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See.

Ohh.

How did you miss that swim trunks?

When I first started taking Valium and

things that God I was 12/11 and

eggs and speeds. When I started taking

it when I was 14 my mother

started coming to me. I was 15

when I stopped because I was homeless.

From my father I was homeless when I

was 12/12 and when I was 14 I

went back to my mother almost three

months going back from my mother was

taking her and she sent me to work

and. Appalachian massage

parlor when I was 14, when

it. Yeah, when

I, when I was 14, she sent me to

pick one of them. That's the password and

all the money that I've just came

together because people like Cash grew up

with parents who were selling drugs and

doing drugs. You, you, you, you, you end

up doing what your parents did because

you think that's the norm, That's what.

Knowledge to you.

Amy Provost Canadians coins forever

reminder to the world that she

loves me. She's my baby.

Together nearly four years. Ohh, yeah,

yeah. Well, three, three years, nine

months. Like all of them, I told him

I was 16. I was wonderful.

I read it when I was in jail

2008 October last year. I was on suicide

watch 24/7. They made sure someone was

with me all the time because I was

depressed. I used to sleep with his red

cap jumper and cuddled into her. I never

washed her, smell her.

Right, right. Uh.

Relaxed and outside.

I mean, we had a lot of trouble. We

recently lost a baby.

Then we can hear we recently lost our

baby. Yeah, let's talk about

better things. I'm explaining. And so we

went down there so rapidly.

And half months pregnant, my baby was

born stillborn, had a little boy and

after that we just started drinking

really heavily. To me, perhaps because we

never used to drink, he waited drinking,

didn't know. We started off drinking a

little bit and then when the baby died,

I was it always went.

The clock on outfits please.

Woman 31. Well.

Like that? Like that.

Where's our filter? You're a Dorsey

Focker.

Like that?Right there.

Briefly talking to the ******* wall with

Rodman.

Maybe go like that?

Oh my God.

That's right.

Yeah, it's nice. It's lovely.

I wish I'd say this when I was sober.

I I'm I'm having to

maintain myself. Seriously

addictive drug.

Thank God.

Make sure you wake me. I'll come into

town with you or not. We meet you around

the back of the way in. Yeah.

Most of the coal that was mined

in the Swansea area and at the

Swansea Valley was used in Swansea for

the metal refining. Swansea was then at

one time, uh, the the major coal

metal refining centre for the for the

entire world. But no, missus actually

shut the lot down. It's it's it's awful

when you think of the amount of skill and

the amount of knowledge that was here,

the base and knowledge base that they had

here. And it all just withered away.

That's played a part in in the present

drug problem, I think in Swansea and and

the and the alcoholism, younger people I

feel who can't get into this. Dream on.

Can't. Can't compete

and can't get work, just lose heart and

then they descend into a drug culture.

City living on the land Force

until the day. My name is

Josie. My name? My name is

Danielle Gray and I'm from Swansea

with Stephanie. Stephanie. What happened

to your face? Ohh. I've jumped

by two girls. I was.

Yeah, gone down rough, Rough

being Rafael, you guys. But

now you got kids ages

12 and 13.

No, not exactly. They don't really care

and you know, and they get their money.

They won't care if like a 12 year old

lame number because I've got a bag from

the guy. Ohh, yeah, you've got a tenner.

Yeah, use a bag and a cat to mean no,

this didn't know they should have more

respect.

Right, you've got sands, which is

for over 18 months, and sand

pits down down with nachos for

under eighteens. They offer counseling.

They can help you get on

that before prescribing methadone,

Subutex, Suboxone needs exchange. They do

Monday on a Wednesday. We're going to

have some toast and tea.

A lot of them would actually cameo

be asking for clean needles. And so

we've got the cookers then this is

the most popular type needle one mil

syringe. You know, you hear about people

throwing up, throwing up water from

puddles. We have got water. Booze as

well, which you can put in the cooker and

mix with the heroin. People will, will

still, will still use whether we were

here or not. You know where there's a way

they'll find a way can actually inject

into the into Uranus where there's lots

of blood vessels close to the surface.

People are beginning to inject crack now.

Most of most people are still small,

actually smoke in it. This is how

complicated it is to get drugs, but this

is to get crack. Basically you have to

get there. I'll ring him on the way, see

him in the taxi and meet him by a

certain shop. Hello. Yeah.

Right.

My drug worker that was I got a phone

call on my medication because I'm banned

from the building due to an incident.

I've got to meet the lady outside there

at Harpers 11. It's it's just it's

involving my methadone prescription is

I'm I'm all the way up in a taxi now,

mate. I've got to be back by the YMCA at

heartlessly let him. Or step on

it drove as you see in the

films. Yeah, I take crack recreationally.

It's not something I make a habit

of doing. It's not physically addictive.

So it's, you know, things that textbook

is not physically addictive. I have come

off it before and I have vomited

blood. And then. Oh yeah.

OK. Right.

Yes, it showed it.

I see. As the

crack came. It's Andrew. It is right now.

I'm going to be about 10 minutes late.

It's all right. Yeah, I know. But. But

I've got to pick up account. The payment

from the job centre, see. Yeah. No, this

one happened again. This is the one

office. Yeah, I know that. But please, I

I promise you I'll be. I'll be 10 minutes

at the most. Like.

Ohh sheet and I'm going to like

that.

I'm going to like that. I'm going to like

that, like. Frank

Evans.

Right, This is the Wire. What? You've

gotta burn this first to get the toxicity

toxicity out of it.

Beautiful.

To

see

you.

OK.

Ohh, I'd actually like that.

Ohh ********.

Who's better stuff? I still, I still be

rushing my kids off, you know, I mean, I

still be.

It's a bit of a double edged sword. Me

arriving late, she might have someone. I

was wondering they might have someone

waiting. Into a.

Maybe arrest me for the effect of the

movies?Ohh come

on, please come back away

here.

Drive me nuts. Ohh mate, I'm going to get

out and run, yeah.

Well, we've known each other for

years. My

ex was giving me a revisions here and

there, like damn, this is a have a chat

with Dennis and sat on the other side.

You go now. So we collect. Really. I

mean, I've always had a little soft spot

for her. Yeah, we're going from here now

and just take it day by day.

Help each other out as much as we can.

February 27th I go to jail, but when I

when I moved in you heard it was

stinking. This is my

bedroom and put my bed down here.

Very dominant, like on my bedside

cabinet and lay the carpet and

put my wardrobes down here.

Company in New York.

Ask me first ever Swansea City title,

probably the proudest ever. I've been to

a few prisons as well. Like I

always wear it with pride. Always walked

round my top off and I wanted

to get clean and starting treatment now

on the 26th of this month. Because

I tattooed myself in Jane had test

results done as a letter then from the

nurse seeing that come down and see me

and and just you urgently when I went

home, she says I'm very sorry, but you

have the right to see that was an

Abscess. I asked to go in for an

operation. That umm, because

I missed. There,

you know, basically, my veins are kaput

now. If I wasn't on heroin, I'd

cry my eyes out with my kids

now, you know, don't get me wrong,

I love them all the bats.

But you know, I can't really see

them while I'm in this, in this

predicament right now. Just a

little boy. I asked my

mother what shall I be?

Shall I be Swansea? Shall

I be scam? This is

what she said to me.

Take your father's gun and

shoot the card. It's gone

forever. Would be my son. You'll

always be Swansea. Who are we?

Jack or me? Who are we?

Jack or me?

Lee Anderson in Swansea, like in like our

shared flat, like with our smart heads

down and outs. Alright, alright. This is

Clinton Hill, famous Clinton, he said. I

could stay here for a couple of days,

so I made myself at home.

Both have to come out and then I started

a program now with methadone, getting

your world of good. For some people,

it'll make them worse than then they have

an orbit on top of yeah, they have an

arrow in habit on top of a methadone.

Arabic people that tend to be stupid,

like they think it's the answer. You

disagree with them because I went off the

heroin and when I get to that point

when it's making me better, I stopped

using heroin and then eventually and in a

couple of months gradually come off the

methadone and whereas the beer brand new

squeaky clean person again.

I've been on it since I can remember. 14

which is the best part man. Anyway, I'm

just going about my day thing. Come on

man.

Alright, well, if it's all about him,

he's he's in India before I had the bad

children. And this is where we used to

walk into our dig. Dig up means like in

Jack Gold arrow and whatever you this is

where we used to go through point on.

This is where we used to go out.

Effort to either there's a divorce

shouldn't be enough. They give us it's

not our things. Alright, let me put this

camera right now. Hang on. It's not our

fault when needles are down there. Yeah,

we clean up what we used to use months

ago when they used to come here. I always

take I always used to take my twins with

me and put them in the same bin and take

them back to the drug project. The Dirty

smart heads that are around that. Needles

about that and what we are the clean

smart heads, the user we are our users,

not smart heads. I think a lot of

heroin addicts have are are using um.

The actual OHH, I'm addicted to heroin to

get away with the way that they lock

in, the way that they talk to people.

And the actual way that that they live

their life style. I like to think that

I've proven them all wrong. I've been

ahead of an addict since I was 18 years

of age, which is nearly 10 years. Yeah,

I'm well known around town for

shoplifting to fund for my habit. But

fingers crossed that if you someone

walked past me in the street they once.

Think I was a dodgy looking *******?

Excuse me French and consider me to look

like a typical smack head. I can't see

any reason why I can't turn my life

around.

Just one moment.

Positive mental attitude as you've put

underneath, you know, I wake up out of

bed in the morning and I thought I see

the sign that's on the that's on the wall

like so I look at and think like PM APM,

a positive mental attitude. So at the end

of the day, positive mental attitude like

what am I going to do today? Straight to.

Dear Mr. Love my methadone positive

meant like, look, there's one number

two going score. ******** bag positive

mental attitude, yeah.

My spelling's not to put your sorry.

I just want to be part of my kids

and my, my, my ex-wife, you know, I just

want the chance to be a daddy. Yeah, I

love my babies. I said to myself, PMA,

I'm going to stop using any type of drug

before I get in touch with my children

ever again because it wouldn't be fair on

my children. If I was to go, ohh, you

know that's my daddy, that he's happy.

You daddy's a junkie.

My old man's never been on the streets.

Or mess. He's just been a junkie and a

drug dealer and most of his life. And the

burglar and in and out of jail.

Not selling drugs at the moment. They're

committing crime, but he's still using

drugs and. Please don't

let the law unit on the stairs. He wants

to put me out or use needles. That's for

them to have a boot. Smoked

heroin on the soil. That's probably 2

days between 3:00. How many do you drink

at night?

12 each.

The 12.

Come back, come back. Come on,

Saints Jesus. No, it's kind

of a joint. As

you can.

Well, just give you. Can you just just

give one between me and you, Dad? I put

it on top of it right by you.

No, it is. Sorry I picked yours up.

That came out. One year,

Sir. In your

hands. Yeah, Annie coupon in

the fridge. Kids come here. Yes, you are.

That's Kyle only sisters boyfriend

Lester, Libby, Carlo. Alright, my old

man Sean. Got on

my missus Amy. We've met already. Well,

I've known her for years, but recently

got to meet on the streets, right? Yeah,

we met drinking in town, James. Drinking

in town. In the last four years, everyone

said there's been a lot more heroin. And

Swansea is actually ohh, yeah, lots of

it. You gotta go back 60s. You're going

to take it from the 60s. One

of these days, just growing, growing up

around, everybody's doing kicks,

everybody's doing that, you know, people

just don't care, you know, now because,

because the mother or the father or the

father or the capitalist.

About your mother or your father. It's

about you. It's about you. It's your

brain. Got the kids about 1020 years ago.

It's different. Look at them now. Yeah

and yeah.

My conference starts off no, hang on. I'm

not saying it's the parents

responsibility. And what I'm saying is if

you're around people doing it, if your

mother and your father, you want your

uncle or anybody that's around you 24/7

is on Erwin, obviously you're going to

take it. I'm not blaming you or mommy

dad, right? Hang on, no. How did you

guess?I never used in

front of you. Your mother never happy.

Are you happy, right. That's as a kid

they did catch you would go something

that we're working like that. Yeah, yeah,

right. Started smoking crack and

drinking. Then he went to smoking talk.

Then he went to smoking dope with you

seeing you smoking dope. One side started

smoking dope, but that's part of it.

Didn't drink and drugs. And that's what

we all That's the circuit you're in.

I will never. Hello.

I think one thing that you're going to

get into this now speak to me, question,

how long was you almost for Carlos? I'm

lucky at the moment. I got a girlfriend

with a flat at the moment so knows God

knows what's going to happen if she kicks

me out. Whatever they want,

you wouldn't be worrying the table up.

How many times have you been into detox

and rehab or whatever I've been to? I've

been in the detox, bro.

1012 * 1012 times I didn't stay

that long by my mother and father

split up. Ohh that's his mother got

313. My mother got clean. I stayed

with dad. I got my dad in

in and out. You

know the detox? Yeah, whatever. If you

like Jeremy Kyle, know that he's passed

down all day. Let me tell you something

though. She's one ditch. Ohh. Dad took it

out now and then. Just stop. Don't speak

about illegal immigration. Didn't

mean to insult you.

It's a long story. It's not. It's a

short story. If I have a minute with

my son, Amy seems to think that.

That little bit of love in that minute,

she's losing. She would love her sleep. 5

minutes together. You're Samuel Shaw.

Yeah. And yeah, you got one minute now,

right? And blah, blah, blah, blah, blah,

blah, blah. Like I used to feed him and

he was just like.

Thank you. Don't shut up. All these

things. She's one evil person.

Who said we were talking?

God is good.

With the market, right?

You will judge by what you do.

Please give me a call back.

Chaotic family? You got the name? Ohh, we

know Chaos. Excuse me? You've got a

loving family.

Ohh gosh.

So.

Tell me when

you come.

We will be done.

All right.

Turn your volume up.

Crowd.

Tell them all of those stories.

I love you so.

In the old days, the way to get out of

the situation was boxing. If you want to

earn a bit of money, you want to become a

professional, you want to get a bit of

money. People are in the boxing, they're

working environment was more physical.

Now you look around and there's no jobs

there for the kids and. The same as

anything else, they want to make a few

Bob and then you've got the people that's

got these drugs right. Okay, Gonzalez

take them into schoolyards where I know

from personal experience, 11 year olds

have been given cannabis and things in

schoolyards and it's it comes down to he

cannot make claim it if you like.

That person will grow up to be 1819

perhaps meet the girl get married drug

problem is still there. The children see

the parents with the drug problem and

it's just a never ending circle when the

when the factories closed down on the

docks closed down. You have the cold tip

has gone from the docks the BP closed

down then. Two company cut back on and

then you've got all the building firms

that were pulling up. It's

deep. Depression can do a lot of things

for a lot of people that I can

understand why these kids get so

depressed and turned to something like

drugs, alcohol, whatever, you know, it's

a sad indictment about society that at 30

years of age you're on the rubbish.

You were like, yeah, she's getting

married. Why would you too, man? Yeah,

we didn't love. Are you doing my

son to marry this girl? Come on.

She drags him down, man, since he's been

a better thing between Amy and.

She dragged me down and I don't know why

You loved her. Love was plain to me.

Sleep, you know.

I'm really sorry for my son. I'm sorry

for late for what I am what you

said, you know.

He's not just my boyfriend, my soul mate,

my best friend, and he's our love of my

life. I love him, he loves me, I love

you, I love you, he loves me. So why

don't we get on, darling?

What we're doing with that.

Does it give you French?

9/10 which I don't mean

to put your hair out.

Merged form.

I am very sorry about that.

Hello. Ohh, yeah.

Alright. Thank you. I've cleaned up. I'm

clean. You up? Yeah, and clean. I've

shortened my head out since the last time

you seen me. I went on a detox

and then locked. Didn't work for me. I

I relapsed and then they put me on

the methadone program.

It's back and it's nice to see you

fellas, yeah.

Yeah, PMA.

Work. I really improved

and things I I'm much happier, like I

want to go back to college and study.

Social. Volusia

care. It's just I'm saving up now for

my daughter for when I get to see

her, to give her a lot of presents

and things.

Because I don't want to be dependent on

methadone. No, no way. Liquid on cuffs

they call it, actually call it liquid

handcuffs because you've got to stay in

there in the one area to take that liquid

every day to stop you from being ill.

It's impossible. It's every other door

around you're selling it or. Yesterday I

haven't got it, you know, it's only down

around the corner. I've got it, you know,

it's easy to get hold of. So easy to get

old love, you know, people are making

thousands upon thousands of pounds of it,

I'm ashamed to say. And we used to sell

it. I used to make easy £1500 a day and

I'd still be living like a scruff.

Do a snowball, as they call it, like

mixed with crack another one out of a

fantastic going on, but it it you still

got to wake up to the same shift shift

the following day. Like you know you have

turned my life around now and I shorted

myself out and I wouldn't dare touch

another another bag of it in. My life

like you know.

Guess we'll be done yesterday. Lost all

******* money Amy gets paid on a

Wednesday. Wikipedia Thursday.

I think she's coming because she had the

car. There she is, there she is.

He's crying.

I'm going to delete this.

What? What? Yeah. Why? Hey, why?

Because you're blocking. I didn't block

your mother. Hey, hold on.

What's going on?

To that right or if you back to what

you want to do you want to punch or

do you wanna trucking dribble aside

attracted him. I'm not having a game. I'm

not ain't your mother and forky estate

right told told me and you you're lucky I

haven't broken it to you. That's what

they said you're lucky you haven't had

the freaking agent. You know, if

you if you ain't back

off like I.

That's a long 1. You know it's on the

shelf down.

Done. They sat down a bit.

Back off, you knows everything. **** your

mother. What do you think I'd wish? Would

you risk **** any girlfriends mother when

your girlfriend on the settee you you're

out to catch her looking through with

your girlfriend's mother and her

boyfriend? No, her mother's boyfriend's

upstairs who's sparking loopy who's been

in jail for kidnapping and smashing

people's toes off and he's cracking. High

cost the Max would you risk ******** his

message downstairs while he's upstairs?

Would would you? Would you Adam? Would

you so funk you? I wouldn't neighbor who

knows the delivery. Don't you know the

like fighting so making a risk I'm taking

a risk having my packing and chopped off

the match.

I'll give you one glass and that's it.

Then we'll have you taking a piece out of

me. Tell me a ****. You're cracking,

Mother. How are you, sweetie?

Where did you go do a Punta? Clicking the

bag isn't it?

And I'm only on one side. They're

just gonna make me. Rocking

spinning glass up and shut up and you're

being ohh well flock off and if you're

going to go I just don't know why you're

being nasty. Who are you

talking? Get off. OK, that's my glass on

the floor. Like get all dirty.

I'm in agony right she yesterday she she

punched me four times in the ******** and

she's wrapped my other. She's prepped my

only decent bollock 1 strapped already

from 11 years ago as she knows and she's

going to freaking punch me 4 times and

I'm going to pain in the stomach. At the

moment I've just played ball killer.

I'm lying, right? Did you know where I'd

flocking? Dodgeball. OK, would be much

bigger than the other one.

You don't know my God. Give me some time.

Now I'm gonna give you some more.

Ohh I do one huh?

Hey,

what?

Ohh.

Politically.

A good point.

I feel a lot better myself. Like I mean,

I've been clean now I've got a few weeks,

yeah, few boys and the bikes feel like.

Some mad times we used to have those kids

setting cars on fire, you know. You know,

I wish I stuck with the old crowd like,

you know, instead of like all the heroin

users and stuff. Years ago I could count

the good through friends on my hand like,

but now they like disowned me type of

thing for the heroin, if I'd known how

bad heroin was. You know, I mean I

wouldn't have, you know tried it. You

know I mean it's a bad drug. It's a dirty

drug, but you know what I mean It's it's

a nice drug as well. You know I mean it's

like a nice feeling of it. No, I wake up

in the morning, I go down, get my

methadone. I drink my methadone and I try

to keep myself occupied them by going up

my sisters or my mums drug testing kit

that. I've done yesterday, which was a

negative. They tested for heroin and

crack cocaine and there's two lines

negative. No, I just wanted to be normal

now try and get myself a decent job. When

you look back on it, what do you, how do

you feel? Tell the truth man. I think I'm

an *******. I mean put my family through

so much ship and trouble. Many times I

said I'd love to move away, you know, for

really, you know what I mean? I, I want.

I know it's my hometown and all my family

are in Swansea.

I don't think I'd ever move away.

If I didn't have, you know, just think I

would kill myself right now. He's what

keeps me going. Am I rapping?

He's my rock. We're engaged. Coming

engagement ring for my 18th birthday

member.

Right away.

That is when I had stooped to the

award in Swansea College, Chico College

for the. 3 level 1 business

studies was 11 to can't remember no level

level 2 I think it was no GMV foundation

level 1 They looked like I got lipstick

on.

Look at that, look at all that all still

blood. That was all the wall pillowcase

and it woke me as bloods on it. You got

me all my shampoos. These shampoos you

didn't give me cheap ones, you got me

that. You got me perfume, you bought me

that. I am warning you. Lauren,

I love it to be pretty. You

are pretty. Looks like a freaking dog.

Look how fat down. That's not fat. It's

not fat. Swamped, in

fact.

Turn out if you love me

afterwards, make an absolute stunner look

at that dinner. Well please. Like

the Reds burning like the slow

burning. It looks like

you just had been fun. But it's called

transfer. They used to get it in the war.

Yeah, I bought the trainers. Which

immutable trainers, man. Yeah. She woke

up and somebody took them off her feet.

What's he doing now? How's he doing?

Umm.

My mother sent me to live with this block

roast and he was 31 and I was 13. He used

to make me sleep with his friends and

that you used to know what was going on.

They used to watch him beat me up and

they used to watch him send me in the

bedroom with other men. Because he

used to give around £50 worth of

bandwidth for free. I had to have sex

with my mother and her partner as well.

Should have been really good life like

but it's not.

The first time his father ever hit me,

his father misplaced 20 lbs and we didn't

have it. I am an eternity Grant. I was

six months pregnant. His father threw me

on the floor, ripped my head off,

slapping your face, spat in my face, man.

Three weeks baby time.

Beautiful.

Umm.

To

see.

Are you ready, boys? This is the one that

we don't do drugs.

With my friends sometimes.

Along came a frog.

You said you wanna smoke some pot.

Not.

Show me hash.

Come on, if you give me your passion.

Give me you are my money.

He must be trying to be funny.

Don't do drugs.

Relapsed A fortnight ago.

So I want to put a needle in and

I missed and I went into an obsession.

I've lost my wife, my 3 kids.

All I want in life is to be a family

and to be loved. I've never been loved.

I've never had a mother or a father to

love me. Basically I was

abused instead of on the couch and before

they punched around, you know. But I am

going to be the best daddy going when

I get to the stage I can see

buck it. I don't want no more.

It was me demonstrating on the very last

freaking very last part I'll ever do in

my whole entire life. I missed the bit

like there's the freaking wallet left me

with, which isn't a ******* pleasurable

oversight, so we'll see.

Mom and dads.

Don't turn your back on your children.

Always be there. Give them plenty of

love and attention.

One chance you have of Levin.

Don't blow it. That's all for

now. Nice one, Clint Ryan Jones,

thank you.

Clean and

sober. For

30 days clean shaving for six

months. How do you get the

six months? Because I was clean

for six months when um.

When was the clean for six months? No,

three months it was cleaned for. They

give him the wrong key ring.

We will be done.

All right.

Turning.