All language subtitles for Yellow Smile (Sari Tebessüm)

I fell in love with you.

I fell in love with you too.

How did this happen so quickly?

Probably because
we know our time is short.

I have to go back to Istanbul tomorrow.

When can you come?

When will this excavation end?

This dig has been going on for 30 years.

It won't be finished
before 30 years either.

But I'm not going to continue.

Tomorrow I'll go back with you.

And from now on
I'll always stay by your side.

Think carefully, you're making
this promise in front of Poseidon.

That's not Poseidon.

Just an ordinary river god.

According to the legend, there were
two lovers who loved each other deeply.

The goat‑footed god,

envied their happiness
and wanted to separate them.

The lovers begged the river god.

So he turned them into two streams
flowing side by side.

They joined in the plain
and flowed into the sea together.

Can you do the same with me?

In death, the only true togetherness,

can you dare to be together?

I ask before the river god.

Will you dare to die with me?

Oh no, I hope they
didn't crash into our car.

Yes?

I'm saying,
I hope they didn't hit our car.

- What?
- You can't see from here.

Where did you park it?

What are you saying, kitty?

Didn't you hear the noise?

They crashed into a car.

Are you taking aspirin
first thing in the morning?

- Again?
- It's fine.

Of course,
you drank until three in the morning.

Look at your eyes.
They're bloodshot.

But you adore my poems.

What does that have
to do with anything now?

Could those poems be written sober?

Besides, how am I going to fix this world?

- Moo. - You're a cat, say meow.
- No, moo.

Then give me a cat kiss at least.

Mmm.

Come on, you're running late.

- Come to breakfast.
- I can't.

I feel nauseous.

Then at least drink some orange juice.

I can't drink that either.
I had coffee, that's enough.

Come on, one last cat kiss.

Drive carefully.

Don't forget to have lunch.

- Don't drink.
- Have I ever had an accident in my life?

Did I forget to have lunch?

- No.
- Did I have lunch without wine?

If you can drop by
around this time on Thursday,

I can show you the entire collection.

Well, can't I see what's here right now?

Of course, Yasemin.
Would you please help the lady?

- Welcome, Erdal.
- Thank you.

- Coffee or tea?
- Neither, I'll only stay a little.

I just dropped by to ask how you are.

I'm fine, how are you?

That night,
did you keep going after we left?

- I still haven't recovered.
- You were wild.

It was morning already anyway.
Where did you go?

Mr Şeref invited all of us to
breakfast on the Bosphorus.

The champagne was popped.

Then he invited us to his yacht.

But that idiot...

Neşe had an upset stomach
so we couldn't go.

That's really rude Erdal, Do you know
how much she loves you?

Anyway.

How's the demon doing?
Has he finished that long poem?

No, he's still working on it.

Your husband writes such beautiful poems.

But I really bagged an
amazing man, didn't I?

You did.

Eda, should we postpone my exhibition?

I don't think I'll make it in time.

We're meeting with
the friends tonight, too.

Impossible, Erdal.

You know I've announced the schedule.

Okay, okay, I know the rest.

It'll be ready on time.

- Then I'd better go and work.
- Alright.

Will you drop by this evening as well?

I don't think so.
İdris will be working tomorrow.

I'm a bit tired too.
Maybe on the weekend.

- Okay, I'll call you.
- Goodbye.

Did you finish it?

The Mayerling tragedy is wonderful.

- Only you could have written this.
- Read it, will you?

Darling, it's beautiful.

It's really beautiful.

I'm so glad I'm with you, so glad.

Good.

That.

I'm glad.

Sorry.

Honey, why don't we go to the doctor?

I'm not going because he'll tell me
to cut down on alcohol.

But I won't cut down.

Don't drink too much at lunch, love.
I'm going to give you a cat kiss.

Honey, we're meeting Erdal
and the others tonight.

Don't forget,
will you come straight there?

If nothing goes wrong,
I'll be there at seven.

- Goodbye.
- Bye.

Ela, are you crazy?
How would I do that?

- No way.
- Sweetheart.

I'm saying with men
completely outside your circle.

Think of it like taking medicine.

No one will know.

You won't see those guys again,
not even once.

One‑time flings, only as needed.

No, I can't do this to Idris.

Whether he knows or not doesn't matter.

I love him.

- I can't do it.
- You like to suffer.

You were like this as a child too.

I'd be the mischievous one,

and you'd take the blame.

It had nothing to do with liking pain.

I couldn't stand them punishing you.

Well then, Eda,
you're doing the same thing again.

You hurt yourself so İdris won't be hurt.

Of course. Mr Erdal is calling you.

Alright, put him through, Yasemin.
Sorry, Ela.

Hello, yes, it's me.

I'm fine, thanks. How are you?

I'm glad.
So you've set your mind to finishing it.

Yes, we're coming,
we'll be there at seven.

Alright, see you then, Erdal.

Will you come tonight as well?

I'll get to meet your lover, too.

No, we can't come.

We're invited somewhere tonight.

What do you think of my suggestions?

Go away, Ela.

You know these things aren't for me.

Alright, as you wish.

I'm going.

If I can't call in the next few days,
don't worry.

You know I have to go into training camp.

I have to finish the set within 10 days.

Alright, darling, I'll call you.

- Take care of yourself.
- You too.

Let's see.
Will we run into any of our folks here?

- Oh! Hello, lovebirds.
- Hello.

Hello.

- Good evening.
- Good evening.

Aren't you two getting divorced?

No, we won't, just to be different.

We'll be over there - come on.

Never mind, dear.
That's a very intellectual table.

Let's stay here.

- Alright, good evening.
- Good evening.

It's so crowded here tonight.

Ayşe, you're right.

You can't tell,
because you're old‑fashioned too.

I'm old‑fashioned?

Alright then, let's drop it.

You don't like my films.

But I'm an admirer of your poems.

Would you read one of your poems?

I didn't say I don't like your films.

But if that's how you take it,
I can't help it.

As for reading poetry...

İdris, would you please tell Mr Aykut,

he doesn't write poems
suited to loud recitation, Aykut.

Then you read us
one of your poems, master.

My poems aren't really suited
to being read aloud, Aykut.

Come on, poetry should
be read out booming!

That's how I know it, right?

Erdal.

Sorry, what did you ask? I missed it.

Poetry should be read in a booming voice,
shouldn't it?

Uh‑huh, maybe
the poems you know are like that.

Eda, will you dance with me?

Come on, let me rescue you.

In my new film, I tear those
snooty intellectuals to shreds.

Don't get me wrong, İdris is different.

Women like Leyla, for example,

sexless and stuck‑up.

When I say 'woman',
I mean women like you.

You've been my friend for so many years,

I'm telling you for the first time:

Now dance.

When we dance, you send
such a current through my body,

a jolt of electricity...

- ...A single‑pole electric current.
- now that's a first I've heard.

Don't underestimate me.

Actually I'm an intellectual too,
I just don't show it.

That's what being a gentleman is.

I've started a long review, İdris.

"The Rise and Fall of Turkish Poetry."

I think today in Turkey, real

poetry, there's very little,
and only İdris writes it.

- Isn't that right, Enis?
- Erdal,

Don't ever compliment
one poet in front of another.

Even if it doesn't seem that way,
we're like painters too.

Erdal, pull Eda away from that jerk so
she can enjoy the dance.

Thank you.
Sometimes it becomes unbearable.

I think Leonard Cohen's poetry and music

can't be separated from each other.

And it wouldn't be right to.

When the two come together,
something unique emerges.

But the voice isn't beautiful
in the traditional sense.

- Right, İdris?
- And that's what's unique.

A downright hoarse‑voiced man comes along

and makes
the most beautiful music of the dream.

Conclusion?

You don't need a beautiful voice to sing.

But for that you need
to be as imaginative as Cohen,

as sensitive and as refined

someone who can turn
everything into love...

- ...even old age and decay.
- Exactly.

There's true love in his songs.

Ha ha, girl, how old are you anyway?

How would you know true love?

You're still at flirting age.

I can't understand why
you've declared war on me tonight.

Guys, do you really like this music?

He pressed play like a voice
from the grave, seriously.

Mr Aykut, look,
there are headphones on the stereo.

You can listen
to folk dance tunes on TRT 4.

Huh?

Hey kitty, will you get me a drink?

I'm afraid I'll fall if I get up.

Take a break, you've had too much tonight.

Alright, I'll get it.

You sit, İdris, I'll serve.

Thanks, I'll get it.

Why are you pressuring your husband?

Whether he drinks a little or a lot,

What's it to you?

He's a poet, maybe you don't realize it,
but she's in love with him.

There are lots of women around.

Or you'll let him slip away.

Alright, what will you say to this?

I'm in love with İdris too.

Madly in love.

Look how handsome that man is.

Not just his looks,

you have to see what's inside too.

But you can't see it, can you?

Supposedly she's worrying
about her husband's liver.

I truly love him.

Do you understand, Eda?

I love him.

I'm telling you
I'm in love with your husband.

Hey.

Hey, can you hear me?

I'm in love with your husband.

Oh, we've stayed up till morning again.

Shall we go, Leyla?

If you like, I can drive you home.

But I haven't finished my drink.

Look, let me finish my drink.

Come on, Leyla,
we're heading out too, it's late.

Alright, alright, I'm coming.

Leyla, if you like,
I can take you as well.

There's a tripe soup place
across the way, we can stop by.

They make a great salted tripe soup.

Fuck off, you jerk.

Got your answer, kid?

Good night.

Iyi geceler çocuklar.

Good night.

Good night.

Good night.

Ah, what a night.

Come on, dear, let's go to bed right away.

You go to bed, dear.

I have to write something.

If I don't write it now, I'll forget.

Please don't drink too much.

You'll drink at
Güzin's party tomorrow too.

Alright, kitty, don't you worry.

Here you go.

Here you go.

Thanks.

Here you go, thank you.

Here, take this, thanks.

Here you go, thanks.

In your new film
there's a bourgeois home scene.

Would you let me use this place?

The shoot will take at most two days.

I made that mistake once.

I won't do it again.

Why?

It takes a week
to clean up the house after you.

Nah, don't worry.

We'll keep it clean.
You'll find the place just as you left it.

If you want a typical bourgeois house,

I don't think this place is a good fit.

I'd say this is
a fallen aristocrat's house.

You could say that.

If this is your "fallen" state,

What are you reading?

Other poets' lives
are greater than Kleist's,

their works more alive,

their presence
and influence more valuable,

perhaps more useful to humanity,

but none of their ends
is as sublime as Kleist's.

Like a happy engaged couple,
Kleist and his companion

head toward Wannsee,

laughing as they drink
their coffee in the open air.

The café owner

hears them joking
and laughing on the grass,

and at the appointed hour, a gunshot,

immediately followed by a second.

Kleist fires into his companion's heart,

then the other into his own mouth.

His hand never trembled.

He knew better how to die than to live.

If you want,
I'll kill myself with you in six months.

Why six months?
I can't die before my book comes out.

Ha ha, you're something else, Leyla.

I'm starting to get tired
of this gallery business.

It's better than a desk job,
sure, but it's still monotonous.

I don't know, it just lacks surprises.

If you can't sell a single painting
at the show, then you'll see a surprise.

Come on, as if.
You make really beautiful paintings.

I'm sure most of them will sell.

So when should I come
and see what you've done?

I'll call you.

We'll open my first show
at your place too, right, Eda?

Could be.

Why not.

Ha ha, graduate school first.

Why? Do you have
to finish school to open an exhibition?

Of course not, Neşe.

Don't you know Erdal?
He's just messing around.

Actually, the first thing I'll do
when school ends is head south.

- At least a month.
- Ugh, I'm dying for a vacation too.

If only we could slip away for a week.
We could actually go, Idris.

Yasemin can manage
the gallery for a week.

That could work.

Let me check
my own work situation on Monday.

You know there's a chance
I might go to Paris.

That chance has been there for months;
they keep postponing it.

Good idea, if you go, we'll come too.
That'd be great.

I can't come; I have exams.

Alright then, I'll come.

Erdal, how are you coming?

With my canvases and paints.

Let's hope they don't send you
to Paris right now, İdris.

Let's go south together.

I'll buy the tickets tomorrow.

Alright, kitty, let's wait until Monday.

Hooray, we're going to the south.

Good morning.

Good morning, Mr İdris.
They brought this from headquarters.

Thank you.

- Could you connect me to my wife, please?
- Sure.

Art gallery, how may I help you?

I'll put you through.

Good day. Mr İdris is calling you.

Ah, thanks, dear.

Hello, dear.

No.

Alright, how long will you be staying?

Ugh, one month?

What if I come with you and stay ten days?

I don't think
I'll have any time apart from work.

The two of us in Paris, separately...

Come if your heart can take it.

Kitty, we'll talk in the evening.

I have a lot of work;
call Erdal now about the tickets and such,

tell him not to buy them.

Me too.

Welcome, Eda.

I was just heading out, too.

Thanks. Please take these packages.

I've cooked all the dishes.

- Thank you.
- Good evening.

Good evening, dear.

So you want to go
to Paris without me, Mr İdris.

Well, you're right.
If I were in your place, I'd do the same.

Don't be ridiculous.

My dear, I'm joking.

I've thought about it, you're right.

Even our sleepin
and waking hours won't match.

It'll be bad for both of us.

As soon as you come back,
we'll go down south together.

We will, kitty.

Then at the first opportunity
we'll go to Paris.

We'll go and...

Under the chestnut trees, we'll tour
the whole city, kissing and kissing.

Just like three years ago.

Just like three years ago.

Ah, there you are. I was so afraid
I wouldn't make it in time.

We said goodbye this morning, kitty.

- Why did you come?
- It's alright; I came anyway.

- Did you take everything you need?
- You're not late.

Don't come to the airport this time.
We end up having to part ways there.

It doesn't help.

You're right, okay, I won't come.

Did you put everything
on the list into your suitcase?

Yes, don't worry.

While I'm gone, go out a lot.

Don't sit at home alone
in the evenings and get bored.

Alright, I'll go out.

İdris, don't drink too much there, okay?

Alright then, goodbye.

Bye, honey.

Have a good trip.

So, what do you say?

A rhythmic, rapid movement
that determines structures of order,

movement, based figurative relations

aiming to integrate
the figure with its surroundings,

together with the proliferation
and transformations of units,

in the pictorial action,

mostly between abstract
and figurative impressions,

with arabesques of motifs

freely dispersed,

between ambiguity and deformation,

reaching even to chance forms,

a surface roughness

not far from being an organic aim, either.

Ha ha, that's the kind of thing the
guy wrote for my last exhibition.

Forget that, tell me this:

Will you have the paintings
ready for the opening?

Yes, yes, absolutely.

I'm relieved,

I'm sure it'll be a good show.

You make such beautiful paintings, Erdal.

I wish I could be creative too.

I envy people like Idris and you.

There's a meaning to your being.

Eda, you're our muse too.

Don't tease, I mean it.

Aside from my relationship with Idris,

there's hardly anything left
that gives me joy.

I'm getting old without putting
anything meaningful out there.

Haha, drop the gloom,

let's go have a drink somewhere.

Honestly, that'd be great.
I could use it too.

I'll call Neşe as well, call her now.

Hey, what's up?

Why? What happened?

Eda and I
are going out now, aren't you coming?

Come on, grow up already.

- Fine, okay, call me whenever you want.
- What happened, anyway?

You know, it is like we are handling
with kids and all,

it became an issue
because she got home late a few days.

She can't go out tonight.

She still hasn't
sorted the parent situation?

She's a girl with character, though.

Are her folks conservative?

No, supposedly they're so open, minded.

You know the type.

Our generation had gotten past
that stuff at that age.

Neşe isn't "a girl with character" at all.

She's very passive.

Among us she just plays that part;
for starters, she never rebels.

Whereas at that age
we rebelled against everything.

We had even rented
a separate flat with my sister.

We were earning
our own money by ourselves.

And that's the whole point.

Economic independence
is the foundation of everything.

Ha ha, though we poke fun
at some things now,

our generation was different.

Eda, you were amazing.

You really love dancing, right?

For me it's like therapy, sweetie.

So you're a summer bachelor now?

No, more like a belated
"summer bachelor," whatever that means.

So, are you planning to flirt around too?

If you are,
I'm ready to be your partner in crime.

Aykut, even if I were committing

that kind of "crime,"
you'd be the last accomplice I'd pick.

Hmph.
Did you hear that?

I used the word "crime"
on purpose and she took the bait.

She sees it as a crime.

Where's that open, mindedness of yours?

Weren't you all about freedom?

Aykut, you're being ridiculous.

What does that have to do with anything?

Yeah, what does it have to do with it?

Of course it does.
They look so compatible,

so happy,
but they're steeped in decadence.

The great poet Mr Idris Üstün,

as the art consultant to big capital,

is off to Paris to organize a show,

who knows what kind of nonsense
he's up to there,

and his one and only beloved wife
is hanging around bars here,

drawing all eyes with her wild dancing,

but when it comes to action s
he turns into a prude;

what she preaches
and what she does don't match at all.

I think you should stop now, Aykut.

You won't be able to claim you were drunk
and get away with it later.

Hmph. Eda, cut it out with that act.

Hang out with me a little.
Live your life.

You have no idea,

I'm quite something.

Ask the women I've been with,
see how much they like me.

When will you realize you're a bore?

Am I leaving, or are you?

We're leaving, Eda.

I'm invited to a crazy party,

all kinds of wild stuff.

Come if you want, you'll have fun.

Anywhere we go right now
will be more fun than here.

Bye, Leyla.

Will you come, Erdal?

I will.

But we leave right away,
or I'm going to punch him.

Erdal, I'm drunk, I'm heading out.

Can you put me in a cab?

The party didn't do it for me either.

Come on, let's leave together.

I'll drop you off.

Okay, let me hit the restroom,
I'll be right back.

Ah.

Haha.

Good God, good God, good God,

Good God,

Ha.

Ha.

One drink to calm my nerves
and I'll be fine.

Do you want one too?

Hello?

What, It's quarter to twelve?

I totally forgot.

Yasemin, when the man arrives,

stall him a bit;
I'll be there in half an hour.

Okay.

Good morning, I have to run;
I have an appointment at noon.

- Will we see each other tonight?
- Sure.

As far as I can tell,
you've settled on these three.

Yes, I'll think
a bit more about the others.

You were upset
about missing that painting,

but rest assured,
you got better ones today.

You're right, Ms Eda.

Thank you very much for your attention.

My pleasure. I can send these tomorrow.

The check, please give it to
the boy who brings the paintings.

- Of course. Have a good day, Ms Eda.
- Good day.

We hope to see you at our next exhibition.

I'll definitely come.
Goodbye, Ms Yasemin.

Goodbye, sir; let me see you out.

Goodbye, we hope to see you again.

Thank you very much.

Can I finally go out to lunch now?

- Of course; sorry I kept you waiting.
- Not at all.

What have I done, and with Erdal, too.

I have to talk to him right away.

This has to end here
as if it never happened.

Hello?

Ah, Erdal, is that you?

I was about to call you too.

Let's meet somewhere

we can be alone and talk one, on-one.

Alright, seven o'clock.

Hello.

Is this Üstün, please?

No, I'll call him again.

Thank you.

Look, Erdal,

The only reason anything happened
last night was that we were drunk.

We should completely forget about it now

and go on with our friendship as
if nothing happened.

I won't drink this much again.

Damn it.

So it was just the alcohol.

Could you have done
the same thing with Aykut?

Don't pressure yourself, Eda.

You enjoyed it like I did; that's natural.

These things happen.

And it's nice when they do.

Since it's good, it should continue.

Erdal, why don't you understand?

My relationship with Idris,

don't you know how much it means to me?

- Idris,
- Could you repeat that, ma'am?

Yes, please.

Idris is the person I love,

and respect the most.

But how can I forget the beauty
of what I lived last night?

The woman whose mind

and sensitivity I admire,
I learned her body.

I came to know her body,

and from then on she became
indispensable to me in every way.

The only indispensable person
to me is İdris, Erdal.

I can't do anything that would hurt him.

He doesn't need to know.

We could experience wonderful things.

Don't be so moralistic.

The issue isn't morality,

at least not sexual morality.

Erdal, my head is tired.

My body is tired.

I'll go home and sleep.

Let me take you home.

No, I'll take a taxi.

I'll come with you to the taxi.

Alright.

Good evening, Erdal.

Good evening.

Will we see each other again?

Aren't we friends?

Eda.

Please open up.

I just want to stay
by your side for a bit.

Erdal, you're drunk. Go sleep.

We'll talk
on the phone tomorrow.

If you don't open,
I'll make a scene, open up.

Erdal, are you crazy? Get in.

Why do you come without calling?

If I had called,
you would've told me not to come.

I would've come anyway.

Let me make you a coffee.

I don't want coffee, come here.

Sit.

I want to watch you.

So... are you going
to stare at me till morning?

Look, Erdal, I have work tomorrow;
I need to sleep.

Come on, you go sleep too.

Erdal, dear, you're very drunk.
Come on, sleep here on the couch.

How much longer
are we going to sit here like this?

Then let's talk.

Tell me, where did you drink?

I want to be inside you.

We talked about this; something
like that won't happen again.

It will.

And you'll like it very much too.

Leave here right now.

Right now, get out of here.

Ah.

Yasemin, I'm not coming today.

No, don't worry, something came up.

Move today's appointment
to tomorrow at the same time.

Tell them I'm sorry.

Goodbye.

I'll lie to Idris for the first time.

Or should I tell him everything?

No; if you tell him,
he'll be hurt for nothing.

No, what I'm experiencing
doesn't belong to me.

It belongs to the animal inside me.

Until Idris arrives,
I can set my animal free.

I need it. When he comes,

I'll end everything.

What am I thinking?

How will I tell this to Idris?

Yes, dear?

Honey, how are you?

Oh, I left the phone on
while I was about to shower.

I'm fine.

How's Paris?
Did you get to look around a bit?

Oh, poor you.
Are you working at night too?

I'm not really doing much.

Of course, I go out in the evenings.

I'm not bored, don't worry.

Don't drink too much, please.

I miss you too.

İdris.

I love you so much.

I know.

Goodbye, honey.

Me too.

Bye, bye.

It's good you could come today, Ms Eda.

- We did a good job.
- Yes, it really worked out well.

I'm heading out now.
Turn the lights off before you go.

And switch off the main breaker.

- Don't worry, Ms Eda.
- Good evening.

Uh, excuse me,

I zoned out; we should've turned
right at the previous street.

Could you turn around, please?

Okay, please stop here.

I've changed my mind,
let's go to Tarlabaşı.

I knew you'd come eventually.

I can't believe it.

How can your body be this firm?

Don't get dressed.

I'm cold.

What do you say to a second time?

Then you'll warm up.

Of course,
yellow is also close to green in a way,

so it's related to nature's liveliness

and vitality.

And then there's light, sunlight.

It's a yellow shimmer.

The warmth of yellow
reflected from the sun

is emphasized once more
by the sun's life, giving power.

There are painters
who turn the sun into a yellow blot,

but there are also those who, with
the help of their art and their moment,

Ev Art Gallery, how can I help you?

For yellow itself
carries a special vibrancy,

- Ms Eda, Mr Erdal, a yellow blot.
- I'm sorry.

Yes?

Then, starting from your groin
with my tongue,

your whole body,

that body smelling of salt and spice,

filled with lust,

I have a meeting right now.

I'll call you later.

Yasemin, if they call me, I'm not here.

Sorry, where were you?

I was saying "yellow."

In one sense, it represents life

and light,

but in another sense
it's close to death, to sickness,

to what is bad.

Think of the English phrase
"to wear yellow stockings,"

that is, "to wear yellow stockings."

This idiom means being betrayed,

To put it bluntly, he was cheated on.

Leave it open, Yasemin.

I apologize again, Mr Tuğrul.

We never had
a moment to ourselves to talk.

It's alright.

So, what was I saying, ah, betrayal.

Yellow is also the color of betrayal.

The French term "liaison"
conveys the same idea.

A "yellow smile" is the smile of betrayal.

Let go of my arm, let go, I said.

Are you crazy? Let go.

I don't want to see you again,
let go of my arm.

Let go.

Forgive me.

- Let go. I said let go.
- Forgive me.

Please.

Forgive me, forgive me.

Could you please tell him to call me back

from my office tomorrow

because i'm not at home tonight

thank you.

To your health.

To your health.

What will you do when İdris returns?

Will you choose me or him?

Or will you see us both?

What kind of talk is that, Erdal?

You'll choose him, right?

Let's not talk about this now;
it's not the time.

Why?

He's unique,

intelligent,

sensitive and cultured.

You'll choose your great love,

right?

A flawless meeting of minds.

Okay, and how does he fuck you?

We don't know that.

- Come on, tell me.
- Don't be insolent.

Yes, I'm insolent and rude.

Then why are you here with me?

Because you like it, right?

Let go of me, let go of me.

I thought you loved him.

I thought you respected him.

I don't understand, you weren't like this.

Maybe this is who I really am.

Maybe I was just jealous of him.

Couldn't it be?

Erdal, when we're together,
we're either making love

or talking about İdris.

Do you realize that?

We used to have

other things to talk about.

The one who keeps talking about
İdris is actually you.

God damn it.

We were such good friends.

Anyway.

İdris, until he returns, I want
to get myself together for a few days.

We won't see each other for a while.

No, you can't leave me.

You enjoy making love with me.

I know that.

Please don't touch me.

I'm at the point
of making a serious decision.

Nothing should influence me.

This relationship has worn me down.

I've lost my self-respect.

If we both enjoy it,
what's so bad about it?

If you're afraid he'll be hurt,
you just don't tell him.

That's all; lots of people live like this.

I can't. We talked about this,
I'm not built that way.

Erdal, my soul is in danger.

Just once, do what I ask: don't call me.

Don't touch me; don't say anything.

Please don't call me.

Neşe, shall we meet tonight, dear?

Yes.

I'll stay here until your return date.

I won't stop by the gallery either.

We'll make up for lost time
with Ela and fool around.

Oh, she finished the set;
she'll be free for a while.

Okay, dear, lots of kisses from me too.

Bye, bye.

That's settled, then.

Are you happy now? I cheated at last.

Eda, why are you
upsetting yourself so much?

These things happen.

Let it go a bit.

I can't let it go.

I love İdris so much,
like my own flesh and blood.

I can't bear for him to be hurt.

But I guess you needed to experience
something like this too.

Apparently, you can be in love
with two people at once.

I'm not in love with Erdal.

I just take great pleasure
in making love with him, that's all.

Ela, we said we wouldn't talk
about this for a few days.

You were going to spoil me.

If I can't work this out in my head now,
I'll never solve it.

- Okay.
- Alright.

We won't talk about this again.

Now get ready for a surprise.

What is it?

Hush and listen.

Wonderful, the cassette
I've been searching for for months.

Where did you find it?

I have my ways.

Now sit and listen to its music.

Your sister is going to make
your favorite dish for you.

Wait, let me take a look at you.

How lovely you are.

I got ready for you.

If you want to bathe,
the hot water's ready.

Then we'll have a nice meal.

If you like, we can go out.

No, I've made wonderful dishes,
let's eat here, just the two of us.

You don't have to put up with this, hush.

I've missed your scent.

Yes?

Hello, Erdal.

Yasemin is at lunch.
That's why I answered.

I stayed at my sister's for a few days.

- Yes, he's back.
- I searched everywhere for you for days.

Are you trying to drive me crazy?

Since İdris has returned, I'm coming
to your place tonight.

He'll be suspicious if we don't meet.
I promise.

I won't let anything show.

Believe me, I won't even hint at it.

Everything will be like before.

No, I don't want everything
to be like before either.

I--

I'll somehow explain to him
why I don't want to see you.

Please, I want to remember you kindly.

Sorry, I have work.

I have to hang up.

Glenmorangie,

drinking it with ice would be a crime.

Learn these things.

Actually, I prefer even the worst malt

whisky to twelve, year-old
blended whiskies.

And they also sell it
in little casks like this.

- That's malt too, right?
- Mmm, a gift from God.

Right, even if I had the means,
I couldn't buy it,

because that little cask
is worth a fortune.

Hello, darling.

- Welcome.
- Thank you.

- Erdal is here.
- Oh really? How did that happen?

Hi, how are you?

Erdal dropped by to see me.

We called you to go somewhere,
but you weren't there.

I had gone to the print shop.

- Has Ayşe cooked the food?
- She has.

Would you like a drink?

- A white wine, please.
- Sure, kitty.

I'll go put on something comfortable
and come back.

I'll set out from L'Université
and head to Place de la Contrescarpe.

Just as you were passing
in front of Saint, Médard Church,

a hymn rose from inside.

I darted straight into the church.

The organ and the children's choir
were there.

I sat with my eyes closed
for about twenty minutes.

I cleansed my soul.

What were the symbols again? I forgot.

In that famous church, terrible things
happened in the Middle Ages.

The devil entered
the bodies of all the nuns,

a mass nymphomania crisis,
in other words.

Haha, speaking of mass crises,
that reminds me,

next Sunday is my

birthday; I'm throwing
a terrific party at the studio.

Every kook there is will be there.

You too, as representatives
of reason and harmony, would you come?

I'm free.

What do you say, kitty?

I don't know, maybe.

If you don't mind,
I'll turn in, I'm very tired.

- I might as well get going too.
- Stay; it's still early.

I thought you'd be going to bed
early too, okay.

- Good night.
- Good night.

Good night, Erdal.

Good night, I'm waiting, Eda.

Wearing black is mandatory at the party.

That's Neşe for you.

Alright, if it's a must,

we'll don our blacks and come.

Honestly, they left just in time, İdris.

Otherwise both of them would've been
forced to join the A.C.E. club by now.

What happened,
did the party turn into a sex party?

Well, pretty much.

Seems Aykut and Leyla are getting along.

- What?
- They're sleeping together, darling.

I don't believe it.

Since the day they met, Leyla has been
treating Aykut like a dog, you know.

You two are pretty naive.

Hah.

Hah, okay, enough.

İdris,

I've missed you so much.

May I ask your husband to dance?

Why are you asking me? Ask him.

Would you honor me with this dance?

Ah, I need to check my list.

I punch holes in lists, come on.

- So, what did you do while I was away?
- Lots of things.

Eda, are you still angry with me?

No, not at all, sorry, Aykut.

I'm going to get myself a drink.

Come on, let's dance.

If you resist,
it'll draw even more attention.

Don't deny it.

You've missed me like crazy too.

Look, you're trembling like a leaf.

- Do you want me to come inside?
- Yes.

No, Yasemin will be here soon.

Leave this place to her, let's go to mine.

- If you don't come, I won't let you go.
- Okay.

Honey, I'm here.

Sorry I'm late.

Would it kill you to call, kitty?

I was worried.
I imagine bad things.

Sorry, I couldn't.

I'll be careful from now on.

Come, Mr Mustafa, the pictures are here.

Erdal, these are all of them, right?

Yes, that's all, you can take them.

Please be careful.

Don't worry, ma'am.

Stay put, the men will be here.

You stay; let them carry it.

I can't stay.

For once, could you not argue?

We'll probably be taking the last load.

There isn't much left, Mustafa.

Ms Eda, shall we take them and go?

Okay, Mr Mustafa, I'm coming now.

Alright, let me talk to the men.

Mr Mustafa, you'll deliver
the pictures to Ms Yasemin.

She'll pay you.
Be very careful.

- Please, let nothing happen.
- Of course, Ms Eda.

It's what we always do.

You're an animal.

Animal.

Since I'm with you, that makes
me an animal too, of course.

God damn it.

Where did you put those?

Give me those keys.

Do you think doing this
makes you attractive?

Just because you hid the keys,
you think I can't get out of here?

I'll break the windows and get out anyway.

And I won't come here again.

I said give me those keys.

You become incredibly beautiful
when you're angry.

I should make you angry more often.

You're a character
straight out of a third-rate novel.

"Make me angry more often," huh.

You'll make me angry,
of course, if you ever see me again.

Yes, I'm a third-rate novel character.

And you're crazy about me.

No, I'm not.

Then why do you make love to me,
even though you're in love with İdris?

So you find in me
what you can't find in him.

Don't bother denying it.

I hate you.

I hate you.

Do you understand?

"Says she hates me."

İdris can't do these things to you,
can he?

But I can.

That's life, darling.

You end up stuck like that, in the shit.

Animal.

Animal.

Animal.

So you're not going to see me again.

I'm a third-rate novel character.

Here, take the keys.

Get out, and don't come back.

Haluk Cerrah, but he's very keen
on cinema and literature.

From his cutting-and-slicing,
he spends all the money he earns on having

videotapes and books brought from Europe.

Between us, İdris,

he's an admirer of your poems too.

I'm glad.

The way you handle
the themes of death and suicide

has always impressed me greatly,

especially that poem where,
throughout history,

you speak of couples
who chose to commit suicide together,

Haluk,

İdris is uncomfortable
having his poems discussed.

Of course, sorry.

I understand Mr İdris.

Ms Eda, how's work?

I believe you currently
have Erdal Sonok's exhibition.

Have you been able to sell?

Not as much as I'd hoped.

I haven't seen Erdal since the opening.

There wasn't any trouble between you
about the show, was there?

No, nothing at all.

What could there be?

I'll grab myself another coffee.

Wait, dear, the kitchen's a mess.

I'll help you.

Mr İdris, when is
your new poetry book coming out?

What's wrong, is it that matter again?

Oh, my dear... my dear.

I went through awful things today,

and I don't know how to get out of it.

I hate myself.

Is that why you were late?

What did he do to you, girl?

You're slipping away,
best to end this thing.

It's over.

It ended today.

I ended it.

I'm sorry this one isn't for sale.

Yes, unfortunately he won't sell that.

If I spoke with him,
maybe I could persuade him.

Would you be able to help?

Of course, I'll try.

Yasemin, could you call Mr Erdal?

If he can come,
let's have him meet with the lady.

Sure, I'll calright away.

Here, let's discuss payment with Ms Eda.

Ms Eda, do you know what happened?

I thought I'd persuade Mr Erdal;
he persuaded me.

- I'm taking the one next to it.
- I'm not surprised.

He's very persuasive.

Do I pay now?

Let's take half now,

and half after delivering the painting.

Ms Eda, if you don't need me,
may I leave?

Of course, Yasemin.

- Good evening.
- Good evening.

- Good evening, madam.
- Good evening.

Here you are, Ms Eda.

Thank you.

I'll be going now.

Ms Şükran, won't you stay a bit?
I'd offer you a drink.

I'd love to, but I have an appointment,
another evening, gladly.

Thank you for everything, Ms Eda,

- you're welcome.
- for helping me make the right choice.

Thank you very much as well, Mr Erdal.

The choice is yours, madam,
very pleased to meet you.

Likewise, good evening.

Hope to see you again.

I'll see you out.

How have you been these eight days?

You've tied your hair up.

Thank you,

for taking an interest in my paintings.

Don't go.

You waited eight days for me
to come to say that, didn't you?

Don't tie your hair up again.

Welcome, darling.

You look so beautiful tonight.

No, darling, I'm still in a daze.

You look tired.

Only my mind is tired.

My intense workload ends next week.

If you like,
we can go on vacation next week.

How's your schedule?

Eda, I asked you a question.

Yes?

Sorry, darling,
I was thinking, what did you say?

I was saying,
can we go on vacation next week?

There's no obstacle on my side.

Nor on mine.

The gallery's anniversary exhibition
is approaching, but at least

we can go for a week, I think.

I'll make a work plan,

and tell you in a day or two.

No.

You're not going.

But why?

I'm telling you civilly
that you can come if you want.

I'm not civil or anything.

I can't watch you make love
with İdris for ten days.

Therefore, you're not going.

You can't interfere in my life.

You're trying to dominate me,

and I don't like it at all.

Alright.

Do whatever you want.

Go or stay,

but if you go, this relationship ends.

Decide accordingly.

Where are you going?

We were going to have dinner together.

I can't stay where I'm threatened.

So you run when cornered, huh?

What's your answer,
are you going on vacation

or staying?

I'll let you know later.

I want to know now, now.

I want to know now.
I want to know now.

Let go, you're hurting me.

I want to know now.

- Now. Say it.
- Let me go.

Are you crazy?

- Say it, say it.
- Let go, you sadist.

I want to know now.

Say it, say it.

Say it now.

- I want to know now.
- Let me go.

I want to know now, now.

I want to know now.

Let go, let go.

Say it, say it.

Let me go.

Let me go, please.

Please, please, let me go, please.

Let me go.

You're not human; you're an animal.

Ela.

Ela, please come right away.

I'm at home.

I feel terrible.

Please come immediately.

No, he's not at home.

He's at a business dinner.

Please come right away.

You're a woman who leads with reason,

I don't understand how you can't end this.

I don't understand either.

Go on a long vacation with İdris.

If you don't see that guy
for a month or two, you'll end it.

Where should I run to,

New Zealand?

We're people of the same circle.

If I can't end it in my head,

You object to everything I say.

What do you want me to say?

Tell me what I'm going through is normal.

I've become his puppet.

I'm disgusted with myself.

Say these are all things that can happen,

otherwise I'm going to go crazy.

Alright, darling,
these are very normal things.

And you're in a very normal state.

Forget it, just live your life, come on.

Let's be serious.

I can tell what's good and bad for you.

I don't know
what kind of addiction this is,

but it's not good for you at all.

Look at your state,
I don't know how İdris doesn't notice.

I'm constantly playing a game,

but I'm about to come apart now.

Take it.

Those colors were there.

Right, really, you thought
that color composition out very well.

Thanks.

Of course.

- Thank you.
- Thanks, enjoy.

I'm preparing
the gallery's anniversary exhibition.

That's why I'm a bit tired.

A new group show?

Yes, but this year
I'm thinking of doing something different,

a shared theme,

or a shared color.

For example,
a show of works dominated by yellow.

Why yellow?

I'm thinking each year could be an
exhibition devoted to a different color.

You have to start with one color, right?

And when the colors run out...

We were saying
we'd slip away for ten days,

but our schedules never matched.

Now we've postponed it
because of Eda's anniversary show.

Come with us,
we haven't bought the tickets yet.

Imagine it:
the Greek islands, shrimp, calamari,

wines, Metaxa...

Years ago I traveled with Aykut once,

I swore never again.

And what makes you think Aykut would come?

He won't, don't worry.

Aren't you together?

İdris, I used his body for a while,
that's all.

You'll come, right?

Thanks, but I want to vacation with Eda.

In my films,
changes of light play a major role.

In my filmography, light,

ah, where are those
seagull sounds coming from?

There isn't a seagull in sight.

She records seagull sounds

and listens whenever she wants.

How bourgeois, right?

His stereo must be quite the machine.

Please, to the table.

Today's specialty:

Marseille, style seafood soup,
bouillabaisse.

Oh, leave my poetry for now.

I want to savor the moment.

Ha ha, alright, dear.

Alright, just look at
how lovely the weather is. Ha ha.

Are you sure you're not cold?

- Yes.
- I was careless again, wasn't I?

I love you like this.

I'm so glad that I am with you.

It looks like Erdal
got closer with your client.

And I was wondering
why the boy hasn't been around.

Neşe, is it over?

How should I know?

Why are you upset, kitty?
Aren't they our friends?

I'm not the guardian
of their private lives.

Wait, I want to take your photo here.

Don't stiffen up, stand naturally.

I missed you. I'm glad you came early.

Are you alone?

Of course I'm alone.

Who else would be here?

Your new lover.

Jealousy, hah.

Good, you being jealous pleases me.

Let me go, you did it with him
last night, didn't you?

What's it to you?

How is it not my business?

We've been in a relationship
all this time, haven't we?

Do you want to drive me completely mad?

Can't you see the state I'm in?

Do you have no respect
for our relationship?

I have exactly as much respect as you do.

Don't you get
into İdris's bed every night?

But, but that's İdris.

He was there already.

- Like Neşe.
- But you didn't take Neşe seriously.

When you saw I was with a real woman,
you sensed danger

and out came your thorns.

Fine, let's solve this fairly:

leave İdris,

be only with me,

and I'll be only with you.

Have you lost your mind?

I can never leave İdris.

So the lady
has the right to demand things,

but I don't.

I did everything you wanted.

For the first time,
I'm asking you for something.

I never forced you to do anything.

Make your choice,
either you leave İdris, or you leave me.

I'm leaving you.

Good.

Goodbye.

The door's open.

You can't go, can you?

You can't be without me.

Admit it.

You're losing it again,
pull yourself together.

Say that you love me.

Why won't you say it?

You only say it to İdris, right?

I'm by your side, isn't that enough?

I want your soul.

No.

I want your body.

I want to be the sole owner of your body.

Undress.

Why are you making me suffer?

Come out, monster.

I want to make love

when I want to.

You want to make love.

Alright.

Do you like it?

This, or this, or this.

From now on, I want you
to wake up next to me in the mornings.

You will leave İdris.

Talk to him tonight, right away.

Otherwise I won't make love
with you again.

Do you understand?

I won't make love.

Otherwise I won't make love
with you again.

Do you understand?

I won't make love.

Hurray, we're going south!

Can you do the same thing with me,

dare to be together in death,

the only true togetherness?

I ask before the river god.

Will you dare to die with me?

Yes.