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AUGUST 18

Our movement to a certain point has meaning.

And it the end, it might become clear.

But maybe we don't have to wait until the end?

And the meaning is simpler than we thought in the beginning?

What are you doing here?

- Where's she? - You can't be here. Please leave.

Where's she?

Wait for the doctor outside.

Hi! I thought you went missing.

- She's not there. - I know.

She's fine. They moved her to intensive care.

TEACH ME HOW TO LIVE

EPISODE 12

Ilya.

I thought no one was here.

ONE DAY EARLIER

I'm sorry. I had to clean it up.

I don't think...

I think I won't be able to...

To live here?

I wanted to pick up something.

Ilya!

What?

Nothing.

- Hello! - Hello!

I found him today.

I came in, and he was lying cold under the table.

God rest his soul.

- He was a good man, but inquisitive. - I see.

Wait outside please.

Okay.

Yes.

Puchkov died. That's the way it is.

I'm at his house, and here's what I found.

There's a name highlighted in 1985 reports. Masterovoy.

I checked the logs. He was reported missing by his father.

Masterovoy? Puchkov said it was the name of the psychiatrist who examined Kosyrev.

And how old would his son be now?

53.

And do you now someone named Masterovoy?

No.

Okay, I'll run a search.

Tell me, what happens if we find him?

What do you mean?

What will happen to him? Will he go to jail?

I see what you mean.

No one can promise you that.

Especially since you told me yourself that he didn’t kill anyone.

We found no evidence.

If we catch Nafeev and he confesses, then...

I see. Your hands are tied.

What do you mean our hands?

Lavrov, what do you mean?

There's so much violence in the world.

Meaningless and irrational.

There was no opening.

They say they found another body in the forest.

What do you think, is it connected to the previous murders?

I heard something happened between you and Katya.

Me and Katya?

No, everything's fine with Katya.

I must have misunderstood. I'm sorry.

Just call your wife so she doesn't worry. Is she better, by the way?

I don't like it when a person has no past.

And Yury Lvovich Berden doesn't have any.

Come visit us, Ilya Nikolayevich, and bring your wife.

I'll be very happy to see you.

Hello, Marina! Hello!

This is Ilya Lavrov.

Do you mind if I drop by?

Yes, I know that Yury Lvovich is at the hospital.

I need to talk to you.

Yes. Okay.

I'll be right over.

What, Ilya Nikolayevich, are you surprised to see me?

Then we're even. I was surprised too when Marina said you would drop by.

But you're on leave. I thought you went on a trip.

It got canceled. So I decided to take advantage of your wife's invitation.

But I'm glad to see you too.

I wanted to ask you about your son's boarding school.

Marina! You have a visitor!

The school provides everything necessary for the child.

So your friend needs a recommendation?

Yes. He decided to send his older son to the boarding school.

He has a complicated relationship with his brother.

You know how it is. They argue and fight.

No. I have no brothers.

And whose idea it was to send your son that far away?

It was a mutual decision.

Well, kids often miss home.

Especially their mother.

Remember when you were a kid?

Ilya Nikolayevich, all kids are different.

I never hid behind my mother's skirt.

And my son won't.

So you'll get back to work?

Our last conversation gave me some hope.

And then you disappeared.

Tell me, does it have anything to do with the recent events?

No, this is because of my divorce.

I'm busy with the paperwork.

I see. It's a difficult time.

And I'll have to attend the trial.

Remember Levshin, an attorney? He contacted you...

About that serial killer...

Kosarenko...

Whose assessment I confirmed.

He had a different name.

Who? The attorney?

No, the other one.

Kosarenko?

Yes, it sounded different.

Okay, whatever.

Sure.

So you think you made a mistake?

No, I want to make sure he's not released.

Well...

I don't think it was him who killed your patient and attacked your investigator.

I didn't say that he has something to do with these murders.

I must have heard it on TV.

Look, Marina is bored.

We're almost out of wine. I'll go get another bottle.

Ilya Nikolayevich, pour out what's left.

Sure.

Marina, remember we met the other day?

And you told me that something happened to Katya.

- Me? - Yes. How did you know that?

Yury must have said something about it, and I misunderstood him.

It was the investigator, right?

Kiryusha is calling!

- Yes, dear. - Hi, Mom!

Hi! How are you?

- Do you have a sore throat? - It's okay.

You're just in time.

Yes, I'll get him.

Ilya, excuse me.

Kiryusha wants to say hello to Dad.

- Hi, Dad! - Hi!

I've got news for you.

- We're coming to see you. - When?

When?

See, even your Mom doesn't know about it.

So it's a surprise for both of you.

We're flying to you tonight.

I'm sick of this place!

Mom! Dad! Get me out of here! Please.

Don't cry, you're not a baby.

- Kiryusha, we'll see you soon. - I'm not a baby! And I'm not crying!

- Yes, Tolya, hi! - Hi!

We're going to quietly search the house.

Masterovoy is a dead end. He just disappeared. And his parents are dead.

Listen, maybe...

Let's postpone the trip to another time.

But you told him we're flying tonight.

He'll be waiting for us.

Okay. Pack your bags.

The first victim of a sociopath is their family.

My father's first victims were me and my mother.

I don't remember her well.

I don't remember her face and her voice.

Her look was always my father's look.

Her voice was always his voice.

What she thinks and what she should think.

What she likes. Who is her friend. Who is her enemy.

How she should look. What she should do. What she should feel.

I think she loved me as much as my father allowed her to.

And he didn't.

Maybe she was afraid to love me not to irritate him or make him jealous.

To avoid his punishments.

My life consisted of lectures and punishments.

He called them "lessons."

But since the correct behavior didn't exist, punishments came one after another.

I'm sorry, but your time is up.

Okay, I'm coming.

I said that I don't remember my mother, but that's not entirely true.

I just don't remember her alive.

When I was nine, I came home from school, opened the door, and heard nothing.

That silence was the most terrible thing I heard in my entire life.

I found my mother in the bathtub. She was just sitting there.

And it took me some time to realize what happened.

She was smiling.

It was her own decision.

I guess she realized that she didn't exist anymore anyway.

And that step between life and death became insignificant to her.

Everyone blamed my mother and felt sorry for my father.

And I never again felt guilty for hating him.

And I still find myself thinking what my father would do or say.

And I do and say exactly the opposite.

Not to become like him or convince myself that I'm not like him.

That I am...

What am I really like?

Yes.

Berden is his wife's name.

But it looks like it's not the first change of his last, and perhaps first, name.

The name you mentioned hasn't come up yet.

That's an interesting story, Ilya Nikolayevich.

I would love to know the details.

Where are you?

Are you alive or what?

Okay, listen up.

We didn't find Nafeev. But four months ago, a woman's body was found near Ilchevsk.

They couldn't identify her. And now it turns out it was Masha.

And we found a pullover in the shed.

All covered in blood.

We sent it to the lab.

It looks like someone was killed there.

Maybe it was Nafeev, and you were right.

And one more thing.

Puchkov's funeral is on August 20.

Ilya Nikolayevich, don't put yourself in danger if it's not for the investigation.

Call me back please.

Ilya, no matter what you think of me, I'm worried about you.

Call me back.

You have no voice messages.

Here it is. Plot 247.

Were you looking for her? Anna Mikhailovna?

KOSYREVA ANNA MIKHAILOVNA

It's a subburial.

This is a bottle of 1963 wine.

Grateful patients come with benefits.

KOSYREV LEONID MATVEYEVICH

TO SASHA MASTEROVOY

YURY DMITRIYEVICH LUGOVOY

IVAN DMITRIYEVICH LUGOVOY

And what I was supposed to do?

If I hadn't turn him in, I would've been dead by now.

I have a lot to tell.

Everyone is afraid of me.

If Piskunov learns what Levshin is doing behind his back, he's dead.

Come here.

Come here. Don't be afraid.

Your Mommy wouldn't mind. Come here.

Ilya Nikolayevich!

It's rude to break into someone's house without an invitation.

Did you watch the recording?

I did.

It's a system of mutually beneficial relationships.

So if you came here to expose me...

- I'm not going to expose you. - Why?

If the truth comes out, your wife and son's life will turn to hell.

May I?

Ilya Nikolayevich!

Take a seat.

And put down the gun.

It can go off.

And I'll never know what your plan was.

My plan?

I'm going to stop you.

That's all.

You want to kill me?

Don't be afraid to say this word if you have this intention.

Say it. "I'm here to kill you."

But the thing is...

What if you're wrong?

That's what you fear the most.

That's why you broke into my house.

You don't trust your instincts.

And it means that you probably make wrong conclusions.

And what do you know about me?

You don't know anything about me.

I know that you're Leonid Kosyrev.

An ordinary killer, just like your brother.

Well, first of all, these were not ordinary murders.

Didn't you notice it?

- No. - That's a pity.

Secondly, I have never killed anyone.

Never.

And what about the psychiatrist's son? Masterovoy. Whose name you took.

See, Ilya Nikolayevich, you don't know anything about me.

Every action must have consequences.

If you make a move, be prepared to take responsibility for it.

A wrongdoing. Then punishment.

So you punished him?

Not me, Ilya Nikolayevich.

I don't know...

If you know this feeling...

When you are being guided through life.

You think I had a plan for Masterovoy's son? No.

I just went to the psychiatrist who issued a death sentence for my brother.

You think I knew what to do?

No.

His son was there.

They had a fight.

I didn't realize what it was all about.

Even when his son asked me for a ride, I didn't know what to do.

And then this accident...

It wasn't my intention.

Did I kill him?

No.

I wasn't even sure it would work.

I just waited.

And when I saw the name on the grave...

I realized that Leonid Kosyrev doesn't exist anymore.

And then, you know...

I felt like I got my life back.

The life that was taken from me.

Your life was taken from you?

By whom?

You're changing the subject.

No, you're changing the subject.

Who offended you? Give me the name.

Offended? Why offended?

- I'm saying... - That you think you're restoring justice?

I've already heard these excuses.

They're not convincing.

It's just resentment disguised as justice.

That's what this is all about.

And you're not mad at Gavrishin. Or Masterovoy. Or me.

It's an earlier trauma.

And do you know who you're mad at?

At your mother.

Don't touch this topic.

Why? That's where we should start.

And that's where you started.

You punished her first, didn't you?

But your brother knew nothing about it.

- About what? - That you turned her in.

An article in the local newspaper couldn't do the trick.

You turned her in. You went to the police and told them what your life was like.

Your desire to punish people...

Anyone. Again and again.

Is just a reaction to that trauma.

Am I right?

You're good.

No, really, I mean it.

You exposed me.

But you were hoping for a different effect, Ilya Nikolayevich.

You wanted to do the same trick you pulled with my brother.

And then kill me, defending yourself.

I'm not going to help you solve this problem.

If you're sure that you have the right to judge and kill me...

- Don't move! - Just do it.

- Don't move! - I'm not moving.

Go ahead. Kill an unarmed man who has never killed anyone.

You can't.

I know you better than you know me.

Never killed anyone? And what about Nafeev?

You killed him.

Are you sure about that?

Just like you're sure that I turned my mother in?

Mistakes cost a lot. You of all people should know that.

You've made a mistake, Ilya Nikolayevich.

I didn't kill my mother.

I just let her die, Ilya Nikolayevich.

I'm sorry for the inconvenience, Ilya Nikolayevich.

And for the show.

You thought you were watching me.

But the truth is that I was watching you.

You can't move. You can't talk.

You can't even close your eyes.

You can only breathe. And that's only because I let you to.

It's just like life.

People live as long as they are allowed to breathe.

How do you live with this impotence?

You think that all evil in the world comes from people like me?

And what alternative did you suggest?

That's what I would like to hear from you.

At least I let you see how you will die.

In fact, we will die together.

Sounds dramatic, doesn't it?

Of course technically I won't take my own life.

It will be quick.

You'll die as soon as I take out the tube.

I think it's kind.

Then the car will roll down the hill and explode.

They'll find a burnt corpse in the driver's seat next to you.

They'll identify you, and I'll take care of my identity later.

You were right.

Of course I had to punish Nafeev.

But you need to understand that I always wait for the right moment.

My brother will be released in a week.

Don't worry, your wife will be safe.

I don't need any more victims.

Besides, she'll always live in fear that some Nafeev will appear in her life again.

I only need to deal with your girlfriend.

If she survives.

God knows I don't want to do it.

Are you nervous?

What?

Are you worried for your girlfriend?

You're killing me.

Really.

We don't have much time.

Ilya Nikolayevich.

Goodbye.

I get no pleasure from watching you suffer.

By saving Berden's son from his father's reality, I'm saving my own childhood.

A little boy, lonely and scared...

With hatred in his heart that I've been living with my whole life.

And if I save at least one life...

One childhood... To make up for my own.

Maybe I'll be able to save myself too?

Do you understand?

I need you to understand me.

But that's not what I wanted to say.

I want to tell you about us.

Sometimes, the hardest thing is to admit that you need someone to live.

Because it means that you need to admit that you depend on another person.

But if you don't admit it, it will be like nothing happened.

And I don't want you to think that I never happened.

That we never happened.

We talked a lot, and we argued a lot, but we never said the most important thing.

I don't know what comes next and what the future holds for us.

I just know one thing.

I need you.

And of this I'm absolutely sure.

I want to be with you.

I just...

I just need you to know this.

Even if it will never happen.

- What are you doing here? - Where's she?

You can't be here. Please leave.

- Where's she? - Wait for the doctor outside.

I'm with you. I'm here.

I'm with you.

I want you to stay with me.