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Is that too cold?

No, it's fine.

Tell me if I press too hard.

Is that... Yes.

You have a head?

Mm -hmm.

Come on, sweetie, turn around.

I don't want to make it smaller.

How's the heartbeat?

It's 160.

Is that okay?

Anything between 150 and 170 is fine.

Can we see the face?

We could if the baby would be a little more cooperative.

Come on, baby.

But then you didn't appear.

We were given key.

Thank God there's someone at last.

Are you happy?

About downstairs?

No, not about downstairs.

What do you think?

I'm not available to speak to you at the moment. Do leave a message.

Hi mum, it's me.

We had the scan yesterday and everything's fine.

So no need to worry.

Okay, I'll speak to you soon.

Bye.

Yeah.

It's great.

I mean, it's a... It's a bit... A bit what? Just being all V &A about it.

It's not that it's ugly. It's just really determined to be a gardener. Oh,

you are. What are you saying?

Giving up next week?

You don't need to give up.

Well, I am.

I'm not like Gabby. I don't enjoy ordering you around.

I know. Maybe you'd rather I did.

Maybe you need a little instruction.

Why do you think you left her?

She does slightly trick me like a patient.

Please do.

Hi.

Hi. I saw you in the garden. I'm from upstairs.

Oh, my God!

I know.

How many weeks?

18. 21.

You must have just arrived.

Yeah, last night.

I'm Teresa.

Kate.

Would you like a cup of tea?

Oh, going out. Oh, me too. Swimming.

You want to come?

It's a private club, but I can take a guest.

I really should do some chores.

Please come.

I'm so happy you came.

Swimming's so bloody boring on one's own.

Don't you like it? Not really, to be honest.

But it's very good for pregnancy.

We read it in a magazine.

Is Joski keen?

I don't think so.

I can always feel him after swimming.

Him?

He's going to be called Peter, after John's father.

But you mustn't say I said. I'm not supposed to tell anyone.

What are you looking at?

I'm sorry.

I'm always watching people.

I suppose it's my job.

You're happier on the outside, looking in.

Probably.

Do you work?

Me? I never want to work again.

I have to go. I'm meeting John for lunch.

Sure.

Thanks for an afternoon.

I didn't... No, that's right, you didn't, did you?

Let's do this again, huh?

We found this killer image for the cover. What do you think?

Hey, is everything okay? Yeah, it's fine.

Okay. I just wanted to call you.

Good.

Good. Sorry, just hold on one second. Is she definitely Ugandan?

Yeah, I think so.

Well, she is or she isn't.

Listen, I don't have that much to do here today, so I thought I'd get a lazy

lunch with you, maybe find a hotel.

Um, it's not that easy.

Okay. Sorry.

It's fine. It was just an idea.

Um, see you at home?

Okay.

Love you.

Love you too.

I'm in the baby section.

I got this red dress for you. It's so beautiful.

I'm ready.

I'm always ready for you, baby.

We're out of time for him.

I'm sure you've looked properly.

Yeah, I'm sure.

Shall I go get some?

It doesn't matter.

I need another candle.

John?

The bomb's gone in the hall.

Okay, I can't come now. Please change it. I don't feel safe on the ladder. I

can't now.

Okay.

I'll do it.

No, just... Leave it.

dark in here.

Well, we're not eating in the hall, are we?

What's wrong?

Nothing.

Don't lie to me.

I don't know why you invited them.

She said they don't know anyone.

Well, maybe they're fellow white.

Maybe that's how you want it.

What's that supposed to mean?

They're our neighbours.

And she's nice.

She's kooky.

What do you mean, cookie?

I don't know. It's like she's got this little secret all the time.

You've got a crush on her?

I'll go.

Hi. Hi.

John's just hitting the alarm.

This is for you. Thank you.

You're beautiful.

You have such lovely stuff in. What do you use?

Something I can't afford.

Come in. Sorry for the number.

Bob just went.

It was so kind of you to invite us.

No need for that.

Oh, we always do.

Hi. You must

be Keith.

Come through. Justin's cooking.

This is delicious.

John cooks Chinese once a month.

Mandarin. It's fantastic.

You know Chinese cooking?

I lived there for ten years.

Worked with swires.

It's so nice you invited us. John says in London you never know your own

neighbours.

Wine, Teresa?

No, thank you.

I don't drink anymore.

They say you can have one glass with me only.

When we were in Germany, it was very different. There's such a sense of

community in every street.

Kate said you've been living in Frankfurt.

We met then.

My mother was this kind of Finnish hippie, I guess you'd say. She met this

English guy in London, and they had this crazy passionate affair, and she had

me. And then he disappeared with some American woman.

Mom and I traveled everywhere together.

She called me her backpack.

We ended up in Germany when I was 16, and then six years later, I met John.

That's what were you doing in France?

Working for a bank.

I served him in a restaurant.

He asked me to marry him on our third date.

Great what you've done.

Do you want to have a smoke?

It's your house.

John's handsome.

Very.

He's a bit older than you.

He was previously married to a Chinese woman in Shanghai.

That explains the shoes. She was very, very beautiful, but she couldn't have

children, so that was no good.

You have such a kind face.

Maybe it's pregnancy.

Nothing for you.

It really does.

And it makes you look horny.

Until

I

was pregnant, I didn't know he was alive.

So how did you two get together?

We were at university.

These raspberries are so good.

Kate was two years below me. She was going out with all these rather more

glamorous men.

So I lay in wait.

Make some bad choices.

Tell me about it.

How long have you been together?

Just over ten years.

Why haven't you got children already?

John. Oh, come on.

Why does everything in England sound so bloody rude?

Ordinary question anywhere else in the world? Here's some kind of social

transgression. It's fine. It's a legitimate question.

So? Well, we both have our careers.

The truth is we weren't sure we wanted a child.

What do you mean?

Just that.

We weren't sure.

You mean you weren't sure?

No, it was me.

I didn't think I wanted to be a mother.

I've always known I wanted a child.

I didn't feel that way for a very long time.

So what changed?

I don't know.

One day I... Felt able to love.

Then you became pregnant?

Just like that?

Yeah.

Why?

How long have you been trying?

Seven years.

It's wonderful that it's happened.

It's a miracle.

Teresa's a lot younger than me.

That's one of the reasons he chose me.

Do you have your scan photo?

Just the 12 -week one. The 20 -week one's not till next week.

Do you know the agenda?

No, we do.

Yes, but we're not telling.

Would you like to?

Sure. Will you make some coffee?

Sure.

Maybe if you go to bed, you'll look tired.

It is tiring, isn't it?

Darling, I think Teresa's tired. I don't think she'll want coffee.

Well, if you're tired, we should go.

But it's been such fun.

Yes, it has, but we're leaving.

I'll get your card.

I'll get a new bulb.

No, really, that's fine.

I need to change anyway. I don't know what's wrong with me.

Are you sure you're okay? I'm fine, really.

Baby, stay with me.

I'll call an ambulance.

You're going to be fine.

Don't move.

Don't tell me what to do!

Come on, baby, we'll get you downstairs.

John, John, please, let me at least call a doctor. Just to check the baby, check

he's okay.

Come on, let's go.

I'll get you downstairs.

And you shouldn't invite people to your house when it's in an open state.

Come on, let's get you downstairs.

Can you get the key out of my pocket?

You'll be okay. Just get the key.

No, you're going to be fine. You're fine. Get the key out of my pocket. Let

Stay the fuck away from my wife!

Come on, baby.

You'll be okay.

She was drinking all night.

And you wasn't looking.

Call me if you hear anything.

There's no abnormalities that I can see.

I think you have a very healthy baby.

Hi, Mum.

Hello, darling.

So, how's work?

Pretty good.

We published a campaign brochure, got some web presence, so I'm happy.

And the scam being fine is wonderful news.

You look tired, dear.

Why do you have to be so fucking polite to her? What do you want me to do, shout

at her?

I'm not doing it again.

She doesn't care that's our problem.

She cares.

She just finds it hard to explain. That's all.

Hello?

Please take your shoes off.

What do you think happened?

I mean, did you... Did you have to? Yeah.

Did you have to give birth?

Look at him.

Peter.

What's wrong?

Nothing. Then look at him.

That's my son.

They tried to collect her ashes after the cremation, but there weren't enough.

Sorry.

I didn't change the light bulb.

It may have made a difference.

No, it would have made a difference.

Our son would still be alive.

You don't know that.

Excuse me? There may have been other contributing factors.

What the fuck are you talking about?

I'm sorry, but what happened was a terrible accident.

No, you see, the word accident implied that nothing could have been done, but

that's not true, is it? Well, the cat came out of nowhere, and Teresa has

tripped on your shoes. She tripped in the dark.

All I'm saying is, no, the series of circumstances led to something truly

It wasn't an accident.

A pregnant woman who drinks a little wine trips on some shoes left in a dark

hallway. So what did you see?

Teresa had a glass or two of wine. That's not her fault. No, she didn't.

Maybe we made her nervous. I don't know. Maybe you made her nervous. She was

tired. She wanted to leave.

You'd left your shoes, which we didn't ask you to take off in a hallway, which

we had neglected to light, because we were cooking you supper.

The cat came out. She did not drink!

Did you drink?

Are you accusing me of lying?

Listen, let's talk about this another time. You're both Christian.

Don't tell her how we feel.

Okay, let's go. We'll talk about this later.

You cunt.

You're accusing me to cover your own mistake.

Take that back.

Tell her to take it back. You were drinking all night. How dare you? You

her, right? You moved her when we told you not to.

Okay, this isn't the time. Let's go.

You don't deserve that.

Please come with me

Sorry. Go ahead.

When we were in their flat, when I saw her... Hey, we don't have to talk

about that. I want to.

I just felt so ungrateful that I'd never been uncertain.

Tell me you want it.

What?

I need to know that you want our child.

I want it.

I've got to talk.

Dear Justin and Kate,

We are going back to Germany.

We realize that our presence here is the cause of tension and regret.

We need time to grieve our loss, and you need freedom to enjoy the birth of your

child.

What has happened has happened.

What matters now is that you have your child and that John and I return only

once we feel liberated from this awful emptiness that currently inhabits us.

We will not come back unless we can honestly say congratulations to you both

bless your new child with all the benediction it deserves.

Yours faithfully, Teresa Baker.

He let me.

Why did...

Why did

my mom come to the hospital?

She finds it difficult.

You know that.

Your parents came. They brought flowers.

My parents always bring flowers.

She never comes to the flat.

I always visit her.

I think we should not.

No. No way. They're coming back. I want an apology first.

Just. I'm sorry.

There's no excuse for what she said.

You ready?

Sure.

And you want the father to be named on the form?

Yes.

Taking the blame too.

That's it?

That's it.

He's very good.

He's asleep.

Give me a coat.

Sit down.

Yes, I did say on the phone that I have to be at Jill's by four.

Yes, Ma 'am, you said. So shall I make tea?

Justin's making it.

I've got you a present.

Just say well done.

Stop it. Stop protecting her.

He called you, didn't he?

That's why you're here.

You don't have to do this, Mom. It's fine.

I'm very happy. Just leave us alone.

Leave it.

Maybe it's the girl downstairs.

She let me in after I bugged.

Darling, she knows we're here.

Hi. We're back.

We're home.

It's all right that you're setting the alarms.

If it's about time.

The problem was we didn't know whether he was a she or she was a he, so you'll

have to pick.

It's the blue one, darling.

So you haven't met Billy?

Not until now, no.

That's a lovely name.

Is it William?

You mentioned that you love the sea.

I do.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

Well, put it on him.

He's asleep.

Oh, no. Don't wake him.

We're going to have a family ourselves.

Oh, that's wonderful.

They'll be able to play together.

That's why we did the garden.

Billy can use it whenever he wants.

I mean, whenever Kate wants.

The park's not too far away. It's such a lovely garden.

Are you a keen gardener?

Well, I suppose I am, yeah.

I wonder if you could help me.

This is a bad time.

No, of course not.

We just want you to know we are so...

Sorry for what we said.

Me too. It was horrible, but it's done now.

I really like you, Kate.

I just want us to be able to live together.

Can we try?

Thank you.

You're both wonderful.

Mom, do you want to?

I know.

Again.

I might not wake this time.

At this point, both of us are staying up.

Oh, just seeing if you were okay.

Could you hear him in the night?

Just a bit.

I'm sorry.

I was that bloody alone.

I made you some lemonade.

Have to keep hydrating.

You shouldn't have.

I wanted to.

Thank you.

Well, I should go.

No, wait. Do you want to come in?

You look amazing.

It was important.

You're very brave.

Meeting John for lunch.

How did you know?

Just a hunch.

Why don't you come with us? I shouldn't.

We'll buy you lunch.

What job do you do?

What you mean is, how do I scam it that I always get my lunch on?

I made a lot of money in Germany.

I have a portfolio of investments that I keep track of and a company that really

doesn't need me to be there for more than 20 % of the time.

You must be a very good businessman.

I know what I want.

And I focus on getting it.

That's why June and I get home.

We're the same animal.

If all goes well, in five years or so, I can retire and take care of the

children.

Is there somewhere I can breastfeed?

You can do it here.

Everyone does in Germany.

Too well, unless, um... No, it's fine.

Are you sure you're okay with this?

Really.

It helped.

Sometimes you seem very lonely.

Do I?

I don't know. We have friends, but... I think Justin and I were different in a

way. I know he's at work the whole time.

Why don't I take Billy just for a couple of hours every now and then?

Give you a break.

I'd love them.

What are you two smiling about?

Nothing.

They put lemon in this one. I hope it's all right.

At least you're kind of dairy.

He was fine before.

He's not now.

Where's the spare key? It's not in the hook.

Why do you need it now? It's the middle of the night. I don't need it now. I

just want to know where it is.

Go to bed.

I've got work in the morning.

Are you sure you're going to be okay? Of course. It'll only be a few hours.

I really wanted to take him.

But the weather's so bad.

We'll be fine, won't we?

You've got my number?

I've got your number.

Now go.

Was he okay?

He slept like a baby.

And so did I.

Thank you so much.

How was it?

It was good.

I don't know. I was just standing there and... I just wanted him to meet Billy

so much.

Maybe it's not warm enough.

I warmed it on the stove.

Let's call someone.

Oh, calm down.

Something's wrong with him. I'm taking him in.

We'll see what the tests say, but I suspect it's an allergy of some kind.

I'm going to recommend you stop breastfeeding.

No.

Well, if you want to carry on, you'll have to cut out all sorts of foods.

Fine. Which foods?

Which foods?

Don't touch the light.

Jesus.

Don't bring him in here.

I turned it off.

That's where I did.

It's Friday, remember?

We said I would look after him.

Don't we?

I'm sorry, I forgot.

I cancelled two things specially.

It's fine, I... I'm actually ready to go with some sleep.

You're not going out?

No.

Okay, sure.

I'll take him downstairs.

You can stay here if you want.

No, I'll take him downstairs.

Give you some peace.

Hi, Justin Pollard.

Sure. What time?

I'm going to take a bath, but there's no time.

You look great.

Well, we're going out for the night, aren't we?

Thanks for inviting us.

It was John's idea.

He's on his way back now.

Can I put the down for you?

Sure.

Thanks.

It's bleeding.

Where's your bathroom?

Just down on the left.

Sorry.

I meant right, not left.

I like your smile.

Just

seeing

how far away John is.

Where did you go when you went away?

John had a lake house.

He did a ritual.

He rode out into the lake and said goodbye to him.

That's something the Hindus do.

For them, water is a transport into other realms.

Do you believe that?

Why not?

How much do any of us know?

Only when you lose someone utterly dear to you, utterly and totally dear, can

you understand just how little we know about death.

There was someone on the baby monitor.

What?

When you were in the garden, I heard a breathing.

It was coming from our room. It was the water. Someone was here.

Oh, my God.

What happened?

Baby, why don't we go downstairs?

We can have supper another time.

Sure.

Justin, I swear, I turned it off. I turned the water off.

Hi. Hi.

Would you mind watching Billy for half an hour? I just need to get out, get

somewhere. Sure.

Thank you so much.

Are you okay?

Yeah, I'm just tired.

Are you okay?

He was a little hungry. I gave him the water.

I'm going swimming.

Want to bring Billy?

I've got a period of death.

Okay.

Are you meeting John for lunch?

Every day.

Well, it doesn't matter how long you've gone out for, you always need to spend

it.

This is London.

It's a bloody village, isn't it?

Well, I have been.

I've been upstairs.

It's me. Come back. Now.

Come back now.

Hi.

Hi. Can we come in?

Sure.

Kate.

Look.

They've deleted them.

Make me.

Give me the key.

Who changed it?

What are you talking about? You knew I was here and you changed it. When were

you here?

I really didn't want you to pay this room. I saw you in the garden. You took

picture of him.

I did.

Then what?

Why would you do that?

Do you have any idea what we're going through?

Kate, come upstairs.

Come upstairs now.

Go to work.

I said I'm working from home this morning. You don't need to check on me.

not checking on you.

I throw what I throw.

Neither of us are fully ourselves at the moment.

What does that mean?

It means that what you think you saw...

You didn't see.

Did I see you flirting with her?

Did I see that?

You're a liar.

My folks are coming down. They're having a weekend in London, so they'll

probably pop in.

You called them.

No, I didn't. You called them and you asked them to come look after me like

some fucking mental patient.

With your family history, what do you expect me to do?

Where are you going?

Mommy loves you.

Mommy's gonna look after you, so nothing will go wrong.

Nothing.

What do you need?

Tell me.

I need to leave the house.

Okay.

I need to leave now.

We'll go now.

I'll get the car. We'll call some estate agents.

We'll find somewhere to rent.

This might be more like it.

Yes.

This is the way.

I like it.

Why can't we move today?

Well, he said it takes a couple of days for the credit checks.

Then let's go to the hotel.

It'll be fun.

It's expensive enough as it is.

It's two days, and we don't have to see them.

I'll stay with you, okay?

Don't tell them we're okay.

Don't tell them anything.

Promise.

Promise.

Why? Why is it so last minute?

Okay,

isn't there someone else that can do it?

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah, okay.

I'll see what I can do.

This one's for the Michelle Khoury Foundation.

He's in town. He wants to meet me about a donation.

You said you would stay. He's talking about £500 ,000, Kate.

Have you any idea how far that'll go? Look, it'll take two hours. Phone some

movers, arrange them for tomorrow, OK?

One letter of confirmation.

Please don't go.

Nothing is going to happen.

Just dinner.

Nothing. Go.

Tomorrow, ten, forty boxes.

How much would that be?

Yeah, that'd be fine.

Just remember, when you get here, it's the top buzzer.

Thank you.

Did you try the twist office?

Yeah. They're trying to work out who it could have been. And you didn't leave a

number?

Fuck this, okay? I'm going home. Call me if you hear anything, okay? Sure.

She's... Where's Billy? Did she give you Billy?

No. What's happened?

Where's John?

He's away in business.

Where is he?

What's she done with him? What's she done with him? No!

No, no!

He's OK.

He's not there!

He's not there!

When does your plane leave?

Oh, not till four.

John says that you're moving too?

Yes.

We couldn't pay.

Not after.

Sure.

John left this morning.

He's in Frankfurt, already finding a place.

I can't find the car.

I mean, if you say it, put it in a home, would you?

Yeah.

I'll let you get home.

Goodbye.

Take me tonight and make me part.