All language subtitles for Counterpart S02E08

She was sentimental, your other.

Used to talk about a place
only she would know.

From childhood.

I miss my mom and dad.

I wish I could tell you
they're coming back, Clare.

You're old enough now
to understand death.

Well, how fortunate for you

that both her parents died
of the flu.

You really think it was
the flu that got them?

Well, Mira takes care
to ensure things work out.

- What is this?
- Our last steps.

By now, Mira should have
Management gathering together.

- So we've got to be ready.
- I quit my job today.

What you've done is put enormous
targets on our backs.

Yeah. Also, Howard Silk's
on his way, so we run.

What is this place?

Indigo.

We both married Emily.

And now your other is living
with her. In your life.

I'm just getting this feeling

that I don't really like
who I was before.

I need to start
piecing this together.

Put your gun away and come in.

- No, I'm not going back.
- Put 'em down.

Howard, Jesus.

♪ I could never make it
in your house ♪

♪ You could never make it
in mine ♪

♪ Even if we were both
well-meant and ♪

♪ Highborn in another time

♪ Just like a circle
'round the sun ♪

♪ Just like a circle 'round
the sun ♪

♪ Where my song has just begun ♪

♪ Just like a circle
'round the sun ♪

You aren't easy to track down.

I just want to talk.

About what?

You're still a contractor,
aren't you?

I want to contract you.

You have people of your own.

I don't want any of mine
caught doing this.

No.

You haven't even
heard the price.

That's not who I am anymore.

What, and that is?

Curiosity about the other.
How tedious.

Why fix what isn't broken?

Who's the target?

A name from your old list.

Emily Silk.

No, thanks.

She's starting to remember
things these days.

Making things complicated.

Emily Silk has to die tonight.

Kill her...

and you'll never hear
from us again.

I've got your head.

Help is on the way.

- Mm, who's that?
- Oh, my God. Dad.

- Did you bring everything?
- What happened? What?

I told you on
the phone, he's been shot.

Anna, look at me.
You are a doctor.

You're a bloody good one.

Now I need you to forget for a
moment that this is your father,

and I need you to save his life.

Mm-hmm.

Howard.

Howard.

Eyelids are pale.

He's showing signs of
hypovolemic shock.

Is there anything you can do?

Yeah, let me have him.

No exit wound.

Okay, I'll give you something
for the pain.

Dad, open your mouth.

Who's Dad... why do you keep
calling me that?

I need you to stay on
your back, don't m-move.

I need to see if anything's
gotten into the cavity.

- Stay with me.
- Howard.

Howard, please.

Dad, stay with me.
Dad, Dad, stay with me.

Dad... Dad, can you hear me?

♪ While we seek mirth
and beauty ♪

♪ And music bright and gay

♪ There are frail forms fainting
at the door ♪

♪ Though their voices
are silent ♪

♪ Their pleading looks
will say ♪

♪ Oh, hard times come again
no more ♪

My mother used to sing
that song to me.

You used to sing it to me.

The organs weren't punctured.
M-Multiple shallow wounds.

Probably a ricochet.

- Dad? It's almost over.
- Huh? Ooh, what?

This is a hemostatic agent.

It's going to stop the bleeding.

It's coming.

Yeah.

How do you feel?

Never better...

Well done.

It's time to shed
the skin of your past.

My father used to talk about
going back to Bethesda

and visiting his childhood home.

How surreal it was.

I never understood wanting that.

New people come in,
they change things.

You either like it better
or you like it worse.

This wasn't your home.

No, but it's close.

That's where they tested us.

"Clare, what did you name
your teddy?

"What happened when you
dropped it in the mud?

Where did your mum take you
on summer holiday?"

It was like a fantasy life.

Are you okay?

Yeah.

Of course I am.

Come on. I think I know a good
place for us to rest.

Where I'm from,
there were bunks in here.

That was Amelia's... Petra's.

Mine.

I slept in here until I was 15.

Yeah? What was that like?

Nice, I suppose.

Kind of like boarding school.

Yeah. Mine was a bit like this,
to be honest.

Shh, shh, shh. Hey.

We didn't fully understand

what we were meant to do
back then.

Wait, Clare. Does Indigo own
this house on both sides?

We use this one for sleepers
when they first cross.

S-So why would you bring us
here of all places?

Because it's the only
place we'll be safe.

Safe?

Everyone's been placed;
They won't be back.

All right. Well...

I suppose we're just
a normal family now.

Hiding out in the...

creepy old house
you sort of grew up in.

Yeah.

Cool.

Good night, fellas.

Long line at the market?

Yeah.

What did you get?

I got the... steak and, uh,
vegetables...

Hey.

- Are you okay?
- Yeah. Uh, yeah.

Uh, these guards.

Reminds me of the hospital.

Men standing sentry
everywhere...

you in a coma, and,

and I was just... helpless.

We're safe in here.

No, no, we're not safe, Emily,

because the people who wanted
you dead are going to react.

Well, this isn't exactly

your area of expertise, is it?

Right. But we have to try
to figure out

what these people are
gonna do next.

But there's nothing
you can do about it!

Look, I know a lot has happened
since the accident.

You've had the chance
to know more,

do more.

You want to be part of my life.

Yes. Yeah.

Yeah, I always wanted
to be part of your life.

- Not like this. Not in this way.
- I-I...

I didn't know about all of this.

Well, you see, I...

I think you did.

I knew there were...

things I wasn't supposed
to know.

Yeah, what things?

Uh, it was n-not long
after we were married.

There were-- there were...

nights when you
were making excuses

about-about going out,

doing errands.

And uh, I was suspicious.

That's a very long time
to be suspicious.

Yeah.

My dad, when I was a kid,

he used to make excuses
like that.

Walking the dog

was kind of a go-to.

He'd put Rocky on the leash

and go around the corner
to the off-track betting place.

And, um...

I learned that there's a way
people tend to speak

and-and behave when they lie.

So, one night, when you...

said you were going out
to run errands,

I followed you.

I thought it was an affair.

But all I saw you doing was...

making chalk marks
on road signs.

That was almost
three decades ago.

Why on earth
didn't you say something?

I honestly have no idea.

Do you ever wonder what might
have happened if you did?

Yeah.

Yeah, I've been thinking
about that a lot lately.

You could've been part
of my life.

Yeah, or we might
have ended up...

hating each other.

Let's...

let's make it better now.

Let's...

let's work together.

L-Let's turn this place over.

Please.

Help me try and work out

what these people
are gonna do next.

I... guess you have...

some questions.

Yeah. Just a few.

It's for the best that you know
as little as possible.

You don't work for the U.N.,
do you?

And neither does Dad.

Well, technically speaking,

our agency does...

actually work for the U.N.

You're a spy.

Yes, I am.

Oh, my God.

- Anna...
- No, I knew it.

I did. I fucking knew it.

I'm really sorry
you had to find out like this.

No, Mum, are you kidding? I'm...

I'm relieved.

Do you know I used
to make up these stories?

That you were superheroes,

which meant Dad was trying
to save the world and...

Mum did.

But there was that...

that one person
who she couldn't reach in time,

and that's what she replayed
in her head when she used.

Look, I know it sounds stupid.
I was eight.

But it turns out I was right.

We're not superheroes.

Okay?

Maybe you are for putting up
with us all this time.

I'm just glad I know the truth.

You must remember
it's the kind of truth that,

if you tell anyone,

lives are at risk.

It's gonna be
our little secret, okay?

Listen up, everyone.

We have a new addition
to our family today.

It's a very brave little girl,

just like every one of you.

I'm sure you all remember
your first day here,

so I expect you to extend her...

...the same kindness
you were shown.

Take a seat, Clare. Over there.

I ran
two kilometers in 11 minutes,

but then I ate
too many pretzels,

so I threw up.

On the other side of the door,

I can be a different me.

As smart and as brave...

Clare, come with me, please.

Spencer,

please read the first sentence
of number one.

Oh, there you are.

She's, uh, fast asleep.

Thanks.

God, you really can hear every
creak in this place, can't you?

What was this room on your side?

We had classes here.

Yeah, what kind of classes?

Handwriting.

Group memorization techniques.

I taught, too.

History of both worlds.

Yeah?

Dare I ask
what you said about us?

Just facts.

Yeah, whose facts?

You think I'm incapable
of critical thought?

I wasn't some naive kid.

Yeah, no, obviously not.

But you-you were just...

What?

You were indoctrinated, Clare.

Truth doesn't need
to be indoctrinated.

You--

Sorry, you really still believe,

at this point,
that everything...

I-I don't expect you
to understand.

- I put my whole life into this.
- Okay.

So what about our life?

Our life wouldn't exist
without this.

It was created by it, by...

By...?

Her.

Mira.

Who's that?

She was the closest I had
to a real parent.

What, she belongs to Indigo?

Created it.

This was all her plan.

What plan?

Clare, it's okay.

You can-- you can tell me.

Sh-She just wanted
a better world,

where power doesn't rest
in the hands of Management,

an invisible elite.

She saw the way
diplomacy was going,

and she knew we'd destroy
each other in the end.

Okay, so she got
the doors closed.

Then what?

Return the balance
to what it was before the flu.

How?

I don't know.

- Clare...
- I don't know!

You don't know
or you don't want to know?

Youdon't want to know!

You want to believe
your world's so innocent,

that this is
just all happening to you.

Mira had evidence

that your world created the flu.

A memo

written by an agent
of your world.

I've seen it.

She showed all of us.

What, so, what, that-that
justifies abducting children?

Murdering innocent people?

It's all for the greater good.

Hey, what-what about Spencer?

Don't do that.

This is all for her.

No, it's not.

You said "abetter world."

That's one world.

She's half me. Born in my world.

- She's got no part in that.
- They would never hurt her.

Clare, they don't care
about individuals.

Milla was terrified
when she died.

And yet she still chose
to do it.

For the greater good.

The greater good. What the fuck
does that mean, "greater good"?

Is that what Mira fed you
in here all these years?

See, the problem is-is, Clare,

is that you're not naive.

So how can you believe
this shit?

Are you-- are you-
you just brainwashed?

They turned you into a fanatic.

Don't you see that?

J-- You have--

Clare,
don't walk away from this.

You think
it's so fucking simple.

You'll never understand.

This dressing will only hold you
over for a few days.

You need to get it checked out
again for infection.

I assume
you have some place to go.

Otherwise I'd have to take you
to a hospital,

which I gather you don't want.

She knows what we do.

Oh.

I'm curious
what exactly happened today.

We were attacked.

By who?

Foreign agents.

Do you two carry guns?

I have mixed feelings
about that.

Nothing in there.

Look what I found in a hidden
panel behind the bookcase.

My, my, my.

It's like I have the muscle
memory of someone I used to be.

Well, you're still that person,
Emily.

No.

I don't want to be her.

I'd like to ask her
some awkward questions,

but I don't want to be her.

Ow!

God, I keep doing that.

You okay?

This apartment's been driving me
crazy for some reason.

How so?

I remember it differently.

I remember things being
in a different place.

Uh...

The sofa was here.

And...

...did we have a piano?

We did.

We did have a piano.

It was there.

So...

300 milligrams of this
every three to six hours.

As needed.
That should help with the pain.

And then-- and this one's
for the bacterial infection.

Two drops every six hours.

No strenuous movements, okay?

I promise.

Call me tomorrow.

What is it?

This keychain, uh...

What? What's wrong?

When I drove up, I...

thought this place
looked familiar.

Wh-What, Emily?

What do you remember?

It's a big white manor, right?

Horses.

Oh, Mum,
you've taken me here before.

You were... in rehab

at the time,
but you'd snuck out.

That's why you said it...

had to be our little secret.

Sorry,

I have no recollection of that.

We... we even made up names.

Do you-- do you remember? W--

You were Belinda,
and I was Mariah.

Like Mariah Carey or...

Oh, it was just you and me.

It was the best weekend.

Why don't you remember this?

I was what, eight?

And there was a church
by the water.

You snuck me...

back in to Uncle Eric's.

Do you know,
I never told anyone.

I thought I dreamt everything,

because, well,
you never brought it up.

But...

it was real, wasn't it?

I-I sh-- I shouldn't have...

ever have brought that here.

I shouldn't
have brought it home.

You know who Anna is?

Have you met her?

On the other side.

The other world. Over there.

When?

Many times.

I've been going over there
for years.

You've been going over there
to see this Anna?

Howard, I can't talk
about this. I can't.

You-you... you need to, Emily.

We're-we're doing this together.

That's what you said.

She was our daughter.

Over there.

She was just a little girl.

And...

her mother wasn't around...
My other...

So I took her...

to the place
my mother used to take me.

To ride the horses.

She's our baby, too, Howard.

They even gave her
the same name.

Why would you do that?

Well, wouldn't you?

If y-you knew she was alive?

Wouldn't you want to know her?

Well, that's okay, bubba.

It'll be okay. Don't listen
to any of that stuff.

Let's see. You...

Oh. Ah, the rash.

Oh, baby, baby.

Do we have any cream?

What's this?

What is this?

Yes, well, Mira takes care

to ensure things work out,
doesn't she?

I'm not sure I follow.

Do you really think
it was the flu that got them?

Hundreds of millions
were dying back then.

Do you think anyone thought
to perform an autopsy?

Acute arsenic poisoning.

The symptoms were
similar enough,

and with so many bodies,
no one was looking for a cause.

You are a soldier.

Clare...

- what can I do for you?
- Do you know where Spencer is?

He has been called up.

She's marrying him?

Clare, I don't think you realize

what a gift you've been handed.

You are going to be the one
who changes everything.

Hello?

Peter?

You're it!

Shh! Spencer!

Is somebody there?

What are you doing here?

Good hiding place.

No one will find this spot.

Did you grow up here?

Yeah.

Yeah, I did.

Not me.

I lived with my parents.

Why did you kill me?

Because...

you had everything I wish I had.

No one loved me.

What about him?

Peter's just afraid...

of being alone.

Aren't you?

I am.

It's lonely where I am now.

Clare.

Have you listened to it?

This was the woman
you said was like

- a mother to you?
- I should check on Spencer.

Spencer's fine.

Stop.

Clare, look at me.

When I first found out
about you...

I came apart.

I'd been living a lie for years.

And I was blind to it.

But I'm not coming apart.

Clare...

it's okay.

What am I gonna do now?

Everything I've ever known
is what they taught me.

And now it's just gone.

What's the point?

Of anything?

Look, this is the life we have.

This is the hand
we've been dealt.

Hey, without you,
there is no Spencer.

And I wouldn't change her
for the world.

You don't know
all that I've done.

You wouldn't like it.

And yet, I still...

Maybe I ama fanatic.

Brainwashed, like you said.

I've made up a million reasons

why that recording
can't be true.

It was given to me on purpose,
it's a test...

- Could it be a test?
- No.

God, I feel like such a failure.

They put that in you.

They took a little girl,
and they molded her head

until what they wanted
was in there.

- I could have resisted.
- You were a child.

I almost drowned once.

Before all this.

Before the flu.

It was a riptide.

I hadn't seen the black flag.

The water was so warm.

There was this man on the shore.

He was screaming,
"Swim sideways."

That's what you do in a riptide.

But the wa...

I got... pulled further out.

I was tired.

I let go.

Let the water take me under.

It was so violent
on the surface.

Underneath, it was calm.

Dark and soundless.

And then I got yanked up.

To the violence.

Let me go under, Peter.

I don't want to be here anymore.

I'm not gonna do that.

Well,
then you're brainwashed, too.

- Yeah, maybe I am.
- Yeah.

What's wrong with me?

Why do I still love her after
everything that she's done?

There's nothing wrong with you.

You love her...

and you hate her
at the same time.

Peter.

Hmm?

I think I may know
what they're about to do.

They were divorced...

decades ago.

I think their marriage
only lasted about nine years.

What did you think of her?

She was a mystery to me.

Her... unpredictability,

the substance abuse.

Their child had been very sick.

I guess that complicated things.

It would certainly
have made it very hard for me.

And what about him?

My other.

I don't know.

I don't...

- You don't remember?
- I never met him.

I heard things.

He was very different
from you, apparently.

Different how?

He was quite high up
in Strategy, and...

and he was recruited for some...

special force-- I can't
remember what it was called.

Uh...

He was a violent man.

I did have glimpses of him.

There was no kindness
in his face.

Kindness?

Not like you.

So strange you're
the same man and yet...

You... preferred me,

the way I was?

Think I did, yeah.

No.

No?

No. I think this is better.

I prefer you as you are now.

I think this is...

I used to run
all the time, and...

this was something

that I ran to, to...

get out of my skin.

She had her substance abuse,

and I had
this whole other world.

But I don't need it anymore.

We know each other.
We see each other.

And I don't feel I have to...

protect you.

I can do what I ought
to have done a long time ago.

No, Emily.
You don't have to do that.

No, but I ought to.

Even though it hurts.

Is this your writing?

- It's just one of those stupid exercises.
- No. No, no, no.

- Emily.
- I don't even know what it says.

- I...
- Emily, this is code.

I never brought Anna here.

- Never.
- It was my wife?

- She was over here?
- Yeah.

I only found out about that
a few days ago.

She just slipped into your life.

Well, it was easy enough,
wasn't it?

I was in and out of rehab.

You can imagine
how attentive Howard was.

Couldn't even protect
my own child.

What kind of person does that?

Impersonates a mother.

Tells a child
not to tell her family.

All for her own gratification.

I've spent so many years
feeling guilty,

thinking she must be
the better person.

No, she is not.

But she's the one
that I deserve.

You know, that night
when she was hit by the car...

...she told me she had
to drop off some dry cleaning.

I knew she was lying.

I always knew.

But I didn't say anything.

Well, that makes sense.

Howard caught me

marking chalk signals
on street signs.

That was the beginning
of the end.

I saw that.

I saw that, too.

But I didn't say anything.

I never said anything.

I was always so... afraid.

It's like he said to me:

How much denial does it take?

I am so tired

of always being afraid.

This'll be over soon.

We just need to figure out
Mira's next move.

No. Yanek was right.

I need to do
what I should have done

at the very beginning.

I need to make a deal
with Management.

What?

Management
just tried to kill us.

Because they don't trust us.
Because...

they know
I've been protecting her,

like always.

She's the one
who can't be trusted.

I need to make a deal.

And I need to go back.

And I need to say things to her

that I should have said
long ago.

- What is that?
- That is nothing.

Maybe it is all just gibberish.

No, trust me.
I was in Interface for about...

way too long.

I-I know code when I see it.

This is the classic structure
of a two-part cipher.

Is there any other way
of translating it?

Yeah, many.

Uh, it could correspond
to a book.

A book? Maybe...

maybe the library book?
Maybe The Tin Drum?

You wouldn't use that same book
for two purposes.

So you learned that
in Interface, as well, did you?

No, uh, no, it's...
just a guess.

But it sounds right, doesn't it?

Yeah, very plausible.
So, a book.

Shall we try...

shall we try Rilke?

That's one of your favorites.

Okay. Explain it to me.

Well, there's always a key.
Sometimes you know it already.

Wait, wait, wait.

Ah.

Right.

Okay, so, each letter

has a numerical value,

and then you divide
into groups of three.

Page, line, word.

- So page 43.
- Uh-huh.

Line four.

And the first letter
of that word. "N."

"O." We may be onto something.

- Okay.
- North.

- One, two, three, four.
- "U."

Two, three, four,
five, six, seven,

eight, nine. Two, three.

Yeah. Yeah, I think
we're getting somewhere.

Do apostrophes count?

Apostrophes don't count.

Three, four, five, six, seven.

There's a space in there

- that we're missing.
- Four, five.

This one's a digit. Is that it?

Yeah, it wants to be an address,
I think, but it's-it's not,

uh, it's not quite right. Close.

Uh, "trombone dances in..."

Maybe "west"? West holiday?

Of course. Nordufer.
Nordufer 85.

- So we did it?
- Yeah, we did.

I love you so much.

I love you, too.

I haven't heard you say that
since I woke up.

I wanted to be sure
you remembered me.

You used to say it all the time.

I wasn't sure if it was
because you meant it

or it was just...

just out of habit.

I mean it.

I'd really like it

if you didn't sleep
in the little room tonight.

Hi, Ian.

We're ready
to turn ourselves in.

But I want a deal for Howard.

I saw them unloading
some crates.

They were preparing
for something,

and they would've done it
down here.

What is this?

Peter.

That's one of the crates.

Look at this.

They've been testing it
for years.

Trying to get
the symptoms right.

Testing what?

A flu virus.

This is how she restores
the balance.

She subjugates your world
like your world subjugated ours.

So-where is this flu virus?

I have no idea.

It could be anywhere.

We have to--
We have to tell the Office.

It's me.

I want you to know
Indigo is coming.

For her.

Where's my husband?

He's on the other side.

Get your things and get out.

Emily, please.

I swear to God I will shoot you
where you stand.

Now get out.

Peter.

I'm so sorry for coming
to your home like this,

but there is something about
to happen, and I need your help.

No, I've had enough of this.

Just... I know it's hard
to believe me.

- Impossible, actually.
- Let me say one thing.

Naya, this is my wife.

Shadow.