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Data: Commander, away team reporting in.

Lieutenant worf standing by.

Riker: This is riker. Go ahead, lieutenant.

Worf [over com]: The archeologists have identified

the markings in these caverns.

This planet was apparently once home to a race known as the koinonians.

What do we know about them, data?

The koinonians were an intelligent culture

which became embroiled in a war that lasted for several generations.

Our best evidence indicates they destroyed themselves.

Worf: We have completed our survey of the third tunnel

and will proceed into the ceremonial chamber.

Affirmative. Enterprise out.

Destroyed themselves, data?

According to historical records,

this will be the first opportunity for a federation team...

Captain, beam them up, quickly!

Worf: Captain, emergency beam-up. Enterprise, emergency.

- Severe injuries. - Transporter room.

O'brein [over com]: I've got them, captain.

Beam them straight to sickbay. Dr. Crusher, incoming wounded.

Away team is on board, captain.

[Over com] One dead on arrival.

Picard: Space, the final frontier.

These are the voyages of the starship enterprise.

Its continuing mission: To explore strange new worlds,

to seek out new life and new civilizations,

to boldly go where no one has gone before.

Captain's log, stardate 43198.7.

The enterprise remains in standard orbit

while we investigate the tragedy which has struck the away team.

Lieutenant Marla aster, ship's archaeologist,

has been killed in what should have been a routine mission.

Whatever the explanation,

it will not bring back a valued and trusted officer.

Lieutenant?

We had completed our investigation of the third tunnel.

Our scans indicated no weapons or traps of any kind.

Lieutenant aster was 3 meters behind me.

An explosive device went off.

[Worf sighs]

There was no warning.

Lieutenant aster bore the full brunt of the detonation.

Lieutenant aster is survived by a son, Jeremy, 12 years old.

He's aboard the enterprise, sir.

- And his father? - He's also deceased.

His only living relatives are an aunt and uncle residing on earth.

- Where is he now? - In class.

I've alerted the teacher to expect us.

Worf: Captain.

I must accompany you. I commanded the away team.

I appreciate your offer, lieutenant. This is my responsibility.

- Picard to bridge. - Riker [over com]: Yes, captain?

Assign commander la forge to lead another away team to the dig site.

- I want to know why this happened. - Riker: Yes, captain.

I will be with counselor troi and young Jeremy aster.

I understand. Riker out.

He had to do the same thing for me.

Do you know Jeremy well?

But I know what this is gonna be like for him.

That's part of life in starfleet, Wesley.

I know. They're very careful to prepare us for anything, but still...

I know.

How do you get used to it? Telling them?

You hope you never do.

I sense the weight of this duty on you, captain.

I really wonder...

[Elevator beeps as motor stops]

I've always believed that carrying children on a starship

is a very questionable policy.

Serving on a starship means accepting certain risks, certain dangers.

Did Jeremy aster make that choice?

Death and loss are an integral part of life everywhere.

Leaving him on earth would not have protected him.

No, but the earth isn't likely to be ordered to the neutral zone

or to repel a romulan attack.

It was my command which sent his mother to her death.

She understood her mission and my duty.

Will he?

In time.

And with help.

Wesley crusher does.

He does.

And so will Jeremy.

Resume.

[Elevator beeps as motor hums]

Jeremy, I have some bad news.

There has been an accident.

Your mother has died.

How, sir?

An explosive device at the mission site.

She died instantly.

I understand.

Jeremy, I know your mother loved you very much.

I'm told that your father is also dead.

Yes, sir.

He died five years ago from a rushton infection.

I'm alone now, sir.

Jeremy, on the starship enterprise, no one is alone.

No one.

Data: Excuse me, sir. Am I intruding?

Riker: No, sit down.

How well did you know lieutenant aster?

We spent some time together.

Not very well.

- How well did you know her? - Why do you ask?

- Well, you just asked me. - But why do you ask the question?

Since her death, I have been asked several times

to define how well I knew lieutenant aster.

And I heard you ask Wesley on the bridge

how well he knew Jeremy.

Does the question of familiarity have some bearing on death?

Do you remember how we all felt when Tasha died?

I do not sense the same feelings of absence

that I associate with lieutenant yar.

Although I cannot say precisely why.

- Just human nature, data. - Human nature, sir?

We feel a loss more intensely when it's a friend.

But should not the feelings run just as deep, regardless of who has died?

Tsk. Maybe they should, data.

Maybe if we felt any loss as keenly as we felt the death of one close to us,

human history would be a lot less bloody.

Geordi [over com]: La forge to riker.

- You're back, geordi. - Yes, sir.

And we've brought back a souvenir.

Geordi: There are five more just like it.

All identical to the one that killed lieutenant aster.

They employ a subspace proximity detonator.

A normal tricorder would never detect it.

How long would you say they've been there, data?

It comes from the time of the koinonian wars, sir.

- Did you find them all, geordi? - — yeah, but, uh...

Well, it seemed like they were left there to be found.

Left by whom?

There are no indications of life on this planet.

I don't know, captain, but it was pretty obvious

that they'd been recently pulled out of the ground and defused.

I have made my report to the captain.

I'm more interested in how you feel about what happened.

I sense great anger.

[Sighs]

I cannot seek revenge against an enemy

who's turned to dust centuries ago.

Her death was senseless.

The last victim of a forgotten war.

Troi: Go on.

There's nothing more to be said.

A person died under your command.

It may happen again.

If you can't learn to release the anger and the guilt, to talk about it...

A leader must stand alone, as captain picard does.

Captain picard talks to me.

Then may I seek your counsel on my plan to make r'uustai with the boy?

The bonding.

It is my right.

It's very generous, worf, but he's not a klingon child.

He has different sensibilities.

He is an orphan. I am an orphan.

He will understand.

Right now there's isn't much he can understand.

He's holding all his feelings inside.

Children often feel that they must be true to the memory of a lost parent.

If you offer them affection too soon,

they can feel guilty returning that affection.

As if they're betraying the love of the parent.

I only wish to honor his mother.

I know.

And I understand this means a great deal to you.

But you must be prepared.

He's very angry too, but his anger is deep inside him.

When he touches it, it will strike out in many directions, including yours.

Talk to him. But don't rush this.

When he's ready, we'll know.

Jeremy [onscreen]: Captain patches,

we have an alien ship in front of us.

What should we do, captain?

Oh, no, we've been hit, captain. We're going down! Ahh!

[Jeremy's father chuckling onscreen]

Jeremy's father: That was great. Now let's get a shot of mom.

Marla [onscreen]: Heh. What are you doing?

I'll turn your lens into pottery shards.

Go away, go away, go away.

Over there. Over there.

[Cat meowing]

Patches.

Captain patches is coming in for a landing on the sofa.

Oh, no, he's gonna crash!

Jeremy aster?

I'm lieutenant worf. May I enter?

You were in command of the away team.

Yes, I was with lieutenant aster,

your mother, when she died.

You're a klingon, aren't you?

We study about klingons in school.

What did they teach you about us?

You used to be our enemies.

Did they also teach you that every klingon hopes

to die in the line of duty, as your mother did?

In my tradition, we do not grieve the loss of the body.

We celebrate the releasing of the spirit.

I understand death. They teach us all about it.

Jeremy aster, we may both understand it,

but we must bring meaning to your mother's death.

Perhaps we can do it together.

[Computer whirring]

[Door beeps]

Come.

[Computer turns off]

Counselor, how's the boy?

- He's being very brave. - Good.

No, he has to get past brave.

He's very angry, and he has to learn how to express that anger

before he can really say goodbye to his mother.

How can we help?

Well, I've asked Beverly if we might get Wesley

to talk to Jeremy about his father's death.

The one unusual element is worf.

Oh?

In many ways, he's suffering as badly as the boy.

He wishes to involve Jeremy in a klingon ceremony called r'uustai.

The bonding.

I know of that. Well, perhaps it will be helpful to both of them.

I don't think Jeremy's ready to accept worf right now.

Perhaps later, but it will have to be handled most delicately.

As you always do.

I break the unpleasant news, and there my responsibility ends.

But you, you have to stay with them through the entire grieving process.

We deal with our pain in many different ways,

but over the years, I've discovered it's in joy

that the uniqueness of each individual is revealed.

If I can help a person back to a state of joy...

Well, my role has its rewards.

Riker [over com]: Captain, we 're picking up

an energy field on the planet's surface.

Locafion?

Two kilometers north of the away team's beam-down point.

Indeed.

Full scan.

Inconclusive, captain.

Sir, I'm sensing a presence on the planet.

- Very vague. - Life form?

I can't be sure. The emotions of the crew are particularly strong right now.

It's difficult to filter them out.

Data, scan analysis on main viewer.

Troi stopped by a little while ago.

She was wondering if you might be willing

to talk to Jeremy aster at some point.

- What for? - About your dad.

What am I gonna tell him?

It would help him to talk to somebody who's been through this.

We had each other, Wes.

He doesn't have anyone to lean on right now.

And he might be more comfortable talking to someone

who's not that much older than he is.

Okay, I'll think about it.

Okay.

Do you ever think about him, mom?

Your father?

Sure, I do.

Sometimes I can't even remember what his face looks like.

It scares me.

It happens to all of us, Wes.

Sometimes I can't get his face out of my mind.

Today.

Today it's like I can see it all as clearly as if it were yesterday.

I can remember the way dad looked when he hugged me goodbye.

Captain picard's eyes when he came to tell us.

Data, run comparison of known phenomena.

The pattern has no exact match in federation records, sir.

- Is it alive? - A possibility.

Geordi [over com]: Captain,

I'm getting an unusual magnetic flux reading

from the ant/matter containment pods.

My god.

Jeremy [onscreen]: Wait a minute, wait a minute.

Okay, you got 10 seconds more, mom.

No peeking.

Come on, patches, in here. Shh.

Okay, mom, we're ready.

Marla [onscreen]: Jeremy, I'm getting closer.

Jeremy, I'm gonna find you.

Must be in here somewhere.

Marla: Jeremy.

Mom?

All systems are functioning normally.

Still, there's this fluctuation in the containment field.

I can't account for it.

Data, is this possibly related to the energy fields on the planet?

There is a beam of highly charged particles

emanating from the planet, sir.

But I cannot pinpoint the location yet.

Captain, there's a presence on the enterprise.

- An alien presence? - No intruder noted by the sensors, sir.

There is a presence.

Security, all decks, yellow alert. Possible intruder.

They said you were dead.

There was a mistake. It's okay.

But there was an explosion. You were hurt.

I'm fine.

You mustn't think any more about this.

The important thing is I'm never going to leave you again. Heh.

I think somebody needs a hug.

We have to go now.

- Where? - To the planet.

That's where we're going to live now.

We're not gonna stay on the enterprise anymore?

No, we're gonna live in a home just like we used to on earth.

You'll see.

I promise.

[Door beeps]

Lieutenant worf, did they tell you? It was a mistake.

She didn't die. She's alive.

- Jeremy, come here. - Lieutenant worf, it's all right.

I'm here for the boy.

Lieutenant worf to captain picard.

Go ahead.

Worf [over com]: Lieutenant aster is in her quarters.

- Repeat, worf. - Lieutenant aster is here.

In her quarters with the boy.

Do not provoke her or interfere in any way until I arrive.

Picard out.

Number one, have security moving that way,

but tell them to keep their distance.

You have the bridge.

Counselor.

There's nothing to worry about.

I'm going to take care of Jeremy and make him happy.

- It's time to go. - Where are you taking the child?

- To the planet. - Come, Jeremy.

Worf to picard. They're leaving their quarters.

Captain, [believe we're headed for transporter room 3.

We're on our way.

Chief o'brien, Jeremy and I are going down to the surface.

Who are you?

I'm Marla aster.

It's my mother, captain. She's alive.

- What do you want? - To take my child down to the planet.

I cannot permit that. The boy is my responsibility.

I'm here to care for him. He needs me.

Why do you resist?

Because I don't know who or what you are.

Can't you see who it is, captain?

Jeremy, she appears to be your mother, but she is not.

- What do you mean? - You're confusing the boy.

Hey, wait, stop! No!

No, wait, stop!

- Jeremy, come on. - Wait, would you just let...?

- Jeremy. - Let go of me!

She was right there!

What did you do to her?

Jeremy, I don't know what that was, but it was not your mother.

You saw her. She was here.

Your mother is dead.

But I touched her. She was real.

Why would your real mother want you to go down to the planet?

There's nothing there but dust and rocks.

[Troi gasps]

It's my house.

It's my house on earth.

Exactly the way it was.

Remember, Jeremy?

How did you do it?

[Chuckles]

- Does it matter? - Yes, it matters.

I am trying to understand your resistance.

You spoke of rocks and dust on the planet.

I decided to show you what awaits us there.

Why would you create this fantasy?

It's his home.

And it makes you happy, doesn't it?

But it's not real.

Isn't it?

[Patches meowing]

Jeremy, isn't that really patches?

He knows me. It's him.

It's real. It's all real.

No, it's not.

Could your real mother just make all this appear?

You must not stay here.

Come with me.

I can't.

- Is the boy in any danger? - Troi [over com]: I don't think so.

- She seems to want to help him. - Help him?

By easing his pain.

She's very confused by our resistance, captain.

Troi, would it be wise to remove Jeremy from his cabin?

He doesn't want to leave.

I would not recommend taking him by force.

She offers him everything.

All we can offer is the cold reality of his mother's death.

Beverly: What would you choose?

If somebody came along

and offered to give you back your mother, father or husband,

would any of us say no so easily?

Counselor, stay with them in Jeremy's quarters.

We 7! Try and put an end to this from here.

Understood.

[Marla and Jeremy laughing]

Data, can you determine for certain

that the energy source from the planet is powering this creation?

The beam from the planet is clearly tapping into the ship's antimatter.

I'd say they're running that manifestation off our own energy.

So there are limits to her power.

She needs the transporter to get the boy back.

So how do we cut the puppet's strings?

Increasing the shield's harmonics

to match our own antimatter containment fields

- will probably sever the beam. - Proceed.

- Deanna, stand by. - Troi: Standing by.

Jeremy.

It's time for this to end.

It's not real, and it's over now.

Jeremy, I'm not going to leave you ever again.

I won't trick you or lie to you.

We'll be happy together, Jeremy, as soon...

Antimatter containment pods reading nominal.

The shield has severed the beam, sir.

[Computer beeping]

Captain, the energy field.

Mr. Crusher, take us out of here.

[Alarm blaring]

Alien intruder, transporter room 3.

Security alert. Alien...

Security to transporter room 3.

Commander la forge, Mr. Worf, come with me.

Number one, you have the bridge.

[Both groan]

Come, Jeremy.

We will not let them separate us again.

We're going home.

Troi: Captain, she's back.

And she's trying to take Jeremy off the ship again.

Acknowledged.

Engineering, this is la forge. Shut down power to all transporters.

- I'm on my way. - Engineer: Aye, aye, sir.

Lieutenant worf, to transporter room 3.

Bridge, seal off deck 8, corridors a and b.

Engaging force fields, captain. Transporters, down.

Energy force has left transporter room 3.

Security alert, all decks.

La forge, the intruder may try to reinstate transporter power.

Understood, commander.

Bndge, release security force field 8-b.

Hello, Jeremy.

How are you?

- Are you frightened? - No.

- Well, a little, sir. - Picard: Of course.

These are frightening things that are happening.

But we won't let anyone harm you.

Counselor, why don't you take the boy to my quarters?

It's looking over everything, commander.

Going to school.

Let's just hope it doesn't blow us to kingdom come

while it's figuring out how to blow us to kingdom come.

Power's back in transporter room 3.

Bypassing the manual override, shutting it down.

Worf [over com]: Transporter is down again.

Keep it down, geordi, for as long as you can.

Geordi [over com]: Understood, commander.

It is only a matter of time, captain,

before we can power the transporters ourselves.

"We"? For whom else do you speak?

The accident on the surface was caused by a remnant

of an ancient and tragic era.

Two species once shared this world.

One of energy and one of matter.

The physical beings you call the koinonians

destroyed themselves in unending bitter wars.

The surviving life forms on this planet will not tolerate

any further suffering as a result of that dishonorable past.

So they have made this possible.

They have made me possible.

I appreciate your motives.

But his mother is dead.

He must learn to live with that.

- I will be every bit his mother. - But not his mother.

Picard to lieutenant worf.

Worf [over com]: Go ahead, captain.

Will you escort ensign crusher to the aster quarters?

- Wo rf: Yes, sir. - Picard out.

Your philosophy is curious, captain.

What is so noble about sorrow?

I can provide him an existence where he will feel no pain, no anguish.

It is at the heart of our nature to feel pain and joy.

That is an essential part of what makes us what we are.

He is alone now in your world.

A child, alone.

How can you know he won't be happier with me?

For a brief moment in time, he surely would be.

Any of us in his place would be.

What would Jeremy do for friends in your world?

He will have any friends he needs.

And will you provide for his education, his health, his growth,

a career, a wife?

Yes, it's quite an undertaking you're proposing, isn't it?

It is our duty to make him happy again.

Do you honestly believe he would be happy

in this total fiction which you wish to create?

What reason would he have to live?

What you're offering him is a memory.

Something to Cherish, not to live in.

It is part of our life cycle that we accept the death of those we love.

Jeremy must come to terms with his grief.

He must not cover it or hide away from it.

You see, we are mortal.

Our time in this universe is finite.

And that is one of the truths that all humans must learn.

Acting ensign crusher reporting as ordered, sir.

Picard: Yes, come in, Wesley.

Please, stay, lieutenant.

Jeremy,

Wesley's father died on a starfleet mission

when he was younger than you are.

Wes, your mother told me you were finding it difficult to talk to Jeremy.

Why is that?

I don't know.

I just don't wanna think about it anymore.

All this has reminded me so much of that day.

The day I told you your father had been killed.

As I recall, Wesley, you took it very well.

My parents had told me about the dangers of starfleet missions.

- I knew it could happen. - So you were prepared.

No, I wasn't prepared at all.

How can anyone be prepared to hear

that a parent is never coming home again?

I tried to be what everyone expected of me.

Brave and mature.

Wesley, are you saying

that you didn't want anybody to see what you were really feeling?

Well, what were you really feeling?

Like somebody had kicked me in the head.

Somebody?

Go on.

You've wanted to tell him for a long time.

I was angry at you.

Why angry? Why were you angry at me, Wesley?

Were you angry at me because I was the one

who had told you your father was dead?

- No. - Then why?

Because you led the mission.

You came home and my father didn't.

How long were you angry with the captain, Wes?

For a long time.

But not anymore, sir.

Not even a little.

80, Jeremy,

you must be very angry at lieutenant worf.

He was in charge of your mother's mission.

Just as captain picard was in command

when Wesley's father was killed.

Isn't that right?

Worf came back.

Your mother didn't.

Why? Why weren't you the one who died?

Why did it have to be her?

He can't answer that.

None of us can.

Lieutenant worf also lost his parents.

Worf: They were killed in battle when I was 6.

When I was alone, humans helped me.

Let me help you.

The Marla aster I knew and honored is not in this room.

Nor does she await you on the planet.

She now only lives here and here.

Join me in the r'uustai, the bonding.

You will become part of my family now and for all time.

We will be brothers.

[Speaks in klingon]

What does that mean?

It honors the memory of our mothers.

We have bonded and our families are stronger.

[Speaks in klingon]