on celebrating?

Well, Sher, I plan on going shopping.

Shopping?

Where?

I'll take gift shop behind door number 2.

Done.

Oh, I guess I have to ask the mean one first, don't I?

Thank you.

Bottoms up.

Do you think she heard me?

100%.

Oh, no.

Oh, Sher, look at this angel.

Oh.

Let's keep looking, though.

I know you'll find something else.

We just got here.

All right.

Oh, what do we have here?

Sher, look at it.

The bracelet?

Yeah.

Do you want to try it on?

Hi, miss.

Can we try on the bracelet in the front?

Thank you.

Wow, I love it.

This is so cool.

It looks really good on you.

Aw.

Get out of the way.

I need to take care of her.

What's happening to her?

It hurts my leg.

There's something wrong with my leg.

Deep breath. You're going to do deep breath.

You're going to be OK.

If I had to guess, maybe--

Yeah, well, my femur fractured yesterday from the cancer,

so I'm bedridden until my C-section.

Oh my gosh.

I can't even imagine how painful that was.

What can I do?

Can you pray with me?

I'm feeling so weak, and I'm scared.

So is Josh.

Yeah.

I mean, of course.

Let's pray right now.

But first, Erica, I just want you to know you,

you may feel weak right now, but your soul is so strong.

I mean, that's what I think of when I think of you.

I think of strength, of faith, of courage.

That's what we all see.

My faith strengthened because of you.

I love it.

Me too.

I can't believe I fractured my leg.

I didn't even do anything.

Just look at all that your body's been through.

My treatment was child's play compared to yours.

And I barely survived it.

You made survival look good.

Mom, are you OK?

Yeah, I'm OK.

I just hurt my leg, is all.

A little bit of pain, but I'm fine.

Mom, I want to stay here with you.

I know.

But listen here, little Cadey Bear.

You have to go to school and practice and everything.

But I don't care.

I want to stay here with you.

No.

If you want to help, you can help by going to school

and help your dad at home.

Come here, Cade.

Thank you.

Any requests?

I could use a pick-me-up.

I know just the one.

Why do you build me up

Build me up

Buttercup, baby

Just to let me down

Let me down

And mess me around

And then worst of all

Worst of all

You never call, baby, when you say you will

Say you will

But I love you still

I need you

I need you

More than anyone, darling

You know that I have from the start

So build me up

Build me up

Buttercup

Don't break--

How unprofessional.

It's too loud.

Seriously, Ernie?

One more time.

Yeah!

Why do you build me up

Build me up

Dear Lord, OK, you tell me not to worry

and to give it all to you.

So here's my list.

First, help me place my total trust, at least in you,

through prayer and supplication.

Hey.

Here we go.

Do you need something?

Yeah, I need you to go home and get some real rest.

OK.

I'll go.

Oh, please call me if you need anything.

OK.

Dear Lord, please help Josh talk about his feelings.

I just need a little direction

here, help navigating all this.

Can you explain a little?

I don't even know where to start.

I have a terminally ill wife, a six-year-old

at home, a new baby on the way.

Not to mention, all the medical bills that are coming in.

I'm very sorry.

I can help you with the personal issues.

And our financial advisors can help with the bills.

So what's next?

Yeah, I'm a little new to all this.

Well, you can start by telling me your name.

Sorry.

It's Josh.

Susan.

How are you feeling?

My only regret is I wasn't more devoted sooner.

What do you mean?

I mean, this cancer, it's brought me closer to God.

They say tough times definitely strengthen our faith.

And while we're opening up, do you mind

if I share something with you?

Of course.

I feel completely overwhelmed going from zero to three kids

overnight.

I haven't even made it as a musician yet, I just--

I feel so unprepared.

There, I said it.

Well, congratulations, little bro.

It's the same way I felt with Cade.

What?

Really?

What did you do?

Well, some things, you learn as you go.

And besides, God will never give you more than you can handle.

Well, I certainly feel as though he's

given us a lot more than we thought we could ever handle.

I guess I just hope I'm a good dad.

You will be.

How do you know?

I don't, but God does.

Can I play a song for you?

Can you play my favorite on your album?

Thanks, Sher.

I really appreciate you doing this for us.

Well, you really have to thank my cousin.

Melissa.

It was all her doing.

Well, do me a favor and thank her when you get a chance.

Let her know I'll be in to get a haircut soon.

You're welcome, Erica.

Well, maybe not for a while.

Thank you all so much for coming.

Here's the family to say a few words.

Well, first of all, thank you so much, Melissa,

for coordinating this whole day.

It's been absolutely wonderful.

Get over here.

On behalf of the whole entire family,

and especially Erica and Josh, I just want to say thank you.

We all feel so incredibly loved and supported.

And I have some really exciting news.

We raised $41,000.

We couldn't have done it without you guys.

Thank you so much.

I don't know what else I could possibly say

that hasn't been said already.

I just want to reiterate, thank you, thank you, thank you.

I mean, that's just so wonderful.

And we couldn't have done it without you.

So thank you.

Thank you so much.

Thank you so much to us, to Erica, and to our whole family.

How's it going this week?

OK.

I talked to Erica about our financial concerns.

And Sher and her cousin Melissa raised reached 40k in one day.

I saw that on the news.

That is truly amazing.

I said we needed to attribute that to God.

That's a good thing.

What about you?

What are your thoughts on that statement?

I believe in God.

I have faith.

I just don't understand the trials he puts

some people through, you know?

How do you mean?

I mean, how some people are dealt all the crap

in the world to deal with while other people just

stroll through life.

Nobody strolls through life.

Remember we talked about that?

They just don't talk about it, which

reminds me, last time we talked, you started telling me

about your childhood.

What do you want me to say?

My mom has a drinking problem?

My dad abandoned me when I was young?

I learned to deal with it.

Did you?

This is Dr. Jones, Dr. Pauley.

They're going to be assisting me.

We're here to discuss Erica's course for delivery.

Now, we've never had a case quite like Erica's before.

I can't believe how big you're getting.

Mom, I have a question.

What's up, Cadey Bear?

I was wondering if I could homeschool,

so I can spend more time with you.

Oh, Cade, I would love that.

I really would, but I'm just--

I'm too sick right now.

The patient has stage IV inflammatory breast cancer.

She's one week away from delivery.

Her cancer has progressed into her scapula, shoulders,

ribs, hips, and spine.

However, we cannot promise you that she'll survive delivery.

Oh, mom, I can come here before dad's work.

You are so sweet.

And I love you so much.

But we got to wait until your sister and I come home.

And what about Erica's request for skin-to-skin contact?

I'll take care of that myself.

There'll be a pediatric and adult code team on standby just

in case there's an emergency.

Is there anything else we can do?

Have you filled out the advance directives?

Yes, we have.

Are you nervous?

No, mom.

I have done everything that I could to get to this point.

The rest is up to God.

I'm proud of you.

And I can't wait for you to deliver,

so you can get the radiation.

Me too, mom.

Me too.

You are going to get healed and make the Gloria

Gemma cancer walk with me.

That's definitely the way to look at it.

Little bird told me God's got this.

I'll see you later.

Get some rest.

I love you.

I love you too, mom.

You OK?

Yeah.

Could you do me a favor?

Yeah.

Dad, could you say a prayer for us?

Yeah.

Let's hold hands.

Dear God, we ask that you cover us with your love.

Strengthen our hearts.

And we pray that you protect our hearts and strengthen us.

Strengthen Erica through this delivery process.

And we pray, oh, God, that you deliver us from the situation

that we're in to the best way that you know how.

In Jesus's name, amen.

Good morning, everyone.

Hi.

Are you ready, hon?

Here we go.

Let's do this.

I was already nervous coming in, but you guys are--

you all have that same sad, sad look on your faces.

You planned this, didn't you?

I know this is a serious situation,

but you guys don't have to be so serious.

Duly noted.

You're going to do great.

She's going to be fine.

I ended up in the ICU with Josh

by my side and the rest of them in the NICU.

The C-section took a heavy toll on her body.

She's having a late awakening, but

we're doing everything we can.

And she's on the way to ICU.

Can I see her?

It's going to be some time before she comes out of this.

So can we see her?

I mean, she's going to be OK, right?

Well, only time will tell.

But, Josh, you can go to the ICU.

But the rest of you just have to wait.

Anybody hungry?

I don't think anybody's eaten yet.

You guys go.

I'll wait for Josh and Erica.

Can we bring you anything?

Just a coffee.

OK.

Let's go, Ryan.

Excuse me.

You're here for Ella, right?

Yes.

I'm her grandmother.

Hi.

How are you?

I was so thankful

God planned for mom to be the first one to hold Ella.

Would you like to hold her?

Yes, I think so.

Yes.

It's OK.

I know mom's in ICU right now, but what are your plans?

Not sure.

I need Erica.

You can stay here tonight.

I don't know.

You don't have to decide right now.

Just enjoy your grandbaby.

She's beautiful.

She really is.

If you take my baby, how do you expect me to love this child?

Hi, Josh.

Oh, how do you feel?

OK.

How's Ella?

Beautiful, healthy.

I can't wait to see her.

I told you.

She is beautiful.

You remember any of it?

No, but I had the most beautiful dream.

Morning.

How are my two divas doing?

We're fantastic.

She's perfect.

What's her name?

Ellanore Giana, Ella for short.

Hey, Ella, meet Ernie, a man of many talents.

You're too kind.

Now, I get to take care of both of you.

Y'all need anything?

No, thank you.

All right, y'all have a good one.

Thank you.

Hey, Ernie.

Hey.

Hello, how's everyone feeling?

Relieved.

Here, doc, have a seat.

Oh, well, thank you.

You're always standing.

Yeah.

Wow, someone knows how to make an entrance.

My God, Erica, she is beautiful.

You did the right thing.

Thank you.

It wasn't easy, but the right things never are.

Would you mind getting a picture with you?

Oh, of course, sure.

Mom, can you?

Sure.

Do you want Ella?

Oh, of course.

Yo-yo,

All right, next steps.

I want to get scan of your bones.

I'm going to do a blood counts first thing tomorrow

morning, OK?

All right, enjoy the rest of the day.

Hey, doc.

Hmm?

Thank you.

Thank you so very much.

Thank you.

Anywhere you like.

OK.

So after the C-section, they sent her to the ICU.

She's doing good now, though.

How's Ella?

Beautiful.

She's just beautiful.

We have a daughter by the grace of God.

Yeah.

So what's next for Erica?

Well, that's where it gets complicated.

We don't know when they can do the radiation yet.

When we know about the radiation?

Tomorrow and the next day.

OK.

What about Cade?

How is he with all this?

He's happy to be a big brother.

But he's worried about his mom.

He keeps asking when they're going to come home.

I can see that from a seven-year-old.

He's curious.

We talked about this.

Take it day by day, right?

But what if the worst thing happens?

If it happens, deal with it when it happens.

Oh, right.

I'm so glad she's here.

Me, too.

You have no idea how scared I was.

Thank you.

For?

Everything-- taking care of the family, going to therapy.

Just thank you for everything that you do.

Well, we couldn't have done it without your parents.

I know.

But I'm still very proud of everything that you've done.

How's therapy?

It's good.

You'll like Susan.

She's nice.

That's good.

Good morning.

How you doing?

Good, all things considered.

What do you mean?

I mean, I'm good.

I'm just worried about my mom.

Why?

Look, after everything that we've been going through

after all of this, if I don't make it,

I really worry that she's going to blame God.

Can you blame her?

How could you really even say that?

You don't even believe God exists.

My apologies.

It's really none of my business.

Ernie, wait.

Please, look.

I'm sorry.

I have-- I really don't know what you have against God.

But every time I bring him up, you just walk away

or you go clean something.

What's with that?

What is this?

I'm not a believer.

Why? Why?

Just give me something.

Help me to understand.

You promise not to try and change my mind after.

It's not my intention.

15 years ago, my little brother Lamont was

an All-Star basketball player.

He held the record for most points scored in a single game

at Central.

He had all the top scouts after him.

He even had a full-ride scholarship before graduating.

He was about to live his dreams.

He was on his way.

That's awesome.

I thought so.

I mean, we thought so.

I prayed for his success every day,

thinking that putting my faith in a supreme being

would be the right thing to do.

I could see that.

Two months later, in the middle of a game,

Lamont hit a 3-pointer.

Boom.

He's running up the court to play defense.

All of a sudden, out of nowhere, he just collapsed.

Coaches and staff went over.

And before you know it, the paramedics come

to rush him to the hospital.

You think God made that happen?

God doesn't make bad things happen.

God helps us through the bad things.

Lamont didn't move an inch as they

put him on the stretcher.

Paramedics told me that they pronounced him dead before they

even reached the hospital.

He had a brain aneurysm.

My little brother went from full-ride scholarship and NBA

hopeful to worm food just like that.

What kind of God would let that happen?

Look, I'm truly sorry about your brother.

I really am.

But God did not make that happen.

Yeah?

He ain't doing anything to stop it either.

You're right.

You're right.

But I hope that you can just someday, one day,

find peace with it.

I have.

Hey.

Well, hello there, beautiful.

How you doing, Erica?

I'm in pain, but grateful for God.

How are you?

Oh, I'm good.

I looked at the X-ray.

And I'm afraid we can't do radiation because your bones

are too brittle at this point.

Moving you would just fracture more of them.

So now, you have a decision to make.

We can keep you comfortable, treat your pain.

But there's not much more we can do.

Well, like I said before--

I said it before, and I'll say it again.

God's got this.

Either way, we'll do what you recommend.

You're the bravest person I've ever met.

I'm going to send hospice in.

And remember what I said--

as comfortable as you need to be.

I'm truly sorry for all of you.

Thank you.

Diane!

Dad, what does hospice mean?

And is mom OK?

Dad.

Dr. Corsi.

Hmm?

Can we please try the radiation?

You said her organs were fine.

They are.

However, her body is deteriorating around them.

Her heart is strong, but she would

go through unimaginable agony unnecessarily.

I really think that comfort care is the best

course of action at this time.

I am truly sorry.

No.

God will heal her.

I hope you're right.

Can I pray with you?

Yes, please.

Hey, let's go buddy.

I don't want to go to school, dad.

What do you mean?

You're going to school.

I asked mom if I could homeschool,

so I could spend more time with her since we're losing her.

Who told you that we were losing her?

I looked up a hospice means on the internet.

It means that she's dying.

Look, son, it's true.

But we need to be strong for your mom, for Ella,

and work as a team.

You mean the both of us?

Yeah.

I mean, help me through this like your soccer team.

We work together.

We'll ask God to help us get through this.

But mom promise she would come home.

I know.

Good morning.

You have some visitors.

Hi.

Oh, Happy Mother's Day, mothers.

Happy Mother's Day.

She just fell asleep.

Someone's in a good mood.

Hi, Ella.

Oh, she's so tiny.

She is.

Hey, baby girl.

Oh, my gosh, these are beautiful.

Thank you, guys, so much.

Thank you.

This is awesome.

Mary, would you mind if you put them in a vase?

Yes, of course.

Thank you.

One more favor. - Sure.

Could you grab a picture of us?

Oh, I'd love to.

Thank you.

OK.

Not mom.

Is that right?

Big smile, so let me get baby Ella in there.

All say "baby Ella."

Baby Ella.

That's it.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

Hey, mom.

Actually, both of you, I've got you here.

There's something that I wanted to do.

What's that?

Well, I was really hoping that next weekend, we could--

It was something

we planned later that summer, but we moved it up.

I needed a new ring anyway.

You look beautiful.

I love you, dad.

We got quite the crowd here.

Welcome, everyone.

You may be seated.

Dear Lord, our father, we thank you for your presence among us,

for all the friends and family who were able to join us today

in support of Erica and Josh.

We dedicate this ceremony in your name and in your service.

Amen.

Amen.

We are gathered here today for the renewal of Erica

and Josh's wedding vows.

Even though this wasn't what they wanted,

God has never left their side.

Josh, do you have the ring?

Well, since you decided to lose the first one,

I went and got you this one.

Repeat after me.

With this ring, I thee wed.

With this ring, I thee wed.

And Erica, do you have the ring?

I didn't lose this one.

Repeat after me.

With this ring, I thee wed.

With this ring, I thee wed.

I now pronounce you man and wife.

Josh, you may kiss your bride--

again.

Dear God, thank you for a beautiful day--

the gift of renewing our vows; all the support from my parents

and family, who I couldn't have done any of this

without; for my husband, Josh; the love

we've enjoyed through your grace;

for our wonderful boy, Cade, my Cadey Bear.

Of course, thank you for Ella, who you've protected in my womb.

Hey, Erica.

Hey, Abby.

I just wanted to let you know I'm in hospice.

What?

Yeah.

Oh, Erica.

I'm so sorry.

Don't be.

I thought they were treating you right after delivery.

I got the picture of you and Ella.

I know.

Gosh, I'm so sorry.

I haven't had the time to call or text.

Abby, it's OK.

Honestly, if it wasn't for you, I

may not have gone through with it and just lost the baby too.

No, I just gave you a little bit of direction.

It was-- it was you.

I mean, you're the one that made the decision.

You're the one that did the hard part.

It's so hard.

I'm so honored to know you, Erica,

to know someone with your determination

and strength and faith.

I will forever live my life in all of you.

I'm so grateful for you, Abby.

And I asked Sher to write everything down for us.

I'm proud of you--

for the therapy, everything.

I think it's really helping you.

I hope that's not the reason you wanted me to go.

No, but I knew it would help when we

had to have this conversation.

I never wanted to have it.

I know, but we have to.

What happens when you find someone else?

All I want is you.

I don't want to date again.

Yeah, but I mean, what kind of life is that?

I want you to date.

I want you to get married too.

I'm not going to sit here and listen to my wife talking

about me marrying someone else.

What kind of man do you think I am?

Look, I appreciate that.

I do.

You're still very young.

I don't expect you to be alone the rest of your life.

What are you going to do with your ring?

I'll wear it on the other hand.

And what if she doesn't like that?

Well, I guess she's not the one then.

It's a good answer.

What about the kids?

I want her to love them too.

I need you to protect them.

And I always will.

Mom.

Yes?

Can you make me a promise?

What's that, honey?

Promise me you won't hate God after I'm

gone for what happened, please.

Please.

I don't hate God.

I just don't understand why this is happening.

It's OK.

It's OK.

It's OK, mom.

God's got this.

I know he does.

I just wish there was more that I could do.

You can.

You can.

Promise me you'll thank God for the cancer and my suffering.

I was a lukewarm Christian.

Oh, this brought me closer to God than ever before.

Please, please promise me.

I love you.

Please, promise.

Please, mom.

Please promise.

Promise.

I made her promise that she wouldn't

hate God no matter what.

She told me.

That's why I came back.

Don't worry, Resi.

I won't let her.

Thanks, dad.

I love you.

I love you too, Resi Doochy.

Please stop.

Hey, dad, can you just stay with me a little bit longer?

I can stay as long as you want me to.

I've got nowhere to go.

Thanks, dad.

Oh, dear, God.

Bob, are you OK?

Yeah, I'm OK.

I was just planning on leaving.

Oh, you can wait a little bit if you'd like.

It's storming pretty bad out there.

No.

I think I'd better go.

It's getting late.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Come in.

She's been like this for two days.

I know.

Ryan, can you play us a song?

Amazing grace, how sweet the sound

That saved a wretch like me

I once was lost

But now am found

Was blind, but now I see

Come on, Erica.

This is your song.

Come on, honey.

Come on.

'Tis grace that brought me safe thus far

And grace will lead me home

Erica.

Erica.

Oh, may I help you?

Is the owner here?

No, ma'am, but I'm the manager.

May I ask what this is in regards to?

Well, I could tell you, but in private.

Certainly.

Erica was in tremendous pain, but she never complained.

Instead, she offered up her suffering to our Lord

and Savior Jesus Christ.

Now, may she rest in peace.

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.

Till we see her again in paradise, we may go in peace.

Amen.

It's going to be something today.

Yeah.

But we'll get through it.

You are never going to believe this.

A woman walked in here a short time ago.

Now, she wants to remain anonymous.

But she said she wants to be Ella's fairy godmother.

Really?

What does that mean?

Yeah.

She paid the entire $8,500 for all the funeral arrangements.

Your balance is zero.

That's amazing.

Yes, it is.

Oh my goodness.

Thank you, Lord.

Do you have any idea who she was?

No, no.

She's an angel.

Here.

Thank you.

Thank you, and God bless you.

He already have.

Without a doubt, I know you're with me

Without a doubt, I know you're here

Without a doubt, I'm walking with you

I won't back down

Without a doubt

Without a doubt, I know you're with me

Without a doubt, I know you're here

Without a doubt, I'm walking with you

I won't back down

Without a doubt

Whoa

Whoa

Whoa

Whoa

An end is just a beginning

You're making it clear without a doubt

I've nothing to fear

Without a doubt, I know you're with me

Without a doubt, I know you're here

Without a doubt, I'm walking with you

I won't back down

Without a doubt

Without a doubt, I know you're with me

Without a doubt, I know you're here

Without a doubt, I'm walking with you

I won't back down

Without a doubt

Without a doubt, I know you're with me

Without a doubt, I know you're here

Without a doubt, I'm walking with you

I won't back down

Without a doubt