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I'm so glad that the shipment came in on time.

We were running off a low incident, but Dr. Mack...

Hey, Kelly.

I thought you were going hunting.

Changed my mind.

Dumped up, grass not sweet.

I don't want to see you again.

We just saw each other an hour ago.

I missed you.

Let's go someplace.

Grace's wants some pie.

Now? Right now.

It sounds lovely, but it's impossible.

Why?

She asked me in advance. I made plans.

Well, change them.

I can't just drop everything.

Sure you can.

Come on, Ma.

You don't have patience till later.

We'll finish up here.

Sally, I'm sorry.

Sally, what are you doing?

Folks, we're pleased to know we've eliminated another Indian threat from

peaceful town.

Just the other side of Old Creek, we encountered a band of dog soldiers.

My men engaged in some of the bravest fighting I've ever seen.

How many did you get?

Let's just say not a one of them was left standing.

And the whiskey's on the house.

Thank you.

First, there's a woman in the back of the wagon.

Let's leave her here with the good doctor. What'd you bring her back here

We rescued her from the savages.

An Indian woman?

Not an Indian. She's a white woman.

I'll be fine.

It's all right now.

Stay down.

Stay down.

Does she understand Cheyenne?

It's all right. It's all right.

It's all right.

Why don't you all stay with her for a moment?

crust anyone.

After the massacre, she just said, I can't say I blame her.

The army said they rescued her.

Why isn't she glad to see us?

Wherever she comes from, she's been living with the Indians a while. She's

adopted their ways.

Lily! Dr. Mike, she's gone.

What? Matthew tried to stop her, but she just ran out.

No, calm down, please.

Welcome to our town.

My name is Dorothy James. What's yours?

One of those savages do to you. Did they hurt you? I don't think she wants to

talk about that right now. She wants to get out of these dirty clothes.

Well,

let's get her over to the store.

That's not such a good idea.

What do you know?

Stay here and help me by putting

away the capacity.

Upon my soul, you have my word for it. My word, my bond.

Anything you want. No charge, of course.

We're going to clean you all up.

I'll give you a nice haircut.

I know you're nervous, but everyone here wants to be your friend.

You'll like us once you get to know us. Oh, look at this. This is going to look

so pretty with your eyes. Oh, my.

Maybe we ought to wait till later.

Hold her. It's all right. It's all right.

What's wrong with her?

Maybe she's sick or something.

Maybe it's from that hit she took on her head.

Could be a concussion.

No, that ain't it, doctor.

No, that ain't it.

She doesn't want anything from you folks right now.

Well, I say, if she wants to live with white folks, she ought to act like one.

Didn't look like she did.

Oh, that's not true, Jake.

We can't know what she wants until she learns how to communicate somehow. May

not even know how to talk.

Maybe she's one of them deep mutes.

Well, if that's all that's wrong with her, she's lucky.

What do you mean?

Well, I mean those Indians probably, well, you know, violated her.

Oh, I can't imagine anything so awful.

They're savages. I heard they took the wife of some army captain once.

Did terrible things.

Stop. I don't want to hear any more. The commander of Fort Collins gave a

standing order that if the post was ever overrun, all the army wives was to be

herded into the explosive shed and blown up rather than be taken by Indians.

Oh, that's ridiculous.

No, it's true.

Is that what you'd do if they tried to take me? You betcha.

And what about you, Jake?

Indians would never get you.

I'd die protecting you.

Any woman in this town.

Would she?

Except maybe Dr. Mike, huh?

Even her, if it came right down to it.

Well, it's nice to know that there are brave men to be found when you want

It's getting late.

It's only 7 .30.

Come on, we're going.

Maybe Dorothy would like to stay and have another cup of Grace's fine coffee.

Can't drink coffee at this hour of the night, keep you up all night.

I believe I will have another cup.

You can go on, Lauren.

All right. That'll keep it nice and warm for her.

Thank you, Nancy.

Think she'll let me brush her hair?

You can try.

Be gentle and talk to her.

I thought you didn't understand English, Mom.

Well, even if she doesn't, she'll know by the tone of your voice that she can

trust you.

I'm just going to brush your hair a little.

My grandma gave it to me.

The handle's made of silver.

Go on.

Try it yourself.

Looks like she's remembering something.

I'll leave you all right, Brian.

Lauren, what are you doing still up?

How does it look like I'm doing?

I'm dusting the inventory.

It's awful late to be dusting the inventory.

It's awful late for a woman of any virtue to be out walking in the streets

alone. I wasn't alone. I was with Jake.

All this time?

Ever since we left Grayson.

That's three hours.

You keeping track of me?

Well, somebody's got to.

I'm a grown woman.

A grown woman knows better than to stay out with a stranger. Jake's not a

stranger. He's a friend.

Friend.

Lauren Bray.

If I didn't know better, I'd say you would fill it.

I'm just worried about your reputation.

It's my reputation.

You let me worry about it.

I have a seashell.

I got it when I went to Boston.

If you hold it to your ear, you can hear the ocean.

That was very thoughtful of her.

I figured she needed something to wear.

You look lovely.

Isn't she, Sully?

Yes, she does.

It's late. Perhaps we should all think about getting us to sleep.

Good night, everyone.

Good night.

Good night.

You can take my bed.

I'll share with Colleen.

Rach, she's not used to sleeping in a bed.

What does she want she wants me to stay with her

Come back in a half hour.

I ain't getting no haircut.

I left my copy of the Denver paper in here yesterday.

I didn't see no paper.

Well, it's got to be in here somewhere.

What do you want with an old paper anyhow?

Are you going to read the same news over again?

Mind your own beeswax.

I don't go asking you about things you do, do I?

I don't go prowling into your affairs.

What the heck was you doing out with Dorothy last night?

I beg your pardon?

I'm surprised at you, Jack, chasing after a married woman like that.

She ain't married no more.

Why, that's Marcus's wedding band on her finger.

Marcus is dead.

That's right.

So Dorothy's a widow.

You ought to show her some respect. Show her some manners.

Well, I did say please when I asked her to have supper with me on Sunday.

Someday? Why, she ain't ready for that kind of socializing yet.

Anyways, if she is to do any socializing, it's me she'll do it with.

It's been six months, Lauren. I ain't seen you stepping out with her yet.

She's fair game.

Ain't she a little long in the tooth for you?

Ain't you a bit long in the tooth for anybody?

Epiva.

These would be good for supper.

You like fish?

Yeah, I'll take that.

Come on, boy.

What is it?

What is it?

It's sad.

I can't speak English.

A long time ago.

It's all right.

It's all right.

My family.

Indian family?

Soldiers killed.

Makes me sad, too.

I wanted to go back to my tribe.

I'm afraid.

to go back to.

Sorry.

How old were you when you came to live with the Indian?

Do you remember where you grew up?

The ocean.

Me too.

What is your name?

Shivering Deer.

Before?

What was it before when you were a little girl?

Oh, Catherine.

Catherine.

That's a real pretty name.

My grandmother's name.

Would you like us to find her?

Catherine.

Widow Farnsworth, Abner.

Why are you still wearing it?

Wearing what?

The wedding ring.

The day I put it on, I made a vow to Marcus never to take it off.

Marcus is dead.

I'm well aware of that, Lauren.

Well, I'm sure you are.

I see you visit the grave every week, bring flowers sometimes.

Why? I don't see how that's any business of yours.

The man beat you for 20 years.

He was a mean, rotten drunk.

Don't speak that way about my husband.

He's not your husband.

Not anymore.

Never should have been.

Why, you admitted it yourself when you come here.

You stood right there and said you wish things had been different.

But they weren't.

And I gotta live with it.

And there were good times, too, and that's what I've got to remember if I'm

going to keep on going.

Otherwise, I might as well be lying in the grave next to him.

I want to remember those good times, Lauren, because it's all I've got.

No, it ain't.

You got me.

You got me, but you don't want me.

I don't know what I want, Lauren.

I just don't know.

Great news. Is Dorothy here?

She's in there.

Sully, Dorothy can write up a piece on Catherine and send it to the papers back

east.

Sir.

Ma. She remembers.

We have a wonderful reverend.

Get that engine whore out of here.

I beg your pardon?

What are you talking about, Jake?

She ain't fit for our church or any other. Why do you say that? She laid

with an Injun. How dare you? No, it's true. Ask Dorothy. She wrote about it in

her gazette. But they were married, Lauren. Oh, Dorothy, what kind of a

woman would marry an Injun?

A decent woman would have killed herself before she laid down with the red man.

What do you know about decency, Hank?

Reverend, we don't let our own whores to church.

I don't see why we should make an exception here.

Jake. But she was married.

Not in the eyes of the Lord.

Look at her.

The Indians made her crazy.

She's trying to bite her tongue.

It's going to be all right.

It's going to be all right. It's going to be all right.

Help me take her to the clinic.

Matthew.

Do you remember falling?

Do you remember anything?

But just before it starts, do you feel anything?

Cold.

Thriving.

Open your mouth.

I scarred you.

It hasn't happened before, has it?

That is why they call me Shivering Deer.

At first I thought this was caused by her head wound, but now it's clear that

what she has is epilepsy.

Some call it falling sickness.

We don't know what causes it.

Some say it's a lesion on the spinal cord or a lack of blood to the brain.

Is there a cure, Dr. Mike? Not a proven one.

But some patients respond to bromide or potassium.

And I can also give you something that you can breathe in when you feel a fit

coming on.

How are you feeling now?

If only they'll take you upstairs so you can rest.

Is she going to be all right, Ma?

Yes, Bonnie.

Would you mind taking a picture of water upstairs for her?

Don't you worry.

Dr. Mike is a good doctor.

You're going to be just fine.

No.

I'm not welcome.

Not Indian.

Not white.

Not anything.

No, no, no. That's not true.

You are of two people.

You and me.

We are same.

I got to ride out to the reservation.

Take me to the ball dancing.

I promise I'll send them to you.

I will.

Brian, you want to come?

No. Well, I thought you liked to ride out to the reservation with fellas. I

no.

See you both tonight, then.

See you tonight.

Nothing. Are you angry with Zoe? I just don't feel good.

Well, you don't seem to have any fever.

Why don't you go over to Grace's and get some soup for Catherine?

I don't want to.

I thought you liked Catherine.

I wish you would leave.

I hope you're not listening to all the unkind things being said about her.

She's still the same woman you made friends with the first night she came.

What if they're right?

What if she is a bad person?

Well, what could possibly make you think that?

Well... I don't know.

Well, I'd like you to be nice to her.

She's been through so much, and right now she needs all the friends she can

Keep them.

I only came to tell you I ain't coming.

What? I ain't having supper with you tonight.

Why not?

I won't sit down at the table with any man who'd speak the way you did to that

woman at church today.

Now, hold on. Her family was killed in front of her.

Now she's all alone in the world hoping for a few kind words, a few kind faces.

I wasn't the only one.

That doesn't make it right.

I'm ashamed of you, Jake Slicker.

You are a...

I don't suppose anybody has bothered to tell you that, but I'm telling you now.

Because if nobody does, you're never going to change.

Maybe you won't anyway. It's not my concern.

Wait.

Please.

Don't you walk away from me.

Oak's been walking away from me all my life. Maybe there's a reason.

When I was seven years old, my mom said she was going to the store.

She gave me a kiss on the cheek and said she was going to bring me back a piece

of licorice.

She never came back.

Folks said later it was because my pa was drinking, but I figured it was

of me.

Boss stuck around another couple of years, and he heard about Pike's Peak,

he took off.

What brought you out here?

Thought maybe I'd catch up to him, or he'd catch up to me.

Built me a barbershop just like his back in Pittsburgh.

Still look up every time somebody walks in for a shave.

I look up, thinking maybe he'll be standing there.

Then you do know what it feels like to be alone in the world.

Sure, I do.

Then why don't you act like you know?

This isn't how I pictured it.

This isn't how I pictured you and me.

I'm sorry, Dorothy. I'm... I'm sorry I disappointed you.

Jake.

Now don't you walk away from me.

You just shared a part of yourself with me.

Now I want to share something with you.

What?

Well, I suppose we ought to see what Grace has got for supper.

Yes, I suppose we ought to.

What are you doing out here by yourself?

Nothing.

Where's Dr. Mike?

She went to town with Colleen to take care of one of Hank's girls who's

poorly.

Catherine here?

How come you're not keeping her company?

Because I don't like her.

I don't like you neither.

You want to tell me why?

I saw.

You saw what?

I saw.

I saw you kiss her.

Ryan.

It's not what you thought.

How's that?

She kissed me.

What's the difference?

It takes two people to kiss, Brian.

It's like when you want to go fishing and I don't, but I go

anyway because I don't want to hurt your feelings.

Do you think you can understand that?

I think fishing is fishing and kissing is kissing. That's what I think.

You're troubled.

Yes.

We gotta talk.

For you.

You are so kind to me.

Thank you.

It'll protect you.

You.

I brought you these.

Just like I've been bringing them for six months.

You know what?

Last night, a man brought flowers to me.

And I liked it.

I liked it a lot.

And that's the way it ought to be.

And that's the way it's going to be from now on.

So I ain't coming to see you no more.

I wanted to remember the good times, but truth is, there weren't enough of them.

I want more.

And I deserve more.

Goodbye, Marcus.

Oh, Dr. Mike, I got a telegram here from Miss Catherine.

The editor in Baltimore got Miss Dorothy's article and recognized

story. They've been looking for her for years.

We hope that Catherine will come home to us immediately. We'll pay coach fare.

Oh, this is wonderful news.

You're going home.

It's not my home. But it will be.

There are people here who want you, who love you. But I don't know them.

But you will.

You'll get to know them again just like you got to know us.

I want to stay here.

Here?

But why?

We're lovely as our town is.

I'm ashamed to say they haven't been very lovely to you.

Sully is.

Oh, yes. He looked after me when I first came to town.

He... He gave this to me.

He did?

He said we are the same.

He said that?

I stay with him.

Ma?

What's the matter?

Not quite sure, Brian.

Mad because you're staying?

It concerns me, in a way.

Me too.

Ever since...

Ever since what?

Well, nothing.

Tell me.

Ever since I saw Philly and her.

What were they doing?

Kissing.

I didn't want to tell you.

Quite all right, Brian.

I'm so mad at Sully.

Well, whatever happened, it's between Sully and me.

He's a good man, and he's still your friend.

Oh, now Catherine's staying with you.

I don't know anything about that.

I don't suppose you gave her your necklace, either.

She gave me one.

Cheyenne believed that you return a gift with a gift.

Well, it's all right with Cheyenne. Who am I to argue?

She's just being grateful. That's all.

And kissing her is that gratitude as well?

Never meant for that to happen. In front of the children? How could you? I

didn't know that Brian was there.

That woman's in love with you.

She didn't even know about us. Why didn't you tell her?

Why didn't you?

Now you're turning it around.

I'm the one... You are the one who never has time to spend with me.

Who's always too nervous to be alone with me. To kiss me.

You want to be with another woman, then admit it. I never said that.

But you find her attractive.

Any man would.

Are you in love with her?

Of course not.

But you care for her.

Yes, I care... Then you have feelings for her. Stop putting words in my mouth.

And stop assuming things.

My only problem is assuming that I'm the only one.

Tell me, Sully, how many others have there been there before me?

Why are you asking me that now?

I want to know.

Have you been with another woman since Abigail died?

I want the truth.

No, you don't.

Come in.

Oh, Michaela.

Oh, I'm not intruding. No, no, I was just... I was looking at what the years

to us.

My mother used to tell me I ought to be happy to get wrinkles when I'm old.

Means I smiled a lot.

That's a good one. I must remember that for Colleen.

I wonder, do we ever get any smarter?

Well, I used to think so. But what do I know?

More than I.

What's wrong?

How are you?

Fond of Catherine.

Well, a pretty girl always turns a man's head.

No, she's more than pretty.

She's so much like him, and I'm so different.

Exactly, which is why he's head over heels for you.

There are times when I wish that she'd just leave.

Did he tell you he had feelings for her?

That he would be fond of her?

Well, Michaela, at least he's being honest with you.

That's just it.

Love isn't supposed to be this way.

How is it supposed to be?

Pure.

Paul, true.

Don't you think so?

Oh, Michaela, I don't know.

For me, love's never been any of those things, so I stopped expecting it to be.

Well, I can't do that.

I can't stop expecting things to be the way I imagined.

I want to help.

You don't have to.

You're a good doctor.

A good friend.

Sometimes.

Sometimes I'm not so good.

Catherine, I know you were frightened yesterday about going back to Baltimore.

And I know how difficult it is to go to a new place.

But it was my hope that you could go there and fit in and be happy.

If you don't feel that you can, you're welcome to stay here.

I talked to Dr. Mike.

She told me I can stay.

Don't you want to see your family?

You are my family now.

You have a real family.

You should give them a chance.

My heart... is with you.

My heart.

It's for Dr. Mike.

A good woman.

Yes.

I'm sorry.

You were right.

I'm always right.

What was I right about?

About this.

That old ring?

It's coming off.

About time.

Got no use for it.

Worthless piece of meth. I don't know why I kept it on for so long.

Might as well throw it in the creek.

I could.

Or you might want to hold on to it. Keep it in one of your old jewelry boxes or

something.

I could.

Why don't you go get any ideas, Thornbray?

I wouldn't dream of it. It's taken me a long time, but I'm an independent woman

now. I want to see what that feels like, at least for a while.

I told that to Jake, too.

That mean you're going to supper with him again?

I'll go with any fine gentleman with that.

Would you go with me tomorrow night?

What time will you be calling for me?

630.

I look forward to it.

I've written a letter regarding my medical findings.

I want you to give this to the doctor when you get it.

Thank you.

Thank you, Dr. Mike, for everything.

No.

The truth.

Remember me.

I'll remember you.

I really like that, Brian, but I got tucked up, Mike.

You're not letting us go, are you?

So I can be made a fool of again?

The way you see it.

I chose you.

How do I know that?

Nothing ever happened between me and Catherine.

I wouldn't let it.

I never

thought it was possible.

Not after the things we said.

I still do.

Don't you hear what I'm saying?

You're going to stay mad at me forever?

Leave me alone. Answer me.

I'm not angry at you.

I'm a doctor.

People put themselves in my hands. They give themselves to me. They trust me.

I'm not used to giving myself to anyone.

I gave myself to you. I trusted you.

Sorry.

I am too.

I just... I can't be with you right now.

You change your mind, I'll always be here.