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Oh, yeah.

That was my fault.

I'm so sorry.

I'm internally fuming,

like, actually full of rage.

Previously on Survivor...

Hina! Hina! Hina! Hina!

Hina! Hina! Hina!

- Hina! Hina! Hina! Hina! - This is embarrassing.

Hina!

Everybody, drop your Buffs.

- Oh. - We're switching tribes.

Oh, my God, yes.

- You know, it's really nice to see some new faces. - Yeah. Totally.

-Yeah. - For sure.

I'm looking around and I'm seeing four Hina members,

including myself, on this new tribe.

Hi, guys. I'm Shannon.

The two people that seem to be on the bottom of the tribe

are, obviously, the two Uli members.

And when the time comes, are we gonna go with Sage

or are we gonna go with Shannon?

Yeah.

There's a war between Hina and Uli brewing.

And the fact that Uli has majority

in this tribe,

we have the opportunity to strike first.

Jason.

That's two votes Jason, two votes Matt.

Fifth person voted out of Survivor 49:

Matt.

The tribe has spoken.

Yeah.

But yeah.

I'm, like, so thankful to still be here.

I, like, hope that we kick ass

- at the next couple of challenges. - Yeah.

- Absolutely. - For sure. - Because...

I really like all y'all.

And I'm hoping to get to know you more,

'cause I've only known you for so little, right? So...

I'm really excited

that I get to live another day in this game.

But the truth of the matter is,

Matt's name was written down

and my name was written down.

So no matter how much Uli wants to say tribal lines

have dissolved, they clearly haven't,

because the only people that got votes

were old Hina.

So I have a lot of work to do.

Congrats, Jason. I know...

- I know it's tough to see your name, but... - Yeah.

Listen, it's a new beginning now.

Thanks, guys.

- Can we give you a hug? -Yeah.

It's our first Tribal tonight.

Dude, seriously, like, I feel freaking good.

My alliance is solid.

We are in the majority big-time here on this beach.

And we got to get rid of one of the old Hina.

I have nothing to worry about.

I'm living the Survivor dream.

It does not get better than this right now.

-Make it to the merge. -Duh.

- Got to make it to the merge, right? - That's right.

- Yeah. - I like this six. - Good stuff. All right.

We did not start a war tonight.

You know who started the war was the old Hina tribe

every time they did that stupid

"Hina, Hina" chant.

- See you in the morning? - Yeah, have fun, man.

Like, how are we expected

to work with people who are so tightly bonded?

You literally gave us no choice.

What else were we supposed to do?

So, if we end up going to another Tribal Council,

from my point of view, Jason's got to go.

I'm laying under the stars,

and I'm just doing my best

to not overthink the situation.

Naturally, being on the bottom

of this new Kele tribe,

I'm in this self-preservation mode.

And this idea kind of comes to me of sorts.

We go into a merge, right?

- Mm-hmm. - Two yellow, two red, two blue.

Mm.

Super unexpected.

What I came up with was

this idea of

two Uli, two Hina,

and two Kele--

a core six to work together

to keep each other's names

out of the rotation.

I feel you.

Naturally, Steven likes this idea because it's a great idea.

And I could see us just taking out the big threats.

Shannon rolls over and starts spitting game at me.

And I'm like, "Dude, I know we don't have coffee,

but could I get some coffee before we start doing this?"

Of course I'm gonna say yes.

You don't say no to an alliance, but...

it just was so early.

And she's playing so hard.

Right now I'm excited that the game is starting,

but I just wasn't expecting it to slap me in the face

as soon as I woke up.

- We're in a really good spot. - Yeah.

- We can grab our ones, come together, and kind of... - Yeah.

You're ready to play...

I am. No, I want us to survive this.

No, I know.

The love language in Survivor is talking strategy.

And so, as I'm starting to talk to these players,

I'm recognizing, "Oh, like, you've been waiting for this.

"You've been wanting, like, a juicy

piece of steak to get a part of, right?"

And that feels good in the game.

'Cause I think if you...

- Even if we get rid of Sage first. - Yeah.

- I mean, you have to do what you have to do to stay in. - Exactly, no, and...

Yeah.

- No, I know. I feel the same way. - Because even...

Right now, I'm doing my best to have conversations

and connecting with people

in a really authentic way.

- I know. Yeah. - It's nice to connect with you.

- Yeah, no, I love you guys. - Yeah.

And, um...

Okay, good.

Thanks.

While also

doing my best to keep my strategic pants on.

I'm definitely down

to vote out Sage if that's, if that's necessary,

because I love her, but just, strategically,

she's never really given that much to me.

I definitely would say

we're making progress.

-That conversation this morning sketched me out. -Yeah.

I was like, "Shannon, like, I just woke up."

Right?

And she's, like, scheming so hard.

And, like, she even opened up. She's like, "I don't want it

- to sound like I'm scheming too hard." - Yeah.

She said, "But I get really, really good vibes from you."

- Mm-hmm. - I feel like that's something she'd say to everybody.

Yeah. She's talking to everybody.

- She's talking to everybody. - Yeah.

And, like, she just dominates conversations in a way

that's so, like, disarming with all the spirituality stuff.

- Yeah, yeah, yeah. It is. - And I'm like, "Girl."

Like, she's a good talker.

- She is... - She's-she's strategizing.

- She's thinking so far ahead. - Yeah.

I do get that vibe from her, too.

Shannon-- it seems like she's a good game player.

I actually admire it a little bit

'cause it's kind of like how I want to play.

But that's not someone

that I want to have against me in the future.

I just wanted to see, like, how you're feeling about things.

- And... - I'm feeling good. Um...

Are you getting good vibes from, like, anyone in particular?

Yeah, I mean, obviously, Shannon and Alex

have been really good.

But the only person that's, like,

- talked game to me so far has been Shannon. -Yeah.

-She's been talking game. - Hard.

- Yeah. - She's been playing hard.

Okay. We got to look out for that.

-Yeah, for sure. - Okay.

You don't want that scheming hard

to bite us in the butt later, you know?

Yeah, that's true.

Emotionally, I really connect

with Shannon.

I do think she's being

so genuine with me.

And I really like her.

But I'm also realizing, with talking

with my alliance, that Shannon is playing the game hard.

And people are starting to maybe question it a little bit.

I want to fight for her so much.

But at the same time,

I really need to take inventory

of my gut versus my emotions.

Oh, this is so hard.

Tribal Council was a wake-up call to me.

Right now my torch

is the only yellow torch

on this beach that is supposed to be yellow.

So, as the one person

on the outs,

the ball's in my court

to change the game.

Because I'm between a rock and a hard place

and another rock and another hard place and another rock.

It's hard to build bonds with people

who you've just met, you know?

It feels like the first vote--

it's more about, like,

- like, what you are, not who you are. -Yeah.

My plan

is to erase Tribal lines

in order to break

the us-versus-them mentality of Hina versus Uli.

I want to start making personal connections to see

which ones stick.

- So, Jason... - What's up?

That's my guy.

Yeah.

And you have, like, the guy that looks like the duck.

- Oh, yeah. - Uh...

I called him Justin Bieber,

'cause he had, like, the hair flip thing.

Uh-huh.

I really get along with Jawan.

And I think,

who's the nerdiest nerd of them all?

Me and Jawan are kind of neck and neck up there.

I'm-I'm glad you're here, and, um...

you're someone I can definitely see myself

continuing to work through this game.

Jason is in trouble

only because he got dealt a bad hand.

But I'm not ruling Jason out because

if this Uli-Hina war ends,

I want to have potential allies moving forward.

I'm kind of like the easy next

if people don't want to do anything.

- Yeah. - But...

I really just want to work forward

with, like, people that I can trust.

Let's, like, open this thing up.

- Yeah, like... - You know? Let's make it more fluid, you know?

But, like, right now, on this current tribe,

we are a solid five.

And with that, unfortunately, leaves my boy

Jason on the bottom.

It's always awkward, though,

on your face when they're, when they're bent.

Yeah. Uh-oh.

Uh-oh.

I am the bandit. Every time.

-Dude, what's going on? That's so weird. -I don't know.

I forgot. It's in my...

Honestly, at this point, it's, like, funny.

It's just agitating at this point, because

over at the old Uli camp,

Jawan was using my clean bag

with my clean clothes

to collect firewood, aka look for idols.

So, yeah, I have a little bit of beef with Jawan.

You know, you know I like to have my stuff.

- You know I like to have your stuff, too. -I know you do.

I can't help it.

For the past, like, week or so,

I've been, like, taking her bag by accident.

- Water bottle. -Took her water bottle.

Just her?

- Yeah, it's just me. -Yeah...

I don't know what it is.

He's using my stuff. He's using my bag.

He's using my water bottle.

It's agitating.

Honestly, Jawan was at the bottom.

He might still be at the bottom.

Tough day to be a crab.

Come on.

Come here, crabby crabby.

-Got it. -Yes!

Survivor zaddy. Let's go.

Let's go, baby. Mwah.

- Mwah. -Your, your face.

This new Kele tribe,

it's been a roller coaster, as Survivor is.

Like, I see Shannon doing her thing.

How you feeling today?

- Good. How about you? - Good.

I just want you to know,

you're the exact kind of person I wanted to work with.

No, like, literally, same.

- Like, I feel like we... - I can literally see their mouths moving

from a mile away.

And that's exactly how

she talks to everybody else.

Shannon very much has an approach of finding

something you value

and then going hard into that thing

in every conversation with you.

- You can get high off of anything, right? - Mm-hmm.

Goats get high off of hay.

- Jesus got high off God, right? - Yeah.

Like, your choice of what you choose to...

And, I mean, she's laying it on thick

and leaning into, like, whatever she knows is gonna

make them feel comfortable and safe and good and seen.

You're not the oldest daughter.

- I am the oldest daughter. - I'm...

I'm the oldest of thr-- of four.

- They're three. - I'm the oldest of three.

- I was like, "You give oldest daughter." - I-I really

- give oldest daughter. -Yeah. Yeah.

I see Shannon pulling the old Parvati with Alex.

Stop.

She's kissing his hand. She's holding his hand.

I'm like, "Alex,

you can't be buying this, man," but he is.

No, I didn't.

It could just be her being genuine,

but for me, my gut says, like,

she's definitely that shark that, like,

starts off as, like, maybe a cute seal.

And then the seal rips its mask off,

and it's a giant shark that's, like, going to eat your head.

Like, it's not a seal.

Everybody else sees a seal, and I'm trying to be like,

"Guys, it's a freaking shark.

Do you see the fin on the back?"

Like, it's so obvious,

but try and play the long game here.

How you feeling?

Dude, I just want to say, I like you a lot.

I like you, too.

- I feel like we're very similar. - Yeah.

Shannon said she feels really good with you.

And I love Shannon.

Yeah.

The first person who started

talking strategy to me was Shannon.

And, honestly, it was very appreciated.

And as the only

original Kele member on the new Kele tribe,

if someone wants to talk strategy with me,

I'm completely open.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

I trusted Shannon

and was willing to work with her,

but the fact that Steven is cluing me in to Shannon talking

to everyone is a really bad sign.

No, like, we're not, like, a duo or anything.

Like, I'm with you guys.

- And... - Guys, you're giving me FOMO.

- I'm not gonna lie. - No, I know.

No, we'll clue you in. We'll clue you in.

Sorry, Sage.

We, uh, we're just...

- You're good. - Yeah, Shannon was just...

- She's playing. - She's playing really hard.

Yeah.

- I know. - Oh, can you see it?

-Huh? - You see it?

- Yeah. Like, do you... - Yes. : Yeah.

Have you seen it the whole time?

I wanted to talk to you for the longest time.

-Yes. - I thought you were under her spell.

No, no. I'm just friendly.

You know?

Is this kind of the way she was at Uli?

Can I trust you?

- Yes. Yes, I mean... - Yes.

- Yes. - 100%.

Here's what I'll say, 'cause I...

Like, I'm not one to bad-mouth anybody...

Yeah.

...but she's a shark.

What she does is she plays to people's vulnerabilities.

Yeah. She's just going way too hard.

- It feels like it, right? -She was like,

- "Hey, I'm cool voting out Sage." -Yeah.

Point-blank. Point-blank.

Dude.

She was like, um...

- Is that the message you guys got? - Yeah.

I knew it. I knew it.

As soon as I hear that Shannon's throwing my name out,

it feels like a permission slip

of you get to just go to town with this information.

It is on, girl. We can put it out in the open.

The '80s were fun to grow up in, though,

because there was no social media.

-Nobody had phones. -Yeah.

I, like, don't keep my social media up to date.

Yeah, I only have three posts.

My girlfriend watches all these frickin' mukbangs.

It's just, like, people eating.

I do that, too.

What is it?

It's people in their car, wherever,

with all of the food.

And it's just them dipping it in sauce.

It's just, like, the sounds of them crunching the food,

eating it, and then they're like...

Like, you know, like,

ASMR. And I'm like, "Babe."

Oh, wow.

I mean, not only her, a lot of people watching that.

Oh, my God.

It's so weird, guys.

Yo, yo.

- Yo, yo, yo. -What do you mean?

-There's a boat. -You're joking.

There it is. Uh-oh.

- No. - Journey. It's a journey. - Journey, for sure.

- It's giving journey. - I hope not.

I feel very clearly

on the bottom of this tribe.

That boat is, potentially,

my ticket back into a safe spot in this game.

If I had any sort of advantage

that this boat could bring me,

I need it, and I need it now.

Yes, Alex!

Get it, Alex.

Here we go now.

"One person must get on this boat.

You will return to camp this afternoon."

I can do it.

I'm good with, I'm good with MC doing it.

-I am, too. - Yeah.

Thankfully, the Hina tribe

agreed that MC would be the one to go.

She's my number one.

She's gonna tell me everything.

But my biggest fear is that

she could come back with no vote.

And she already doesn't have a vote until she digs up

the Beware Advantage and finds step two.

She could be without two votes.

"One person must get on this boat.

You will return to camp this afternoon."

- All right. Sweet. - It's a journey.

I kind of want to go.

Of course, Jason wants to go.

I love Jason, but if he goes on this journey,

there's a chance that he can come back

with a idol or an advantage

and really blow this whole tribe up.

- I'd also like to go. -Yeah.

I'll give it a whirl. What do we want to do?

Yes.

Music to my ears.

Savannah and Nate

both volunteer for the journey.

So now we have to figure out

which one of the three is gonna go.

- How we want to do this? Rocks? -Yeah, so...

Yeah, yeah, we can do that.

To ensure that Jason won't be able to go on the journey,

I come up with this plan

to basically do rocks.

There's two black rocks and only one white rock.

I put the white rock on top,

and I make sure Nate goes first.

Reach in.

-All right. -White rock goes.

Grab a rock.

One, two, three.

Oh.

So the good thing is, Jason's not going on the journey.

The bad thing is, Nate is going on the journey.

I came into this game not wanting to go on journeys,

because I do think they also put targets on your back.

And a lot of journeys have the potential to lose your vote.

It is a risk, but there's part of you

as a fan of Survivor to go,

"Look, it's an experience I get to have." So...

You just have to kick it in and go.

How are you?

I see MC.

And we immediately exchange pleasantries

and give each other a big hug.

How you doing over there?

But it's a little bit like two boxers sizing each other up.

We are on the opposite sides

of what could be construed

as a Hina-Uli conflict.

- Wow. - Yeah.

Matt going home

was 100%

the first shot at the OG Hina tribe.

So, now, lines are drawn.

Oh, no, I see some heavy bags.

Oh, no.

We walk up, and

I see this pile

of sandbags waiting for us.

And I'm like, "This isn't what I wanted."

And there's a note there.

"Let's start with something simple.

"You must work together to move these sandbags

"from one location to another,

"before the timer runs out.

"If you succeed,

"you each keep your vote at your next Tribal Council.

If you fail, you both lose your vote."

Damn, Jeff.

- Whoa. - That's crazy.

- Whoa. -I just know

it's gonna suck.

All right, let's go.

Oh, my God.

I pick up that first sandbag,

and I'm like, "Whoa, this is heavy."

This is a very daunting task.

It has to be, like, a hundred sandbags.

Oh, man, there's a lot of these.

Like, it is layers

on top of layers on top of layers.

I feel like this may be

one of the hardest things that I've ever done in my life.

- You got it, Nate. - You got it, too.

If we don't finish the sandbags

before the hourglass runs out, we both lose our vote.

So we have to work together.

I already don't have a vote

because I haven't finished my Beware Advantage,

and now it's like I'm fighting for my vote again.

So I cannot leave here without a vote.

You look at that pile

of sandbags and you go, "There's no way we're gonna do it."

It's just too big.

But how do you eat an elephant?

One bite at a time.

Steady pace.

- Yeah. Yep. - Not a slow pace, but a steady pace.

We agreed to go at a relatively moderate pace,

but MC sets a pace that

is way beyond what I was thinking.

She is a beast.

I felt like I was trying to chase after the Terminator,

and I knew that I couldn't keep up.

But I did want

to use this as a bonding moment.

What's one fun fact about MC?

I'm Nigerian.

Oh, nice.

Yeah, my parents are from Nigeria.

So in giving MC fun facts,

what I'm trying to do

is make myself a person and not a target.

- I'm a father of two. - Nice.

I love being a dad.

What's your favorite movie?

I-I love that he's trying

to get to know me, but I can't breathe.

So...

I used to have my lip pierced.

- Oh. - And once I dyed my hair pink.

I can see that, actually.

- Can you? - Yeah.

But I do enjoy

getting to know Nate.

And I think that will be important,

because that merge is coming.

I can burp the alphabet.

Nice one.

What do you do for work?

I'm a stay-at-home dad right now.

- Oh, I love that. - Yeah.

Like, it does feel like

we are building a pretty good bond.

And part of it was just to keep my mind off of how much

I was suffering,

because all I want to do is take a nap.

Me and Nate are slowly but surely

getting these sandbags to the other side,

when I realize that, "Hey,

there's a box underneath."

Oh. Oh, God.

Oh, my God.

There is a note

on this box.

Oh, hurry up and come back.

Nate, hurry and drop that one.

There's something here.

Okay.

Me seeing

that there's another element to this challenge,

I'm like, "Of course.

"Like, Jeff wouldn't make it

so simple."

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

What you got?

Says...

The note says

that there is an advantage hidden

in the jungle,

and if one person finds that advantage,

the other person

must finish the rest of the sandbags

or lose their votes.

Immediately, I realize

if it's a race to find something in those woods,

I am going to lose.

MC is just fitter than me.

So I need to come up with a rationale that she will buy

that makes sure that,

at the least, I keep my vote.

Can I make you a deal?

Let's finish most of them and leave one bag, 'cause...

We still have to finish the sandbags, no matter what.

- Exactly. So then we have a little time to look. - Okay.

So I pitch to MC,

we finish almost all of this challenge,

and whatever time left, we can go look for the advantage.

That way, we're both guaranteed to have our vote.

- Get 'em... - Sounds good. All right, cool.

- All right, deal. Let's do it. - I love that.

- I love that. -She bought it.

And I was relieved.

We would just get more tired scrambling.

Exactly.

So we continue to grind.

And, finally,

there's one left.

Oh, yeah.

- Okay. - You ready?

We take it three-quarters of the way,

and then we decide to look

for the advantage.

- Let's do it. - Good luck. Let's find it.

I don't want the advantage.

I know that advantages

come with having targets on your back.

But I certainly don't want MC to have it, either.

I realize I'm not

gonna find it, and I know

the longer she's out there, the better

her odds are of finding it.

There's a lot of sand left in that timer,

but I want this to be over.

What?

We're running out of time!

Okay. I'm coming!

When Nate calls me back, I look at the hourglass timer.

If you want to keep looking,

I can stay and watch. I just didn't want to risk it.

Looks like there's still

a good amount of time to search.

So I'm thinking, "Does Nate have

some ulterior motive?"

It's hard to tell, but my brain is not working.

So...

let's just end this

right here.

At the very least, I still have my vote,

- and Nate still has his vote. - Bam!

Good job.

Good job.

I look back at the sandbags, and I'm like,

"I just did that.

Like, I just did that."

And that's what I came here to do, to do hard things.

And when I was younger, I was so

self-conscious about my body image.

Like, I was too muscular.

Kids, like, bullied me and teased me when I was younger.

Like, I felt I should make myself smaller.

I should

wear long sleeves, so that people can't see, like,

my biceps, and...

I look back on how I felt, and I'm so glad

of how far I've come now

to be proud of my muscles

and be proud of how strong I am.

And I just think, like,

in the end, I didn't give up.

And I'm glad

that I didn't let those bullies

take that life and that fight out of me.

- She looks exhausted. -She looks tired.

- Oh! - Welcome back.

- That was quite horrible. -Oh, my gosh.

- Yeah, lay down. -Oh, my God. You have sand

on you and everything.

At least I still have a vote. Thank God.

- Good stuff. -Thank God.

Nice work.

All right, so it was Nate on the journey.

Uh, Matt went home.

- Ah. - Ah. Yeah. - Yeah.

So we pull up to this beach,

and there's a bunch of sandbags.

- Oh... - Oh, my God.

I'm triggered, y'all.

Ew.

So, MC comes back and tells us about the journey.

So we finished right on time,

- and I'm so tired. -Thank God.

But when Shannon was off doing something, it was just

me and the other five.

Now is the time to strike.

If you're looking at the numbers here,

it's former Hina strong,

and I'm really hoping to work with former Hina.

So I want to use this opportunity

to continue building that rapport and trust,

so they'll take me further in the game.

Now that I have you all here,

a shot has been taken at Hina at last Tribal Council.

- Yeah. -And I think,

obviously, it would be smart to take a shot at Uli.

-Yeah. -And so this is me

trying to, like, prove to you

that, like, I'm with you,

- and I want to work with you. -Yeah.

Rizo has the advantage.

- Rizo has the advantage. -Mm.

- He got it on y'all's beach. -Mm-hmm.

Basically, you lose your vote until you lose a challenge.

So since he lost his challenge last night,

I would bet money that Rizo has an idol.

Okay.

- That's huge. -And Shannon knows this, too.

She does. Has she told any of you?

-No. - No. - Yeah.

-She's been a little sketchy. - Yeah.

Sage tells us that

Rizo found the Beware Advantage on the Uli camp.

The task is similar to the task that I have

for my own Beware Advantage.

So I know this girl is telling the truth.

- I'm out for revenge now. Like... -Yeah. Yeah.

Like, you can cut me out, but, like,

- I'm gonna cut back. -Yeah. Yeah.

This definitely tips the scale towards Sage

when it comes to if we need to vote someone off.

I'd rather keep Sage than Shannon.

And it sounds like Sage wants to truly work with us,

so I want to work with her.

Have you felt

any cracks or anything?

I-I have felt zero cracks.

Okay.

-Which is scary. -Right.

With Matt going today, too.

- You know? Right. - Yes. It would make sense

- for them to be out for Uli blood. - Right.

If we do lose,

it might be obvious to Sage that it's either me or her.

But when it comes to Sage,

it seems like she's really just not

talking strategy with anybody.

- How are you? Yeah, come here. - I haven't got to hug you in forever.

- Here's a big one. Yeah. - Yeah.

- Oh, man. - Are you okay?

Yes. Are you?

In terms of where Shannon and I stand,

I still feel like

there's a part of her that sees me as this wounded puppy

that just needs encouragement and needs reassurance

so that I won't suspect anything,

and I won't play my Shot in the Dark.

Like, your skin's looking really good.

- I think just, like, the humidity and stuff just, like... - Oh, thanks.

I got a couple zits that I'm like,

"If I had a mirror right now,

- you'd be..." - Oh, you look great.

My relationship with Sage

doesn't feel that different from Uli.

It's a lot of fun conversations.

You know, it can be about pooping,

or pimples

or how she was the Easter Bunny.

All I know is that when I talk to her,

it's not super strategic.

Sage, like, this is a game.

- Yeah. - And it's fun.

- Yeah. Oh, I'm having a great time, like... - Yeah, you know?

First and foremost, it's...

- it's fun. - If you're ever feeling any other way, let me know,

- because I will remind you that it's unnecessary. - Yeah.

I can tell when somebody thinks I'm stupid.

But the reality is I'm a wolf, baby.

I'm ready to eat her.

And I think I'm getting that opportunity.

-Okay. -Can I have another hug?

- Of course you can. - Thank you so much.

- I love you a lot. - I love you.

We pull up, and we get out and greet each other.

And we see table with an hourglass

and-- I'm not kidding--

at least a hundred sandbags.

No.

So I quickly get into the story of what happened.

There's no advantage. It literally was just, like,

- you either both keep your vote - What?!

or you both lose your vote.

- It was no upside? -No.

It was only downside.

And the good news is, it seems like everybody believes it.

That's crazy, man.

So, ultimately, I do think the journey was a success.

And the other part

that was the success from the beginning, as soon

as I got on that boat,

was that Jason didn't have a chance to get anything.

Ow.

What do you think your boyfriend's doing right now?

It depends on what day it is.

Do you think it's, like, Wednesday or Thursday?

-Today's Monday. -Um...

If it's Monday, then he's working.

Whatever. It's good. It keeps his mind off things.

Is he, like, normal, like, nine-to-five situation?

He works three days a week, and he makes...

-You must be so cold. -Oh, my God.

- I didn't even notice you were back there. - Oh, I'm sorry.

- My bad. -That's so funny. No, you're good.

I don't know if Jawan thinks I'm stupid,

but I can tell when he's trying to listen in

on my conversations. It's so obvious.

I'm like, "I know what you're doing."

He's trying to listen

to everything I'm trying to tell other people.

And it's like, dude, I'm trying to have

a one-on-one conversation with Sophi right now.

Why would you be involved

in every single conversation I have?

That is objectively weird.

Jawan's annoying me.

- Why? - Just...

I just feel like he's listening to all my conversations.

Oh, yeah?

- And they're not even about game. - Yeah.

Jawan is making Savannah kind of crazy.

Back in the OG Uli tribe,

I, personally, felt good with Jawan,

'cause we kind of got that brotherly East Coast vibe to us.

But...

if Uli had to have gone to Tribal Council,

I think Jawan would have been the one in the hot seat.

Second I can write that man's name down...

I'm serious.

I'm gonna be like, "This is for my bag

and my water bottle."

Jason might be the easy vote right now,

but I've said, literally,

since day two,

Jawan is extremely hard to work with.

I'm serious.

I-I was like, "Oh, she is not happy."

Right?

I'm ready to see that guy go home,

because he's actually making my life out here more stressful.

Why would I want to be

in an environment of stress

with an extra element of stress, aka Jawan?

Come on in.

Kele, Kele, Kele, Kele, Kele! Kele, Kele, Kele, Kele, Kele!

Kele! Kele! Kele!

Wow.

Wow. You are upping it.

Kele, getting your first look at the new Hina tribe.

Matt voted out at the last Tribal Council.

All right, shall we get to today's

immunity challenge?

First things first-- got to take it back.

- Thank you, Jeff. - Thank you.

Once again, immunity is back up for grabs.

For today's challenge, you're gonna swim out

to a giant bamboo cage.

You're gonna climb up it, jump in.

Then you're gonna carry that giant cage

all the way up the beach...

where one player from each tribe will dig out

from under the cage.

That person will be your rebounder,

while the rest of the tribe attempts

to shoot balls in very tall baskets.

First tribe to get one ball in each

of their three baskets

wins immunity, safe from the vote.

You don't have to deal with Tribal Council.

In addition, you're playing for a reward.

Want to know what you're playing for?

I'm very confident that you will be excited with this reward.

Show me the clucks, Jeff.

For the winning tribe.

-No way. -Oh!

Four chickens--

one rooster, three egg-laying hens.

For the losers,

Tribal Council, where somebody will be the sixth person

voted out of Survivor 49.

And as a penalty for losing, I will keep your flint.

Hina, you are working to get yours back.

- Let's do it. Yeah. -All right, sit-outs.

Kele, you have one extra person.

Who's it gonna be?

Kristina, take a spot on the sit-out bench.

Everybody else, give you a minute to strategize.

We'll get it on. Here we go.

All right, here we go,

for immunity and reward.

Survivors ready?

- Go! Everybody in the water. -Come on, Kele!

This first stage

is you've got to get everybody to your cage.

Come on, guys! Let's get it!

You can't get in the cage

until everybody's at the cage.

Get it, guys.

Yeah, somebody pull me.

Kele, Kele, you guys got it.

You're good, Kele. You're good, Hina.

Now you got to get everybody in the cage.

Hella Kele! Hella Kele!

The next step is

you have poles

that you need to free by untying.

You're gonna use those to carry the cage.

And you have sandbags

holding the cage down.

Yeah.

Kele now got that second pole free.

Good job, Kele!

Hina now picking up the pace,

and they've got their second pole free.

Three, two, one!

Come on.

Go!

Hina quickly creating a lead.

Let's do it!

- Let's do it! -These cages

weigh a ton.

Aah!

Hey, stay motivated!

- You got it! -Now you're gonna reach

that part of the beach where you got to lift it higher

to get over that sand.

Come on, guys!

Here comes Kele now trying to close the gap.

Come on, Kele!

- That cage is very heavy. - Aah!

Kele closing the gap,

step by step.

Come on, Kele!

Exhaustion for Kele.

Take it off.

There's Alex realizing,

"What am I doing with all this weight?"

It is now Hina back in the lead.

Sorry. Sorry. Sorry.

- Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. - Nothing easy about Survivor.

Come on, guys, dig deep,

dig deep! You all got it!

- Come on, y'all! - Kele with a lot

of momentum right now.

They are channeling all the fuel they have,

and they are on a roll.

They have not stopped walking in a while.

Let's go!

Kele really doing a nice job.

They have found another gear.

You're almost there. Just push through.

You got to get it over and on that plank.

- Over. - All right.

You're good.

Kele, start digging.

You're digging one person out.

They are the rebounder.

Hey, dig deep. Dig deep.

Guys.

-Guys, I'm sorry. -Nate exhausted.

Got to take a breather.

- Let's go, Hina! - Three, two, one!

Let's go!

Go!

- Come on! -Here comes Hina.

They're trying to stay in this.

Come on! Come on! Let's go!

- One, two. -Here comes Hina.

One, two. One, two.

- Hina now with a surge. - One, two.

That's how you do it on Survivor.

We're almost there! We're almost there!

Kele, dig! Yeah!

Keep trying, y'all.

You got this, you guys.

You're close.

You're a little far.

Drop it back three feet.

I'm trying!

You're good!

Start digging, Hina!

Okay.

It's gonna be Shannon taking on the role of rebounder.

That is a key role in this challenge.

All right, let's go! Let's go!

Kele's through first.

Shannon can untie that first bag,

releasing that first ball.

My God, you're a hero.

Jason's gonna be the rebounder for Hina.

- Shannon tosses. - All right.

It's gonna be MC with the first shot.

That's a little short. Takes a minute.

Jason's free!

- Hina's made up a lot of time. -You got to pull, Jason.

Gonna be Alex now taking over.

- Oh! - Alex off the rim, close.

Jason has the ball free.

Now you can start shooting. It's gonna be Rizo.

For Luka. For Luka.

Rizo...

- And he scores the first. - That's what I'm talking about.

Now we got a challenge again.

It would be a gigantic comeback for Hina.

Here goes Alex.

Is this it?

- Yes, it is. There's one. - Yes!

- Let's go, Shannon. -Come on, Shannon!

Money.

Rizo just short.

I'm good. I'm good.

There you go.

Alex looking to put Kele in the lead.

And he does.

Kele in the lead. It's now Kele at two,

- Hina at one. - Second.

Can this tie it?

No. Off the front of the rim.

All right, I'm go-- I'm gonna go.

- Aah! My God. -Rizo pops

Sophi in the face.

Do not give up!

There's the second for Rizo.

You got to move, Jason!

Hurry, guys! Hurry, hurry, hurry!

Alex for the win.

Fast as you can! Fast as you can!

This is over.

Kele wins immunity and reward.

Four chickens waiting for you back at camp.

Sending Hina back to Tribal Council.

The sixth person will be voted out of Survivor 49.

- Huge effort by everybody. -Good job.

Good job, y'all.

That was an exhausting challenge.

We had heart. It's fine.

Kele, congratulations.

Once again, immunity is yours.

Nobody going home from this tribe.

I just want to say that was

a massive effort by everybody.

Savannah, I'm also gonna say

that I can gauge a season

by how it impacts me.

This is one of the hottest times I can remember

ever being in Survivor.

I'm exhausted at the end of the day,

and I'm fully fed and sleeping.

But when you're playing Survivor, it can be brutal.

Savannah, do you feel that?

I'm sorry.

And, like, it's crazy because I've only gone,

like, a few days without flint.

It's, like, when we go back to camp,

we're gonna have, literally, coconuts.

And some people on this tribe are at the point where

they've only eaten coconuts for ten days.

They literally cannot stomach coconut anymore.

I don't want to send anyone home tonight.

I'm kind of going a little delusional

'cause of the heat and the hunger and the exhaustion.

But, oh, my God, I just...

Oh, it's just so hard.

It's so hard.

All right, Kele, safety tonight, no Tribal Council.

Waiting for you back at camp:

four chickens. Grab your stuff, head out.

- Enjoy the night off. - Thanks, Jeff.

Thanks, Jeff.

All right, Hina, grab your stuff,

head out, see you tonight at Tribal,

where somebody will be the sixth person voted out

of Survivor 49.

As a penalty for losing, I will keep your flint.

You'll have a chance to earn it back at your next challenge.

- Keep her safe, Jeff. -Okay, I got her.

Oh, man, the immunity challenge was

the hardest thing I've ever done.

But regardless of how I'm feeling,

we have to go to another Tribal Council.

And if we decide to vote out Jason,

it's gonna be an all-out war

with O.G. Hina, so, this Tribal Council is pivotal.

Twenty-five years of Survivor, and we're still going strong.

Want to be part of the adventure?

Apply to be on Survivor.

Oh, my gosh. Sweet little babies.

That is crazy.

-We have new roomies. -Welcome to the party.

This is gonna be a process

- for me. -That was really tough.

- That was so tough, guys. - How is everyone feeling?

I'm deathly afraid of birds, but deep down,

I want to eat the chickens really bad.

We're hungry.

This is not fake.

Like, we are coming in eating...

three crab legs a day,

a little bit of coconut.

And so, for me, personally,

I was eating the chicken.

As long as someone else did all the work for it.

What do people think?

- I can't kill it. - I can't kill it.

- I can't kill it. -But even if we kill it,

- does anyone know how to... -I could kill it.

I could kill it, but I just

don't know what to do.

You defeather it, clean it,

and then rotisserie chicken.

After winning today's challenge,

it's hard not to make the stupid dad joke, "Winner, winner,

chicken dinner," but

winning chickens as a reward feels like an anti-reward.

It is like,

"Congratulations for winning.

Here's some farm chores."

So it's, like, wringing the neck?

- That's what I would do. Just... -God, no.

Not to turn my nose up to the first

real protein since we've been here,

but I have never killed anything in my entire life.

Thank you for sharing your life force energy with us.

I got to get away.

- Yeah, let's go. -I'm sorry, guys.

And I just know that Alex and I are the only two

that could probably stomach this process.

- I'm kind of scared. I'm gonna be honest. - I am, too.

We got this. We got this.

I'm gonna... I'm gonna go. I'm gonna go this way.

I can't. I'm so sorry. I can't. I can't. I can't.

I can't. I can't. I can't.

I had pet chickens growing up,

but I'm not vegetarian, so it's easy

to sit on your couch in the comfort of your home

with food on your lap and say what you would or wouldn't do.

But come out here if you really want to test that.

- Here, I can do it. I... - I think it's gone, I think.

All those feelings are so valid.

It is a crazy thing that we have witnessed.

It's gone.

- It's gone. -Oh, my God.

Dude, how are you doing?

It's, like, shocking, you know?

- Yeah. - Because it's, like,

this is a life, but we eat chicken every day.

Like...

I'm used to living a very comfortable life.

I live in my high-rise apartment building

and order DoorDash

and just don't think twice.

I mean, that's probably the hardest thing

that I will ever have to do in my life,

have ever done in my life.

For my whole life, I've honestly been made fun of

because people think I'm weak.

They think that I'm not tough enough.

They think that I'm not strong enough.

They say I'm too feminine.

Sorry,

Mr. Rooster.

Yeah, I feel bad for the other ones over there.

- They're just silent. Yeah. - Dude, they just watched it.

To all those people who have made comments

about how soft I am,

are you guys killing chickens on Survivor?

I don't think so.

- Ooh. - The only other time

I've ever had to kill anything was, like,

- my, uh, roommate's dog got a... - Really?

- No, no, it's... Bad... - I had to say, "Geez,

- bad way to open a sentence. - who am I with right here?"

My roommate's dog got ahold of a rat,

and, like, broke the rat's neck.

- Worst way to open up that story. - No. I...

To clarify, roommate's dog, doing great, awesome.

It looks so good.

-It smells really good. -Mmm.

It's been emotional, but there was never a question

in any of our minds that we had to eat that chicken.

We just emptied our tanks

and then some.

And so, the idea that we would, like,

maybe just eat coconut and snails tonight

after that challenge, which, like,

wrung me dry,

is crazy.

- That's the first real-tasting food. - Wow.

And so to get something like a chicken,

that is going to give us a huge advantage

over the other tribe.

It was a good try, honestly. It's, like, I feel everyone,

like, really gave it their all out there.

-Yeah. - Right.

-Brutal. -That was-that was tough.

-Sophi, how you doing, you all right? -Yeah.

No, you did.

I don't know. I just have...

I have, like, no gas left in my tank.

And it's only day ten.

So is this your fifth time at Tribal now?

I've gone to every single Tribal Council.

And I think the game has been the hardest for me so far.

- Mm-hmm. -This feeling

is frustrating right now because

all I want to do is play as hard as I can.

But I just have no energy to do it.

But luckily, I've worked pretty hard in the last

couple days to establish relationships

that'll probably keep me safe tonight.

Game plan for tonight?

Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah, I don't want him to play his Shot in the Dark tonight.

Yeah, I don't want him to play it, either.

I might actually go down right now, actually,

- and talk to him. - Yeah, you go, Jawan.

By eliminating Jason,

Hina's gonna be down two members.

And the Uli tribe will still have six.

And going into a potential "merge," that's a game-changer.

We have the majority,

and we can kind of dictate where this game goes.

- I really like you, Jawan, and... - I like you too, bro.

- Yeah. - And every conversation we've had has been

- 100% genuine. - Yeah.

- I'm for real about it. - Yeah, me too.

Honestly, I like the kid.

I don't want it to be a war,

but these are the hands that we were dealt.

I don't want this game to be black and white, you know?

'Cause, like, honestly, I feel like...

That's sort of, like, where my head is at, and maybe we can

- pull it off. - Yeah.

So my goal is to continue to make him feel comfortable

so he doesn't play that Shot in the Dark.

- Okay, so we got to get a game plan - All right.

- because the merge is about to happen, most likely. - Yes.

This is, honestly, almost good news

- for us at the merge. - Yeah.

Hundred percent.

On paper, Jason is the obvious vote tonight.

It would be numbers,

former Uli versus Hina.

Worst case scenario, he plays the Shot in the Dark.

Yeah.

I...

Yes.

A war. Yeah.

- Exactly. -Yeah.

I am seriously considering

writing Jawan's name down.

Because if we get rid of Jason,

I fear that the former Hina

are gonna think that we are targeting their whole tribe.

They're gonna worry that we are starting this war.

And that's not what I want, because ultimately, I think

we do have to work with the former Hina tribe

in order to make it far and to the end of this game.

I mean, how do you feel

about where the game is at right now?

I do not want this to be a tribe-versus-tribe thing,

- 'cause that's stupid. - Yes.

- And I'm open to working with you. - Oh, yeah?

I didn't come out here to play a freaking six v. six game.

If I wanted to do that, I would have stayed home

- and played freaking basketball. - Right.

- You know what I mean? - Yeah.

I think you're honestly in a great position,

and I think you might have more power than you realize.

So in talking to Jason, I want him to feel like

I actually am willing to work with him, because, honestly,

I am willing to work with him.

You have so much power because

you're in a totally different position.

None of us have any connection with the Hina tribe.

You are the only one who has that.

- Yes. - So, I'm just gonna be real with you

'cause I'm trying to show I'm trying to work with you.

- Yeah. - You need to pitch that

- to people. - Yeah.

I could see my game opening up if I work with Jason.

But I do not want to be

steering this vehicle, even though

Jawan's ultimately the one I want out.

I just want to make sure

that I can be sort of, like, the bridge

- to communicate to old Hina after the merge. - Yeah.

What Savannah made me realize is that I am

the sole thread that connects

new Hina with old Hina.

I'm kind of, like, the thread that connects

- y'all to old Hina. - Mm-hmm.

My position is key

to everyone moving forward in this game.

Whatever it is you want to happen,

like, I'll-I'll help you.

Yeah. No, that's good to know, 'cause I do--

I think there's-there's something to be done.

I want to talk to Savannah.

The ball is in Savannah's court,

so, I have to hope

that Savannah has my back

and that I'm able to live the night.

Jason's like, "Look, for tonight,

"I don't want to step out of bounds.

Like, I'll do whatever you guys tell me..."

The good news is that Nate's very open

to working with Jason, which is perfect because

I didn't want to choose this moment to take control.

I'd rather have Nate make the decision on this.

Okay.

- So today, how do you want to handle today? - Hmm.

The easy vote tonight is Jason.

But the other question mark is Jawan,

who, since day one on the Uli Beach,

we always wondered how loyal he could be.

Yeah. Are you gonna be okay to write his name down?

- I'll... I'm... - Okay.

I don't know. I don't want you to...

Are you delusional?

Are you insane?

Just want to make sure you're good.

If we took out Jawan tonight

and kept Jason, it might say, "Hey, this game is

"wide open. We don't have to vote on tribal lines anymore."

When I grow up, I want to be just like you, Savannah.

Right now,

it's all about keeping my options open because

I don't really know for sure if I'm gonna go vote for Jason

or maybe eat one of my own and vote for Jawan.

Appreciate you, fam.

Appreciate you more.

He's been bugging me since day two.

I think he's a liability, I think he's frantic,

and I think he's the most likely to flip

on our former Uli after the merge.

But if we choose to eat one of our own,

I'm also worried that we're gonna set ourselves up

for failure against the old Hina.

This is not going to be a simple numbers vote.

This vote tonight could impact the rest of the game.

All right.

I want to pick up where we left off

at the challenge.

'Cause here's what I thought as you all were leaving.

"There is no way everybody can go back to camp

"and immediately start strategizing.

It's just too exhausting right now."

Savannah, could you describe

what you're all feeling

to your best friend in a way that they might understand?

Absolutely not.

It is this level of exhaustion

that normal people will never, ever have to experience.

Most people don't operate on an empty stomach.

Most people aren't operating with very little sleep.

Most people are not operating from a state of paranoia.

And it's hard because you know that you have

to have these important conversations,

but how can you even think about strategizing

when your brain is literally just mush?

Jason, what do you say to somebody that says,

"The 26-day game? Eh.

"It's not tough enough, man.

That's not Survivor"?

Anyone who says that, I want to know

how many days they have done this.

If it's zero, then shut up, dude.

Like, I want to see your receipts,

because until you're here, you, like,

don't know what this is.

Jawan, it sounds like, right now, on day ten,

- it is hour by hour. -Yeah.

We're gassed, but the game moves on.

And...

Can I say something random, Uncle Jeff?

- I'm sorry. - Always.

Yeah, I feel like I'm a nervous guy,

and I feel like I do better one-on-one.

So, being in this situation

with everybody in a group scenario,

I apologize if I get nervous or if I stutter

or if I mumble, and, um, try not to overthink it.

- Um... - What prompted you to say that

right now at Tribal?

I think sometimes when I hear other people talk,

I'm like, "Yo, they're so well-spoken."

And I just feel like

sometimes I'm hard on myself.

- Hmm. -Yeah, I'm working on it.

And, uh, thank you for being patient with me, Uncle Jeff.

Rizo, Survivor is not designed to break you,

but it's designed to get you at that point

where Jawan is now questioning, "Am I even a good communicator?

I don't know anymore."

You know, Jeff, I'm not

this great communicator myself,

but you kind of play compare and contrast sometimes.

And it's not only in the game.

It's personally. It's like, "Wow, like,

"this person is making that person laugh a lot.

Like, am I not funny?"

"Like, wow, this person is providing for people.

Am I not doing that?" So, Survivor does

this weird thing to your brain where it's like,

"I might not be playing the best game,

but, like, I might not be the best person."

So just kind of segueing back to Jawan...

You always say, "Apply, get out of the couch."

The first thing you have to do is have confidence to apply,

let alone be here,

because this is not easy, coming out here.

- Well said. -Beautiful.

- Man, Uncle Jeff, that was fire. - Beautiful.

Jawan, maybe you should question if you're well-spoken.

- That's... - That's pretty good.

Now you see what I'm talking about?

How... What do I even say?

That's it.

Jason, one of the things

about Survivor, for everybody who plays,

there are gonna be highs and lows.

You think you're in charge. You're not.

You think you're in trouble. You are.

So what are you proud of?

Jeff, there are so many ways that, like,

Survivor tests you as a person.

Like, physically, at the challenge today.

Like, emotionally,

like, spiritually.

I'm, like, so proud

that I haven't given up in, like,

any of those situations.

And I want to make sure that

if it is me tonight, that I go home fighting.

So, does that mean you're still feeling

that you are on the out because of the yellow Buff

you started this game with?

As much as I can trust

the people that I've made these bonds with,

it's naive

to feel safe in this game, ever.

Savannah, every time you have a vote,

especially when we're still in the tribe stage,

it's about value.

What do the people that remain

have of value?

Did you have those discussions?

Of course, and it would be silly not to have those discussions

and consider every potential outcome

of tonight's vote, right?

So, Jason's pitch, so to speak,

going into this is, he is a former Hina.

He knows people who are on the other side, so to speak.

He can actually help us down the line.

Jawan, did you have any discussions

with Jason about what he might offer?

Yeah, man. When I look at Jason,

it's like we're cut from the same cloth.

You know, we got the glasses, we talk about Pokémon.

So it's hard not to want to talk to my guy, you know?

So even though he's on "the bottom,"

there's moments, if I'm being honest,

where I felt like I was on the bottom.

So when I see him, I see a mirror of me.

What makes you feel like

you're on the bottom?

Day two, I had an emotional day,

and I was struggling to make fire.

Something about the pressure of being in this environment

with new people, it's just that paranoia

and kind of, you know, that small doubt

that sometimes creeps into everybody's head.

And that made me feel like I was on the bottom, you know?

It's crept into your head twice, just tonight at Tribal Council.

Yeah. Thank you for reminding me, Uncle Jeff. Yeah.

But yeah, that happened legit eight days ago,

and I'm still holding on to that.

And I'm trying to let go,

but it's something that eats away at me a little bit.

Well, maybe this will help you let go. Nate,

when somebody talks about self-doubt too much,

does it become something that the other tribe members

listen to and say, "Maybe he's right,

maybe he's who we should get rid of"?

It certainly can. I mean, I think

when you want to build an alliance with anybody,

you want that person in your alliance

to be as confident as you are in the relationship.

But I also know Jawan well enough now, ten days in,

to go, "He's a sweet kid. That was one moment."

Like, none of us are perfect people.

I think we've all had these moments.

And if you can't be honest out here,

you're toast.

So, Sophi,

is it possible that what's happening with this group--

and maybe it's happening

with the other tribe, as well-- is that

when you start revealing your vulnerabilities to each other,

then you say, "Look, I'm open. You're getting to know me"?

That can be very bonding.

For sure. I mean, we've all bonded in just two days.

I can't imagine what they're doing over there.

And I think the phases

in Survivor are kind of like waves.

You know, rough for some, calm for others.

But for every Survivor player,

there's a certain point where a tsunami comes.

And I think the stronger players-- they... they swim.

They swim to the shore, and, you know,

they get a piña colada and a beach party.

And the weaker players-- they drown.

And I think when this war comes,

the stronger players will survive.

And so, we'll see what happens today--

who drowns and who survives.

All right, it is

time to vote. Sophi, you're up.

I'll go tally the votes.

If anybody has an advantage or an idol

and you want to play it, now would be the time to do so.

All right, I'll read the votes.

First vote:

Rizo.

Jason. One vote Rizo, one vote Jason.

Jason. That's two votes Jason, one vote Rizo.

Jason. Three votes Jason, one vote Rizo.

Sixth person voted out of Survivor 49: Jason.

That's four. That's enough.

Need to bring me your torch.

- Love you, bro. - Good game, man. - Sorry, Jason.

- Wish you all the best, buddy. -Appreciate, y'all.

- Good luck out there. - Thank you.

Still smiling.

Ten days

more than I thought that I'd have.

Jason, the tribe has spoken.

They sure have.

- Love y'all. - Time for you to go.

All the best, man.

Adios.

Love you guys.

Grab your torches, head back to camp.

- Good night. - Thanks, Jeff.

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Oh!

Oh, Shannon.

Sisters. Mwah.

I want to instill fear in these people's hearts.

Aah!

I'll be okay.

Oh, man.

I thought that things were gonna go my way tonight,

but Uli stayed Uli strong, and I'm a casualty of that.

But I would do it all over again.

I was the alternate this season,

so every single moment I was out here,

I was soaking it in.

I felt like I was living on borrowed time,

but when it's your time, it's your time.

And what a journey it's been for me.