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[ Car honking ]

[ Car brakes squealing ]

[ Alarm ringing ]

[ Alarm ]

[ I suffered memory loss in an accident ]

[ Read the diary on the laptop ]

[ I keep my memories loss a secret to everyone except my parents and Izumi ]

[ Always decide what to wear the next day ]

[ Always write in the diary before going to bed ]

[ I suffered memory loss in an accident ]

[ Read the diary on the laptop ]

Original Work: Misaki Ichijo

[ Always read the diary on the laptop upon waking up ]

[ Always read this diary upon waking up ]

"I was in an accident on the first day of Golden Week."

"Once I fall asleep, I lose all memory of the day."

"I decided

to keep this diary to make up for the memory

that is missing every day."

"May 5, 2019…"

Music: Seiji Kameda

[ May 5, 2019 ] [ I starting today I am keeping a diary. ]

Ouch.

Director: Takahiro Miki

- [Keiko] This one too. - [Koji] Yes.

Honey.

Good morning.

Hey.

Do I…

have a memory loss?

Listen.

Maori, you were in a car accident three years ago.

You did something heroic.

You saved a kid who was about to get into an accident.

That's right.

We're proud of you for that.

I remember

clearly what happened yesterday.

I stepped on a pallet and got hurt.

I do…

actually remember that.

I can't say for sure yet,

but Ms. Maori seems to be recovering from her memory loss.

Maori.

Is she really, Doctor?

Yes.

[ Keiko burst into tears ]

[ Phone ringing ]

[Izumi] Hello?

[Maori] Hello, Izumi? Is now a good time?

It's not, but it's okay.

What's up?

Listen,

It seems like I'm recovering from my memory loss.

[ Always write in the diary before going to bed ]

One at a time, okay?

Yeah.

[ Never sleep outside ]

Oh, come on…

Thank you for waiting.

Thank you.

It looks delicious.

Hey, what's it like regaining your memory?

Hmm…

I can clearly remember yesterday,

but before that, I was a senior in high school,

and my memory for the past three years is blank,

and in an instant, I transformed into an adult.

Anyway, it's just a strange feeling.

I wonder if those missing memories will ever come back.

[Maori] They said that events written in the diary for the past 3 years

were "records"

and would never be recalled as "memories."

I see.

Hey.

I wonder who this is.

Do you recognize him?

Ah… that guy, you saw him at the library a few times over summer break.

Oh, Is that so?

But…

I feel like he was modeling for me.

You're into rough sketching,

and you wanted to draw men too, so you asked for his help.

I wonder if I wrote about him in my diary.

Well, I'm glad

that I remember you, Izumi.

[ Make sure to read this diary when I wake up ]

[ I was in an accident on the first day of Golden Week. ]

[ I decided to keep this diary to make up for the memories that is missing every day. ]

[ Don't forget about Toru Kamiya ]

[ Even if This Love Disappears From the World Tonight ]

[Toru] Will you go out with me?

[ Boys making noises ]

I did a fake confession.

I wasn't really serious,

and I could tell that she could see that.

Okay.

What?

[Maori] Oh, by the way,

your name… what was it?

Toru… Kamiya.

Toru, right?

I'll remember that.

Toru, what class are you from?

Class 1.

Okay, wait for me in Class 1 tomorrow after school.

Bye.

Ah…

[Saegusa] Hey, are you really serious?

I did as you asked.

So, as promised,

don't bother Shimokawa again.

[ Clicks tongue ]

[ Sound of passing train ]

[ Fridge opens ]

[ Fridge closes ]

[ Beer can opens ]

You have an early day tomorrow. Why not go easy already?

[Yukihiko] "Don't worry about tomorrow."

"Tomorrow is just tomorrow, so let it be."

Yes, yes, Osamu Dazai.

I quit my job.

Are you writing novels again?

Literary World Newcomer Prize.

I think I can do it this time.

I don't know how old you have to be to be considered a newcomer.

I have to keep my promise to your mom.

[ Yukihiko snoring ]

[ Literary World ]

[ Literary World ]

[ "Residue" Fumino Nishikawa ]

[Shimokawa] Good morning.

Good morning.

This morning, Saegusa and the others didn't ambush me.

I see. That's great.

What… no way, isn't this Kamiya?!

He saw us.

Well, go on, then. He's seen us.

- Really? - Just go.

I really can't do it.

Hey, this has gone viral.

[Toru] Will you go out with me?

You knew?

[ Saegusa and his friends laughing ]

- Who's Kamiya? - That guy, that guy.

Have you said anything to Saegusa and others by chance?

No, actually…

I confessed to Hino from Class 7, and we ended up going out.

I see.

I see! Congrats!

Hey, are you free this Sunday?

Why?

We have to celebrate.

No, no need, it's okay.

[Shimokawa] Do you have any favorite foods?

This is about Maori Hino.

I'm gonna go ahead.

Ah… Okay.

[Izumi] Are you two really dating?

Well… sort of.

Why all of a sudden? You and Maori aren't acquainted, right?

Is it love at first sight?

Well… something like that.

What's it like?

No. Like I said, well…

If you're just playing along or something, please don't do it.

[ Alarm bell rings ]

Sorry, class is about to start.

[Maori] Toru…

Kamiya… was it?

I'm coming in.

Kamiya, what about club activities?

I'm not in any club.

That's great. Me, too.

I was worried that you might have blow me off.

And so,

we're going to decide things about our relation--

Ah! About that…

Do you not like it at all?

Actually, my friend was being harassed,

and the only way to stop it was that I confess to you.

Oh, I see.

Well… he probably wanted to get a laugh out

of seeing me get rejected by the popular Hino.

I'm really sorry I dragged you into something disrespectful.

Why are you apologizing?

You protected your friend, didn't you?

That's so cool.

So?

"So" what?

Toru, do you not want to date me?

It's not that I don't want to…

but why did you okay it?

Me?

Now… why is that?

Ah… then how about

we "pretend to be a couple"?

Pretend to be a couple?

Yeah.

- Look, people already think.. - [Toru] Will you go out with me?

…that we're a couple.

I know…

but going out with me won't do you any good.

If the friend you protected knew

the real reason you confessed, that would hurt him, right?

- [Maori] Okay. - [Toru] You're right.

I can't tell everyone now that it was all a lie.

Yeah.

Okay. It's a deal.

So, I have three conditions for us to pretend to be a couple.

Conditions?

Yeah.

1.

We don't talk to each other until after school.

2.

Keep our messages as short as possible.

And…

3.

Don't fall in love with me.

Okay,

starting today we are now it, my boyfriend.

Yeah.

[ Camera shutter clicks ]

Woah, woah, woah, woah…

So that we don't get caught as a fake couple,

let's get to know each other first.

Yeah…

- When's your birthday? - Kamiya!

February 25.

What's your blood type?

Type AB.

- Ah… - What?

Who do you admire?

Hmm…

Fumino Nishikawa.

I'm sorry, but who is that?

A geeky pure literature author.

I see.

You're gonna write that down, too?

Of course.

Thanks.

[Maori] Special skills?

If I had to say it, maybe cooking.

What? That's so cool!

I do all the housework, basically.

Oh, I see.

I live with my father.

I'd like to try your home-cooked food someday.

- If that's what you think, I'll support it. - You don't have to force it, okay?

What you said the other day…

I actually like it.

Fake Couple Condition No. 1.

We don't talk to each other until after school.

[ Toru cooking stir fry ]

[ Phone dings ]

[ Tomorrow. Class duty. I'll be late. ]

[ Tomorrow. Class duty. I'll be late. ] Fake Couple Condition No. 2.

Keep messages as short as possible.

[ K ]

And…

Fake Couple Condition No. 3.

Hey.

Wanna go out somewhere next time?

Is that…

like a date?

Yeah, just in case since we're a couple.

That's true.

Then let's say Sunday.

I would love to.

Uh… but can we do it in the afternoon?

That's okay, but what are you doing in the morning?

You don't get it.

Girls have to get ready in the morning!

Fake couple.

We are boyfriend and girlfriend, but at the same time, we are not.

[Maori] But first,

this is my best friend, Izumi Wataya.

I know…

She's very concerned about us, and she wants to have

a three-way interview.

By interview, you mean… interrogation.

- What? - Nothing.

I don't mind.

Please follow us to the station. Kamiya, are you okay with cats?

Come on.

What?

Here?!

Yeah.

[Maori] Been a while last I saw Mia and Bruno.

[Toru] So huge.

[Izumi] Right.

[Maori] Bruno, long time no see, how are you?

[Izumi] You're acting like you're a borrowed cat.

No, because… it's too good to be true.

What does your father do?

My parents are in the middle of a divorce. So now it's just me and my mom.

I see.

[Maori] Izumi's mom is a famous designer.

That's why it's so stylish.

- Thank you for the drink. - Enjoy.

- [Izumi] Is it good? - [Maori] Yeah.

[ Allium at sunset ] [ Fumino Nishikawa ]

[Toru] Fumino Nishikawa?

Oh, Fumino Nishikawa

is a promising young author in the world of pure literature.

I'm a fan.

She's pretty geeky, so I don't think you'd know.

Fumino Nishikawa?!

That's someone you admire, right?

Wait, what?! You're a fan too, Kamiya?!

Oh, no, it's not that I'm a fan…

What? You're just another one of our kind.

Nice to meet you, Literature Boy.

I'm not.

You're really a big fan of pure literature.

I told you it's not like that.

Don't be shy.

It's not my place to be shy.

Be honest.

Hey… what?

Hey.

Don't write about me as "Literature Boy."

Okay.

"A literature boy who doesn't like to be called

a literature boy."

Oh, look.

Huh?

Wow.

Wow…

Whoa!

It's so amazing!

So pretty.

So pretty, right?

[ Camera clicks several times ]

[Toru] Hey, aren't you taking too many pictures?

I think it's better

to have a good look at it than to take pictures of it.

No.

I have to save it so I won't forget

all of it.

For me, the "me from yesterday" doesn't exist.

[ Car honking ]

[ Car brakes squealing ]

[ Alarm ringing ]

[ I was in an accident and I lost my memory. Read the diary on my desk. ]

[ Make sure to read this diary when I wake up ]

[ I was in an accident on the first day of the Golden Week ]

[ May 5 (Sunday) ]

[ I started keeping a diary today. ]

[Maori] It's June already?

Wait… So how about school?

After you left the hospital, you go about your day like normal.

But you know, the only people who knows about your memory loss

are the doctors and Izumi.

What?

Be careful not to let anyone else know about it.

Why?

No matter what someone does to you, you won't remember it.

Someone may take advantage of that

and get close to you.

That's why

I want you to keep it a secret except from the people you trust.

Good morning.

Good morning.

Listen. Um…

I'm causing you trouble, aren't I?

Trouble, no… Right, honey?

You did something heroic.

You saved a kid from an accident.

That's right. We're proud of you for that.

Do we perhaps… have this conversation every day?

I feel hopeless.

But still…

I will face it.

[ Toru Kamiya (How I call him: Toru) ]

A glimmer of hope.

Something resembling hope was written on it.

"Toru Kamiya. Toru."

"Type AB weirdo, lives with his dad."

"A literature boy who hates being called a literature boy…"

What does that mean?

[ Phone rings ] [ Izumi, (trustworthy best friend) ]

Hello?

Oh, Maori? Today's your first date with Kamiya, right?

Are you gonna be okay?

Sorry, Izumi.

I feel like I am dragging you into this mess.

Oh, if this is about your memory, don't worry about it.

I only do what I can and what I want to do.

Thanks.

Ah… so,

I know it's short notice, but I need your advice.

Oh, feel free.

[Maori] I'm trying to figure out what to wear on my date.

I don't know.

[Maori] What?!

Don't wanna hear your love life.

It's not about that…

So,

should I wear a dress or a denim skirt?

[Izumi] You're still on with it? I don't care which one.

[Maori] "I asked Izumi for advice, but she didn't take me seriously at all."

[Maori & Izumi] "In the end, after much worrying,

I decided on the blue dress.

[Izumi] "For me today, it's the first time I've ever met Toru."

"My first date in life with a boy I didn't know

made me a little nervous."

[Izumi] "The meeting place is in front of the fountain at the seaside park."

"When I call out to him, be careful not to make a mistake."

Toru?

[Maori] It's the first time I've ever seen a proper picnic basket like that.

My sister bought this

at a bazaar or something ages ago.

This is all I got.

Your sister?

Oh, sorry…

Have you ever told me about your sister?

[Toru] No, I think this is the first time.

Right.

I believe you said you live with your father.

My sister used to live with us a while back.

Our mother died early,

so my sister kind of took over for her.

Oh, I see.

Yeah.

Here.

[Maori] Wow, amazing!

It looks delicious.

[Toru] Because you said you wanted to try home-cooked food.

Then I'll have this.

Thank you for this.

Enjoy.

Then I'll have this one, too.

Hmm? It's really good!

- Is it good? - Yeah.

Good.

Toru, you're able to do all the housework,

is it your sister's influence?

That's part of it…

I have a notebook that my mother left us,

where she kept all the family's favorite recipes,

housekeeping instructions, where she kept the bankbooks,

and so on.

Wow, that's amazing.

She always had a weak heart,

so maybe she prepared for that.

I can see that.

You had a wonderful mother.

She cared more about others than anyone else,

and she was always the heart of the family.

She was like the sun.

Thank you for sharing something so important with me.

This might be the first time I've talked about this.

- What about you? - Huh?

Do you have a sibling?

I'm an only child.

I'm their precious, precious only daughter.

I think my father would flip out if he heard I had a boyfriend.

Don't blurt it out now.

You coming over and I'll say, "This is my boyfriend."

I've always wanted to do that.

[Toru] Please don't.

We're just in a fake relationship.

[ Maori sighs ]

It's funny.

[Toru] What is?

I don't often talk about myself this much.

When I'm with you, my mind doesn't race,

and I don't feel pain.

[ Romantic piano music playing ]

[ Music fades ]

Oh… you're awake?

Who… are you?

What?

I'm sorry. Huh?

- Why… am I here? - What's wrong?

Excuse me.

Hino!

[ Breathing heavily ]

[ Breathing heavily ]

[ Izumi, (trustworthy best friend) ] [ Have fun… ]

[ Phone ringing ]

[Izumi] Hello?

Sorry, Izumi, I'm… a little lost.

[Izumi] What's wrong?

I woke up in the park… with a boy I didn't know next to me.

[Izumi] Okay, just calm down for a second.

There should be a notebook in your bag, so read that first.

I'm coming to get you, so don't move.

What can you see from there?

[ Phone ringing ]

Hello?

[Izumi] Kamiya, where are you right now?

Sorry, Wataya. I'll call you later.

[Izumi] You're looking for Maori, right?

How did you know?

[Izumi] I'll explain everything later.

[ Anterograde amnesia ]

[ Once I fall asleep, I forget everything ]

[ See Toru's folder on the phone ]

[ Music swells up ]

[ Music fades ]

I'm so sorry.

[Maori] Anterograde amnesia.

This unheard-of memory impairment,

he silently listened to me all the way through.

I still have my memories up until the accident.

After that, all new memories

seem to be forgotten once I go to sleep.

Like earlier…

So I write in my diary and tell it to the "next day me."

Every day… Every day…

So you take lots of notes.

I'm sorry I got you into this weird situation.

Weird situation?

Having you pretend to be my boyfriend.

I took advantage of your guilt for confessing

even though you didn't like me.

Then it's my fault. Because I did a fake confession.

I guess it's not possible for me after all.

I think I'll be causing you more trouble down the road like I did earlier.

So let's just end--

If you don't write about today in your diary,

"Tomorrow's Hino" won't know about it, right?

That's true, but…

If that's the case,

why don't you not write it in your diary?

About falling asleep and talking about your memory loss.

Are you okay with that, Toru?

I enjoy hanging out with you, Hino.

Besides, who wants to feel bad about every mistake they make,

seeing it in their diary?

So, let's just pretend that today never happened.

Let's fool "Tomorrow's You" together.

But…

Maori!

Hino was asleep and just took off.

I was so surprised.

Yes! Maori has a tendency to sleepwalk.

Sometimes she moves around in her sleep for half an hour or so.

In the future, if Maori falls asleep, you should definitely call me.

[Toru] Okay.

[ After that, I told Toru about my memory loss ]

[ Footsteps approaching ]

Toru Kamiya, found you!

Thanks for yesterday. I had a great time.

Huh?

No, I had a great time, too.

[Maori] If I was really your girlfriend,

I'd be here to repay you back with lunch.

I'm really bad at that kind of thing.

[Toru] Yeah, I have a feeling that's the case.

Now that's rude.

You said it yourself.

What I say to myself and what other people say to me

have different meanings!

[ Camera shutter clicks ]

So huge.

- That ferris wheel… - Ferris wheel?

Okay, I'll do it.

Thanks.

[Maori] That looks delicious!

Ah!

Oh, shoot.

[Laughs] Yeah, shoot indeed.

Any book recommendations?

Maybe this one. Hirohiko Moriyama's "Paths."

Huh?

[Toru] We had an English proficiency test today.

[Maori] Think you did great?

[Maori] Ready? Bang!

- [Maori] What? Excellent luck - What? Yay!

[ Toru surprisingly got excellent luck!! ]

[Maori] "Favorite animal: penguins. Disliked animal: snakes."

[ Today is July 1 Substitute holiday! ] [ 1:00 p.m. - Meet in front of the station square ]

It's been a while since I rode a bike.

- [Toru] A little more. - A little more.

You can do it.

Yes, you have arrived.

[Maori] But it feels good.

- Right? - Yeah.

[Maori] Okay. Your turn.

What'd you wanna do after school tomorrow?

Tomorrow?

Anyway, let's do what you want to do.

I'll make "Tomorrow's Hino" have some fun, too.

[ I'll make "Tomorrow's Hino" have some fun, too. ]

[Izumi] "I'll make "Tomorrow's Hino" have some fun, too."

"My heart skipped a beat when he said that."

"This is the first time I've ever felt this way, right?"

"It's as if the hopelessness I felt this morning was a lie."

"Thank you, Toru."

[Fan 1] Ms. Nishikawa was so beautiful.

[Fan 2] So beautiful! I'll treasure this forever!

[Fan 1] She was so nice.

[ Akutagawa Prize nominated work, "Residue" book launch ]

[ Fumino Nishikawa's Book Signing ]

Thank you.

[Izumi] Thank you.

Thank you.

[Nishikawa] Hello.

Ah… Kamiya!

Oh, I knew you would be here too.

Unfortunately, the tickets were already--

[Nishikawa] Toru?

Ms. Nishikawa?

Ah… Sorry.

Why didn't you tell me?

I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I missed the timing.

[Izumi] That Fumino Nishikawa is your sister?!

I mean, I…

said a lot of arrogant things looking down on you.

Like geeky or something. Oh, man… that sucks.

No, but I actually think she's geeky, so don't mind it.

But I am shocked. She's very beautiful.

I don't need that kind of follow up.

Go talk to your sister.

But the meeting time is…

Just go, Maori will be going with me.

Ah, but I haven't met "Today's Hino" yet.

Tell me Kamiya, by any chance do you know?

I know about her memory thing.

Ah… I knew it.

The day at the park… did Maori tell you about it?

Yeah.

But she left out the part where she told me about it in her diary.

Why?

I asked her not to write it.

I wanted our relationship to keep going.

That's why "Today's Hino"

doesn't know that I know

about her memory loss.

So…

I'd appreciate it if you wouldn't tell Hino.

Okay.

[Maori] Wow! It's sparkling.

[ Camera shutter clicks ]

[Kid] Dad, there's a flat thing…

- [Mother] I wonder what it is. - [Father] Maybe it's a Batoidea.

[Maori] Even if I'm like this,

I wonder if I'll ever have a proper family.

When I have a baby,

I won't know every morning that it's my baby.

Even now, my diary is filled with daily events,

and I can't keep up with it every morning.

Oh… sorry.

It was a bit fainthearted.

[Izumi] I probably won't get married.

I mean, I think I don't want to.

When that time comes, let's both just have some fun.

Even if I am forever a high schooler?

Self-mockery! I've never heard that joke before.

You're funny.

[Toru] I was surprised to see you doing a book signing this close by.

[Sanae] The publisher insisted, and I couldn't say no.

Toru, have you lost some weight?

That's amazing. Akutagawa Prize.

I haven't won yet, so don't get ahead of yourself.

I've sacrificed…

the family and you to do this.

I…

wasn't sacrificed.

[Toru] We lost our mom to a heart condition.

My sister started doing all the housework.

Back then, when it was hard for her,

the world of books was her emotional support.

Is it fun?

[Toru] After Mom died,

Dad continued to work on his novels.

But Dad doesn't write as happily as he used to.

At some point,

my sister started writing novels in secret to impress Dad.

And she won a Literary Magazine's Newcomer's Award.

Before I knew it, her novels

had become a source of emotional support for me.

[Sanae] I understand.

Yes.

I'm very happy that you have high expectations for me,

but I don't want to inconvenience my family.

I'm sorry. Goodbye.

I learned to do all the housework, and you devoted yourself to your novels,

which made me so proud.

It wasn't a sacrifice.

That's why I supported you when you left home.

How's Dad?

Is he doing okay?

Same as ever.

But are you still gonna keep this from Dad?

I'll tell him when I get the results of the awards.

Properly.

So?

How about you, Toru? Do you have someone you like?

What?

[ Chuckles ] I can tell.

Not exactly a girlfriend… more like a friend.

She was in an accident and she's suffering from memory loss.

Once she goes to sleep, she forgets everything about the day.

So…

she keeps a daily diary of what she did that day.

If she doesn't reread the diary,

she'll forget about me, too.

[Sanae] But…

when she opens her diary,

you're always there.

Yes, that's why

I wanted to fill her diary with fun stuff,

and hope that every day she reads it,

she'll feel a little more positive.

I'm glad you found someone special.

Okay, I'm good here.

Thank you. See you soon.

Toru.

Take care of yourself for her.

Yeah. Don't worry.

[ Camera shutter clicks ]

He's here.

Ah!

So cute…

I'll buy it to make up for being late today.

[Maori] Really?

Then…

Let's have a matching one. As a pair.

Pair?!

It's an apology, right?

[Toru] Okay, sure.

[Maori] Yay.

Then…

- [Maori] Bye. - [Izumi] Yeah.

[Toru] See you tomorrow.

Kamiya, you've changed somehow.

What… Really?

Before, I thought you were more cold,

that you didn't even like Maori.

[ Chuckles ]

What? You're creeping me out.

[Toru] Right now…

I just want to make Hino's every day a happy one.

Even if Maori can't remember it?

Yeah, that's what I decided.

I see.

[ Vacuum cleaner whirring ]

[ To the person in charge of Literary World Newcomer Award ]

[Izumi] Hey.

The Akutagawa Prize will be announced this evening, right?

[ 171st Akutagawa Prize and Naoki Prize Announced Tonight ]

Yeah.

[Maori] I see.

Hey, since we're here, let's just all wait for the announcement.

Well… it's fine, but where?

Say…

my house, maybe.

What?!

Look, mine is the closest one.

Right?

[Izumi] Is that okay?

Okay. If you say so. Kamiya.

- Let's go! - What? What?

Is your father not home?

You said he would "flip out" if you tell him you've got a boyfriend, right?

[Maori] I told you?

I don't know how to greet him.

It's all right.

You don't have to say hello. We have a system.

[ Maori and Izumi giggling ]

[Toru] So what's this "system"?

Hey, are you listening to me?

Don't ignore me.

[Izumi] Hello, I'm coming in.

[Toru] I'm coming in.

I'll go tidy up real quick, so wait here.

What… wait, what?

I bought a pudding from Shie Mulloy's.

[Koji] What?! That place always has a waiting line.

It's not easy to get one!

Thank you, Izumi.

There wasn't much of a line today.

Oh, but in exchange, I have to get two.

- [Keiko] Oh. - [Koji] Of course.

[Keiko] I'm gonna get some drinks.

Come in.

I'm coming in.

Don't go through my underwear.

I won't.

I don't mind if it's just a peek.

I told you, I won't.

I'll go get Izumi.

Why are you panicking?

I am not!

- A lace's sticking out your pocket. - Lace?

It's an underwear lace!

[ Maori and Izumi laughing ]

[Toru] I told you.

[Maori] Here you go.

[Izumi] Thank you.

[Toru] This.

Huh?

I see you put it on your bag.

I put mine

on the house key.

What was it…

Come on, it's from the aquarium!

Oh… Right, right.

Doesn't this penguin look like Kamiya?

Oh… really?

Sorry.

I forgot the spoon for the pudding. I'll go get it.

[ Door opens then closes ]

Sorry.

I should go home tonight after all.

I have to make dinner.

Are you gonna run away?

Weren't you preparing for something like this?

[ I was in an accident and I lost my memory ]

[Izumi] You know,

Maori can't help but look at these every morning.

But she reads her diary, and it cheers her up,

and in the face of despair, she always smiles.

She never run away.

I thought you made up your mind.

You said you'd make Maori's everyday life fun.

[ Make sure to read this diary when I wake up ]

[ Fumino Nishikawa "Residue" ]

[ 171st Akutagawa Prize and Naoki Prize Award Ceremony ]

[Nishikawa] I don't know how it happened,

and frankly, I don't know how I feel right now, but…

[Yukihiko] Toru.

This Fumino Nishikawa…

You knew?

I knew.

Oh, I didn't know that.

Sanae ran away from this house to become a novelist.

Sanae

is nothing like you or me.

What makes her different?

[Toru] Big sis didn't run away.

She faced it. Her own life.

That's why…

that's why Sanae was making fun of me.

I'm a lousy father

and a terrible novelist,

so maybe she's always looked down on me.

What novelist, huh?

You've been running away ever since Mom died!

Toru, you bastard!

I don't…

want to run away anymore.

[Sanae] Toru!

It was your influence that made me

want to write novels.

At first…

I was writing to get away from who I am now.

But then, at some point, it wasn't.

I thought that by writing, I might be able

to connect with someone through my own words.

It got me thinking.

Dad,

you've been trying for years to write this novel for Mom, right?

I loved it when Mom would read them

so happily.

I guess…

I should have grieved better back then.

It was just too sudden.

I'm a father…

and I've put you two

through so much pain…

[Toru] But I'm grateful to you, Dad.

You raised us all these years.

And…

you're still there for us.

You're a great dad.

[ Yukihiro started crying ]

[ Knocking on door ]

Yes?

I thought it was meddling,

but your dad said you should think about it.

Thank you.

But…

it's still

impossible for me to go to art school now.

Oh… hey!

You're pretty laid back.

This is really good.

I was in the art club in junior high,

and I won an art contest once.

Give it back.

I see.

Once something like that is learned,

it's not easily lost.

[ Explained! Mechanism of Memory ]

[Maori] Is that so?

That's called "procedural memory."

"Procedural memory"?

[Toru] Like how to ride a bicycle, something sensory,

a memory that your body remembers.

Is that something you don't forget?

I know you said it while ago,

but didn't you get to ride a bicycle?

I think it's the same thing as "drawing."

Your body remembers it,

so the more you draw, the better you get at it.

"Procedural memory…"

[Toru] So go ahead and draw more and more.

Yeah.

No, I mean… not me.

You said to "draw more," remember?

I said it, but not me.

It's okay.

[Maori] You told me that even if I don't remember yesterday, I can still improve my drawing.

Even though I'm in this state,

you taught me that I can keep doing something.

I want to show "Tomorrow's Me" the Toru I see in these eyes.

With that wholeheartedly, I kept on drawing him.

Here.

He gives me a ray of hope every day.

Toru is tired and has fallen asleep.

My day always starts out feeling hopeless,

but as I spend time with him, it fills me with happiness.

Memories that don't accumulate

but something that may remain.

In my diary,

I seem to have fallen seriously in love with him.

[ 3. Don't fall in love with me ]

And I'm…

going to see him again today.

[ I hope you had as much fun as I did yesterday ]

[ Shonan-Katase Fireworks Display ]

Ah… the hair ornament.

Aren't you a little late to notice that?

It looks great on you.

Happiness is overflowing again,

and my memory will not be able to keep up.

[ Loud bang of a firework ]

And such an important moment,

I will forget it.

I'm going to forget this warmth, too.

[ Maori sobbing ]

[Maori] I don't want to forget… I don't want to forget.

You won't forget it.

No memory

can ever be completely lost.

Don't go anywhere, Toru.

I'll always be

by your side, Hino.

I'm sorry.

Toru.

My third rule…

is it okay if I break it?

I…

broke it a long time ago.

[Maori] Please.

I'll be as nice as I can to people.

I won't be selfish.

So…

I wish that I can continue to be by his side.

[Izumi] Even when autumn came and the sports and culture festivals were held,

and winter came and the snow fell,

[ Congratulations graduates ]

they remained as lovers.

[ Camera shutter clicks ]

I watched them from the closest distance,

and then

I was left behind.

[Maori] See you soon. Bye-bye.

Sorry for the wait.

Shall we go home?

Yeah.

- Hey… - Maori.

- Huh? - Let's go.

Yeah.

[Maori] Thank you so much.

[Izumi] For what?

If it weren't for you, I would never have gotten this.

You really did a great job. Good job.

That's exactly what I'm going to say to you.

You've made my life so much fun,

and the two of us will go to many places again.

Aquariums, picnics, fireworks displays.

Your home-cooked lunch box. So many memories.

I don't remember them, though.

That reminds me, what're you gonna wear to the thank-you party?

That one piece I bought the other day.

It looked good on you. I'll see you later then.

Yeah.

Izumi, you should get dressed up, too.

[Izumi] Okay.

Bye.

[Toru] See you tomorrow.

[Maori] See you tomorrow.

Thank you.

For what?

Maori.

When I first heard about it,

I honestly thought you two would break up soon.

I don't know when Maori will recover her memory,

and I thought that feelings of love don't last forever,

from watching my parents.

But looking at you and Maori,

maybe it's okay to believe in that

everlasting feeling of love a little bit.

I've come to like you too, Kamiya.

What?

You know,

I want to keep you in mind too from now on,

because you are one of my dearest friends, Kamiya.

What? Say something.

Wataya,

I need you to do me a little favor.

Huh… why all of a sudden?

[Toru] I…

might not have a good heart.

And…

I kind of collapsed yesterday.

It wasn't a big deal.

You know, my mother had a heart condition,

so I'm going in tomorrow for a checkup, just to be sure.

Oh, I see. But you know?

We don't have to be talking about that right now, right?

But… my mother died so suddenly.

I thought it would be better if I asked you about this while I still can.

If… If…

if I…

if something were to happen to me…

[ Toru Kamiya ]

Hey, I've been trying to call you.

How did the tests go?

[Sanae] Toru…

My little brother passed away this morning.

He collapsed last night with an irregular heartbeat and never regained consciousness.

My body trembles

and I feel myself being swallowed up by it.

I was…

defenseless against his death.

After much hesitation, I told Maori

of Kamiya's passing.

I've forced her to deal with grief I couldn't handle on my own.

I know I shouldn't have shared it with her.

[ Maori hyperventilating ]

[ Sad music playing ]

It's strange.

Even though I don't remember him.

I only saw his face in pictures…

I don't remember him being in my diary.

It's strange.

It's not strange.

To everyone's eyes,

you two were perfect for each other.

There's nothing strange about that.

[Izumi] In the end, she couldn't make it to the wake.

Maori's mental state was definitely breaking down.

I couldn't take it all anymore,

so I turned to Kamiya's sister.

I see.

Thank you for letting me know

that Toru did that.

You know, when Toru was still alive,

he once told me about Ms. Maori.

He wanted to fill her diary with fun stuff,

he said so happily.

He hoped that through her diary,

she would live each day a little more positively.

So I wonder

if Toru imagined it himself after he was gone.

Every morning when Maori opens her diary

and faces the death of her boyfriend, whom she has no memory of, over and over again.

[Toru] If something happens to me,

I want you to erase me from Hino's diary.

What the hell…

[Toru] If I don't appear in Hino's diary,

in her mind, it never happened.

Are you really okay with that, Kamiya?

[Toru] Hino and I didn't know each other before the accident.

Maori Hino and I haven't actually met yet.

So make sure you erase me out of it.

For me, Wataya, you are a dear friend.

If it pains you,

I will take care of tampering her diary.

Do you think it's a good idea?

Toru entrusted you with it.

So, Ms. Wataya, you decide,

and if you can't decide, then you can blame it on me.

I have…

my own reasons for carrying on my brother's dying wish.

[Izumi] I imagined the decision

that Kamiya had entrusted to me, a tomorrow that may break Maori.

[Keiko] Here.

It's okay. She's sleeping soundly.

I will return her diary as soon as I make a copy of it.

Can you also help me with her phone?

[ Meet with Toru in the classroom after school. ]

[ Meet with Izumi in the classroom after school. ]

[ Toru dozed off. ]

[ Sanae sobbing ]

[ Izumi, after graduation, let's have lots of fun! ]

[ Always write in the diary before going to bed ]

[ I was in an accident and I lost my memory. Read the diary on my desk. ]

[ Read the diary on my desk. ]

[ Don't forget about Toru Kamiya ]

[ Izumi starts to cry ]

[ Make sure to read this diary when I wake up ]

[ So I wish that I can continue to be by his side. ]

[ Next year, and the year after, and beyond that, forever, please… ]

[ Running footsteps approaching ]

[ Knocking on door ]

Come in.

Izumi.

Ah… Sorry.

I'm just gonna paint the last detail.

You can just sit down.

Somehow,

I just keep painting pictures of him.

The man in my sketch pad.

Like my hand remembers it,

over and over again.

[ Izumi crying ]

What's wrong?

I'm sorry.

I've taken away your precious memories.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

This is the real diary you were writing.

I'm so sorry

that I kept this from you until now.

I see.

I guess I caused you a lot of trouble again.

Thank you.

For honoring the dying wish of someone special to me.

[Maori] Monday, May 27th. A surprise happened.

[Toru] Excuse me.

Will you go out with me?

At first, it was just a spark.

Okay.

I'll take advantage of his confession.

Even for someone like me, I thought I could step into a new world.

How about we "pretend to be a couple"?

Pretend to be a couple?

I have three conditions.

Conditions?

Yes.

1.

We don't talk to each other until after school.

It takes time to sort through memories.

2.

Keep our messages as short as possible.

[ Phone dings ]

"Yesterday's Me" don't want to bring up the subject again.

3.

Don't fall in love with me.

To me, who can't make memories.

I'm not allowed to have romantic feelings.

[ 3. Don't fall in love with me ]

[Toru] I'll make "Tomorrow's Hino"

have some fun, too.

But he knew about my memory loss.

Let's fool "Tomorrow's You" together.

He pretended that he didn't know.

I can't make memories, but he gave my every day a shining one.

"Procedural memory"?

So go ahead and draw more and more.

To me whose memories are not connected to tomorrow.

He gave me a reason to live.

Toru dropped one of the ice creams,

so this is the second one today.

How's the taste?

It tastes sad.

[ Maori laughs ]

- [Maori] As he said. - [Toru] Yes.

Maybe you don't know him.

[Maori] What?!

[Maori] Think you did great?

Maybe I shouldn't have asked that.

[Toru] What about you?

[Maori] Until the day before he passed away,

he stayed by my side.

[Maori] Where are we?

[Toru] This is Kugenuma Inari

When I was little, my family used to come here for New Year's visits…

[Maori] He never wanted anything in return,

he just gave me memories.

Oh… here it comes.

Above…

[Maori] But…

I kept losing it.

The time and events with him only exist in my diary.

[Toru] No memory

can ever be completely lost.

[ Don't forget about Toru Kamiya ]

[Maori] So…

please, God,

let the time I spent with him be etched in me.

[ Don't forget about Toru Kamiya ]

[ Fumino Kamiya / Toru Kamiya ]

[Sanae] But I'm really glad you're recovering from your memory loss.

Fortunately.

But…

I…

still don't remember Toru.

I'm filled with happiness while I'm reading the diary,

but I don't remember any of it.

Eventually everyone will forget about him.

Someday in my life too… Toru will become a part of my past.

But…

I think that's how we all live.

So…

don't neglect your future, okay?

I won't.

But…

still,

if everyone is going to forget about him,

I'd like to slowly get him back.

Because there must be something

inside of me that is important to him.

[Izumi] I'll have this.

Yeah, it's good.

I didn't know you could cook.

[Maori] That's rude. I can do this too.

Izumi.

Yeah?

I have something to report.

What is it?

You see,

I've decided to go to art school.

I thought you might say that.

What? I thought you'd be surprised.

[Izumi] "Procedural memory," right?

Yeah.

I think Toru

wanted to tell me that there are things

that accumulate even if I have no memory of them.

So I didn't want to let that thought go to waste.

That sounds like Kamiya.

[Maori] Really?

Yeah.

I see.

I'm so full.

It was surprisingly delicious.

Surprisingly?

Oh… you're awake?

[Maori] In this world that is constantly being lost,

there are things that remain that never fade away.

Toru is definitely inside me.

Even if this love disappears from the world,

my heart will paint you.

♪ Your right hand is poking my cheek

♪ On my left hand, a lukewarm mug

♪ Your right eyebrow droops a little

♪ It rained a lot this morning

♪ Just one is fine

♪ Just one of the unscattered peonies is fine

♪ Striking your chest

♪ With enough happiness that makes you lose your heart

♪ Just one is fine

♪ Fumbling around in the middle of the night

♪ Without knowing left from right

♪ The silence while going alone

♪ If only that one thing could be taught

♪ Your left eyebrow droops a little

♪ I'm not good at remembering things

♪ It seems I'm unable to undеrstand

♪ The novel I once bought is thеre in your right hand

♪ Oh wait, or is that your left hand?

♪ Just one is fine

♪ Just one sunlight during the evening

♪ A sentiment that strikes your chest and peeks into your heart

♪ Just one is fine

♪ I hope you're able to feel the hailstorm dancing around in the summer

♪ That will makes you won't close your eyes

♪ I will peel my heart off my body a little piece at a time

♪ And hand it to you, I'll give you all of it

♪ Whether it's a ruby from the handle of my sword

♪ Or a sapphire from my eyes

♪ Just leave behind that lead heart of yours near me

♪ Just one is fine

♪ Just one of the unscattered peonies is fine

♪ Striking your chest

♪ With enough happiness to makes me forget my tears

♪ Just a little bit is fine

♪ With enough sun to stop today's drizzle

♪ Just a little bit is fine

♪ A little trace of my footprints within your world

♪ I wonder if you know what your own joy is

♪ It's not just a single thing

♪ Fumbling around in the middle of the night

♪ Without knowing left from right

♪ There's still a long way to go from here on

♪ It's just me who not laughing

♪ If only that one thing could be taught

♪ No matter what I eat, there's no taste to it

♪ It appears as if my body has disappeared

♪ Your heart and my heart

♪ I always thought they were one and the same

[ Even if This Love Disappears From the World Tonight ]