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If you could just get over Jo being around. Stop using your best friend

as a buffer between us.

Where is the line between PA and friend, hmm?

What are the boundaries, Susan?

Sam died, but everybody else just carried on moving forward.

Except us.

Well, we've been coming here since... 1999.

We still come every year. I bring my boy.

Oh, fuck, a thesaurus.

Honestly, you argue like you have a fucking word count on.

Did it impress Jane? Cos it does nothing for me.

I am bone fucking dry.

We'd been together since we were 18.

I know what he's thinking just from the way he's shaking his leg.

I'm not going to see her get hurt again, Jo.

That makes two of us.

Oh, my God.

You're fucking Levi.

FREYA LAUGHS

Just kidding.

That would be like the worst thing that you could ever do.

I need tonight to be perfect.

I mean, it's the worst day of the year for Abe.

And I get that.

So, I was thinking

maybe we should do up the house beautifully

and get enough alcohol to poison a regional rugby team.

You don't have to do all this, you know.

Yeah, I know, I just feel like a bit of a spare part today,

and I want to do something for Abe.

And what about Levi?

He's fine.

Well, I wouldn't say fine.

I just don't think you need to be trying so hard.

Yeah, I won't. I don't. I'm not.

I mean, it'll be casual,

but, er...

There's plenty of room.

Lovely.

In a way that facilitates but doesn't really tread on anyone....

Facilitates?! Yeah. Shut the fuck up.

I'm going to put this on your lap. Fine.

I'm going to get some chips. I could sing!

Ha!

Can I have one now or

do I have to wait?

So what would you like to talk about today?

Mm.

Abe thought it would be a good idea to have therapy

on the anniversary of our son's death.

Not THIS son.

What does this anniversary normally entail for you as a family?

We normally do some of Sam's favourite activities,

like the arcade and Bronco Brian's.

They eat from the kids' menu.

It's, you know, Sam's day.

It's meant to be fun.

Abe, why don't you start, then?

Yeah.

For me, when Sam died,

I don't think I ever felt that there was room

to express emotion.

I mean, Jane was very much, um, prioritising herself

and Levi was so overwhelmed

I went into survival mode, I think... I was literally a child.

I was a little boy. I just had to step up and I had to look after him.

OK, I'm just going to catch you up quickly.

My parents project their grief on to me,

while meanwhile sort of glorifying Sam, when actually, you know,

in reality he was like sort of a little bit of a twat.

A twat whom I loved but...

All right. You know, like all normal 15-year-old boys,

he was a very lovely twat.

OK, you don't have to use language...

I'm expressing my feelings just like you told me to, Dad.

I just realised he's been dead as long as he was alive.

That's quite significant.

How does it make you feel?

Well...

..I feel...

..quite hungry?

A little bit bored, to be honest,

because obviously I have heard quite a lot of these revelations before.

Just restless to get on with the fun part of the day.

Literally none of those were emotions!

Do I have to feel sad today?

I have spent years feeling sad.

I sense that we've all been summoned here

to provide an audience for Abe's emotions.

And that's fine, that's what you need.

I will hold this space for you

but it has very little to do with us

and so I don't see why I should have to say anything.

For anyone still unclear, she's bored.

All I'm saying is I know shitty anniversaries.

What?

You know, my second birthday, the anniversary of my accident?

Oh, right.

That awful celebration that my family butchers every year.

Yeah, I feel like you should have a PhD in shitty anniversary days.

I know. Remember that time

the entire class bussed down to the rehabilitation centre,

and they sat there singing...

Yeah.

I wore the party hat and they cried.

OK, so I had this idea, and don't jump down my throat,

but I found these old home movies and pictures of Sam

and I was thinking of making a video for tonight.

Or is that creepy? No, I think that's actually really sweet.

Really? But no music.

Definitely no music, and that's where it stops, yeah?

Cos otherwise it starts to look like it's about you.

No releasing doves.

Oh, shit, I left them in the cab!

Just pop it over there.

The... I'm sitting on it.

Don't micromanage me! Worry about your own jacket.

You don't have to fold it for me.

If I want it folded, I'll fold it.

Jane, you've gone very quiet.

Oh, I'm not saying anything.

You know you can say anything here.

Shall we test that hypothesis?

Abe?

You are quite understandably

terrified of losing your remaining son

and so you've overprotected Levi and stunted his growth.

And you do the opposite of everything he says

because it's the only way you can feel in control over your own life.

OK, great.

Can I go and get a bloody omelette now or at least a slice of your fee?

He died for no reason.

No-one to blame.

It was horrific!

It stole the meaning from everything.

And I loved you both so much,

but I couldn't stay.

And so I left.

Can you believe that they've never been to therapy?

I'm so glad that they're going.

They're British. Feeling guilty and repressed is kind of their MO.

Yeah, but there's more to it than that.

Well, onwards with Sam's day, I guess.

Mmm. The arcade won't know what's hit it.

Mmm.

My appetite has certainly shifted from eggs to vodka.

How's the movie coming along?

Yeah, Sam was super sweet.

Kind of feels like flowers and blinis just aren't enough.

Are you fucking kidding me?!

You know what I mean.

Is that Levi?

Oh, yeah.

Ah, look at the little creep.

You've made this a beautiful home to come and celebrate in.

Even I kind of like it.

Mmm. Yeah, and this video is very thoughtful and loving.

Aw, thank you.

Feels really nice having you here.

Especially now that you're no longer shit at your job.

Oh, good, I thought today was going to be really depressing.

Where's your mate?

He is, er, actually on a Kenyan safari,

learning the ways of the Maasai.

What, really?! No, I don't fucking know.

Dad, can you tell Freya something?

Hold on, what?

I don't know, can you just tell her to stop trying so hard.

What do you mean? I don't know, she just doesn't get boundaries.

Like, one second she's trying to be all matey and then the next

she's trying to be nurturing

and it's just like, "Stop it, stop trying so hard."

You know Freya's life changed when she was a kid as well.

Oh, really? Did her brother die?

No.

But she nearly did.

She might understand you better than you think.

SPAGHETTI WESTERN-STYLE MUSIC

Middle.

Coward.

So, how are you?

Great.

I can't tell if you're being sarcastic.

I'm not, I'm not.

No, I'm sort of...

..tentatively doing very well.

That's great. Mmm. So the food truck's helping?

No, no, not remotely.

Um...

But I've actually met someone,

er...

..special, I think.

What?!

Well, that's fantastic!

What's she like?! How do you know they're a she?

Er, er, um, no.

I mean, I wasn't...

You're free to date whomever you want. I mean, that's cool.

You know, I just... It's just you've dated women in the past

so I just kind of... Got him! There you go.

I win!

LEVI CLEARS HIS THROAT

Unlucky. OK.

AEROSOL HISSES Ohhh!

Aargh!

Oh, ah!

SQUELCHING

So, are you going to elaborate on this, um, special someone?

Er, don't know.

Haven't really thought what I'm going to about it yet.

You mean like taking it deeper?

Urgh, it's disgusting when YOU say it, but, yeah,

something along those lines.

Well, listen, if you're asking my advice, and I know you're not,

but if you were, I would say if this person is a good person,

'king get in there.

That's gross, Dad, keep it in your pants.

SQUELCHING

Hello?

Jane! You still have keys? Where are Abe and Levi?

I thought they were with you at Bronco Brian's?

No, no, that's their thing.

I have my own teenage traditions.

Um, is it...? Sorry, is this you?

Er, yeah, Freya went for a white theme.

You know, like bright white but like not too....

It's so lovely, um, the only thing is Abe has...

He's really funny about lilies.

It's the scent of funerals.

Last time, er, he smelt lilies

he just... Well, you don't want to know what he did.

Do you mind if I just...? I'm going to have to...

If that's all right? Oh, of course.

Jane, hi.

Huey.

Oh. How are you?

Oh, thank you.

Come in!

MUSIC PLAYS SOFTLY Yeah, too late, I guess.

Yeah, that sounds... Yeah?

Oh, hello. Oh, hey.

Hi, this is stunning, isn't it?

Yeah, wow.

It's normally just pizza and beer.

Hey, how was today?

It was interesting, yeah.

Good, I think.

I'm still processing but, er,

I think this, er, open communication thing of yours might be working.

I better get ready for speeches

before everyone gets shit-faced.

Plus, if we're sober, people are less likely to burst into

Wonderwall.

Can I smell lilies? Um...

Hi, house looks incredible.

So, yeah, well done.

Thank you.

Um, could I...? Jo, listen.

I just wanted to say, um...

No.

Er... No, actually, yeah.

Have you eaten today?

I can get you something if you...

No, I... Jo, I think what I'm trying to say is...

Just, um, I...

..think that...

..I am getting feelings for you.

I... Well, no, I know I am.

And, um...

I know sort of like instinctively at this point in time, like, I...

I-I want to act like a horrible little prick and ghost you but

I have this instinct this time,

right now, is to...

..to not do that

and to carry on.

Sorry I'm being so weird... Mm-hm. I'm trying...

I'm trying really hard to be normal

and it's backfiring and making it worse. Mm.

You can... Mmm. ..say something.

Um...

OK, everybody, grab a glass and let's, er, and gather round.

Shall we go and listen to a speech?

Er, yes, please. Come on!

I'll do it here, I'll make it brief, I promise. Come on, boy.

Yeah, I'm here. Hello, mate.

Look at that, hey.

The terrific bunch of adults you've all grown....

Woo! ..up to be, eh?

Yes, thank you, Jamie.

Shane. Shane.

Shane.

Sorry.

Er, but, no, it's...it's everything that...

To know that Sam is...

..is carried in the hearts of every person in this room.

So, cheers.

Cheers.

Woo! CLAPPING

And, listen, yeah, and you've probably noticed as well

that rather than our usual frat-house vibe, er, we've got

a house that looks utterly beautiful.

Freya, thank you.

I love you.

CHEERING

I, um, actually made a little video,

um, that I just want to share with everyone

but, never mind, er, it's not a good time.

Freya made a video for you all, and...

..and it...and it's beautiful and we should all go and watch it.

So please go into the other room and watch it. How amazing. Let's go.

Oh, interesting.

New addition. Aww!

Um, um, um, um.

Hello, boy!

Hello! And who's that?

Mr, er...? I'm Mr Policeman.

What's that in your hand?

Handcuffs, in case you're naughty.

CHUCKLING Oh, uh-oh.

Hello, Sammy. Here he comes.

Get out the way! Have you got pants on your head, Levi?

Hello, Mummy!

Careful, you're going to pull his arms off!

Jane!

Gently!

Look at him. Amazing. Nice. So cool.

Ah, that was amazing.

Good job, Freya.

That was so good.

That was a really hard watch.

But, thank you.

Um...

Sam would've really liked you.

Thanks.

What was that?

Was that some kind of art project?

Oh, my God, no.

I just thought it would be a way to...

It's not a way to anything, Freya.

But I was just...

It is not your job to mourn my son!

Freya?

That was beautiful.

Abe is really angry.

Oh, fuck Abe.

Abe talks a good game

but when it comes to actually feeling the feelings,

he does tend to fumble the ball.

I don't know, I just feel like I completely got it wrong.

No, I'd forgotten half those videos even existed.

Sorry, is this bothering you?

Smoking round the side of the house is part of my tradition for today.

You know what else I did?

I baked hash brownies and I watched porn.

I think actually your tradition is much closer

to a 15-year-old's perfect day.

I think you're so brave.

Abe has so much baggage,

there's very few people who would take that on.

We all have it, though, like... Yeah.

You know, whether you can see it or not.

Listen, Jane, I know that...

..I haven't lost a child...

..but I do know what it's like

to have life turn out completely different...

..from what you thought it was going to be.

And, you know, I just realised it's like it doesn't matter

how you get through it, it's just that you...

..you do.

You get through it.

Fuck, yeah, well, yes, I...

Yeah, I couldn't agree more.

Do you want to finish that? It's making me want to hurl.

Me too.

Oh, fuck.

You know she made that video because she loves you.

You should be nicer to her.

Hey, Freya told me how it happened.

That you were home the day that Sam died.

You sent your teenage son to bed with a headache.

So what? That doesn't make you a shitty parent.

Anyone would have done the same thing.

It's not your fault.

Well, I'm never doing that again.

Look, I know you fucking hate me, but we have to make this work.

This isn't your home, Jo.

You might be good for Freya,

but you're not good for us.

Hey, Rory.

I'm Scott. Scott, of course. Yes, sorry.

Listen, um, it really does mean a lot to us that you guys have

just continuously shown up for Sam these last 15 years.

Um...

I didn't know Sam.

Sorry, I'm just... I'm Richard's boyfriend.

Who's Richard?

Just be nice to my friend.

I'm, er...

I'm sorry. Can you just get Jo, please?

I, I, I was.... I was, um...

Can you please just get Jo?

Yeah, I think I, um...

Jo!

Jo!

Jo!

Jo! Where the fuck is Jo?!

Fre... Hey!

Hey, I've been calling, what have you been doing?

Nothing, just, you know, I couldn't hear you. You good?

No, obviously not.

Wait. What?

This is who you've been...? Yeah. Yeah, it is.

Well, how predictably unprofessional.

Dad, come on, it's not her fault. You don't know

what you're talking about, boy. Don't speak to me like I'm a child!

Freya and I are pretty much the same age, you fucking cradle-robber!

Jesus! Freya, can we please just, you and I just...

Oh, a bit of a temperature drop. Is everything all right?

Yeah, why don't you take a look

at who your son's been fornicating with.

Yeah, Levi and Jo.

We saw that coming a mile off, didn't we?

Thank you so much for having me.

Freya, please, it's not a big deal, it's just...

It is a big deal. You've been lying to me this entire time.

No, I haven't, I've just... Yeah...

I didn't know what it was. I love her!

God! I love you, Jo. Shut up!

Come on, what's wrong with that? I'm just... Oh, my God!

Come on! That... I'm expressing myself. Please, Freya.

No, this is classic you, isn't it?

You played it like you're here to help but YOU needed me.

Yeah, if I didn't need you right now, I'd tell you to fuck off.

Freya, it's not her fault.

Oh, now you want to talk to me?

Listen to me, don't worry about them, they just need time.

I can't believe I stuck around here for so fucking long.

Hey.

You can come and stay with me. Where?

Mummy's couch or Daddy's truck?

Er...

I meant what I said downstairs. I love you.

I can't do this right now. Ah, OK.

HE CLEARS HIS THROAT

Freya, can we talk?

I need to pee. Yep.

Freya...

Jo, let's leave.

What?

Yeah, now, let's go.

Wait, what...? What are you talking about?

My relationship with Abe, it's not going to work.

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, no. Freya, stop.

You need to stay here. This is good.

I'm not asking for your opinion. I'm asking for your help.

I know you always have an escape plan, an emergency parachute,

so let's go.

Freya, I was wrong about you and Abe. You should stay.

You worked so fucking hard for this, you deserve this.

TRICKLING

Are you in love with Levi?

It's been a really long day.

OK? Let's just...

Let's just reassess in the morning.

OK?

OK?

OK.

Can you come back in 20 minutes to help me get ready for bed?

SHE SIGHS

KNOCKING

Knock, knock!

Hello-oo!

Ty? What are you doing here?

What do you mean? Jo called me.

Said she doesn't work here any more.

What?

Home, sweet home.

So what have I missed?

Where's Daddy?

gone, gone, yeah

gone, gone, gone, yeah