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Hey, stepmom.

I miss you.

I hope you're doing okay back at home while dad is on his business trip.

Christmas is coming up, and I know you've been expecting me, but I'm sorry

say I'm not coming home for the holidays this time.

Don't be mad.

Now that I'm 19, I feel like I'm old enough to decide if I want to come home.

Not that I haven't loved our time together.

I love you.

And don't think I forgot your Christmas present.

Look inside.

Yeah, come in.

Katie?

Mom? You?

I got your letter.

You've been avoiding me, haven't you?

No, no, I just... Honey, what is going on?

I mean, I thought it was weird when I didn't get a call back from you for a

week, but...

You've never shut me out like this before.

I don't know, just, I don't feel like myself.

Yeah?

I don't even know where to begin.

Well, I hate this place for one.

I hate my major. I don't know what I'm doing.

I can't stand the kids.

I don't even know why I joined a fraternity. Everyone's weird, wild, and

The, uh, the big guy with the... Blonde, spiky hair hit on me on the way in.

What? Honey.

I mean, it seems like a sweet, sleepy

town. It can't be that bad.

Oh, you have no idea.

There's not even a grocery store ten miles from here.

There's no cool restaurants to go to or even any... No girls?

There's girls.

None that catch your eye?

Not really, no.

I just don't even know why I came here.

Alex, are the guys here?

I love you too, baby.

You don't have to stay here, you know.

I don't?

No.

I mean, I'll always love to have you back at the house.

I mean, I don't want you making any rushed decisions, you know.

Maybe take until the end of the semester.

No, no, I can't. I can't. You know, and then if you feel the same way, you

can... Stay at the house while you look at options for transferring to another

university or doing some of those online courses.

Think it over?

No, I'm ready. I can pack my stuff.

Are you sure?

I'm sure.

back up for my toothbrush in.

Honey, I am exhausted. Give me a minute and I will help you look.

Sounds good.

Oh, you got the necklace I got you.

Did I get the right fit?

I did get it.

Um, I actually...

have not tried it on yet.

You're such a good boy for mommy.

The least I could do.

I wish I could give you more, to be honest.

Today really took it out of me.

I'm gonna go to bed, okay?

Yeah, okay.

Good morning.

Hot cocoa?

What are you doing?

I've changed my mind. I should go back.

What do you mean?

It wasn't a mistake for me to come back. I never should have.

Alex, what do you mean?

I can't stay here.

But you don't want to stay there either?

No.

Sweetheart, yesterday you were just saying that you... Yes, but I should go

back. Even if I hate it.

Alex.

Sweetheart.

Come on, talk to me.

Talk to mommy. What's going on?

Why are you acting like this with me?

Like, what do you mean?

Why are you talking to me like... Like we've never touched?

You're talking to me like you... Never kissed me.

Like your lips have never touched mine.

It's driving me fucking crazy.

Alex.

Don't. Isn't it obvious to you that I've fallen in love with you?

And being here is absolutely fucking killing me?

Or are you just going to pretend like what we did never happened?

Alex, that was a mistake.

And I knew it was wrong. And I never... I wanted it.

I wanted it more than anything.

Didn't you?

Alec.

At least let me help you.

You know, sweetie, if you can change your mind again, you've always had a

at home with me.

And, well, if you think this is what's best, then

I understand.

Yep.

Alex, I hope you know I love you so, so much.

I'm gonna miss you. And I'm proud of you.

For doing what's most important.

This isn't me.

What?

This isn't what's most important.

Well, it has to be. Sometimes, you have to walk away.

It's fucking way that easy for you to make it into that thing.

I see the way you look at me.

Say it.

Say what?

Say goodbye since it's so easy for you.

Yes.

I love you.

Thank you.

Oh fuck.

Oh

fuck.

Fuck.

Oh fuck.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Perfect.

how much I needed this.

That's perfect, sweetie.

Excite me.

Thank you.