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So, boys, tell me.

Why do you want to adopt?

Well, we've been talking about it for a
while now, haven't we, Gabe?

And we're really solid.

Been together eight years now, so it
feels like the natural next step,

it?

I'm sensing you're a little bit nervous,
Gabriel.

I'm not nervous.

Good. Just answer honestly and we'll all
get along fine.

Are you married?

No, no. Not that it's a problem?

Gabriel thinks it's heteronormative.

He thinks it's what straight couples do
when they've run out of things to say.

Will you take paternity leave then?

We're going to split it, so I'm going to
take nine months and Gabe is going to

take three.

I thought you were just taking the one.

No.

Three.

And we want a girl, don't we, Ant?

Why's that?

Boy, you did nothing but trouble.

I was told we could be specific.

But you're halving your chances there.

I mean, I'd encourage you to keep your
options open.

We'd really like a girl, though,
wouldn't we, Ant?

And what do you do, Andy?

I'm an accountant.

We're not to be ashamed of. Well, it's
certainly not as exciting as Gabe.

Yes. I hear you're a drag queen.

I'm not a drag queen.

What are you, then?

He's wonderful.

People come from miles the same.

Oh, you should hear him sing at
Neverland.

Done.

Do you mind if I have a quick look
around the house?

I just want to check in on serial
killers or something.

Why did you invite her to Neverland?

She might be into Moff.

I wouldn't like to say.

We've only just met.

Virtual apparenting.

Watch what you say.

You never know who's listening.

But I won't You probably think I hide my
hurt inside

But I don't So many people come and go I
find

it best To let them go As soon as

they're gone The membrane's only there
to make you sad

They say it hurts your insides when you
miss the things you've had.

Well, I don't cry because I've no love
inside of me.

I'm footloose. No memories to tie me
down.

I'm free.

But sometimes I wonder what happens to
those

with whom I shared adventures. Those
pirates.

And lost boys and fairies

And sometimes those

wanderings They give me the strangest of
feelings

Fleeting moments in my mind Of those
once

upon a time long ago

depending on their age.

Top and bottom.

Is that you?

I see what you mean.

You're a work of art.

This one's got better tits than I have.

I'm a social worker, boys. What a prick.

Oh.

Wow.

To where the magic happens.

Then put a lock on it.

Oh, your magic will soon be covered in
snot.

And you'll need a lock here.

And here.

And that'll have to go, won't it?

And what about your health, your
finances, your childhood?

Childhood? Yes.

The way you were parented can have a
significant impact on the parent you're

likely to become.

But I'll do things very differently.

That's what they all say.

Look, children can push buttons you
never even knew you had.

But I had a very happy childhood.

Mum and Dad moved to be close to the
Cardiff just after I was born.

Tell me about your parents.

Dad was a physics teacher.

Mum worked at a nursery.

Welsh language schools?

Yes.

Mum was loving.

The dad was... Well, there was a lot of
chapel.

A chapel.

The dad was a deacon.

His dad was a minister.

My mum helped out with Sunday school
until...

She died when I was little, a brain
hemorrhage.

Oh, Gabriel.

Oh, I'm so sorry to hear that.

It's fine.

It was a long time ago.

Well, it must have been incredibly
traumatic for you as a child.

I don't remember much about it now,

to be honest.

Will you raise your...

Child to speak Welsh as well? No.

It wouldn't be fair on Andy, would it?

Why not?

I'm thinking of having lessons,
actually.

But don't you think it's like therapy,
but without the actual therapy?

I'm not the one who has a problem with
it.

The way she looks at you with those
judge eyes.

I mean, does it need to be so intrusive?

Why does she need to know everything?
Any arsehole can shoot their load and

a baby.

Exactly.

Hence the need for adoption.

And why she has to make sure we're not
going to, you know, further damage an

already traumatised child.

You haven't mentioned... What do you
take me for?

I know what you're like. You overshare.

Plus, she told us not to lie, and you
hate lying, so...

But I'm not lying, am I?

Just being frugal with the truth.

I'm finding it intense.

Honestly, Jackie, it's true.

Apart from wanting to get as far away
from my dad as possible, I swear the

reason she chose Cardiff was because she
was hoping she'd make friends with

Shirley Pasley.

We didn't have a lot, but I didn't want
for love.

So now I want to be able to pass that on
to someone.

Help them thrive, make a difference.

Did your mum ever befriend Shirley?

Yeah, she tried.

Nearly got arrested.

Yeah, yeah, it is quite intense, isn't
it?

Tell me about your hobbies when you were
little.

Children who need to be taught to
respect traditional moral values are

taught that they have an inalienable
right to be gay.

All of those children are being cheated
of a sound start in life.

And dressing up.

Loved dressing up.

Make sure it's all done in the best
possible way.

Gabrielle?

Gabrielle?

Pretty good, I'd say.

It was just him and me, so...

But

me with Dick was my happy place.

How does your dad feel about the
adoption?

Is he excited?

We haven't actually told him yet.

We wanted to tell him first thing.

I'm sure he'll be delighted.

Yeah.

So next session, we'll move on to when
did you have your first thinking that

might be gay?

Well, there's never one moment, Jackie.

What is theory of the moment?

As I close the door to keep my love
within.

Come on.

Gradual dawning.

You and me.

Come with me.

You and me.

Did you struggle with it?

No, not really.

How about your dad?

He struggled with it a bit, I guess.

But no one's out in the Bible, are they?

Being a teenager's horrific, isn't it?

Just a confusing time.

I mean, I don't know if I wanted to kill
the boys who picked on me or fuck them

instead.

No, God, um... Sorry, I forgot what it
was for a moment.

Were you bullied, Gabriel?

God, no.

Nothing like that. I was never bullied.
Just the usual stuff.

I

mean,

am I grateful for it?

Made me who I am today.

Being an outsider gave me an advantage
because all that time I threw into

I loved the attention.

Your dad must have been so proud.

I think so.

He's not much of a talker.

Would you like to teach your child to
play the piano?

I don't play now.

Don't you?

I left music college at the end of the
first year, so... Left?

Yeah. I just found it a bit
constraining, you know?

I lost a few years to temping.

Until Bedwyn opened Neverland and I
decided

to come back to Cardiff.

And that's where I met.

Andy.

Would you... Would you mind if I clicked
you?

I'm sorry.

I shouldn't have said it. No, no.

It's fine.

It's just... No one's ever asked my
permission before.

I often say that that kiss saved my
life.

Not that it needed saving.

Can I ask you personally, Gabriel, why
you want to adopt?

Honestly? Yeah.

Yeah, no, much better to be completely
honest in the long run.

OK.

I want to adopt because...

Because I see all these young people
having fun, like I used to, and I can't

it anymore.

Because I'm utterly bored with the
mundanity of life, the cycle of work and

countless late nights. Because all the
men my age in the park seem to have

children now.

Because I love Andy so much, and I know
it'll make him happy, but more than

that, I want to adopt, because I think
it'll make me a much kinder, tolerant,

patient... person, I'll become less
angry and bitter, and I'll have no

but to grow up and care for someone
other than myself, and so I'll finally

to remove my head and my damaged,
promiscuous, yet still perfectly

arsehole.

You didn't say that.

Of course I didn't. I just said... I
honestly think Andy and I have a lot we

offer as parents.

Okay.

Risk of special needs as a result of
parental...

Harsh? We both work.

So? Shouldn't we at least be open to it?
Every case is different.

We wouldn't have the capacity, and you
know it. Jackie said dealing with a

trauma would be hard enough. All right,
all right.

Down syndrome.

Wouldn't accept.

This is horrible. Can't we at least...
It'd be a bit, St. Andrew.

But what would Mother Teresa do?

Nothing. She's dead.

Regulant people get scanned for
anomalies all the time.

Okay, well, what about AIDS or HIV,
then?

At first, only gays and IV drug users
were being killed by AIDS.

But in three years, nearly 2 ,000 of us
will be dead.

Wouldn't accept.

Are you kidding me? It'll complicate
things.

It's not complicated.

It'll complication, though.

Try saying that to Berwyn. I'm sure
Berwyn would agree.

Well,

it's great to know you're open to
discussing most things.

Though I would like to chat through your
resistance to meeting the birth

parents.

I was open to it. They're hardly going
to be civil if their kids have been

off them. Don't assume anything, Gabe.

Just keep an open mind. See, you'd be
able to give your child a fuller picture

of birth mum or dad.

And most adopters find it a really
positive experience.

And we all deserve a second chance,
don't we?

Why don't I say that you're open to it
for now?

OK. I've got a few questions about your
support network.

And in terms of family, you've only put
Andy's mum down so far.

Won't she do?

Especially because I sometimes think she
prefers Gabe to me.

Gabe's just wonderful, isn't he? He's
brought so much colour to Andy's life.

And so sensible, you know, he had to
grow up fast. But Gabe, he brings all

sparkle.

Did he tell you he studied at a royal
college?

Not just any old college, a royal one.

Not that mint of Charles or anything,
but always nice to know he approves.

But it would help you, Kate, to put your
dad down too.

Otherwise.

They may wonder why you didn't.

I'm phoning with some good news,
actually.

How much insurance is this, Nick?

Andy's here with me.

Hang on, I can put you on loudspeaker.
No, no, no, by me, no.

We're going to adopt.

We're going to be parents.

Dad?

Would you send me the buttons in your
car, Gabrielle?

We just need to educate him.

Hold his hand.

Gabe had loads of nature -nurturing
anxieties at the beginning too.

No, I didn't. You kept talking about the
omen.

Fears are perfectly normal.

We run workshops for relatives which are
really effective at putting people's

minds at rest.

There's some amazing books out there,
too.

Sorry, but it's going to take a lot more
than a book and a workshop.

You just need to talk to him again.

It'll be fine.

No, Andy, it won't be fine because... He
doesn't think that gay men deserve to

be parents.

Has he actually said that?

He doesn't need to.

I honestly don't think it's the gay
thing. It's the adoption thing.

Perhaps, Gabriel, you're projecting your
anxieties onto your father because

that's what you grew up believing.

Nonsense. I don't believe that.

It's Dad, not me.

Of course I deserve to have children.

In fact, I deserve them far more than he
ever did, because mine aren't going to

grow up half as screwed up as I did,
because I will make damn sure they know,

whoever they are and whatever they
become, that they have absolutely

be ashamed of.

Okay.

Gabriel, there's something you're not
telling me.

Is there anything I should know?

What the hell did you go and tell her
all of that for?

Last time was years ago.

We dealt with it.

You sorted it out.

You know what your boundaries are.

Right? You never get drunk.

You never touch white wine or Prosecco.

There's no problem anymore.

Exactly.

So it doesn't matter that I told her,
does it?

Go up, Gabriel.

Of course it matters.

The only reason kids get adopted
nowadays is because their parents are

fucked to look after them.

So why on earth should social services
trust us with one when you used to get

trusted fucked up as well?

Sorry. You're right.

Aren't you?

What's the difference?

But you came through it in the end. Only
because you could afford to pay for my

therapy.

It hardly seems fair, does it?

Do you even want to adopt?

Because if you don't, then...

Of

course I want to adopt.

Of course I do.

fucked everything up again, haven't I?

Not necessarily.

I talked to my manager and we both agree
the fact that you've been honest goes

in your favour.

I mean, I actually think that people
who've conquered their addictions can

excellent adopters because they know
what it is to live through trauma.

Look, I don't want us to get ahead of
ourselves because it will...

Depend on panel, depend on the child
social worker. And not everyone's going

necessarily think the way I do. But it's
not game over?

I wouldn't carry on if I didn't think I
could get you both through this.

I spoke to your therapist this morning
and she said... Most gay men his

generation are still dealing with the
effects of decades of shame.

But Gabriel's developed several
strategies to manage his compulsions.

professional view, I think you'd make an
excellent parent.

He never even gets drunk anymore.

Two's the magic number.

Oh, you and me both, love.

Look, I've no doubt you've got so much
you can offer a child, Gabe.

Both of you.

So, I think we should just proceed as
normal.

If that's what you want.

I'm stopping.

Sorry.

He's Oh,

God. I'm late for court.

Don't worry, I shall see myself out.

And I'll give you a ring in the week.
There's, um, an activity day I think you

should go to.

Uh... An activity what?

Activity day, where you get to meet
children waiting to be adopted.

Well, I kid you, feed they thing.

Okay.

Please don't let the other social
workers hear you call it that.

But we haven't been approved yet.

It'll be after approval.

And I know you'll be sensible and you
won't be seduced by superficial factors.

Superficial factors?

How cute they are.

But do they know that's why they're
there?

The older ones will.

God, that's awful, isn't it? I wasn't
sure about it myself at first, but

placed over a thousand children through
them, so... At least consider it.

I'll phone you.

Sweet Pea Dog!

And I know you don't think it's a good
idea, but our social worker said that it

could really help.

That's my deal, Gabriel.

The way you're behaving, I thought you
were going to tell me that you had

or something.

Please, Dad.

What do you take me for?

I'm hardly going to say no, am I?

It's nice to be asked, actually.

Thank you, Amris.

But, uh... Parenting isn't easy, you

know. I know that. And you could end up
with anything.

Thing? Or you...

You know what I mean.

Well, they speak Welsh.

Would that make them more acceptable to
you if they did? I don't want to be

ridiculous. Well, there's obviously a
problem.

What, Dad?

I just think a child needs a mother.

That's all.

No, Emerus.

Look, I know how tough it must have been
for you without none.

But a child doesn't need a mother.

A child needs love.

I don't eat.

I don't sleep. I do nothing but think of
you.

You keep me under your spell.

You keep me under your spell. You keep
me under your spell.

You keep me under your spell.

Oh, my God.

We're going to be parents.

I feel like a dick.

Oh, great.

All the kids love Superman.

Supergirl, actually, Jackie.

Is that heteronormative of me?

Ignore him. He's bold with a twat when
he's nervous.

What's wrong with them?

Sizing up the competition, aren't they?

I imagine we pose a veritable threat.

I think we are.

What

is

cheating? The theme's superheroes.

Prince Charming's not a superhero. Fairy
Godmother's not a superhero. They

should be disqualified.

It's not a competition.

Of course it's a fucking competition.

Hello, everybody.

Hello.

Now,

I'm sure you're all feeling a mixture of
excitement and nerves.

Maybe a little anxious.

Why the hell are we so lonely at the
moment?

Does everybody think we want to
procreate?

Now, in these brochures, you'll find all
the children's details.

Of course, you'll have your own matching
criteria.

And we know that people tend to zone in
on their favourite.

But do try and circulate.

Rule yourselves in rather than out.

Today is about seeing if you have an
emotional connection with anyone.

So I'll give you all some time to look
through them.

Ready?

Okay, everybody, it's almost 10 .30.

I'm sure you're all really keen to get
going.

So if you're ready, please come on
through.

Let's just wait.

Take your time.

Not to feel the pressure.

Try and talk to them all.

What do you think of this one, though?

She had me at dress -up.

They're wrong, because I want to take
her magic wand and shove it up her arse.

Star ends first.

There's plenty of time, boys.

Go on.

Get out there.

Mingle.

Andy, what's your name?

My name's Esme.

Would you like to sit down?

Of course you would.

Hi, Esme.

I'm Gabriel, Andy's partner.

Gabriel? Like the angel? I was Mary.

Were you now?

I bet you were a lovely Mary.

I was, wasn't I, Paula?

You were, sweetheart.

And what are you making there, Esme?

Dinosaur poo.

Splendid. Andy loves nothing more than
making dinosaur poo as well, don't you,

Andy?

Oh, yeah.

In fact, many people don't know this,
but Andy's actually the second best

dinosaur poo maker in the whole world.

Who's first best, then?

You as mate, of course.

Uh,

where did all that come from?

What?

You were lush.

I mean, the way you just, like... Oh, I
freaked out.

God,

this is much harder than I thought.

I know.

But you were an amazing winner.

You made it look so easy.

I'll speak it.

Well, there was no pressure.

Was there?

What do you mean?

Because I knew there was no way that we
would ever take her on.

Can I sit here, please? Yes. Oh, thank
you.

That's a pretty dress.

Don't mind if we join you, do you?

No.

Look, this matches.

Do you like pink?

My favourite colour.

Yeah, me too.

Excuse me.

Hazel? Yes.

Hi, yes. I was wondering if I might have
a quick chat with you and your partner.

Husband.

Husbands, of course.

Come on.

Come on.

Oh, town within, I hear you like Annie.

believe we're being upstaged by a
bargain basement fairy godmother and a

case of a husband?

When did we become the beige ones?

We're supposed to be quiet in here.

She can't even apply mascara properly.
She looks like a massive twat.

Be kind.

You don't know what she's been through.
Stop being so bloody nice all the time,

would you? It is annoying.

Shush, no.

Don't.

Don't have a semi now.

Come on.

Let's do one more round.

It's like being back at school and no
one wants to play with us.

That's how I feel.

Hi.

How long have you been there?

Since lunchtime.

You do swear a lot.

Well, we didn't think anyone else was in
here.

I like spying on people.

Are you a gaze?

Sorry? Because Claire told me they might
be gazier.

But I've never met a real one before.

Ta -da!

Claire, is she your foster carer?

Is she around anywhere?

When you kissed, it sounded like you
were slurping a giant ice lolly.

It was disgusting.

My fingers and my ears.

Do you have any lollies?

Uh, no.

Sweets?

No. You're not trying very hard, because
some of the others have sweets.

You need to bring sweets if you want us
to like you.

Fairy Gobbler will have sweets.

She's a massive slut.

What are we doing?

Following him.

Why? I don't know. In case he says
anything and we need to explain

Doesn't stoking a child feel a bit pee,
do we? No.

Wait, does it?

A bit.

I can't believe he heard us. I can't
believe he heard me say I had a semi.

What if he says he heard me say I had a
semi? And they don't approve us because

I said I had a semi and he heard me say
it. Well, Gabriel, that was kind of

extraordinary. Stop it, I'm serious. I
think we just broke all the rules in the

brochure. No more than fairy godmother
child catcher. We didn't bribe him, did

we? But we made out in front of him and
called one of the other adopters a

fucking twat.

Who's the fucking twat?

Jackie, I think we've done it, boo -boo.

We didn't know he was there.

It's the first rule of parenting.

We know, we know.

Shouldn't we apologise or something?

No, don't worry. Seriously.

I know his social worker, Klinos. Plus,
his foster carer, Claire, is a hoot.

He'd be fine.

To be honest, that boy's heard hell of a
lot worse.

Did you see his profile?

He's had between one and six.

He's twirled.

Well, he's only just turned seven.

Go on on 40.

Well, you would too if you'd been
through what he has.

Anyway, I will speak to his family
finder and we'll get him to introduce

Klinos and Claire.

I thought we didn't need to apologise.

Well, you don't.

I just think you should chat with him
about Jake.

But he's a boy.

I know.

But keep an open mind.

Because it sounds to me like you've made
a connection.

Right. Before I start, which one of you
is the mum and which one of you is the

dad?

Sorry?

Got you!

Don't worry, boys.

My daughter's a lesbian.

And when I had my first gay adopters,
she kept telling me off for trying to

out which one was the mum and which one
was the dad.

But then I realised one was both and the
other one was lazy.

So, I hear you're interested in my
Jakey.

Yes.

So what can I tell you about Jake?

He's my biggest achievement.

That's what he is.

And you've been doing this for 30 years,
I've seen something.

How many is it now?

I think it's around 400 and counting.

Sorry, 400 what?

Children. Shit.

Jake was right.

You do have putty mouths.

Sorry. I'm teasing.

Anyway, some people thought he was
unadoptable when he first came to me.

Didn't they, Flynn?

Said he was feral.

Can you imagine that?

Calling a child feral.

He wasn't feral.

He was terrified.

Especially of men.

Wouldn't come near Malcolm. That's my
husband.

First couple of weeks.

So then Malcolm started taking him on
the school run.

Jake could just about manage that.

Five minutes in the car with him. Belted
in the back. We didn't have to look him

in the eye.

But then, by the end of term, Malcolm
had him singing along to...

Where do you go to, my lovely?

No way. That's the song Gabe performed
the night we met.

Well, there's a sign if ever I heard
one.

Voice of an angel Jake has.

Mind you, he can be a right devil too
sometimes.

That's nothing you can't handle.

It's all bravado.

He was under the sofa, wasn't he?

Yeah, that'd be right.

He likes to hide in small spaces.

That way he can be sure no one else is
in there with him.

But what that boy needs more than
anything else is patience, cuddles, and

love.

God, I'm going to miss his cuddles.

I'm going to break my heart when he
leaves.

I'd adopt him myself, but I've got six
already.

Three of my own, three adopted.

And anyway, two dads will be bloody
fantastic for him.

As long as you can keep your hands off
each other.

We really are very sorry about all this.
Don't be.

Don't ever apologize for showing a child
what real love looks like.

You want a minute, boys?

We're all just children, aren't we?

Couldn't we at least take a look at his
carby form?

He's seven and a boy and it's complex.
We can't just keep moving the goalposts.

I don't see what the problem is. I don't
want a boy.

But don't you feel... It's just about
feeling. Why do we bother going through

the assessment?

Maybe we should have a look.

Just a look.

I don't know, I don't know.

Just a look.

Jake is an inquisitive, bright child
with a vivid imagination.

Out came their very own baby. He's
deeply affectionate, but can be

hypervigilant. And his behaviour can
sometimes be difficult to manage.

However, this has much improved during
placement, and Jake is responding well

praise and firm boundaries.

He's come a long way since he first
arrived.

He has a good relationship with both
foster carers, demonstrating an ability

form a strong attachment.

Though he still has issues with trust
due to his early years

experiences.

EXPERIENCE!

Is violence hereditary?

No.

I don't think so.

Because what if he ends up hurting us?

What if his dad turns up one day and
kills us? That's highly unlikely,

isn't it?

Still, there's no way I'd meet them.

They're monsters.

Does that mean that you're... I don't
know, and...

So far removed from what we originally
specified.

He's a boy. I don't like... You're gay.

I know what they're capable of.

We shouldn't be seduced just because
we've met him.

We just need to think about the cold
hard fact.

But he isn't the cold hard fact anymore,
is he?

I knew this would happen.

I knew that you would get attached.

He's got some really intense needs
and... I know, I know.

What would you do, Billy?

Do it.

Do it.

Do it.

Wrong gender, though.

Billy was actually a girl.

No, really?

They only found out after she died.

That's the thing.

There's always been a place for everyone
in Victoria Park.

No matter what their gender.

What?

You're such a twat.

So think about it.

You talk like Marlene Dietrich.

And you dance like Zizi Jumeirah.

Your clothes are all made by Balmain.

And there's diamonds and pearls in your
hair. Yes, there are.

You live in a fancy apartment.

Off the boulevard, down the shelf.

Where you keep your rolling stone
record.

And a friend of Sasha is there. Yes, you
do.

But where do you go to, my lovely, when
you're alone in your bed?

Tell me the thoughts that surround you.
I want to look inside your

head, yes I do.

I remember the back streets of Naples,
two children

begging in rags.

Both touched with a burning ambition.

To shake off their earthly bond tags
they tried.

Don't look into my face Marie Claire.

And remember just who you are.

Then go and forget me forever.

Do it. But I know you still bear the
scar deep inside. Yes you do.

you go to my lovely when you're alone in
your bed

I know the thoughts that surround you
cause I can

look inside