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Previously on
"the astronaut wives club"...

Elliot's jet
crashed this morning.

I'm so sorry!
I'm so sorry.

When i was
out campaigning,

I felt like i had been standing
on a darkened stage

My whole life,
and then, suddenly,

Someone
turned on the light.

More problems with that
damn apollo capsule.

Just promise me
that you won't go up

Unless everything
is good and ready.

I know why you're here,

But i think i need
to hear you say it.

[ dog barking ]

[ teakettle whistling ]

[ whistling continues ]

♪ look away ♪

What on earth
are you doing?

Trying to make you
breakfast in bed.

Or at least burnt bacon.

Lucky the whole house
didn't go up in flames.

Come on, bets,
it was a joke.

You look nice.

That dress new?

It was on sale.
You like it?

I'd like it better
if it wasn't black.

You know i hate black.

It's a funeral dress.

I hate funerals, too.

We should play hooky.

From the funeral?
Yeah.

Just, we'll hole up in here,
you and me.

♪ my first love ♪

Come on, betsy.

♪ was, oh, so perfect ♪

♪ that true love now ♪

Stay with me.

♪ would seem to be a sin ♪

♪ oh, look away now ♪

Driver: I'm so sorry
for your loss, mrs. Grissom.

I read in the paper

The president's gonna be
at the funeral.

That's something.

It's a shame
it took gus dying

For our president
to give him his due.

♪ come gather 'round, people ♪

♪ wherever you roam ♪

♪ and admit that the waters
around you... ♪

Man on tv:
Those are the original
mercury seven, now six,

Honoring their fallen comrade
virgil "gus" grissom.

As most viewers know by now,
gus grissom,

Along with ed white
and roger chaffee

Perished inside
the apollo spacecraft

When a flash fire erupted

During a routine launch-pad
test at kennedy space center.

What you got there?

♪ ...If you can't lend
your hand ♪

♪ for the times
they are a-changin' ♪

♪ for the times... ♪

I should have done
something.

No one could have
seen this coming.

He did.

Three lives were cut short
that fateful day,

The lives of gus grissom,
ed white, and roger chaffee.

And they will be mourned
by their families,

By their friends,
and by their nation.

They may no longer be with us,
but they are home.

♪ the line is drawn ♪

[ playing "taps" ]

♪ the slow ones now ♪

♪ will later be fast ♪

♪ the present now ♪

♪ will later be past ♪

♪ the order is rapidly fading ♪

♪ and the first one now will ♪

♪ later be last ♪

♪ for the times
they are a-changing ♪

Two!

♪ for the times
they are a-changin' ♪

What's the president
doing?

What happens next?

Oh, julie, i don't know.

I've never been
to a funeral before, either.

You haven't?
Girls, hush.

Your husband
was a good man.

Yes, he was.

It was
a beautiful service.

Gus would have hated it.

He really would have.

Excuse me, mrs. Grissom?

I worked with gus.

I just want to say
that i'm so sorry.

Thank you.

There's something
they're not telling you

About your husband.

Who was that?

I don't know.

Trudy: What do you mean
some man stopped you?

He handed me this, and he said
he knows something about gus,

Something that
no one's telling me.

Martha chaffee's been sent

Two marriage proposals
since roger died.

Tragedy brings out
the crazies.

You and gus were as close
as two people could be.

There's nothing that anyone
could tell you about gus

That you didn't
already know.

So there's still no word
if they're gonna delay?

I'll have another.

There's obviously a problem,
a systematic problem.

We need to slow down
and analyze.

Come on, wally, we just came
from a funeral.

Yeah, which
we wouldn't be at

If people had listened to gus
in the first place.

Hey.
Keep your voices down.

Besides, we don't even know
what happened yet.

It could have been
an accident.

Three of our guys
are dead, gordo.

Alan: No, he's right.

We better hope
it was an accident.

If there's a problem
with that capsule,

If the guys who built it
made a mistake, we're done.

Done as in we're giving up
on the moon?

Done as in done.

You okay?

[ sighs ]

You know, my mom, louise,
she's actually my aunt.

My mom died
when i was 5, so...

I get it, you know?

Wait, so julie's
actually your cousin?

And my name's
not even really alice.

It's judy.
Louise changed it

Because it sounded
too much like julie.

You kidding me?

Wait, doesn't alice
sound like alan?

That's what
i always thought.

[ chuckles ]

What are you two
doing here?

Nothing.
We were just talking.

Well,
if you want to talk,

You can do it inside
with everyone else.

Okay?
Alice.

[ sighs ]

Thanks for the chat...
Judy.

It means a lot to betty
that you came.

It means a lot
to everyone.

How's the column going?

Good.
It's really good.

I'm sorry i haven't had
a chance to read it.

Well, it's probably hard
to get the "waco ledger news"

When you're underwater.

Listen, uh, i have
a few days' leave,

And i was thinking about
swinging through houston,

Spend some time
with the kids.

I can stay with john
and annie or...

Scott, don't be silly.
We're still married.

It's your home.

Yeah.

Share a cab
back to the hotel?

I'd love to.

We have the gas company,
boy scouts of america,

Bowling league.

You can cancel that.

Now that i don't have
a partner.

No way.

You're the only one

That throws more gutter balls
than marge.

We'll pay for your membership
for the good of our marriage.

[ laughs ]

Um...

Foley brothers jewelry.

Eagle supermarket.

Jewelry?
What on earth?

$75?

Maybe for
your anniversary.

Gus got us the tickets
to paris.

Not that we got a chance
to use them.

Listen, betty,
you don't need to worry

About every single penny.

Between
the life insurance policy

And gus' military benefits,

You and the boys
will be well taken care of.

And according to this,

You'll even have a little
left over for a rainy day.

Every day's a rainy day
without gus.

Go to the jewelry store.

That $75 something or other,
my guess is it's for you.

A diamond pin?

Jo: For your 20th,
it's meant to be china.

Men should never
pick out jewelry alone.

Gus already has something
kind of like this.

Wally does, too.

All the guys do.

They get them
when they go up.

Why on earth would he
get one for me?

Hasn't he ever heard
of a nice tennis bracelet?

Oh, speaking of tennis,

Let me show you
the new skirt i got --

Well, it's a skirt and it's
shorts -- and it's adorable!

I'll go get the catalog.

[ pop music playing ]

W--

♪ there's something on my mind ♪

♪ i gotta say love ♪

♪ so you know how i feel ♪

♪ when i'm away, love ♪

Gus.

♪ i'm glad i... ♪

What are you doing
out here?

Playing our records?
Since when?

You know a lot
about me, bets,

But you don't know
everything.

♪ i'm glad i knew you awhile ♪

What are you talking about?

Come on.
I'm playing this for you.

These words i'm saying

Gus, tell me.
What else don't i know?

Jo: Betty?

[ gasps ]

♪ come back, karen ♪

♪ please, don't stay away ♪

♪ come back... ♪

♪ come back ♪

Thank you so much
for meeting me.

I was afraid you weren't
going to call.

I almost didn't.

So you say that
you worked with gus?

You know something
about him.

Are you with nasa?
North american, actually,

The company
that nasa contracted

To build
the apollo capsule.

I know
who north american is.

And i know many of the men
my husband worked with.

What did you say
your name was?

Uh...
I can't tell you that.

This was a mistake.

Look, your husband talked
about you all the time.

He said
you were the best thing

That ever happened
to him --

You and the boys.

You were robbed.
You all were.

Gus wasn't happy
with the capsule,

I knew it --
everyone knew it.

I decided to inspect it
on my off hours, top to bottom.

And when i finished,
i wrote a memo.

The memo laid out the issues,
and gus was right,

There were a lot of them.

But the biggest issue
was flammability.

Urelane 577-1 was being used
throughout the capsule.

Urelane?
It's a type of foam,

And it combusts
if it gets too hot.

It explodes.

My memo said that
urelane wasn't safe

In a 100%
oxygen environment

Where the risk of fire
is so high.

So what did they do?

What do you think?

Betty:
We have to tell someone.

Betty, hold on a minute,
take a deep breath. Slow down.

There was a memo.
It says everything.

They used something,

I don't remember the word now,
but it was a foam.

Do you have the memo?

I don't have it,
i was told about it --

By an engineer who worked
in the capsule.

Okay, do you have his name?

He didn't want to say.

He doesn't want
to lose his job.

[ sighs ] betty, i hear
everything you're saying.

And trust me,
alan and i are on your side.

There's a review board,

And they're looking
into the fire as we speak.

Once they get their findings,

They're gonna testify
in front of congress,

And the truth will come out.

And i promise you,

If north american's culpable,
they will pay.

I know nothing is gonna
bring gus and the boys back.

But if someone's responsible,
they need to be held to it.

Why don't i take you down
the hallway to gus' office?

I'm sure there's some things
you want to hold onto.

You think there's actually
something to this?

We'll find out
soon enough.

Pat?

Pat?

[ clears throat ]
louise.

I -- i remembered how much
bonnie loved my spaghetti bake.

We had it
at ed's birthday last year.

That's right.

Who knew it would be
his last one?

I'm just gonna --
i'm gonna --

I'm gonna put this
in the freezer.

Leave it out.

The kids will eat it.

Oh, okay, um...

H-how are they doing,
the kids?

[ sighs ]

Um...

As well as to be expected,
i guess.

Yeah, i spoke
with ed junior

For a little bit
after the funeral.

Yeah, i was concerned
because he seemed...

Well, he...

He -- he seemed
a little bit as if, um...

Alan:
It's worse than i thought.

If that memo pans out,

We have to start over
with a whole new company,

Build a whole new capsule.

[ telephone ringing ]

Ah!
No phone calls at dinner.

It's probably ed junior again.

[ ringing continues ]

You know what came
in the mail today?

An invitation.

Apparently, there's going
to be a big celebration...

Of the anniversary of your
father's mercury flight.

Wasn't that six years ago?

Who's ever heard of a six-year
anniversary party?

Exactly.

[ ringing continues ]

Ed, let me explain the rules
of this house to you --

Turn on the tv.

Yeah. Okay.

Dunk:
Sorry for the late hour.

Thank you to everyone

Who's able to join us
for this announcement.

This is it.

Deke and alan got them
to listen.

They're delaying the program.
They have to be.

Gus grissom believed
that reaching the moon

Wasn't an ending,
but a beginning.

And in light of our recent
tragedy, we have decided

That the best way to honor gus
and ed white and roger chaffee

Is to continue the work
that they began...

On schedule.

Jim: Work that apollo i
started will go on.

And we will continue our
mission exactly as planned.

They're not slowing down.
Not at all.

And wally's next.

Isn't the point
of a hearing

To actually hear
what people have to say?

They need to wait
for the findings.

I don't know.
I don't make the decisions.

Right,
you just carry them out.

How can you even think of
bowling at a time like this?

Look around.
Look at the country.

People are rioting,
protesting the war.

If those hearings show
that something's wrong,

Then we'll fix it.

But in the meantime,
we just gotta be positive,

Get on with it --

Make people think
we can still do this.

One of your best friends
just died.

Maybe there are things
more important

Than going to the moon.

Do you think
i don't know that?

If we give up on the moon,

Then gus will have died
for nothing.

You're the one
who always says to trust nasa,

So trust 'em.

Chicken's done.

N-n-noodles.

Those grissom boys
can eat.

Make sure you give 'em extra
chicken and extra king.

Don't forget, bonnie's
allergic to peanuts.

Heard your charter business
is going well.

If well means slow,
then, yeah, it's going great.

We flew beverly davis
a couple of times,

But since then, nothing.

Well, if careers were easy,
we probably

Wouldn't be the only ones
trying to have them.

Trudy, could you help me,
please?

So, rene, we've been
working for hours.

Are you gonna tell us
what's happening with scott?

Well, he fixed
a leaky faucet

And he cleaned out
the gutters.

And he fried us up
some very tasty steaks

For dinner last night.

And he's sleeping
in the den.

Trudy:
Wait, you're serious?

You just changed her name?

From judy to alice?

Please,
keep your voice down.

Well, loud, soft --
it's all bad.

Trudy, they were the same age,
in the same grade.

It was confusing.

So is calculus,

But you don't just start
calling it algebra.

I asked for your advice.

And you want her
to listen to you?

Try calling her judy.

You know what i found helpful
after elliot died?

Getting away.

There was just something
about being in my house.

Every room, every corner
was some memory.

Ah!
Here it is.

The congressional hearings.
They started yesterday.

I just had to create
one memory without elliot

So i could start to imagine
a life without him.

I know it's hard.

Believe me, but it helps.

Just think about a trip.

I could even go with you.

You'd do that?
Yes.

It would be great.

I went to mexico,
but we could go anywhere.

D.C.

We're going to those hearings
in d.C.

Hmm.

Louise: Pat?

[ sighs ]

[ groans ]

Pat, everyone
is here to help you.

But you have to find a way
to help yourself.

I can't.

Yes, you can.

Please no.
No, i can't.

Now, pat, you have been
a wonderful wife.

But you're also a mother.

Look at me.

Come on.

[ sobbing softly ]

Come here.

Mrs. Grissom, mrs. See,

I'm sorry, i didn't know
you were coming.

Us, neither.
But here we are.

Well, okay, they're
in the middle of things.

It's probably best
you don't walk in right now.

If anyone belongs in there,
it's me.

Uh...

I'm not asking.

Man: All we need is a suit

For re-entry stored
on board somewhere.

Man #2:
Roger, we copy.

Seven away, capcom.

Hey, uh, fire.

We got a fire
in the cockpit!

Fighting it!

[ static ]

It's a bad fire!
Let's get out!

I'm burning up!

Oh!

Mom?

Mom?

And the coast is clear.

You know,
your mom may be mean,

But at least she got mine
out of the house.

Mom?

Ed jr.: Mom?!

Mom, wake up!

Call for help.

[ gasps ]

Mom, please wake up!

Look at me.

Alice:
Mom, it's mrs. White.

I think
she took some pills.

Congressman:
It was well-documented

That gus grissom

Had complaints
about the capsule

Your company,
north american, built.

Well, he was vocal
about certain things, yes.

He felt there were
certain technical issues,

Equipment problems.

He even went so far

As to hang a lemon
on the simulator.

We all loved
gus' sense of humor.

What about his concerns?

Did you understand them?

Understand them, yes.

Did i share them? No.

Roudebush: The board listed
the probable cause of the fire

As insulation that
was scraped off the wire.

This is, uh, a possibility,
but not a certainty.

Davis: Do you have another
possibility to suggest?

It has been theorized
that one of the astronauts

Could have kicked the wire

Attached to the gas
chromatograph.

And that's what
ignited the fire.

And which astronaut
would that be?

The chromatograph was
on the floor

By the left foot
of gus grissom.

[ crowd murmuring ]

Your mom's gonna be okay.

The ipecac worked.
She's awake.

Thank goodness.

Harriet,
thank you for coming.

I knew
i could count on you.

I'm always happy to use
my nursing skills,

But not like this.

I did what i could,

But she's refusing to go
to a doctor.

She doesn't want anyone

To read about it
in the paper.

Dunk will be happy
to hear about that.

I'm gonna stay here.

But it's been a long day.

You and alice should go,
get some rest.

No, i'm not --
i'm not leaving.

Let's let the whites
have some peace and quiet.

That's rich.

Now you want to give them
peace and quiet.

That's it.
You're grounded.

How am i grounded?

Ed told me
you came over here.

You tried to make her act
the way you would.

I'm surprised
you didn't tell her

To act like mr. White
never existed

And started calling
mrs. White "marcia."

[ sighs ]

[ rock music plays ]

♪ uh ♪

You're up, jo.

♪ good god ♪

♪ there's a funky little
night club ♪

♪ on a rough
and bumpy street ♪

Hey, hey, you want to line
your feet up a little better.

That shoe goes
on the middle dot,

Aim for the second arrow
on the right.

Deke?

You're up next.

They're blaming gus
for the fire.

It's gonna be
in every newspaper tomorrow.

It's happening again.

And there was no mention
of that memo.

You said the truth
would come out,

You said that someone
would be held responsible.

I want what you want,
but...

But what?
It's out of your hands?

Then whose hands is it in?

When you were down,
gus fought for you.

Who's fighting
for him now?

Wally's up next.

What are you doing?

Packing.

We're leaving houston
tonight.

Stop that.

Wally, don't.

Just wait a minute.
I've been waiting.

Waiting
for that review board

To figure out why
that capsule exploded.

Waiting for somebody
to postpone your flight.

Or waiting for you
to say something

So that i
don't have to bury you

Like betty buried gus.

Jo, when push
came to shove,

Gus was gunning as hard
as everyone else.

The pressure, the deadlines,
it's like a freight train

Barreling down a hill,
weighing on all of us.

No one can stop it.

You can.

If they're moving too fast,
then make them slow down.

That's the only way

Gus' death won't have been
for nothing.

[ door slams ]

Who's ever heard of a
sixth-anniversary party anyway?

Honestly, i'd wear a giant
middle finger if i could.

I'm catching up...
On your columns.

And?

And i get it now.

All this time apart,
i wondered

If maybe this whole writing
thing was just an excuse.

But it had nothing to do
with me.

This...

All this is just...

So you.

[ slurring ] alan?
It's deke.

Deke?

Oh, i'm...

Sorry to come by so late.

Is -- is alan around?

Alan's working.

But he'll be home soon
if you want to wait...

Um...

At least come in
for a cup of coffee.

I blew it.

It was a routine test.

You've all done them
before.

Everything
had been delayed.

All the guys were tired.

Gus was pissed because
of the communications snafu.

And i was right there
in the blockhouse.

I could have told them
to call it.

But i knew he didn't want
another delay.

I mean,
the moon is right there.

We can all taste it.

But we...
We were family.

[ sobbing ]

I'm -- i'm sorry.

I -- i should
probably go.

No, don't.

You can't go back
and save gus.

But maybe you can honor
his memory by protecting

And helping the people
who are still here.

♪ lovin' you must be a sin ♪

♪ for you've hurt me more
than... ♪

We're closing up,
mrs. Grissom.

Oh, no, no, no.
Drinks are on the house.

No.

The grissoms always
pay their own way.

I'm not taking it.

Good night.

Suit yourself.
[ register dings ]

[ gus clears throat ]

♪ three-legged dog ♪

I should have known
you'd be here.

It's thursday.

I'm always here
on thursdays.

You're up.

Oh.
♪ always been alone ♪

♪ april is a fine time ♪

♪ just thought
you'd be around for june ♪

♪ though we never
really promised ♪

♪ i'll see you on the moon ♪

[ laughs ]

♪ see you on the moon ♪
it's okay.

No, it's not.
I'm terrible.

You're just squeezing
the ball too hard.

You gotta let go.

I'm trying, i just...
Just...

♪ got this story to tell ♪

♪ way deep down inside ♪

I can't.

Yes, you can, bets.

♪ when you're flying
all around ♪

Let go.
♪ up there on the moon ♪

For me.

But if i don't fight
for you, who will?

Maybe you gotta let go
to find out.

♪ when you're flying
all around ♪

♪ up there on the moon ♪

Why don't you fix your little
problem and light this candle?

[ martial music playing ]

This is freedom 7,
i'm getting ready to come back.

President kennedy:
I want to express
the great pleasure we have

In welcoming
commander shepard

And mrs. Shepard here today.

We're very proud of him

As the first
united states astronaut...

[ cheering ]

[ applause ]

Dunk: Remember, your job

Is to remind people
why we're doing this.

Get them excited
about the moon again.

I think i have
a new client for you.

Really? Who?

Me.

[ applause ]

Thanks, everyone,
for coming out tonight.

A lot's changed
over the last six years.

One thing that hasn't

Is the bond
we original seven share,

Even if one of us
isn't here tonight.

And because gus isn't here,

I'd like to invite deke slayton
up to say a few words with me.

[ applause ]

Thanks, al.

[ camera shutters clicking ]

[ clears throat ]

As many of you know,
gus grissom was one of a kind.

He was the best damn engineer
this program had ever seen.

The best friend
any of us ever had...

Or lost.

Now, there's been a lot of talk,

A lot of speculation as to
who's to blame for his death.

But the truth is...

We all are.

North american's to blame.

Nasa's to blame.

Anyone ever caught up
in go-fever is to blame.

Anyone so set on beating the
russians that they lose sight

Of who and what we could lose
at home is to blame.

We're all to blame.

And the only people
that aren't to blame...

Are roger chaffee, ed white...

And gus grissom.

If this night
is about honoring what i did,

What we all did six years ago,

Then i'll tell you
how to honor us now --

Slow the hell down.

[ applause ]

Okay, deke.

See you in the morning.
Deke: Mm-hmm.

Hey.

It's for you.

Not me.

What?

Gus got that for you.

No, betty, i...
I didn't earn it.

Yes, you did.

[ sniffles ]

[ teakettle whistling ]

You girls are too much!

It was supposed to be
a surprise.

We wanted to give you
a proper send-off.

And -- and this.

F-f-for your trip.

Oh!
I love it.

Thank you.

And there's something else.

The greatest gift of all.

They pushed.
Nasa pushed apollo.

It's delayed indefinitely

So they can make changes in the
capsule, adjust their testing.

Betty, you won.

Thanks to you, we all won.

Oh!

[ laughter ]

Rene: Oh, no.

What is it, rene?

We are deeply saddened
to hear of the loss

Of russian cosmonaut
vladimir komarov,

Whose parachute failed
to deploy upon re-entry.

It's losses like this

That put what we're trying
to do into perspective.

To komarov's wife,
their children,

And fellow cosmonauts,
we send our deepest sympathies.

And to the russian people, our
victories are your victories,

And your losses
are our losses.

Where is it?

It's beneath
that big tree.

This was your mother's
favorite spot.

And when we were kids...

Your mom would ride her bike
down here.

It was the tallest tree
she could find.

It always had to be
the tallest.

She would zip right up.

And i would stand
at the bottom,

Skinny and knock-kneed,
shaking.

I remember it
like it was yesterday.

I remember everything.

I promise, i'll tell you
anything you need to know.

[ sighs ]

Was she a good sister?

She was the best.

[ chuckles ]

The thing about sisters
is they challenge you.

They make you braver

Than you ever could be
without them.

Sisters stand by you
when no one else does.

They help you
overcome things

You never imagined
you could.

And even when
they're gone...

They're always with you.

[ sniffling ]