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Hmm.

Sophia!

You didn't answer your phone!

Sophia!

Sophia!

Is she lovely?

Do you think you'll ever marry her?

There is a reason why the man is called the groom.

It's an ominous title.

Is that yours?

Yes, you.

Does that handbag belong to you?

Where is it?

He is unbearable even at a distance.

They are so young, Maggie and Tom. And the water is so loud.

The mill.

And the town condenser.

Fuckers.

Oh, again.

I quite like how primitive it is here. It reminds me of my mother's house.

Will you fix it for me? And would you ever get me a spoon?

That man should be shot.

Keeping his dog chained up.

You're

welcome.

Well, you too.

Don't mess with my dress.

in this letter is starting.

We have to be there at 2 .45 their time.

Can we order a taxi? Perhaps one.

It'll be very early.

It's a shame you're hosting his talk. Nobody's mentioned that before.

It's going to be wonderful, Sophia.

I'm optimistic.

I can't do it. I just can't. I can't.

I just can't.

The story all over again. I just can't.

Perhaps we should just go home.

Come on, Rose.

You mortgaged a house for this.

I have.

What if it doesn't work?

This place is wrong.

We change it for you.

We're from London. No problem.

Sometimes

you

do feel your legs.

Yeah, I can walk.

Perhaps once a year. I have no idea why I can't. When I do, it just happens.

You were a librarian.

What were your duties?

I did the cataloguing. I indexed and classified books.

And you were born?

I'm 54.

In Ireland?

Yes, in a small town.

The population was?

No one. No one.

And you moved to London when?

Well, I left home and I went to university there. I was the first person

family to do that.

And your parents were proud?

My father was.

Sophia, you live with your mother?

Yes.

And what do you think about your mother's condition?

Rose hasn't been able to walk since I was four.

Well, you're done.

Estarás a cargo de las terapias físicas, por favor.

And is anyone else in the family?

No, there's no one else, just me and Sofía. I waited a long time for my only.

And your work?

In a coffee bar. I deferred my studies.

Sofía is a permanent student of anthropology.

Wonderful. You study patterns.

Dr. Gomez.

Just Gomez, please.

Where do you feel pain now?

In my leg, in my right elbow, and I have chronic knuckle pain here.

And you feel nothing below your knees?

That's right. A rare case.

Sofia, you may go and come back in two hours.

Do you feel nothing here?

Nothing.

Sophia always has taken me off three of my pills.

Really? You know, other doctors, they talk about iron deficiency and diabetes.

Well, it's far more complex than that, but we have begun.

Oh, good.

Now, Sunshine is my daughter, and today it's her birthday.

Je remplis le papier.

C 'est fini? Oui, papa. Très bien.

Did you need some help?

No, I'm fine. Thanks.

I'll see you tomorrow.

Yeah.

Happy birthday.

These are to be chopped.

Don't you want to wait?

For what?

Someone is making money out of my prescription.

I mean, you've watched me.

All those pills.

You are my witness.

We've been fed more like an ardent chimes than a sweet chopper.

You care if I can tell?

Pay him 25 grand.

Yours,

which is this.

Have faith, Theo, would you?

Isn't it dangerous to just stop?

Why don't you go out and just do some work?

I will.

And just... I need a different water.

Would you get me another pipe?

Hola, guapa.

What?

I'd rather be dead, wouldn't you?

Than shackled.

I should rent a different place.

I like it here.

I went walking once.

When I was your age.

By the sea.

And then... off the cliff.

And the people in the beach.

They stared as I started up this incline.

And the grass was so lush.

And the rain was so soft on my hair.

And I kept looking over the edge.

And wondering how I would look if I fell onto the rocks.

How my death would look.

I was happy.

I had no bag, just a cheese roll and some tobaccos.

I stood on the top there and I just had a cigarette.

I should go back there.

Find it.

Hmm? I can't walk.

What would you do if I could walk?

I'd be happy.

I'm always ill.

The last one.

A subject that we kept returning to was the Balinese Trump dance where young

women fight against the rich.

What's your whole name?

Sofia Papastariadis.

You have to stay here five minutes in case you have a reaction.

Age and occupation here.

Too many people ride horses here.

Try not to touch the wound.

Sorry. I'm done.

Hi.

The water's still around for you.

This book, I've realised, is not about love. It is about shame.

What's happened to your arm?

Jellyfish.

You have to get that seen to. I already did.

Come on, let me have a look.

God, you put water on that and blow on it.

Well, at least you can swim.

Pain won't last long.

Can we go out now?

Yeah.

Watches. I want one.

Why? My father always wore one.

That Chris doesn't have one?

Sort of digital horror he had. Light.

And then he had such nice hair.

He sort of fell in love with the way his hair fell.

You different hair.

What's with these watches then?

What have you got there?

No, no, no. They are very simple. The three personages are the father, the

mother, and the child.

Which is the father?

I don't care.

I'm the child.

You are the child.

Do you smoke?

Yeah.

Do you have cigarettes?

Yeah.

Okay, let's go.

Ingrid.

What do you do in London?

You might think about Margaret Mead at the moment.

Who's that?

She sounds dead.

She was an anthropologist.

She went to the South Sea Islands when they were about teenagers to try and

figure out if adolescence was always a terrible time or if it was just a

thing.

It's about nature versus nurture.

Tell me about your woman.

Okay.

She writes that life is flexible, as in we can change it, but that it's also

elastic.

We always go back to what we grew up with, actually.

That's it.

Look at all this blue, Sophie.

Zion.

It's blue!

Mati?

Mati! Can you hear the sea?

You're not using a rental car.

But Sophia doesn't drive. She failed her test four times.

Well, perhaps your imagination is too active.

Did you imagine that you would finally kill people?

She failed her theory too, where no one was in any palpable danger.

Rose, we have the scan of your feet.

Sophia, could you tell me about your father?

He left when I was four.

And I've seen him a few times since then.

The last time?

When I was 15.

Two years ago, he inherited his father's shipping business.

He gave Sophia nothing.

And you, Rosie, you have sisters, brothers?

Three brothers, older.

I had a sister, but she died.

It was a tragedy.

No, they never talked about her.

Well, it's imperative to talk about the dead.

What was your sister's name?

Mary. I didn't know her. She died before I was born.

I would like you to think about your enemies, Rose.

Make a list.

We don't have access to a printer.

Handwritten. It's better.

Let's look at that again.

I was waiting for a long time.

Sorry. You didn't hear me.

I had my music on.

You should be listening out for me instead.

I want to go inside.

I want to.

How long does it take to make a load of bean soup?

Sophia's only having salad.

People think that all those little white cottages out in the middle of nowhere

are romantic.

They're not.

Why not?

Well, everyone's watching you.

Think I'd have a glass of white wine.

No. No alcohol. We're working.

Ah, beautiful.

There you go.

Nice.

That will make me come out in hides.

Hmm? I'm allergic to fish. I told you that.

Well, if you have a reaction, I'll move.

Gomez.

Rose?

My eye hurts.

Did you write your list?

Could we sit away from this table?

Tell me what's on the list, Rose.

I don't know.

Well, he's on it, obviously, and my parents, they weren't helpful, and so I

married a Greek and I escaped.

When did you last see your mother and father?

They both died, actually, in hospital, separately, but I wasn't there.

Did you want to be there?

And who is he?

Christos.

Sophia's father.

When Sophia was four, Christos found God and he left

for Athens.

How's that?

Hola. Do you have the keys to the hire car?

Thank you, Julieta.

Sophie? Hi.

This is Matthew.

He's going to drive your car for you.

Hi.

Hi.

Cigarette?

Thank you.

You

know, when you're

the devil's man.

Me?

Yes, let me tell you something.

I could take you.

Do you drive full time?

No, I'm a musician.

You're good?

Oh, I'm good. Thanks, Matthew.

But you can't live by your music.

I do this, do that.

Good for you, Matthew.

How do you sleep?

Not well.

You move in your sleep? Your legs move?

Yes, they do.

You can tell that? Mm -hmm. They muscle.

Do you dream at night?

Always.

Vivid dreams.

It's always night.

I've lost my bag or I can't find the bus stop.

Do you dream?

I dream of the desert often and being underwater.

You need weight -bearing exercises for strengthening and endurance.

Oh, my whole life has been endurance.

Oh, my first enemy and adversary is endurance.

Everything hurts.

Loci.

Loci, but you are strong.

Lock us in.

Julieta gave me these yoga poses.

I remember this book. It was in the library from the 70s.

No?

It's the lion's pose.

Very good. Do

you think you'll ever finish your studies?

Yeah, of course I will.

Yeah, it's just you find it difficult to finish things.

It's my favorite fabric.

Because it's alive like a bird.

I love it.

I thought of my little sister when I worked on it.

Hannah.

Papa.

She's... She just stood off.

She's younger than me.

much younger.

I couldn't really wake up today. I had a

bad day.

So weird.

Branches are screwed on.

Look here and here.

Yeah.

Maybe for a film?

Yeah.

I'm just quite sad it's not real.

It's real.

I love the desert.

When I was a child, I wanted to live in the desert.

You did?

In the Sahara with the camera.

Really? Why? Why the Sahara?

The name.

Sahara.

Were you happy as a kid?

Are you happy now?

What did you want when you were growing up?

A crazy bicycle.

Red shoes.

A cat.

Any friends?

I'd like to stay to myself.

Why?

Why not?

Must have been a reason.

Stop doing that.

Stop what?

Pinning me down like one of your butterflies.

Needling to the wall. I don't do that.

Like your woman, who studied the teenagers on the islands.

She should have left the teenagers alone and studied herself instead.

It's questioning.

It's cultural memory. It's important.

Can help people.

Stop wars.

Well, it hasn't stopped anything so far, has it?

Do you want to know what I was like as a kid?

No.

You're still a kid.

I killed someone.

Ingrid. It's beautiful.

A child has more bones than an adult as we get older they fuse.

But my spine has certainly changed since the last set of x -rays.

How much time do you think we'll need?

We'll see.

How have you been?

I left you messages.

I know. I received them.

Look.

I'm making this for an old man I met.

He asked me to personalize it.

What color do you think I should use to border it with?

Yellow?

I want to take a picture of you.

If I remember.

Memory is a bum.

Can I stay and read for a bit, maybe?

Maki just went to get some food.

My only family in the world.

What? I like your work.

What happened to your mother?

Nothing.

She was a librarian.

I like your mother very much.

But something happened to her.

You can feel it in her body.

Juliette Gomez is an alcoholic.

I smelt it on her breath that first time.

That's her birthday.

And since then.

I thought change would be good for you. Please stop this.

As a child, you hated change.

You were always fearful.

You were never brave.

Where are you cycle?

No!

Sophia?

I need water.

Sophia, why are you cooking? Did you invite someone over?

Untie the dog, Pablo.

Please untie the dog. Untie the fucking dog now!

Free it now!

Go! You fucking hurt me!

Untie it now!

Woman!

Fuck you!

You don't want me around.

I'm going back to Berlin.

You should come spend Christmas with me.

I'll get your ticket.

a walk from the Brandenburger Tor to Checkpoint Charlie.

And you have to bring a heavy coat.

Be in the snow.

And I will hold up a missile to over your head. You'll have to perform the

ritual.

Your brothers told you?

No.

when they visited their behaviour towards me.

You knew?

I felt it.

Like a confirmation.

From the people you asked?

And did you tell them at home?

Couldn't.

She was in a very cold house.

They would have been appalled that I had written to people.

They just, they couldn't communicate.

But perhaps they tried.

No.

I'm sorry.

No, no, it's good.

It's good.

It's very good.

Did you kill him?

Tell me.

Sophie.

When I was six, she was on a

swing, and I was pushing her.

And then she fell, and her

skull cracked.

But she didn't die.

Stop there.

No, don't say it.

It doesn't matter.

Where is she now?

Somewhere in the home?

What? Strangers.

She's my age, but she's, um, her mind flies.

And I remember I just wanted to go higher, you know.

I wanted her to fly.

I was never innocent.

You

have

to ask yourself who you are.

Rose.

I'm someone with a bone condition.

I know that.

And I can't walk.

What you told me... I'm losing bone density.

Oh, you truly are. It's far more relevant than the question of bone

realise that?

You wanted events, I gave you some.

Good, I have some more, please.

Thank you.

Do you want me to stop all my pills? Is that what you were saying the last time?

Rose, it's not only about sharing facts. We have to explore them, how they have

impacted on you and...

how they might affect Sophia.

My daughter is completely unaffected by this.

Oh.

I need the bathroom.

I usually go with Sophia. Is there someone who would... I will page

Tell me, why Sophia today?

I don't know.

Your name as a child?

Was Rose Ivy Kennedy?

Yeah.

It was.

And it changed as soon as I could.

Way too weird.

Should I?

Sofia,

you're killing me.

Hey, hey!

I have some riding boots for you.

Put them on.

This is Leonardo.

We saw a snake, Leonardo.

Where's the snake?

Do I look like I need boots?

This is Sophie.

I have my writing lessons now, Sophie.

You can't drive.

I can! I fucking can!

I was worried.

Your father was often silent, weren't you?

For hours.

I want to see him.

What would you gain by now?

I haven't seen him in 11 years.

Is it that long?

It'll be the same.

I've got a babysitter I've never met.

The notion of you seeing your father is just a ridiculous idea.

What is wrong with you?

Nothing.

Nothing's wrong with me.

Sorry I had to wait so long for your birth.

You can call me Papa.

Where do you live, Sofia?

In London, with my mother.

Why Spain?

She's their theme consultant, then.

Sofia's mother feels pain acutely.

She always did.

It's real.

Do you speak Spanish?

No.

Do you speak Greek?

How long will you stay?

a few days.

That's okay.

You're happy.

Oh, thanks.

The window opens.

You want me to open it? No, it's okay. Hold it.

Okay.

No.

No.

You look like Christos.

Really?

I've asked him about you a lot.

What did he say?

He speaks about your mother.

Opa! How she found it hard.

Being on her own with a child.

Not just that.

Have you been to Greece before?

When I was 15.

Is it good to see you, Papa?

Where did you two meet?

Would you like to hold her?

Yes.

This is your sister.

Hello.

Sophia? Hi.

Come.

I'll go check on Evangelini. Okay.

People in their boxes.

I like that everybody goes to sleep at night.

Where is mine sleep hard?

Two insomniacs you have for parents who would make tea in the middle of the

night and listen to the radio or play chess.

You wanted to sleep on the roof last time you were here.

I let you fall asleep here.

You are not happy on that trip.

I was a bit scared of you.

What is this word?

Beloved.

What are you going to do?

You can't be a nursemaid to Rose all your life.

No.

I would like to finish my doctorate in America.

Do you need funding? You want money?

That's not why I came here. I don't have any.

I give it all away.

Yeah, I know.

I know.

It was not all my fault, you know.

Your mother was difficult, impossible.

What has Rose told you about her family?

That they didn't get on, that they weren't close.

Tell Rose. She needs to tell you.

People... Should not ring so late.

Beheaded. It says beheaded.

No, it says beloved.

You're here. Come to the hospital.

But I didn't stay there. You know, the pain, it wasn't chronic.

So you're OK? You discharged yourself?

I was never admitted for you. I just rang from there. You see, I went to see

them about the water.

Because it is so bad here, and I did not expect that.

And then they realised that I was nearly passing out.

Did you actually faint?

Well, everyone was just so...

Wonderful. Just lovely people and conversations. And the doctors.

And Matty drove me everywhere.

I don't want to see Gomez anymore.

You know, it's just not helpful. And I want to go home.

He just depresses me. And I have a different idea.

So?

Tell me about Christoph and the child bride.

It's dangerous to become dehydrated.

Which is why I went to the hospital.

You could have just drank the water. Because it tastes like bleach to me.

from the mountains. It has a picture of the mountains on the bottle. What do you

want? It's a lie.

I mean, the fountains are a lie.

Sophia?

No.

Sophia, come out.

What do you want now?

I am in severe pain.

Really? It's very bad, and your father has upset you.

Where's the pain? Tell me.

Well... I seem to have seen sort of a ligament just in the chaos of it all,

this Dr Shah there, she gave me some new medication, but it's just making me

feel very nauseous.

Anyway, I've got to try and finish up with Gomez tomorrow. I'm going to ask

some of the money back.

I mean, you don't pay thousands of euros for a chat.

And we're going to have to ask for a taxi because Matty needs the car.

Fuck all of them.

Fucking Matty.

Give me a paw.

Tell

me

about your father.

He told me you two played chess when you couldn't sleep at night.

We didn't.

Krishna's always left.

He snored.

The chest is some narrative in his, some fiction.

He also said you should tell me what happened.

What's that?

Talking about your family.

He never met my family.

You see, that's what he does.

He lies.

You need to work more on what we talked of. If you don't, you won't walk freely.

I don't want to do any more work on it. I don't feel the need. But you said it's

natural. But you have to fight that fear. I feel better since I went to the

hospital. There's a normality about it, which I appreciate.

You're happy to suppress the event. I understand that. But you need to know

you are in real detail. And you have to find the answer and accept it. Yes, you

will take me to the taxi. Thank you.

Rose, Rose, Rose.

Please.

Rose.

What you are contemplating, it will not help.

We didn't talk about money.

I won't refund what you asked for.

Excuse me.

Sophia Irina, please stay a moment.

Your mother was progressing, but she has gone into a fight or flight and has

chosen the latter.

Your mother has proposed something quite brutal.

When you were away, she talked about amputation.

She's not serious about that. She wants to get better.

I cannot stop her from wanting to staunch the pain. She has made an

with her consultant in London.

Oh. He had confirmed it with me and I was fast for her record.

How did you go with your father?

Was he cruel to you?

Well, you don't have to see him again.

Ever.

Sophia.

You never have.

Get in!

Get in, Sophia, get in!

Having a tantrum is not helpful.

Come. Sit down, Sophie.

I don't want to.

Please.

You'll regret if you don't.

Oh, Sophie.

Like a blue planet.

With two dark spooky eyes.

Like little animals.

No, I'm not.

I'm one of those things.

Are you hungry?

I bet you want to eat pizza.

Hmm?

You're a monster, Sophie.

Do you think she's happy without a mind?

Do you think she remembers?

She has a mind like a leaf.

Sometimes I want to blow myself up, Sophie.

You still like me?

Say yes.

The world is dark until you say yes.

The world is so dark.

So dark.

Wait.

Oh, Matty.

Marty, can you hear the ocean?

Listen.

Hey!

Hey!

My phone!

You go get my phone! You need a fucking phone!

Go get my phone! Go get my phone!

You would show them.

You would show them.

Hello, hello, hello.

What did you do when you got home today?

Nothing.

So you didn't go out or anything?

No, I just slept.

Why?

Come on, let's go.

Go where?

Can I have some water?

Tell me about your sister, Mum.

Mary.

She died.

Would you help me fix the lamp in my bedroom?

How did she die exactly?

I don't know. Will you just plug it in for me?

You must know how she died.

I don't.

I didn't know her.

I didn't know her.

Please tell me.

Right, get in the car.

I don't know what is the matter with you.

Fia, I'm hungry. We're going to the restaurant. Come on. No!

Go! Go! Go!

What is this?

You walked today.

Why didn't you tell me?

I didn't want to raise your boobs.

I watch you as closely as you watch me.

That's what mothers do.

You watch your children.

You never ask me if I'm happy.

Because you're always so profoundly sad.

You're so mad at me!

So mad! Because you are so able. You're so strong.

Why would you talk about cutting off your leg?

The bleeding's all gone.

Mary didn't die.

They sent her away.

They didn't let her near me.

Did you know her?

Did you meet later?

Yeah, once.

Why not with your age?

She wasn't well.

She was broken.

Doesn't matter.

I'm an animal in the desert.

And there's no water.

Only pain.

It's not too late.

It's here.

Okay?

It's here.

You have to choose, Mama.

You have to choose.

You have to choose to go outside.

You have to choose to not sit in a room all day and die slowly, smelling of that

room. Do you understand?

Please, you have to embrace life. You can't just endure it.

I can't walk to you.

You have to choose, Mama.

You can't believe me. I can't walk.

You don't believe me, but I can't.

I do believe you.