All language subtitles for Waiting for the Out S01E05

BIRDS CRY

CLICKS HIS FINGERS

Sit there.

All right, Johnny?
All right, mate?

Um...pint, Diet Coke,
whisky chaser

and a packet of crisps.

Sit fucking still.

You're staying with me this weekend.

What...all weekend?

We're going to have a nice time.

You'll like it.

It's by the sea.

Why'd that man call you Johnny?

It's a name I'm using. Listen...

..if anyone talks to you, don't
tell them where I used to live.

All right?

Don't worry, I'm still me.

Just...incognito.

Still me.

People say you can change, Dan.
You can't.

You are what you are.
Your life is your life.

No-one changes, Dan. Ever.

People say that
to get you to behave yourself.

But nothing fucking changes.

Not for men.

What about you, Dan?

You a man?

LINE RINGS

All right? This is Lee,
if you leave your name and number,

I'll get back to you when I can.
Cheers.

Hey, Lee. Hey, it's me, it's Dan.
Um...

Look, I-I'm sorry
about the other night. Um...

..I get it. Um...this doesn't
just affect me.

And, yeah...the pictures
of my stove, that is...

It's a bit out of control.
Um, but, look, I've...

I think I've
found a solution and...

PHONE BUZZES

Lee?

Yep.

I was just leaving a message.

Um... OK.

Well, you can just tell me.

Yeah. Um...

I was just saying sorry
for the other night. Um...

Things have been
a bit off-kilter with me, so.

Anyway, I'm sorry.

And, um, that prisoner
that I told you about,

um, going in tomorrow, going to
shut it down once and for all.

Um... Yeah? Yeah, yeah,
but for good, this time.

That's good.
That's good, Dan. I mean it.

Look... Yeah. ..I can't hang around,
I've got to go to a meeting.

Oh, that's great.
Yeah, yeah, I've been, uh...

I've been slipping a bit, you know -
I can't afford that.

Neither can you, Dan.
Yeah. No. I... Look, look, I'm...

I'm all right, bro. I really think
I've got things sorted now, so.

Bye.

All right.

OK.

Oh, look. It's in. They've done it.

They've done a good job.

It looks solid.

Yeah. He'd have liked this.

Can't believe it's been a year.

Right. Let's have something to eat.

Don't you want to stay? What for?

He's dead, Danny.

He's not going to begrudge us
a cheese and pickle sandwich.

This is nice.

Hmm. It's odd.

It's nice.

I like a picnic in a cemetery.

We always used to do this
when we visited my gran's grave.

Your grandad used to call it...
MOCK MENACE: ..bread with the dead.

BOTH CHUCKLE

Thank you. Oh, sourdough.

Is that Martin's influence?

Bloody sourdough.
He's got me on it now.

He was always going on about it.

Have you still got his
sourdough starter in the fridge?

I have to feed that bloody thing.

Great big, stinky, slimy mush it is.

Well, just chuck it -
you're never going to use it.

It's a living thing, Danny,
I feel like I can't.

He sent off for it special.

Apparently, it dates back
to the Black Death.

I mean, who wants a lump of
the Black Death in their fridge?

Anyway.

How are you, then?

You all right? Yeah, I'm all right.

Lee told me about what happened
with that girl you were seeing.

Natasha, was it? Yeah.

Sounded bad.

Yeah.

Yeah, it was pretty cataclysmic,
all right.

Any chance of smoothing it over? No.

No chance at all.

He told me you were
looking for your dad.

I wasn't LOOKING for him.

Why are you even
thinking about that man?

Last time I saw Dad, I remember him
saying that a person can't change.

I feel that
every time I go into work.

I can't change what's in me.

I keep thinking they'll find
a knife in my bag.

I really think it, Mum.

Or drugs, or a phone.

And I panic because I'm his son
and I know that I'll end up inside.

Load of shit
that man used to talk, honestly!

You're living proof
that you can change.

You've never once been in trouble
with the law.

Christ, I mean, you say that
like it's an achievement.

Well, with the men in our family,
it is.

It's like winning
the bloody lottery.

Not once, Danny.

It's good. Yeah, not once so far.

SHE TUTS

Please.

I can't believe
I'm going to say this, but...

..you could take a leaf out of
Lee's book

and get wasted once in a while.
Jesus. Mum, that is...

Well, no, I don't mean get addicted.

Just...out of your head a bit.

Day release from Danny.

It's Mum. Hiya, Mum. You all right?

What? Who, Frank?

Well, no. Well, I can't right now -
I've got that doctor's appointment

at noon. Danny might be able to.

Why, what is it? What's happened?

Oh, no.

Oh, you're kidding.

Oh, no.

DOORBELL CHIMES

Hey, Unc.

Has he come out of his room?

Frank, it's Dan. Look,
could you say something, please?

So that we know that you're...OK.

They've declared me
fit for work, Dan.

They've gone and got me
a fucking job.

I know, Unc. I know. Well,
they got me on this induction.

I've got to do day two of it
tomorrow.

But I don't understand a word, Dan.

I'm lost.
I mean, I'm pushing trolleys -

what do I need all that for? That's
the way things are now, Frank.

And they gave me all this homework.

Look at it. Look at it all.

I-I've got to have all that
filled out. All of it, Dan.

But I don't understand a fucking
word. That's all right, Unc.

Look at this.

Look at this.

"How do you feel you fit in with
the company's ethical priorities?"

Ethical? They're a supermarket,
not the fucking UN.

Do they want to know how I feel,
or is there a right answer

I've got to put in there?
OK, look, look, Frank,

this is all just stuff, OK?

When you're working, it'll be fine.
The whole day was this, Dan.

It was like they were
speaking in a foreign language,

but made up of words I knew.

And everyone else got it,
all these kids,

and I'm there like
the village fucking idiot.

Look, do you want me to help you
with these forms?

Would you do that?
Yeah, of course. You serious -

you'd do that? Yeah, come on.
Look, let's have a look now, eh?

OK. Uh...

OK, how about this?
"I try to live in integrity

"by ensuring fair treatment
for my team."

And, "I maintain customer focus
by being adaptive to circumstance."

Fucking hell, Dan. That's blinding.

Put that in. That's perfect.

How do you know how to do all that?
It's just blather.

OK. "How do you align with our
company's core values of integrity,

"customer focus and innovation?

"Provide specific examples
from your past."

I mean, it's trolleys, Dan.

Beautiful day.

Shame to do all this.

Otherwise, you and me
could go down to Sandwich,

a bit of bird-watching.

My life's been in prisons, Dan.

All those men I was inside with,
they're gone.

It's someone wrote us all up
on a whiteboard,

drew us in meticulous detail,

then just...rubbed us out.

Our world...

..evaporated.

How can I do this, Dan?
How...How can I be good at this?

You'll be all right, Frank.

You're not like the rest of us,
are you, Dan?

How do you mean? All this.

You're different.

How am I different?

How am I different, Frank?

SIRENS WAIL IN DISTANCE

Excuse me, sorry.
Have you got a signal?

Uh, yeah.
Yeah, it looks fine. Thanks.

Fuck.

Fucking scanner's down. Huh?

Hey, um, how's your signal?
Are you getting 4G?

Seemed OK a minute ago.

Why? Waiting for something?
No, no, no. It's just...

This is the third time this week.
Come on, I've got a class waiting.

Be a minute, I said. Yeah,
20 minutes ago you said that.

I mean... Fuck!

You got one or two today? Uh, two.

One in the afternoon as well.

Come on, Campbell, this is crazy.
Hold on! Hold on.

Did you hear about Dris? Huh?

Fucking hell. He got his release.

Yeah, he's already got a job. Prime
Minister of Belarus, apparently.

Well, God knows they need new blood.
Sorry, I'm listening, Jamie.

That's so kind. Thank you so much
for your divided attention. Sorry.

Fucking signal. You got to
put it away now, anyway.

Look, if you're doing two classes,
you want to get some lunch?

Yeah. Yeah, sure.

Campbell, please, for fuck's sake.

All right, all right. Just...

Just go through.

DOOR BUZZES

Well, go on, then.

Oh, Greg.

Are you OK? Mm.
Are you sure? Yeah.

Yeah, what is it? Um...

Well, I'm really sorry that
I couldn't get you that laptop,

but I've had an idea.

I think that maybe...
They didn't bring my Skittles.

What? My Skittles.
They forgot my Skittles.

I ordered them, I paid for them.

They should be in my canteen,
but they're not. Oh, well, maybe...

Maybe you'll get them next canteen.
How the fuck's that going to help?

They knew I wanted them.

It's fucking deliberate. That's how
it works in here. They grind you.

Or sometimes they just
run out of Skittles.

Um... Sorry, look, I, um...

I was thinking maybe
you could write it in capitals,

your life story.
And what's the point of that?

Well, you wanted to write it.
You said...

OK, Greg, look, I know that doing
something like this is really hard,

especially in here,
but I don't want us to give up.

I think we can do it. Who's we?
There's no fucking we in here.

I'm banged up. Not you. I'm not...

I just... I'm...just trying to help.

I ordered them Skittles.
I fucking ordered them.

Can't have anything.

Not even one thing.

Fuck's sake.

Dandy Dan!

You all right?

Oh, this looks serious.

You mention my father again,
I'll write you up.

OK? You'll go on basic.

And if I can prove
you were planning manipulation,

you will get solitary
and time added to your sentence.

Do I make myself clear?

Aye.

Crystal. If I wanted
to talk to my dad...then I would.

OK? So you can tell your friend
I'm not interested.

I'd be happy to, but I can't.

He got release. Wednesday.

Out on a tag.

You missed the fucking boat, son.

OK, as of right now, you are
not welcome in my class any more.

Stay the fuck away.
That crystal enough for you, Keith?

A frog is about to cross a river

when a scorpion comes up
and asks for a lift.

It says, "Take me on your back.
It's getting dark,

"and owls on this side of the river
eat scorpions."

And the frog says, "No, no, no.
No, I can't trust you.

"You're a scorpion. You'll kill me."

But the scorpion says,
"Look, if I sting you in the water,

"we'll both drown.
So you CAN trust me,

"because it's not in my interest
to kill you."

I've got a bad feeling about this.

The frog thinks, agrees,
and the scorpion climbs on his back.

I've got a bad feeling.

Halfway across the river...

..the frog feels a terrible pain
in his head.

UNDER BREATH: Don't say it, Dan.

The pain travels down his back
and through his body.

His limbs feel heavy.

The scorpion has stung him.

I knew it! I told you! I knew it.

Fucking hell, Malik, we all knew it.
It's a famous fucking fable.

And the frog says, "Why did you
do that? Now we'll both die."

And the scorpion says,

"I can't help it. It's my nature."

They both sink and die.

Whose fault is it? Frog. Frog.

Stupid fucking idiot fucking frog.

It's definitely the frog.

Why?

Well, it's like when you go
up for parole

and you convince them
you've changed.

Then when you get nicked again,
you feel like it's THEIR fault.

Cos they should have known
you haven't changed.

So men can't change?

I'm saying a scorpion can't change.

Dan, did the scorpion know the
whole time it was going to do it?

Does it matter if he did?

Well, yeah.
It's like people in here,

they say they're your friends
and then they rob you.

Like, what I want to know is, did
they know they were going to do that

when they made friends with you?

What do you think, Greg?

Why are you talking about frogs?
What the fuck does a frog matter?

It matters if you're a frog.

OK. Hands up
if you think the frog is to blame.

Junior, come on, man,
the frog is an idiot.

If you blame people
for being kind-hearted,

then what happens?

No-one wants to be kind.

When I walk out of here,
I don't want to come back.

So I've got to believe
that I can change.

Or what's the point?

You believe what you want.
Reality don't give a shit.

I hate to say it, Junior,
but that's true.

I'm an addict, bro.

You think I'm going to get out
and not start robbing?

How's that going to even work?

I mean, why didn't I get my
Skittles, yeah? I ordered them in.

And nobody can tell me why.

Greg, um,

we're talking about the frog
and the scorpion now, is that OK?

I done a ten once.

When I got out, felt like
everything was moving so fast.

Prison speed is like a slow walk.

No-one rushes inside.

But on the out, it was insane.

I remember I got the bus

and had to grip the seat

cos I felt fucking sick.

I felt like

my nature belongs in here

and not out there.

Whenever I get with a new girl,
I always say,

"One thing you should know about me
is that I'm a really good liar."

Do you know what they say?

"Thank you for being so honest."

How can I not rob them?

So you're saying we can't change?

I just won't believe that.
I just can't.

Sorry I'm late, Dan. Had some
silly shite going on in my cell.

Oh! The frog and the scorpion.

That's easy.

Scorpion's a twat. Frog's a cunt.

Where do you want me to sit?

You're not on the list, Keith.

What?

No, I'm definitely on the list.
Definitely on there.

Oh. Well, let's have a look.

No, you're not.

But I'd...

I'd really like to stay.

Yeah.

But you can't.

Look, would you like me
to find you a guv

to help escort you
back to your cell?

It is my canteen.

CHAIR SCRAPES

It is my canteen. I ordered them.

I ordered them in special.
Like, that's my canteen.

I want my Skittles! Greg.

I want my fucking Skittles, Dan!

Greg! Fuck me!

ALARM DROWNS SPEECH

All right, all right! Hold on!

CHATTER OVER RADIO

Calm down.

GREG GRUNTS

ALARM CONTINUES

What preceded the incident?

Um...he seemed upset.

At something in your lesson?
No, I-I don't think so.

I mean, I had tried to get him
a laptop, but... A laptop?

In here?

And he was upset that his Skittles
were missing from his canteen.

Look, um, I have
a class this afternoon.

There's blood all over the walls.
Can I get someone to clean it?

Not today. Today's a nightmare.
What...

Well, OK, OK. I could do it.
Maybe I could do it,

if I had some bleach, maybe?

You want me to carry bleach
through the landing?

You ever seen what bleach
can do to the human eye?

Ah! Sorry. You've got to stay put.

What, in here? Yeah.
Drone sighting. Don't worry,

there's no other classes till yours
so you'll have it all to yourself.

I don't want it all to myself.
My next class isn't for three hours.

Welcome to prison.

Sorry, are you serious?

I have to stay in here
on my own for three hours...?

What... No, I'm having lunch
with Jamie.

Oh, no. Now he'll have to
bore himself to tears.

Look, Stephens, this is ridiculous.
Mm. Isn't it?

INDISTINCT LIVELY CHAT

See them two up there?

Don't fucking look.

If anyone tries to touch me in here,

those blokes will step in.

They're my minders. Really?

See the one on the left?

He's got a shooter under his coat.

INDISTINCT CHAT

I'll always be your dad, Dan.

Always.

That will never change.

I'm inside you, boy.
Do you understand?

I'm in you.

I'm a part of you.

Nothing's going to change that.

Ever.

Oh...fuck.

Fuck off! Fuck off!

EXHALES

LOCK CLICKS

Oh! Hey, Jamie.

Sorry about this.

Sorry, it's just...something I do
when I'm bored and on my own -

I take my shoes and socks off.

I just like the freedom. Whatever.

Is that a phone?

Yeah. Um...

OK, look, I, um...

I couldn't get a signal. Do you
remember I asked you about it?

I-I couldn't get a signal.
Please say that's not your phone.

No, it... Yes, it is,
but it's not... Look, it's not...

Jamie, look, I couldn't get
a signal, and so I brought it in.

You brought it in? Yes.
But, Jamie, it's not...

It's not like that.
You brought a phone into a prison?

It isn't anything wrong.
What do you mean, it's not wrong?

I-I just... I couldn't...

I couldn't get a signal.
Dan, it's a fucking phone!

You brought a phone into a prison!

It may as well be
half a kilo of smack.

They put you inside for this.

Oh, my God. Oh, my God! Oh, my God!
I'm in a room with you!

I'm in a room with you and
a fucking phone! I'll take it out.

Take it out through that
big fucking prison out there?

Those secure walkways and CEOs
and metal detectors and cameras?

Have you lost your fucking mind?!
Well, I'll...I'll just chuck it.

What, should I chuck it?
I'll chuck it. It's your phone.

It has your emails and your numbers.

You can't just lose it behind
a sofa. This is a Cat B prison.

OK, well, what shall I do with it?
What shall I do with it, then?

Why are you asking me?

I'm supposed to report you now.

You know that?

I'm supposed to go straight to
the Governor and report you.

I'm complicit if I don't.

Are you...?
Are you going to do that?

Why the fuck is this door open?

What's that doing there?

It's mine.

I just walked in.

You brought THAT in here?

I'm going to need you
to empty your pockets.

Seriously?

Do you have anything else on you,
or is it just that phone? I'm not...

Do you have anything else?
No! No, it's just this.

I'm still going to need you
to empty your pockets.

Now, please! OK!

Why, though?

Because they're going to charge you.

You've contravened
the Prison Act 1952, Section 40D,

conveying unauthorised items
into a prison.

PSIs issued by
His Majesty's Prison Service

specify that staff members caught
bringing contraband into a prison

are deemed to be committing
a criminal offence.

Would you like your lawyer present?

I don't have a...I don't have a
lawyer. Well, we have to proceed.

Is that OK? Yep.

As you know, I operate
a zero-tolerance policy

on breaching regs.
And when they are breached,

I will always petition
for a maximum sentence.

In this case, two years.

Why did you bring a phone
into my prison, Dan?

And I would strongly advise you to
trust in the exact truth right now.

I have an app on it.

It streams an image of my stove.

Your stove?

For months now, I haven't been able
to leave the house.

I keep thinking that the cooker's on

and I'm just going to
burn the place down.

That started when I first came here.

And I got around it
by taking photos.

But then I stopped trusting them.

And, um... So then I got...

I got the app and the camera and...

..and that solved it.

Made things better.

My officers do a hard job.

They know, when those doors close,
no-one's looking, no-one cares.

They have to deal with
all this chaos themselves.

And, Dan, they do.

They come in,
they put the uniform on.

Some of them
even try and make a difference.

And the biggest insult
those officers can receive

is to find that one of their own

is smuggling in contraband
for personal gain.

It wasn't for personal gain.
Yeah, but I don't know that, do I?

So what happens now?

Now you get escorted
from the premises.

You're on suspension. Go home

and await contact from either
the police or myself or both.

OK.

Jamie had nothing to do with this.
That's for me to decide.

Can I see him, actually?
Sorry, I just...

I feel like I need to apologise. No.

Jamie is a potential witness
in a criminal prosecution.

You cannot talk to him.
You cannot talk to Officer Stephens.

This is serious now, Dan.

Do you understand that?

Danny! What are you doing here?

Um...

I've come for the sourdough.

What? The sourdough starter.

Um...just thought I'd come
and get rid of it for you.

Are you all right? Yeah.

Yeah, you said that
you didn't want it. I thought...

I'd thought I'd take it from you.

OK.

Are you sure you want that? Yeah.

Don't really have anything
of Martin, so.

You could have had his model cars.

I've got bloody hundreds of them
up in the loft.

I don't know what to do with them.

Yeah, I don't want cars.

So you want his stinky sourdough
to remember him?

Not to remember him.

I liked Martin.

I never loved him, but he wasn't
Dad, and that was good enough.

You all right, Danny?

No.

Why didn't you leave him earlier?

Oh, Christ. Not this again.

I need to know. I told you.

No, you didn't.
You said something about lipstick.

You didn't tell me why.

I told you the truth.
No, you didn't.

Are you calling me a liar?

Yeah. Excuse me?

I know what he was like, Mum.
You were scared.

Sorry, sorry, I'm not going to be
spoken to like that.

Well, you are not telling me the
truth. I protected you.

Did you?

What about Lee, Mum?

SCOFFS

Are you blaming
your brother's addiction on me?

You think it hurt YOU
to see your brother like that?

You have got no idea.

I don't know what I am, Mum.

I'm half this and I'm half that.

Don't fit in anywhere.

What is going on with you, Danny?

I'm him.

I'm exactly like Dad.
No.

No, you're not.

You are nothing like him.

You don't know, Mum.

You don't know.

What's happened?

OK, look, why didn't you leave him?
Why didn't you leave him?

I need to know, Mum.
OK? I'm not blaming you.

I just need...
I just need to understand why.

Because of you.

What?

I stayed because of you.

From the first second he held you...

..you loved him, Danny.

He'd walk in the room,
stinking of booze,

and your little face would light up.

You cried when he put you down.

I couldn't understand it.

But he'd go off to work or the pub

or...whatever the fuck it was
he was doing

and you would be inconsolable.

I don't remember it like that...
I thought it would wear off.

But it just didn't.

You were four, five, six.

CHUCKLES: Talked about him
all the time.

All day long.

You were obsessed with him. I stayed
for you, because you wanted him.

Right, OK, well, then...

..then why did you leave him?

I didn't.

He left me.

He left us.

And thank God he did.

But it broke your little heart.

And I don't think it ever fixed.

That's...

That's not... That's...

I don't remember it. That's not...
That's not true.

Then why do you
keep saying you're him?

You're not.
You really aren't, Danny.

I've lived with both of you.
I know better than anyone else.

You are not that man.

But for some godforsaken reason,

you want to be.

You all right, Danny?

Just...something's come up.

Come on. We're going home.

I'm going to be busy
for a while now, boy. Right?

I've got work to do.

DOOR OPENS