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- What do you make of this?

Primi?

They're here for Jesus of Nazareth.

-It is understandable.

- You don't think this poses a problem

to the order of law?

- Uh, yes, sir.

I only meant--

- Quintus is going to come out of his sandals

when he sees this.

Something in your personal life?

- No, sir.

I am fit for duty, Sir.

- That's fine.

You know, secrets-- like murders--

Eventually become known...

...eventually.

You ought to be the first to let Quintus know

about his new shanty town, yeah?

Come.

- It's a concern, don't you think?

- Very concerning.

- That's what I thought.

- What are you doing?

- They can't have a fire so close to a canvas structure.

It's Capernaum law.

- Since when do you care about the law?

- If they keep it, it draws Roman attention

and it will put Him at risk.

- What are you going to do?

- Tell them no fires.

- Have it your way.

- Excuse me!

- There's no room here.

- No fires fewer than 9 cubits

from a canvas structure.

It's a hazard.

- But that would put it within 9 cubits of that tent.

- Then you are going to have to figure something out.

We can't have trouble.

- Who's "we"?

- Are you one of His disciples?

- Where is He in Capernaum?

- Who said He's in Capernaum?

- That's why we're all here!

- When will His next sermon be?

We have to hear it.

He's The One, isn't He?

- He didn't say that on the Mount.

- But it has to be true.

- Why did He not speak of overthrowing Rome?

- Okay.

- How is fire patrol working for you?

- These crowds are going to be difficult to handle.

- Hard for us, yes.

Jesus can handle Himself.

He wants the crowds.

- There's too many people.

- Too many to go around

telling people how to make dinner.

You have to pick your battles, my friend.

This is good, thank you.

- Not really.

Our current batch isn't very good.

- I've been traveling and haven't had good wine,

so this is fine.

- How were your travels?

We'd love to hear more about them.

- They were good, thank you.

- Are you sure?

You've lost weight; have you been eating enough?

-Um... I used to eat too much.

- No, you didn't,

you looked healthy when I saw you,

I hope you are still--

- Elli, he said he was good.

- I like your beard.

- Mm, thank you.

- How did you handle sleeping outside?

- I'm better at it now.

I am proficient at making a tent,

and I've also learned how to strip bark for dry wood.

Philip is my friend.

- You have a friend?

- Yesterday, my Rabbi said

that every time we pray to God,

we must ask Him to forgive us our debts.

And... I recognize that I...

owe quite a debt to you.

- Matthew, you don't owe us any money--

- The debt isn't material.

I hurt you...

and I hurt our community.

And my Rabbi also said

that before we lay a sacrifice at the altar,

if we know a brother has an offense against us,

we should leave the sacrifice there

and go be reconciled.

Of course, only priests lay gifts at the altar,

and you are not my brother,

but this example is in many ways a metaphor,

which I am learning--

- Yes, Matthew, we get it.

Move on.

- I never understood why I was so different

from everyone else.

I just wanted a comfortable life.

- You wanted to be better than everybody.

- Alphaeus--

- No, you are right.

And I loved affluence because of it.

I was comfortable behind bars in a booth

and an armed escort.

Behind a gold door.

All the while you were scorned at synagogue.

You lost your reputation and friends.

I shamed our family.

I turned my back on our people,

and I believed the choices I made

were better for me

and more important than my family and faith.

That was selfish.

Which is wrong.

I didn't understand that then, but I do now,

and I'm sorry.

I wish I could take back the harm I caused you.

I--

- All right, all right.

Shhh... shhh.

- I will search for something I can do to atone.

- Matthew, sit down.

- I'd prefer to stand.

- Please.

- I don't deserve the courtesy--

- You're not the only one who must atone.

Are you hungry?

I lost my business because of you.

And you are correct,

we lost our reputations and friends.

- I know.

- But I had no right to reject you as my son.

God should strike me down for the things I said to you.

I was shameful!!

Can you forgive me?

I only made things worse.

I'm... sorry.

- We're sorry.

- But what-- but what has changed?

I sinned...

- We saw Him, too, Matthew.

We heard His sermon.

- He is the Teacher you are following?

- Yes, He called me and I--

- Then you have already atoned.

They were the most true words I've ever heard.

Some of it shocking.

- I know, I wrote it all down.

- You are His scribe?!!!

- Yes.

- You will redeem our family's name.

- Matthew, He chose you!

- To this day I don't know why.

- You say you always felt different from other people,

and you are.

You were set aside for something special.

- Thank you.

- Thank you, Eema.

Say it.

- Say it.

- Thank you... Eema.

- Alphaeus.

- What?

- Forgive him.

- I did.

- No, you didn't.

You must say it.

- I forgive you, son.

- Thank you.

- Thank you, Abba.

- Thank you, Abba.

- How long are you in Capernaum?

- I don't know.

But I promise to make amends as long as I'm here.

- You have.

- Aha!

Wait right here.

I'm glad I didn't throw this away.

- I will never live in that home again.

- So what?

Give it away.

Tear it down.

Burn it, if you want.

- Why would I do that?

- You'll find something to do with it.

Till then...

you can take any floor in the house.

- Hmm.

Come.

What color does that look like to you?!

And you!

Is it supposed to look like that?!

Drink it!

DRINK IT!!

- Bureaucrats.

Quintus!

My old friend.

Oh, are you busy?

- Fix... the water!

Fix the water, Octavius!

If I see another drop of sewage in my water,

I will personally drown you in it!

So help me, Apollo, Octavius,

you will gargle sewage.

- Vivid.

I think-- I think he gets it.

You got that, right?

He's gonna drown you in the, um... well, you know.

I will find the breach...

Dominus.

- I will oversee the project, Praetor.

- You do that.

Brown water make you deaf?

Go! Do it now!

You can watch the talent leave their bodies

when they arrive from Rome.

You can keep time by it.

- Good help.

- It's these people!

This land.

It's going to force me to do something drastic.

- Work?

- I'm capable of anything.

Hail Caesar.

Now...

what do you want?

- Yes, Praetor.

Just beyond the western perimeter of the city,

a camp has sprung up.

- So send them on their way.

They are pilgrims, Dominus.

- Pilgrims to what?

- To whom.

Jesus of Nazareth.

- Ugh.

- He delivered the sermon on the Korazim Plateau.

- Stop.

He delivered it?

You're just telling me now?

- And then He's building a hut.

And now He's relieving Himself.

Quintus, neither Gaius, nor myself

have that many hours in the day.

- Don't speak for the men in my command.

Please.

This feels a little more significant

than relieving Himself.

Gaius, what was said?

- It sounded like any other sermon, Dominus.

- Is that what you heard, Cohortes?

Just any old sermon?

- Well, now, I haven't heard that many.

Uh, let's see...

lengthy instructions about, what was it?

Something about animal hooves?

Always read from right to left.

Jewish stuff.

If it was so boring,

why didn't they stay on the plateau?

Did Jesus lead them here?

- No, Dominus.

No one knows where Jesus is...

but many of His followers reside in the city.

- Was our former tax collector there?

- Matthew?

Yes.

- Well, who cares anyway?

Just get rid of them.

- Dominus?

- Pack them up.

Force them out!

We are still Rome!

- Or... you could turn them into revenue.

- How?

- Redraw the city boundary

to encompass the squatters.

- Hmm...

they're not currently on our census.

- All the better for you.

They're not paying taxes wherever they came from,

which means other praetors--

- Ledgers are down, I get it.

- The pilgrims have been peaceful to this point.

I cannot say how they will respond to being taxed.

- You better get some rest then, Gaius.

My plan is to redraw the city lines,

and redraw them fast.

We're behind this month, shhh.

- There he is.

It is a good plan, Quintus.

But...

as you carry it out,

you may want to consider your future.

- My future?

Don't be coy.

- As you well know,

the empire is always concerned with order.

- Of course.

- The governors are under increasing pressure

not to overuse force on the citizenry.

- Pressure from Caesar?

Hail.

Fine.

Gaius, I need you to do your job

without leaving marks.

- I will instruct the men, Dominus.

- How about you, Cohortes?

Will you be moving along soon?

- Yeah, I will be headed to Jerusalem soon.

- Ahh.

Delightful place.

- I owe Pilate a visit.

So much to catch up on.

- Wonderful.

- Eema, what if you sewed a little pouch

on the inside of our belts?

It could be for raisins,

like for an emergency stash.

- I spent so many nights

dreaming about those little squares, Eema.

Your cinnamon and fig ones.

Mm-mm-mm.

- I will load you boys up like pack mules.

You will not go hungry on the road again.

You, you, you.

- Thomas...

taste this.

- What is it?

- Do you think I would poison you?

- Olive ail.

- Go on.

- Really good.

- And he knows a lot about flavor,

from the wine business!

- So, what is the point of all of this?

- I made it!

I traded one of the guys at the dock for a little press.

I can only make a few vials at a time.

- What for?

- It's a ceremonial press.

But it's also delicious.

- Your Abba is very good at making oil.

- I love doing it.

- Uh, there's none left!

- I think I'm gonna ask Ramah to marry me.

- I knew it!

- There we go, huh?!

- You're going to make a fine husband.

- Hey, I'd marry you.

- Do your fathers know each other?

- My father is dead.

- I'm sorry to hear that.

- May he rest in peace.

- Oh, got an older brother?

No.

- Then who can arrange?

- Her father is aware of my intentions.

- It's not unheard of.

Samson chose his own wife.

- Not exactly the model Israelite.

- David chose Abigail.

- Also not the best example.

- Boys, give the man a chance.

- Have you spoken with your Rabbi about this?

- The next time I see Him,

I'll share my intentions.

I've searched my heart and I know it's right.

Jesus will make it work.

- Are you going to be here the whole time I do this?

- Yes.

- Good.

- Boys?!

Sorry. Sorry.

- You've trained them.

- Well, your cooking is a powerful incentive.

If they want to eat,

they will stay in their room quietly.

Okay, we're quiet now.

Sorry.

- Won't they get bored?

- Well, they both have so much to study.

- Ahhh... and you don't?

- Of course I do.

But, you know, I think you could help me.

- Oh, really?

- Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Let's uh... let's study.

Come on, yeah.

- Uh-huh.

- I have much to learn.

- You! Is that fermented liquid?

- What, this?

- No wine on public property.

Only in your private home or tavern.

- This is my home.

- Primi?

- Let them have it.

So he should duck inside, drink it and come back out?

What difference would that make?

- Yes, Primi.

How are we going to redraw the city limits

when they keep arriving in such numbers?

You'll have to do it over and over again

to encompass them all.

Gaius?

- I heard you, Julius.

I think tonight my time

would be better spent elsewhere.

You will finish the evening rounds,

enforce protocol-- patiently--

And give me a full report in the morning.

Lose something?

Shhh.

- What do you want?

- I'm just hunting.

- Hunting what?

- You were behind a plot to murder

the Roman Magistrate in Jerusalem.

- And you were there in the desert,

at the city's gates.

Why did you let me get into Jerusalem

in the first place?

- You know the answer to that.

- You thought you were good enough to stop me.

- I liked my chances.

But we'll never know.

Something... unexpected happened.

- A miracle.

- Yeah, if you say so.

What is He, Simon?

Relax, zealot,

or whatever it is you are now.

I'm just... interested to see what happens next.

- So... if I turn and walk away right now,

you won't put a knife in my back?

- I could've done that anywhere.

- How do you know I won't kill you?

- Because your dagger

is at the bottom of the Jordan River,

right where He threw it.

So, there's that.

It does leave you defenseless, though,

and that's bad for you.

- But you just said--

- I didn't chase you up here, Simon.

You left some very dangerous men in the lurch.

- The Order is here?

- Oh, you're surprised?

- They won't quit.

- Then one of us has to make them.

- I'm leaving Capernaum for a while.

- They had better follow.

If they stay in Capernaum,

I'll be forced to clean up your mess.

Can't have zealots in a Roman town.

- Others will come for me.

- Now you're getting it.

Who knows?

Maybe they'll see your Messiah and come to believe.

What?

- We're zealots, man.

- Then what are you doing on a rooftop,

chatting with a Roman?

Sorry, Simon.

You were a zealot.

Now you're a traitor.

And they won't stop.

- I can't believe I have you back.

- Here I am... where I'll always be.

- When you were gone this time,

I had moments of feeling...

- Feeling what?

Lost...

I don't know what to call them.

- What did they feel like?

- I was angry...

sad--

- Oh, love.

You know I'm with Jesus.

We both are.

Do you remember what He told you?

- I always remember that.

It's what gets me through the days.

- He sees you.

- I know.

I think about that moment so often.

But sometimes, in the memory,

I forget what His face looks like.

- What do you mean?

- Haven't you ever been separated from someone

and you can't recall their face after a while.

- Do you forget my face?

- What?

- No, I don't forget your face.

Things are so good now.

- Yeah.

We just have to spend more time together.

- Mm-hmm.

- You know, I think Jesus has work to do here.

And I've been thinking about our family.

- Well, Eema is healthy and my brothers are fishing--

- No, no, no, no...

our family.

It's time.

- We are really low on food.

And money.

- We'll be moved into Matthew's home by erev shabbat.

Former home.

He's sharing all the details with the boys today.

- Where is Matthew going to stay?

- I hope with his family.

He wants a fresh start.

- You would understand all about that.

- In any case, with no food,

we'll have less to carry.

- But, we are still low on money.

- Well, maybe you could, uh...

sell some of your jewelry?

- It's that... it's all very personal.

- Every single piece?

- I said "all."

- We've each given up some of our personal lives

to follow Jesus.

- I gave up a name.

- But we each gained so much.

Thomas says Zebedee is making olive oil now;

that maybe we could take part in turning it into a business.

- I wonder if it could be sold as anointing oil.

- Holy anointing oil Is very specific.

It's laid out in the Books of Moses.

- It's not just olive oil?

Wait, you made it through Moses?

- You talked to Thomas?

- Ahh... it is oil,

with spices mixed in.

We use them in some of our wines--

Cinnamon, cassia, and some other things.

We would buy from the same vendors

as the priests.

- Thomas would know how to get them.

I think Thomas has other things on his mind.

- The ministry is demanding.

- Do not misunderstand, Ramah.

Thomas is a very dedicated student.

- And a hard worker.

- Yes, Thomas is a very hard worker.

And smart.

And very dedicated.

Maybe a little distracted.

- What are you saying, Tamar?

- All right, let's all stop dancing around this

and call it what it is.

- Thank you.

- His dedication to you was obvious

the moment I saw you both at the wedding.

- Oh, I was very stressed at that wedding.

- It wasn't a "concerned for your stress" look.

Well, it was, but--

-You are in love with him, Ramah.

That's... not how it works with our people.

Um, you're a Gentile, so maybe you don't understand, but...

love comes from marriage.

- Jews, Gentiles, love is love.

- In our tradition,

marriages are arranged by fathers,

that's all she's saying.

Where you come from, do people--

- I'd rather not talk about where I'm from

if that's okay.

- Of course.

Thomas's feelings toward you are as plain as day.

Painfully obvious.

And... from what we've heard,

he may be wanting to make it permanent very soon.

- What we are asking is...

would you want to?

- Uh, oh...

it's--it's complicated with my father,

and--and considering-- considering our circumstances,

it just wouldn't be very traditional;

but, um...

yes, if my father approved,

I would be very fortunate.

- Hmm.

Is that the Jewish way of saying that you love him

and are excited?

- Wait, what was it that you heard about "very soon?"

- Did I say that?

Hmm.

Well, I'm sure by now

most of you are aware of the tent village

that is rapidly growing east of Capernaum.

Those are people who followed us from the Mount,

and who are now waiting to hear more.

Their numbers grow by the day,

as do the suspicions of Rome.

In fact, Zee informed me just this morning

that a few members of his former Order

have even journeyed here.

- It would appear as if we were building an army, Teacher.

- Well, that's one way of looking at it.

The other way to look at it is My way.

The correct way, you mean.

Yes, Simon.

Those people are like those in regions all over.

They are not an army...

not yet.

They are in need of rescue.

And you are going to help me rescue them.

Different kind of rescue, Zee.

It is not sustainable

for me to do all the preaching,

all the healing, and ministering.

I've called you to Simon's home today--

And thank you, Eden, for hosting--

Because our ministry will only grow,

and we want it to grow...

till the end of the age.

There will be many more followers,

and like those not here,

all will have roles and responsibilities.

Most will be disciples, students.

But I have chosen you twelve as my apostles.

- You're sending us?

- An apostle is the same as a messenger, one who--

- I know what it means, Matthew,

that's why I'm asking.

- You are my leaders.

And for the mission I have for you,

it's best that you spread out

and not be concentrated in one place.

- I don't understand.

- I'm going to go home to Nazareth for a time,

and while I'm there, I'm sending you out,

in every direction, two by two,

specifically to our people only.

- Every direction, Rabbi?

- Yes, but not to the Gentiles,

not yet,

that will come in time,

but to the lost sheep of the house of Israel.

Just as Joshua led the twelve tribes

to take the Promised Land.

You will proclaim, as you go--

"The kingdom of Heaven is at hand."

And while you are on this mission,

you will heal the sick and the lame

by anointing them with oil.

You will cast out demons.

You will cl--

What?

Why are you all looking at Me like that?

Um...

C-Could you just repeat that one more time?

- I am sending you out, two by two,

proclaiming as you go--

"The kingdom of Heaven is at hand."

Heal the sick,

cast out demons.

- How soon are we talking about here?

- Ah... there's that word again.

I'll get to that, Simon.

Hold on...

heal the sick?

- Cast out demons?

- While you are on this mission,

I grant you this authority.

Someday you will have it all the time.

- Was there a ceremony I missed?

- This is it.

- I don't feel any different.

- I don't need you to feel anything

to do great things.

- With all due respect, Rabbi,

we've only just begun as students,

we're not nearly qualified enough.

Why would you need us for this work?

- He doesn't need us, He wants us.

Thank you, Zee.

Very good.

John, if I needed religious leaders or qualified students

for My ministry,

I wouldn't have chosen--

Well, you get the point.

- Can we get back to the part about the healing the sick

for one second?

- You will take nothing for your journey

except a staff--

No bread, no bag, no money.

Not even Salome's food.

Wear sandals and do not bring an extra tunic.

- We can't even bring a change of clothes?

- Even the wandering Cynic philosophers

carry a second tunic.

- Yes, they do,

and I'd like to distinguish you from the Cynics.

They also carry beggars' bags

for people to put gold and silver coins into,

and you will not do that.

You received without paying,

now give without pay.

Whatever town or village you enter,

find out who is worthy in it

and stay there until you depart.

And if anyone should not receive you

or listen to your words,

shake the dust off your feet

as you leave that house or town.

Do not waste your time.

- You said if anyone will not listen to our words...

What words exactly?

What are we supposed to teach?

- Anything you've ever heard from Me.

I've only ever heard the one Sermon.

- You heard the best one anyway.

I mean, don't get me wrong,

they're all so good.

- Uh-huh.

That message was not just for the thousands

that were there.

It was for all who will hear it

from now until the end of the age.

How will they know it, you ask?

Good question, thanks for asking.

You will tell them.

And the places you will go

are places I will soon go,

So you are preparing the way for My arrival

and helping ensure

that more people are ready to hear the good news.

The miracles you'll perform on God's authority

will prove My ministry.

Suppose we hit a bad streak,

and several towns in a row reject us,

maybe for days--

How are we to eat?

What if it gets bad, like...

like it has with John?

- Listen carefully, all of you...

do not fear those who kill the body

but cannot kill the soul.

- So... You're saying we could die.

- There will come a time

when this will become far more difficult;

when persecution is an ever-present part

of your ministry.

When that time comes,

you will follow in My footsteps,

and you will know what it actually means

to give up your life.

I have more to teach you about that.

In the meantime,

this journey will not come to that.

- Rabbi, I have a concern--

You said You are sending us out two by two.

- Yes, the women will stay here in Capernaum.

They will help support the ministry financially.

They will also minister to the tent city

outside the city walls,

and Zebedee will be responsible for their safety.

Matthew has also selflessly donated

the use of his previous home,

which will serve as the new place for them to stay.

I still can't understand this.

You want us to go out there,

no defenses, no food, no shelter...

just go out into strange lands--

- He said not to be afraid.

- Fear's not a thing you just stop, Andrew.

- I'm going with Zee then.

- I may be the most at risk of all of us.

- Great.

- What ever happened to trust?

- Everybody calm down!

If you have a real question, ask it one at a time.

- I have a question.

- That was fast.

More of a concern, actually.

I know I'm new,

but Rabbi,

I'd like to return to what You were saying

about not bringing food or clothes

and relying on those we minister to.

Forgive me... but we cannot rely on everyone equally.

I've developed some ideas on ways we can generate income

to sustain our ministry in a reliable way.

I appreciate that, Judas...

I do.

But for this journey, at least,

I want you to learn what it means

to fully rely on your Father in heaven,

as well as those around you

and for those whom you serve.

And for food, Big James...

and for your life, John...

this is what it means to follow,

and to lead.

Teacher, even if not for this journey,

now would be a good time to assign someone

to manage the few resources we do have,

or anything we do bring back.

- Do you have someone in mind?

- I nominate Matthew,

he's obviously the most experienced

of any of us.

- Believe it or not, I agree that would be prudent.

- I'm sorry, I'm not comfortable

dealing with money again.

I formally decline.

- A simple "no" would have been fine.

- Then, no.

I nominate Judas.

His experience would suit us better.

- Uh...

I accept.

Anything to help.

- Done.

- All right... pairing up.

Simon and Judas-- North to Caesarea Philippi.

Andrew and Philip-- East to Naveh.

Nathanael and Thad-- South to Perea.

John and Thomas-- Southwest to Joppa.

Hmm?

- Big James and Little James.

- For real?

- Come on,

they can make it a thing.

Humor disarms people.

West to the Plains of Sharon.

Matthew and Zee...

- What?

- Rabbi, are You sure about that?

A zealot and... you know...?

- All the way down to Jericho.

I know it's near Samaria.

You'll be fine.

Zee, everyone is reacting to the notion of you

traveling with a tax collector.

- What?

We have not told you

about Matthew's former occupation.

- He's a tax collector?

- He's no more a tax collector

than you are a zealot.

Listen to me.

None of you is what you were.

Remember that, all of you.

And Zee,

you and Matthew will be able to remember that

better than anyone else.

I am confident that the two of you

will do and say great things

because of your pasts.

I know I can count on you.

So, that's it.

You all have a lot to take in.

Take a day to handle what you need to handle.

There'll be a few more details tomorrow.

I'll have Simon reach out.

Shalom, friends.

Shalom.

- Yes.

- Eden, this doesn't change our family plans,

I don't have to be--

- Not now.

- I can talk to Rabbi, He can shorten my trip.

- Do not say anything to Him,

I'll be fine, I just need a minute.

- Rabbi?

- Yes, Thomas?

-I am...

I thank You for believing in me.

- Of course.

I do.

- It's just that I wanted to ask--

I wanted Your blessing to ask...

for Ramah's hand.

- Ahhh.

Did you hear in what direction I'm sending you?

- Southwest, but...

Kafni lives in the Southwest.

Yes, he does.

You will complete your mission with John.

After, you may visit Kafni

and complete the second part of your mission.

- Really?

- Last I heard, Kafni was not a believer.

So, maybe while you're making a pitch for yourself

you can put in a good word for Me.

- Thank you.

- Of course.

- Ramah?

- Hi.

- Um... what, uh, what are you doing here?

- Oh, is this a bad time?

- No!

I mean no.

Actually, I was coming to find you.

I've been assigned a mission.

- What kind of mission?

- Well, you're going to hear about it from the others

but I wanted to tell you myself--

- You're going to ask my father for permission to...

you know...

- Uh...

Uh... oh...

have I been so obvious?

- Um, yes.

And I can only play dumb for so long.

- I know I'm supposed to be modest...

but being around you doesn't make that easy.

- Yes, it's gotten a bit more difficult for me as well.

- But why are you here right now?

It's not like I'm leaving today.

- I didn't know when you might be leaving,

and I know it's wrong for me to get involved in this,

but I know my father, and I should go, too.

- But this mission comes first, and--

- I'll wait.

- Jesus knows my intentions.

He's sending John and I to the Southwest

to spread His word.

- Ah, uh...

so you'll be near Tel Dor.

- Mm-hmm.

- Then I will travel and wait for you there.

- Won't that upset your work here?

- I'll spread His message everywhere I go,

to anyone who'll listen.

And, besides, my father is not yet a believer.

- That's what Jesus said.

- I guess we both have our work cut out for us.

- Ramah, I am willing to do this on my own

and follow our customs.

- I know... but this is different.

Everything about it has been.

And, besides,

I want your visit to be successful.

I will see you in Joppa.

- Master?

- Little James.

- May I have a moment?

- Of course.

1, uh...

Forgive me, I'm, uh...

not always confident to speak.

- Slow to speak; that's a very good quality.

- I wanted to ask you a question.

- Please.

- You are sending us out

with the ability to heal the sick and lame...

yes, that is what You said?

- Yes.

- So, You're telling me

that I have the ability to heal?

Forgive me, I just...

find that difficult to imagine with my condition...

which You haven't healed.

- Do you want to be healed?

- Yes, of course, if that's possible...

- I think you've seen enough to know it's possible.

- Then why haven't You?

- Because I trust you.

- What?

- Little James...

precious Little James.

I need you to listen to Me very carefully.

Because what I'm going to say

defines your whole life to this point

and will define the rest of your life.

Do you understand?

In the Father's will, I could heal you...

right now.

And you'd have a good story to tell, yes?

- Yes, that You do miracles.

- And that's a good story.

But there are already dozens who can tell that story,

and there will be hundreds more,

even thousands.

But think of the story that you have,

especially in this journey to come,

if I don't heal you.

To know how to proclaim that you still praise God

in spite of this;

to know how to focus on all that matters

So much more than the body;

to show people

that you can be patient with your suffering

here on earth,

because you know you'll spend eternity

with no suffering.

Not everyone can understand that.

How many people do you think

the Father and I trust this with, hmm?

Not many.

But the others, they're so much more...

- So much more what?

- I don't know, stronger?

Better at this?

- James, I love you,

but I don't want to hear that ever again.

- I know how easy it is to say the song of David,

that "I'm fearfully and wonderfully made,"

but it doesn't make this any easier.

And in this group...

it doesn't make me feel like any less of a burden.

- A burden?

First of all,

it is far easier to deal with your slow walking

than it is to deal with Simon's temper; trust me.

Are you fast?

Do you look impressive when you walk?

Maybe not.

But these are things the Father doesn't care about.

You are going to do more for Me

than most people ever dream.

So many people need healing in order to believe in Me,

or they need healing because their hearts are so sick.

That doesn't apply to you.

And many are healed, or not healed,

because the Father in heaven has a plan for them

which may be a mystery.

And we remember what Job said...

"The Lord gives, and the Lord takes away--"

"--blessed be the name of the Lord."

When you pass from this earth

and you meet your Father in heaven,

where Isaiah promises you will leap like a deer,

Your reward will be great.

So, hold on a little longer,

and when you discover yourself

finding true strength because of your weakness,

and when you do great things in My name

in spite of this...

the impact will last for generations.

Do you understand?

- Yes.

Thank you, Master.

- A man like you healing others...

Oh... what a sight!

I can't wait to hear your stories when you return.

Shalom, My son.

- Shalom.

- And, James...

remember...

you will be healed.

It's only a matter of time.

Hmm?

- Yeah.

- Shalom, My son.

- Shalom. {sniffs]

Unh!

Gaius... hello.

- Hello, Matthew.

Um... Sh-shalom.

- Shalom.

- Did I say it wrong?

- No, no, no, I just...

I didn't expect to see you here.

- Yeah, well, I'm stationed here.

Um... are you moving back in?

- No... no, I cannot live here any more.

- Nobody wants the best house on the block?

- It will be used for the ministry.

- By friends of yours?

- I suppose they are my friends, yes.

I doubt the neighbors will like it.

- As long as order is kept.

And if they're friends of yours, I'll make sure--

Uh, we patrol the area regularly,

for your safety and for the general peace.

- Are you well?

- Never better.

Yourself?

- It's okay, Gaius.

They're just here to eat.

Many of us will leave Capernaum

for missionary work.

- For how long?

- We don't--

It will be dangerous.

I must go now, Gaius.

- Trust your wits, Matthew.

I will see you around.

- Welcome to my home that I no longer live in.

Oh.

- Can I say the hard part first?

This might be the last time we're all together...

for a while.

What's the easy part?

- Who said there was an easy part?

I just held my wife

as she tried to accept the idea

that I will be the one making Pharisees and Romans upset

the way Jesus does.

It scares her.

- But not you?

- Of course it does.

- The unknowns are overwhelming.

- Are we ready?

- I'm terrified.

- I am not afraid.

- Except for Zee who is never afraid of anything.

Philip, you've done this kind of thing before,

do you have any thoughts?

- Whew... well, I've done a little preaching,

but I've never done anything like this.

All I can say is that...

it's scary when you upset powerful people...

but it's worth it.

- This is what we signed up for.

We, uh, may not have known it at the time but...

we go where He sends us.

- Look, Master has told us what to do.

We've seen how He does it,

so we have what we need.

Whoever you go with, let's stay strong together.

I'm sure He put us with our partners for a reason.

Let's make the most of it.

Let's gather around.

Come on, stand next to your partner.

Will you be okay with a former tax collector...

former zealot?

I probably couldn't do it myself,

but Master knows you're a better man than I am.

Can I trust you?

You'll be fine.

Come on... all of us.

Matthew, I know you hate it, but you too.

When I was with Eden, a psalm of David came to mind.

The one when he fled from Absalom.

I shared it with Eden as a reminder

because she was fearful.

I think we need it, too.

"O Lord, how many are my foes.

"Many are rising against me--

"Many are saying of my soul,

"there is no salvation for him in God.

"But You, O Lord, are a shield about me.

"My glory, and the lifter of my head.

"I cried aloud to the Lord,

"and He answered me from His holy hill.

"I lay down and slept.

"I will not be afraid of the many thousands of people

"who have set themselves against me all around.

"Arise, O Lord,

"save me, O my God,

"for you strike all my enemies on the cheek.

"You break the teeth of the wicked.

"Salvation belongs to the Lord.

Your blessing be on Your people."