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So, what is it you want?

It has to be tonight.

I just left him there to die!

Can you let me in, please?

I could have sworn I heard you talking last night.

Vivid dreams after all the excitement.

If I know everything about you,

then the police know everything about you.

Even Edgewater. Ed?

'He knows what we did. He's coming for you.'

Get away from the house! Mum, you're scaring me!

Ed told me he was going to kill me.

If you just find the phone!

WOMAN: There was no phone. There is no Ed, Angela.

We are going to recommend you be admitted to hospital,

under section two of the Mental Health Act.

I'd really like to call my children.

It's not up to me.

I'm sorry.

You could speak to the doctors, when you're all checked in.

What must they be thinking?

Just five minutes. Please! If I could...

If I could just have five minutes to call them...

I'm sorry.

Come on.

I'm Dr Priya Gurinda, I'm the consultant psychiatrist here.

I'll be your responsible clinician.

That means, any problems or questions or issues,

you come straight to me.

I can also find you an independent mental health...

I'd just like to sleep.

Of course.

Would you like Trisha to show you around first,

let you get acquainted with the facility?

Come on.

I'm going to ask you again,

have you got anything on you that could harm you or anyone else?

No.

OK.

I'll take you to your room.

BEEP

CHATTER

It does get a bit noisy in here.

You'll get used to it.

Your husband packed this suitcase with your belongings for you.

Bathroom's through there.

I'm gonna leave this form on the side here,

for when you're ready,

and there will be a doctor coming by to give you a check over,

about 8:00, 8:30.

In the meantime, you're free to walk about the ward, all right?

I know it doesn't seem like it right now,

but we are here to help you, Angela.

ED: 'My name's Ed Harrison.

'I help people with things.'

CHATTER

CHATTER AND LAUGHTER

BEEPING

BEEPING CONTINUES

You have to push the filter button first.

Give it a second to warm up.

Thank you. It's my first day.

I could tell.

BEEP, MACHINE WHIRS

ED: 'Everything's gonna be OK.

'Angela... Angela.'

WOMAN: 'There is no Ed. How do you explain the book?'

ANGELA: I don't know, it's a book!

WOMAN: 'Did you manage to get some rest?'

Some.

And have you had a chance to look around now?

Get used to the place?

Bit like being in a crap hotel.

Guess that's the idea, isn't it?

Try and make you forget you've just been committed to 28 days

on a psychiatric ward.

You're only gonna be here as long as you have to be.

So, who decides when I can leave? Is it you?

Just...

Just tell me what I need to do.

It's not a test.

We just wanna help you.

You can help by letting me speak to my children.

We've talked with your husband, and...

when he feels they're ready...

So it's up to him?

The support of your family's gonna be crucial for your recovery.

Support. Right. Yeah.

Like handing over that book.

I started reading it.

And?

And it's what it looks like. A badly written thriller.

If I was gonna steal a story from anywhere,

I would've chosen better source material.

It unsettled you.

It didn't unsettle me...

..it made me angry.

OK, fine...

When I read, when I mark my place,

I don't fold over the top corner,

I fold over the bottom.

This book, even though I've never read it,

there were marks on the bottom corners.

My husband did it.

That's why he gave the police the book,

because he wants to mess with me.

And why would he do that?

Because he wants the children!

He wants them, and he wants me gone...

But if that's what he wants...

doesn't he already have it?

Why go to the bother of turning pages in a book?

I want to help you, Angela,

and there are things we can do, medication you can take...

It's called quetiapine.

It's very well tolerated... I don't need it.

Angela, what you're going through is very serious.

We believe you're experiencing a breakdown, an agitated psychosis.

And given your history and the struggles with your mental health,

I think it could really help you.

ECHOES OF BABY CRYING

CRYING CONTINUES

OLIVIER: What are you doing?

We're all downstairs.

We're waiting.

We're waiting for you.

Answer me.

CRYING CONTINUES

Angela? I can't.

You mean you don't want to.

I'll get him. Get dressed now!

You're wasting everyone's time.

This doesn't fit properly, it's too tight...

That's what I chose.

Well, I'd just feel more comfortable wearing something else...

Keep it on. Uh...

Let's go.

Shh! Come here.

Come on.

That's beautiful.

Can we see little Max?

No. No. Just...

I thought the whole point was

that you wanted a picture of the three of us together.

When I look at this picture on our wall,

I want to remember a happy family moment.

Then face him the other way,

cos if we can't see it, then he's not crying all the time?

Smile.

CRYING

MORE CHILDREN CRY

Is this Max? Yeah.

That's it. Good boy!

Thanks.

CRYING ECHOES

'Let's talk about Edgewater.'

Why?

You must see the similarities?

I don't talk about that.

Well, perhaps it's time you did.

Angela...

..it's happened before.

PIANO PLAYS

Hey!

That was lovely.

I hope they're paying you well for that.

What do you want, Mum?

I shouldn't have to find you online like some stalker.

I shouldn't have to come down here to your work...

but I've called and called, and you just ignore me.

I haven't even met the baby yet.

I'd like to have him christened in my church.

When did you call? Look...

I know I made a lot of mistakes. I do know that.

And I know you're angry with me, and I don't blame you.

And at the end of the day, you know, there's just you and me,

isn't there?

I mean, we're the only family we've got...

I've got my own family. I know, but...

it wasn't all bad, was it?

I have an appointment in 15 minutes, Mum.

I'm gonna have to go, so... Look...

I've not been well.

And, erm...

And there's nothing more they can do for me now,

so I just wanted you to know...

..is all.

And I thought maybe we could...

I have to go. Oh, love, don't.

Please don't...

DOOR OPENS

DOOR CLOSES

It's early, no?

My mum came to the hotel today.

I see.

How many times has she called for me?

A few.

Did she say why?

She did.

And you didn't think to pass on the message that my mother's dying?

Of course I did.

How could you think that?

I-I-I thought about it a lot.

About you.

About your mother.

About everything that happened between you...

But we agreed...

did we not?

All those years ago.

That you were better off.

And every time she came back to you...

demanding - not asking - but demanding your forgiveness.

I know, but... You sound just like her now.

Coming up with excuses.

She's got no-one.

And whose fault is that?

She forfeited her right to call herself your mother.

She left you when you were a child, Angela.

Then when she finds herself at rock bottom

time and time again, she comes to you,

seeking absolution.

This is different.

No, my love...

..it's not.

It is not at all.

She's still my mother.

You owe her nothing.

You're tired.

Stressed. It's time to leave that job at the hotel.

You have new responsibilities now.

CHILD CRYING

ED: 'Sorry, you don't have a lighter, do you?

'I made a life you could never have imagined living normal.

'Do you ever just look across at him in the night and wonder,

' "Who are you, really, when I'm not there?" '

Urgh!

'I finished the book.'

And?

And it's a story. It's not real,

and...

..I know that because I'm reading it in a book.

That's obvious.

The difference...

In my life, I know. I know. Right?

I know...

what I'm seeing is real,

except...

you're saying that I don't.

Well, when we're under a lot of stress,

when we're pushed in ways we aren't used to...

sometimes it's too much.

So I just woke up...

and imagined I was talking to some guy called Ed

because I read a book. That's what you're saying?

Look, psychosis is just an umbrella term,

it describes all kinds of conditions, but...

essentially, during a breakdown like this,

it's like your brain is experiencing stress overload.

And while it seems to come out of the blue,

there are early warning signs.

Loss of appetite. Inability to sleep...

If what you are saying is right, then...

I just don't know, erm...

Then how am I supposed to trust what I see?

I mean...

Like you? Are you here?

Or is it just...

just nothing, erm...?

It seems the focus of your issues is your husband.

You've said before he's controlling.

We can talk about that.

So we talk and talk,

but I'm still not allowed to see my own children

until a judge says I can.

Angela...

..you will get better.

But even when you leave here, we're looking to find a...

a new normal for you.

With Edgewater and this...

You said there was medication.

You're ready?

Whatever you think I need, I'll take it.

I need to be better.

OK.

But this isn't a quick fix.

We still need to talk about Edgewater.

CHILD CRYING

Shh, shh, shh, shh...

CRYING INTENSIFIES

PHONE VIBRATES

Shh, shh, shh, shh.

Hello? WOMAN: 'Love, it's me.

'I got your number from the bar at the hotel, I hope that's OK.

'I just wondered, you know, if you had time...'

No, Mum, now's not a good time.

'Well, when is? Please!'

I-I don't know. Not now.

OK? I'm sorry. 'Angela!'

CRYING

Shush. It's OK. It's OK.

RINGING

CRYING

RINGING STOPS

CRYING CONTINUES

RINGING

CRYING OVER MONITOR

CRYING CONTINUES

Please stop, just fucking stop.

Please! Please!

Please, God, just make him stop!

I just want some peace, please.

Please, just fucking stop!

CRYING STOPS

BABBLES SOFTLY

BIRDSONG

Ah!

RINGING

Hello?

WOMAN: 'Hello, is that Angela Black?'

Angela Meyer. Black's my maiden name.

'I'm a registrar at St Mary's.

'Your mother is Sally Black?'

Yeah.

'I'm sorry to...

'Your mother was admitted to hospital last night.

'We did all we could, but at two o'clock this morning,

'her heart stopped and we couldn't revive her.

'I'm sorry.

'Angela?'

ED: 'Angela?

'Angela?'

'Let's talk about Edgewater.'

ED: 'It's him or you, Angela.

'It has to be tonight.

'This is about doing what you have to to survive.'

'Angela, it's happened before.'

MACHINE BEEPS

You have to push the filter button first.

Then give it a second to wake up.

First day?

Yeah.

You'll get used to it.

Thank you.

'And are you experiencing any other side-effects?'

No.

Just the dry mouth and the headache.

Any dizziness? Drowsiness? No.

Excellent.

And do you feel the medication's making a difference?

I do.

I really do. I feel, erm...

..clearer, I suppose.

I'm pleased to hear that.

I've been thinking a lot about Edgewater.

That's good.

It's not... It's hard.

When I think about it...

..about me...

..it's like I'm watching someone else.

And I watch her,

and I want to stop her -

stop me...

The woman in Edgewater - the woman holding the rifle

when the police found her - that wasn't you.

Not who you are right now.

I told myself it was because of the baby.

I could've lost him.

But you didn't.

And now I've done it again.

MAN: 'She threw herself into the life of the church...

'even towards the end of her journey here on Earth.'

She taught us to remain strong in the face of death,

which, of course, is part of every human being's journey,

in order that we may be

reunited with Christ in heaven.

And I know it would bring her great comfort

knowing her daughter and grandson

were here with us today.

Hi. So, this is her grandson?

Mm-hm. Beautiful.

He has your eyes.

You should ask for them back. HE CHUCKLES

How are you coping?

Are you OK?

I am.

It's just...

It's just this baby, you see...

Something happened.

What happened?

He hasn't stopped crying since the day he was born.

It hasn't been easy. But the thing is, Father...

When mum died, and I mean the exact time she went...

..this silence just washed over him.

Even his face changed.

His expression,

it was like someone else's breath was filling up his lungs...

All the tension went out of his hands and his feet,

and it was like...

It was like this light went on inside his bones and I...

I could see it in his skin...

It was a miracle.

Really.

In that moment, it was like...

..God was speaking through Max.

Does that make sense, Father?

Well...

He shows himself in the most extraordinary ways.

Yeah.

Yes, he does, doesn't he?

Thank you.

PRIEST: 'He shows himself in the most extraordinary ways.'

ANGELA'S MUM: 'And there's nothing more they can do for me now.'

ANGELA: 'When Mum died, it was like this light went over him.'

PRIEST: '..reunited with Christ.'

ANGELA: 'It was a miracle.'

When you look back at that time...

..what does it look like?

It looks like what it is.

Pretty bloody obvious to everyone but me.

Just around the corner, perfect.

Sorry, I didn't know you were gonna be home.

I came back early.

I missed you.

Where have you been?

Just for a walk. A walk?

Yeah.

I called you. You didn't pick up.

Oh, my phone must be on silent.

Why is it on silent?

He's asleep.

I didn't want to disturb him.

Just a walk?

Just a walk.

It rained, didn't it?

A bit. Around three. But not for long.

We stopped under a bus shelter.

Are you OK?

I'm OK.

Can you believe it?

Believe what?

He's been like this all night.

Then you should have come to bed.

You haven't slept for days.

Does he seem different to you?

Well, sure.

Are you listening? Hmm.

He's changed, Olivier.

Well, they go through phases.

I'm late.

He can't see it, can he?

He can't see it at all.

'But it felt real, to you...

'at the time?'

It did.

It felt like...

..this chair,

like...

..you and me sitting here talking right now.

It felt...

..felt like the most real thing in the world.

ANGELA: 'This is your moment.

'This is your big day.

'I am the luckiest mummy alive, aren't I?

'Do you want to show them... so that everyone can see?

'Are you ready?

'Come on, then.

'Let's show them what you can do.

'Walk on water, Max.'

HE CRIES

'Show them what you can do.

'Walk on the water, Max.'

SHOUTING

There's a baby!

Oi!

What're you doing?

WHISTLE BLOWS

WHISTLE BLOWING REPEATEDLY

QUIET CHATTER

WOMAN: Thanks.

Oh, wow. It's really coming along.

I dunno, I haven't quite...

I can tell you went to art school.

Who is it?

I dunno.

Someone I met once...

..maybe.

How did you feel, drawing him?

Nothing.

She's doing really well. Good. Good.

Oh, hi, Angela.

How are you? Good. Hi.

Hi.

This is Nasrin, she's gonna be your care co-ordinator.

Good to meet you.

We've been so pleased

with all the work you've been doing since you've been with us,

and Nasrin's gonna be across how that continues going forward.

I'd like to meet with you once a week, if that was OK,

and we can drop that down to fortnightly in time.

Now, do you know where you'll be staying?

We'll need to make sure you have the details

of your community psychiatrist. OK.

You're getting out!

She Airbnb's it to disappointed travellers,

but I think you've got a while before anyone else is booked in,

so... Thank you.

Oh, that's all right, love.

Yeah. Like I said, it's not exactly The Ritz.

Not that I've ever been to The Ritz. Might be shit.

Honestly, this is... This is great. Thanks.

I'll make you a cuppa. Oh, I'm fine.

Milk, no sugar? Yeah.

I'm really grateful for this.

Everyone seems very busy all of a sudden.

People think I'm Joan of Arc.

Well, people talk. Whatever.

You had a moment.

A moment.

You don't have to talk about it.

I don't mind. It, erm...

It helped a lot, being there.

What about the charges, are they...?

Dropped.

They gave me a caution.

Thanks.

They miss you at work, you know.

Do they? What?

You look surprised. Well, I'm hardly the life and soul.

I never go to the drinks after work, or parties...

No-one judges you, love.

Yeah, well...

Maybe I'll come to the next one. That'd be nice.

Honestly, I can't thank you enough

for all of this. You needed help.

And you deserve help. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

Does your sister know you've let a crazy person live in her flat?

Don't talk about yourself like that.

It's true. No.

You've got your struggles just like the rest of us.

MAN: Won't be long until we go in. Remember what I was saying earlier.

Mr and Mrs Meyer?

Here we go, so the judge will take into account...

Is it a positive outcome? Yeah.

MAN: 'It's just for now.'

Four hours a week!?

How can they say I'm a danger to my own children?

They'll review it.

This isn't permanent, it's just baby steps until we can find a...

Hey. Wait! Angela, don't.

Angela, this won't help!

Give these to the boys for me.

CHATTER

SHOUTING

CHEERING

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