Original subtitles

You feel pain because you're alive.

Without life, there's no pain.

A fighter without sight and limbs...

is better off dead...

than staying alive relying on machines.

Was there no way you could save him?

Except stopping his pains?

Is that why you did that?

Did you stop his pains?

Can any of you be sure that he's a terminal patient...

who can't recover?

No doctor in this world can...

or should be allowed to say...

he did his duty after killing a patient.

Even if it was because of a disease, malpractice,

or euthanasia.

Dr. Cha!

Cha Yo Han! Dr. Cha!

Despite his will to live,

Dr. Cha euthanized him.

That was murder.

Dr. Cha.

What kind of doctor are you?

I came back, thanks to you.

I trusted you too.

- But? - But...

Yoon Seong Kyu... If he really wanted to live,

- why did you... - Do you want to know?

Yes.

Too bad.

Right now,

I'm Joo Hyung Woo's doctor, not Yoon Seong Kyu's.

My patient's lying in bed without a diagnosis.

If you're confused about what I am,

stop caring about me.

If I were you,

I'd focus on Joo Hyung Woo, not me.

Dr. Cha, there's a problem.

Joo Hyung Woo wants to be taken off the ventilator.

He wants to be taken off the ventilator?

Does he want to be killed?

He hasn't regained consciousness yet.

Who requested that?

His attorney did.

He even has a recording of the patient's request.

The patient had asked to be discharged if he ended up...

relying on a ventilator.

What if we take him off the ventilator and he dies?

Mr. Han, will we be responsible for that?

Yes. We're not sure if the patient has no chance of recovering.

If he is discharged and dies,

and his family sues the hospital,

the hospital can be indicted for aiding a murder.

By the way, since when is Mr. Joo our department's responsibility?

What do you think?

It's since Dr. Cha started nosing around.

Everywhere from Ophthalmology to Orthopedics...

Neither Ophthalmology nor Orthopedics...

has made any diagnosis yet.

The biggest problem is not which department is responsible,

but the fact that there's still no diagnosis.

You don't know what his disease is yet?

No. We also don't know if he can recover.

There's nothing we can say for sure right now.

Please do everything you can.

I don't care how much it costs or how long it takes.

I can't let my son go like this.

Father, do you only care...

about what you want?

Do you mean your opinion matters more than mine?

You want to give up on my son!

Not my opinion.

Not yours.

What about his opinion?

Shouldn't his opinion matter more...

than what his family wants?

As far as I know, Hyung Woo would want to live.

Hyung Woo is a champion.

He'd never want to spend the rest of his life bedridden.

You're the one who will give up.

You're pretending this is Hyung Woo's opinion...

because you don't want to deal with the situation.

He even signed a DNR...

to make it clear that it's his opinion.

That was the whole point.

I never gave my consent.

Doctors.

I beg you.

Please save my son.

No matter what it takes,

please save my son. I beg you.

That's what we're going to do.

He can't be discharged like this.

Thank you, Director.

I trust you all.

(Seoul Hanse Medical Center)

It's illegal to suspend life-prolonging treatment right now.

Let me get his family's consent for treatment.

But I want you to keep Dr. Cha off this case.

He already performed a procedure against the patient's will.

I'm considering taking legal action too.

Yesterday's procedure is no problem according to the law.

If the doctors had complied with the patient's request,

they would have ended up aiding a murder.

Mr. Han has a point.

But we will keep Dr. Cha off the case.

Don't worry.

(Dr. Cha Yo Han)

Mr. Joo will be tested.

You're off the case.

It's Chief Min's order, so stay out of it.

(Doctor John)

(Episode 4: About Fears)

Is Dad going to die?

Take your sister over there, okay?

Okay.

Will Joo Hyung Woo be okay?

- We'll see. - I'm a huge fan of his.

Let's go that way. Hurry up.

Whenever I see them,

I get an upset stomach.

How can Si Young live under the same roof with her?

"Under the same roof"? Si Young?

You didn't know?

Chief Min is Si Young and Mi Rae's mom.

Mom? What do you mean?

Mom?

Chief Min is their mom, and the director is their uncle.

Incredible, right?

I feel sorry for you.

You're a fellow, but you can't...

boss your resident around.

I don't care.

I'm from an unknown university.

The rules of aristocrats at a major hospital like this...

don't concern me.

Are you sure? You're not going to boss me around either, are you?

I love you.

- Any new patients? - No.

(Myasthenia gravis)

"Myasthenia gravis"?

(An autoimmune disease which causes the muscles to weaken)

You're a good painter. Your last drawing was nice too.

You're a total Picasso.

It's nothing.

Right. Mr. Joo is being tested.

What test?

- How? - His family gave their consent.

Hello.

Come here.

Hello.

The test results are out.

What does it say?

According to the CT scan, he seems to have pneumonia.

His pneumonia worsened...

and caused a respiratory disturbance.

Is it curable?

The diagnosis is not complete.

We only found out the cause of respiratory failure.

We'll put him on antibiotics...

and take him off the ventilator as soon as his condition improves.

- Hyung Woo. - Dad!

- Honey. - Dad!

Mr. Joo, do you know where you are?

Don't worry, Hyung Woo.

You'll be taken off the ventilator.

You have pneumonia,

but you can breathe. So hang in there.

Dad.

The CT scan of Mr. Joo shows signs of pneumonia.

- Are you coming from the ICU? - Yes.

You said you wouldn't do anything.

He was tested by his family's consent.

It wasn't because of your order...

There are signs of pneumonia, but no thymoma or thymic hyperplasia?

Pneumonia doesn't explain his other symptoms.

Pneumonia? Has he been put on antibiotics?

Yes.

What kind of? No way.

(Levofloxacin)

"Levofloxacin"?

- Here you go. - Thank you.

What is it?

If the patient really has myasthenia gravis,

levofloxacin can worsen his condition.

That's why you want to test him for myasthenia gravis...

with that drug, Tensilon.

You studied hard. That's accurate.

If he turns out to have myasthenia gravis,

that means you're an amazing doctor.

Without any proper tests,

you were able to make that diagnosis based on his symptoms.

However, it also means...

we don't know anything for sure.

There's no definite diagnosis.

We don't need one.

We did an antibody test on him.

It came out negative.

That doesn't give you a definite diagnosis.

25 percent of the patients can test negative.

Still, what if you're wrong?

That drug can put the patient in danger.

Are you suggesting...

that I'm only testing the patient...

to see whether my judgment is right?

To be honest,

I'm not sure.

Is your treatment for the patient's sake...

or your own sake?

Did you save Mr. Joo yesterday...

because you couldn't let your patient die...

or because your treatment was not over yet?

Why did you save him?

For the patient's sake or your own sake?

Why are you asking that?

Is it for the patient or yourself?

If it's for the patient, we don't have time for this.

Dr. Kim, give him 500mg of levofloxacin...

twice a day through an IV. Slowly, for an hour.

How much levofloxacin has Mr. Joo been given?

Who are you?

Myasthenia gravis is suspected.

If it turns out to be right, levofloxacin can worsen him...

causing respiratory paralysis or even general paralysis...

Hold on. Aren't you an anesthesiologist?

Yes, I am.

The patient has improved since he was given antibiotics.

He's been taken off the ventilator and is stabilizing now.

If you're so worried, officially consult the Neurology Department...

and have him tested.

If he's already been given antibiotics, there's no time.

- He has to be tested... - What's going on?

This doctor is questioning my treatment.

I was telling him to officially request tests.

There's no time for discussion.

If my diagnosis turns out to be right,

- he should be taken off... - Dr. Cha.

Didn't you hear that you were off the case?

Follow me.

Hyung Woo!

- Dad! - Dad!

- Honey! - Hyung Woo!

What happened?

He can't move his hand.

Mr. Joo, try to move your right leg.

Is his leg paralyzed too?

His pneumonia improved, and he started breathing on his own.

How could his condition deteriorate so fast?

We should test him for brain lesions.

We don't have time for that.

If we wait any longer, he might go back into respiratory paralysis.

If my diagnosis is right, he should be taken off antibiotics.

His blood pressure is unstable, and his pulse is slow.

What if Tensilon puts him into cardiac arrest?

Mr. Joo, I need to test if I'm right.

Do you consent?

I told you I've seen...

many doctors like you.

That look on your face...

as if you found out something.

Are you...

any different?

We can find that out...

with this.

Will that help you diagnose?

Yes. I beg you.

Let's do this.

Honey!

- Hyung Woo! - Dad!

Step back.

He might go into cardiac arrest. Have atropine ready.

Intubation too.

- Get atropine. - Yes.

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His heart rate is going down.

Give me atropine.

Dad!

The oxygen saturation is normal. The heart rate too.

Hyung Woo.

Doctor, what happened?

This shot was only for diagnosis.

It temporarily reduces myasthenia gravis symptoms.

But he still needs treatment.

Okay. We understand.

Thank you so much, Doctor.

When it comes to myasthenia gravis, in addition to diagnosis,

continuous and professional...

neurological care is very important.

Make sure to be treated.

Dr. Cha.

Thank you.

For ignoring what I said yesterday...

and saving me.

It's not that I ignored what you said.

On the contrary, I got a hint from it.

A fighter without his sight and limbs.

What would have made the fighter...

feel like he had lost his sight and limbs?

I considered every disease...

that could give you those symptoms.

That's how I found the answer.

Myasthenia gravis.

You found my disease...

using my words?

You said you were in so much pain that you would rather die.

What can I do? You said that life would be pain.

I had to find it.

I'm not going to do it. I can't.

I'm sorry.

But you did it on that patient. Why?

Why not me?

Does pain matter only in the face of death?

What if I'm in so much pain that I would rather die?

What if I'm in so much pain that I would rather die?

What if I'm in so much pain that I would rather die?

Wouldn't you consider that a bigger pain?

I understand how you must feel as a professional fighter.

But what about your family?

Why do they need to suffer?

Do you only care about your own life?

Is fighting the only important thing in your life?

How would your family feel if you just choose to die?

Advancing your death to make you feel at ease...

and advancing your death to take your life away is different.

I'm not...

a doctor who kills people.

I heard...

Joo Hyung Woo just got better.

Yes, apparently.

There was a problem with his nervous system.

I heard Joo Hyung Woo got a definite diagnosis.

- Yes. - See? What did I tell you?

He's a fearless doctor who makes no mistakes.

Did you come to a conclusion?

- Yes. - Let's hear it.

He's a doctor who does everything he can...

to get rid of pain.

And that's why he saves people...

but sometimes also ends their lives in order to do so?

Yes.

By the way, you're acting completely different from before.

From when?

When you were at the provincial hospital.

You want to know why I'm suddenly acting like Dr. Cha's spokesperson?

You see,

I need to earn money.

And what do you do when you need to earn money?

I need to learn everything I can while I work here...

and open up my own hospital one day.

- Right. - And I met him...

right when I needed to get ready.

He's extremely unsociable and nuts.

But he's also...

a doctor who can teach me stuff that I can't learn from anyone else.

Si Young, you should do it.

Ask the professor if we can go home.

Right now.

Did the professor come back?

Yes, not too long ago.

Kang Si Young. Kang Si Young.

Kang Si Young.

- Kang Si Young. - Come on. You can do it.

- Kang Si Young. - Show us what you can do.

- Kang Si Young. - Show us what a second-year can do.

You can do it, Si Young. You can do it.

Dr. Cha.

Dr. Cha.

(Myasthenia gravis)

(Cha Yo Han)

What are you doing?

The doctors...

wanted me to ask if it's okay to go home.

Is it time to go home already?

Why are you guys waiting?

Go home.

It's okay, sir. I still need to organize the charts.

Goodbye, everyone. I'll see you.

Do you feel better?

I should start getting treatment now.

Where's Dr. Cha?

He just went home.

I guess I should thank him tomorrow.

You need to get better first.

I hope you get better soon.

Dr. Kang.

I'll bring the kids.

Thank you.

Thank you for coming after me and bugging me that day.

Don't mention it. I just did my job.

If you didn't come after me that day,

I would've left the hospital.

And I probably would've fainted somewhere...

and ended up coming back with a ventilator.

- Dad! - Dad!

Let's go see your dad.

My daughter just turned five.

And she recently saw me faint after I took my pills.

Dad.

Dad.

Dad, wake up.

- Mom! - Yes?

Honey. Honey.

My wife saved me that day.

But I swore at her and resented her.

And I made her write a memorandum.

A memorandum?

I made her promise...

to do what I had asked if I ended up fainting again.

I was so stupid and selfish.

Dr. Kang, I thought doctors only saved patients.

But I was wrong.

You and the other doctors saved my family.

Thank you.

- Dad! - Dad!

My babies.

- Have you been well? - Yes.

- Let's say goodbye to the doctor. - Okay.

- Goodbye. - Goodbye.

Thank you.

- Let's go. - Let's go, Dad.

Hurry up, Dad.

Okay, what should we eat?

Pork cutlets!

Let's eat pork cutlets.

Dad.

Dad.

Dad.

(Building C Elevator)

Hello.

All right. Congratulations on your return!

So? Have you saved many patients?

I got scolded by Mom.

You were scolded? Why?

I deserved it. You know me.

Your mom is so cold-hearted.

That's how a doctor should be.

A wishy-washy doctor like me only gets in trouble.

You're not wishy-washy. You're just kind-hearted.

By the way, did you know?

What do you mean?

Inmate 6238. He came to our hospital.

- Really? - You didn't know?

Of course not.

Warden, don't you think you're too indifferent?

Shouldn't you make sure your inmates...

successfully get back into society after their release?

That's unnecessary.

Buying them some food and drinks will be enough.

Oh, there he comes.

You said you didn't know. When did you invite him here?

I didn't know.

I just called him to take him to dinner,

and he said he was working at this hospital.

You told me not to even look at him or talk to him.

Things have changed.

- Whatever, I'm leaving. - Si Young!

Hey!

Hi, Dr. Cha.

This way, please.

Hi, Dr. Cha.

Welcome. Have a seat.

Why are you talking to me so politely? Are you drunk?

No way. But I will be soon.

Well, Si Young, sit down.

Si Young, be polite to Dr. Cha.

Don't be rude like before.

"Rude"? What did I do?

You said, "That jerk. Who does he think he is?"

Uncle!

What's with you?

Do you have a new medical officer?

Of course.

It's much better with a new one.

Let me work there sometime.

No, you can't. Stay away from that place!

If you hate to see me so much, why did you call me?

I thought it was so interesting.

You met as teacher and student again.

Who would have known?

You two met through me.

I'm so happy you two keep seeing each other.

That means I should be nice to her, right?

You're so smart.

Si Young, be polite to Dr. Cha, okay?

You already said that. Are you drunk?

I already said this.

I'm not drunk, but I will be soon.

Here.

Si Young.

All right.

Congratulations on the return of you two!

Cheers!

Pickled cucumbers.

Radish kimchi.

Green onion kimchi.

And this is rice.

Why would you give me rice?

I don't even have time to cook at home.

If you don't have time to cook at home,

cook at the hospital.

Eating well is important.

How can I cook at the hospital?

Anyway, take it while I'm being nice.

- Do you want more rice? - I'm full.

Son.

How are things at the hospital? Is it going well?

I'm so happy you're closer to me now.

I'm still learning.

How are your feet?

They're better now.

- Your back? - It's better.

- Your blood sugar level? - It's...

normal.

- Are you sure? - Of course.

I can't lie to a doctor.

Please don't overwork yourself.

You shouldn't get any worse than this.

I know. Stop nagging.

Why did you even make all this?

I'm not taking this. Never!

Oh, my.

Eating well is important. Did you eat?

Go ahead.

You shouldn't give that...

Dr. Lee?

Do you live in the employee apartment?

Yes.

You're thriftier than I thought.

Can't I live here just because I'm the chief's daughter?

I'm not picking a fight.

I am.

You shouldn't give food to a cat like this.

The edges are too sharp.

They might hurt the cat's tongue.

It's eating well.

I heard Dr. Kang is your sister.

Yes.

I saw you two say hi yesterday in the conference room.

How do you know her?

When Dr. Kang was a medical officer at the prison,

I worked at the hospital nearby.

She brought a patient over.

It's fascinating...

how three people from the prison got reunited.

Three people?

Dr. Cha. He was there too.

That's the prison Dr. Kang was at?

And she met Dr. Cha there?

Yes. You didn't know?

Are you two sisters not close?

Did Heo Jun tell you about my family?

- Yes. - Then find that out too.

Why we aren't close.

They're alike.

- Yes. - Watch your step.

We're just leaving. We won't be long.

She and I...

are not related by blood, but she's my niece.

She's my best friend's daughter.

Dr. Cha.

Take good care of my Si Young for me.

What?

Why are you giving me that look?

You should know better than to say that.

I can barely fend for myself.

Let's go.

I know that, but why do you think I'd say that?

She's not able to tell you everything, but Si Young...

There's your taxi.

- Come on, Dr. Cha. - Uncle.

Teach Si Young well, okay?

She is just doing fine.

Really? She is doing fine?

Your niece is doing great.

Uncle, get in.

- You're doing great. - What?

Dr. Cha said you're doing great.

- Si Young, he praised you. - Careful.

Si Young.

Go home.

What?

What did you do well?

You don't do as I say.

It was hard for you to do as I said but not any more.

You do things before I tell you to,

and sometimes you question about my order.

If that's all, then bye. See you tomorrow.

My patient.

He isn't dead yet.

He's been in our hospital...

for over a year.

In a vegetative state.

The patient whose heart I stopped.

My patient.

Today, I went to his room for the first time.

Do you have no regrets?

Ever since that day, that moment.

For over three years.

Did you never regret what you did?

To reduce your patient's suffering,

if the only way out...

is death,

could you kill a patient?

I was...

the doctor in charge of managing the patient's pain.

Pain management meant...

to give enough painkillers to knock him out...

so he wouldn't feel pain,

then to reduce the dose so he wouldn't die...

and feel pain again.

We fed nutrients into his body even if he was rotting alive.

I had no choice but to wait for his heart to stop.

Not providing nutrients is murder.

Giving a lethal dose of painkillers is murder.

I feared to become a murderer,

so for over two months, I kept the patient barely alive...

and in pain.

In the name of pain management.

While hating myself for using the fact...

that he'd killed two kids as an excuse.

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Doctor...

Doctor.

Please...

I want to...

Please...

Over those two months, he never asked me to save him.

He never asked me to kill him.

Then why...

You asked, "If it means the doctor can rid the patient of suffering,"

"can I kill the patient?"

- Yes. - You asked the wrong question.

You don't kill to end suffering.

You don't kill to avoid suffering.

Then what?

You solve the suffering.

Even if it results in death.

That's all it is.

My patient...

asked me to end the pain.

Even if it meant he died.

The law says it's a crime for a doctor to kill a patient at will.

But for a doctor to neglect a patient's suffering.

To ignore a plea to end the pain.

That could be a crime.

What I did to Yoon Seong Kyu for two months...

wasn't treatment. It was torture.

Do I regret it?

No.

I was just...

afraid.

Were you afraid?

Yes. A lot.

I was...

afraid as well.

I'm so afraid.

Unlike you,

I'm not sure about what I did,

and I can't say for sure that I have no regrets.

I don't dare say that.

Back then and even now,

I'm so afraid...

of the fact that a patient's life is in my hands.

That's natural.

Rather than a doctor who doesn't fear himself,

a patient needs a doctor who does.

You're doing well, Si Young.

I need to walk.

See you tomorrow.

(Seoul Hanse Medical Center)

The sky's very clear.

Or have my eyes cleared up?

I heard you're much better. I'm glad.

You're right.

You don't take away a patient's life,

or extend it either.

You let your patient live his full life.

Thank you.

I'd always wanted to do that.

An uppercut comes upward from down below.

With your weight behind it.

I wasn't always an oldie.

There was a time...

when I wanted to heal people, not their illnesses.

But I'm still not sure if that's the best.

We're scientists who find answers from illnesses,

but humans are an organism with no answers.

Hello?

Hello?

What's wrong?

(Pain Management Center)

Hello.

- Hello. - Hello.

Isn't there no hope if it's a Code Blue in his state?

Hello, Dr. Cha.

Where are Si Young and Mi Rae?

What is it?

(VIP Isolation Ward)

It's ventricular fibrillation.

Dad! Dad.

No...

Dad...

Defibrillator. Defibrillator.

Charge to 200 joules.

- Charged. - Get out of the way.

Shock.

Epinephrine.

Epinephrine!

One ampoule in.

Dad...

Mi Rae, where's Si Young?

Si Young, please pick up.

Her father?

Yes.

It was a huge accident.

Si Young left the hospital after that.

My patient.

He isn't dead yet.

He's been in our hospital...

for over a year. In a vegetative state.

Yes, doctor.

Si Young?

She's not here. Isn't she up there?

Okay, I'll look for her.

- She's not there? - No. She won't pick up either.

It seems serious.

Where is she?

Keep calling her.

Yes, doctor.

Kang Si Young.

Kang Si Young.

Stand up.

How many times must I say?

There's a certain timing for each patient.

If it's not then,

it may be too late forever.

A doctor...

must be ready to run.

Now is that time.

He's my father, not just a patient.

I'm not a doctor but a daughter.

You're a daughter and a doctor.

Right now, your father needs both.

Come on.

Come on.

1, 2, 3, 4.

1, 2.

3, 4.

1, 2.

It hurts.

It hurts...

so much.

Stop.

Dad is in pain.

(Doctor John)

We will not ignore the patient's pain.

Excessive empathy with your patients.

Do you still not understand how harmful it can be?

Dr. Lee.

Aren't we sending him to the ER?

No, we aren't.

He's our patient.

Death with dignity that involves Dr. Cha's student.

Prosecutor Son will not miss it.

How is he? Is he still the same?

A doctor can't be a deity.

He can only be a deity of death.

What do you want from me?

I want you to do nothing.

Nothing at all.