All language subtitles for John.Leguizamo.Freak.1998.720p.WEBRip.x264.AAC-[YTS.MX]

Throw yo' hands in the air!

If you have love
in your underwear!

Latino people in
the house, bark!

That's my people.

Black people in
the house, whoop!

Let's take a moment to mourn the
absence of my brothers and sisters.

White people in the house say...

I can barely say it, yo.

I almost gave myself
an aneurysm there.

Well,

ready to take you
all on a journey.

Give you a piece of my soul
before the night is through.

Now, I was born in Latin America,
because my mom's was there.

And when I was born, my mother
was in labor for 48 hours, yo.

But my mother didn't
care, because she was so

enthralled with that whole
miracle of creating life.

And my mother was
like... Ay, animal, grime!

Get this parasite out of me!

And my father's going... If I had a nickel
for every time I heard that.

And the Peace Corps doctor's going...
Push, Mrs. Liquid Zamo... Mrs. Leg-O-Lamb...

Mrs. Let's-Eat-Gumbo...
Just push, ma'am, push.

But with what?
Coño! With what?

Hey, doctor, we're paying you, so why
don't you do some of the pulling, okay?

Well, I'm trying to.
He's a stubborn little fuck.

Well, they're leaking there.

Come on, woman, get up.

We're going.

But Fausto...

He's half-way out!

So, my teen parents...

left the homeland during that
great plantain famine of the late 60s.

And when they got
to New York City...

their accents were so thick that
they couldn't understand each other.

And my mother was like...

I found on me that chock full
of nuts in the heavenly coffee.

What the hell did you just say?

Oh, how should I know?

I'm speaking English, no harder!

And from our little
subtropical paradise...

we ended up in the loudest,
most hectic melting pot in America...

Jackson Heights, Queens.

And on our way to
our tenement building...

it was like the modern-day
Tower of Babel.

All the colors of
Benetton were there.

And they came running up to us.

Oh, you got to try
the curry candy.

You got to try it.

It's gonna hole
in your buttocks.

Very wonderful.

You got to try it.

You people go back
to your damn country.

You multiply like roaches.

Ding-a-ling-a-ling.

Hear them ring.

Booyaka, booyaka, booyaka.

This is not a library.

You buy this magazine
or kick your ass.

So, my parents had to work like
80 hours a day, 17 days a week.

But no matter how busy my father was... he'd
always make time to read us a bedtime story.

And my father would
be like, OK, you ready?

Once upon a time...

there was a
little rail-riding...

and she went into the...

and she got a green card.

And she lived
happily ever after.

Now shut the fuck
up and go to sleep.

And luckily for me...

my mom's was a
lot more nurturing.

Well, all Latin moms are.

Because all Latin moms treat
their sons like little Latin kings.

And that's where we get that
macho shit going to the max.

And my mother was no exception.

Because since I was a baby,
my mother would be like, Ay, mijo.

You are the center
of the universe, papi.

You're all things to me.

Uh-uh.

Learn to share.

And remember, mijo.

Remember, any
woman that fucks you...

will probably fuck
somebody else, OK?

And you don't want
to marry a whore.

No.

No, because...

because no woman is good
enough for my little Latin king.

And I remember.

I was about, I guess,
eight years old.

And I used to love to go to family
barbecues at Flushing Meadow Park...

where about 50 or 60 of my
cousins would get together...

barbecuing on one hibachi.

And yo... yo, we would play that
salsa music so damn loud that...

it would interfere with
NASA communications.

But the only person never
dancing... was my grandfather.

Because we had him in
our life support system.

My father was keeping
him alive against his will...

because he wanted him to live long enough
to suffer... what he made my father suffer.

And my poor grandfather
would be like, John...

John, come here, papi.

Come here and pull
the black needle, fool.

But, grandpa... you know I'm not
supposed to put you out of your misery.

Come here and pull the
motherfucking black needle now.

And it was on this very day...

that I came up with my theory...

that everybody has
a nice grandmother...

and a mean, evil,
insane, crazy Cujo one.

And I learned which was which...

when I ran up to my little
white-looking grandmother...

and she was like, ah, bendito...

pobrecito... come...

come...

come here...

let me put a dress on you...

you little pussy.

That was the nice one.

So then I ran over to my little
mestizo mulatto grandma Dulce...

who was a seven-day Adventist.

So she had some mad
powerful beliefs, y'all.

Like that the Exorcist was
actually a documentary.

And that since there were
no Latin people on Star Trek...

that this was proof that
they weren't planning

to have us around for the future.

And she especially believed this... after
she tipped back a few fifths of holy water.

My grandmother would be like...

Lies!

Lies!

You are the Prince of Lies!

I don't drink.

I sip.

And I know who you are, Lucifer.

Now leave the body
of my grandson, demon.

Or still, I'm going to purge
you of your evilest spirit.

Lord bless these Jack Daniels.

Ow! Ow! My eyes! They burn!

That's because you're wicked.

Now let me finish the cleansing.

Changa!

Mandunga!

Mabunga!

Bacalao!

Chuleta! Chancleta!
Panti! Bafuera!

Now, I didn't want to
disappoint my Grams...

because this could
be her last exorcism.

So I would just start
speaking in tongues...

and transforming
myself into Satan for her.

And I would be like...

Ba-ba-ga-noo-she-fa-ma-da-la-da
la-ha-ba-da-la-ha-ma-da-la-ba-da-la-ha-

Ba-roo-ha-ta-ha-da-na-ya-la-hi-a.

I am Satan.

I've come to claim
you as my wife.

Call me a crusty, old lady.

Call me a crusty.

Aye?

Satan?

You come for me!

Take me, I'm yours!

But Grandma...
Grandma, it was just me.

I was just pretending.

Well, don't ever tempt me
with Satan again, cabroncita!

Now, our apartment...

Our apartment was so puny,
it was wishing it were a project.

We made up for it with our
70s Baroque Rococo style.

Yeah.

We had green avocado
walls, this brown linoleum

floor, and this orange
nuclear shag rug.

We were trying to recreate
the inside of a papaya.

And the centerpiece, the pièce de
résistance, was my father's television.

And it was this big-ass
wood console TV.

More wood than TV.

But it was my
pop's pride and joy.

And he would be polishing
that sucker all day long.

Everything except the screen.

Yep, because he would let that get really
dusty so that everybody looked nice and

dark and Spanish.

And my father also thought that the
more you used it, the more you wore it out.

And my father would be
like, I don't care what the

hell you do, just don't
touch my television, okay?

And don't sit on the furniture.

It's only for the
important guests.

Use the floor for sitting
and a kitchen sink for eating.

And we're not going to buy you
any more food if you keep eating it.

And every time my father had something
important to say, the subway would go by.

Now, it wouldn't have
been a big deal, but

we shared a wall with
the IOT number 7 line.

So my father would be in the middle
of a harangue and he'd be like, okay.

I'm only going to say this once.

The most important thing
that I want you to do today...

Kick your ass!

But as soon as my pops was gone,
me and my little butterball of a brother,

Poochie, who I renamed
the fat boy called Bitch...

Yeah.

Well, because life had made
him scared of everything.

So me and him, we'll become
like a Navy SEAL operation team.

Aye, fat boy called Bitch.

It's 1800 hours.

And the Prince of Darkness won't be
back for another two...

Prince of Darkness! John! You
didn't tell 'bout no Prince of Darkness!

The Prince of Darkness is
the man that we know as Dad.

Now, I'm going to give you the bubble
wrap and you place it underneath the rug.

So in case Dad comes thru
the hallway, we can hear him.

We out smarted the Ignoranus.

Watch this, fat boy.

Giganto.

Giganto the space age robot.

He's...

John!

Mom! What are you doing
climbing in through the window?

Mijo.

The rent is due.

And what are you doing?
You're watching the television?

You're eating the
food and you broke...

You broke the antenna.

Ay, virgen Santa, Dios mio.

I'm looking into
the face of a dead boy!

Ciao!

And in the hallway
we would hear...

And I'll be fanning
on that television like a

maniac because my
father would feel it for heat.

Open up that damn door.

Tranquilo, papito.

Tranquilo, mijito.

We lived on Roosevelt Avenue.

Ay, Fausto, look at you.

You look so ultra-sexy.

Oh, yes, you do.

Run, run!

So why don't you go someplace and
play a little game of mail-order bride?

I know how you feel!

No, woman, and put
your nipple away, okay?

I just want to
watch my television.

What the hell is
all that damn static?

I can't tell Sonny
from Cher, carajo.

Not that, not that.
I'll fix it. I'll fix it.

And I move that good
antenna for all I'm worth.

Like this, that, like that.

Like that, father, is just another
word for love, isn't it, Dad?

No.

Move the other one.

Okay.

And I pretend to move
that broken antenna.

Trump loyal.

Like this, that, like that.

Is that working for you?

Are you getting that reception that...

And my father...

field goals me across the
room, and I was like...

Uh, you were in my way.

Let's take that
back and rewind it.

So my father just field goals me
across the room, and I was like,

Luckily, the nice hard brick
wall broke my fall, and my head...

My head opened up like a pinata.

And I was like Dad, Dad, look at all
the pretty candy and all the beautiful,

beautiful colors.

Have you ever seen so
many beautiful colors?

And everything went black.

And as I was waiting to die...

I felt, my soul just
leave my body.

Whoooooo...

And I zoomed out that window

Over Manhattan.

higher...

and higher...

as I was getting closer
and closer to the light...

I saw God.

And as I was about to take
my rightful place next to him...

I got a whiff of my favorite
Chino Latino restaurant.

And they were making a fresh batch
of shrimp fried rice and plátano maduro.

And all of a sudden,
I didn't want to die.

I don't want to die. I want to
live. I want to live. I want to live.

And I zoomed myself
back into my body.

And the first words out of my mouth,
with my newfound cosmic wisdom...

said it all.

Poochie broke the antenna, Dad!

Poor, slow, chubby Poochie.

Because I heard that poor
little boy go off screaming.

He was like, no Dad, no!

I don't want to die!

My only brother.

Just beaten senseless
with that damn antenna.

And all I could think was...

Thank God it's not me!

But I don't want to leave you
with a bad impression of my father.

No, no, because my father
wasn't always this brutal.

No, sometimes he drank too.

And when my father drank,
he just became the nicest,

most lovable, huggable
son of a bitch in the land.

And my father would go on
the fire escape in his underwear.

Sit me on top of his lap and
start with those playful hits.

Pooch!

Pooch!

And wailing.

Wailing to old world songs like
if he was the king of everything.

That's right.

♪ For your damned love. ♪

♪ I can't end up with ♪
♪ so many sorrows. ♪

♪ I can't end up with ♪
♪ so many sorrows. ♪

♪ If we don't get enough. ♪

♪ Super super super super ♪
♪ stupid super... Puta Moode! ♪

He doesn't know the
fucking words either.

I'm here papi.

I'm here.
Give me a kiss.

Come on.

What the hell are you cringing at?

What, are you afraid
of a little affection?

I'm your father,
you little faggot.

You kiss me right now, I'm
going to punch the shit out of you.

No, Dad, no, Dad, don't hit me.

Don't hit me.

I'll kiss you.

I'll kiss you.

Well, not on the
lips, you little freak.

You're so lucky to
have a dad like me.

When I could be out there just
fucking some hot, stinking women.

Oh, yeah, but am I doing that?

No.

No, because I'm here
spending quality time.

Come on, Papi, I'll give
you a shot, come on.

No, it's happy juice.

Come on.

No, Dad, no, Dad. It tastes like dookie.

Why don't you just
quit drinking, Dad?

Because I'm not a quitter.

Come on, I'll give you
ten bucks, you big baby.

Okay, Dad, okay,
Dad, deal, deal.

I love you Dad.

Oh, that's my boy.

That's my boy, my
little drunkaholic.

That's why I'm gonna share
my secret scheme with you.

But if you tell anybody,
I'm gonna have to kill you.

Because I haven't even...

I haven't even told
your mother this, but...

I'm gonna rent every
room in this apartment.

Until I own the building, until I own the
block, I'm gonna be the king of tenements.

The Latino Donaldo Trompo.

That's right, because I didn't come to
this country to be no goddamn servant.

That's right, my father
is no goddamn servant!

Okay, calm down.

Dad, Dad, I got, I
got a little secret, too.

Yup.

But I'm gonna have a
drink before I tell you.

It was me who broke the antenna!

See. See. I knew you'd understand
Dad, 'cause we was talking man to man.

But, Dad!

No Dad! No!

It was Poochie, like I said the first time!

No! Mom! Mom!

Now, those were the best times
that I ever had with my pops.

But then, of
course, puberty hit.

And I quickly realized that I could
have a much better time by myself.

Oh yeah.

And I guess I was about,
I was about 12 years old

the first time that I
accidentally masturbated.

Yeah, because I was just
cleaning it, and it went off.

And I thought I broke it.

'Cause for the first time,
something that wasn't pee,

leaked out and I was like, ew!

Ew, what the hell is that?

Ew, damn. What the hell?

Let me see if I can...

See if I can lift this chair...

with the phone book, the
radio, and my father's shoes.

How about a tie?

How you like me now?

And out of nowhere, my
father's at the door and he's like,

you're not doing what
I think you're doing in there.

Not in my house you don't.

No Dad, no Dad, leave me alone.

I'm going mad.

Oh snap. Oh snap. My brother's toothbrush.

Ah, he never used anyhows.

And the door kicks open.

And my whole entire family...
rushes into the bathroom.

And there I am, butt
naked, perched on the sink.

What the hell are you doing?

Well I can explain everything Dad.

I was about to take a shower when I realized
that I needed to change the light bulb.

With your erect penis.

Oh, I couldn't
reach in my hands.

And what are you doing with
your mother's panties on your head?

I thought it was a shower cap.

I swear, I swear.

I thought it was a shower cap.

And J-J-J-J-John.

What's all this goo
on my toothbrush?

That's not goo.

That's not goo.

That's um...

That's um...

That's um... That's
my new toothpaste.

Then prove it.

No Dad! Please don't make me Dad,

please don't make me...
Grandma, quick, brush your teeth.

Brush your teeth,
grandma, quick.

No, I'm not touching that cum.

Get away from...

So I have to seek my
sexual awakening elsewhere.

And luckily for me, that summer
I started going to house parties.

But unfortunately, my
crew of inner city rejects...

Me and my rejects, we will be cowering
somewhere way in the back of the party.

Totally misinforming each
other about the secrets of sex.

Yo, John, come here a minute.

Let me tell you something, man.

You gotta poke a
girl as fast as you can.

Otherwise, you're gonna
lock up on your wood.

You'll have a bitch attached
to you for the rest of your life.

Nah, man, nah.

Nah. Don't let a girl
stick a finger up your butt.

Or you gonna
turn gay or whatnot?

I'm serious.

I'm serious.

Yo, yo, yo yo, yo yo, yo yo, yo...

Pulling on your dick
makes you bigger-er.

This for y'all's information. You know
what I'm saying? It's on you, motherfucker.

You know what I'm saying?

I ain't talking to
you, motherfucker.

I ain't looking like a
dick, motherfucker.

Yo, fellas.

Fellas, I know how
to make a man, pussy.

Y'all be taking dick, you tuck it between
your legs, and you have a genuine man.

Back off, man. Back off.
It's tight, man. Back off.

I was a very misunderstood child.

Especially for the
rest of that summer.

But by the time winter came, my father's
tenement scheme... had actually paid off.

And I don't even know
how my father did it.

But he finessed himself a
building in the Boogie Down Bronx.

You know they couldn't be tenants
because they wouldn't be that happy.

And I didn't recognize my
pops no more either because...

my father had
become Neo-Rican rich.

And my father started wearing
fake fur coats and fake gold chains.

He looked like a cross between
Huggy Bear and Mr. Roper.

And then my father
thought he was slick.

And he started bringing the
other woman to the house.

When he was supposed to be
taking care of me and my brother.

But me and my
brother, we didn't care.

Just nah.

Because me and him, we would run
and we would hide underneath the bed.

And we'd hear them
sexing each other up.

And we would hear...

Take this and that.

Take it all you slut,
you whore, you biatch.

And then my pops would say...

Hey, how could you
talk to me like that?

Yesterday you
said I was the best.

No, no, no, no, no, no.

I said you did your best.

So then my father
would be starving.

And we'd have to go with
him to Katz's Deli with Amy.

Who was the other woman.

And Amy was this beautiful,
beautiful Jewish lady.

Who always wore green lipstick.

Because I guess she
was afraid red meant stop.

And the thing that burned me
up about her the most was...

Was that she would just
believe all my father's lies.

Just like that.

The biggest one being
that we were Jewish.

Oh yeah, because Amy
would be eating her food.

Turning everything a green mush.

And she'd be like...
Oh, Mr. Leguizamo Berg.

You're so dark and exotic.

Are you sure you're Jewish?

Of course, I'm Sephardic.

You want the Kreplach
or the Kasher Warnischke?

Whatever's clever.

I'm not like those demanding
Schicksals used to go out with.

I'm the love of your life.

Oh, look at the angry punhams.

They're so cute,
the little miscates.

What are their names?

Well, this is Abraham.

And this is Moses.

Say thank you.

Thank you.

Smile.

More Jewish.

So then my father
got tired of us.

And he left us for my
mom's rival.

And my mom, she became
the queen of low self-esteem.

And my mother would run off
periodically to improve herself.

So then my Uncle Sandy
became my surrogate mom's.

And my Uncle Sandy, he
was a little unconventional.

He's probably what you
would call a triple threat.

He was Latin, gay, and deaf.

You laugh. But he was the wisest
man that I had ever met in my entire life.

And he had taken his little room that
he had, and he transformed it into his

laboratorium where he would
do his mad experimenting.

And I remember...

I remember the last
thing that he ever invented.

It was Spanglish sign language.

And I was the only one
who could understand him.

And my Uncle Sandy would be like, John,
Mira, I know things even God doesn't know.

Ay, po, qué escándalo me jodí.

Y mira, mami, mira.

And Christmas, and Christmas, I
always made a lousy Santa ho-ho.

Because instead of filling up the
stockings, I was always trying them out.

Uncle Sandy...

Uncle San... I want... I want...

I want to be just like
you when I grow up.

Except for that part about
liking guys and whatnot.

That's okay, John.

That's okay. Because I
know that your father...

doesn't respect me.

But that's bullshit.

Bullshit.

Because feature this.

Many highly
respectable individuals...

of ancient...

and modern times...

have been...

homosexuals.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah.

Plato.

Michelangelo.

Disney.

And just because we were poor,

didn't mean that we didn't get
culture either, because...

my Uncle Sandy would force
us to go with him to Broadway...

and we'd go into these...

old theaters, a lot
like this one, actually...

where he had mastered this
technique called second acting.

Somebody knows
about it over there.

That's where you mix
with intermission smokers...

and then you slip in for
free to catch a second act.

So I never knew
how anything began.

And we would
run into the alley...

and wait by the theater exit.

And my Uncle Sandy would be
like, John, Poochie, smoke this.

No, no, no, no, Poochie.

Menthol for you,
you're only nine.

So we stood by
that theater exit...

and we smoked and waited.

But this play only had one act.

So...

my Uncle Sandy just kicked
the hell out of that exit door.

And he yelled, FIRE!

FIRE!

Can't you hear me?

Pardon me, excuse me.

Don't want to step on
your cones or your bunions.

Pardon me, excuse me, excuse me.

Pardon me, excuse me.

Poochie, I saw it first.

I'm going to kick your buttocks.

I said, every man for himself.

Did I tell you that, fat boy?

Get the hell out of here.

Oh, hello.

How you doing?

Hi.

Hello, Miss Ladies.

Good looking Miss Ladies.

How you doing?

My goodness, ma'am.

Why don't you run to the bathroom
quick... before intermission...

and I'll watch your seat for you...
because it's going to be crowded.

Go ahead.

I know you have to go.

Ssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss...

Don't applaud, just get up.

So I got the best empty
seat in the house...

but I was still all paranoid...

because I had no
legal ticket or whatnot.

So I just hid behind my program.

And the whole
time I was thinking...

damn...

I could be out there with my
friends... and my friends just flexing,

having a good time.

But here I am at this musical,
Chorus Line, and all of a

sudden I heard the name Morales on stage,
and there was this Latin person there,

and she didn't have a gun in her hand or a
hypodermic needle, and she wasn't a hooker

or a maid, so it was kind of
hard to tell if she was Latin.

And everybody was looking at her,
the way y'all are looking at me now.

And I was just, I was just
listening and respecting her.

♪ And I dug right down to the bottom ♪
♪ of my soul, to see what I had inside... ♪

♪ So I dug right down to the bottom ♪
♪ of my soul, and I tried, I tried... ♪

You try my Latin, sister!

You set us free, mama!

You got... oh, shit!

And one of those pilgrim
ladies grabbed me by the collar.

Ow, Lady! Ow, Lady! Get off me!

Uncle Sandy!

Uncle Sandy!

Uncle Sandy!

She was singing to me, man!

She was singing to me!

Shut the hell up and run!

And that's how I
got culture, y'all.

So about a year later, my father,
the genius for trouble that he was,

well, he got the other woman
to use him up and spit him out.

And then on top of that, his
tenement building burned down.

And my mom just took him
back like nothing had ever

happened, because that's
the way my mother was.

And my father just started to scheme
it in Machiavelli it to get food on the table.

And with the luck of the Latin,
my pops was made captain

of the top French
restaurant in Mani-Hani.

That's Manhattan for y'all.

And I was so proud of my father.

I would just watch him every
afternoon putting on his tux.

Like if it was a ceremony
or something, you know?

And I would be like...

You the man, Dad!

Dad, you the man!

You look like a penguin, Dad.

Hey, easy with that, okay?

Hey.

Hey, do you know who
came into the restaurant

the other day and tried
to get into my pants?

Elizabeth Taylor.

Oh yeah, she's kind of fat
now, so I think I got a shot.

Here's a little Old
Spice in your face.

That's right, it burns,
because you're wicked.

And this... this was an extra special day,
because it was my brother's 10th birthday.

And I had a plan, because me and my
family, we never celebrated a damn thing.

So I made sure my pops was gone.

And then I put on our best
rust-colored leisure suits.

And I got me and my
brother matching bow ties.

You look just like
Dad, you little studnik.

You'll get all the
fine females, ain't you?

Yeah, right.

So check it.

Check it, we're on the subway
down to his restaurant, aight?

Yeah, because it's going to be a
surprise for you and him, fat boy.

J-j-j-j-j-j-John,
it's my birthday.

I don't want to be
called fat boy no more.

I'm a man now, okay?

Okay, fat man.

And when we got to the restaurant, it
was this fancy-schmancy swanky place.

And they didn't yell your
order over a microphone.

And they didn't have
no playground up front.

And this big French guy
just comes running up to us.

Ah, bonjour, qu'est-ce qui passe
avec toi, mon petit gamin, hein?

And I cut him off.

I said, excuse me,
sir, excuse me, sir.

No offense or nothing, but...

we'd like to be served by the
captain. A Mr. Leguizamo, please.

Ah, merde, merde, je ne
connais pas ce nom, hein?

I'm not familiar
with the name, hein?

Well, then, then, then, then,
you must be new here because...

because my father
runs this place.

Okay, okay, well,
I'll see what I can do.

Why don't you sit down?

I'll be right back.

Yeah, and could you
get us another water?

This one's got a lemon in it.

So me and my brother,
we just sat there and waited.

And waited.

And then the kitchen
doors opened up.

And there was this man in there
who looked a lot like my pops.

But he couldn't be my pops
because my pops was wearing a tux.

And this man was bending
over the sink washing dishes.

And then the kitchen
doors opened up again.

I got a better look.

Come on, Puchi, come on, let's go. I'm not
in the mood for French food no more, man.

Come on, let's go.

I'm going to get your
birthday some other place now.

Come on.

No, John, get off me.

Get off me.

It's my birthday. I want to
see Dad order people around.

You see that at
home all the time.

Every day now. Come on,
little man. Come on. Come on.

Look, I'm going to get
you a birthday pizza, huh?

I'm going to put candles
and everything on it.

Come on.

All right.

All right. Deal, John. Deal. But, but,
but, I want anchovies on my pizza.

Okay, John?

And John, did you make one
of my legs longer than the other?

Huh, John?

Why you so quiet?

Why you ain't talking, John?

Wait up.
Don't run, John.

Wait up!

Uh, you can't dance, John.

Nah, man.

That was whack, son.

I'm going to school you.

This is my dance.

Because I'm going to get
laid tonight... my fertility boogie.

For you ladies in the
club, you better check it.

Check what I'm saying.

You know what
the fuck I'm saying?

Nah, man.

That sucked too, man.

I'mma school both of you's.

This is my dance.

Delegalization of marijuana.

Cause I'mma get high tonight.

You better check it.

I swallowed it.

Yo, fellas. Yo, fellas. It's
my turn, man. It's my turn.

This is my dance.

Cause...

Cause I got acne.

And cause life sucks, man.

Yeah, cause fathers suck.

Cause they're liars
and losers and assholes.

Yo, calm the fuck down.

It's my only day off.

Don't ruin it, man.

Yeah, man. Why don't you tell
your mom to let her mustache grow?

You could call her pop.

Yo, shut up, man. Shut up. Come here,
man. Come here let me talk to you, man.

Talk to you.

You know what
my father calls me?

Calls me the little
abortion that got away.

That's right, man. So what's the big
deal? Your father's the captain, right?

That's cool, man.

Being a waiter, it's cool.

Not like being a
dishwasher or nothing.

You know what I'm saying?

Know what the fuck I'm saying?

Yeah, I know what
you're saying, man.

Know what you're saying?

That's why friends are
better than family, man.

Cause you can choose them.

You know what I'm saying?

Hey, yo, fellas. Yo, fellas. This is
my dance to friendship, all right?

Check it. Check it.

So my new attitude
towards life really paid off.

Cause there was this girl in
the club who had low standards.

And she fell madly in love with
me because of my friendship dance.

So I went to her house
in Jamaica, Queens.

Is that you?

I don't think so.

And I had made up my mind that she was
gonna be the one to de-virginize me because

she was this ebony
princess, this Nubian

bucket of love, my little
Africanicus romanticus.

She was black.

And her pops was a black Muslim.

Mm-hmm.

Mm-hmm.

So the first time I went over, I put on
my best Elijah Muhammad bow tie.

Well, salaam alaikum,
brother reverend, sir.

I'm here to pick
up your daughter.

Well, well, well, well,
you don't fool me, boy.

You don't fool me
with that bow tie, boy.

You don't look like a Muslim.
You're like Pee Wee Herman, boy.

And when I look at your
white skin, I wanna kill ya.

But, sir, sir, I'm not white.

I'm Spanish.

Well, well, well, I don't wanna get caught
up in your illegal Mexican situation,

boy.

I heard about you Mexicans...

buying up all the Cabbage Patch
dolls to get the birth certificates.

I just tell her like it
happened, that's all.

So after weeks and weeks of begging,
some serious begging, she finally sneaks

me up into her room one night, so
we could avoid her pops and whatnot.

And I couldn't believe,
I just couldn't believe

that it was happening
for me, finally, you know?

Especially because it was
so goddamn romantical.

Oh, yeah, because she
turned on the black light.

She put on some Al Green.

Suck it, suck it now.

♪ I... ♪

♪ I'm so in love with you. ♪

♪ Uh, uh. ♪

♪ Whatever you want to do. ♪

♪ Uh, uh. ♪

♪ Is all right with me. ♪

And there I was, in
my Fruit of the Looms.

Glowing like some kind of UFO.

And I'm looking at my
beautiful, beautiful black Venus.

She's looking at me.

And she's all like...

Oh my gawd! Oh my gawd!

You are the whitest
mother-fucker I ever saw!

Yeah, but I love you
and you love me, Yashica.

That was before you
took off your clothes.

And besides, I
forgot to tell you.

I have a gynecologist
appointment tomorrow.

And he said we should have
intercourse 24 hours ahead of time.

Yeah, but...

You don't have a dentist
appointment tomorrow, do you?

You don't get it, do
you, translucent man?

Oh my gawd!

Oh my gawd!

Hold on.

Hold on.

I can see your intestines, Guppy.

I'm gonna get my sisters. Hold on.
LaQueefa! Sauntel! Come here! Oh my gawd!

Oh my gawd!

Yeah.

Yeah, sure she laughed at me.

She laughed at me because she
was afraid of her passion for me.

And besides, I would save myself
for the girl who really loved me.

Or any girl that would have me.

Whichever came first.

And in the mean-by, my father...

My father, he just got
us into the red big time.

Because, let's face it, my
father was born to undo himself.

So we had a downgrade
to this poor white trash

Irish neighborhood
called Sunnyside Queens.

Oh, you heard of it?

And I was devastated.

Because I lost my best friends.

I lost that girl who loved me.

And all of a sudden, we're the first
Latin family in this neighborhood.

So we're like pioneers.

It's like manifest
destiny in reverse.

And then one day, it
was St. Patrick's Day.

And I figured, well, everybody's
Irish on St. Patrick's Day, right?

So I fake ID'd my
way into this Irish bar.

And there was this
mad, sick-nice Irish girl.

Sick-nice.

You know the type, right?

Right?

Red-headed, freckled, drunk.

Okay, I'm bitter.

But I had too many green beers.

So I had to have her.

So I river-danced up to her.

And this voice emerged
out of me out of nowhere.

How's the Emerald Island?

Did you ever fuck a leprechaun?

Well, what are you staring at?

Is my shenanigan
hanging out again?

Well, you don't look
very Irish to me.

Oh, but I am.

Black Irish.

All right, I didn't say
any of that shit, okay?

No, no, what I actually said...

I actually said how much
I appreciate Irish culture

and the great contributions
that they've made.

U2, whiskey.

Cops, right?

And Scotty, Scotty.

Captain, Captain, the dilithium
crystals are breaking up!

Oh, you got to see
Trainspotting and Braveheart.

You go there, you do,
and there's ten of you.

There's ten, but you
go there and you don't.

You must be some
kind of fucking moron.

Scotty's Scottish, asshole.

Sean, Brian, Blarney, this
Spanish guy is bothering me.

Bothering me!

And the rest of her hooligan
brothers, Grog, Mead,

Ale, Killian, Guinness
and Stout, come at me.

What are you trying
to get with our sister?

Hey, you dirty Puerto Rican.

I'll wipe up the street with
you, you lying, oily wet dick.

I was outnumbered.

But I didn't care.

Because I did what
any Latin kid who'd been

raised in the ghetto
would do in that situation.

I was like...

I acted like a retard.

I didn't touch the pretty lady!

I didn't touch the pretty lady!

I gotta pee.
Can you hold it for me?

Hold it for me.

So we had to move.

And my father wasn't
too happy about that.

My father's packing up the car and my
father's like, What are you, my goddamn

punishment on earth?

Some kind of horrible
test from God to me?

Why you always trying
to be like other people?

You're not even
good at being yourself.

Let me tell you something, Papi.

When I go to the
racetrack, I get a form.

And on this form, I
listed the winners.

Not the also rans.

That's what you are,
Papi, an also ran.

So get used to it.

Because your mother's
family is full of them.

Starting with your Uncle Sandy.

Yeah, but that's bullshit, Dad.

So with those words of wisdom,
we ended up in Corona, Queens.

I'm not done yet.

It was an all Italian
neighborhood at the time.

So I was mad excited because I thought,
These are my fellow swarthy Mediterranean

olive skin brothers and sisters.

And I came out of
my apartment building.

And I saw these Italian fellas in this
driveway polishing up this Camaro.

Hey, how you doing, fellas?

How's it going, man?

Yo, that's a nice ride, yo.

Is that a 76?

79, you dumb fucking spick.

You dumb fucking ugly,

dumb, dumb, dumb fucking ugly.

Dumb fucking ugly.

Dumb.

Dumb.

Hey, Joey, did I use
up dumb already?

Yeah, Andy, why don't
you try douchebag?

Hey, douchebag, douchebag,
bo-fi-fi-fo-fucking-douchebag.

Uh, forget about it.

You know, before you
spicks came here,

we had nice houses and big
stores, no doubt about it.

Forget about it.

Yeah, I know, man.

I know, because we
Latin people, man.

We Latin people, we're the
bacteria of the universe, man.

Everybody knows that.

You know, we're
lazy, we fuck too much.

And look what I brought
with my welfare check.

A Guido joke book.

And to think, I almost threw
away my money on crack, huh?

Oh, you're gonna like this one.

How can you tell if
your baby is a Guido?

You give up?

He won't use the pacifier
unless it's got hair on it.

Oh, shit.

So we had to move again.

And we were running
out of neighborhoods.

And my father...

My father must have decided
what I needed for my 16th...

my 16th birthday, because he
packed me up in the Gremlin.

And my father was
like, Come here, Papi.

Sit next to me and
shut the fuck up.

I want to talk to you, okay?

Do you know that the average
pinga is six inches long?

And the average vajinga
is eight inches deep?

There are about two miles of
unused vajinga in New York City.

I'm gonna help you
find some, okay, Papi?

Okay, here we are.

But Kentucky Fried Chicken, Dad?

Dad, how's the Colonel
gonna make me a man, Dad?

Not the Colonel Ball Pendejo.

There's a lady I know
in there that batters

chickens by day and
chokes them by night, okay?

Now, don't come out
till you make me proud.

I'll be waiting for
you right over here.

So next thing I know, I'm all the way in
the back of the Kentucky Fried Chicken,

about to get some from
some complete stranger.

And when out of the shadows
comes a zoptic jerk, a German woman.

Ooh.

You're so dark and swazy.

And I feel sorry for
you, so I will fuck you.

I'll think of it as
war reparations.

And she puts me on top of the fryer,
and she reaches down and she touches my

thing, and it was the first
time that somebody other than

myself had touched my thing,
so my thing was bugging out.

And my thing was
like, John, come here!

Come here, John!

John, come here!

She's touching me!

I know, we're
finally getting some.

John, she's pulling on me.

She's being a little rough.

I know, she's German.
Shut the fuck up.

John, why don't you do it?

I like how you do it.

You know where to touch,
what I like, what I need.

Then she puts me in her
mouth, and he's like, John!

John, what is she gonna do?

Oh my god John!

Why didn't you ever do this before!?

Pinocchio!

Pinocchio!

And I look over, and she's butt naked,
and she forcibly takes my hand and just

puts it on her
little vertical smile.

Now, her coochie
was... It was...

How should I put
it to you people?

It was like a failed experiment
from the island of Dr. Moreau.

And then she says
to me, It's like a flower.

You have to unravel it.

She had the hugest
coochie lips in the world!

It was like Dumbo.

And when I open it all, it
makes a big Tupperware burp.

And then she makes the
international cunnilingus sign at me.

I was scared shitless, y'all.

But I knew my father was
waiting outside for me, so...

I didn't want to disappoint my
father or nothing, you know?

So I just sacrificed
a little general, and...

Just like that, I
was like a porn star.

Yeah, you know
you like it, baby.

Yeah, yeah, you
know you like it.

And she's like, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

Time is up.

And she went to the window, and she
grabbed the coochie lip in each hand,

and she flew away
like a giant pink bat.

Goodbye.

Goodbye, Mothra.

Thank you.

Did you do it, Papi?

Did you give her that
twelfth ingredient, huh?

You do it?

Yup.

Yup, I did it, Dad.

Well, I want proof.

Proof?

But, but, but, Dad... Dad, I started with
the international symbol of... Like this.

And it comes back,
and it comes back...

So my father and I, we finally shared
something together, God damn it.

But...

Back home, my
parents' relationship...

just totally began
to sour, because...

my mother became radical,
and she started going to college.

And she was using big
words against my father.

And my pops...

He just...

He just wouldn't let
his tenement dream die.

So our house was literally
like this big construction site.

We had...

We had holes and plaster
and tenants everywhere.

And then...

His restaurant secret...

just started to eat at him.

And my father became evil.

And then one night, very, very,
very late, my mother comes home.

And of course, she's
unnaturally happy.

And my mother's
like... I love the nightlife.

I love to boogie.

Say the ooh, ooh.

You know everybody.

Ooh, ooh.

Come on, people tell me ooh.

And my father becomes the
Grinch who stole Christmas.

Who said you could sing
that thing that you sing?

I am the king.

And nothing is what you
should sing, sing, sing.

And you're late.

That I do not appreciate.

Do we make to wait?

I hate, hate, hate.

Ay, Fausto, you're
being so... Dr. Seussian.

And besides, besides, lateness.

Lateness is such an amorphous
and bourgeois concept, okay?

And what about the day before you
got here at midnight, disco queen?

What the hell was
that about, huh?

Ay, Fausto, Fausto, do you
see how hard I work for you?

I'm practically a slave.

Lincoln.

Lincoln, emancipate me.

Break my shackles.

Woman, woman, have you
seen your children lately?

Huh?

John is all sickly
looking and stupid.

And Poochie's all fat and ugly.

Ay, Fausto, please, please.

Poochie will still be fat and ugly no matter
what time of the day I got home, okay?

So don't talk down to me, okay?

Because I'm not about
reproduction anymore.

I'm about "me" production.

Woman, don't make me have to
teach you what respect is, okay?

Ay, Fausto, please.

Please.

Like a dishwasher
could teach me anything.

Exactly.

Ooh.

Ooh, you're going
to get it, woman.

Just keep it down because I don't
want to traumatize the children, okay?

Okay, Fausto, okay.

No more talking.

Click.

Wait, wait, wait. Quick,
quick. Who am I? Who am I?

Mm-mm-mm.

And my house becomes the
World Wrestling Federation.

Saturday, Saturday, here
in Madison Square Garden.

We have Leguizamo
against Leguizamo.

Traído por Burger
King y Pepsi Cola.

Let's rumble.

And my father jumps on top of my
mother and he's got her down the ground.

Don't make me have to kill you.

Ay, Fausto. Fausto. You don't have
to do anything you don't want anymore.

We're living in post-modern
deconstruction America now!

Stop using such big words.

Okay, okay. Yes, yes. No, no.
Pee-pee-doo-doo. Bye-bye.

And I'm in the kitchen
with my brother and I'm

like, Poochie, Poochie,
mom's not doing so well.

You're going to have to
double-team his ass, okay?

So you go out there
and kick his butt.

And I'm going to live on.

And my little brother,

my little brother,
he's all like...

I can't.

I can't move, John.

John.

John.

John.

I can't move.

I'm sorry.

It's okay, little man.

It's okay. You know I
got your back till infinity.

Now, if I was a weapon,
where the hell would I be?

And I see this big-ass
butcher knife that

my father had used
on his father before him.

So it's like a family heirloom.

And I go out there with the courage
of a little Jean-Claude goddamn.

If you touch my mom or anybody else in
this house again, I swear to God you're my

father, but I'll
fucking kill you.

What, do you think you're
man enough to take me on, boy?

Fabito, shut up.

He wasn't talking to you, okay?

But, but, but mom, I
thought... That's right.

Go back into the kitchen, cause you're
a pussy and your mom's a puta bitch.

Fausto, I'm
not a puta bitch, okay?

John may be a pussy,
but I'm no puta bitch, okay?

Okay then, Jezebel, Salome,
Samsonite, and Delilah.

You're a lousy cook, a
lousy wife, and all the big

words in the world aren't
gonna make you a good mother.

So I want you to get
the hell out of my house.

Oh, excuse me.

Excuse me.

Excuse me. Excuse me. Excuse me.

I'm gonna have to
interfere on my own behalf.

Cause you don't get me
twice in a lifetime, oh no.

And do you know why I
can't be like other women?

Do you!?

Because then who the hell
is gonna be like me, OK?

Calm down, woman. Calm down. You're
having some kind of breakdown, okay?

No, Fausto, no.

I'm having a breakthrough.

Don't confuse the end of your world
with the beginning of mine, okay?

And I just have one more
thing to say to you, Fausto.

♪ First I was afraid, ♪
♪ I was petrified. ♪

♪ Kept thinking I could never ♪
♪ live without you by my side. ♪

♪ De gracia, you're a puta. ♪

♪ Spending nights saying ♪
♪ how you did me wrong. ♪

♪ And I'm strong for me mierda. ♪

♪ Hard to get along until ♪
♪ you're back from outer space. ♪

♪ I just walked in to find you here ♪
♪ with that sad look upon your face. ♪

♪ I'm gonna make some ♪
♪ more words now, Fausto. ♪

♪ Because I can, that's right. ♪

♪ And you can't beat me no more. ♪

And Fausto, you
want to speak back?

Eh!

Eh eh eh!

Because it's over
Fausto, I'm free!

I'm free!

Ay coño!!

You and your
goddamn construction!

Now that was a
great song, wasn't it?

And it was an equally
beautiful moment for my mom's.

But, unfortunately, the house
is under my father's name.

So my father kicked
us the hell out.

Oh yeah.

But I didn't care.

Nah, because...

I was gonna show him, I
was gonna show the world.

You know, life was
a bitch and so was I.

So with a fistful of dreams...

I went to college.

Got into UCLA.

Because I got a perfect
1600 on my SATs.

It's possible.

If you count all four
times I took them.

And I was having a great time
passing myself off as a white boy.

I was like, dude, so
cool, so rad, dudes.

The waves are so
dope, so cool, dudes.

I communed with a dolphin once.

Oh, shahaw, dude, shahaw!

So I got into a fraternity.

And amazingly,
only two years later...

My fraternity brothers saw through
my veneer and they ousted me.

So I took the first bus
back to Times Square.

All depressed and whatnot.

And I thought, maybe...

maybe I'll catch the
only show I could afford.

But they were
having a private party.

So I decided to second
act like I used to do

with my Uncle Sandy and
go see a Broadway show.

And so I bogarted my
way into this theater.

But once I was inside...

I find out that it's not a show.

But it's an audition.

For that great acting teacher
Lee Strasberg something or other.

And I'm watching all these fellas go up and
they're all doing Streetcar Named Desire.

Because that's what
method people do.

And I'm watching all these Brandos and
they're all like... Stella, Stella.

What do you think of
some kind of queen?

Sitting on my throne
I'm saying huh.

I'm saying huh.

And Lee Strasberg calls next.

So I just tried to fake it.

But as I'm going up my ears are
ringing and the room is spinning.

I can't even breathe.

And I look at Lee.

And it comes out
like Jerry Lewis.

Hey Stella, hey Stella.

What do you think, some kind of queen
sitting on my throne.

I say whah, whah, whah, whah, whah...

And everybody was laughing at me.

Everybody but Lee.

And Lee's going...

I survived the Holocaust.

But I don't think I can
survive your performance.

And he grabbed his
chest and passed away.

But everybody
was still laughing.

So I knew I had something.

So I was going to
let his death stop me.

Until his assistant director jumps
in and he's all like... Is this thing on?

Over here, over here kid.

Let me be frank with you.

We don't really want a Hispanic.

We want somebody
who can play a Hispanic.

That's how the real
world works son.

Thank you.
Next.

Alright, alright.

How do you feel
about playing junkies?

Oh anything man. Anything man. Give me a
chance man. Give me a chance. I need a fix.

I'll suck your dick.

Anything man.

Give me a chance.

I fucking need a chance man.

I want to feel the patheticness
and agony of your people.

Think Latino.

Junkie. Latino.

Okay baby, okay but I'm
running out of veins, papi chulo.

How about if I stick
it in my neck, huh?

How about my eyeball, huh?

Is that pathetic and
Latino enough for you, huh?

If I shove it my goddamn, motherfucking
eyeball like that motherfucker!

So I got the part.

And I'm in my first play.

And it's opening night.

And it's all the way downtown.
I'm in Alphabet City, way downtown.

Hell, yeah.

And the name of the
play is Junkie Christ.

I'm the lead.

And I find out it's
a shadow play.

But there I am in my big crucifixion
scene, giving it my junkie all.

Judas, you sold me for 40, baby!

And it's intermission and I
run back to my dressing room.

And I got this shower
curtain for a door and

this broken mirror
and a flashlight on me.

And the place is
funky and nasty.

But I'm in my element.

Yeah?

Yeah, who's there?

Who's there?

John, Papi.

Papi, open up, mijo.

Open up, Papi.

You're not doing what I think
you're doing in there, are you?

Dad.

Dad, what the hell are
you doing here, man?

I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Come
in here, Dad. Come in.

So, did you see the show?

So, what did you think?

What?

You can tell me. You like it?

Yeah.

Oh, yeah.

If you like that sort of thing.

Yeah.

God, this place is depressing.

Yeah, but Dad.

Dad, I'm working all
the time now, Dad.

I'm working real hard.

I'm getting lead
parts sometimes, Dad.

I'm kind of legit
all of a sudden.

Oh, come on, mijo.

Come on.

I always said if anybody could make
something out of nothing, it was you, right?

What?

What's the matter, Papi?

I came down because I want
you to meet my new son, Papi.

My Fausto Junior.

You gotta see the guy.

He's so much better looking, funnier,
more talented than you ever were.

And I get a look in my face

like when you want to fart but
you don't want to make noise.

That's great, Dad.

That's really great.
I'm really happy for you, man.

I gotta go on.
I gotta go back on dad, so...

And I can't see you after the show,
Dad, because I told some people I was

going to meet them afterwards,
so, you know, I'll catch you around.

Don't worry about it.

You never like me, do you?

No, you never like me.

You know what your problem is?

You know, your problem
is that you had it too easy.

It's not like I beat
you or anything.

You know, Dad, I'm glad
you're going to therapy, okay?

But you're remembering
somebody else's life, alright?

Because the shit you did to me
and Poochie, Dad, is just unforgivable.

I don't want to hear those
goddamn lies anymore...

But you're going to
listen to me, old man.

You're going to
listen to me, Dad.

Because I've been trying to get
you to notice me my whole life, Dad.

And if you could...

If you could just be my
hero for one minute, Dad.

Why can't you be my
hero for one minute, Dad?

And do one thing that's
going to help me forgive you.

You always got
to fuck it up, right?

And now that I got something going
good here, you want to step on it.

Now who's the also-ran, Dad?

I knew...

Oh, I knew...

I knew you were there
that day at the restaurant.

And you never said
a word, did you?

And I love you for that.

My way.

My way.

Maybe it's not the way
you want, but you know,

life doesn't always work
out the way you want.

So,

this is all you can be
and this is all you can do.

Well, you go out there and you be
the best goddamn junkie you can be.

Now come over here
and give me a kiss.

Well, not on the lips.

And for the first time in
my life, I saw my father.

The man in the tux.

And my father had never accepted what
the world told him he was supposed to be.

And then it hit me
right then and there.

That I could never escape
myself, no matter how

much I ran or no matter
how much I pretended.

That I was going to
have to own myself.

And then everything
would fall into place.

Then I could be master
of my own destiny.

Just like my Morales
in Chorus Line.

And every Moreno, Arnez,
Puente, Cheech and Chong.

Freddie Prinze before
me, who had to eat it, live

it, get fed up with it,
scheme it, Machiavelli it.

And who dug right down to the bottom of
their souls to turn nothing into something.

This is for you.

And to you, Dad.

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What do you think I'm a freak?

I'm not a freak.

Am I?