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♪ All alone, the broadening skies ♪

♪ Under thee, every night, I lie ♪

♪ Scratch and claw and grip the rails ♪

♪ Every day, my living hell ♪

♪ Oh God, you know I've tried ♪

♪ I know how hard I've tried ♪

♪ You know I've tried ♪

Hello?

Hello, Shannon?

Hi.

How are you doing?

I'm sleepy.

Sleepy? All right.

Well, I'll try and keep it simple then.

Let's see. First of all, how old are you?

I'm 25.

25. Okay.

(camera clatters)

Hey.

Hey.

I do too. I gotta sleep.

I will be checking out at three, though.

Because we're going to mix the John Lennon song.

What time is it right now?

(country music)

(baby cries)

(vocalizing)

(music stops)

(vocalizing)

Lisa.

(laughing)

Hurry!

(laughing)

(tape rewinding)

(country music)

Back in Lafayette.

We're cruising out in the county.

Indiana. Open road.

The Amish part of town.

See.

I went to the dentist today.

My fucking

gums are all swollen,

my whole side of my face right here is numb.

But anyway, what I'm getting at is that

I'm doing the video camera work here, so,

and driving.

Trying to keep my focus.

And you know,

I probably get more out of...

more out of it than you do.

Let's see your earrings. Mom, mom.

Oh my God, Shannon.

Holy...

Oh, hon, why did you have such big holes

put in your ears?

Am I on...

Is this on?

Can I have a cigarette while we're in here?

If I can smoke a bowl.

Hell, no.

Oh, shoot, dad, give me a,

do me a favor.

Grab that camera.

Right there is the house of a judge.

He's shied me since I was about 13 years old.

Here's my senior picture over there.

Where's Lisa?

Yeah, where'd my girlfriend go?

You suck.

Stop it, Shannon.

Turn it off.

I hate people with video cameras.

Turn it off.

(laughing)

My girlfriend, Lisa,

we've been together for like 10 years.

Went to senior prom together,

all that sweet Midwest bullshit.

Say hi.

Say hi!

Hi.

That's Lisa.

This is her dad we're going to watch.

There's another competitor right there.

Look at that.

He's just pulling the shit out of that thing.

Good job, Shane.

Good driving.

(guitar strumming)

♪ All that I feel is the air that I breathe, ♪

♪ All that I need are the things I don't need ♪

♪ All that really matters is what matters to me ♪

I never took singing seriously until

I graduated from high school and reality hit me in the face

that I didn't, you know, I didn't really want to go

to college.

I worked in the local factory job in Lafayette.

I kind of had backed myself into a corner and wanted to move

out of Indiana

because I just was getting into much trouble there.

I also brought...

some mushrooms, ladies and gentlemen.

Yes, moldy ass,

yucky looking mushrooms.

My god.

(tongue clicks)

Maybe I'll see (unintelligible).

Maybe I won't.

Maybe you ought to just mind your own fucking business.

Maybe that's what you ought to do.

See, there's no one here.

So you're the only person I have to talk to.

I'm quite bored, and I love to talk.

I was being very self destructive.

I'm preparing to go get this hand x-rayed again.

For the second time.

First time I hurt it, I hit the wall

because I gacked out a note.

The second time I hurt it was just the other night,

keeping myself from hitting a gacked out guitar player.

Instead I hit the wall, but the pain is still subsiding.

I'm going to go to Saint Elizabeth Hospital,

where I was born.

Get it x-rayed.

You know you're supposed to wear that when you work.

Well, I'm working.

Being in the presence of you and mom arguing

is a job.

Your mother and I don't argue.

Channel 17, all right.

Hi, I'm Tabitha Soren, with MTV news.

We've got a cyber stuff report for you, now.

The Beatles 1965 classic, "A Hard Day's Night,"

Has now been playing on a computer near you.

"A Hard Day's Night" is the first feature film

to be released on a computer CD-ROM disc.

You know, MTV needs to leave the Beatles alone.

Where I was raised, TV was about the only thing

that I really had to show me what

the outside world was about.

The big bands and the small bands you

wanted to see they never even came to our hometown.

I wanted to see it all hands-on,

and Los Angeles is definitely a place to see a lot of

what's going on.

I went to Hollywood searching

for them dreams that everybody says comes true.

(in Spanish) He's recording!

Hmm?

(in Spanish) He's recording.

Hey Brad, what's that band you're in?

I don't know yet.

Okay, bye.

Bye.

(guitar strumming)

This is Hollywood Boulevard,

because we don't have snow out here,

we have these things all over the streets.

As you can see we can walk right out here in traffic,

right out here, just about to get hit

by cars and shit.

(harmonica playing)

♪ I don't feel the sun's coming out today. ♪

♪ It's staying in ♪

♪ It's going to find another way ♪

I met Rogers and Brad, like,

the first month that I moved there.

We hit it off pretty good.

We had a lot in common.

♪ I don't think I'll ever, no, Lord ♪

♪ See the sun from here ♪

(cheering)

Hey, Shannon.

Oh, there he is.

We're all from very much

repressed environments

(chuckling)

Very small town, community backgrounds.

Okay guys, here's a question.

What are you each going to do with your first million?

Buy lobster.

I'm going to buy my lawyers off, back home.

I'm going to buy this pool.

(cheering)

Pressure's on you, Rog.

(rock music)

♪ Now you see, I'm watching everything I do ♪

♪ And they're watching everything I say ♪

♪ So they will leave me be ♪

♪ Whoa, leave me be ♪

Unity is something that I've held sacred.

My family was broken up, you know, when I was like 16

or 17 years old.

When you're getting ready to decide

on what you want to do with your life.

And then all of a sudden, you know, my family split up.

♪ Now, in my corner ♪

♪ I got their stealing in my eyes ♪

♪ And arms holding up my knees ♪

♪ And, man, rocking back and forth's my life ♪

♪ I didn't mean to feel this way ♪

♪ When I walked into the door ♪

♪ You then ripped away my memories ♪

♪ And I can't remember ♪

♪ Who I was before ♪

And when I left home, I left on cracked ice.

I didn't care about life.

I didn't care about my family.

When I moved out to Los Angeles, I realized

that a lot of things that I didn't care

about were a lot of things that I needed to

at least make me want to, you know, make it through the day.

♪ I only wanted to be 16 ♪

♪ And free ♪

I like Shannon because he knows Axl.

(laughing)

Shut up!

All right, here you go.

This is the Record Plant.

This is where me and Axl been working on vocals together.

(woops)

How'd you get hooked up with

Guns N' Roses?

He was a friend of my sister's

and there's like a little tribe

of people out in California from Lafayette, Indiana.

I've been running around with Slash, mom.

That's why I haven't been in jail.

All right, Ax.

You're talking to Nel Hoon,

the Nel Hoon that I popped out of.

Yo, Merry Christmas.

I been good, haven't I, Ax?

Well... (chuckles)

Anyway, mother, seeing as your son has no money,

no money...

Hold on a second.

(sighs)

This was all I could give you.

I love you, mom.

It's Shannon!

Shannon Hoon?

It's Shannon Hoon, the singer for Blind Melon,

the guy from the Guns N' Roses video.

Hey, weren't you that guy

from the Guns N' Roses video?

Yeah!

That's you, man?

Yeah!

Speaking of your whole deal

with Guns N' Roses,

Yeah?

And "Don't Cry,"

It's something that's completely separate

from Blind Melon.

Our music and Guns N' Roses' music

is completely different.

♪ Holyman, you don't understand ♪

So, I mean, apparently, you recorded a demo,

and it was almost immediately kind of, you know,

people started piling on.

What was that like?

One of our tapes got into a lawyer's hand and he called

us and wanted to legally represent us and

when we, you know, we were like "There's not much to

legally represent here."

We barely got enough

songs to even get through a showcase.

(vocalizing)

He's the singer.

We had only written, like, what?

Five songs? Is that about all we had?

Yeah.

So to get a deal, we were just

blown away.

I don't know where the good karma came from

because...

March 18th, we signed with the tower tribe.

The beginning of the rest of their lives.

It's raining out today, beautiful day

in Holly-weird, California.

Right up there's the sign, Jack.

Get the sign, get the sign.

What sign?

This sign.

(chattering)

(champagne pops)

Come on, God!

What's going on over here?

Brad, did you look through it?

Signing it already?

Yeah.

This is it.

Signing it all away!

What a happy guy, look at him. Oh, God, he's so happy.

(chattering)

No more drinking for Shannon Hoon.

I know! I mean...

(pipe crackles)

You don't do any substances?

You do marijuana, like, constantly.

Are you asking me or telling me?

Okay, I'm asking you.

You don't have to say this, we can...

Well I mean, you know...

Press pause.

I mean, there's...

Some people do some things and some people

do other things. Having control of what you do

is the question, you know? Yeah, definitely.

I quit drinking alcohol, like, about a year ago.

It was bad for me.

Yeah.

There's certain things for certain people.

And alcohol was something that I couldn't deal with.

And neither could anybody around me

and neither should they have to deal with it.

You better take care of him.

Believe me, we try.

It's hard to, though, when you're drinking.

But none of us are as bad as he is, drinking-wise, so...

We don't turn into Mr. Hyde.

Except on occasion.

So he has a dual personality?

It's my...

My rage tends to come out.

Feel any better?

Or different?

I don't have to call and apologize

for the night before so often now.

(laughing)

So...

It kind of makes it a little better.

I think of how much happier my life

could have possibly been.

If I would've known what was going on.

Yeah.

I don't want to sit here and waste my time.

The same way that you don't want to waste your time.

What is the date today?

(laughing)

What?

What is this, Shannon?

This is two years later now?

Yeah.

(music playing on TV)

You get your whole fucking life on video now.

Nobody else, you know,

before us could do that.

Yeah. Well...

Like now, here we are filming our life.

(tape rewinding)

Shannon Hoon.

Live here in beautiful Seattle, Washington.

We're going to find out exactly how the progress

and everything like that with their album number one.

Their first little creation.

(rock music)

(ping pong ball hitting paddles)

(ping pong ball clatters)

So I guess you would be considered the loser

at this point, Shannon.

Well, consider that you fucking-

So you're the loser.

Can you hear me?

Do you, you need to get a mix and all that shit?

(snapping)

(quiet guitar strumming)

♪ All I can say is that my life is pretty plain ♪

♪ I like watching the puddles gather rain ♪

♪ And all that I can do ♪

♪ Is just pour some tea for two ♪

♪ And speak my point of view ♪

♪ But it's not sane ♪

♪ It's not sane ♪

Did you get it, Rick?

Hi, I'm the cameraman, I'm the one that's not

getting videoed that much

because I'm making sure that everybody else has

priceless video footage for the future.

We're in New York.

I shaved my eyebrows off.

I'll zoom you in here, hope you can see.

If you can't, don't worry about it.

I'll show you later.

But, we're in New York,

it's the 22nd of April, 1992.

Getting ready to go out to eat.

I haven't taken you to New York yet.

And I'm sorry I've been abusing you visually,

but that's just the way it goes when I own the camera.

I own the camera.

So you are the watcher.

So shut up and watch.

There's the World Trade Center,

looming in the distance.

How many floors?

112, or something like that.

It's one of the seven modern wonders.

Trump Plaza, ew...

Don.

What inspires you most lyrically

in the process of writing songs?

A lot of, a lot of different things.

You know?

I mean, the way it phone's sitting on a counter

might inspire me.

I mean, I can't, I don't know.

I can't...

To hear the story of someone who's been dealt

a bad hand, you know,

just to be sane and insane inspires me.

Well, actually...

He now speaks--

We're at the St. Moritz hotel,

across from Central Park in New York City

where I've just broken my first hotel mirror.

(continuous beep)

(unintelligible) and the fire's burning-

Holy shit. Holy shit!

Over the decision a jury reached hours ago

There are riots all over L.A..

Police are shown in this video tape

beating a black motorist, are not guilty of any crimes.

The verdict was shocking because of

a central piece of evidence, an amateur photographer's

videotape. The Los Angeles Police beating Rodney King

in March of last year.

This is how we're going to tell America

that our generation is conservative.

Our generation is Republican.

I'd like to introduce a new band that I like a lot

and they've got a different style

and I think you're going to like them a lot.

And you're definitely going to hear about them a lot.

They're called Blind Melon.

Oh goodness.

Probably one of the most original album covers

I've ever seen.

It's Glen, our drummer's sister.

It was a family picture on the grand family wall.

Getting ready to do a big tour, I hear.

We're on our way to Missouri.

It's my birthday.

We're going to rock out with fucking Oz.

And Alice in Chains. With Rog in the back seat.

And...

What, Lisa?

How you doing? We're Blind Melon,

we're the opening act.

Go on in.

Okay, thank you.

Reach in like that.

And then when you want to stop recording,

you push fader again, and you'll see fader come

up on the screen. See it?

And then you push fader, fade out.

(rock music)

I see stars, man. I'm just like so pumped up.

I just have tunnel vision.

You know, like you're looking through a couple of straws

and wear myself out to where I can't even breathe right.

Just from my adrenaline racing through my body

like a frigging freight train.

(continuous tone)

The best mind candy to thread the cutting edge.

They may not hail from Seattle,

but Blind Melon is destined to be one

of the new Nirvana's.

(laughing)

I came here with grand delusions

of backstage groupies and look where I am in the hotel.

I've been eating chocolate chip cookies

and then I ended up hanging out

with Shannon once again in a hotel room, it was lame.

(laughing)

Goodnight, Rog.

Goodnight, man.

Christmas '92.

(laughing)

My dad is going, he's going to go to jail

for DUIs tomorrow night. Are you there dad?

And then they take your license?

Yeah, then they take them.

For how long?

10 years.

You don't need a driver's license

to drive a golf cart, do you?

(laughing) No. But I sure as hell

can't drive a golf cart to work.

Goddamn it.

That'd be the talk of the town. It already is now.

Everybody feels like it's safe to go out now.

Yeah, mm-hmm.

So you proposed to mom again last night.

I did not! I just told her

if she wanted to get married and have insurance,

she'd have it.

Well both of you are too goddamn crazy to find

anybody else to love you.

Do solemnly swear

That I will faithfully execute the Office

of President of the United States.

That I will faithfully execute the Office

of President of the United States.

Mulholland Drive. This is where

all the big stars live.

Big stars.

Big stars.

Rogers, you're going to be out here on Sunday,

and we had to binge before you got out here.

'Cause I haven't binged in a long time.

We were out for fucking...

Too many days.

You tell me that drugs aren't good sometimes.

Broke my sobriety of 11 months.

10 months, I mean.

(clock ticking)

In Lafayette.

Been sent down, started drinking in L.A..

Now I'm...

getting my head clear.

(clock ticking)

(angelic singing)

Been clear for a minute now.

In the interview you did before

you said something like, you know,

you weren't really happy.

Your childhood wasn't very happy.

Your parents were divorced.

I had a lot

of problems with alcohol in my family that, you know,

that ended up being a problem for me.

And it's priceless success to me, worth more

than any thing will ever mean to me, to be able to

establish healthy relationships with members of my family.

Well, I gotta go.

All right.

See you this afternoon. If it rains, I'll be home.

I'll probably be asleep.

I'll try to stay awake.

I'm so annoyed right now, I can't fucking sleep.

I'll see you later on, Pop.

Okay, hon.

Have a good one.

You too.

Ain't nothing good about working.

Getting off.

Yeah.

What time is it?

(guitar strumming)

♪ Now, as I open my eyes ♪

♪ To start another day ♪

♪ In a pile of puke, empty bag of excuses ♪

♪ My love for friends and family ♪

♪ So much I need them ♪

♪ Under a sun that's seen it all before ♪

♪ And my feet are so ♪

♪ And I can't believe that I have ♪

♪ To bang my head against the wall again ♪

♪ Oh, well, the blows ♪

♪ They have just a little more space between them ♪

♪ I'm gonna take a breath and try ♪

♪ And try again, again ♪

I mean, I know I'm not the only person

who feels the way I feel.

So it's just a matter of me

being able to communicate with people through songs.

Ah! The sun is out!

Here comes the sun. (vocalizes)

Yeah.

I got playback, please.

(music plays)

Great video from Blind Melon.

An unusual video for the hit track "No Rain"

It's the feel good video of the 90's

Yep, the song that's on everyone's lips

is the very song that has zipped Blind Melon's album

up Billboard's Top 200 chart to number seven.

A pretty remarkable feat for an album that was released

a year ago.

(crowd singing)

Things are getting really kind of crazy.

We're going to put that in brainwash rotation!

♪ All I can say ♪

♪ Is that my life is pretty plain ♪

(crowd cheering)

Buenos Dias.

Shannon, can we take a picture with you real quick?

Yeah.

Oh, cool, you're so cool. Okay.

Thanks so much.

Oh, my God, you're so cool.

I'm so excited.

Oh my gosh, I'm so happy.

I'm just a regular guy, I swear to God.

This is just the beginning.

This track is going to last, you know

hopefully two, three months long.

Well, at some point when you guys get a little...

get a little break, we're going to have to go in and

try to lay down a few songs.

'Cause I've been talking to some producer types.

(laughing)

You know what, Tim?

I guess we'll have to try

to write some more songs.

I don't know if we can do it...

Tim, in order to do those new songs, man, we need

a new, another cash advance from capital.

You do, huh?

Yeah. Like non recoupable, $90,000 cash advance.

(chuckling)

Well, let me ask you this.

See, I have this image.

I have this image that I've got

everybody perceiving me as, and it's really expensive,

and I've run out of money.

Yeah. It's hard to maintain that...

that rockstar lifestyle, you have, isn't it?

(laughing)

You're going to be very busy

over the next couple of months.

Yeah, we just, we just got the Neil Young tour,

Neil Young and Soundgarden.

And that's definitely the rock and roll utopia tour for me.

If we listen-

Why that sounds like Neil Young

playing my acoustic guitar.

The value of that guitar is increasing exponentially

right now.

(guitar strumming)

You know, when you have, like,

one of those moments when

you're watching someone play and everything is perfect

to the point where you're so overwhelmed

that you fucking, you just get all emotional

and your eyes tear up and shit?

Oh, yeah.

Man, last night I was...

Neil was getting ready to play "Helpless."

Man, he- I mean...

"There is a town,"

right when he started, man, my eyes just went "whoop."

Rolled right back in my head, man, I was fucking,

I was tied.

Fucking A.

He was healing me.

♪ There is a town in North Ontario ♪

I mean, it's just...

It feels good to know that that still exists.

That people can still give those kind of feelings

to other people, you know?

And I'm sure your music

does that to people too. And will do that.

I mean, especially as you get old- get on.

That song was written in, like, 1967, I think.

That's pretty timeless.

Think about that.

Think about your record that was written in 1992...

jacking some kid in 2010.

That is pretty funny.

To get you the good news before it happens,

we are at 975 units.

Therefore, the way sales have been,

we should be Platinum by sometime tomorrow.

It's been more like a waterfall now, I guess.

Is it easy, now, to step back?

Because when you are...

That's why I've got a video camera

There's so much happening now,

I can't really sit back and soak it all in right now.

So I'll just have to watch it and do it later.

The sun was setting, we made it up here.

Little pieces of time that I'll never have back.

On that balcony part

Don't!

Don't be a stinker pot.

Don't.

No.

Right on your face.

Ooh, shh. We can't tell that.

We'll tell it, you gotta protect your future.

God damn-

It's just, these things are just the best, man.

I can put in a tape.

You have no idea what's on it.

You know, because it's just a collage of many things.

Holy macaroni.

Unbelievable.

It pulls you back.

Right into the moment.

So, Shannon, what are you doing?

I'm getting ready to deliver a pizza

in front of 50,000 people nude.

He's doing it.

A crystal ball.

I wish my girlfriend looked like that right now.

I might even just call it Shannon, you know.

I'm not just saying that.

Totally wonderful.

Mr. Jagger and Mr. Watts would like to meet the band

if we're not busy, and they just so happened to

catch us at a time when we really weren't that busy.

It's my birthday, Glen.

Have to take everybody for an actual walk over here

across the Abbey Road crosswalk, so...

here we are.

See if you can feel the aura.

(sighs)

They were going this way?

Oh, I went the wrong way.

(guitar strumming)

(harmonica plays)

Do you want me to record, even in between songs?

Yeah.

Okay.

So what shows should Lisa

videotape the whole songs on?

I don't know.

It's fading in, and now do you turn the

fader off?

Now as the LE STB wide, turns to-

To record.

To record, okay.

Now the fader automatically goes off.

Okay.

Fader.

Fade.

Why isn't it fading out?

Because you can't- it's stuck.

Oh, I do have to go here?

No, you keep- you're just pushing the--

On the count of three I want everybody to throw

whatever it is they're going to throw up here, all right?

So, I want to see all kinds of shoes

flying from all your stinky fucking feet, all right?

On the count of three, everybody now take them off.

No cheating, no cheating.

Ready?

Is everybody ready?

One, two, three.

(crowd cheers)

This is a song called "Holyman."

Can you believe I did it?

When you watch this back, I don't know.

Give me the video.

Give it to me, Shannon.

If you're going to make fun of it

put it away right now.

Seriously. I'm serious.

Ouch.

Ouch?

Did you hear my bones breaking?

That was me, dummy.

You're not filming anything, Shannon.

The light's not on.

What am I going to do today?

Hey Shannon, it's Chris.

I just wanted to

let you know that

90-- 95% that we're going to get a cover now.

So it looks really good.

They also need to do a session with just you.

Which we will talk about that.

So give me a call when you get in.

See you man, bye.

(indistinct chattering)

Boy, I'm really disappointed.

I'm sorry. I was fucking really excited about

being on the cover of Rolling Stone

How do they want just Shannon?

I don't know.

They've wanted it for a while.

So is Shannon going to do it?

Yes.

I think he will.

Yeah.

I think it's totally wrong

for the perception of the band.

Shannon's not going to refuse to do it?

I don't know, I think he should though.

He's saying "Well, I'm doing what's best for the band."

'Cause they're going to cut the article, right,

If we're not on the cover.

[Rogers] I think it's a load of crap

because Soul Asylum was all the whole band,

I mean, Spin Doctors--

[Brad] They're saying there's been

too many bands on the cover.

Well, we're a band.

They need to get somebody else to do a cover story on.

Yeah.

Today was the day.

Today was the day, early this morning where Shannon finally

realized that he was the driving force behind the band

and was going to be on the cover of Rolling Stone

because he deserved it.

Then after discussing it with the end of Brad's bass,

Brad decided that that was no longer the case,

all for one, one for all.

Shannon finally decided that

the whole is bigger than the sum of its parts.

Today was the day that Shannon Hoon finally realized

that the four of us are always right.

And he's always wrong.

It's as simple as that.

I've got to hear what this guy's got to say.

Brad, don't be fucking throwing your bass

at that camera there, boy.

Yeah...

(chuckles)

No, what sucks is I hit my fucking Ampeg.

He did more than hit his Ampeg.

I just went out and looked at his Ampeg.

Now who caused all this?

Rolling Stone Magazine caused all this.

Because they just see the band

as commodities and products and marketing.

They don't realize there's real human beings

with real feelings involved.

I'm nervous.

Are you Rodgers?

(laughing)

Oh, no!

Shannon's got a roll.

(laughing)

I'd been doing my drinking.

Kept it at the maximum.

♪ Rolling Stones ♪

♪ Stone ♪

♪ Five copies for my mother ♪

500. 500.

♪ On the cover of a Rolling Stone ♪

(laughing)

Are you filming him?

Is that thing on?

Mm-hmm.

I thought you said it was fucked up.

Well, I'm trying to play--

I feel like I'm at camp.

I just got a weird flashback of a thing at camp.

Well, I'm pissed because

I'm playing some tapes back

from a long, long time ago.

And, like, while they're in play mode

and I'm watching, watching them back through here,

the screen just starts breaking up and starts--

(pee splashing)

Wait, hold on a second.

I'll get it. I'm going to get it.

Can I have one of those earrings?

Man, everything's-

Can I have your necklace?

No way.

My mom gave me that.

Melon head till I'm dead.

Damn.

That's commitment.

I saw you on TV.

(in Spanish) Hello! We are Blind Melon,

and this is our video, "No Rain."

She's in Milwaukee.

You know what?

People like you need to get out of here.

You're a fucking smart ass.

I'm fucking security (unintelligible)

(indistinct arguing)

You ain't going to do nothing to me, man.

You're not gonna do one thing to me.

Not one thing.

Not one thing. Not one thing you fucking--

So, I'm sitting here, in the courtroom.

I'm not sure what's going to happen.

No rain is probably one of the best self-esteem videos

I've ever seen.

And I think that's why a lot of people really love it is

because this little girl who was just doing her stuff

and thought she was so much in her glory and her pride

of just being herself was laughed at until that moment

of revelation.

When she looks through the gates and she goes,

"Man there's people just like me."

It's cute.

It is cute.

I hate cute.

Cute is killing you.

I can tell.

I don't really...

A bee!

Cheryl!

A bee.

Oh, no.

Boy.

The bee.

Bigger than the band.

Ladies and gentlemen.

Blind Melon.

(crowd cheering)

(slow rock music)

♪ All I can say ♪

♪ Is my life, it's pretty lame. ♪

I think people are analyzing it way too deep.

You know what I mean?

That's the problem with, with a lot of things, you know

is that like day to day, I'm asked to

analyze how I got to where I'm at and you know,

not really paying attention to it is the beauty of it,

you know? And then all of a sudden you're asked to

analyze it, (unintelligible)

So, you know, I mean, I don't want to figure

out how I got to where I'm at.

(marching band plays)

As quickly as it might have come,

it can be gone that soon.

This is just a timeframe we're dealing with.

We're not going to be here for forever.

I like writing music and I like doing things like this,

but at the same time, it's like

there's other things that I have just as

much enthusiasm doing.

What do you want to do?

I want to get into film.

It's just that all this,

everything is so serious now.

It takes up too much time.

A year in legal violations began in January

with the arrest of Ted Nugent

who violated Cincinnati's fire code

by shooting a lit arrow onstage.

David Lee Roth was arrested for possession of marijuana.

Shannon Hoon was caught with his pants down

and charged with indecent exposure

for urinating onstage during a Vancouver concert.

We wanted important things for people

to get mad about.

I don't know.

What do you want to do?

I'll take whatever someone doesn't want.

How's that?

I've got to fucking wait here.

I scored some smack.

I ended up getting some smack.

Doing the pee thing, you know, tells...

That's what we're doing.

That's what we're doing.

Tuesday 9:43 PM.

Shannon, this is Lisa, again.

This is third time I've called you

wondering where you're at.

I don't know.

Just trying to get ahold of you.

Didn't get to talk to you

for the last couple of days at all, really.

If you're around, you can call me later tonight.

End of message.

Hello, this is Chris Jones.

Just thought I'd call and

see if you were still alive today.

We're up to a 1.1 million records sold.

So, I just thought I'd give you a little bit of

business news so you can feel great today.

That's it, brother.

Shannon, it's your mom just calling to say hi.

Talk to you later. Bye.

Been trying all day to get you.

This is about the millionth time I've called.

Don't know where you could be.

I'm not going to call you anymore.

You can call me. You know. Bye.

Message discarded.

Been a very lazy boy.

I didn't tape anything in L.A.,

nothing on the Christmas show with

Porno for Pyros, Smashing Pumpkin tests, Cranberries,

Cracker, Henry Rollins read "The Night Before Christmas,"

which was the highlight of the whole evening.

That's all.

I can only tell you about it because

I didn't videotape any of it.

Sorry.

(train rolling)

(child singing)

♪ Frosty, the snowman ♪

♪ Was a very, very soul ♪

Hi, look at you. You look adorable.

Are you taking a picture for me, too?

Hurry!

Oh, the train?

No.

Where are you going?

Hurry, Uncle Shannon!

Alrighty.

No, this way!

What's down there?

There's a ugly beast who will eat you up.

There's a big ugly beast,

gonna eat me up?

Uh oh, we've got to be quiet.

Shh...

Make sure the big ugly beast doesn't hear us.

♪ Fade away ♪

♪ Oh, you know, I never thought ♪

♪ I'd lay in the shade ♪

♪ I was much too clever ♪

♪ But one of these days I'll sever you some truth ♪

♪ Yeah ♪

♪ And then I'll sever you ♪

(vocalizes)

It's New Year's Eve.

Happy New Year's everybody.

Woo-wee!

Woo-wee!

What are you looking at out there, Crouse?

Okay, so, right now in Japan

people are paying attention to the kind of music

by Pearl Jam, and of course by yours and Nirvana,

or, you know, what we call alternative sound.

What do you think about their music?

I think that bands like Nirvana

and Pearl Jam have really helped a lot of people

deal with whatever it is

that a young person deals with today.

Music is a very therapeutic thing.

That's what I'm attracted to.

People get therapeutic value from listening to it.

Some people get it from playing it, it's a fix,

and it helps get a lot of things out of you

and helps you bleed.

We wish you good health and

more happiness and even more big success

for many years to come

for Blind Melon.

And final question.

I've noticed that...

religion has been a heavy theme in your music.

Songs like "Soak the Sin," and "Holyman," "Change,"

Is this something that affects you deeply?

I believe there's...

I believe in God, I don't believe in religion.

I mean, everybody finds themselves

sitting alone, talking to someone

at some point in time.

I get tired of talking to the mirror

every now and then, you know?

Here, Shannon, make a wish.

I have one more wish I gotta make.

So what do you think has been the

happiest moment in your life?

The happiest moment...

is probably yet to come.

Oh. What do you think

has been the hardest thing? The hardest moment?

The day after that girl took

a flying leap in Detroit.

We got done playing

over at Saint Andrew's Hall, which is right there.

And we've seen all these people down here on the corner

we realized there was a girl that was 20 floors up,

on the hotel edge up here.

Police were called, they blocked this whole street off,

and she jumped.

Hit the street.

Man, what'd y'all do

when you went back to the-

It was silent.

We left the show, you know, we didn't stay.

We canceled our after show thing, and we left.

Why?

(clears throat)

I don't know why.

You're sort of ashamed that you've seen it.

You know what I mean?

You wonder, you just wonder all these questions.

You're bombarded with a million questions on

"why," you know, "why this?"

"Why that?" "If this," you know? "If that?"

You know? And it's something that...

that makes you grow somewhere.

Yeah.

It's just right now,

I can't pinpoint where, you know...

You think there's a song

that could come out of this?

I wouldn't even know where to begin. There's...

It's definitely something that I will never forget.

♪ I can't tell you ♪

♪ How many ways that I have sat and viewed my life today ♪

♪ But I can tell you that I can't seem to find ♪

♪ An easy way ♪

♪ So if I see you walking hand in hand in hand ♪

♪ With a three-armed man ♪

♪ I'll understand ♪

♪ Should have been in my shoes yesterday ♪

♪ Been in my shoes yesterday ♪

(clapping)

Excellent. Live Blind Melon,

and that song is yet untitled.

Why do we even pay-

why do people imitate what they see on television?

And why does the Jackson family get to hand out awards?

And why do billions of people go to see "Ace Ventura: Pet

Detective?" Why?

Our first guests, we're just going to

get right to them because they're such a hot band.

This is Blind Melon.

(crowd cheering)

When this bizarre real life movie continues.

It's not going to hold me!

On the scoreboard, they're running a clock,

it's up to one minute and seven seconds.

Turn it into positive energy, Tanya.

Oh, God. Front cover of TIME right there.

Whether it's a costume, or-

More on the life and work of John Candy.

Several short stories and 1000 poems,

Charles Bukowski dead at 73.

Not a pretty day on Wall Street,

stock prices have fallen sharply-

(laughing)

Best New Artist.

Blind Melon

And the Grammy goes to...

Toni Braxton.

No!

(groaning)

(crying)

You know, man, we are so fucking alternative

we couldn't even win a Grammy.

Yeah.

That's cool.

That's why we didn't win.

That's really cool.

(rock music)

(crowd cheering)

It's all done. It's all done.

The whole tour's done.

Come on, Mr. Sun, get up.

Come on, Mr. Sun, pop up.

Oh, oh, you're right there.

You're right there on the edge

of the Goddamn fucking horizon, get up.

Give me another day. Give me another day.

Give me another day. Give me another day...

What is your first name?

Shannon.

Shannon? You must be Irish.

Yeah.

I knew he was smart.

Oh, my God. He's Irish.

I knew he was smart.

Are you saving your money?

Yeah, I'm a fairly simple person.

Well, you come from Indiana.

Yeah, and it don't take a lot of money to live.

I just, I want to have some kids.

That's the only thing I want to do.

Kid, save your fucking money. I'm gonna talk

like a beast to you. Save your fucking money.

Listen, here's what you do.

The world is cruel!

Cruel, cruel world.

Here's what you do.

Take a tip from us, we were all millionaires one time.

Look at us now, we're bums.

You're laughing. It's true.

Shannon.

The most important thing in this world

is to take it easy, don't sweat it, and enjoy it.

(waves crashing)

That almost made it out here!

(waves crashing)

Kurt Cobain died today.

Killed himself.

I think a lot of people

including his little baby girl, probably, are hurting.

Don't you think?

Kurt Cobain's body was found. He is dead.

A single shotgun blast to the head.

Not the answer. Definitely not the answer.

Your questions, 741-0997, your comments. Hello!

Nirvana leader Kurt Cobain, extraordinarily gifted

singer, songwriter, and guitarist was found

dead in Seattle.

Obviously very difficult for most people to understand,

why someone who had all his dreams come true

could still be in such incredible pain.

I want to hear...

Hear it from the beginning?

Yeah. See how it's just-

♪ I'll pull the trigger ♪

♪ Make it all go away ♪

♪ I'll make it all go away ♪

♪ Make it all go away ♪

Wait hold on, you know what?

Stop. Stop for a minute.

Let me think about this for a second.

So I sit and I think about...

(groans)

(mirror squeaks)

You know, you just have this self-realization thing.

I couldn't sleep.

And I couldn't sleep for, for like, almost

like a day and a half, two days, because

I was just thinking about all these problems

I had encountered through my life

that I never really dealt with that I swept

under this mental rug in my head, you know?

And like I thought about, I thought about how

I wanted to get where I'm at now and how happy I would be.

How much I wanted to do music enough to leave my home.

And I thought about this feeling

that I would have when I got to a certain point.

And when I got to that point, I wasn't happy.

That feeling that I thought I was going to have

for all those years wasn't there, and I didn't know why.

And then all of a sudden for like 48 hours

I'm going back through my life,

and I'm thinking about all these things that I did wrong

how I could've dealt with them.

What are you videotaping?

I have the freedom to do this.

I know, I'm just asking a question

I'm not stopping you from videotaping, I'm just asking-

I know. You can't stop me from videotaping

because I am an American citizen.

Congratulations. Why are you videotaping?

(phone ringing)

And then you kind of almost

take yourself back to the frame of mind you were in

right before. Do you know what I'm talking about?

You're scaring me, okay.

But listen, you kind of

take yourself back to that frame of mind.

You can actually almost feel the same nervous feeling

that you had before you did whatever it was

you did that wasn't right.

And then you think about how you could have handled it.

And by doing that, man, it's like, you almost just

relived it.

You almost relived it.

I was overwhelmed.

I was so overwhelmed.

If I had waited until I was 50

before I realized these things, at least you realize it.

Hi, Lisa. It's Domenique calling.

I was checking in with you to see how Shannon's doing,

and what's going on and all that other stuff.

If you want to leave a message

if you're in now, my man. Let's party! Later.

Landy, I just got out of rehab. I can't.

I wish I could.

I just need to know if it's cool with you

if I give Mike McCready your phone number.

He is in rehab and he is

frightened about when he comes out and he was kind of hoping

maybe he could talk to you about it.

Hey Shannon, this is McCready again,

just calling to see what's up.

Just been kind of going up and down today,

having some weird emotions and

I don't know, I just wanted to call and see what's up.

If you have any of the same kind of feelings and stuff.

Damn. What a friendly message.

Hey, Hoon, this is Lyle. Just calling to see what

was up. Hadn't heard from you.

Heard they finally turned you loose,

and just wanted to give you a call.

If I don't hear from you, I guess I will

see you in Amsterdam.

It's next weekend.

Well, take it easy man. Talk to you later. Bye.

Hey Shannon Hoon, it's Paul Cummings.

I wanted to make sure you got your plane tickets

and that kind of stuff.

All right, we'll see you in a couple of days!

Give it a lot of light?

Okay.

Okay.

Oh, gosh...

Okay. So, will the little green ever grow back?

I mean, I don't even care about the distortion

of the shape, I just want it to live.

So, okay. Thank you very much.

Bye-bye.

First he said it sounded really bad.

And then he changed his tune

because you said that if I can bend, you know what I mean?

If he bends and he just doesn't break

like if the limbs just don't break off.

He said, then there's probably still life.

Right.

Wow, I wonder what happened, then, I mean...

My sister's talking to her about the plant.

And she's lying. Saying she watered it,

when it's quite obvious that she didn't.

The ordeal has sapped her energy,

and the pain from the bite in her back leg is obvious,

as she keeps it from touching the other one.

She is totally vulnerable.

Well, why don't you fucking help her?

In concert news, Blind Melon has bailed out of the

final two and a half weeks of it's current

European tour, apparently because singer Shannon Hoon,

feeling somewhat depleted after a month long rehab stint

for alcohol and drug abuse, feels the band

isn't quite up to par right now.

"I don't feel it's right for our fans to pay

for something they might not want to see and hear,"

he says. Blind Melon is still scheduled

to do some opening act dates with the Rolling Stones

later this summer.

Yeah. We canceled our European tour.

I'm just tired of playing.

Yeah. We're getting along all right, but...

No.

(toilet flushes)

Will I see a beluga at all?

Huh?

Will I see a beluga?

A beluga? Did you see that?

I don't know, they said there are belugas in here.

This is kind of a rude question,

but it comes straight from the mouth of my

13 year old nephew. Who, when the subject of Blind Melon

came up over the holidays, said

"Oh, one-hit wonders."

Well, you know what?

The way you want to think of it

and the way your 13 year old kid wants to think about it

is entirely up to you and your 13 year old child.

If you don't embrace it it's not going to break my heart.

You know, how come they always put the lights

right on that side?

Because I'm not the star.

Who is the star?

There's no stars here.

I read some juicy stuff in the Rolling Stone.

Jesus. Alcohol and smashing things in hotel rooms

and urinating on Canadian crowds?

To make your first record

and have it start doing well,

people are going to now see us

mature in a very microscopic situation.

A lot of people are offended because they believed

in what MTV portrayed us to be all about.

No one is going to know what I'm about

from one video...

and a bee girl

and a cute little story.

And it's up to the individual to realize

how much it has to do with reality.

You can't believe everything you're watching.

So wake up.

(helicopter blades whirring)

Wow.

230 to 250,000 people here now.

If there's not at least 500,000 people here by Sunday,

we're going to be surprised.

(blues music)

Five minutes before the biggest show of his career,

Shannon Hoon is playing with his video camera.

(crowd cheering)

This is a song called "Soup."

♪ The clothesline of cold eyes ♪

♪ Is washing away the face before ♪

♪ Now, tell me what's wrong ♪

♪ You see everyone's gone ♪

♪ You've got to do your best to decorate this dying day ♪

♪ This dying day ♪

♪ All over a bowl of bitter beans ♪

♪ All over a bowl of bitter beans ♪

♪ And outside, way, way up high ♪

♪ I got a quarter moon mist hanging over me ♪

♪ And now I want that rocking chair out of there ♪

♪ 'Cause it's no longer needed here ♪

♪ It's no longer needed here ♪

♪ All over a bowl of bitter beans ♪

♪ All over a bowl of bitter beans ♪

♪ I got a corner story that's all the more ♪

♪ For me to praise upon the holidays ♪

♪ And now I'll close my eyes really, really tight ♪

♪ And I'll make you all go away ♪

♪ I'll make you all go away ♪

♪ I'll make you all go ♪

♪ Away ♪

♪ Well, I'll pull the trigger ♪

♪ And I'll make it all go away ♪

♪ And I'll make it all go away ♪

♪ I'll make it all go away ♪

(vocalizes)

(vocalizes)

(helicopter whirs)

You talked about doing a recording situation

in New Orleans. I don't know if you're still on that track.

If you'd like to do that for your next record,

and record in a house.

Daniel Lanois has a house in New Orleans.

He's already doing that.

Really?

Yes.

Hello?

New Orleans.

Is this thing wacked out of tune?

It's just kind of...

Kind of had it's best days, you know?

Yeah.

As far as intonation goes.

What gig is this?

Blind Melon.

Are y'all from here? Or you just brought in the...

No, ah, I like it down here, but it's

too much of a cesspool of things that I really...

There's a lot of cesspool shit.

I have to be an arm's length away

from most of it otherwise my metabolism,

fucking, is all fucked up.

(rock music)

They got me fucking...

they got me

accused of a lot of shit, man.

And all the way down to the police station,

I still was fucking thinking that

they should have arrested the other guy too.

I reaffirm myself how much I don't need to drink.

I wish Jeff would've just knocked me out.

(music plays)

(music stops)

I can't believe you're pregnant either.

The egg is in, like, one of the ovaries.

Or had just released from the ovary, and

it doesn't even attach or live off of your body

for, like, two weeks.

Huh? All right.

No, no, no, nothing.

Well, it's not too hard to figure out

that Lisa is pregnant.

Merry Christmas.

(upbeat country music plays)

You know, I do my best to not make a mess of things.

Although, people would never know that.

What are you doing?

You want to go back?

What are you doing?

I gotta get all this shit home.

Right.

Well, that's fine.

We can always come back when we're done.

Do it then.

When I leave this city,

I don't ever want to come back to it.

I can understand that.

Amen.

Today is the day

we find out if it's a girl or a boy.

Does it feel like a boy or a girl?

It feels like a girl to me, but I really don't know.

But I guess I'll go with a girl...

Since you're going with a boy.

See who wins the bet.

Winner gets the kid.

Yeah, right.

There she is!

There's her little heart.

We're done now with our kitchen.

Got this area to do.

Which has been hit hard by Russian

shelling, the Chechens are still defying the odds

battling the latest Russian onslaught.

One, two, three, four, five,

six, seven, eight, nine, 10,

exhale, inhale, and push again.

Easy, easy.

Oh my God.

(crying)

Little bit of a push, now.

Easy, easy, easy.

Push. A little harder. Easy. Good.

Oh, my God.

Stop. Okay.

(Lisa whimpering)

Oh, my God. (crying)

So it is a she.

It is a she.

Oh, my gosh.

Here, let me get this for you,

our first phone call.

Hello?

Who is this?

Hi.

Oh, she's too cute.

Her lips are adorable.

(baby whimpering)

Hi.

You've had a pretty busy day, haven't you?

Come over and see dad!

Hi! Hi, baby!

Oh, she's precious.

(baby whimpering)

The last name's Hoon. H-O-O-N.

(baby whimpering)

Okay. Are we recording? Whoops, I can hardly

read (unintelligible)

Peek out at your momma.

Get your hand out of the way.

Hi.

You're a daddy now.

Say hi.

This is the face of a very tired breastfed baby.

As you can see, she can barely hang on

to her state of consciousness.

Sorts of gurgling sounds, possible overflow.

Mm-hmm.

Oh, I see.

Jerry Garcia was found dead today.

She will now never be able to go to

the Grateful Dead show.

We're very sad about that, aren't we, little baby?

We're getting ready to release our second album

which we have entitled "Soup" for lack of any better ideas.

(guitar twangs)

You're dozing on me, bud.

You're dozing.

Are you with me, Shannon?

Huh?

Are you with me?

Yeah.

I'm sorry.

You know I made the dreadful mistake of

the end of the evening, you always run into that one person

who's holding that one thing that

you just...

really, really want to say no.

I'm not really ready to

jump back into this with both feet.

You know, I just want to be home with Lisa.

What's the response been so far with the record?

One and a half stars.

One and a half stars.

These reporters here want to talk to everybody

but the guys in Blind Melon.

Yep.

How many more days left?

♪ Oh, please give me a little more ♪

Your red light's flashing.

Why is it flashing?

Is that powering down? Something going on?

This city brings out the...

the mental monsters.

It's hard to put up with these guys.

And you know what?

Sometimes...

I wish all of these guys would just get out of me.

♪ Happy birthday to you! ♪

♪ Happy birthday to you! ♪

♪ Happy birthday dear daddy! ♪

♪ Happy birthday to you! ♪

And many more!

(clapping)

♪ It isn't me ♪

♪ No, no, no, no, it isn't me ♪

♪ No, no, no, no, it isn't me ♪

♪ No, no, it isn't me, ♪

♪ No, it isn't me, ♪

♪ No it isn't ♪

Planting her tree here,

to commemorate the baptism.

(dog barking)

Look, Shannon. This would be a cute picture.

Look, Shannon.

We need to get a picture of that.

So will you hold her,

and et me go get my camera?

Just sit down and talk to her.

You're taller than the tree.

You're like 10 feet taller!

Aren't you?

(groans)

You're 10 feet taller than the tree.

♪ Now when I open my eyes to start another day ♪

♪ I'm in a pile of puke ♪

♪ Empty bag of excuses ♪

♪ Got love for my friends and my family ♪

♪ Don't you know I need them ♪

♪ Under a sun that's seen it all before ♪

♪ All before ♪

♪ And my feet are so cold ♪

♪ And I can't believe ♪

♪ I have to bang my head against this wall again ♪

♪ Well, the blows they have just a little ♪

♪ More space in between them ♪

♪ Oh, yeah ♪

♪ Take a breath and I will try and and try and try again ♪

♪ Oh yeah ♪

♪ I'm going to try again ♪

♪ Oh, yeah ♪

♪ I'm going to try again ♪

♪ Oh yeah ♪

♪ You know I'm going ♪

♪ You know I'm going ♪

♪ To give it one more try again ♪

Lisa!

(laughing)

Hurry!

♪ Leaving me behind ♪

♪ Oh, just bring it to me ♪

(camera clatters)

Hey.

I do too. I gotta sleep.

What time is it right now?

Well...

I want you to call me

and let me know about that flight as soon as possible.

Tomorrow. Tonight or tomorrow.

Yeah.

Yeah, but you know what?

I, like, really need to get off that fucking bus.

Yeah. If she says her first word I don't know

how I'm going to- yeah.

Is everything cool with my family?

Yeah.

(electronic reverb)