All language subtitles for Defiance (2013) - S01E09 - If I Ever Leave This World Alive (1080p BluRay x265 Celdra)

Previously onDefiance...

Do these townspeople
know about your many
scientific achievements

during the Pale Wars?

This is Connor Lang.

Can you imagine
if Datak could
see us right now?

You killed him!

Sukar saved Defiance,
and you killed him.

Thar she blows,
Captain.

Two points off
the starboard bow.

Stop reading Moby Dick.

It's enriching.

It's annoying.

Welcome to your
first Arkfall, Tommy.

Sukar saved
everybody deflecting
that Ark fragment.

Do you think God
was directing Sukar?

I do not.Hmm.

You see, in the book,
Ishmael thinks that,
uh, God directed him

to take that job
on the whaling ship.

Mmm-hmm.

And, uh, he thinks that
free will is a delusion.

Irisa give
you that book? Yeah.

You two been
spending a lot of time
together lately.

You got something
you want to tell me,
Tommy?

No.

You sure about that? Yeah.
Very sure.

Tommy,
you hurt my daughter,

your questions about God,
they're gonna get answered,
personally.

Yes, sir.

There it is.
No scavengers yet.

Looks like we got
it all to ourselves.

Air's clean.

A lot of Earth tech
in here. That's strange.

"McClintock"?

Nolan?

Hypersleep malfunction.

These people have
been dead a long time.

But what are humans
doing in a Votan ship?

Is he alive?

What do we do?

Are you Americans?

I was, once.

Welcome home, son.

I need to call my wife.

Where are we?

St Louis, Missouri.

We got a lot to tell you,
but I can promise you
you're among friends.

What the hell?

This is not St Louis.

No, no, no, no, no.
I'm good.

Okay, Commander,
come on. Take it easy.
It's all right.

You know my rank? Yeah.

You're Gordon McClintock,
NASA.

Commander of
the International Space
Station Bravery, am I right?

Yeah.

Commander,
what year is this?

2013.

And what's the last
thing you remember?

Uh, we were about
to shuttle down
in the Soyuz module.

Did we crash?
'Cause I know St Louis.
This is not St Louis.

Tell you what.

Let's get you to the doctor,
get you checked out,

and I'll explain
everything, okay?

I see you kept
the flowers I sent you.

Little past
the expiration date
though.

You too busy
to put them in water?

Too busy
to throw them out.

What are you doing
back here, Connor?

Eddie Braddock blew a hole
in the transport and escaped.

I'm here for follow-up.

No, I don't believe you.

Fine.

Why don't you tell
me why I'm here?

I'm not sure yet.

You hungry?

I could eat.

Thank you. MAN: You're welcome.

Well, you'd hardly
know this place was hit

by razor rain
just two days ago.

Well, we're nothing
if not resilient.

I get that.

So why are you here?

Ah, an unexpected question,
but you caught me off guard.

That's very
politically astute.

Well, coming from
a consummate politician
like yourself,

I take that as...

A gigantic red flag.

Exactly.

Do you remember
what it was like when
we joined the E-Rep?

What we were like?

Young and stupid?

Yeah, but we thought
we could change things,
really change things.

Help pick
the world up again,
brush off the rubble,

and find a way
for all of us,
Votan and human,

to coexist.

Look around, Connor.
I found it, only not
with the Earth Republic.

You did.

Now, imagine
what would happen

if you brought that
passion back to the E-Rep,

this time,
with real power behind you.

Are you offering me a job?

I am, in New York.

Central office, with me.

You want me to work
for the evil empire?

They're hardly an empire.

No jokes.

I'm offering you
territorial governorship,
no joke.

E-Rep needs new blood.

I have an election
coming up.

But do you even
have an opponent yet,

or are you just
gonna run unopposed?

You could do more
in New York for Defiance
than you could ever do here,

and for a lot of
other towns just like it.

What aren't
you telling me?

I miss you, Mandy.

Don't call me that. When I saw you again

for the first time
last week,

look, I didn't think
it was gonna hit me
this hard,

but I've been thinking
about you ever since.

Nolan needs you.
Now.

Who's Nolan?

Lawkeeper.

Oh, yeah.
Bounty hunter's friend.

Mind if I tag along?

I do, indeed.

My God, your skin is
softer than I expected.

Easy, tiger.
I'm too old for you.

That's Gordon McClintock?

Mmm-mmm.

The Gordon McClintock
of the Bravery Nine?

You do realize
he died in 2013.

We all saw
the space station blow up.

Yeah, well, our astronaut
didn't put himself into
hypersleep on that Ark.

What if the Bravery
disaster was staged?

What if the Votans
abducted him

and then they scuttled
the space station

to cover their tracks?

So when the Votans
were saying,
"We come in peace"...

They were actually
kidnapping and
studying us.

Empty your pockets,
please.

Your wife?

Grace.
Yeah, she was 28
when I left.

That means that she's,
like, 60 now,

if she's even still alive.

Well, we can figure
all that out later.

Commander McClintock,
Mayor Amanda Rosewater.

Hi.Welcome to Defiance.

It's a really nice town
you have here.

It's an honor
to have you with us.

Everything okay,
Doc?

Fine.

Minor muscle atrophy,
typical of hypersleep.

Eat some protein. Exercise.
You'll snap right back.

I just...
I want to scan
your eyes.

Ahh!

No! No, don't touch me!
Don't touch me!

Hi, FA-vi Tarr.

Ready to have some fun?

What in the three worlds
do you think you're doing?

Anything you want me to do.

I requested an appointment
with Kenya Rosewater.

You are not
Kenya Rosewater!

Is there a problem?

Just questions.

Why are you not
sitting on this bed
right now,

removing my clothing?

Why is this person
here in your place?

And why is my time
being wasted?

I've had to cut back
on my client list.

I see.

I would imagine
I'd be the last client
cut from that list.

Oh, Datak, I can
assure you that Tirra
is very skilled

in the art
of lovemaking,

and I've left you
in very capable hands.

These hands?

These dry, callused palms?
These thick YA-vi knuckles?

These hands are better
suited to kneading rocks
than flesh.

Let her go, Datak.

Now.

This tension has
dampened my ardor.

That's him!

Hi.

Of course. Sure.

My name's Charlie Rivers.
I'm from the Bay Area.

I've been
recording post-Arkfall
America oral histories,

and I'd love to
get your stories. Commander, Commander!

Well,
I don't really know
what my story is, so...

I've been traveling
with a group of Irathients

from a farm in Madera,
the Parraba family.

That-a boy.

...genuine Irathient
thez-RAAK-tu.

It's like Thai,
but much spicier.

All right,
thank you, honey.

Oh, my God,
it's actually him.

So, what?
You're a groupie too?

Amanda, please.
Listen to me carefully.

Commander Gordon McClintock
alive is the smoking gun

we can use against
the Votanis Collective.

Defiance doesn't
take sides.
Now back off.

The Collective
is about to ink a major
strategic alliance,

but if the word gets out
that the Votans abducted
the Bravery Nine...

Like the lady said,
go home. Back off.

All of you, go.

So where
are we taking him?

The closest place to home.

- Oh, this house is great.
- It's so familiar.

Well,
I'm an old-fashioned guy,
Commander.

Well, thank you.
Thank you for
bringing me here.

For the first time
since I woke up,
I actually feel normal.

Wow, I can't believe
Gordon McClintock
is in my house.

Hmm? AMANDA: Hmm.

Everything fits good.

Feels good.
Thank you.

You know, they wrote
a book about you.

Seriously? Yeah.

It's called
The Bravery Nine.

They made it
into a movie.

Okay,
that's the stupidest
title I ever heard.

Are you kidding me?

First time I saw
that movie, I was 11.

Remember the, uh,
spacewalk lasso scene?

Ah! Oh, yeah.

My brothers and I
acted that out for weeks.

We all wanted
to be astronauts.

Me too.
You were a hero
to so many people.

So, what was it
really like,
the spacewalk?

Well, that crazy Russian
almost got us all killed.

You know, by the time
I got my spacesuit on,

Borovsky had drifted
out over three klicks.

Had to put on
an old Russian MMU.

That's a "Man
Maneuvering Unit."

Yep.
About two klicks out,
the thrusters failed,

and I couldn't see
the station anymore.
I was just drifting in space.

It was terrifying
and beautiful.

I looked out over
the curve of the Earth,

imagined it was
my wife's face,

and I finally got those
thrusters working again.

Okay, so who played me
in the movie?

Oh, uh...

Robert Pattinson. BOTH: Yeah.

Twilight? Mmm-hmm.

Right? Which one was he?
The vampire or the werewolf?

Hell, don't look at me.

Amanda?

Oh!

'Cause I'm the girl,
I would know?

Yeah. Mmm-hmm.Yeah.

He was the vampire.

Oh, you had his poster
on your bedroom wall.

I plead the fifth.

You know,
I miss the fifth.

Hmm.

As far as amendments goes,
it was one of the best.

Hear, hear,
to the fifth. Hear, hear.

To the fifth. To the fifth.

There you go. Thank you.

Uh-uh, whoa.

Don't be stingy.

Oh, okay, all right.

Ah, you've had enough.

Mmm.

Okay.
Is Alabama still there?

Well, it's not
a state anymore,
but, yeah, it's still there.

So I can go there?

Well, it takes a bit longer
to get anywhere these days.

You know,
no more planes.

If your wife's alive,
we got ways of finding her,
you know.

I got resources.

So, why don't you
people fly anymore?

Radiation and debris.

Mmm.

Trying to get more than
400 feet off the ground
is pure suicide.

And what about,
uh, space travel?
What about exploration?

I think people have
had more than enough

of outer space at
this point in time.

I guess that makes sense.

Here, look at this.

We couldn't go up,
so we learned how
to go down.

Now,
look at that vista.

That's Lake Nothing.
That's one of my favorites.

That's beautiful.
It reminds me of space.

I'll take you
there tomorrow.

Okay.
I'd love that.
Thank you.

Hey, Nolan,
why don't you
come along too,

and bring your
semi-conscious friend there.

Right. I'm still awake,
you old bastard.

That's it.
You're staying the night.
No arguments, okay?

And you,

you can stay in
my son Luke's room.

It's the best one
in the house.

Stahma?
What are you doing?

Datak, I'm sorry.

I was just...

A Casti woman
bathing alone?

What would
the servants say?

I thought you were
out for the evening.

At the NeedWant.

I had a rather
unpleasant experience
with Kenya Rosewater.

I think that woman
needs an education.

What did she do?

She refused me
as a client.

I can't imagine
what she was thinking.

It was odd.

I felt as if she was
going out of her way
to disrespect me.

Why would
she do that?

I have half a mind
to send Skevur over there

with his skinning
knives to ask her.

Come.

Bathe with me.

Let me put all
thoughts of that

stupid woman
far from your head.

What the hell
are you doing, kid?

Amanda, you okay?

Throat's pretty bruised.

Hopefully,
your larynx
isn't fractured,

but I'll need
to get you into
the office to make sure.

Zip it. Thank you.

Thank you for
stopping me, though.

If you hadn't
have stopped me...

No, you stopped yourself.
You hesitated. I saw it.

Get him to the lock-up.

I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry.

Nolan.

What's going on?

Our astronaut friend
wigged out and tried
to kill the Mayor.

Amanda!

Easy.

I just want to...

You want to stand back
and wait until the doctor
says she can talk.

What did I just say,
buddy?

Now, Amanda should
be fine, all right?

Doctor's running some
tests just to be sure,

so why don't
we give 'em
a little room?

Yeah.
What happened,
exactly?

Exactly?
I don't know exactly.

Gordon had an episode
of some description,

starting choking Amanda,
and Rafe and I got there
just in time.

What kind of
lawkeeper are you?

I mean, you're supposed
to be protecting her, right?

I'm not a bodyguard.

Anyway, you seem
pretty concerned
for a guy

who belongs
to an organization

that tried to kill
her a few weeks ago.

The Volge attack?

That had nothing to do
with me or the E-Rep.

See,
I don't know that, do I?

I care about Amanda. Yeah?

Looky here,
you and I just found
some common ground.

Has he said anything?

He's in pain.

Well, let's hope
he can work his
way through it.

He doesn't belong
here and he knows it.

I can relate.

I'm truly sorry
about Sukar.

That's not gonna
bring him back.

I know.

Do you really feel that way,
like you don't
belong anywhere?

Where have I ever belonged?

Sukar made me feel
like I had a home.

Your home is with me.

I know you
believe that.

Don't.

Calm down!

Hey.

No! Hey! Calm down!
Calm down!

Calm down!

Hey, Doc.Hey.

You notice anything
weird when you examined
our astronaut?

Weird?

Yeah,
'cause the funniest thing
just happened.

Gordon started
bleeding silver,
like he's an Indogene.

Nolan, calm down.

Nolan.

Now,
you scanned his body,

so either you're
the worst doctor
in two systems

or you knew
he wasn't human
and you lied.

No, I just...

You piece of shtako!

You knew he was dangerous.
Now, he nearly killed Amanda.

Doc,
if that had happened,

do you have any idea
what I'd be doing
to you right now?

It's true.

We carried out reconnaissance on your people before we made contact.

When the Votan Arks
first arrived
in Earth's orbit,

there was a rogue program.

Indogene volunteers
would be surgically
altered to infiltrate,

collect information,

and if a target of
opportunity presented
itself, to kill.

An alien assassin?

Gordon McClintock,
a bona fide hero astronaut,

would have access
to the highest level
of human leadership.

President, prime minister,
defense secretary,

or a mayor, apparently.

Wouldn't silver blood
be a dead giveaway?

Well,
he's obviously a prototype.

We never got the damn
things to work right.

I'm sorry.
I don't believe you.

I mean, look at me.
I am Gordon McClintock.

I remember being a kid.

I remember crying for a week
when my dog, Beckett, died.

I remember spilling soda
on a complete stranger
in a movie theater,

and a year later,
asking her to marry me.

Do you remember the smell
of your wife's perfume

or the taste of
your favorite food?

I didn't think so.
Sensory memory is
the hardest to imprint.

So you're saying
my memories are fake?

That they never happened?

No, they happened.

Just not to you.

So where is the real me,
the real human?

Extracting memories
destroys the subject's brain.

I'm...

I'm sorry
for your situation, Gordon.

Why did you lie to us?

If the Earth Republic
can prove Votans killed
human space heroes,

they'll use it against us.

You're damn right we will.

I'm taking him back with me.

Five minutes ago,
I thought
I'd lost everything,

but at least I was
still a human being.

Now, I don't even
know what I am!

Calm down, Gordon!

No, don't hurt him!
Don't hurt him!

Amanda, you okay?

Yeah, I'm okay.

Datak is very
angry with you.

May I ask you why?

Why what?

Why did you refuse
my husband?

For you.

For me?

I know that it hurts you
when he sleeps with
other women,

and I can't do
anything about that,

but I can make sure
that I'm not part
of that problem.

You are very sweet.

And very stupid.

Saying no to Datak
has made him angry
and suspicious,

and for a Castithan man,
wearing a cuckold's horns

is a great shaming.

I know that you're
in a bad marriage.

It isn't bad at all.

Don't lie.

I've been there too.

I love my husband.

I hate that
he orders you around.

I hate that
you're not free.

I am enjoying
our visits together
very much.

Me too.

If they are to continue,
you must learn to
control your hatred.

You need to play
the game better,

smarter.

McCawley.

Sir, we've got
something odd.

There's a breach
on the north edge
of Lake Nothing.

That is odd.

Here's what I want you to do.

Seal off that level,
and don't talk to anybody.

I'll be right over. Yes, sir.

Hello, Commander.

Lawkeeper's been turning
the town upside down
looking for you.

Want some company?

Stay back.

Are you gonna
shoot me or not?

I haven't decided yet.

Well, can I sit
while you do?

I'm not getting
any younger here.

How did you find me?

Guard saw you.
Called me at home.

So, how do you
like the view?

Well,
when you showed it to me,
it seemed worth seeing.

Yeah.
I come here all the time.

Now that you've
seen it, what next?

Maybe I'll just
sit here for a bit,

see if I've got enough
courage to throw myself
over the edge.

It's good to test
your limits.

Helps a man
make wiser choices

when he understands
what he is and
isn't capable of.

Helps you grow.
Helps you change.

I'm a weapon.
That's never gonna change.
It's what I am.

You know what I don't
like about Indogenes?

No feelings.
Everything's mechanical.
They never change.

Humans change
all the time.

You raged like Jonah
against the fate
that's handed to you.

It's the nature
of what's inside you.

You're human.

Nothing makes sense
anymore.

It's too hard.

I know it's hard.
I lost my world.
I lost my wife.

And I lost a son.

You're wearing
his clothes.

I'm sorry.

Yeah.

Life's handed me
reason enough

to throw myself
off this cliff.

Why not?

Because I'm not a coward.

Because I love life enough

that I'm gonna
hold on to every moment,
good or bad,

until my higher power
sees fit to take it
all away from me.

But then again,

if somebody
were to offer me
a second chance,

I'd take it in a shot,

and I don't care
what kind of vessel
they put me in.

As long as I had my life,

my memories,

I'd still be me.

You think
she'd still want me,
like this,

after 30 years?

If she loved you,
she'd take you
any way she could.

What if I'm not
as strong as you?

Then jump.

Thank you for trying.

Give that back
to Nolan for me.

Yeah.

You heard about Gordon,
I take it?

The guy survived
a space disaster
over 30 years ago,

only to jump off
a terraformed cliff.

Go figure.

The Votan part
of him was dead.
The human part was a lie.

He didn't fit in anywhere.
He was a loaded weapon
waiting to go off.

I can't help fantasize
that Gordon McClintock
is knocking

on some door somewhere,

about to sweep
a little old lady off
her feet.

You're insanely romantic.

Hmm.

Not so romantic.

I'm turning down
your offer.

My place is here.

Okay.

Let's talk straight.

We haven't been?

Earth Republic
wants into Defiance.

No kidding.
They want to get their hands on our gulanite.

Well, it powers almost
everything these days,

and this town
is on a mother lode.

It's recently
become a top priority
for the organization.

This woman is leading
the charge. You know her?

Olfin Tennety,
crooked E-Rep Ambassador.

She tried to rob the town
and blackmail me.

She's convinced her boss
that you are the problem,

and that under
a more pliable leader,

Defiance would welcome
the Earth Republic with
open arms.

Well, that's not true.

Well, there's no way
they can know that unless
they've removed you.

By "removed," you mean...

Whatever it takes.

If you leave Defiance,
you're no longer a threat.

I'm a big deal
in New York.

In New York,
I could protect you.

I don't need
your protection.

Can you not...
Can you not recognize

that it wasn't easy
for me to come here

after everything
that happened?

I didn't ask you
to come here.

I didn't ask you
to insert yourself
into my life.

Right, because you
don't need anybody.

Those human connections,
they just slow you down.

They make you weak.

Come on. Don't say that.

If you had
only trusted me...

If you had only
talked to me first,
we'd still be together.

If you'd had a little faith,
we'd be a family.

Remember,
Earth Republic
takes what it wants

and it doesn't care
who it hurts.

You really would've
been a good fit.

You've got company.

Nolan. I hear you've got
something for me.

Told me to give
this back to you.

That was decent of him.

Yeah, well,
he was a decent kid.

I was thinking
we might send somebody
down the mines,

try and recover the body,
give him a decent burial.

The lake's too deep.

Body must've got tangled up
with something down there,

'cause it didn't
come back up.

Well, that'd make you
the last person
to see him alive

and the only person
who could confirm
his death.

That is true.

To Gordon McClintock,

wherever he may be.

Mmm-hmm.

Looking
for a Band-Aid?

Looking for the truth.

I want to know
what you were doing
during the Pale Wars,

all of it.

It was a war.
You try to win those.

You should know.
You butchered enough
of my people.

I could always
make it one more.

You were up
to your neck
in the program

that created
Gordon McClintock.

I need to know how far
you got and whether
there's any more out there

we need to worry about.

Excuse me.

Astronaut's not here, kid.
We're kind of in
the middle of something.

I really need a doctor.

Gonna need
to take a rain check
on this conversation.

Looks like viral
hemorrhagic fever.

Get your gloves
and masks on!

We've got
ourselves a plague.