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When I found out that it wasn't just me

and that he got away with this, your blood boils.

Jeffrey Epstein is gonna get away

with molesting me and all my friends,

and the government's cosigning it.

It's scary.

When you look at the evidence,

it's utterly damning.

And then, in 2006, the federal authorities

in Florida begin an investigation

into Jeffrey Epstein.

They were expanding it beyond Florida.

They were looking at his properties

in New York and elsewhere.

They were starting to really get into who this guy was,

where his investments were, what he was doing.

Who really was Jeffrey Epstein?

Truth is stranger than fiction in this case.

I mean, we're talking about hundreds of girls

being victimized, which was really

just astonishing to me...

that this had gone on for so long

and that there had been so many people involved.

As attorneys who represent the victims,

we were really trying to expose the scheme,

and we were using Virginia's voice to be able to do that.

The recruitment process was never-ending,

so it wasn't like he was finally set up.

He's got his five girls here,

there, there, and there and there.

And so you were forced to try to bring other girls in.

I call it a pyramid scheme.

"A" would talk to B, B would talk to C

so on and so forth.

And these girls, that's how it worked down the line.

Jeffrey had a particularly elaborate seduction system.

He had women around him that he trained

to understand what he was looking for.

They would find young potential victims

who were malleable, who had some level of need

or some level of naiveté about them.

I grew up in Dayton, Ohio,

surrounded by cornfields and woods

that I often played in.

Growing up, I always was into healing,

and my dad was a dentist.

My mom was a teacher, and I've always had

a mission to help others,

and since I was a kid, I've also had this dream

about going to California.

So when I was 22 years old,

I chose a massage therapy school

in California and went.

I was very excited and just ready

to take on the world.

One day, I was approached by a student

further along in the program, and she asked me

if I would be interested in learning about

a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity

to be a traveling massage therapist.

I was excited, and I told her yes.

The next person that I was in contact with

was Sarah Kellen.

Sarah Kellen was one of the main recruiters

for Epstein.

Someone who approached girls, rounded up girls,

and also did logistics.

The pyramid scheme started

with Ghislaine Maxwell and Sarah Kellen.

Sarah was so successful in bringing girls in.

She's telling you,

"You're gonna get a really amazing job.

"This is gonna be life-changing for you.

This is gonna be amazing."

Sarah and I met at the Santa Monica Beach.

I felt comfortable with her instantly.

We resembled one another as far as age and hair color

and even just body type.

I kind of felt like, wow, she's kind of just like me.

Sarah's telling me about the position.

She had been this personal massage therapist

traveling the world for the last several years.

She said, "You'll be filling my place."

She said, "Imagine the most grand,

most amazing, incredible life you could want,"

and she stopped speaking,

and I took a couple moments thinking about that

and creating that image in my mind.

She's like, "Teresa, it is so much more

than you could ever, ever imagine."

Sarah referred to Ms. Maxwell who would be hiring me

for the position,

and the next steps are for me to fly

to New York City to meet Ms. Maxwell.

I thought that this was the opportunity of a lifetime.

This was going to allow me to see my dreams.

I arrive in New York City, and I go meet with Ms. Maxwell

to give a massage.

I felt quite comfortable with her.

There was a point where she fell asleep

during the massage, so I felt, like, wow,

this is really going well.

After the massage, she told me that I was going to go

meet her partner, Jeffrey,

to continue with the interview,

and that was the very first time

I had heard his name.

She said to me,

"Make sure you give Jeffrey what he wants.

Jeffrey always gets what he wants."

The entire operation, from start to finish,

was very calculated.

Before any individual ever even met Jeffrey Epstein,

she had already met three or four other people

who she felt like she trusted.

They were totally out of their element.

They didn't know what the rules were for this world,

so to have someone saying,

"These are the rules," effectively,

"This is normal. This is how things are."

That's incredible powerful as a tool of manipulation,

and I think Ghislaine was essential

in fulfilling that role.

I went to Jeffrey's townhouse that night

and met Jeffrey.

You walk in, and it's pretty breathtaking.

One of the first things I noticed when I walked in...

there was a butler standing there.

The coat, the tux, a silver tray in his hand.

You don't see that anywhere. You see that in a movie.

He said, "Follow me this way," and then I met Jeffrey.

He led me over to a couch, and he sat next to me.

He was asking me questions about myself and my family.

Just in the middle of conversation,

he put his foot on my lap

and asked me for a foot massage.

And as I'm doing so, he's pushing his foot

closer to my body.

He starts pushing his heel between my legs.

Then he's pressing the top of his foot...

like, literally his toes... like, into my breast.

I was so confused.

Like, what is going on right now?

None of it made sense from the massage school

to meeting Sarah to meeting Ghislaine

to now I'm here.

None of it added up.

I stood up to leave the room...

And he's following behind me, and he grabbed me

from behind, and I just completely froze.

He was just behind me, and he assaulted me

there in that hallway.

I don't know how long I was even standing there.

I ran straight to the front door,

and he's following right behind me,

and as I leave, he patted me on my butt,

and he says to me,

"Don't do anything I wouldn't do."

I felt very, you know, afraid of him.

I felt an overwhelm of shame and confusion.

For some reason, I felt like I should have known,

like, it was too good to be true.

I felt so fooled.

That individual who has been groomed

feels that they had agency

and therefore had some responsibility.

They do not understand that by the time of the big reveal,

which is the sexual assault, they were tricked.

I was targeted by the student

at the massage school.

She spotted me knowing what they wanted.

I was a human baton passed along

from one person to the next,

and it began with her at the school that day.

They knew exactly how to pull you in

to trust them.

It's a game.

It's a sick and twisted game to them,

and they felt like they were the kings and queens

of their sick domain.

The recruiting focus was constant.

Any of the individuals that you talk to

who were subjected to Ghislaine and Jeffrey

will tell you that every day they were asking

these young girls to bring in other girls.

Ghislaine was the master at that.

Jeffrey liked diversity.

He didn't want the same person over and over again,

and when you do the math, and he's requiring

a different person three times a day,

those numbers add up.

He literally ate, slept, thought...

that was all he did was abuse.

It was a revolving door of girls coming through.

- I first met Jeffrey - January of 2000.

I was working as a model.

All my friends were models and actresses.

I loved the lifestyle.

Going out, art gallery openings,

charity events.

Ghislaine I saw a lot at events.

We all kind of knew that she had

a very special relationship with Jeffrey,

and I was so fascinated with his whole world

that he lived in.

He was mysterious, he was wealthy,

and he knew all the right people.

When I would be there, he would always be talking

to the richest man in the world.

He would tell me, like, little secrets about people.

He always knew the secrets.

That was really important to him.

Jeffrey Epstein became

a spectacularly rich financial advisor.

He said at the time that he only wanted clients

who had assets worth a billion dollars or more.

Through a mutual acquaintance, Epstein meets

a genuine billionaire and arguably

the most important man in his life.

At some point in time you met and managed the money

for a fella named Leslie Wexner, correct?

Again, I would like to answer all questions...

Les Wexner was the owner of the Limited Brand,

which is Victoria's Secret,

and a very, very wealthy individual.

By 1991, Epstein had not only become

Wexner's financial advisor.

He was his only client.

What was even more bizarre was that Wexner

signed over power of attorney to Epstein.

This was essentially allowing Epstein

to do absolutely anything in relation

to his financial affairs.

And if you're thinking this is a weird arrangement,

that's because it's a very weird arrangement.

Les Wexner had bought and renovated

a house on East 71st Street,

and then the next thing we knew about this house

was that Jeffrey Epstein had moved in,

and the story going around

was that he had just given it to Jeffrey.

What is it about the relationship

between Les Wexner and Jeffrey Epstein

that would inspire him to make such an extraordinary gift?

The way Les Wexner looked at Epstein was

with, like, puppy dog eyes.

It was... I think if Epstein could love,

the only person he loved was himself and Les Wexner.

This relationship is so important

because it allows Epstein to create a fortune for himself

and it also allows him a kind of entry

into the world of modeling.

Les Wexner and Victoria's Secret

is a huge modeling connection...

something that I'm sure Jeffrey Epstein identified

from the very beginning.

One model knows a whole bunch of models.

One person gave him access to hundreds of people.

He had you introduce friends

and the friends introduce more friends.

Jeffrey would pay you if you introduced him to people.

He would say it was transactional.

That was his thing.

He really liked me, but I wasn't his type.

What he liked me for was to meet more women.

He was very specific...

young, pretty, tall, thin blondes.

He liked blondes.

I was a model in New York City,

and it was a job that I didn't think

I could ever have, and it was a job that I wanted.

And it's everything you think New York and fashion is.

It was very exciting.

I lived in a model's apartment in Midtown.

I think it was on 42nd street.

And it was a huge apartment.

Any given time, there could be three girls

or there could be 20 girls.

We were all about the same age,

and we were in the city by ourselves, you know,

some of us for the first time.

The modeling industry was a clear, easy target

for Jeffrey Epstein.

You had young, ambitious, beautiful women

coming to New York from all over the world,

dying to make it.

They want to be the next big model

more than anything they've ever wanted,

and Jeffrey Epstein

promised to make their dreams come true.

Jeffrey was very powerful.

As a model, I was doing really well,

but I wanted to be a Ford model,

so I had told Jeffrey, and he said,

"Oh, I know the owner," and he called up,

and, like, within a few days, I went and met with them,

and they said, "Oh, we love Jeffrey,"

of course, and they signed me right up.

He would manipulate you in any way that he could

for whatever you wanted to get more women.

I'll make this happen for you if you do what I want.

He used people for what they were good at,

and that's it.

I'm sure he had the same kind of relationship with men.

He took whatever somebody had to offer

whether it was money, whether it was an idea,

whether it was an opportunity.

Whatever that person had to offer,

Jeffrey Epstein took it.

Jean-Luc Brunel is a French model scout.

He's someone who rose to the top

of the modeling profession and had a terrible reputation

for harassing and trying to sleep with his models.

He met Ghislaine in the '80s, and she introduced him

to Jeffrey Epstein in the '90s.

Brunel was another central figure

in this operation.

They ultimately decide to go into business

with one another.

Jeffrey Epstein is here

with an unlimited amount of money,

and Jean-Luc Brunel is over here

with unlimited access to young women

that are in the modeling industry.

It was really the perfect storm.

Jean-Luc Brunel was the owner

of the agency I modeled with.

I had the impression that he was kind of...

he could make or break a girl's career.

I was warned by a few models... stay away from him.

It's easy to capitalize on the inherent exploitation

that comes with being a model.

It is very common practice, if you're doing a runway show,

to get undressed very quickly in front of other people,

and you're desensitized to it because that's what you do,

you know, to get the job done.

It puts very vulnerable women

that are very young in a position

where they can't say no.

You have no choice but to submit, to say yes,

in order to further your career.

As a kid, what I would daydream about

was being a model.

I remember my room.

My walls were covered with ad campaigns

and pictures of models.

It just seemed so glamorous.

My parents took photos in the backyard

and sent them to several agencies.

Summer after I signed, I went by myself to New York.

I grew up in rural Alaska.

It was a very unusual place to grow up.

There's not many people there.

It's mostly surrounded by nature,

and comforts don't come easy.

Like, running water.

We had an outhouse for a little while.

So when I left, I was definitely very naive.

My cousin was living in San Francisco,

and so I just thought it was an opportunity

to go down there and just dip my toe

into what life was like in the city.

I must have been shy of my 19th birthday.

I had lived with her just for a couple months

before I was scouted to be a model

and moved to New York City.

Jeffrey Epstein particularly targeted models.

If you come to New York City and you want to be a model,

being given an opportunity to meet a very powerful,

very wealthy man who has connections...

that's an opportunity that you wanna take.

I was 19.

I was in New York on my own, which was a scary place,

but I knew that I could do it.

They had me cut my hair

really short like "Rosemary's Baby,"

and it looked horrible.

After that, they let me go.

I had no money, and so I started working

at The Coffee Shop as a hostess.

The Coffee Shop was kind of a legendary establishment.

They hired models and actresses,

and that's when I met the recruiter.

She was a young, beautiful blonde,

and she was like, "Wow, you're really beautiful."

And she said, "I actually wanted to talk to you

about an opportunity."

She told me about this man that she worked for.

She called him her client,

and he likes to receive massages

and he'll pay you several hundred dollars

for 30 minutes.

She just kept making it seem

like a really great opportunity,

and it just kept sounding better and better.

He has ties to the fashion industry.

He's friends with a bunch of supermodels.

I said, "Well, I don't have any massage experience."

And she said, "It doesn't matter.

You know, he just likes young, pretty girls."

I was broke, and it sounded like an opportunity

where he could help me if he liked me.

I had an accident, and I had to get stitches on my chin.

They didn't think I was a viable model,

and so they kicked me out of the modeling apartment.

It was kind of, like, in survival mode.

A friend of mine at the time

said that she wanted to introduce me

to a friend of hers, that he was helping her

pursuing her passion of being an artist.

That happens every single day in New York.

It's all about meeting people and hanging out.

I really didn't think anything of it.

We took the subway to the Upper East Side.

I remember my friend saying that this guy

lived in the largest townhouse in New York.

The mansion on East 71st Street

is one of the largest private residence

in Manhattan.

Very imperial, very kind of palace-like inside.

It's like a museum,

but it was very dark and very dreary

and just had this, like, really eerie feeling.

I never got a good feeling there at all.

And apparently there was a room by the front door

with a surveillance system throughout the whole house

so that things could be monitored and recorded.

And it was monitoring everything...

bathrooms, massage rooms, everyone's room.

The entire mansion was being watched.

This mansion had dozens of rooms.

It was intended to intimidate people.

"Alice in Wonderland" is, like, how I describe it.

How do I know how to get out of that house?

That house is huge, and it's a maze.

Beneath the kind of glamour and the wealth,

there was a very dark side to this property.

Jeffrey was really particular about

who he was seen with, but he was not a very social person.

He wasn't out in front of everybody with everything.

He was very private.

Jeffrey always wanted to meet women at his house.

They always came to his house, like, behind closed doors.

The appointment was around

11:00 or 12:00 in the afternoon.

A maid answered the door.

She could barely look me in the eye.

She led me to an elevator

where we went to the second floor.

I had never seen anything like that before in my life,

so I just went and sat down and I was super nervous.

Finally, he walks in

with a towel wrapped around his body.

I didn't know where I was.

I wasn't really paying attention

walking into the house.

After the maid had shut the door,

I felt trapped.

When Jeffrey Epstein entered the room,

she knew she was trapped already.

She was terrified already.

The conversation that he started with her

was to calm her down so he could get what he wanted.

He asked me what my name was.

He asked me where I was from.

I told him I was from Texas, and he was kind of tickled

by it, but it seemed like business as usual for him.

So he laid facedown on the massage table

where I very awkwardly began to massage him.

I didn't know what I was doing,

and I was like, "This guy is gonna hate this."

He asked me to take my clothes off.

I was trembling.

I was so scared, and I took my clothes off.

He began to touch me...

aggressively.

And it quickly turned into an assault.

I distinctly remember him smiling

and enjoying the fact that he was doing

this horrible thing to me that obviously terrified me

and was violating me,

but he was somehow getting off on that.

She knew that she had

to either fight, run, or freeze.

Those are the three human responses

to that perceived sense of danger.

She froze.

Jeffrey came in, and he, like, interviews me.

"What are your interests? Where do you live?

I like to help young people. I'm helping your friend here."

And she's looking at me and looking all coy

'cause she's sitting next to me.

My friend initiated the assault,

and that continued with him participating in it as well.

It's like all of reality just kind of fell away.

I just kind of froze,

and I just complied.

They have to do literally what they have to do

to get out of the moment and keep their life intact

because the fear is at a mortal level,

and the damage of that trauma continues into their lives

from that point forward.

I had never had a sexual experience before.

I was 19, and that was my introduction

to any intimate experience.

He handed me the money, $200,

and that was it.

He left.

The maid came back a couple minutes later,

and she led me out.

I couldn't figure out what had just hap...

I was so confused.

What just happened?

I called my mom just bawling in tears.

I said, "You have to come get me now.

You have to get me. I can't be here anymore."

And I was home.

But it didn't feel like home

because I wasn't the same person anymore.

When you traditionally think of rape,

you think of someone coming in with, like, you know,

a ski mask on holding a knife to you,

tying you up, and raping you.

You don't think of manipulation.

And I remember my friend clearly saying to me,

"Oh, that was so much fun. We should do that again."

And she went on, and he really liked me...

she could tell... like she was grooming me

to go back.

After a young woman was abused by Jeffrey Epstein,

she would leave the house, and she would be called

by one of Jeffrey's assistants

and asked, "Hey, do you wanna come back again?

Mr. Epstein really liked you. He wants to see you again."

And he was able to use this process

to feel out their comfort level.

Sexual predators cast their net widely.

They have a pattern of behavior,

and a type that they're looking for.

Some of them will have enough ego strength

or something in their lives that allows them to escape,

not be swept in, and the ones that do get swept in

are the ones that have psychological,

environmental vulnerabilities.

If you're abused, if you're neglected,

and those are the individuals that he exploited.

Epstein's property portfolio

wasn't just about showing off his wealth

and being ostentatious.

It allowed him to have private bases in areas

where he could conduct his sex trafficking operation.

So having a place in Florida,

New York, Paris, in New Mexico,

gave him another layer of privacy,

another layer of secrecy

so that he could carry on what he's doing.

Jeffrey had bought this ranch in New Mexico...

And he'd named El Zorro.

Ghislaine's nickname for him at the time was Silverado.

"Silverado, Silverado, urban cowboy, desperado."

Zorro Ranch is this vast holding...

10,000 acres in southern Santa Fe County.

Part of that 10,000 acres were 1,200 state-owned land.

I'm the commissioner of public lands in New Mexico.

So if you look back in the history

of how this land was acquired by Jeffrey Epstein,

you'll see these big, political names pop up.

Jeffrey Epstein was giving contributions

not only to the top decision makers,

but at all levels of government even in the sheriff's race.

What was striking about going back

through the documents is that even after

Jeffrey Epstein was arrested, these leases were renewed

by previous commissioners.

I'm the first woman that's ever held this position,

and, to me, that's significant because I look

through a different lens than my predecessors did.

To know that people look the other way

and allowed it to continue is devastating to me.

Jeffrey Epstein essentially had an island

within the state of New Mexico.

If you talk with some of the folks who did work

during the construction, they talk about

how secretive everything was, how they had to be escorted

everywhere they went.

There are many stories about that veil of secrecy.

- Somebody like - Jeffrey Epstein...

the whole process was designed to evade detection.

Every single successful sexual predator

is successful because the way

that they manipulate,

the way that they pull the strings.

Jeffrey always wanted to meet more women.

It was always about meeting more women.

Some of them were on the level that I was on.

Some of them were on the massage level,

and I think he was testing some of them

for the deeper level that we've now come to know.

I was born in Santa Fe, New Mexico.

My parents were divorced when I was four years old.

It was a tumultuous childhood, and I was rebellious,

acting out.

Lost my virginity when I was young.

I started running away when I was 13 years old

probably seeking some attention.

As an adult, didn't really know what I wanted.

And I went to massage school.

He targeted industries in which he could use

the nature of the job to get what he wanted.

He knew that to manipulate the situation

into a sexual relationship

that he didn't have to start from square one.

He could start with a massage with touching.

You're recruited by somebody who's a real masseuse,

and it looks like there's a massage table,

and it slowly evolves.

Massage school, it was a really great

turning point in my life.

I did a lot of growing up.

I wasn't running away and on the streets

and trying to survive.

As a massage therapist, it put me

in a very positive place in my life.

During massage school, I met a massage therapist.

She had a practice, and she was contracting

other therapists to do the work for her.

She has a clientele that was a little more discerning

and that she thought that I was a good fit for it.

So she contracted me to go to Zorro Ranch.

When I first went out there, I massaged Ghislaine.

She made sure that I knew her name

and how to pronounce it correctly.

She had this teacup Yorkie.

She says, "This is Max, short for Maxwell."

And she picks him up

and smothers his face with kisses.

Ghislaine was very intimidating to me

'cause I knew we'd come from complete different worlds.

She disrobed and plopped on my table.

I was trying to cover her with the towel, you know,

and do all the proper draping techniques.

She had no modesty,

but she liked my massage.

She wanted me to come back.

Then I massaged Jeffrey.

Zorro Ranch, it's about a 40 minute drive

from Santa Fe, and it's a beautiful drive.

I was really excited.

It's very private, very secluded.

And then you drive a quarter of a mile.

You can see stables.

Then you drive two or three miles

to the main house.

It was enormous.

The massage room was in a downstairs area

with a gym and then a massage table

off to the side, and then double doors

that opened into a indoor pool.

Very luxurious. That impressed me.

These people were big, big-time.

And then he came in.

He was very intimidating to me,

but, you know, I tried to be as professional as I could.

I asked him if he had any outstanding areas

that he wanted me to work on and he said,

"We'll massage my feet,"

and then he just started asking me,

"Oh, can you do my psoas muscle?"

Which is more closer to the groin.

Before I really even had a chance

to, like, think about it,

he proceeded to...

Pleasure himself...

and before I knew it, he had already released himself.

I felt like he just disrespected my art.

I was just kind of like, "Ugh, God."

I was just like...

"He's just a rich, eccentric weirdo

and wants to do whatever he wants to do."

And...

yeah, there was... he wiped himself off,

and he said, "Okay, see you next time."

There was some events that happened

when I was, like, six years old...

childhood sexual abuse at the hands

of a teenage boy, 18 years old.

I did not speak out.

I didn't have the vocabulary for that...

But it happened again, and then the second time

it happened, it hit me harder.

It was like, "I'm not making this up.

I promise, this happened to me."

I was like, "Who's here to protect me?"

So it just was never dealt with, you know?

It was just secret upon secret upon secret.

A person who comes from a place where you were abused

by your uncle, by your stepfather,

by your mother's boyfriend,

then that's your view of the world...

that you are essentially

a body that an adult male

can use for his own pleasure.

They were called over for a massage.

It became a sexual assault. You know, what else is new?

The next time that I massaged Jeffrey,

it got a little more intense.

He started asking me to take my shirt off.

You know, he wanted me to rub oil on myself.

And I really didn't want to.

I felt pressured.

I felt, "Oh, if I don't do it,

then he's not gonna want me back."

I just allowed it to happen.

I felt shame, so much shame about it,

but there was that switch that I was able

to turn on and off.

I think that was engrained in me.

There are many different reasons

why people go back.

The one thing that they all have in common

is a really broken ego structure.

They don't have the ability to read themselves

or the situation correctly

because they've never been taught.

It was almost like I was,

like, that 6-year-old girl again.

Nobody believed me then,

but are they gonna believe me now?

So I kept it a secret.

It's like a weight that you wear your whole life

that allows you to be subjected

to more abuse.

I blamed myself for making the wrong choices,

but it's easy to be lured

by money, promises,

and to have your sense of what's right and wrong

dulled when you've got all these sparkly things

in front of you.

It's easy to be manipulated

by a very powerful man.

A number of the survivors of Jeffrey Epstein

had endured some type of sexual trauma

as children prior to ever having met him,

and that's a particular vulnerability

that can be detected by somebody

who's as masterful of a manipulator

as Jeffrey Epstein.

Jeffrey wasn't my first trafficker.

He wasn't my first abuser.

My childhood was stolen from me.

Beginning three days after my eighth birthday,

I was first sexually assaulted,

and that happened repeatedly for a long time.

I learned back then that you just kind of

suffer through it.

You suffer in silence.

Growing up with that experience,

it definitely set me up for being there

in Jeffrey's office

pretending like it's not happening.

I got to a point in life where I felt like...

This is what happens to you.

This is what you're here for.

Like, I'm that object to be used.

I came from a very unprivileged life.

Even when we were in a home,

men in and out of the house...

You know, various levels of abuse...

physically, sexually.

I was in survival mode from a very young age.

I just wanted to be away from it all.

I moved in with my cousin in Hollywood.

The transition to L.A. was complete life switch.

I was surrounded by celebrities,

models, and directors.

One of the parties I was at one night,

this man, Gypsy, comes walking up to me.

He told me that he was this massage guru to the stars.

He's drawn to my energy, but I was holding back.

You know, I had blocks.

Gypsy felt like someone who was gonna help heal me.

And I really needed it.

Through that, it became a conversation

of, well, why don't you learn the trade?

And so, one day, Gypsy had said

that he had this regular client,

a socialite from New York

and that he wanted me to meet her

and come along for the appointment.

We met her one day at the Four Seasons Hotel

in Beverly Hills.

Ghislaine was very charming.

She was talking to me so much,

asked me a gazillion questions about myself.

Sexual predators bring women into their life,

and they make them feel cared about

or beautiful or accomplished or interesting.

That positive regard is the most intoxicating thing.

She called Gypsy to ask if I would want to be hired

as a masseuse at her Palm Beach residence

for the weekend.

I wasn't even certified yet.

Gypsy was just very adamant that I should go.

He ended up convincing me that it would be okay.

I met Ghislaine

at a little private airport in Santa Monica.

Got in a jet and flew to Palm Beach.

Because I was kind of submerged

in the Hollywood scene already,

it wasn't that abnormal for people with money

to do outlandish things like that...

to hire someone and fly them somewhere.

None of it seemed out of the ordinary at first.

I felt like they thought that I was something special.

We drive to their mansion.

On the way there, she points out

that Donald Trump's a neighbor.

She says, "With my partner Jeffrey,

just do whatever he wants, and you'll be fine."

One of their assistants met me at the door...

And she led me down the hallway

to this giant bathroom

where a massage table was laid out.

I got it all set up,

and as soon as I had the sheets on the table,

This man comes waltzing into the room

and drops his robe and says, "Hi, I'm Jeffrey," and...

...gets on the table.

And sort of, like, halfway through the massage,

he flipped over onto his back and asked if I minded

if he touched himself.

You know, because I had come from a background of abuse,

when he asked me if he could touch himself,

you know, I basically just said sure,

because I didn't know what else to say or do.

I didn't know how to say no.

I didn't know how to say that I'm not okay with that.

Your brain is trying to say,

"I don't understand what happened."

You find yourself in circumstances

over and over again where the same dynamics are there,

the same circumstances there.

Reenactment is an attempt to understand

the sexual abuse,

and the reenactments tend to be

specific reproductions of that earlier event

that the mind is trying to comprehend.

Jeffrey told me to come over here,

and he pushed me down,

forced oral sex on me right there, and, um...

Part of the sexual abuse that I experienced as a kid,

a man I knew used to force oral sex on me

kind of in the same demeanor.

I would pretend like I was asleep

to make it go away in my head,

and, you know, even in that moment,

I remember the same thing.

Like, just almost pretending like I wasn't there

I was in this state of wanting to befriend the bad guy

because that's what I always did with him.

If I was on his good side, he wouldn't hurt me.

It's almost like something takes over you

inside your body... not knowing what to do

and just following through the motions.

There was no love or compassion or empathy

in that man's heart whatsoever.

My mind was just going crazy with what just happened.

There were so many questions I had in my head,

but I certainly wasn't gonna go, you know,

tell Ghislaine or the assistant.

I had that mentality of, like, you know,

if you don't talk about it, it didn't happen.

And after that encounter,

Ghislaine actually flew back to L.A.

and proceeded to book appointments with me.

I had no reason to think

that she had anything to do with anything.

I already had this feeling of not wanting to disappoint her

for whatever reason.

She invited me back out to Palm Beach again.

I thought we were staying there the weekend

like I had the first time, but they told me

that we were actually flying to his island

in the Caribbean and taking his big plane.

That was certainly shocking.

Like, I had never seen an airplane like that before.

I mean, it was like Air Force One.

Bedroom, kitchen, screen room, living, sitting area,

and I was like, "Okay, wow, this is a plane.

They got distracted by the persona

of wealth and privilege and luxuries and niceties

and look where you are

and look who you're hobnobbing with.

And that inner voice has to get loud enough

for that to be uncomfortable enough

for them to say, "Wait a minute.

"I don't think this is right.

"I gotta get the hell out of here.

I can't."

I definitely had to do some self talk...

that, "What if he tries to hurt me?"

I thought, "Well, this time I'll be better prepared,

and I'll be able to say no."

Or even, you know, I had this blind hope

that maybe he just wouldn't do it again.