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Why didn't you tell
me about that job in Montana?

Look, I just want
a quieter life.

But we are family
no matter what.

Maybe also talk to your parents.

Let them know that
you have cancer.

You got into the trial.

Did Nate get in too?

The doctor mentioned this
experimental treatment option.

We are a family going through
an extremely difficult time,

and I don't think
that Nate can handle

anything more on his plate.

Maybe we should take some space.

Signing with Bessie Street
could catapult your career.

I really wanted to
build something special

and you're willing
to throw it all away

because some big record label
is flashing dollar signs

in front of your eyes.

Tell me,

what do you think is
the meaning of life?

It's not what you've done.

It's who you are.

It's your heart.

That's the whole point
of living, isn't it?

To have your heart
connect with other hearts.

You do have
a storage unit, right?

Well, if it doesn't
fit, it has to go.

Well, you gettin'
ready to say goodbye

'cause you got a whole
lot of stuff here.

Well, I used to have the space,

but no income and my
astronomical rent.

I'd be on the streets
in six months.

How much are they charging

for apartments
these days anyway?

It's exorbitant.

Tell me a number.

It's ridiculous.

I'm too embarrassed.

See, now you just bragging.

Really wanna know?

You really wanna know, okay.

Wow, you really are a sucker.

Walter.

-That's a lot.
-I know.

It was my dream
apartment though.

Views from every window and
now my view is a brick wall

or if I look at it at just
the right angle, a dumpster.

I'm laughing so I don't cry.

Oh, come on.

Things are gonna
turn around for you.

-I hope so.
-Yeah.

I keep telling myself that
I am not taking a step back.

Right?

I'm investing in my future.

It's not the end of the world

that the fridge is in
the same room as the bed.

Right?

Don't say something fake
to make me feel better.

-Okay.
-Say something though.

Starting over at age 40.

Now wait a minute.

I was 41 when I met Brenda.

You never know what's
gonna be coming next.

At least I try to
tell myself that.

Yeah.

Have you seen Nate recently?

Here and there.

He's not at the bar
much these days.

What about you?

No, not in a month or so.

I thought you two were
dating or something.

No, our timing's always been

sort of horribly wrong.

Hope he's okay.

I gotta go by the bar.

Maybe wanna stop by

Uh, I probably shouldn't.

It's his turf.

I really want to be in his life,

but I just have to
figure out when and how.

Just don't hold yourself up
alone here in this shoebox.

Don't worry,

that fridge is a surprisingly
good conversationalist.

Maybe I'll make
myself go for a run

in this freezing cold weather.

Look, I got to jet,
I got basketball plans

with the guys before I
head over to Lumi later.

You take care, huh?

Be strong.

-See?
-Yeah.

Whoa, whoa, whoa,
okay, bye, bye.

Bye.

I remember being busy.

-Oh.
-It's fine, it's fine.

-Okay, you got that?
-Yeah.

It's just so weird.

What?

This new normal.

Still getting used to
you being busier than me.

Ha.

So what's on the
agenda today, rock star?

Producer session

and then Carrie wants me
to meet with some stylist

to go over my performance look.

That sounds pretty glam.

You don't look that excited.

No, I am.

I'm just adjusting

to this new commercial
direction they want me to go in.

It's exciting for sure.

Oh my God.

-Oh my God.
-What?

Whoa, everything okay?

Okay, I didn't
mention anything to you

because I didn't think it
was actually gonna happen,

but Fessy Street
pitched me to open

for Brandy Carlo
on her winter tour

and I guess it's happening.

-What?
-It's happening.

-That's amazing.
-I opened the door.

Oh my god.

How long is this tour?

Uh, two months, I think.

That's a long time.

Not really for a tour.

Yeah, no, I know, I
meant for you to be away.

Now you'll finally learn
what it feels like to miss me.

And you're gonna have
the support you need

while you're away?

I'll have a whole entourage.

That's musical support.

I mean like mental.

Don't think I can
handle being on the road?

-I didn't say that.
-You kind of did.

I've just seen you at
some pretty low lows.

You can't blame me for worrying.

I doubt myself enough as it is.

Okay?

I really don't need
you doing it too.

I feel like you're
having doubts.

Uh, I doubt that.

Babe, I'm being serious.

I'm leaving from
Montana in three weeks

and you still haven't
made up your mind.

I know, I know.

I'm sorry, it's just like a
lot to think about right now.

Well, the more you think
about it, the more I feel like.

Like what?

Well, like I'm not enough.

Babe, you know that's not true.

That's how it feels.

I could say the same
thing, couldn't I,

that I'm not enough to
keep you in the city.

Yeah.

I guess.

I just love you.

I love you too so much,

so much just like, feels
like one of us has to lose

and I don't want
either of us to lose.

I know, I don't
want that either,

but this in-between
thing is torture.

Yeah, that's my fault.

I'm sorry, just gimme like
one more night to think on it.

One.

Just one.

Thanks.

-Okay, it's settled.
-That you gonna lose?

No, Brenda's estate

and I'm gonna charge you
an extra hour for that.

Go ahead, it's worth it

not to have to deal
with all that stuff.

You know, why don't
somebody tell you

about all the business things

you gotta go through
when someone passes?

Well, they do actually.

That's why she had a will.

Wills are so savage.

They let you know exactly
where you really stand

and the worst part
is they're not around

to see you get pissed.

I hope to God
there's an afterlife

so my pops can
explain some things.

Hey.

Well we know where
Walt stood with Brenda

'cause she left him everything.

I would rather have her.

Yeah, of course, man.

Look, but I advise you to
invest some of that money

or taxes will come and bite you.

No man, I don't know what
to do with all that money.

Wanna invest in some
college education?

It's not his fault that
you had so many kids.

-So what?
-Oh, come on man.

Look, I live a very modest life.

You know, I never thought
about making any big purchases.

Well give it a think.

We got a little time.

-Yeah, we do.
-Yeah.

Right, okay, look, hey, look,

maybe I'll take a little
trip or something,

but for right now,

I am going to tear you
apart on the court.

Bring it.

-There it is, baby.
-Watch yourself now.

Look at that, look at that.

Who got the ball now?

-Kris, Kris.
-Oh.

Sorry, I'm so sorry.

I've been here for an hour
hoping this is still your route.

I'm sorry for everything.

I need you to know that
I know that I messed up.

You saved me.

I will never forgive
myself for hurting you.

Uh, thanks.

Is that all?

What can I do?

How can I make this
better, please?

Please, we can't not be friends.

I don't even like
that many people

and I know you don't either.

Oh, bloody hell just come here.

Still mad at you, by the way.

Come on, let's go get a coffee.

-Hey, you.
-Hi.

Are those for sharing

or did you bring
them just for you?

Oh, I just got this for me,
but I can go get you some.

No, no, no, no, it's fine.

I was just asking.

Okay, that's it.

What's up?

I have noticed you getting
annoyed with me a lot lately.

Really?

I haven't felt annoyed.

What?

-I haven't.
-Okay.

But it would be
okay if you were.

I'm sure you had a way of
doing things with your wife

and living with someone else

must be a big
adjustment for you.

I mean, sure,

but I have been
managing it well.

Of course you have.

I just, I know that we wouldn't
be spending every night

together so soon if my building

hadn't become a mold factory.

Anyway, they said that I
can move back into my place

in the next couple of days.

I am happy for you to
stay as long as you need.

Thank you.

Okay.

-I would say the lip.
-Same.

Not for me.

For a long time.

I simply thought this.

-Yet those who survived now.
-I swear I'm gonna lose it.

These expenses
just keep climbing.

I know I'm doing my part, hmm.

I should have my face
on the wall, really.

-Mhmm.
-You should.

I'm working on that, Walter.

It doesn't matter how
business is doing.

I feel like we packed
this place most nights

and we're still in the red.

Is this a bad time to tell you

that my paycheck still
hasn't arrived yet?

-Of course.
-It's fine.

-I'm free right now.
-It's okay.

I will cut one
for you right now.

-No worries, brother.
-Let me help you.

You already did.

No, I mean, financially.

I just settled Brenda's estate

and my buddy, Al, he advised
me to invest in something.

Let me invest in Louie.

-No.
-Dude.

I'm sorry, no, I,
I meant no thank you.

Come on, Nate.

I'm here all the time anyway.

Let's make it official, hmm?

That is a very kind
offer, but I got it.

I'll figure it out.

I'm not being kind.

I believe in your business.

You know, I wouldn't
even need a title.

We're definitely
gonna need free wine,

so if that's a deal breaker.

Nate, are you all right?

I feel bad even talking
to you about this.

Oh, what's done is done.

I'm sad we're not
working together,

but I would be highly annoyed

if you didn't tell
me what's going on.

Okay.

Mhmm.

I'm going on tour opening
for Brandy Carlisle.

It's too soon, right, yeah.

What do you mean too soon?

It's incredible.

Yeah, I'm out of
my mind excited.

You know, do you think

that it would be too
much for me to handle?

Oh God, I'm so bored of telling
you how talented you are.

Oh, you know where I was
a few months ago mentally.

I could barely leave the house.

I see you now and you're ready.

You really think so?

It's a no-brainer.

Oh my God.

He has a serious infection.

Now it's obviously
very dangerous

since his immune system is
so compromised from the chemo

and they're gonna admit
him so we can monitor him

and administer some antibiotics.

Now, these next 24
hours will be crucial

to know what we're dealing with,

but for right now,
all we can do is wait.

-Yeah.
-Yeah.

He'll be all right.

Thanks for being here, guys.

Yeah.

Okay, I'll be back.

Hey.

Claire, can I have a blanket?

Can I have a blanket?

I'm sorry, but you
actually can't, okay,

because your
fever's really high,

so warming you up anymore
would be a little too risky.

Oh, you're doing so good.

Hey, why don't you
come and sit down, Kris.

Ah, it's okay.

I'm honestly not sure
I belong here anyway.

Well, let me be
clear about something.

Please, come.

Sit.

You do belong here

and I have no question in my
mind that Nate would agree.

Absolutely.

There's no way we're
letting you leave.

It is quite
remarkable, you know.

What?

Well, how important
you all have become to me

knowing you for just
a few short months.

I'm here to talk if you need.

Yeah, I do need to talk.

I need to talk to Rebecca.

There's no way I
can go to Montana.

It seems like a
pretty big oversight

for you not to tell us.

But it was Nate's
decision and he's an adult

and I had to respect his wishes.

Not when it's life and death.

We have some connections
in the medical community.

We need to get him
out of here right now.

Call Bernard.

Maybe we can get
a transfer today.

No, he's staying here.

Claire, we're not asking.

Frankly, I don't care, Lewis.

You might have
medical connections.

I'm a medical professional,
so I'm going to tell you

that it would be
a death sentence

to relocate him in the
condition that he's in.

He's staying here.

Fine, he can stay
here until he's stable.

With respect, this
isn't your lane, it's mine

With respect, he's our son
and you two are separated.

Do you know that
this is the last thing

that Nate needs right now,

but if you wanna do something
to be supportive and helpful,

then why don't you go

and be grandparents for
a change and watch Anna.

You're telling us to leave?

I am.

I'll keep you posted.

It's a bit of a fixer upper,

but the architecture is just
prototypical historic New York.

Absolutely, it's just marvelous.

It's just like an
old Roth building.

Mom used to be in real estate,

which is why she
wanted to tag along.

Of course, take a look around.

What I wanna do is I wanna
make combination music venue

and wine bar

and I think this place is
very well suited for it.

I could, I could, yeah,

I could put built-in booths
along the windows there,

do diner style booths here

all the way down to this area,

which leads to the
stage right there.

Yeah, that's the stage.

And then I really wanna honor
the history of the building,

so the brick that's already
here, just leave that exposed,

bar would be here,

and then behind that I could
do the library ladders,

you know, and do
maybe one of those

so that we'd have access
to the wine bottles,

which will line the walls
because I think, sorry, yes.

I think what I'm trying to say
is that it's kind of perfect.

We will need an inspection
at your expense, of course.

-Hey, Dad, I got it.
-Yeah.

I'm glad you're
responding so positively.

It really is a special space.

Yeah, it is.

So in terms of budget,
what are we looking at?

Yeah, here you go.

I'm sorry, this is
out of my price range.

Huh, says the boy who
spent half his trust

backpacking around Europe.

Well, it wasn't like
I was on vacation.

I was about to start a business

and I was doing this
sommelier programme.

Right, right, so drinking.

Or getting menu concepts,
gathering antiques to-

So eating and shopping.

Yeah, so very
inspirational place,

but unfortunately can't
swing in right now.

Hey, you're awake.

Were my parents here?

They were, actually,

but they left to go watch Anna.

-I feel very strained.
-Yeah.

-Yeah, feel very.
-Hey, look at me, look at me.

It's just the infection.

Okay, your body's just
fighting really, really hard.

You're doing so good.

All right.

All you gotta do is rest, okay?

We'll take care of
everything else.

♪ People find faith ♪

♪ So now I pray to Jesus ♪

♪ Ooo, yeah, soon
you'll get better ♪

♪ Ooo, yeah, soon
you'll get better ♪

♪ Ooo, ah, you'll
get better soon ♪

♪ Because you have to ♪

-I can leave.
-It's fine.

This doesn't feel real,

but it is

and I think I'm suffocating.

I keep telling Nate
he's gonna beat this,

but I don't know that.

So what am I supposed to do?

Tell him the truth?

And when do I tell Anna?

She doesn't even
know that he's here

because I don't wanna
traumatize her for no reason,

but things happen so fast.

What if she doesn't get
to say goodbye to her dad?

And who am I to be
making these calls?

I have to figure out

when my daughter's last moment
with her dad is gonna be.

There's this part of me

that wishes I could
somehow have warned

my younger self about this.

I was so naive when
Nate and I got together

and for years at my job,

I watched people grieve
their loved ones.

I just never imagined
that would be me.

Ugh, that's so good.

Cried through all my tissues.

Thanks.

He can have visitors now
if you wanna see him.

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I've missed you.

You got
Kris' order, right?

Two turkeys, two
Italian, and one vegan.

Okay, who's the vegan?

I'm a sometimes vegan.

I'm a Beyonce vegan.

Oh, I thought it might be Alice.

Hey, did I tell you

that they decided
to stay in New York?

Yeah, you know, it's a hard
call, but I think it's mature.

Those two can't be
abandoning their dreams

for each other when
they're still so young.

Excuse me.

-Really?
-Mhmm.

I was gonna tell 'em
that it wasn't too late

for them to change their mind

'cause when you find
love, you should follow it

wherever it takes you.

Well, that's easy
for you to say.

You met the love of
your life in your 40s.

-Look.
-Look at this.

One, thank you.

I would've followed Brenda
even if we met at 19, okay?

Well, of course, as a
straight man, it's an easy move,

but some of us don't
have the freedom

to move just anywhere.

Montana is not New York.

-Okay.
-Sorry to interrupt,

but were you just
gonna keep talking

about my life without my input?

I apologize for caring.

That's okay.

You can talk about my love life

as long as I can
talk about yours.

Oh boy.

Well go on.

What do you have
to say about it?

-Sylvie's amazing.
-I agree.

So why do you keep trying

to find something
wrong with her?

Are you guys serious?

Yeah, well, I'm
sorry for caring.

Oh, come on.

I don't know, I think you guys

have something really
special going on

and you should hold onto it.

-You heard that, right?
-Okay, I'm listening.

-Great.
-Enough.

-Good.
-Onwards and forwards.

Poke, poke into my relationship.

-Okay, open 'em.
-Surprise.

Oh, oh, wait a minute.

I'm so sorry, I don't really,

I don't get it.

It's yours.

We made the down payment.

Well, you're welcome.

No, it's, sorry.

Yes, thank you,
thank you so much.

I'm a little shocked.

I was actually trying to save up

for something a little
bit more modest than this.

He was just already
in the process

of looking for investors.

Well, now he doesn't have to.

Come on, son, take the gift.

It's what you really
wanted, isn't it?

So it, I mean, it is.

Well then congratulations,
you are now a business owner.

Yeah, thank you.

This means a lot.

I'm gonna test out your
new wine bar's bathroom.

Okay, it's back.

-It's actually this direction.
-I got it.

Are are you gonna be long?

She's great, right?

She is.

Very, very sweet.

And did she tell you she's
studying to be a nurse?

She's not marriage material,

but there's plenty
of time for that.

You're still very young.

Oh.

Claire.

Hey.

You okay?

Yeah, yeah.

I'm sorry.

Oh, what are you sorry about?

I'm sorry for how
things ended between us.

It wasn't entirely your fault.

I think it was
actually a lot my fault.

I wasn't exactly
marriage material.

I never told you
I heard that, huh?

-No, you didn't.
-Yeah, I did.

-Loud and clear.
-I'm sorry.

Hey, I want you to know,

I don't regret us at all.

Yeah. I mean, we
wouldn't have Anna.

She's the most.

Oh, Claire,

you have always been here for
me when you didn't have to,

okay, and I will always
be there for you.

Hi, sweetie.

Hi.

Hi.

Huh, where's Anna?

Where's Anna right now?

Oh, she's with your father.

-Okay.
-I wanted to come

and visit you in
spite of Claire.

She told us to leave.

I mean.

Then why don't you leave?

I know you think you're
helping, but you can leave.

Okay?

I have all the help that I need.

Well.

If that's what you really want.

I won't stand in your way.

Mom.

Thank you.

Nate really
needs me right now.

So do I.

No, you don't.

You need me to let you go.

I always thought
love was enough,

but when you want two
different things, it's not,

I just don't ever want to

stop you from pursuing
what makes you happy.

You make me happy.

I know, I know,
but New York doesn't

and that's where I want to be.

This is,

this is my home.

But are you sure?

Yes.

Because you would look
so cute in a snowsuit.

Oh, girl, girl I know.

-A little fur.
-Excuse me.

I'm still waiting on my Malvick.

-It's just we.
-Yeah, don't worry about it.

-Okay.
-Yeah.

-Yeah, you.
-Continue.

Yeah.

Uh, got it.

You really like pushing
this thing to its limits?

What can I say, I like
to reach maximum capacity.

Okay, well, I guess
this is goodbye,

not like goodbye forever,

just bye to me being
all up in your business.

Yeah.

I was thinking
about what you said

and there's some truth to it.

Maybe I do have some
unfair reactions

to the way you do things

just because it's different

from the routine I
had with my wife.

That's not fair to you.

I appreciate you saying that.

I can only imagine
what it's like for you

and I know that it's tough,

but I just want you to know

that I'm not trying to be
some replacement for Dana.

I'm not threatened
by your love for her.

I honestly think it's beautiful.

I actually think you
two would've gotten along.

Even though I don't
bring your strawberries?

Okay, okay, okay,
okay, okay, okay.

I gotta ask, now that I'm
getting outta your hair,

what else did I do
that bothered you?

Oh, no, no, no,
no, not doing that.

Come on, I can take it.

It's like I'm gonna stop doing
any of it for the record.

I'm just curious.

-Come on.
-For one, this.

You won't drop anything
until you get your way.

That's true, I won't.

Go on.

You ask so many
questions when we watch TV.

I can't tell what's going on
because you never stop talking.

I get confused.

Yeah because you're
always on your phone.

You can't watch two
screens at once.

There, we survived.

By the skin of our teeth.

Okay, oh, and you can go ahead

and flip the toilet
roll back the wrong way.

Yep, I noticed.

It's the right way, you know.

-It's the right way.
-Wrong way.

Oh no, nurse, intruder,
intruder in my room.

-Very funny.
-I thought so.

Is it chemo day?

-Not today.
-Were you sick too?

Yeah, but I'm better than you.

Better than I feel
crappy than you.

When you get out of here,
I have something for you.

Why are you so sad?

It's all right.

I don't want to get into
it, you're just a kid.

No, come on.

I'm scared I won't
get well again.

And that if this is the end,

there's a lot that
I'm gonna miss.

There's so much that I didn't do

and I,

I wish I had
accomplished a lot more.

Is that too deep?

No, it's just pretty bold to
tell a 9-year-old with cancer

that you haven't
accomplished much.

Mhmm.

Tell me, what do you think
is the meaning of life?

Okay, now that's deep.

Let me explain it this way.

What do you want people
to say at your funeral?

I was charming and hilarious.

I want them to say
that I was a good dad,

yeah,

and then I was a good friend.

I hope they use a pre-cancer
photo on the programme.

-See?
-What?

It's not what you've
done, it's who you are.

It's your heart.

That's the whole point
of living, isn't it?

To have your heart
connect with other hearts.

Yeah, you're right.

What's that?

I said you're right.

Sorry, one more time.

I said you are right.

Thank you, Finn.

You're welcome.

Oh, and you know what else?

What?

Got you last.

-Oh my god, solid food.
-I know.

That's my big boy.

Oh yeah, I understand
I was on my deathbed,

but I will crush you
after I crush this bagel.

I know you're not that strong,

even when you're well, my sir.

-Uh oh.
-Oh no.

Uh oh, why uh oh?

Usually whenever you walk
into a room that I'm in,

it's to deliver crushingly
bad news, so bet on me.

I am sorry to disappoint,

but today I have
something good to share.

Spot opened up in
the clinical trial.

You're in.

-Really?
-Yes.

That is, that's good news.

You said good news to me that.

But you're still neutropenic.

Ah, there's Dr. Ross
that I know and love.

It's a white blood cell thing.

So let's get those
numbers up to a better spot

before we travel you.

Then we'll get you to Houston

as soon as you're stable enough.

Thank you.

-That's crazy.
-Okay.

-I guess I'm.
-Oh my god.

I guess I'm going to Texas.

I just wanted to pop
by before you left town.

Yeah, sure.

I don't have a lot
of time, though.

I figured.

You've been so busy these days.

I got you some things.

When your dad would go on tour,

he always wanted his
own blanket and pillow.

I love that.

Yeah, so I bought you
a little travel size set.

I also threw in some accessories

I thought might
be cool on stage.

There's like no
pressure to wear them.

Mom, Mom, Mom, Mom, Mom, Mom.

This is really thoughtful.

-Thank you.
-You're welcome.

You know I was at the Lumi show.

Yes, I know, John told me.

You were so weird
for not saying hi,

but I am really glad you came.

I was worried it
would throw you off.

You were incredible.

-Yeah,
-Yeah.

Oh, don't act like
you don't know that.

I will say it did
feel pretty great.

I know I'm a big part of
why you ran away from music

and I'm so glad music
caught back up to you.

Thank you, Mom.

-I love you.
-I love you, too.

You're too quiet.

Are you broken now?

Interesting.

Aw.

♪ But it doesn't matter ♪

♪ I'm here with you now ♪

♪ And I'll hold your hand ♪

♪ through all the darkness
'til your sun comes out ♪

Chateau Simone.

Something rouge and it's on me.

Pale.

Merci.

Oh, that's nice.

♪ Don't let your dust
get in your eyes ♪

♪ I know we can only
go up from here ♪

Hey.

Sorry I'm late.

Oh my God.

Oh.

We've been waiting
months to see you.

What's another 10 minutes?

♪ Same old day, same old cry ♪

♪ Same old heartbeat
on the inside ♪

♪ I know we can only
go up from here ♪

How are you feeling?

Forget me, how are you now?

I'm doing all right, man.

♪ I know we can only
go up from here ♪

Come in.

Come in.

Angela, I really hope
you're not crying for me.

I'm very much
kicking and feeling.

What's going on?

It's Finn.

Is she okay?

Her health took a turn and

she didn't make it.

She didn't make.

I'm sorry, Angela, I don't
really understand right now

because she was here last night.

Angela, I held her hand.

She was here.

No, she passed
yesterday morning.

♪ Rising water line ♪

Uh.

I don't,

♪ While the sky
is finally open ♪

I don't think so.

Dr. Ross came in earlier

and said that I got a spot.

The one that opened up
in the clinical trial,

was that her spot?

♪ That there's always
been a rainbow ♪

♪ Hanging over your head ♪

Her parents knew
you two had a special bond.

Oh God.

They just wanted
to make sure you heard.

♪ Over ♪

Okay, um.

Could you get Dr. Ross, please?

Can you get me out
of this, please?

♪ It'll all be all right ♪