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I'm not the kind of girl.

Every girl wants you to be her man.

Have a great audition.

Good luck.

Play. I'm not the kind of girl who gives up young.

Have you got it?

Yeah. Open the page.

A, 20.

Find the paper.

What do I do now?

How are you?

Page 20.

You can't miss it.

I'm okay.

Well, then I can deal with probably one less, maybe two less hours of Katie's

time. A week? A week, that's all.

Not a day.

So she can take longer lunches.

No, I mean, I wish I could say more. No, but there is Roger who could probably

write.

Did you get it?

No, I haven't got it.

Did you see the paper?

I meant the stamp.

Oh, well, just listen.

Rare cancer seen in 41 homosexuals.

Outbreak occurs among men in New York and California.

Eight died inside two years.

Second paragraph.

The cause of the outbreak is unknown and there is yet no evidence of contagion.

But the doctors who have made the diagnosis, mostly in the New York City

San Francisco Bay Area, are alerting other physicians who treat large numbers

homosexual men to the problem in an effort to help identify more cases and

reduce the delay in offering chemotherapy treatment.

Oh, come on. Please. The sudden appearance of the cancer called...

I'm going to have to hear the rest of this later.

Oh. Okay. I'm sorry.

I love you. I love you, too.

Have you heard this?

Where? Who are you?

Outside.

Spots generally do not itch or cause other symptoms, often can be mistaken

bruises, sometimes appear as lumps, and can turn brown after a period of time.

What's this?

You've got a bruise on your neck.

The cancer often causes swollen lymph glands and then kills by spreading

throughout the body.

Doctors investigating the outbreak believe that many cases have gone

because of the rarity of the condition and the difficulty even dermatologists

may have in diagnosing.

Is that it?

It goes on to... Well, you can read it.

It's probably from using toppers at best.

Thank you, Willie.

You're serious?

Yes.

Most cases involve homosexual men who have had multiple and frequent sexual

encounters with different partners, as many as ten sexual encounters each night

after four times a week.

Many of the patients have also been treated for viral infections, such

as herpes,

hepatitis B, as well as parasitic infections.

How many of these guys have had other infections?

such as amoeba and giardia.

Many patients also reported that they had used drugs, such as amonizate and

to heighten sexual pleasure.

Tantra is not believed to be contagious.

What is this contagious?

It's like the CIA trying to scare us out of having sex.

But conditions that might precipitate it, such as particular viruses and

environmental factors, might account for an outbreak among the finger -hopping.

I want to thank you for this, Fuzz. It's been a nice way to wake up.

Really?

They think it's popular.

Great. You don't use that many poppers.

Well, Lisa called. Thought maybe you'd want it.

Bullshit. I'm sorry. I hate the New York Times.

things you...

Probably thinks we're lovers You

know

what I mean, uh -huh

And you scrimp it and save so you can...

Oh,

wow.

So you can come out here for two weeks on the 16th of the share and see all the

same people you see in New York, all of them depressed the hell out of you.

And with what you make at the gym, you'd have to work 187 years to rent out here

one week.

Thanks.

Come on, it's tea time.

It's what I live for. Do you understand that?

I went to your father.

You what?

I had to, Shelley. I'm sorry.

Please don't be angry with me. Angry?

I would do anything to help Tom. You would do anything except act like a

gentleman.

Is that what matters to you?

Yes.

I'm sorry I laughed.

I apologize.

Nice.

Very nice.

See what I see.

A child, a child covered up with hair. He's the one we see on the beach.

What do you want?

I'll have the sweat of that hairy man's brow, thank you.

I'll have a cliff soda, please.

And a blue dolphin.

With a little hair in it, please.

I'm going to have to kill you and it's not going to be pretty.

Hi.

Hi.

Somebody has to do it.

Thank you.

Cheers.

Cheers.

Do you want to find out his name?

I want one thing and one thing only.

For your face to shrivel up and fall off in the sea.

Hi.

Hi. Hey, how you doing?

Alan. Willie.

John Deacon. Everybody really calls me Fuzzy, though.

Excuse me, I'm in the wrong hospital.

Excuse me.

Am I supposed to be the right one?

Sorry.

Excuse me.

You going to be okay?

Not if I can help it.

Straight people use poppers.

Have you ever been to Studio 54?

Who is that with Willie?

Fuzzy.

I got it.

What?

Yeah, he gave it to me.

Gene just called five minutes ago.

You're kidding.

Uh -uh. You got the part.

Two -year contract.

Two years.

And a guarantee of two shows a week.

$1 ,500 a show to start.

But you know, it's just television.

The entertainment law sounds more exciting than you do.

Tell me about your friend John.

Everybody thinks we're lovers, you know.

Just because we hang out.

But John's great.

We work out together, go out.

He's my best friend.

How long's your sheriff for?

No, I'm just their guest for the weekend.

What are the guys that own the house there?

Sean's a writer for TV.

And David has a lot of money.

Heritage money, I guess.

He invested.

You know, calls his broker six times a day and argues.

When is John?

Sort of between jobs.

It's so funny here.

I like it.

No, I do too. I just think, you know...

We got gay restaurants now, gay doctors, Jake Hansen. You see that?

It's weird, huh?

I've never been into poppers or drugs or really sleeping on that much.

Did you see the article?

Let's not even talk about it.

Thank you.

Cheers.

Cheers.

I am so proud of you.

It is. No.

That's not why John cracked up. That means...

because he knows I really like hairy men.

Yeah?

You got something, uh... What?

Here on your lip.

Good night.

Hey, come again.

Good night.

Hot day?

Hi there.

Didn't really have to follow them down. Oh, I'm glad you called. Come on.

Where is he?

Inside.

Since when did he get here?

Yesterday? Last night.

I just can't believe it.

They said one of the nurses said she's got to have a bed.

Oh, I'm sure he's fine. I know.

Have they told you anything more since you called?

Don't worry.

I'm not.

I'm sure it's just bronchitis.

You ever had that?

You cough until you think your insides are coming up, and then you cough some

more.

They give you antibiotics.

It goes away.

Uh -huh.

I mean, John wasn't really ever... I mean, he

didn't freak the damn out of the guys, did he?

You know, he'd take a ton of drugs.

Oh, my goodness.

Fuzzy's in Washington.

Until just tonight.

Good.

I'm sure he just didn't want to worry you.

I mean, I've been calling him to see if he wanted to come out to the house for

Memorial Day.

John. Hi.

What did he say when they called you? Were you at work?

He said, uh... Hello, is this William Wolfe?

We've been giving your name as a contact for John Deacon. Your friend has

pneumonia. Oh, they did?

I told you that. Well, I thought you meant... Might be.

We're waiting for a bed, and he has a high fever. How high?

105.

Mr. Swanson!

And how was he when you saw him?

Fine.

I mean, he's got an oxygen mask, and they got him hooked up to a...

No, a... I .B.? I don't know. You can go and see him if you want.

You want to come with me?

I think they only let one in at a time. Why?

Meanness, I guess.

Feeling so great, huh?

Jesus.

What a drag, huh?

Poor boobie.

Still feeling a little warm.

Yeah,

well, they're waiting.

I guess they're trying to get you a bed, get you all fixed up and out of here.

How's John?

He's good.

He's at the co -op board meeting.

So what did the doctor say? Have you seen him?

What does he say?

I have pneumonia.

No, I know, but they've got you on antibiotics.

I had pneumonia.

Felt like somebody lit a fire in my chest when I was ten or something.

Or five.

I don't know.

Which is the doctor? The Indian one?

It is? Yeah.

Good guess?

wants to see you before he goes to lunch. All right, I just have about 15

minutes left on this, okay? I'll be right in.

Okay.

What are you working on? I'm really behind.

I'm sorry, Rochelle.

Please.

Yes, so you always say.

Look, I wasn't even thinking about that, I swear.

Well, you haven't thought about much, have you? You know something, Mark?

You seen this?

Shh. You have a knack for behaving badly.

Some might even say it's talent for it.

You're going to want to see this, believe me. What?

That talent.

Dory line for Augie? I like the sound of that. Well, you won't like the sound of

what else I had to tell you.

Oh? Why?

Why? Are they killing me off or something?

Oh, God, I think it's great. Don't you?

Come on.

I think it'd be fun. Daytime Soap's first... first butch gay person on TV.

You know that's not true.

What, that you're the first?

Are you serious?

You think you're not masculine?

They'd peg you into playing those parts.

Oh. He's that guy who played the homo. So? I don't think he's right for this.

He's a little light, don't you think?

It's fine for somebody like... I mean, for Bill Hurt to play a fact. I hate

word. Everybody knows he's straight.

A homosexual, excuse me.

Karen hasn't had an offer since she did that film. I know.

She hasn't even been offered a play.

Well, it was a lousy movie.

Be a slim chance that my medicine will do him any good.

This is not just an old head.

This is Prince Ahmed of ancient Egypt.

Sean got so plugged in about all this shit.

You know, found a spot on his leg about this big around.

Doesn't have to be ringworm.

What's that?

I don't know. You put cream on it, it goes away.

Oh, but the doctor did say he thought maybe all of this had something to do

overexposure to the sun, because gays spend so much... I'm sorry.

Excuse me.

I'm a friend of John Deacon's, and we were wondering if we could find out

something about his prognosis. John Deacon? Yeah, I'm sorry.

I'll be right with you. Why don't you go on in and have a seat?

It's a man with pneumonia.

That's right.

Well... We're very concerned about your friend.

He's very, very sick right now.

We don't know exactly what's wrong with him yet, but he does definitely have

pneumonia in both lungs.

He does?

His blood gases, or the level of oxygen in his blood, is very low.

We're waiting for a bed to open up in the ICU.

For the next few hours, we'll just have to wait and see.

If he continues to deteriorate, he may require being put on a mechanical

ventilator.

And we may also have to take a biopsy of his lung tissue. But does this have

anything... I mean, is he having any trouble with his immune system or

It's a possibility, yes.

Between no more and a couple of hours. And I always think it's best to take

sort of thing one bit at a time.

Right. Well, okay.

Thanks. Thank you.

I'm sorry I can't be more.

No, that's great.

She would have said if they were sure.

Maybe he goes to the baths all the time and doesn't tell anybody.

I don't think they know anything.

I certainly don't think everybody's going to die who gets it.

Do you?

Every man has his own special dream, and your dream's just about to come true.

Life's not as bad as it may seem if you open your eyes to what's in front of

you.

When your dream comes, boys, when you're happy, yeah,

when your dream comes.

What's wrong?

What's wrong? John's in the hospital. I've been there all day.

Why is he in the hospital?

He has something wrong with his immune system.

How is Washington?

Oh, Christ.

Are you sure?

Are they sure?

No.

Probably.

You talk to the doctor.

I just can't believe the way they run this place.

Oh, I'm sorry. We don't have blankets here in the emergency room. Good idea.

28 hours he waited for a bed.

They're more worried about his fucking insurance, which of course he doesn't

have.

Then they don't even tell him what they told me and David.

Did he call David? Don't be worried. I'm sure it's not that.

Not what? He said...

With pneumonia.

He's on a respirator.

Don't regular people get pneumonia?

He didn't even fucking call me.

He's been sick for weeks from the way he looks.

David's been calling him. Calm down. He doesn't pick up the phone.

Did you get your contracts all settled?

I'm so sorry.

It's just not fucking fair.

Not fair!

Didn't you see that?

My life as it has been lived with dignity.

Yes, yes, yes, he does. No, no, no, no, no. Oh, my God.

Don't you think that's brilliant?

No. I do. That's why it's so popular.

Reagan? No, E .T. Well, it could be.

No, why, everybody loves Reagan. He looks like E .T. You've spoiled

Who? Listen to this.

E .T. spoiled everything?

The great political analysis.

Ronald Reagan.

Reagan spoiled E .T. Look at this. This is real.

And that's why we love him so.

We think he's an alien.

Does that mean you can't go see him now for the 55th time?

Really? 55?

He identifies with him. I do. Something about the... Why don't you put something

like that on your show? An alien.

Wouldn't that be wonderful? Just bring in a script.

Have one show up in Grover's Corner or whatever it's called.

Central Falls.

I'm sorry.

I should know that.

Why? Central Plum.

Oh, because I used to love soaps. That's true. I can vouch for it. At least you

used to cut classes in seventh grade just to watch General Hospital.

We lived across the street from the school. Oh, it was great. Any time you

wanted to cut classes and take a break.

Have a gin and tonic.

My mother adopted you.

Really?

She didn't quite know what she was getting, but... But no, it's true. I

every plot line to every soap for six years running.

That's how I know all about life.

Well... I love soaps. Still, I don't expect everybody to follow all the

lives of all the denizens of Central Falls just because I have to.

Oh, I wish I could.

Who is that?

I don't know why, but I never get to watch.

Well, you know... Dart, please!

A lot of people's work lives get in the way of their TV viewing.

It's a real problem.

You know, that's the first person.

I have to say, though, that's the first person I've seen in a long time.

Who? Oh, heard about.

That guy.

Guy with KS just walked by.

This looks great, David.

I think it's... You know, doesn't it seem that way?

Like it's gone away?

Like it's run its course or it's starting to.

Do you read the newspapers?

Ever? No, I mean gay people.

Obviously a lot of people are still getting it.

What do you mean?

I've... One thing I've noticed, it seems like a lot of people who are getting

sick, they seem like a particular mindset or something. Self -destructive.

know, a lot of drugs, a lot of sex.

A lot of putting down drugs or sex, which plays such an integral part in my

life. But I just don't think you can abuse the body for that long without

some price.

It's a virus.

I know it's a virus, but so is a black plague, and not everybody got that.

Not everybody was bitten by fleas.

No, it's not just that.

It's wanting to live.

Loving yourself, you know?

Here we go!

Hurry up!

Tommy? Yes?

I have, um... What?

I have something to ask you.

I feel a little uncomfortable about it.

What? I heard a rumor.

I'm sure it's just, it's just that.

Well, tell me for God's sake. Oh, they can say God's sake now?

It's about when you were in school.

An undergraduate.

About Mark?

Yes.

Who were you talking to?

Don't tell me.

Mark, maybe?

And what was the big dish?

Dish? Sound a little fae?

The word?

Whoa. I just came from his office.

I had to talk to him about the trial.

I never expected.

I just wasn't prepared to hear those words.

And the idea of you two together.

America goes crazy. I drove straight home.

Please, don't be angry with me.

It doesn't change anything.

But I have to know the truth.

If only... Are you

expecting someone?

Isn't that appalling? Not appalling.

You know, if it hadn't been for Dynasty, we wouldn't be doing it at all. It's

true.

As soon as it becomes unpopular and unsheik again, it'll turn out the

were lying and the kiss will be revealed to have been a dream sequence.

But isn't it important for people to see it anyway?

Not necessarily. It doesn't stop them from hating you.

The whole way they dragged the story out for a year.

I mean, I've heard of foreplay.

Uh -huh.

And the whole idea of giving me all the queer scenes is demeaning. Well, why?

Don't they? Because.

Don't they give films about black to black writer?

But I resent that. Oh, it's a fake. No.

Yeah. The point, to my way of thinking anyway, of being an artist, is to be

to imagine something. If I can't write a convincing old lady or a Russian or a

black character, then I stink. Well, you're going to miss your own dialogue,

shut up.

Mark, I've got to talk to you.

I know him.

The actor? I'm sorry.

Mark.

Come on in.

I'll just be running along.

No, Elaine.

No, please. You two go right on ahead.

Please. We have to talk this out.

I wouldn't think of interfering.

You're not interfering.

You're my fiancé.

Look, everyone.

I'm sorry for whatever I've done.

I never meant any harm to either of you. He lives in my building. I wish you

both the best of luck and all the happiness.

Oh. Elaine.

Let go of me.

I'll leave you two in your little love nest.

She made that up.

I would never write love nest. Hi.

Fuck.

I'm sorry.

How are you, Mark?

Been better?

Yeah. He lives in your building.

Shh. I've missed you so much.

It's good to see you.

a long time let me give you a hug at least

And his lover is cute, too. You should see him.

I've missed you so much. Please, don't say that. Please. All right.

I'll pretend I haven't. How's that?

Now, he strayed. Elaine came to see me. I asked. Yes, I know. Sure.

Well... You asked? I'm afraid I've spoken out of turn.

He lives with another guy.

And they both have great bodies.

You tell me.

Could you come here for a second?

Could you

look at this? What?

Have I always had this?

Where?

Is this mold?

Yes, you have.

You sure?

I'm positive.

I never even noticed it before.

Wouldn't I have noticed it?

I feel tired all the time.

You don't have AIDS.

I've had everything you're not supposed to have. You know, I've had herpes. I've

had amoebas.

Just feeling guilty because you didn't go to the hospital when John was dying.

If you say that one more time, I swear I'm going to beat your fucking face in.

didn't know John was dying.

I'm sorry.

I feel that something's happening in my body.

Now, I'm not talking about John.

Talking about me?

I feel like something is... Stalking me.

I know you think I'm being melodramatic.

Did you sleep with someone else?

No. Then you can't have AIDS.

Because I haven't touched another man since we were in Key West.

1980.

Unless you can pick it up on a toilet seat. I don't know how long it's going

take to...

It's not going to take four years.

Incubate? Incubate.

Did you sleep with John?

No. I did not sleep with him. Then there's nothing to worry about.

My side of the bed was soaking this morning. Well, so was mine, because it's

summer. In the summer, it is hot, and we don't have air conditioning.

What?

Stop talking to me like I'm a child.

I'm sorry you're upset.

I love you.

You don't.

Well, it's okay.

What is Mount Rushmore? Right.

Good night, everybody.

Good night.

Sleep tight.

Bye, Willie.

Night. Okay.

Okay. Ten letter words. Six hundred.

One.

Hi. Where are you?

At the hospital.

What happened?

Well, I have a two centimeter lesion on the left lobe of my brain.

I'm okay.

They're not going to do the biopsy? No, they're not.

Unless I don't respond to the medicine for the toxo. I'm really okay.

And it's good to know why I've been throwing up all this time.

I don't think I can get away until we finish shooting the stupid commercial. I

know. I'm really fine. There isn't anything we can't handle.

And about six of these every couple hours.

Dick?

Hello, handsome man. Hi, David.

What did you bring?

Himself?

I'm being inundated with alfalfa tabs.

Oh, wow.

And I've written on the label what he said so you can remember. Great. How

and how often? Good.

Oh, this is lecithin, which is also supposed to be good to be used.

Can I use the bathroom?

Sure, it's right there. Twice a day, it says.

And, oh, the Hebrew.

That's bicycle, I think.

It's in sorbitopalmitate, which does something to activate the vitamin C. I

don't remember what.

Only one of those, though, because it's a chemical.

And again, you know, when you get out, I really think you should see this guy

yourself. Uh -huh.

And have him check all these levels on you personally.

I mean, I told him about you, and he tested me sort of like a proxy.

What do you mean?

Well, he does this thing where he holds a substance up to me.

And he asks my body if your body needs this. And how much?

It's much more scientific than it sounds.

Uh -huh. No, it really is.

And she's like... I mean, she had cancer herself.

Oh, she did? Yeah. She talks about it all through the book and on the tapes.

I mean, I don't know. You can take it or leave it, but I think the whole idea

that disease is a kind of disease against oneself is amazing.

I mean, when do you get sick?

When you're tired or upset about something.

And everybody believes you can make yourself sick.

Right. But can you make yourself well?

Of course you can.

There you go.

There you go.

That a boy?

Yeah, no, it's really important to reaffirm.

It really is.

Yeah.

She has all these exercises where you look at yourself in the mirror and you

say, I love my ears, I love my nose, I love myself.

Because if we think we're bad for being gay or not being a good son, then we

criticize ourselves.

And our whole big threat is that we don't criticize ourselves.

It makes a huge difference in the way we feel.

I can't wait.

It really... I bet it does, though, you know?

I mean, if I tell myself something's going to happen, that I'm going to drop

something or fail at something... You do.

Right. And if I tell myself I'm going to succeed... You do.

You guys going out to the house at all this fall? Probably a couple more times.

Because we're thinking of moving Sean's computer out there so he can work. Oh,

great. You know, until it gets too cold.

Oh, what a great place to work.

Especially in the fall. That's my favorite time.

Yay.

And we told the network he has an ulcer.

We're giving him a month's leave.

Oh, terrific.

Well, I should probably get back to work.

Back to the body jail.

Great. You look great. Thank you, darling.

Are you going to stay?

A little bit.

Sure. Stay. Okay.

So, uh, good luck with all your tests.

Well, I love my toes.

And I love my nose.

Right.

Say hi to Fuzzy for us I will Bye Bye

It's okay to cry.

We now allow this love to flow to the surface.

It fills our heart, our body, our mind, our

conscience, our very being, and it radiates out from us

in all directions and returns to us multiply.

The more love we use and give,

the more we have to give.

The supply is endless.

The use of love... I can't do both things at once.

It is an expression of our inner joy.

We love ourselves.

Honey, do you think in the outline here they mean that Elaine is still jealous

about Mark and Tommy?

You know?

Okay.

Maybe.

Yeah, I do.

Hello. Hi.

Hi.

What did the doctor say?

Well, you have to take these one at a time, all right?

Sorry. That's okay.

Well, he thought... Are you nauseous?

Does your tummy feel upset?

It does?

All right, just try taking one to start, okay?

Yeah, we're gonna try stopping the sulfa drugs for a week to see if that'll

raise his white blood count, which is a risk because he might have another

seizure. Uh -huh. But he can't take this new drug for the CMV unless his blood

count is above 70.

doesn't take it, he'll probably go blind.

But if he has another seizure... It may permanently damage his nervous system,

so take your pick.

Gosh. No.

It's worth it. It's inside the eye.

So keep your finger crossed.

Listen, can I call you later this afternoon?

Sure. That may be the studio.

Okay. Bye -bye.

Hello?

Sean, please.

Just a second.

It's Martin.

All right? Just wait for me.

Just say I have to think about it if you don't know. All right? I have to think

about it.

Sean?

Yes? It's Marty.

How are you doing?

Oh, I'm fine.

But listen, about these last two scripts you sent in, there's a kind of a funny

thing going on in them.

I mean, they're getting a little surreal, you know what I mean?

You still there?

Uh -huh.

Like this stuff with Elaine waffling now on the adoption.

I know the outline mentions it, but it just seems, well, it's a little...

Severe, the way you've got it.

You think you can soften it?

I have to think about it. No.

No. What do you mean you have to think about it? Say yes, you'll soften it.

Yes, I have to think about it. No. No, I have to. I don't understand why you

have to think about it.

You'll soften it.

Sean?

I'll soften it.

Well, I mean, do you disagree?

Uh -huh. No.

You do? No.

Are you sure?

Yes.

Okay.

I mean, you can.

You know, if you have another thought.

All right?

I have to think about it.

What do you mean?

I mean, I don't think I can get insurance for him on the picture.

Because?

What do you mean he's sick, Walter?

I mean he has AIDS.

You know what I mean?

How do you know he has AIDS?

I've never heard that, and he's my client.

He was fired from the soap.

Now, you see, this is how rumors get started.

He was not fired from the soap because I got him out of his contract.

All right. And I should know.

Where the hell did you hear that? Somebody else's agent, right?

No, I don't.

No.

Suppose he did.

Suppose he had AIDS.

Is he supposed to stop acting? No, I don't... Look.

I know I can't get a bond on this picture if one of the actors has AIDS.

I didn't make the rules.

Fuck you, you know?

I'm sure they'll let you go home as soon as you can.

No one wants to see you stay here any longer than necessary.

Believe me.

Let this happen to me again.

What? Let this happen to me again.

Hello, Paul.

Hi. How are you doing?

You feeling okay?

This is Dr. Frommer, another of the neurologists.

Just nod if you hear me, Paul.

I hear you fine.

Okay, good.

We're going to ask you a few questions.

Check a few things.

See how you're doing after your seizure yesterday.

Do you want to sit up?

Can you tell me how many fingers I'm holding up in the air?

Two. Two.

Two fingers and thumb.

Right.

What's six plus seven?

Six plus... Thirteen.

All right.

Who's the President of the United States?

Ronald Reagan.

Who's the Vice President?

Nancy Reagan.

Tell me if you can feel this fault.

Hi.

No, you can't talk to producers like that and stay in this business.

I hate what I do.

Maybe you should think about volunteering some of your time

to gay men's health crisis. Oh, God, no. If I never hear the word AIDS again, as

long as I live, it'll be too soon.

So what's going on with you and Shane?

He's nice.

He's working out.

I'm in love.

You know.

What's going on with you and Will?

That's wonderful.

Nothing.

Nothing at all.

That's what it feels like.

You're being careful, aren't you? Yes, yes, mother.

Now they found the virus was in saliva, so I suppose we can't even fish anymore.

I think it's the worst thing that'll happen in our lives. If you didn't come

he'll take over and we'll all be made slaves.

So don't get sick, okay?

They've changed their mind about the part for some reason.

They're going to use somebody else.

They've decided to go another way, they said.

I don't know why they didn't call your agent instead of me.

I guess just because they had me on the phone. I don't know.

I'm sorry.

What about the apartment?

I still have a call into the ACLU. You're not going to get thrown out on

street. I promise.

I know.

All right?

And I'm sorry about the movie.

I'll do it if nobody else will. Ron, for God's sake. Wait. I can't.

Honey, let's put this in there for a reason. Come on. Nurse. Can we have

somebody in here? What's wrong?

I've got to get off the guy in the mix. You're making him mad.

Wait.

Wait. Hello?

We could use some assistance here.

Somebody's got to take the bull by the horn. I'm going home.

There's blood all over here.

Now do you understand?

Leave him alone.

I'm sorry.

So let me die.

We get to have sex again.

I'm just a baby, I'm a baby, I'm a baby

How'd you sleep?

Were you warm enough?

No?

Want another blanket tonight?

It's not.

What isn't it?

Oh! I'm sorry. Was I too rough?

It's not.

Wait, what if not?

Nick.

I'm listening.

Hey, Joe.

Tell me what you want me to make.

Let's go.

Okay, let's go.

Okay.

Here we go.

Let's go.

Let's go.

Let's go.

Let's go.

Okay, and some more of the big trash bags with the yellow ties.

And whatever you want for lunch.

Okay.

And you can take your time. I've got stuff I want to do.

Okay. So I'll be fine by myself for a while.

I'd prefer it, actually.

It's okay.

You can go.

Let go of my baby.

It's all right.

Don't be afraid. I'm here. You let go

of everything.

You don't hold on.

Oh, Mom.

It's all okay now.

Let go.

Just relax.

Let everything go.

Just let go.

Let go.

I know you're tired. Just let go.

I've got you now. Nothing bad's going to happen.

Just let go of everything.

All the worry.

Let go.

All the pain.

Just let it all go.

Just let go.

There you go.

Hello. Hi.

Hi.

What's wrong?

Listen, honey, Sean's just died.

God.

I just stopped by and David's fine.

Uh -huh.

I just stopped in to see if they needed anything and...

I guess it was less than an hour ago.

The cops are here now, you know, to fill out the death certificate.

Uh -huh.

I tried to pause, but it didn't last a bit.

I'll call them.

I thought you'd want to come over.

Yeah.

Okay. Okay.

I love you.

I love you, too.

Poor puppy.

Where are you?

You can touch him if you like.

I mean, you don't have to.

Are you still warm?

Does anybody know where Maria is?

Gay men's health crisis. This is Bill. How may I assist you?

Hi, Bill.

I'm calling for a friend whose lover just died.

I thought you might know if there were any particular funeral homes.

Does that have a history of dealing with people's names?

Yeah, there are.

They want you to pick something out for him to be cremated in.

That's all.

I don't care what they burn up. It's ridiculous.

Do you want me to pick something out?

Would you?

I'll help you.

They say what time they'd be here?

A little while.

He's gone a long time, you know.

No, no, he wasn't. Not really.

You want something to drink?

No.

I do.

Fuck you. No.

It's okay. Relax. I'm fine.

All these gorgeous sweaters.

What could they say?

We said we knew him, and we know that's the way he wanted to be remembered.

Oh, it needs a hat.

A big, beely hat.

I keep wondering if he's paying attention.

That was in, like, 1969, I think.

This first part. Oh, wow.

And he was also on the council of the dramatist guild from 1973 to...

something like 76, 77?

Thank you, sir.

They won't. Well, I'm sure his agent can send him a picture.

Okay.

And you wanted to say that Sean had survived by his longtime companion,

Ellers? Sure.

Why don't they say you love them?

He didn't use to say anything.

He didn't use to say anything.

All right.

I'm going to go call.

Some people don't like lover, do they?

I can't tell you how much I'm going to miss having Henry to clean up after the

two of us.

It's just so fucking not strange.

What do you mean?

It's just not strange.

After Sean had died and before David got sick himself, I remember David saying

he wanted his own memorial whenever to be real simple or Sean would never

forgive him for outdoing his.

And that, I think, more than anything, epitomizes who David was.

Someone unlike anyone else.

I'm Willie Wolf.

Everybody said how funny David was.

But he also did amazing things for other

people when they needed him to.

He never made a big deal about being filthy rich.

The most remarkable thing I ever saw anybody do was the way he

took care of Sean and gave

him what he wanted, which was, you know, to die at home, which wasn't easy for

David.

And the doctors advised him against it for his sake.

David.

taught me that life is only what you put into it.

What you give away, I mean of yourself, not your money,

because he wasn't that generous when it came to picking up the tab.

I met David almost nine years ago. He was one of the first people I met when I

moved to the city.

And he immediately put the moves on me, you know.

And...

The thing I remember most was the way when I met Fuzzy, Alan.

He just took him into the family.

And that was that. There was no discussion.

Fuzzy became an immediate friend.

And I thought that was really classy.

He was really classy.

You had some.

Okay.

David went home.

Do you want to tell this story?

David went home to Bryn Mawr for his sister's wedding.

She was there today.

I know. They look alike.

And everybody was out at the rehearsal dinner. And David was alone in the

So he went upstairs to see his old bed.

And hanging on the back of the door is the wedding dress.

And, you know, apparently he took a look at it and he thought, oh, what the

hell? What the hell? Nobody's going to see.

This is David at his sister's wedding.

And he put it on.

The wedding dress.

I never heard this.

And he's standing out in the hall admiring himself in it, you know, in the

mirror. And he backs up to get a better look.

Kicks the train, which somehow caught his foot. He fell down the entire flight

of stairs. Back.

Knocked out cold.

When the family comes home from the rehearsal, he's still out. Three broken

ribs. They have to cut him out of the dress with scissors.

The ambulance drivers are there, the paramedics. The dress, of course, is

ruined. The sister is living.

Legal. Hi.

What's up?

Did somebody talk to you about this?

What?

His name is... I just had it.

Franklin Washington.

He's an IV drug user.

No.

He's still in Cabrini with PCP.

Can't get a bed for him at Bailey House. He's going to be out on the street.

I guess he had a lease.

Uh, his girlfriend did.

She doesn't have a buddy, so...

It's Willie.

How are you?

Okay.

Got your laundry.

Thanks.

Oh, and Fuzzy said he spoke to Medicaid for you, and they'll get you a

replacement card.

But you can call yourself anytime, okay?

Okay.

You have the number?

Getting any exercise?

Still feeling wobbly?

Good.

Look better.

Well, so, I'm just on lunch.

Could you straighten up a little in the kitchen?

Sure.

Want to help me?

Your leg's bothering you now?

You should get up.

Forget it, Willie.

I'm real confused, Alberto. Your doctor tells me you're well enough to start

doing things, but you won't lift a finger.

There are people who can't... I don't think I'll be needing you anymore,

Thank you.

You can just leave the keys.

You're fired, you got it?

I'm a volunteer.

I don't get paid. You don't fire me.

You walk pretty well for somebody who won't get out of bed. Come on, I want my

keys.

I think you're really, really pissed off, and I don't blame you.

But if you allow yourself to just waste away, I... I feel...

I'm sorry.

No, I'm not one of your friends.

Or your family.

Thank you.

My name is Howard Palin.

I, well, I used to be one of those other people, for those of you

who admit to watching daytime TV.

I'm an actor, and I have AIDS.

A lot of the performers you'll see tonight have AIDS. A lot don't.

But we're all committed to one thing.

To fighting this disease, obviously, but to the idea that people with AIDS are

not victims.

And I'm delighted to be your host for the evening.

Welcome to Living With AIDS.

And please welcome the Finger Lakes Trio, who hail from upstate New York.

would like to tell you about a place where anyone can go if they're a new boy

town. Perhaps you'll recognize the tune.

Thank you.

There's no need to feel down.

I said, young man, pick yourself off the ground.

Young man, cause you're in a new town.

There's no need to be unhappy.

It's fun to stay at the YMCA.

Stay at the YMCA.

You can get yourself clean.

You can have a good meal.

You can do whatever you feel.

Posey's afraid his parents will see him on the news.

I am not.

Besides, they wouldn't recognize me without my beard anyway.

I would love to get arrested.

We're going to sit down in front of the health department, and I guess we can

see if the mayor shows up.

I think we ought to throw rotten eggs at him.

Wouldn't that be sort of redundant?

The women were strip -searched the last time.

When they blocked the Brooklyn Bridge.

I heard.

Michael and Bob complained they weren't strip -searched wherever they got taken.

It was a different precinct, I guess.

I'd like to see him try.

With me? Let him.

I'm ready.

You gonna go Monday?

Yep. Dollar?

Are you?

Uh -huh.

Oh, great. It'll be fun.

Seems inconceivable, doesn't it?

Going?

There was ever a time before all this.

We didn't wake up every day wondering, who's sick now? Who else is gone?

Do you ever wonder if they ever do find a cure?

People would go back to sleeping around.

Oh, who cares, you know?

It's just a question, I know.

I know, but... I'm sorry, I just think that other people do.

Or don't sleep around or what they do. It's just not the point. I'm sick of

hearing people pontificate about it. Except us.

Except us, exactly.

I just want to be there.

If they ever do find a cure.

Can you imagine what it would be like?

Like the end of World War II.

but still it seemed like you were hovering over

still out there keeping an eye on me

And we'll tell our story.

Son of a bitch. You asshole.

I just

want to be there.

I took a walk, I didn't know which way I was going But somehow

or other I ended up here When we said we'd meet again

I guess I was hoping But the place had been closed down a while

It was all dark in there

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