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- Get your hands off the radio! - What?

- I want to play something. Stop! No! - Oh, God, no.

- I want to turn it up. Please! - It's my radio!

God, you're such a shit!

Ellen, watch the... watch the road! Watch the road!

Stop! Wait!

No!

Veronica...

Veronica?

Veronica!

Morning, V.

Today...

I'm a three.

Which is good, yesterday was like a six.

♪ In comes the night ♪

♪ Lift up the flight ♪

♪ Swallow the key ♪

♪ Do not know why ♪

♪ Solar flares now ♪

♪ Holy war rounds ♪

♪ Polar shift pounds ♪

♪ No more good towns ♪

♪ I'll sound alarms ♪

♪ The warning sign ♪

♪ The signal flare ♪

♪ Chasing the lights ♪

♪ Send the ship south ♪

♪ In the storm clouds ♪

♪ From a beach locked in a dark town ♪

♪ Uh oh! This town's on fire ♪

♪ Hello, I hear the choir ♪

♪ Uh oh! Oh no! ♪

♪ So I build your funeral pyre ♪

♪ Whisper to me something that your heart desires ♪

♪ Uh oh! Oh no! ♪

♪ Soon we will be expired ♪

- Hey. - Hey, Care Bear.

Can we do a quick packing check, please?

Okay, fine.

- Clothes? - Check.

Toothbrush? Bathroom stuff?

That is very vague, but check.

- Meds? - Check.

Everything you need for Portland?

- Check. - Sounds like you've got everything.

That's the worst packing check ever.

Do you have all of your diabetic accoutrements?

- Of course. - What about your paperwork for South Dakota?

Uh, yeah. Junior, it's fine. Don't worry.

- I'm just preparing. - I know, Polar Bear.

Just... get in the shower and I'll be there in a bit, okay?

Okay, bye.

♪ ...that your heart desires ♪

♪ Uh oh! Oh no! ♪

♪ Soon we will be expired ♪

♪ Soon we will be expired ♪

♪ Soon we will be expired ♪

♪ Soon we will be expired ♪

♪ Soon we will be expired ♪

♪ Soon we will be expired ♪

- ♪ Soon we will be expired ♪ - Thanks, Sam.

♪ Soon we will be ♪

♪ Uh oh! Oh no! ♪

♪ Soon we will be expired ♪

♪ Uh oh! Oh no! ♪

♪ Soon we will be expired ♪

♪ Uh oh! Oh no! ♪

♪ Soon we will be expired ♪

- Uh, hey, hon. - Mm-hmm.

I thought we talked about downsizing?

I did...

You seriously just going to watch me?

I don't want to waste my arms on this.

If you want me to drive too, I can't.

Alright, what else do you need in the back seat?

- Hmm, the record player? - You got your keys?

Okay.

Okay, okay. We have been on the road now for two hours...

...and I haven't heard any of Veronica's songs!

Okay, only because it's Veronica's stuff.

See?

I mean, I like that smile on your face.

That's pretty dope.

It's good, it's...

♪ I sit and watch these people go to see ♪

♪ A love that's soulless not for us, we don't care ♪

♪ Make it work, polarize stay and play, advertise ♪

♪ Keep it cool, you us hey ♪

♪ I'll keep your ring you keep the church ♪

♪ Take off my clothes and leave them ♪

♪ Market shares build it right, itemize ♪

♪ We don't care, stay up late all the night ♪

♪ We don't tire, you us hey ♪

- What is that? - I don't know!

It's a little poppy for me.

Don't give me diabetes again with your music.

So, I'm sorry, how does diabetes work?

Sh... should I just turn the car around?

I was going to fall asleep when you started...

...but, no, I'm really interested.

Why don't you just get it renewed online?

I don't know! Just the way I've always done it.

Well, why don't you have a California driver's license?

Because it seems like a lot of paperwork?

I think I'd be embarrassed to have a South Dakota driver's license.

- Just saying! - Aw, that's really sweet.

Hey, what are you doing? You're driving. Go!

- Ugh! - Go!

Wait, hold on. Just give me a second, okay?

- Hey, what's up? - Hey.

- Did you talk to her? - No, but...

- No, dude, don't... don't call me... - I just want...

- ...unless you actually talk to her, okay? - Alright, fine.

- Alright, talk to you later. - Alright.

- Alright, you ready? - Yeah.

Alright, let's go!

- Who you talking to? - Uh... I was just talking to my brother.

So, I... I found the ice,

and I could barely touch the bottom,

and... I hit my head on something,

so I don't really remember what happened,

but... somehow my friend pulled me out.

So, I guess I died... for a few seconds.

But I guess it just never really occurred to me to tell my parents about it.

Isn't it weird how things just aren't a big deal, if you don't acknowledge it?

Like when a kid hits its head and you laugh so it doesn't cry and freak out.

Yes, exactly. Exactly.

You know, I think I was kind of that way after my surgery,

I was, like, in so much physical pain,

but I was just completely casual about how I was suffering.

It was like the mental anguish was enough,

that I didn't know how to...

like, deal with my physical pain,

so I just, like, didn't acknowledge it.

I just put it in a box, put it to the side,

didn't think about it, said, "I'll talk to you later."

- You can deal with pain for, like, 30 seconds. - Yeah.

Like anyone, any kind of pain.

But then 30 seconds becomes 30 minutes,

and then... 30 minutes becomes a month,

and then a month becomes... years later.

I have no idea why we started talking about my pain.

- I'm sorry. - Dude, don't apologize.

I mean, look at you. You're driving.

Your pain can suck it.

Yeah, suck it.

I never told my parents I knew they weren't in love with each other.

Shit, woman.

If that's not the first line of your memoir.

- Alright, let me go over, assholes. You have to get over. - I'm trying!

- Get over! - God, stop yelling at me...

- I'm not... - ...you're like the worst fucking nav system ever.

- Let me over, dick cheese. - Stop it, can you...

- No, hold on! - No, you hold on.

- Jesus Christ! - Fuck!

Shut up, shut up, shut up.

You're from LA, I thought you were a better driver.

I am, I'm just highly aggressive.

That's the LA driving way.

Did you ever see that movie Leaving Las Vegas, with Nicolas Cage?

The one where he gets, like, blackout drunk the whole time?

It's a little... more nuanced than that, but yeah.

I just think we shouldn't do a Nicolas Cage in Vegas.

Oh, yeah, there's nothing worse than, like, hungover driving.

We have to find a perfect balance, okay?

Of, uh, dulling all of these senses

and still being able to get in this vehicle tomorrow,

- drive and not throw up everywhere. - Yeah!

- I can do that. - Well, guess what? You are in luck,

because I am the expert at that.

- How? - I took a class.

Out of this entire road trip we planned,

Vegas scares me the most. Isn't that depressing?

Even more than Portland?

I think Portland is going to be, like, mental pain, I guess,

but physical pain.

You know, it's... it's electric, it's alive.

The lights, the money, the people.

All my nerves, they start going like that.

You know, there's other hotels. We don't have to stay here.

Oh, I didn't say I wanted to skip it.

- It was just letting you know. - Alright, well,

let's get to dulling those senses then!

- Oh! - ♪ Bring on the sirens ♪

Truth, dare. Truth, dare. Truth, dare.

Truth, dare. Dare to... dare, truth!

Okay, if all of this can't handle all of that,

then we just come back and we enjoy the pretty lights, deal?

- Deal. - Seal it with a drink.

- Oh! Oh! - Oh!

Don't chug it, jeez!

- I'm from LA! - What?

I have a chronic pain disorder.

Totally.

You can't see my pain. It makes me really lonely.

Sagittarius.

I have diabetes!

A-bada-deesh-ada-bam!

Humm ashabe!

Bye, Sagittarius!

Oh, my God!

Okay, okay, okay, okay. Alright.

Uh, truth or dare?

- Dare. - You always pick dare!

- Duh... - Okay, fine!

How about...

I dare you to piss in the sink.

- Okay! - No, dude!

- So gross! - I mean, I got to pee, so...

I already said I could do it, you're not supposed to do it!

Oh, my God!

Yep. Watch this. Oh!

- Oh! - Oh, Jun, are you okay?

- I have a romper on! - Well, that's part of why I dared you!

- Is because I could say, "Hers was a dare!" - You say...

I can't feel pain!

I can't feel pain.

Is this... is this what...

is this what other people feel like?

And their lives, like, all the time, pain-free?

Okay... yeah...

Your turn, truth or dare?

Truth, because I don't want to move.

Tell me a secret.

Okay, what are we, five?

Yes.

Ugh, okay.

A secret.

Okay, I...

I don't think that my mom left because I got sick.

I think she left because I was never going to be

Miss Teen Supreme, pageant... whatever.

I think that I got sick, and that was, like,

the final straw that broke the camel's back or something.

- I don't know. - You really think that?

- Does it really matter? Stop! - I'm sorry.

- What... stop! No, don't pet me! Stop! - I'm sorry! I'm sorry!

- Stop! - You're so fucking sad.

Yeah, okay. Truth or dare?

- I'm sorry your mom was dumb. - Yeah, yeah, yeah. Truth or dare?

- Truth. - Alright, okay.

The big spoon. Make it a really good one.

- Mm. - Okay!

It's going to be a really intense truth.

- Are you ready? - Yeah.

- It's so super deep. - Mm-hmm.

Did you ever truly believe in unicorns?

Fuck.

Oh, my God.

Oh, f... shit.

We did not just fall asleep...

Fucking tub.

Oh, God.

Oh...

- Oh, Junior... - Oh, balls.

Oh, my God.

Oh, you have to call a crane.

I don't think they have that service here.

♪ And you paint your nails ♪

♪ The color of stone ♪

♪ The dreams of Persia always sleep alone ♪

♪ And I want you like a lightning ♪

♪ Wants to black out the city below ♪

♪ And you never pick up the telephone ♪

Oh... oh, God.

- Help... help me. - I don't want to.

- You'll help me. - No, I don't want to.

I'm still drunk!

To the Salt Flats.

What the hell are Salt Flats?

Really? It's a Veronica stop.

Are we growing?

We're always growing.

I used to think that.

I feel stagnant.

Alright, well, maybe you're not growing right this minute,

but that's because you're hungover with your face in salt.

Ah... Fuck.

Oh, God.

Why do we keep hurting ourselves?

Because it feels really good at the time.

What else is there but feeling good at the time?

Well, I don't know about you, but...

I feel pretty good right now.

Apart from being super dehydrated.

Cheers, V.

- Ready? - Mm-hmm.

♪ Shutter lights ♪

♪ The stars glitter bones ♪

♪ And bitter hearts watch the skies turn gray ♪

♪ Around the street lights ♪

♪ Silhouettes the streets ♪

♪ Neon lights and empty seats ♪

♪ With twenty friends half spent into midnight ♪

♪ So cut me down and count my rings ♪

♪ Leave my roots and wait for spring ♪

♪ Or leave me dry, washed up ♪

♪ On the causeway ♪

♪ And from the sky you've watched me burn ♪

♪ And in my smoke your phrases turn ♪

♪ To hopeful eyes half fixed... ♪

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

- Oh, there we go. Okay. - Oh, I need that bed.

But... I like to be near the bathroom.

I can't be by the air.

Oh, that's right. Okay.

- Thanks. - No, it's no problem.

I like all the large homeless men to be able to see me. I need to get some.

I think maybe you should close the blinds.

- Oh, no. It takes all the fun out of it. - Okay.

- Oh, holy shit. - Oh, my God. What?

You know it's a classy-ass establishment,

when the name is on the towel.

- You take me to all the best places. - Oh, you know it, sugar.

I'm so lucky.

Alright, I am ordering pizza.

- Really? - Oh, it's fine.

I'll just tell my robot pancreas to suck it.

Okay.

Hi! Yeah, can I get, um,

a medium pepperoni pizza, with extra cheese?

Yeah, we are at the, uh, Lazy Lodge.

Alright, thanks. Bye.

- Thirty minutes. - Cool.

So, when was the last time you were actually home?

Uh... four years?

Four years, so you mean...

the last time you needed a driver's license renewed?

Oh, look at you. You're quick.

Mama didn't raise no dummy here.

Being all healthy now?

- Balance, young Padawan. - Oh, okay.

Mads?

- Hey, Care Bear. - Hey, hey.

- You okay? - Yeah, that pizza was just too much,

so I got to get the insulin in the cells faster.

- Regulate. - Yeah.

Text me if you need me, okay?

Thanks. I'll be in in a bit.

Yeah, I'm going to be in the bed.

Yeah, I'm jealous.

High? Higher? Highest?

High-ish.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Does that hurt?

It feels like a really thick exfoliant on a sunburn.

- Oh, God! - Yeah.

- Hey, so listen. I printed out some maps... - Ooh. You printed out maps?

Of course I did. We may not always have phones, and...

Uh...

We'll be fine, okay?

- I mean, I'm sure we will be, but it could happen, you know? - Okay!

And so anyway, I marked points of interest,

because I really want to go to the library in Salt Lake City.

- They have these huge windows and all... - No, hold on, look. Okay.

Is this a Veronica stop?

I mean, not specifically.

Well, then no, dude!

Your arms can handle more than that.

They just handled Vegas!

You can handle more than libraries.

More Than Libraries, that's the name of my next album.

Ooh! Besides, if we're going through Salt Lake,

we have to see the victim of the beast.

- That sounds very dangerous. - It is.

- Did you take it? - Have to act more dead.

Got it.

Veronica would have liked this stop.

Wah!

Good.

I'm going to get you, Emily Rose.

Oh, I'd like to see you try, Linda Blair.

Oh, God.

So, what's with the shot glasses?

When Veronica was on tour, she thought it was this cool idea,

- to leave just this little piece of her everywhere she went. - Hmm.

- So, I thought I could carry that tradition on for her. - Cool, I like that.

What song...

would you play at your funeral?

"Life Is a Cabaret."

- That actually doesn't shock me at all about you. - Yeah?

You're like a drag queen on the inside.

That's the best compliment I've ever got.

- I do feel like there's a drag queen inside me. - It's a good compliment!

It is a good compliment. You're like an inner showgirl.

I can see you, like, in your casket with, like, a boa around you...

- Pshaw! - ...with, like, glitter. I love it.

Can I ask that same question to you?

Uh, "Feelin' Alright" by Joe Cocker.

- I mean, but... - Irony. I'm dead.

- But you're not feel... I mean, I would think... - I'm not feeling anything.

Which is feeling alright to me.

- Alright, a way to take it down there, Junior. - Oh.

- I think we're going to have the best funerals ever. - Right?

- Well, let's not get dead today, okay? - Yeah, no, no, no, not today.

I'll drive safe, I'll drive safe.

Okay. Now, remember, we need sustenance, and we're on a budget.

- Yes, Mom, but I'm going to go pee first. - Have fun!

Now, do here.

You pay?

- There. - Thank you.

Fuck.

- Thank you. - You need anything else?

- No, I'm good. - Okay!

Who put the fucking toilet so far away

from the goddamn trash can?

Oh...

Fuck, fucking hands.

Okay.

Did it.

Hey!

What did you find out?

Yeah.

Okay. Well, I mean, do it, I guess.

I mean, what choice do we have?

Yeah... Hey, I got to go.

I'm sorry. I... I just... I got to go.

Alright. Bye.

Hey!

- What you doing? - Just work stuff.

- Thanks for tampon. - No problem.

It's just so stupid!

I know it's stup... it's the perfect time!

No, dude. You take my good mood, and this is what you do with it?

- One more time! - Ugh, fine.

I think we can get it. I think I can get it this time.

- Alright. Sh... show me. - If I get it, will you get...

If I get it right, can I have an ice cream cone?

- Okay, Pam. - Thanks, Brenda.

♪ I sit and watch these people go to see ♪

♪ A love that's soulless not for us, we don't care ♪

♪ Make it work, polarize stay and play, advertise ♪

- ♪ Keep it cool, you us hey ♪ - That was pretty good.

♪ I'll keep my ring you keep the church ♪

♪ Take off my clothes and leave them ♪

♪ Market shares build it right, itemize ♪

♪ We don't care, play at night think it right ♪

♪ Work at night, you us hey ♪

Wait, no... Okay, no! This is cheating!

Second of all, you didn't even get the lyrics right with this,

So, no!

I'm sorry. A little hand dance was good.

I... I can totally see it.

♪ Is getting rid of your petty shit ♪

♪ Shit ♪

Perfect.

♪ You take the keys and drive me home ♪

♪ I stay asleep and dream ♪

♪ Bobby Jones, future friends lemon pies, holiday ♪

♪ East 16s, metagames work it right, you us hey ♪

♪ I see the waves you see the stars ♪

...Then he brought those dudes everywhere!

Oh, God.

♪ Work it right, you us hey ♪

♪ Take me away to Tijuana ♪

♪ I can't stay long I got to wander ♪

♪ My weakness here I must admit ♪

♪ Is getting rid of your petty shit ♪

♪ Shit ♪

- See, you've got that part down! - Yes!

♪ Du, du-du, du, du ♪

♪ Du-du, du-du, du-du ♪

♪ Du-du, du-du, du-du du-du, du-du ♪

♪ Du, du, du, du, du da, da, da ♪

♪ Du, du, da-da, da, da ♪

♪ Da-da, da, da-da, da da-da, da, da-da, da ♪

♪ Da-da, da, da-da, da work it right, you us hey ♪

♪ Take me away to Tijuana ♪

♪ I can't stay long I got to wander ♪

You want a drink?

Cousins or, like, uncles?

- No, no. - What?

You're not going to get that on this trip,

okay? This isn't the kind of thing,

where you're going to meet, like, 12 cousins and uncles

and see, like, baby bath pictures when I was five. It's just my grandma.

God, I don't know what it's like to be unchained from family.

Not that I need chains to be with my family, they're great,

but it must feel bizarre to feel not responsible to anyone.

But you're not responsible. You don't have any kids.

I have parents, old parents.

Yeah, but you're not responsible for them.

But I am. They took care of me.

I mean, after the accident, I had to move back in with my parents,

and I was almost 30 years old.

They were mourning the loss of their daughter,

and their other daughter.

I was a grown-ass woman, they didn't have to take care of me.

But they did.

They were really great. And when the doctors

didn't believe my pain, they did.

They said, "Junior, don't worry. We'll find you another doctor."

And they never gave up.

And yet I still have the weirdest fear

of not being believed.

Because existing in that space of not knowing fucking sucks.

Yeah.

Well, your parents are very different from my parents.

- I want to be a little honest about something. - Shoot.

I'm kind of jealous of you...

...because you have this recognizable disease.

- I know it's really gross to say. - No, no, no.

- It's the alcohol. - I get it. I get it.

- Human nature, grass is always greener, all that. - Yeah.

But, hey, at least you didn't do that to yourself.

- I mean... - Now, this...

- That I think I did to myself. - Mm-mm.

Pretty sure this isn't helping me.

Hell, no.

Fuck positivity!

- Cheers to that. - Cheers.

- Another round, Doran. - You bet, coming up.

But, yeah, I mean, you can see, like, on my finger,

like, little tiny pinpricks. It's like a little...

little, uh, pin cushion.

My stomach's a big pin cushion,

and my fingers are like little pin cushions, but...

That's a heck of a routine.

Yeah, it's a lot of fun.

- What's your routine? - I have to take my pills.

- And it's... there's a lot of them. - Yeah.

- Shit, girl. - That's... that's my daily pills.

- They're huge. - Thank you.

- And I'm going to have to take some pain pills too. - Ah, jeez.

I'm going to need some breakfast,

or I'm going to throw all of these pills up.

- It's a good idea. I'll go get you an omelet. - Yeah.

Would you like yours cooked in butter?

So, okay, this drive, imagine walking this

every day to get to the school bus.

- That's what I had to do. - Oh, my God.

- You want to know the weird part? - What?

After my mom left and my dad died,

I used to live with my grandma, and I kind of missed it.

- Weird thought, maybe you just missed your family? - Maybe.

Hate to break it to you, hon, but I think we're walking from here.

Come on.

- Yay! - Yeah.

- I love walking. - "Yay" is right.

- I need to get my stuff. Hold on. - Alright.

You can tell this place used to be pretty.

Please don't make this another metaphor for your body.

It's a close fit.

Over there, that's where my brother used to take me

in his revved up Camaro and we did doughnuts.

Oh, I loved it!

I look forward to meeting him.

You will.

It's so crazy being back here.

This is where you almost died?

Yeah, it's...

so much bigger than I remember.

I mean, it used to be a creek, and... and when it was frozen,

you could barely see underneath it.

Man, if I were you, I would have so made out with that boy that saved me.

Scary.

It's definitely pleasant.

- I think it's the definition of the word "pleasant." - That it is.

I don't think I could do it all the time, though.

I definitely couldn't live here.

The way people don't want to live in California

because of the constant sun.

- Too much of a good thing... - ...is a better thing.

Uh-huh.

I'm the same age now as my mom was when she left.

Shit.

Time is dumb. I mean, according to social norms,

I should have a kid in high school by now.

Instead, I can barely hold a toothbrush.

My body hurts.

I need a fucking joint.

I don't really want to get high.

I just want the pain to go away.

Well, hey, enjoy it. I have to pee.

- Alright. - Enjoy nature and shit.

Bet you never thought you'd see South Dakota.

Miss you.

What you doing?

I buried this when I was a teenager.

Can't believe it's still here.

I can't believe you remembered where you buried it.

A watch?

A watch my mom gave me.

Oh... I...

Alright, let's motor.

Oh, I got to get in the back seat.

- I got to stretch out. - Dude, just wait till we stop.

- No, it hurts now. It hurts now. - That's not safe.

Is that a cow? Is that a cow? It's brown!

I thought cows were black and white.

Well, that's racist.

I've only seen them on my plate, and they're delicious.

Hey, did I ever tell you the cow story?

- What cow story? - Oh, one minute it was, like, getting dark,

and my mom was driving, and there was just a cow

standing in the middle of the road.

I was really young and there was, like, six of us in the car.

I think we were coming back from, like, a movie or something.

And she hit it, right? And it goes right up on the windshield.

And I go under the dash and break my arm,

and she goes under the windshield and she's pulling out, like,

shards of glass for the next two years, it was crazy.

That's the most Midwestern story I've ever heard in my life.

Yeah, tell me about it.

Okay, here we are.

I love that they have keys.

I have to lay down.

- Okay. - All that farm walking.

- My knee hurts. - Alright, lay down.

I'll go get the rest of the stuff.

- Hey, Miles. - Hey, kid.

- What happened? - I called the number back.

- Yeah? - It was a Vermont number.

Vermont?

That doesn't make any sense.

- I know. - Okay?

I found Mom.

Shit.

I booked us flights from Portland,

so hurry up and get here, okay?

Okay.

♪ 'Cause I know how it feels when you are low ♪

♪ You hold me down when you are hurt ♪

♪ I watch you fade away ♪

♪ But you see what I hold inside of me ♪

♪ You hurt yourself in spite of me ♪

♪ And then you say my name ♪

♪ And it all just sounds like ooh, ooh ♪

♪ Ooh, ooh ♪

♪ When we're away from the crowd ♪

♪ And the lights are coming down ♪

♪ We're chasing the moon ♪

♪ And the time is running out ♪

♪ 'Cause I don't want to know what you did long ago ♪

♪ Every time you disappear you're right back at my door ♪

♪ We can make it together for worse or for better ♪

♪ No matter the way I'll be coming back for more ♪

Oh, fuck it. Fuck it.

♪ 'Cause I know how it feels when you are low ♪

♪ You hold me down when you are hurt ♪

♪ I watch you fade away ♪

♪ So what was I to do? Ooh ♪

Oh, fuck.

Oh, fuck. Okay.

We have to get up. We have to get up, come on.

Up, up, up. Let's go.

I can't.

Okay, I know your period makes things worse,

but what's your number?

Number seven. I cannot make it to Grandma's.

How late did you stay up after I went to sleep last night?

So, you just decided to keep drinking?

No.

I don't need your judgment.

I just needed the pain to stop, okay?

No, I'm not judging. It just...

It just seems counterproductive, is all.

- Well, you're one to talk, pizza bitch. - Hey!

There's no need to name-call. I'm just trying to get us going.

God.

I get up at five o'clock to walk 13 blocks to church,

and then I walk home 17 blocks to my apartment.

And then the rest of the day, we go to a movie

or just do some shopping, or we go out to eat.

- I'm glad you're staying active. - I have to be busy.

Yeah. So, uh...

I went to the old farm yesterday.

- Been so many years. - I... it has been.

You know, when Mom left, she, uh...

She left me something of yours.

And I hid it.

I don't know why I just...

I just did and, um...

I, uh... back when I was at the farm, I...

I dug it up.

I'm just... I think you should have it back.

This is from my mother...

for my birthday, one year.

Sorry, grandma.

So good to have it back.

I've been thinking about this watch for so long, and...

I don't need it anymore because...

Miles found Mom.

And I think I want to go see her.

I miss my daughter.

I hope she's nice to you, and I hope she realizes

what a precious gift she has,

because you are just a precious gift.

And look, you were...

more than a mom to me, in the few years that you took care of me.

I just need to know why. I need to know what happened,

what she was thinking.

I just... I just need to understand.

I love you, grandma.

Thank you.

Thank you for everything.

I love you so much.

- Hey. - Hey.

- How was grandma's? - Uh, it... it was fine.

- It was fine. Uh... - Good.

- Alright, you ready? - Yes.

- Let's get it over with. - Yeah, DMV.

- Okay... - Then Portland.

- Portland! Yeah. - Yeah.

Okay.

I got it, bitch!

- Good! - Let's go to Portland!

- Portland! - Yes!

- No... - Sorry I was a dick this morning.

South Dakota just does something to me, man.

- I get it. I love you. - Thank you.

- I love you, too. - Let's go to Portland!

Let's go to Portland! Let's go to Portland!

Let's go to Portland!

- Let's... - Let's get out of South Dakota!

Let's go to Portland!

♪ I don't know what makes you cry ♪

♪ You know I never did ♪

♪ You know I never did ♪

♪ And I can't see what makes you smile ♪

♪ You know I never did ♪

♪ You know I never did ♪

♪ We're only seconds from the stars ♪

♪ We're only roaming through the dark ♪

♪ We're always looking for a new dimension ♪

♪ A lightspeed vision in us ♪

Alright, let's... let's see what this song is about.

I'm playing this damn thing.

♪ I sit and watch these people go to see ♪

- ♪ A love that's soulless not for us, we don't care ♪ - God damn it!

♪ My weakness here I must admit ♪

♪ Is getting rid of your petty shit ♪

♪ Shit ♪

Alright, Veronica. It's pretty good, actually.

♪ We're only seconds from the stars ♪

♪ We're only roaming through the dark ♪

♪ We're always looking for a new dimension ♪

♪ A lightspeed vision in us ♪

♪ We're only searching for a sound ♪

♪ We're always losing what we found ♪

♪ We're always looking for a new dimension ♪

♪ A lightspeed vision in us ♪

Shit!

Why?

God! God, have you been holding onto that since Salt Lake?

Camera share!

♪ ...the dark We're always looking... ♪

One, two, three...

- Did it work? - Get...

You have to jump higher than that.

- One more time. - Okay, alright.

- Hold the girls. Hold Thelma and Louise. - Ready?

Ready? Alright.

One, two, three...

Alright, thank you so much.

Alright, let's see how they turned out.

Oh, my God!

We're a mess.

- Which one does he live in? Miles! - I think it's 670.

Stop screaming down the halls like a banshee.

People live here.

- Miles! Oh, my God! - Hey!

- There she is! - How have you been? What is this situation?

- Um, well, I shaved it off, um... - Oh, God!

- Look at you. - Ugh...

- This is Junior. - Hi.

Junior, nice to finally meet you.

Oh, I can't really shake, but a hug?

That's right. Yeah, I forgot about the... the arms.

- I heard all about them. - Yeah, I have arms.

No, I mean, she told me all about the...

- Issues? - Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah, that's not uncomfortable.

I have complex regional pain syndrome, type two.

Yeah.

Congratulations?

- Thank you. - Yeah.

Mads has diabetes.

I do?

- Yeah. - This is huge!

Alright. Make yourself at home. Whatever you guys want, um...

Throw your stuff anywhere.

Drinks?

Fuck, man. I can't believe you live in this place.

I mean, you are adulting so good. Like, too good.

What is it you do for a living?

Software engineer.

Oh.

What about you? What do you do, Junior?

I survive.

Okay, she's being dramatic.

She writes greeting cards.

- Oh, neat. - Mm.

I'm a struggling writer with the funk hands.

- How poetic. - Indeed...

I mean, what is life without some struggle?

- No... - Oh, so they're nihilistic greeting cards.

It's a big market for that.

It's huge. It's huge, I'm really rich.

Hey, thanks for letting us stay here.

This is a really bitching place.

You guys are always welcome.

Plus, I would do anything in the world for this little water egg.

No...

I'm not so little anymore.

It's good to see you again.

♪ Without a name to hold you down ♪

♪ Without a face to keep you bound ♪

♪ Where the sky is a magnolia parade ♪

♪ You'll fly away ♪

♪ You'll fly away ♪

♪ Blooming bruises couldn't answer ♪

♪ Black and blue you were a canvas ♪

I think she cried herself to sleep last night.

I don't know how I can look her in the eye and tell her, she's going to be heartbroken.

You two are honest with each other, right?

Mostly.

What have you told her?

- Nothing. - Mads...

- I know, I know. - You know what? You're avoiding.

I'm avoiding, I get it. Thank you.

I mean, I'm just...

I mean, she's only heard me bitch about Mom, you know?

Like that, "My mom left me, so she's worse than your mom."

All that stuff.

I don't think she's going to get why I need to see her.

Okay, what's the story with the arms?

Alright.

She and her sister were taking, like, a road trip from LA to Portland.

Like a sister vacation thing.

And... they got into a car accident, and her sister died.

And Junior, she broke a bunch of bones

and had to have surgery on her arms,

and...

...that resulted in this chronic pain disorder and...

chronic pain, something, something syndrome.

She... she calls it CRPS.

- Fuck. - Yeah.

I was also driving that car.

Uh, morning! I just... I was telling Miles about your arms.

- You know, that's weird brunch conversation. - Yeah, yeah.

Do you want some death with your eggs?

- Maybe some chronic pain? - Just coffee.

Oof, I like coffee.

- You got it. - Thanks.

So, how did you sleep?

- Surprisingly well. - On the floor?

I know, weird. Body hurts a little bit,

but I don't know.

- You have good floors. - I'm sure you say that to all the boys.

Ah, it's like he knows me already.

So anyway... I know there's a lot of things

you want to do in Portland, uh, but I have to grab a shower.

Wash this messy hair, so...

- Thank God. - Yeah.

So, Portland. How long have you lived here?

Seven years. The city's been good to me.

What about you? Your first visit?

Technically, yes. That... that whole car wreck thing she was telling you about.

My sister and I were on our way to Portland.

She was really obsessed with this city and wanted to see it.

We didn't quite make it.

I'm kind of here for her.

Wait, that wasn't your question, um...

To answer your question, yes. This is my first time here.

Yeah.

I'm sorry about your sister.

I can't imagine losing Mads.

Yeah, Mads is special. She's been a really good friend to me.

- You raised her right. - Oh, we raised each other.

- I'm only five years older. - Only?

Veronica and I were five years apart. I was older.

We had great parents and I still feel like I raised her.

You know, I think it's just this older sibling thing.

- You know what I mean? - Yeah. Yeah.

Responsibility's kind of driven into us, huh?

Exactly.

Hey, um, Junior?

You aren't even in the shower yet!

Yeah, I know. Um, can I talk to you in the bedroom?

- Tampon situation? - No! That's all you, babe.

Excuse me.

Oh, my goodness. What's up, Care Bear?

Well...

Okay, um...

Miles found my mom.

Oh...

- I didn't know you were looking for her. - Miles did the looking.

- Where is she? - Vermont.

- Vermont? Why is she in Vermont? - I don't know.

- Do you have family in Vermont? - I don't know.

Miles thinks that I need to face her.

And so, he... he booked a plane ticket, and...

I'm going to go see her.

Wow. M... Mads, that's huge.

When are you going?

Tomorrow, at noon.

What? Are you fucking kidding me?

- Junior, I'm sorry. - We're 1,000 miles from LA, Mads!

Junior, I know that. I know that. I'm so sorry.

- I just... - Why can't you wait till we get back to LA,

- then go to Vermont? - I get it. But look, I know you think my jobs are stupid.

Okay? But... but I need them to pay my bills,

and I can't get any more time off.

Alright, even I know that's bullshit, but...

It's now or never. Okay? Because...

if I don't do it now, I never will.

And I need to know why, okay? It...

It's the same as this trip for you and Veronica. You know, you have to heal...

- It is not the same! - Yes, it is! Okay? It doesn't matter

the catalyst for hurting, the healing is the same.

Ugh, I don't want your fortune cookie shit, save it for your mommy.

Oh, Junior, come on! Stop! I know this sucks,

but why are you so mad at me about this?

Because you're abandoning me, when I need you the most!

This whole trip has been about you!

I didn't even go to the library, because of you!

- What library? - In Salt Lake City.

Oh... I... I didn't get that that meant so much to you,

- I'm sorry. - Whatever. You're just like everybody else.

Everybody who? Who else? And you can't say your parents.

Oh, you're one to talk, little girl.

Look, Junior. I think that you use me as a crutch. You don't need me.

I didn't know Veronica, and maybe...

and maybe it makes more sense that you do this alone.

I can't believe you're turning this around like, "Oh, it's a great idea to do it alone."

- It has nothing to do with your selfish agenda! - My selfish agenda?

This has to do with my mom, who's alive, by the way.

- Bring it back in, Mads. - No, don't.

- She's acting like a child. - So are you.

Whose side are you on?

Don't do that, alright? You sound like Mom right now.

Are you just going to swing from left to right on the pendulum, just like that?

Look, I think you should apologize, okay?

Don't you?

- No, Junior, just stop. Stop, okay? Wait. - Nope.

What, you're just going to let her leave?

Obviously she needs to cool off.

If I go after her,

we're just going to yell at each other.

She just... needs her alone time.

Yeah, don't we all.

♪ And it's so lovely when you're lonely ♪

♪ 'Cause you call me and you smell like ♪

♪ Purple poppies when they're blooming ♪

♪ Can I pick you? I will be your queen of the west ♪

♪ I'll keep your heart in a chest ♪

♪ So take me out of my dress ♪

Well, V... we made it.

The tiniest park.

In the middle of a road.

I don't know why you found this so charming.

I brought you something.

I brought you Dorothy.

I know she was your first.

And now she's going to be your last.

♪ You know, in space there's no cars ♪

♪ Now you see it makes my toes warm ♪

♪ When we cuddle ♪

♪ So high like an acrobatic bubble ♪

I miss you.

♪ ...it's a one-time ride Can you hear me... ♪

This place is a little bit charming.

I get it.

♪ Let the water inside ♪

♪ Can you hear me? ♪

♪ I will sleep tonight ♪

♪ Can you hear me? ♪

♪ Can you hear me? ♪

♪ Oh, oh, we're, oh we're, we're, oh ♪

♪ Oh, oh, we're, oh... ♪

At least you got that, I never even got a phone call.

Why aren't you more angry about that?

Because I don't care.

Alright? She left me when I was a grown-ass man.

I wasn't a teenager like you.

I knew from the moment that she put us in that car

that one night, to go chase after, uh...

- What was his n... the guy with the... Tony. - The guy... Tony.

- With that ugly red hat he wears around. - Yes!

Oh, my God. What did it say? It had something about, like...

- Konkey Donk on it or something. - I... it was some bar, or some...

- I don't know. - Oh, God. Oh, I hated that hat.

Yeah, I knew way back then that she would never put us first.

It was always going to be her.

I'm glad you decided to do this.

Just... be prepared to be disappointed.

I hope Junior is okay.

She's not texting me back.

I assume this is your biggest fight ever, huh?

Yeah.

It'll be okay.

I hope so.

- Junior, I... I am so sorry. - Uh-uh.

I have a question.

O... okay.

Shoot.

Did you know in South Dakota?

How could you know in South Dakota?

How could you travel 1,200 miles with me,

just sitting next to me, knowing you were about to dump me?

It's not like that, okay? It's not... like I said,

I didn't know that that Miles was going to go look for her.

- I didn't know that he was going to find her and... - I just thought our friendship,

and our relationship as friends was past you lying.

- I don't know who you are. - Okay, at the beginning of the trip,

I didn't know any of this was going to happen, okay?

But now that it has, I have to try.

I need... I need to look her in the eyes, okay?

I need to ask her why, and I need to just...

I need to yell at her. I need to get out of this...

this in-between place between being a teenager, an adult

and wherever I am, okay?

You know that... that space that you were in,

where... when you were being diagnosed,

those two years where you had all those unanswered questions.

I haven't seen this woman for ten years,

and I've had ten years of unanswered questions.

I can't believe you're going to minimize my own pain and suffering,

- just to justify your own. That's gross! - No...

No, that's... I don't... that's not what I'm saying, okay?

That's not... I'm get... this is coming out all wrong.

I don't mean to minimize what you're going through, okay?

I just...

I wouldn't have been able to do this three years ago, okay?

I wouldn't have been able to even talk to that woman, much less see her.

Okay? I can't imagine what you go through,

and you have to be so strong to do what you do

on a day-to-day basis, and...

It sounds stupid, but I wouldn't have been able to do this without you.

Mads...

I don't want to stand in your way.

I just don't know why you have to abandon me.

I'm not abandoning you.

You don't need me.

I know that you think you do, but you don't.

You're right.

I don't need you.

You're just a kid.

Wow.

Okay.

I don't want to get in the middle of this thing, but...

I just know that Mads is trying.

Alright? This isn't an easy decision for her and...

And to be honest, I pushed her to make it.

So if you're going to be mad at someone, don't just be mad at her.

Why does it have to happen now?

I went to South Dakota, South Dakota!

She promised me that drive home.

You realize now I have to drive that road where my sister died.

I have to do that alone.

- And you're scared? - Of course I am.

So is she.

Can you not see that?

Has Mads ever talked to you about her fear of not being seen?

It started after she got sick. She said to me, "I'm invisible.

This disease makes people not see me."

Yeah, I know that feeling.

And then her mom left.

And ever since, Mads has been spending her life trying to be seen,

but stay invisible at the same time.

She can't stay there anymore.

Does that makes sense?

Of course, it does.

Guess it's time for us both to grow up.

I don't... I don't want to be rude, um...

- I really have to lay down. - Yeah.

Uh, all the arguing, the walking,

it really makes my pain levels go up.

- If you wouldn't mind to. - Yeah.

Thanks.

Do you want some pot or something?

Yeah. Yeah.

Yes. Yes.

Yes!

♪ Oh, no ♪

♪ No, no, no ♪

♪ Oh, no, oh ♪

♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

Yeah. I understand why you did what you had to do.

I don't fault you for that.

I just wish you hadn't lied to me.

No, I know. I...

I don't know why I did, I guess...

I was just scared.

I don't know, maybe you're right.

Maybe I don't need you.

Maybe I'm too dependent on you.

I think I used you as an excuse to do this trip,

instead of Veronica being the whole reason.

Okay, so are we good? Or...

I don't know, Mads. I think I need some time.

- What does that mean? - It means I need time.

I got to go. Got a long way to drive.

I'll see you later, Mads.

Bye, Junior.

♪ I used to wander around ♪

♪ Like autumn leaves rustling on the ground ♪

♪ Trying to find my way ♪

♪ Through this empty place ♪

♪ Like thunder crashing without a sound ♪

♪ I know it's hard to say I know I lost my way ♪

♪ And, oh, it's such a shame it took so long to feel this way ♪

♪ I didn't believe just where I could be ♪

♪ If I'd only seen that you were right in front of me ♪

♪ Sometimes you have to close your eyes ♪

♪ To find your way back home ♪

♪ Sometimes you have to close the blinds ♪

♪ To see just where to go ♪

♪ When you're alone on the road ♪

♪ Falling down just move along ♪

♪ Sometimes when love is on your mind ♪

♪ You have to close your eyes ♪

♪ The stars above are never gone ♪

♪ Even as the night loses light ♪

♪ Into the dawn ♪

♪ And all the shapes of the moon ♪

♪ They can change they can move ♪

♪ And the sun always shines in the dead of the night ♪

♪ For you ♪

♪ For you ♪

♪ I know it's hard to say I know I lost my way ♪

♪ And, oh, it's such a shame it took so long to feel this way ♪

♪ I didn't believe just where I could be ♪

♪ If I'd only seen that you were right in front of me ♪

Hi, Polar Bear.

Hey, Care Bear.

I'm here.

♪ Falling down just move along ♪

♪ Sometimes you have to close your eyes ♪

♪ To find your way back home ♪

♪ Sometimes you have to close the blinds ♪

♪ To see just where to go ♪

♪ When you're alone on the road ♪

♪ Falling down just move along ♪

♪ Sometimes when love is on your mind ♪

♪ You have to close your eyes ♪

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♪ So keep me far and make me reach ♪

♪ Of 100 shots and then Slade was made ♪

♪ St. Lucia ♪

♪ Oh, I am the beach ♪

♪ So keep your cool on the rain ♪

♪ I'll scream "Goodbye" to you ♪

♪ As I say "Hello" to the moon ♪

♪ You smell so sweet ♪

♪ Where your ears and your shoulders meet ♪

♪ You smell so sweet ♪

♪ Where your ears and your shoulders, oh ♪

♪ Let me sink my teeth ♪

♪ Where they meet ♪

♪ I'll scream "Goodbye" to you ♪

♪ As I say "Hello" to the moon ♪

♪ You smell so sweet ♪

♪ Where your ears and your shoulders meet ♪

♪ You smell so sweet ♪

♪ Where your ears and your shoulders, oh ♪

♪ Meet ♪

♪ Where they meet ♪