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Who is it?

Hey, move your hand, asshole, or I ain't opening the door.

Fuck.

Fuck.

I'm so sorry.

I don't know.

Please don't fucking kill me.

Fucking come on, man.

You've seen my family.

They're better off without you.

What?

Everybody is.

Fuck.

Used to be... not long ago, I'd start my day, brew some coffee, shave, shower.

I stand here looking out at this very river, and I swear to you on the Bible...

Sheriff?

The thought of death never crossed my mind.

And now I look at this land, same as it's always been.

Ain't the hills has changed.

The current keeps moving.

Ain't a matter of if something will die there.

It's a matter of who.

You got something behind your eyes.

The way you're talking, it's a cute disguise.

I'll be in town.

I'll be on the way.

Get free tonight.

Right.

Chase down your demons.

Getting free tonight.

No one knows my heart so well.

You get the shape and the size and you hold it well.

When I get it broken, yeah, you fix me up.

No one knows me better than you.

Here we are.

I swear you're gonna get a high heel in the

eye if you keep sneaking up on me like that.

Too easy.

All right.

All right.

Hey.

Hold up.

Hold up a second.

What?

First is first.

Come over here.

What are you doing?

Come over here.

What?

What are you gonna ask me?

Yeah.

I know this don't look like much, but...

I promise you I'm gonna put the diamond on this finger as soon as I can.

I don't care about diamonds.

I mean, I don't know.

Maybe you care about diamonds.

Will you marry me?

Yeah.

Yeah, I wanna marry you.

Of course, I wanna marry you.

I almost broke a nerve.

Let's go.

Bye.

Bye.

Bye.

How are you?

Who should I blame?

You have no idea what we saw over there.

So you've been on them.

Hey, girlies.

Good morning to you.

It's past lunch time.

Well...

Would you like to buy some girl scones?

You know, I would, but I ain't got no money right now, honey.

Sorry.

Are you okay?

Yeah, I'm fine.

You look... sick.

I'm going to speak your mind.

My family goes to St. Baptist off 260, right?

Yeah.

Well, that was... I was just... I was just thinking that maybe I would, uh...

start going with them.

What?

Don't laugh at me.

I'm not laughing at you.

I just...

Don't fuck.

I didn't know what you were religious about.

I'm talking about structure.

I think it might help us get...

sober.

Since when you want that?

Since death.

I don't think I can do it.

Um...

I ain't fucked.

We tried to kick before.

It's a goddamn nightmare.

I never wanted you to be like me.

Hey, I love you.

But I think that we can do it...

together.

Shit, so we're really gonna do this then, huh?

Yes.

Yeah?

And don't just sit around thinking about it.

We're really gonna do this.

All right.

Go get coffee.

See your sister or something.

Hey.

Will you wear your helmet for me, please?

Don't know how much longer we gonna have this game.

This whole town is dying.

It feels like nothing is what it used to be.

No kids out playing.

No parents, no stores.

Nobody's in the stores.

Just dying.

You're looking rough, man.

Don't let Ray see you like this, okay?

Go on home.

I'll cover for you.

All right.

Jesus.

Check this out, boss.

Look familiar?

Four of us.

One week.

Never been this bad in my day.

Never, never, never.

They keep piling up.

One after another.

Shit.

Oh, shit.

Can you hear me?

Can you hear what I'm saying?

I'm done.

I'm done.

I'm done.

Stop.

Okay?

Just stop.

Just stop it.

Stop!

What'd I do?

Mr. Pontry, don't fucking touch me.

Don't fucking touch me!

Hey, I understand.

Yeah, don't fucking touch me.

Don't fucking touch me.

You...

You fucking...

What'd I do?

Baby, I can't let you out.

I've missed so much.

No.

I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry.

It's okay.

You were my fucking death suffer.

I'm sorry.

Dolphin, stop.

I love you so much.

Baby, you'll be fine right now.

Come on.

Come on.

I did my best to tell you everything.

Come on.

No.

Please don't tell me.

Don't ever come back to me.

Can I see this one?

Is she real?

Yes, sir.

I ain't stolen, is she?

You're looking for stolen, Burke.

You're in the wrong goddamn shop, boy.

Oh, man.

Uh, 450.

Well, I might be willing to bend a little, but, uh, not much.

And don't ask me for no layaway.

Okay, then.

I'll be back for it when I got the money.

Can't promise she'll still be here.

She'll be here.

Oh!

Fuck.

Where you been, cuz?

Gone in a hurry, Elvis.

Cash flow issues?

What?

Why didn't you say so?

Just enough to tie you and the little lady over.

Oh, fuck, fuck.

No, man.

No, I don't want that fucking shit.

Me and Ruby, we're clean now.

Matter of fact... Yeah?

I haven't asked Ruby about that myself.

No.

No, you don't.

I need you to stay away from her.

All those times I fronted you.

Now you act like I'm some shit you could just scrape your ass off.

Scrape off your boot?

Eighty-five bucks.

That's all I got.

If you just take the fuck away from me and Ruby.

Well, shit get by me.

That's what I get paid the big bucks for.

Know what?

What?

Oh, no!

See?

I'm starting to kind of get worried.

You ain't got nothing better to do than sit around worrying about me?

I know how hard it must be working all day for

us like you do, but it's gonna be worth it.

I just saw Elvis.

Did you take something?

Is that what you think of me?

You're the one who just came in here acting all weird, telling me that you saw Elvis.

Well, I didn't.

This time...

Fuck.

I'm sorry.

What are you saying?

I just...

What?

I don't think I can do this.

I can't do this.

I can't fucking do this.

I feel...

What are you saying?

You shouldn't be around me right now.

Fuck, I gotta get out of here.

What?

Hey!

Just... Hey!

Don't you say that.

Say it.

Hey.

We're doing this.

Okay?

Hehe.

I know I'm gonna fuck this up.

You hearin' me?

Oh... Just the man I need to see!

These goddamn potholes, playin' hell in my ride.

Where are my tax dollars goin'?

You playin' taxes these days, Elvis?

You only got a side hustle for the fans, do you, Mike?

The sheriff's church getting your hands off me.

He's off my vehicle.

Hey, no disrespect.

Oh, shit!

Fuck!

God damn it, you're giving me a heart attack!

Guess what?

What?

The thrift shop hired me.

Well, of course they did, what did I tell you?

Yeah, well, it's only part-time for now, but they have the cutest stuff.

And...

I got you a present.

Oh, you hate it.

No, no, no, I don't hate this one bit.

You hate it, yes you do.

Gee, I...

I don't think I've worn a button up since my fucking graduation.

I don't hate this one bit.

Yeah?

You like it?

Yeah, I like it a lot.

Hey, thank you.

You're welcome.

I mean it, thank you.

Well, I mean it, you're welcome.

Guess what?

What?

I got you a present, too.

No, you didn't.

I did.

No, you didn't.

I gotta take you to it, though.

Are you sure?

Yeah, I do.

Oh, I gotta take you to the present.

It's all the way in the bedroom.

I'm so sorry.

I did.

Oh, my goodness.

Shelby, Miss Redding.

Hey, Malachi, how's it going?

It goes round, I suppose.

Like the world or like a toilet?

Difference of perspective, I reckon.

It's like the world!

Well, I have to admit.

It's nice to see your friends happy.

Good night.

Ruby Red?

Hey, Peter.

Hi.

Hey.

Good to see you.

Hey.

Shelby, John.

Hey.

How you doing?

Look at you two.

Isn't it amazing?

Now, your girl here has even been helping out at the church.

Are we going to see you there any time soon?

Oh, maybe.

Maybe.

Yeah?

Maybe.

Yeah.

Auntie Ruth!

Oh, my God.

Connor!

You're getting so big!

You better stop growing.

Hey, look.

We got you a present.

Happy birthday.

And I think you're gonna like it.

Thanks.

You're welcome.

Well, what a haul!

It's all you.

Darl.

Are you decent?

Only sometimes.

Aw, you're sounding like Mama.

Well, I'm busy becoming a mama.

Oh, that's right.

I forgot that ain't your little tiny beer belly no more.

Oh, stop.

You're glowing.

What you want with that thing, little sis?

For real?

Yeah.

Oh my god.

Maybe don't be so mean about it, because I'm saving up for a real one,

and I kind of like this one right now, so, you know.

I'm happy for you, little girl.

Yeah.

So, how you doing?

I'm still sober, if that's what you're asking me right now.

Oh, girl.

That's fucking great.

Come on, you should be proud of yourself.

Come on, sweetie.

I'm just so scared.

We trust in your wisdom, and we look forward

to our boy Connor being washed in the blood.

Amen.

Amen.

You ain't gonna have any?

Mama, I think Ruby has something to tell y 'all.

Is that right, Gaga?

Oh, well, um, we were thinking about, um... Getting hitched?

Hey, how about that?

Well, congratulations, you two.

Yeah, Shelby, John, you're a lucky man.

Yeah, I know.

You didn't even ask me.

Lord knows we've had our share of differences, but Ruby is my baby.

You didn't think to ask my permission to take, right?

To be honest, since her daddy's out the picture,

I don't even think about asking permission.

But I can see now that I've watched the sort of sex he's like in my heart, so...

That baby girl has broke my heart more than once.

I ain't gonna lie about that now, just cause she's gone clean a couple of weeks.

Clean, well, over a month, Mama.

Mama's talkin', Dada.

Greta, with all due respect, I'll marry your daughter no matter what.

What I can do is, uh...

I can swear to take care of her till my dying breath, huh?

I suppose what I'm asking for is a little faith.

Faith?

It's something I do have.

Don't you let me down.

It's your job.

Come on.

Here I was just thinkin' this fine day could not get any sweeter, but I do love

to be proven wrong.

Because bein' proven wrong keeps us humble.

Life is filled with trials and tribulations.

We all struggle.

But it is the way we confront those struggles that defines us.

So...

This to the happy couple.

Welcome to the family, Shelby-John.

Pain in the ass, don't get me started.

Yeah.

You should come work for me.

It's a good wage, health insurance.

And if Ruby's anything like her sister,

she's not gonna eat too long and have a baby.

Yeah.

Hey, you know I have to answer now.

Just put it back here.

I will, thank you.

I scored us some extra paint.

Can't leave without that.

Take it, girl.

Oh my God, are you sure?

Of course I'm sure.

Go and get it fitted.

Oh.

Do you like it?

It's beautiful.

Thank you.

Bye.

I've

been talking to Pastor Paul about...

getting baptized to get myself.

I mean, that sounds like a fun idea.

How's it going?

I ain't got nothing planned about yourself.

Well, man.

Getting hit with a lady.

Popping a quick question?

Oh, maybe I already have to.

Oh, really?

All right, Joe.

Yeah.

What the fuck you doing here?

Am I missing something?

We cool, ain't we?

Guess we ain't cool.

You gotta chill out once in a while, soldier.

War's over for you.

I just came by to check up on my old pal Ruby Red.

Get the fuck out of here before I knock your teeth down your throat.

There he is.

That wild Mustang.

Been a minute since I seen him.

What's up, girl?

Just paying a visit to your old man.

Oh, yeah?

He called me out for a little special delivery.

Are you serious?

What's the matter?

The last thing I want to do is get between you two.

Yeah, well, you didn't do anything wrong.

Don't tell him I told you he's been using, will you?

Cake, it ain't an easy thing.

Don't I know it?

Hey.

Here.

Say, why should Shelby John have all the fun?

Baby?

Hey.

Didn't hear you come in.

Is the baptism tomorrow?

Yeah, I don't know.

You excited?

What if I'm just not good enough?

If you ain't good enough to be saved, no tears.

Come on.

Let me put some clothes on.

I'll make you something to eat, all right?

Okay, baby, before you say anything, I'm not done yet.

I still have to sand the floors.

Took out all the bars and gave my first coat of paint.

Listen, this one ain't your day to stay.

Not in the garden.

Took about four hours.

Ruby?

Hey, Ruby?

Ruby?

Hey, Ruby?

Hey, hey.

Oh, no.

Baby, come on.

Baby, hey.

Come on, wake up.

Come on.

Oh.

Oh.

Ruby.

Hey, hey, baby.

Come on, wake up.

Baby, wake up for me.

Daylight comes, over the long night.

Open your eyes, it's alright.

Been holding my breath for a moment to breathe.

Let the new day come wash over me.

The tide's gonna turn now, finally.

I am free.

Oh, I am free.

Over and under, worn like a stone.

Tossed and tumbled, but never alone.

We kept our eyes set on things above.

One force at a moment.

Don't let your boundless love.

Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.

Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst

for righteousness, for they shall be filled.

Blessed are the peacekeepers, for they shall be called the children of God.

I hereby baptize you in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.

Someday soon you'll see me there.

Someday soon, my friend.

We both know the now's the end.

Until we meet again.

Until we meet again.

Ooh.

Open

keys, yet he still plays.

She sways across the road.

Broken hearts, we sing along.

Until we meet again.

Until we meet again.

She wanted to be washed in the river.

The last thing she ever asked for.

Don't bear this weight alone.

Let me... let me baptize you, boy.

I still got some sin left to do, Father.

Someday soon, my friend.

We both know the now's the end.

Until we meet again.

Until we meet again.

Ooh.

Ta-da, beautiful.

That's your form forever now.

When you remembered and dreamt about.

Looks like a fallen angel.

They just told her last week when Shelby's back.

She looked happy.

They looked happy.

It wasn't him.

She did this herself.

My guess is Shelby John ain't gonna be easy to find.

Ah, he was always a wild one, Shelby John.

My boy, Macon, played ball with him.

Called him Mustang.

Places a horse on the field and wild and dangerous off him.

So this Mustang can kick?

No, he can kick all right.

But any horse will.

It's burden enough.

He didn't start that fight with me.

And sure as hell finished it.

Or maybe it's not too late for Shelby John.

It's gotta be me if anybody else gets to him first.

Sheriff?

They were fixing the place up.

Shelby John's problem is knowing when to stop.

If you find him, just stay calm and tell him I just want to talk.

That's all.

You got the bus.

Who is it?

Friend of your dad's.

Go get him.

If you were Fred, you'd know not to call me after dark.

Get your daddy or I'm gonna kick down this whole goddamn wall.

Whatever dude.

It's your funeral.

Dad, some fucker's at the door.

I'll take care of this.

Who is it?

Hey, move your hand, ass.

Fuck, man.

Shelby.

Stay the fuck down.

Shelby, whatever he done, I'm sure it was a mistake.

He didn't mean... Take your kid's fuck out of here.

You wanna stay or you wanna go?

I'll go.

I'll go.

I'm sorry, baby.

I told

you and I told you again, we were clean.

I won't give Ruby nothing else.

I'll stay away.

You don't even got to pay me.

She's dead.

Fuck.

I'm so sorry, Shelby.

She got her skin.

I've been getting squeezed to bring my numbers up.

What'd you give her?

Just a little smack.

She's dead.

Just a little smack.

What else?

That's it.

That's it.

What else?

I had to cut her.

I told you, she'd get squeezed like you wouldn't believe.

Who's your supplier?

What?

Give me his name and maybe I'll leave here while you're still breathing.

I can't give you that.

Please don't fucking kill me.

Please don't fucking kill me, man.

I'm gonna ask you one more fucking time.

Your supplier.

I don't know where that shit comes from.

Don't fucking tell you like cattle.

I don't fucking know, man.

I swear I don't.

Okay, okay, okay.

Darius, Darius, Darius.

Address.

Okay, okay, okay, okay, okay.

Pick up my gear in Columbus.

The Brown Hotel.

Different room every night.

That's all I know, man.

Please fucking come on, man.

You see my family?

Please.

They're better off without you.

Everybody is.

Hey there.

Where did you come from?

Is that your mama over there?

I think you better go back to your mama.

Jesus Christ died for our sins.

Elvis Kincaid died for his own.

Nails straight through the forehead.

Church?

You questioning your family?

Church?

Church?

Uh, yeah.

I got it.

Oh, come on, Sheriff.

How long are we gonna be here?

We've already been through enough tonight already.

I know it, Jess, but I wouldn't be asking if this wasn't important.

I just wanna talk to the oldest.

Well, that's Travis.

Travis it is.

Only with me present.

Yeah, that's a problem.

Your own baby shouldn't do anything.

The hell I am.

How old are you?

Eleven.

Eleven?

You know, my son used to play football with your dad.

Really?

Was he any good?

Yeah, your dad held us all on the line.

They were a good team.

Damn good.

You know what your old man did for a living?

Um...

Don't look your mama now.

Now, come on.

Well, my friends used to say my dad was the best dad.

Like, taking care of people.

Taking care of people how?

Like, with medicine.

Travis?

Shut your mouth, Jess, or we all spend the rest of the night in interrogation room.

You know when your dad keeps this medicine?

Travis, look at me.

I don't know, sir.

I'm sorry.

He's like, damn.

Excuse me.

Can I help you?

Come and see a friend.

Enjoy, sir.

Hey, how you guys doing?

Hey, it's all right, mister.

I'm doing pretty good.

Did you guys party?

Oh, shit.

You know where I can buy me some of them pills?

We ain't got no pills, officer.

Would you not do that?

Off my fucking nose, man!

Hey.

Please, mister.

He didn't mean nothing by it.

I asked him a question.

Well, our friend Skeeter, he gets the pills when someone's on the hall.

Oh, yeah?

Skeeter?

Which room?

Don't tell him!

They're in 1507.

1507.

Thank you.

Thanks, Kenny.

Ah, surprise.

Oxycontin.

Dentinol.

That's a form of fentanyl.

No doubt.

I think he was cutting this into his heroin.

This little brick has left a whole lot of destruction.

And it's weak.

Who dat?

Tony.

Already need some more shit, huh, college boy?

Fuckin' hell!

Hey.

Jesus, fuck!

I'd stay down.

I'd stay down.

You can suck my dick, you fuckin' bitch ass!

Nah, I'm good.

Tell him.

Man said stay down, Skeeter.

Time to go, ladies.

Say, Skeeter.

You are?

Darius.

Darius.

You can call me the King Killer.

Ah, just heard about that.

Kincaid was a piece of shit.

But the man did have a family.

You know?

I don't.

Not anymore.

Not since you were leaning on Kincaid to sell more.

I'm getting leaned on too, brother.

Believe me.

You want money?

There's 10 grand right there in front of you.

I got no need for money where I'm going.

Got that right, motherfucker.

Just shut up, man.

You after my supplier?

I don't give a fuck.

I'll give you his name and you let me walk.

Fuck, Darius.

You want to get us both gutted?

Coyote is fucking...

Fuck.

Coyote?

That's what he calls himself.

And I know something that he don't know I know.

Where he lives.

Y'all dead.

Y'all both fucking dead.

Watch your mouth, boy.

The grown-ups is talking.

That girl...

on the news, they saying you killed?

That's what they're saying.

That's what this about?

Your dumb bitch can't handle her shit, so you come

around here, swing your dick like a fucking punk?

That shit pathetic dog.

Fuck!

Fuck!

I am sorry about your girl.

Truly am.

But I didn't even know her.

That's what make it worse, isn't it?

We didn't matter to Kincaid.

Don't matter to you.

Don't matter if some dumb fuck calls himself Coyote.

So where does he live?

Don't tell him shit, Darius!

Don't shit!

Ah!

Fuck you motherfucker!

He's got a big old fucked up house out in Quitman

County off of Tea Lake Road right next to Floyd's Fork.

Took me hunting there once with his weird ass crew to intimidate me.

You believe that shit?

Did he?

Did he what?

Intimidate you.

Honest?

Ain't nobody in my life ever scared me like that dude.

Don't leave him breathing.

I may come back here one day.

I find you doing the same shit.

I won't just take your kneecaps.

Fine.

You okay?

Hell's bells, woman.

Let me just rest my eyes while I can.

I'm just an old man.

You have four-door shop.

You can talk to him at the hospital.

I'm talking to him here.

No, you're not hearing me.

No, you're not hearing me, son.

I'm talking to him here.

Excuse us, honey.

His manners can sometimes get away from him this late at night.

We've got something really important...

You know the man who done this to you?

Huh?

I ain't saying shit.

I know my rights.

Do you now?

Sound like you're on a TV show.

I must have heard something awful.

Got y'all painkillers?

Some of that good shit?

Fuck outta here, man.

Fuck!

Maybe they didn't give it a good shit after all.

Ugh!

Fuck!

If he'd left you alive, you musta' told him somethin' What was it?

I did say nothin', man.

Come on.

If he left you alive, you musta' told him something.

I didn't say nothin'.

So what was it?

I didn't say nothin'!

I didn't say fuckin' nothin'!

Stop!

Please stop!

What was it?

Stop!

Please!

Stop!

I'm not gonna let go.

You tell me what it was.

Fuck!

You think this is a piece of your kneecap?

You think this is a piece of your kneecap?

Ah!

Fuck!

Okay!

Okay!

Okay!

Okay, I didn't say nothing, man.

I swear it.

It was fucking Darius told him, okay?

Yeah, what did Darius tell him?

What did Darius tell him?

Fuck, man!

Ah!

Fuck!

Was it a deer?

You wanna tell me what's going on, Sheriff?

I...

I saw him.

Been a few years since it happened last.

I see him how he was when he died.

You know, grown and all.

I see Macon.

I see my little boy.

I see him...

I see him as my little boy.

I miss my little...

my little boy.

I miss my...

my chance to save him.

I seen my sister once.

She said that life is a river that eventually spills into the ocean.

And when you get to the delta where the river meets the

sea, that's where your loved ones will be waiting for you.

Yeah.

Well maybe it's not too late for Shelby, John.

How many more?

Let's go!

What's taking so long?

Load it up!

Load it up!

We gotta move.

Go grab Mac.

You!

What we see?

Shut up!

Easy... easy... easy... easy... easy... Go!

Go!

Go!

Clean this shit up, man.

Let's go, gentlemen.

Load it up.

Go, go, go, go, go!

From what I've seen over the years of health, just over the past 24 hours,

this beast is much more complex than we ever thought.

Every time you cut off one tentacle, another one sneaks up in its place.

But now I see Was grace that taught my heart to fear?

And grace my fears relieved?

How precious did that old grace appear?

Cut!

How precious did that old grace appear?

Was grace that taught my heart to fear?

And grace my fears relieved?

Cut!

How precious did that old grace appear?

The hour all for us believed?

It's already done here.

How the hell do you know that?

Shelby knows this land.

You stay here to secure the perimeter.

I guess nobody's coming to save your ass!

Give the phone!

Give the phone!

What's up, FASCO?

FASCO!

Ciao... Fasco!

Fuck you!

Open wide.

9-1-7-3.

I see who he's calling.

Hello.

You've reached Wildcat Trucking, Georgia's finest shipping and logistics company.

If you know the extension of the party you're trying to reach, dial it now.

If not, just press zero to be connected.

What the fuck is this about?

I don't know.

Wrong number, my bad.

Who the fuck do you work for?

Santa Claus.

Bitch!

Tell me his fucking name!

Fuck you!

Fuck you!

That's enough, Scubby John.

That's enough.

Time to end this, son.

Come on.

I come to bring you home, son.

Ain't no home for me no more.

I know it, but Ruby made her own choices, same as Macon did.

I don't like it neither, but that don't make it any less true.

And beating this pile of shit to death won't bring her back.

Soon as my lawyer's done with your ass... Will you shut up?

I may be crazy, sure, fine, stupid.

Yeah, Ruby had choices, but some of them choices were made for her.

I tried to protect her.

I tried to protect her.

Don't do it, please.

Please.

Please, Mike.

Do it.

Come on, end this.

Please, bring me mercy.

Either you do it or I'm gonna shoot this motherfucker right here.

Drop the weapon!

Lieutenant, please.

I've lost too much.

Ain't no way, son.

Not like this.

I've lost too much.

This ain't how you win.

Not on my watch.

Come on.

Come on.

Come on.

Come on.

You can't do this.

Come on.

Huh?

Help me get her out of here.

Can't go bad that way.

Let's get her down to the road.

Wait.

Wait, stop.

Please.

We need your help.

She's been shot.

Is she all right?

No.

We need to get her in the back of the truck.

Well, hurry up.

I'll help you.

Hey.

You save her, Mike.

You save her now, shall we?

You be careful.

Come on.

Come on.

You say something or you're not.

Come on.

You can say something.

Come on.

I know you.

Talk to me.

I said fight it.

Fight with him.

I said fight it.

Talk to me.

Fight.

You're a good shooter.

We both know that.

Thatetes reporting.

Get going, man.

You gotta make sure he's okay.

Where is he?

Do you believe in God?

Been in church every Sunday of my life.

That ain't what I asked.

I do.

You?

I do now.

Gave Ruby over to the hands of God, but I put her in that river.

And now you're doing God's work, is that it?

You think God approves of what you've been doing?

You know, I didn't want to admit it to myself.

But I was relieved when Sheriff Church caught up to me.

Didn't know I wanted to be stopped until I was stopped.

And things kept going.

Out of my control.

If that wasn't God pushing me to do his business, I don't know what it was.

Everything I've done, I've done for my family.

Is Darlene not what you do?

Don't you worry about Darlene.

And Connor?

The boy's sound asleep upstairs, not caring in the world.

Because all his needs are provided for.

I could feel the same if you knew how his daddy bought all these nice things.

When God commanded, Abraham to slay his son, Abraham did not refuse.

He was ready to comply.

See, that is a story that scares people.

Even those of faith, but not me.

Because Abraham understood he was part of something bigger than himself.

Bigger than his son, who he loved with all his heart.

We cannot pretend to understand the mind of God.

We can only sacrifice what we are called upon to sacrifice.

It started with a simple favor.

I had overextended myself.

I was on the verge of losing everything.

Then I met a man.

I wasn't at no crossroads or anything so dramatic.

And he offered me a lifeline.

And all I had to do was transport something for him.

I told myself at the time, you are making a bargain with the devil.

But I said to myself, this is just this one time.

Darlene was pregnant.

We were going to lose the house.

So I did the man his favor.

God did not strike me down.

God rewarded me.

And I do not mean with earthly possessions.

I'm talking about a newfound sense of peace, of self-reliance.

So strong.

That when the man came a-calling again.

I took what belonged to him for myself.

And I never, ever looked back.

I left my old self behind like the husk of a cicada.

Reborn.

This is Ruby's soul.

I love that girl like my own sister.

I still do.

Believe this belongs to you, Peter.

You gave me the heart.

You get the shape and the size.

Your product and her veins.

No one knows me better.

I want you to feel what she felt when she died.

Wasn't that it, Pete?

Your own product ain't good enough for you?

I ain't no junkie.

I ain't leaving here till you do.

What.

What.

What.

Oh, I wanna feel something.

I just wanna breathe again.

Dive into the deepest end.

Oh, I wanna feel something.

Let me get back in my body.

Oh, I wanna open my hands.

I know that healing is for me.

I wanna breathe again.

Oh, I wanna feel something.

I just wanna breathe again.

Dive into the deepest end.

Oh, I wanna feel something.

Something good.

Something good.

They say our loved ones will be waiting for us where the river meets the sea.

I look forward to that.