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[ Lt's "Real Life = No Fun" plays ]

♪♪

Meredith: When it comes to surgery,

the adage "it's better to ask for forgiveness

than permission" doesn't apply.

Trim me up and make me a new man.

Alright, man.

♪ Where our dreams can come to life ♪

[ Sighs ]

♪ Get behind the wheel, we can get our fix ♪

Barber: Big day for you at the hospital?

You might say that.

We must obtain informed consent

from our patients before any procedure.

♪ Gonna start it up tonight ♪

Simone: It's roommate code.

If Mohanty comes over, I get a heads-up.

Blue: Okay. No. Roommate code is paying your bills on time

and -- and doing your own dishes.

Adams will back me up.

I live with my aunt.

[ Sighs ] Your life makes me sad.

Simone: Hey, I thought you had a thing

against chocolate for breakfast.

I do, but Sally doesn't.

She also likes sports bars,

'90s grunge cover bands, and small-batch bourbon.

Hm. Things still going well for her and Rob?

They're going well enough that she's not thinking

about a certain attending and what he's doing.

Or who. Love that for Sally.

Love that for Sally.

Do you know who Sally is? No.

She sounds like a good time.

It's not just a way to cover our asses

if something goes wrong.

We want you to understand the care you'll receive

and the risks involved.

Are you still stuck on the hormone correlation?

I can't figure out how to replicate a good data set.

Well, you could remove ovaries from the female mice

to see if lack of estrogen affects the equation.

Or I could castrate the male mice.

Or you could do that. That works, also.

I need a break.

Can I help you? Yeah.

You can cut carrots for the salad.

Okay.

You really went all-out.

[ Laughs ]

I am giving her the benefit of the doubt.

Eight years is a long time to go without speaking to someone.

Well, in my defense, a lot of that time, she was drunk or high,

but Charlotte says she's -- she's doing really well.

Says she's sober and that she has a new project or something.

You're excited to see her.

I am, yeah.

We used to be really close,

especially after we lost her mom.

You know, when she's not detonating her life,

she's actually really funny.

She's a lot more fun than I am.

[ Both chuckle ]

Well, I can't wait to meet her. [ Doorbell rings ]

Looks like you won't have to.

♪ Yesterday's sun ♪ [ Nick chuckles ]

♪ Dreamin' 'cause real life's no fun ♪

Hey, big brother.

Sor-- Erica, who's this?

This is Miles.

[ Miles coos ]

My son.

[ Miles babbles ]

♪♪

Yeah.

Hi. We want you to know

exactly what you're getting yourself into.

[ Door closes ]

[ Elevator bell dings ]

Everyone's fired!

She doesn't mean it.

You are a VIP! You should be in a private room!

This place looks like a cattle pen.

I'm fine. Mnh.

I-I told that nurse to put that IV in your right arm.

Does anybody talk to anybody around here?!

Catherine: Michael, can I have a word?

[ Curtis chuckles ]

Uh, I'm sorry. My wife, she's...

A woman who knows what she wants.

[ Sighs ] That's one way to put it.

What kind of doctor is she? You see this?

Richard: A urologist. Hm.

I'm having surgery for prostate cancer.

She's antsy.

Understandable.

Curtis James.

Oh, uh... Richard Webber.

Catherine: You people need to communicate!

I've got, uh, prostate cancer, too.

Stage 4.

It's spread to my spine,

so they're putting a catheter in

to help with the pain.

I hope it makes you comfortable.

I just want to spend as much quality time

with my kids as I can.

Catherine: I said get him a private room!

No, no!

I see Catherine's having "a word" with Nurse Michael.

How are you?

Oh, I'm doing a lot better than Nurse Michael.

So I kept my schedule light in case you need anything.

Oh, good. I need you to occupy my wife.

She's making the staff nervous.

I don't need that today.

How about I round on your patients?

Or anything else?

She's replaced three of my nurses in half an hour.

[ Bailey sighs ] Give me that!

You all need a better system for this!

I'll do my best.

[ Catherine speaking indistinctly ]

Hm.

Good luck, Richard.

Catherine: I'm telling you. It's okay!

Give the man a VIP room now!

Meredith: We can put the baby right here.

I don't want to ruin your furniture.

No, it's okay. I have three kids

who have already taken care of that.

[ Laughs ] Barely managing the one.

And I can take your coat. Actually, you have two.

Charlotte's an adult.

It's a little different.

Oh, thank God he slept almost the whole drive here.

You drove from Madison?

Well, you think I'm gonna fly with a six-week-old?

Well, I didn't think anything 'cause I didn't know

there was a baby.

Yeah, well, I thought I would surprise you...

slash I didn't want you to pass judgment

on Miles before you met him.

Well, I'm not judging him.

Does the baby need anything else?

No. Thank you. There's a pacifier.

I'll find it. Okay.

Thank you.

Who's the father?

What, are you gonna beat him up after gym class?

I'm just asking who the father is.

Who's the father? His name's Ken.

We dated a little over a year, and we broke up.

I broke it off. It was my decision.

Oh, okay. Well, as long as it was your decision.

Is everybody hungry? Lunch is ready.

Thank you so much.

If he needs a vascular procedure, he's mine.

You've had easily 20.

Sally has done...

Uh, we were paged for a consult?

Uh, Mitch Lau?

I'm Dr. Millin. This is Dr. Adams.

We hear that you're experiencing

tingling and weakness in your left arm?

Uh, a-and some occasional sharp pain.

I teach tennis lessons, so I get weird shoulder stuff.

Mind if we examine you?

Hm. Mm-hmm.

Have you experienced anything like this before?

No, but it said online that left-arm tingling

is a sign of a heart attack?

Tell me I'm being paranoid.

It's better to be safe,

and we will get you checked out.

Right.

♪♪

Sorry if this is a little uncomfortable, Dr. Webber.

Do whatever you have to do.

You're in charge. I trust you.

♪♪

♪♪

You ready, sir?

I'm ready.

I know the drill. [ Chuckles ]

[ Monitor beeping ]

♪♪

[ Groans softly ]

♪♪

Richard: Ten...

nine...

[Weakly] ...eight...

...seven...

...six...

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪

Curtis?

What are you doing here?

Be straight with me.

How much longer do I have?

It's hard to say.

[ Monitor beeping rapidly ]

But you're not dying today! Look, I've got you!

Someone get me a defibrillator!

Man: You can't save him.

[ Rapid beeping continues ]

Dad?

♪♪

Richard: I need a hand here!

Charles: I told you. There's nothing you can do.

Look. I'm a doctor! I'm not gonna let him just --

Look. He has a family!

Let's charge to 200! [ Stammers ]

Make me a new man, will ya?

You're not getting a trim now?

This man is dying!

He's already gone.

Oh, that's not true. Look. His BP's --

Those monitors don't know anything.

You know, you don't know what you're talking about.

Look, he's got metastases in his spine,

his lymph nodes, his bladder.

They're gonna find it in his bones next.

He's been through chemotherapy,

hormone therapy, surgery.

H-He can't walk without debilitating pain,

which is why he's getting the intrathecal pump.

But we all know that's just palliative care.

There are people who have survived

Stage 4 prostate cancer.

He just needs one of epi.

Not enough. Not him.

And not me.

[ Monitor flat-lines ]

♪♪

Jules: Squeeze my hands.

[ Exhales sharply ]

Should I tell my boss I'm not gonna make the lunch shift?

I didn't know tennis had a lunch shift.

Flex your elbows.

I'm also a server at Fisherman's Lure.

The lunch crowds, uh, tip really well.

Oh, business lunches.

Lots of people with corporate credit cards.

You waited tables, too?

No, I have a brother who stole a corporate credit card.

He was a generous tipper, at least.

They help a lot. I'm a ride-share driver, too.

Just trying to get by since I got laid off.

Oh, I'm sorry. Yeah.

I grew up here during the tech boom

when every kid thought learning to write code

was a ticket to a house on Mercer Island

and a holiday company party with Sting.

Well, we all have dreams.

I started coding in middle school.

Eventually I got a degree in computer science with honors.

Then A.I. happened.

I trained a computer to take my job.

Alright. We're ready for the chest X-ray.

[ Machine beeping ]

Alright. He's got an opacity behind his collarbone.

If it's a mass pressing on his brachial plexus

or subclavian vein,

that might explain the tingling in his arm?

I'll call radiology and page cardiothoracic.

I'm sorry. What's happening? Not sure yet.

We want to get a CT scan to find out more.

You might want to call your boss.

[ Sighs ] Well... there goes my tips.

Last year, we rebuilt the residency program

and restored its reputation.

It's time to level up.

This year, I want to integrate VR into our skills lab.

And I want to expand the wellness program

with a meditation area and more team building.

Sounds good.

And to kick things off,

we'll take the residents on an all-expenses-paid retreat

on the French Riviera.

Mm-hmm.

[ Sighs ]

I'm sorry. Did you say something?

I know that you're worried about Richard's surgery,

but you can trust his team.

Miranda, please.

I know Richard is in great hands.

Okay.

Read line 45, page 2.

Uh, Richard's estate plan. This seems private.

He was updating it this morning.

He has a burial plot at Lakeshore.

Well, that's a nice cemetery.

Next to Adele Webber!

Oh. [Laughs ] So that's what you're upset about?

The man wants to be buried next to his dead ex-wife!

Well, technically, she's not an ex.

I'm his wife now!

Well, what does it matter?

You're all dead.

[ Scoffs ] Are you and Warren planning

to be buried next to each other?

No, actually, I'm planning to be cremated. [ Groans ]

I am going to sit in my children's homes

so they have to look at me before doing anything stupid.

Not me. I want to be laid in the ground.

Next to the man I pledged my life to.

Well, you are Catherine Fox.

If you feel so strongly, do something.

♪♪

You're right. Huh.

He wants to be buried next to Adele?

I'll just buy the damn plot on the other side. Hm!

[ Stammers ]

Hello? Lakeshore?

You'll need more tests to be sure,

but it looks like you have

a benign brachial plexus schwannoma.

The only word I understood was "benign."

Uh, Dr. Kwan?

Schwannomas are tumors that develop within the nerves,

so in your case, you have a large tumor

in the brachial plexus that is affecting your arm.

Yeah, that's why you feel occasional pain and tingling.

This could really mess up my ability to serve.

He teaches tennis lessons.

I was thinking about at the restaurant.

-He has a couple of jobs. -What do I do about it?

Winston: You'll want to have it surgically removed.

Our cardiothoracic department will submit

a prior-authorization request for your insurance,

and once they approve it, we can schedule a surgery.

Schwannomas grow slowly,

but eventually it will destroy the nerve.

You don't want to ignore it.

[ Scoffs ] Don't think I could if I wanted to.

Well, it was good to meet you, Mitch.

H-How long does this

prior-authorization thing usually take?

Well, I'm not an expert, but maybe a month

and then another two months to schedule surgery.

I'm not sure I could work much longer like this.

Yeah, some patients apply for disability.

Is that enough to pay rent?

I don't want to move back with my parents.

Jules: You can push your insurance company

to fast-track the authorization,

and we can submit a peer-to-peer review for them.

I have a better shot at winning Wimbledon

than getting past their automated phone system.

I wish there was more we could do.

Yeah. The guy who laid me off said the same thing.

We'll, uh, go get your paperwork.

Okay. Okay.

♪♪

[Muffled] Oh, my God.

It is so nice to eat a homemade meal

after two days of fast food.

Well, there's more if you want it.

Are you sober?

Nick. No, it's okay.

I'm surprised you didn't ask sooner.

Is that a no? Two years and change.

I go to AA meetings every week,

and you will be happy to know I am gainfully employed.

Really?

Where do you work?

I am an office manager at a law firm downtown.

So, yeah. Although I'm on maternity leave right now.

But they've been really, really good to me.

I just -- You know, I wanted a chance

to be a mom and to do it right.

Uh, but Miles is such a good baby.

Ohh. During the day.

At night, it's a whole different story.

[ Chuckles ]

You know, when my youngest was a baby,

I used to just have to put her in the car

and drive around the neighborhood for hours.

That's the only way he'll go to sleep.

[ Laughs ]

How old are your kids?

[ Miles crying ]

Oh. Oh. That is my cue.

Let me get him. It's not every day I get to hold a baby.

[ Miles crying ]

[ Clears throat ]

She's great.

This place is, like, just gorgeous.

Hey. Listen. We're not done talking about you.

Baby, job, sobriety.

Those -- [ Chuckles ] Those are the headlines.

Do you not believe me?

Do you not see why I wouldn't?

Well, the last time I saw you,

you told me to get my act together,

and so I did,

so now, for the first time in my entire life,

I have a job with benefits.

I already picked out a daycare!

I got my act together.

How can you not see the difference?

Because we have been here before.

That's why.

[ Scoffs ] Alright.

Where are you going? To the bathroom.

You want to lock up your medicine cabinet?

Oh, I already did.

[ Scoffs ]

♪♪

Hey, you know, our patients are typically inside the hospital.

I'm writing a letter for Mitch's insurance.

Don't use A.I.

It's what got him into this awful situation.

Mitch: Speak to a representative.

[Enunciating] Representative.

Representative!

What happened to human contact?

Yeah, I'm surprised you wouldn't rather talk to robots.

There were a lot of times when my parents couldn't make rent

or pay for food or bus passes.

And the only reason we got by

is because people went out of their way to help us.

Robots don't care.

I thought the reason you got by

was 'cause your parents were low-key hustlers.

That, too.

His pain will be ten times worse

by the time he gets approved.

If he gets approved.

Yeah, and the irony is that by then

it could be emergent, and the insurance would have to cover it anyway.

I think I have an idea on how we can help him.

Uh, one of your parents' schemes?

No. This one's inspired by my friend Sally.

Mitch: No. Please don't transfer me!

Jules: Uh, Mitch.

They've got me on a 30-second loop

of Vivaldi's "Four Seasons."

Play the whole damn thing, why don't you?

Are you sure about this?

Why wouldn't I be? 'Cause you could wait

and discuss this with Richard.

Miranda, burial plots are like prostates.

Once they're gone, they're gone.

Can't say I ever thought of it that way.

I can always sell it if I change my mind.

Property with a lake view is always a good investment.

I just don't want your plans for death to get in the way

of you being there for Richard now.

I have no trouble multitasking, dear.

I just think that you might want to make this decision

with Richard...

rather than while he's under anesthesia.

Hello? Yes, Lakeshore. I am still here.

One moment. Miranda.

Huh? [Quietly] Go, go, go, go.

Come on, honey.

Ooh, that man owes me.

Yes, this is Catherine Fox.

Have a seat.

Get a trim.

And fill me in on your life.

A man just died there!

Suit yourself.

Are we really not gonna talk about it?

Dwelling on unpleasantries won't bring him back.

I meant you.

Well, it won't bring me back, either.

I've got it now.

That's why I'm here.

Eh, if you're hoping for some father-son bonding over this,

that's -- that's not happening.

I wanted to know your experience.

You never said much.

Because it's a private matter.

We're family, and family shouldn't have to suffer alone.

I wasn't suffering. I was stoic.

That's how Webber men do it.

Yeah, I remember how you snapped at me

for not holding it together at Mom's funeral.

Is there a problem with that?

I was 10!

I had feelings. I wanted you to talk to me.

And now you want to dredge up the past.

Alright, alright. Then let's talk about how you --

how you used to do that --

that Johnson boy's math homework

so he wouldn't beat you up after school.

Or when you tried to kiss Mary Hodge

at the junior-high dance, but she turned,

and you ended up with your lips

pressed against her shoulder.

How do you know all these things?

This is your dream, man.

This is all you.

Still want to talk about this?

♪♪

Can you... clean me up?

Yeah. That's more like it.

Now, tell me. What have I missed?

♪♪

I have a daughter.

Her name is Margaret.

Or Maggie.

She's brilliant.

[ Chuckles ]

♪♪

[ Indistinct whispering ]

So it looks like a lipoma.

Yeah, we should, um, probably get a CT scan of this.

Here we go.

Oh, hey. Uh, excuse me. I-I need help.

I have a tumor in my upper chest,

and I started having

acute onset severe pain and weakness in my arm.

Simone: Oh, I can help you. Mister...

Lau. Mitch Lau.

I was here this morning.

I-I should be in the system.

Ah. Follow me. Mitch: Okay.

Simone: And when did your pain get worse?

It's onset, so, uh...

Jules: What do we do?

She couldn't even get through lunch without blowing up.

Yeah, but you jumped on her about the baby.

Because I didn't know there was a baby.

[ Miles cooing ]

She always used to do this when we were kids.

Have secret babies?

No. Bury the lede.

She can never just say, "Hey, I lost your jacket,"

or "I got a parking ticket with your car,"

or "I'm dating a guy you hate on the swim team."

[ Miles fussing ] I know, dude.

Then you'd find out, and she'd act like you were the idiot

for thinking she should have told you.

Would you have been any less mad?

I don't know. I never got the chance to find out.

I mean, what did she think was gonna happen here?

Maybe that you'd fall in love with him

and support her as a new mom.

You were genuinely excited about her visit this morning.

Maybe let's not jump to conclusions.

People can start over.

Amelia did.

Erica is not Amelia.

Well-- [ Door closes ]

What was that?

[ Engine starts ]

[ Miles cooing ] Hang in there, bud.

♪♪

Her car is gone.

♪♪

[ Exhales heavily ]

Woman on P.A.: Dr. Dhaliwal to Ophthalmology.

Dr. Rami Dhaliwal to Ophthalmology.

Simone: Okay. One more time for me.

Mitch: Okay. [ Inhales deeply ]

You know, I'm so sorry. I'll be right back.

Mm-hmm.

Hey. I'm examining a patient.

Yeah, we know. We saw him this morning.

Yeah, and we think that Beckman should do the consult.

Oh, Ndugu already saw him.

Which is why we think it would be good

to have a second opinion like Beckman's.

Stop being weird.

Jules: Ndugu submitted Mitch's case

to his insurance for approval.

But that takes time. Mitch doesn't have time.

So he's faking it?

-No. -No, no. The arm pain is real.

He has a large schwannoma in his brachial plexus.

He was laid off, and he's doing a bunch of jobs

that require the use of his arm.

If he doesn't work, he doesn't get paid.

So you told him to fudge his symptoms?

Who came up with this plan?

[ Sighs ] Sally.

Can you just play along, please?

I don't think I can.

I'm a terrible liar, and I...think it's too late.

You called for a consult?

Wasn't this guy here already today?

Yeah, he's got a benign brachial plexus schwannoma.

Yes. He came back with acute onset severe pain.

I think his tumor might have ruptured?

Okay. I'll take a look.

Simone: Oh -- Sorry.

Mitch: Nice to see you guys again.

Lucas: She is a really terrible liar.

Just smile and nod. Just smile and nod.

Woman on P.A.: Dr. Mia Marcozzi to Neurology.

I don't know where you are. I don't know what you're doing.

But you need to get back here right now.

[ Sighs ] God.

I can't believe this is happening again.

Every time. Every time.

I-I want her to be okay so badly,

I ignore all of the red flags.

She's only been gone a few minutes.

Yeah, well, this is how it starts.

Well, should we go look for her?

Honestly, I-I wouldn't even know where to begin.

Well, when Amelia's feeling anxious, she goes to a meeting.

Yeah, or we could just go to every bar in a 10-mile radius.

I'm just trying to help.

[Softly] Well, you're not.

You don't know her.

Now where are you going?

Gonna go get some more diapers and formula.

There's diapers and formula in the bag.

I'm guessing it won't be enough.

♪♪

[ Both chuckle ]

She sounds like a spitfire.

Oh, she is.

She has our hands and Mom's stubborn streak.

Ah, I believe you also got that streak.

[ Both chuckle ]

And she's pregnant.

It's a boy.

Ah. Another Webber man.

Well, actually, he's a Pierce.

Ah, he's got our genes. [ Chuckles ]

Congratulations, Grandpa.

[ Sighs ]

[ Clippers buzzing ]

This is nice.

Told ya.

You know...

Maggie needs to know this.

[ Monitor beeping ]

Wh-- Can you repeat that?

Uh, she should know about our family history in case

her son has a higher risk of prostate cancer.

What?

You know, I'm gonna unplug this thing.

[ Monitor beeping loudly ]

I-I don't understand!

This noise. It doesn't bother you?

You're too sensitive. Relax.

Come on, now. Sit down.

Close your eyes.

[ Beeping continues ]

♪♪

♪♪

[ Clippers buzzing ]

[ Sharp ringing ]

Ah! It's getting worse!

It doesn't go away.

But eventually you'll stop hearing it.

♪♪

♪♪

So what do you -- what do you think?

Well, all signs point to a possible intratumoral bleed.

Except one. Kwan?

The CT we did earlier that didn't show any bleeding?

Bingo. Do you think there's a chance

that he's exaggerating his pain?

I don't think so.

I mean, I-I guess it's possible.

Can't symptoms escalate pretty quickly

if, uh, the tumor suddenly bleeds?

They could, yeah. Okay.

Do we really want to question his pain level?

Okay. Book an O.R., and I'll meet you there.

Yeah. That's a good call.

'Cause even a benign tumor

can be dangerous if it expands rapidly

or if there's sudden internal bleeding --

Cut the crap. I know what you're doing.

Adams and Millin, too.

His tumor could destroy the brachial plexus.

He could lose function of his arm.

I am already in hot water with Bailey

for going rogue this year, okay?

I cannot be a part of this.

And you better be smarter about it, too.

I won't save your asses twice.

♪♪

I had to go to two different stores

to find the right size diapers.

I got formula, glass bottles, wipes.

How is he? How's Miles?

He's fine.

Okay. Mer, I'm sorry.

I just -- I just -- I had to get out.

I had to wrap my head around her abandoning ship.

Well, that seems to run in the family.

Can you not do that? Can you not equate us?

You know, I told you I was going to the store.

Meanwhile, she's a human tornado

that swoops in and destroys my life.

Not if you don't let her.

You think I can control what she does?

I think you can control the way you react to her.

She's a new mother, and she's probably exhausted.

And your life looks pretty intact to me.

So why don't you just take a beat

and not rush to assumptions?

[ Sighs ] Yes. Sure.

But you have to understand, Mer.

Before she left me with Charlotte,

I was gaining respect as an attending

at a prestigious hospital.

I had just put an offer on a house.

I bought a ring.

You've never mentioned that you were engaged.

I wasn't engaged.

She left before I had a chance to propose.

Becoming a parent to a 10-year-old

wasn't part of Ashley's plan, alright?

It doesn't matter. The truth is, I'm scared.

I'm scared, alright?

I love this life we're building.

Me, you, the kids, our work. I don't want to lose it.

Do you understand that? I don't want to lose it.

Well, you're in luck because I don't scare that easily.

So whatever it is, we'll figure it out together.

[ Doorbell rings ]

♪♪

Hi.

♪♪

Winston: More suction.

Kwan, tell me what you see.

Blue: The schwannoma is well encapsulated.

There is a lot of cystic degeneration,

but it looks like the nerve is intact.

Correct. And?

He'll be back to playing tennis soon?

There's no internal bleeding. Do either of you see

any hemorrhaging around the nearby vessels?

Simone: No. Blue: Nothing.

That's right.

Given the amount of pain he had,

something's not adding up.

Griffith, any ideas?

Could the tumor have been trapped

between the scalene muscles?

That is possible, but not likely.

How'd he describe his pain?

He said he had acute onset severe pain

and weakness in his arm.

Or -- Or something like that. Do you need suction?

Okay. Let's place a drain and finish this up.

And someone tell Millin I want to talk with her.

W-Why do you need her?

'Cause I have a few questions.

♪♪

Ah, it looks like Richard will be out of surgery soon.

Okay. Thank you.

♪ If I got a door... ♪

Oh, you didn't get the plot?

[ Sighs ] It already belongs to someone.

I tried to buy them out, but it turns out

that their family has been dying there for generations.

You know, the vow is "'til death do us part."

Oh, I know. I've said it twice.

And twice it didn't stick.

Mnh.

You know, when I was divorcing Robert,

he said to me that I was... a hard woman to love.

Well, that's a horrible thing to say.

He wasn't wrong.

So I just poured my heart

into raising Jackson and my career.

I had a couple of... memorable entanglements.

We don't need the details.

The more time went on, the more finding true love

just seemed like a thing of the past.

And then I met Richard.

I met Richard, and...

all I could see was our future.

♪ The sound, it echoes... ♪

Places we'd go. Things we'd see.

What we'd say to each other.

I didn't have an exact list.

I just knew that I wanted to experience everything with him.

And whatever time we had left would...

...would never be enough.

♪♪

That's why unity in death...

...gives me peace.

Oh, that's lovely.

But maybe you can find that peace...

without having to be buried right next to him.

♪♪

Miranda, what --

what service are you using for your cremation?

I'd like to do that.

Well, there you go!

And spread my ashes all on top of Richard's grave.

Wh-- I'll be closer to him than Adele. Oh!

That is not what I meant.

This makes me feel so much better. Thank you!

Okay. When can I go see my husband?

Stop poking at me! When did this happen?

It doesn't matter. It is what it is.

You distracted me.

Why did you let me just gab on and on?

We were both having a good time.

We could have had more time if you'd said something.

I am a doctor.

Are you saying this was my fault?

You knew I chose this profession

to help people like Mom.

Dad, why didn't you let me help you?

So now I robbed you of your chance to play the hero, huh?

I didn't say that.

Look, you saw how I couldn't

get through a meal without my back hurting.

You saw how many times I went to the restroom

when we watched football on Thanksgiving.

I didn't know those could be symptoms of cancer.

And you did.

You're the doctor. You could have said something, too.

♪ I finally like what I see ♪

So where were you?

I went for a drive, and I-I called my sponsor,

you know, which I probably should have done

before I drove all the way up here.

You were gone for two hours.

Yeah. I also took a nap.

Alright? I -- I am so sleep-deprived.

And I'm -- I'm not thinking clearly.

Yeah, or at all.

[ Scoffs ]

I know that you're freaked out

because of what happened with Charlotte.

I am telling you, I am not that person anymore.

Well, you're doing a good job of acting like it.

You're the one who hasn't changed.

I mean, you refuse to see me as anything

other than your messed-up little sister.

You lied about having a baby.

Then you show up here,

and you're acting like it's no big deal.

Okay. You want to know what happened?

You want to know the truth?

A couple nights ago, I was driving Miles around

to get him to sleep.

And he was screaming so loud,

I couldn't even hear myself think.

And before I knew it, I was pulling

into the parking lot of Ron's Tavern.

And I sat there for 10 minutes staring at that door.

I knew if I walked in there'd be no turning back.

So I started driving and I came here.

I thought you'd be able to help me figure things out.

I-I thought if I told you about him,

you would just start yelling at me.

You know, the conversation would be over

before it started.

I'm gonna go get Miles,

and we're gonna let you get back to your life.

No. Wait. It's okay. J-Just wait. Please.

Can you j-just s-sit down? Where you gonna go?

I'll find a hotel. No.

Just...

Stay.

You know. Stay here.

We can...talk.

We can figure things out.

I've already imposed on you and Meredith enough.

No. Are you kidding? She's probably making up the guest room right now.

You'd be imposing if you left.

Okay. Thanks.

Just don't go running off again.

Well, don't piss me off.

[ Chuckles ]

♪♪

Woman on P.A.: Dr. Joseph to O.R. 2.

Dr. Kennedy Joseph to O.R. 2.

Are you still operating on Mitch?

Just finished.

Griffith and Kwan are closing him now.

I'm sure he's glad to have that taken care of.

Did it go okay?

Yeah. Yeah.

In fact, it was fairly simple.

There was no bleeding in the tumor's vessels.

I'm glad it went well.

Yeah, do you find it suspicious

that he presented with textbook symptoms

of a ruptured vessel with no rupture?

Something else must have been making the pain worse.

There's nothing else you want to say?

I only know what he told me.

Okay, then. See you later.

♪♪

[ Monitor beeping ]

♪♪

I failed you.

It's in the past.

Oh, I should have said something.

I should have pushed you to get checked earlier.

I've regretted it since the day I lost you.

And now...

I'm going to survive the disease that killed you.

♪ Enchanted... ♪

And I'll carry that guilt with me for the rest of my life.

Richard Webber.

What have I told you about tears?

♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh ♪

Um...

Webber men don't have them.

I mean it.

♪ Meet me in the after hours ♪

What's that prayer you say in AA,

the one about knowing

what you can change and what you can't?

The serenity prayer?

Yeah. That's the one.

♪ When the world, when the world is ours ♪

[ Monitor beeping rapidly ] What's happening?

Oh. You're coding.

You hang on! You hang on!

Charge to 200! Clear!

I'm already gone.

I'm not stopping. I'm not stopping!

Okay. Charge again to 300!

Richard. Clear!

[ Click ] Charge again!

Son.

♪ When the world ♪

♪ When the world ♪

♪ When the world is ours ♪

♪ Ours ♪

Have the wisdom to know the difference.

♪ Ours ♪

♪ When the world is ours ♪

[ Monitor flat-lines ]

♪ When the world is ours ♪

♪♪

♪ Ooh-ooh ♪

♪ When the world is ours ♪

♪ Ooh-ooh ♪

♪ Meet me in the after hours ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Ohh, when the world is ours ♪

[ Monitor beeping ]

[ Telephone rings in distance ]

[ Siren wails in distance ]

Richard: Bailey?

Hey.

Welcome back.

Is Catherine...

[ Chuckles ] Chomping at the bit to get in here.

Promising to sit here until you woke up

was the only way she agreed to stay off this floor.

I know it was a big ask.

Mm. I appreciate you.

You might want to withhold judgment on that.

Can you do me one more favor?

So, I need to know what it is first.

Urology patient.

Curtis James.

Can you see how he's doing?

Tell him I'm here if he needs to talk about anything.

Sure.

Um, I'll go get Catherine first.

Meredith: It's not always possible to seek permission

before making decisions.

And you won't get it right every time.

♪ When the nights are long ♪

In those cases, you'll need to seek forgiveness.

[ Murmurs playfully ] No, thanks.

You love this kind.

♪ Slipping underneath ♪

Ndugu knows we helped Mitch.

Simone: I didn't say anything.

Lucas: I-Is he gonna report it?

More importantly, does he think I was a part of it?

♪ Always stuck with me ♪

Whatever it was.

I don't think he's gonna do anything,

but he knows I lied.

♪ Lost without the moon, I need a star ♪

I'm sorry.

Jules: Oh, it's not your fault.

I blame Sally. That bitch is dead to me.

♪ Wherever life may take me, no matter what I do ♪

Thank you.

You hope your patient,

your friend, your family member

will understand you tried your best.

You hope they'll show you grace.

They're both asleep.

Good. They need it.

♪ Ooh-ooh ♪

And they only have about 30 minutes

before the kids come home

and the whole house is full of chaos.

[ Laughs ]

Chaos is where Erica thrives.

Well, then I'm glad you invited her to stay.

Me too.

♪ I will always have the pieces of you ♪

Can I ask you something?

♪♪

Would you, um --

Would you really have raised Miles with me?

I mean, if it had come to that?

♪ Reminded me... ♪

Are you asking me if I want to have another baby?

[ Laughs ]

No. Definitely no.

But I meant what I said.

Whatever happens, we're in this together.

♪ I will always have the pieces of you ♪

I know.

Asking yourself for forgiveness can be even harder.

♪ The pieces of you ♪

We carry the burden of our past mistakes.

♪ Ooh-ooh ♪

Thank you for taking such good care of him.

♪ Pieces of you ♪

Thank you for taking care of me.

I didn't do anything.

Couldn't have been easy for you to step back

and let somebody take the lead on this.

You know, I don't like being second banana to anyone,

but in this case, it was worth it.

♪ I will always have the pieces of you ♪

You are cancer-free.

♪♪

Say it again.

You are cancer-free.

[ Chuckles ]

♪ Wherever life may take me ♪

♪ No matter what I do, I will always have... ♪

But if you let them go...

♪ The pieces of you ♪

...you can soar.

♪ The pieces of you ♪

♪♪

♪♪

♪♪