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Previously on
"Braxton Family Values"...

I was always very
passive-aggressive

when it came
to my sisters.

So you want them
to respect your choices?

Yes, and have boundaries
with those choices.

So you be comin'
to California,
you Secret Squirrel.

Well...

You workin'
on something,
I can tell.

Trina, do not tell
your other sisters.

We're going to
an acting institute.

'Cause, you know,
this has been my passion

- for a very long time.
- Mm-hmm.

I would prefer to act
than sing.

This is it from
the thoracic outlet
syndrome?

That's correct.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

- I'm, like, healed.
- You are.

- I can sing now, right?
- Absolutely.

- Yeah, you can do everything.
- I want everything.

♪ We are the Braxtons
and you'll see ♪

♪ That we are not like
an ordinary family ♪

♪ Toni, Traci,
Towanda, Trina ♪

♪ Tamar and Miss E will ♪

♪ Teach you
a thing or two ♪

♪ On "Braxton Family
Values." ♪

I like when there's mirrors,
like, behind somebody

because you can act like
you're looking at somebody,

but you can really
just check out yourself.

We're back in Atlanta

and I invited
all my sisters to dinner,

'cause I've been keeping
a little secret,

and I think
it's time to tell 'em.

Well, I had an audition

for this prestigious
acting school in L.A.

So what happened?

- I got in!
-Yay!

I mean, so this
is what she been

so secretive about,

and that's why she's been
to L.A. so often?

'Kay.

It was really,
really good.

So you actually
have to audition

to get into
this school.

I'm just happy that
you're finally seeing it

- come together.
- Yeah.

- You know what I mean?
- Yeah, and I'm finally doing

something that
I really wanna do.

- Yeah, that you want to do.
- Not the family.

What is wrong with
being with the family?

No. That's just a term
of "the family"--

I'm just trying to figure out--
I don't even know where that
came from.

- What, "the family
wants you to do"?
- Yeah.

Because sometimes
you just go--

if you go--
you don't go
against the grain,

and you're thinking, okay,
this is our family business--

because singing
wasn't my first love.

That has never been
my first love.

I've always had
a passion for acting.

I just think it's time
to get an agent

to really pursue the things
that I really wanna pursue.

It's just time.

-Hey, girls.
-Hey.

Where am I sitting?
Where my seat?

-
Wherever you want.
- I'ma sit here.

Hey. What is this...

- What's goin' on, divas?
-Towanda has some news.

Tell me.

I got into
the Lee Strasberg
Acting School.

- You did?
- I did.

- Congratulations.
- Thank you.

I think Towanda's
a natural at acting.

I think that's her thing.

I'm really excited
about her doing it.

I mean, she didn't
have to keep it a secret
for so long, though.

She could've just told us
"I'm taking acting lessons,

I'm trying to get
into this acting school."

We would've been
her cheerleaders.

- So you gonna move
to L.A.?
- No.

Right, Toni.
I didn't even
think about that.

- Look at God.
- I didn't say that.

Why you gonna go
to school in L.A.

if-- if you gonna go--

how are you gonna do that,
you're living in Atlanta?

I'm just gonna
have to be bi-coastal
for a while

until I finish
my courses.

So you're moving
to L.A. for a while?

Yeah.

You held that back,
didn't ya?

I don't like
that word "move."

What-- what you wanna--
you relocate.

You know what word
I don't like? Denial.

Come on, now.
Come on, Jesus.

I mean, to be honest about it,
she ain't gotta keep it from me,

because, you know, I ain't
the mouth of the South.

That's Toni Braxton,
living legend, not me.

So if she's in school,
more power to you.

Get your life.

Mm!

I've been really
clumsy lately.

No, you've always
been clumsy with food.

I think I have been
clumsy with food.

I'm working on eating better,
so when I go out on dates.

That's a good idea.

I'm trying to
go on a date tonight.

We'll let you
go on a date.

Well, let's go
on that date.

And God is good!

Well, this one guy,
he's a really nice guy

I really like him--
maybe.

You really like him?!

Did you hear that?

- I think I might like him.
- No, no! You just said!

"I really like him"!

Toni got her daddy.

Daddy, daddy,
daddy, daddy!

- Daddy, daddy, daddy.
-♪ I like a man ♪

♪ I can rely on ♪

- ♪ Uh-huh, uh-huh... ♪
- ♪ That I rely on ♪

- ♪ What, what, wha-what? ♪
- ♪ That's what she got ♪

- ♪ That's what she got! ♪
- ♪ She said, what,
daddy, daddy, daddy. ♪

♪ What?
That song is daddy ♪

♪ Yup, that song
is daddy. ♪

♪ Toni Braxton
got a daddy. ♪

- Hey!
- Damn.

- ♪ Da-Daddy, daddy... ♪
- She ain't denying it,
neither. Wait.

- ♪ A kiss from Daddy. ♪
- She's dancing to it.

- She's dancing to it!
-What is that?

Who?
Who you datin'?

I'm gonna have to find out
who this man is, okay?

- You kiss him yet?
- I'm not telling.

She ain't got to answer.
She said she really
like him.

- She know she did.
- Did you let him
smell it?

- What? No!
- She-- she kissed him.

I'm just, like,
it's about time

that Toni Braxton
is datin' right now.

She needs to
get it on.

I don't think
Toni been on a date
since Desert Storm.

I don't know.
I'm not really sure.

So it's been dry.

It's time to get those
cobwebs swept out, Tone.

I have something
I want all of us

to go to
with me, please?

- I'm-- I have
an appointment...
- About what?

...and I want
all you guys
to go with me.

- I wanna go.
-You wanna go?

Wait, hold-hold-hold it.
What kind of appointment?

- I'll go.
I don't care where it is.
-I care.

- Thank you, Toni.
- Where?

- Will you go?
- I don't know
what it is.

Why you gotta know
what it is?

Towanda, I ain't here
for your surprises.

Last time we
was talkin' about
the birds and the bees.

That was for Brooke.

Did it hurt
when you had sex?

Yes, it did.

It was not enjoyable.
Matter of fact,
I want it back.

I just feel like Towanda

set us up
and tried my life

by, you know,
giving us the "birds
and the bees" jeopardy.

I'm not here for that.

Where you going, Towanda?

- To the doctor's.
-Which one? OBGYN?

- To get what?
- Yeah.

-I will
tentatively go.
- Okay.

- I will go.
-I will go.

I think you
should tell us
something.

Yeah, that's
so damn stupid.

Just tell us.
Just tell us
what it is.

What's wrong with--
what's wrong with just
goin' and supportin' me?

Such a Secret Squirrel
all the time. Jeez.

Why are you driving?

'Cause you
are not driving me.

Wait a minute.
Hold up. I was driving.

Traci and I decided that,
you know, we love our life

and... we're not willing

- to put our lives
in jeopardy.
- No. That's Trina.

'Cause your phone
is ringin' or you had
a text message.

I don't text and drive.
I don't play that.

I do not play
text and driving.
That's dangerous.

And you want to put
music on and-- oh, God.

We're on the way
to Towanda's mystery
appointment.

Towanda's been
keeping secrets

since she came out
of my mama's womb.

So what's goin' on?
What's really goin' on?

- I should be driving.
- The lies of life.

- You have your
seat belt on?
- Oh, yeah.

- I'm the driver.
- Lies.

What? I am
Jeff Gordon, baby.

- No.
-Really?

- I'm Miss Patrick.
- You're "Miss Don't Drive."

Hey, hon, but
we on our way.

I'll see you guys
soon. Bye.

Where-- where
do I go now?

In 950 feet,
please exit

Peachtree Industrial
Boulevard.

Which one,
north or south?

31-A 141.

You sure it's south?

That's what it says.
Look.

"North."
Sorry.

North.

Now, where the hell
we going to?

- That's the question.
- North.

- North.
- Oh (bleep)!
He's in front of me!

Oh, help!

Help!

Sorry.

Oh, my God!

- Wait a minute here.
- What...?

Tamar can't drive.
She scared the hell
out of me.

I mean, how do you
just get over like that

at the last minute?
You're on the exit

and you decide to
get back on the highway?
It was so dangerous.

- I made it happen.
- You was on the grass,
you was on the grass.

It's okay,
you did that before.

I never did that.

- Traci did that before.
- Yes, I have.

My nerves are shot.

What was I
supposed to say?

Turn right here.

You're getting off
on the wrong exit.

Hell, I ain't gonna
tell you no mo'!

Oh, my God.

- Hi!
- How are you?

- Good.
- You ladies excited?

- I'm excited.
- I don't know what it is.

I didn't tell them
exactly.

We're gonna sit
for a second. Thank you.

What is this,
Towanda?

I've got this appointment,

and I didn't
tell my sisters
what it was.

I just asked for them
to come and support me.

- Is it a facial place?
- She does everything.

She does dermo
and all that stuff.

She does tummy tucks, too.
And she does this procedure

that makes your va-jay-jay
look really small.

You're having
something to do
with your vagina?

- Yes!
- No!

Ding ding ding
ding ding ding!

Wait a minute, hold on.
We drove a whole hour

to come sit here

and play with your vagina?
This is crazy.

Don't play with your coochie.
You only got one.

Hi.

- This is Dr. Myla.
- Hi.

So you
the "coochie doctor"?

Uh, sort of.

So can you explain
to us what in the world

is she gonna have done?

It is vaginal
laser tightening.

You wanna put a laser
to your vagina?!

Towanda,
you're gonna get laser

vaginal rejuvenation?

Ooh, I didn't know
my sister was a freak.

You nasty.

She wants to
show you guys.

Yeah, I can show you.
You guys can come back.

I gotta see that.

Wait a minute.
Laser puss.

- I'm gonna sit right here.
- This a big ol' examining room.

Sit back,
we'll get your legs
in the stirrups,

and then I put
the laser in

- and just fire it--
- Fire it?!

It doesn't really
feel like much.

I'm sorry.
You about to really
do it right now?

- That's big!
-No, it's not.

For a procedure.
You just stickin'
something in there

just to--
that's big!

- Towanda; That's not.
- That's bigger
than a tampon.

- Dr. Myla:
It's bigger than a tampon.
-Thank you.

- What are
the glasses for?
- For us?

That's for you.
Yes, to protect
your eyes.

- Okay.
- Wait.

If we need something
to protect our eyes,

what is gonna
protect your vagina?

- All right.
- How long does
the process take?

It's quick.
Once she's all set up,

it takes about
five minutes.

I just know that
I'm gonna smell vagina,

and I don't know
how I feel about it.

You are not gonna
smell vagina.

I'm talking about
burnt up, laser vagina.

It's not-- it's not
bad at all. Seriously.

- Does it take layer away?
- It's like laser hair removal?

It resurfaces the layer
so it makes your body

make more collagen
in those areas.

The good cells
are rejuvenated.

It's really
a pretty set
procedure.

Oh, I have
a quick question.

How soon after
can you...?

- 72 hours.
- Okay.

Is she-- she's really
gonna get it done,
like, right now?

Mm-hmm.

I'ma watch.

Coming up on
"Braxton Family Values"...

- Why you bein' all secretive?
- I'm not being secretive.

I can't tell them.
They'll tease me about it
and make me uncomfortable.

I don't know
how to do that.

You don't know
how to do nothin'.

We have to have
a "Traci and Trina"
conversation.

- Okay.
- But I don't want

that opinionated
portion of it.

Opinions is like (bleep).
Either you like it or you don't.

Yes, uh-huh!

Dr. Myla:
It's really a pretty safe
fast procedure.

Is she-- she's really
gonna get it done,
like, right now?

- Mm-hmm.
-I'ma watch.

Girl, come on
and fry your--
your puss.

In boots.

So, you'll feel me touch.

Oh! She just stuck it
in there, like, whoa.

I'm in the wrong seat.
Scoot over, Trina.

Mine is pretty.

Why you wanna mess with it?
It is pretty!

I told you
it was pretty!

I thought it looked
like "Monsters Inc."

No, I told you,
it's very pretty!

You can model
your vagina.

I can.

Tamar, stop looking at it.
Now, that's enough!

Your butt cute, too.

- Stop it!
- No, you invited us.

You wanted us
to come.

Now, open your legs
and lay back.

I cannot believe
my sisters

are sticking their heads
down there

looking at
my "pocketbook."

Come on. Give me
some sort of privacy.

Maybe I shouldn't have
asked them to come.

- Move the cloth.
-I wanna see it.

-
- Ooh.

It's like
a semi-truck.

I just wanted to see

how the doctor was
fixin' to, you know,

burn up her vagina,
you know?

'Cause I expected it
to smell like

some synthetic hair burning
on a curling iron.

I wanted to see firsthand
what was goin' on.

All right, love,
you're-- you're done.

Ooh.

- Trina, really?
-Can I smell it?

- See if it smells like woman?
- You're gonna smell your
sister's va-jay-jay?

Smell it
so you can tell me
what it smell like.

It smells awesome!

I can't believe we
have the same parents.

It smells like nothing.

Towanda will try things.
She's the adventurous one
of all of us.

I personally
don't need it

because my vagina
hasn't been used

in a very, very
long time.

That's probably
way too much information.

Well, thanks, girls,
for coming with me!

You need help up
or anything like that?

You don't feel
anything?

Just a lot of breeze
'cause I don't have
anything on.

- You shouldn't
wear those panties.
- I have 'em in my hand.

- I'll take them.
- I got 'em.

I don't want you
to hold my panties.

I'm your sister.
I don't care.

Thank you, Toni.
Trina smelled it.

You smelled her
underwear?

No, I smelled her cooter.
And it smells amazing.

- More sustenance.
- Ooh, cupcakes.

Mm-wah, mm-wah.
You look pretty.

The charity organization,
MusiCares, is hosting
a concert

to honor the legendary
Grammy-winning singer-songwriter

my idol,
Smokey Robinson.

And I feel so humble
to be asked to be

a part of this
amazing event.

I couldn't ask
for a better way

to give back
and singing.

- What you been up to?
- Girl, layin' up

from rehearsing
so much.

I'm sorry you're not
feeling good, Tay.

I look like
I don't feel good, huh?

I can tell you
don't feel well.

So the Music Heritage event
is the first time

that I'm gonna be singing
since all of my hospitalizations

and all of the surgeries.

And I'm just
feeling overwhelmed,
a little nervous.

Oh, child, I was
comfortable. Uh!

- Both feet?
- If you keep
massaging my feet,

I'm gonna be sleep.

I did have to put down,
you know, music for a while

because really,
to be honest,

I couldn't sing
for a while.

You're gonna feel bad
for about three
to six months.

You've had the surgery,
and you're a singer,

and there's a rib removed.
How can you sing?

We use our rib cage
to expand our lungs to sing.

You won't be able
to do that.

- I won't be able to sing?
- You can't do no concerts.
I'm sorry.

I'm trying to
get you to relax.

I can't relax until I
find my sister a husband.

I am not
a charity case.

Well, why you
being all secretive?

I'm not
being secretive.

I'm not-- I mean,
I'm getting out there
again.

I can't tell them.
They'll tease me about it,

make me uncomfortable.
"Who's the guy?

What he's about,
what does he do?

Is he good enough for you?"
Which is great,

that's what family's
supposed to do,

but for someone
like me who's trying
to get back out there,

it can be jarring.

I think you need
an Anglo.

It can be
any color for me.
I don't care.

Don't have
to be light-skinned,
he can be chocolate.

They could be
Caucasian.

I've dated lots
of beautiful, gorgeous
men in my life.

Why do you like
gorgeous men?

Oh, my God,
it's so much work.

- Yeah.
- I'm not gonna--

You need you a nice,
little ugly dude

who's not gonna
take a long time
getting ready.

You got to stop
with these fine,
little lollipops, honey.

Toni, listen, you
gotta find you a guy

whose self-esteem
ain't too high.

Because if he got
a little low self-esteem, right?

he gonna always be
on his toes to keep

Toni Braxton,
living legend.
Take it from me.

First of all
I'm a alpha woman.

What's that mean, alphabet?

I'm like
a "dude" girl.

I don't know how
to do the soft stuff
to make a guy...

Toni, you're supposed
to be a little damsel
in distress.

Okay. You have to
show me how to do that

because I don't know
how to do that.

You don't know how
to do nothing.

I mean, look,
it's very important

for you to be "damsel
in distress" on a date.

You can't act like you have it
all the way together, right?

Because men
like to fix things.

And so if they feel like
they can't fix you up
a little bit

or fix you up
till they like it,
they don't want no part.

You can't be like,
"I'm a strong black wo--"

no, they don't
want that, mm-kay?

They act like
they want that, but they
really don't want that.

- Then you help me.
Just help me.
- Yes.

So I'm you
and you the guy.

"Oh, my God, I can't
get my TV to work.

Can you help me
fix my TV?"

Guys like that?

"Sure, baby,
I'll fix your TV."

And then you make
the man some pork skins,

and y'all live
happily ever after.
It's amazing.

- Hi, Tray-ray.
- Hi, Tri-tri.

Mm-wah.

I've decided to meet with each
of my sisters, one-on-one,

to discuss how they've all
been making me feel recently.

Dr. Harwick:
When you meet
with them together,

it's more difficult
to get your message
across.

What about
one-on-one?

Just one-on-one
with each of them?

Do I have this
four different times?

That can be difficult.

And it's gonna
take time.

I'm hoping they can learn

that I don't want them
to be critical of me.

Instead,
be more supportive.

And if they can do that,

then maybe I'll feel
more comfortable

talking to them
about another recent
decision I've made.

I'm sure
they may not agree,

but they should
accept my choices.

- But you look
fantastic-ola.
- Thank you.

What's goin' on
with you?

- Girl...
- Y-O-U.

- I have to
talk to you.
- What?

We have to have
a "Traci and Trina"
conversation.

Okay.

Traci has always been
the most nonjudgmental

and the most willing
to listen.

So I'm very at ease
starting with her.

I feel like my sisters,
as a whole--

they're like
a "can't" brigade,

telling me everything
that I "can't" do--

"Trina can't dance,
Trina can't cook,

Trina can't drive.
Trina can't, can't, can't."

- You can't drive.
- Yes, uh-huh.
Yes, uh-huh.

Guess what, you know what?
According to the DMV,
yes, I can,

because if I couldn't drive,
I wouldn't have been
an administrative driver.

Trina, but your
sense of direction.

Can I talk to you seriously
for just one second, though?

Yeah, but that
was serious, though.

"Trina can't
shoot a firearm,
Trina can't do this."

I mean, it's like
so many can'ts
in my life.

I'm like, you know what?
I need to be able to

accentuate
the positives.

You know,
I'm-- I'm behind you.

I appreciate it
more than you know

because no matter what
my life decisions are

with a significant other,

or anybody, if you
really wanna know
the truth.

You're that go
with the flow person,

and I appreciate that
about you.

Traci is always
a great person to talk to.

I feel like
she's understanding

what I need from her
and what I want from her,

especially when
it comes to our sisterhood.

So I'm asking you
what do you think

is the best approach
for me to talk
to the girls?

I don't think they need
to know what's going on
with your life, anyway,

until you get
your life settled.

Because it's your life,
it's your decisions.

Why you need somebody
to validate what's
goin' on with you?

You're right.
And that's what I was
telling my counselor

that sometimes
I feel like

they want me to want
their validation.

It's like it's not--
it's not viable

until I have that validation,
and I don't like that feeling.

It's like
a double-edged sword,
though, Tray,

because sometimes
I'm gonna wanna be
able to talk to you.

Sometimes I wanna
be able to get
your opinion.

It doesn't mean
that I am asking,

so I'm gonna do it--
whatever it is that
you suggest.

It's just like sometimes
I just wanna vent
and I wanna talk,

and I don't wanna talk
to the outside world
about it.

I wanna talk to
my sisters about it.

But I don't want that
opinionated portion of it.

Do you understand
what I'm saying?

Mm-hmm.
I hate to say this.

They our sisters,
I love them to death,

but opinions
is like (bleep),

either you like it
or you don't.

We are all
very opinionated

because we got it
from our mama.

Holding our tongues
is a very hard thing
to do.

But I will
take that into account
from now on, okay?

But I don't think
that you need to

tell your sisters
everything.

Well, I-I don't feel
like I need to tell them

everything
that's going on
in my life,

but I would just
like to talk to them

about the things--
individually, first--

that I would like
to address

that affect me
and make me feel bad.

Go ahead.

The conversation with Traci
went really well.

Up next, I think
I'm gonna talk to Towanda

as I work my way up
to talking to

the most critical
of the sisters.

But I appreciate it,
I appreciate you

listening to me
and talking to me.

All right.
Clink-clink on it.

Clink, clink,
clink, clink...

Ms. Evelyn:
Tay, what's the face?

What is that,
the mask?

It is, um--
it's called

a "Call to Worship"
for your skin.

Oh, God...

And what does that do?

You know, you go
before God,

and, you know,
get your skin together.

Thank you, Jesus.

And it hydrates, right?

It hydrates,
make your makeup
stay on.

It's just, you know,
makes everything...

- Okay.
- Yeah.

Okay.

I was asked to perform
at the MusiCares concert

honoring Smokey Robinson.

Of course, she had
to come, honey.

He asked her!

- I don't know
if this is mine.
- That was mine, Mama.

- Oh, my God!
- What?

Don't say stuff
like that.

Ugh-hh!

'Cause you drank
after me?

- You tryin' it.
- Well, that's how
you tried it today.

'Cause you didn't wanna--
you thought you were
drinking after me.

No, but I asked
everybody in the room.

- At least four of us.
- It'll kill you,
it'll kill me.

- How 'bout that?
- Okay, Mommy.

I wanna change my outfit,
this is how I'm looking at it.

As excited as I am,

as "nervouscited"
as I am to perform,

because I haven't in,
like, such a long time--

it's been
like six months--

this is not like a typical
Tamartian concert, you know?

This is
to honor Smokey.

I just think if
I'm gonna "dress up"
dress up like that,

like, it takes away
from the funkiness

and the edge
and the "jeuje"
that I'm putting on.

And so I don't feel
like I have to put
too much on,

I don't have to be
dressed up like that.

Why can't I
get on the stage
and just be me

and sing
my throat off?

I'm so nervous.

I can't get
my mind together,

I can't get
my thoughts together.

This is
my first performance

since given a clean bill
of health

from all of the surgeries
and all of the issues

that I've been
going through medically.

And, for me,
this performance,

it kinda means
whether or not

am I ready
to perform again?

Can I go on tour?

Is singing
even an option for me

at this point
in my life?

So we'll see.

Coming up on
"Braxton Family Values"...

I just thought
you should've dressed
a little more formal.

I mean,
Toni Braxton tried it...

- That's like rehearsal.
- Who goes to rehearsal
like this?

Get up!

I feel like you
pick on me on purpose.

I think it's ridiculous.

I don't know if
I would define it

as "pick on Trina,"

I probably do,
though, maybe.

And while we're
on the subject,

there's another thing
that I don't like.

This is like the first time
I've been on stage

in, like, six months.
How do I say this

without it coming across
the way that I don't
want it to come across?

Okay. "It's an honor

to sing for Smokey

and definitely sing
his records.

But, for me, it's about

not really is it still there,
but "is it really still there?"

- Yeah.
- Does that make sense?

Listen, I have
an uber amount of anxiety.

And I just feel like
everything has to work out,

like, the outfit
gotta be right.

You know, I just kinda
wanna be dressed down.

didn't want the
outfit to overpower
the performance.

I have a denim
trench coat coming.

So, I'm starting with...

These'll work.
I can hold your hand.

You want me
to walk like Whoopi?

- Whoopi?
- Yeah.

- Okay, well, Whoopi--
- On "Jumping Jack Flash."

- It's a mean tip.
- I can't walk in those.

That's why they
sittin' up in there.

All the rest of them
are, like, sparkly and...

Is that how
you're feelin'?

Sparkly shoes
is different than

a sparkle
from head to toe.

Well, here's the thing--
I don't wanna get onstage,

you know, singing
Smokey Robinson songs,

looking like, you know...
an old lady.

Okay, I said it.
And the reason why
I don't wanna do that

is because I've been
gone for so long

and I just don't want
to remind people

that I've been sick.
And being sick is kinda
being associated

with, like,
being a little old.

And I won't
put that out there.

Well, don't you think
it'd be kinda cool

if I dressed down
a little bit onstage

since I'm singing
these "auntie" songs?

What you think about,
like, jeans and, like,

a trench coat?

I don't know.

If I take off slow,
you can't hear it.

But if I try to,
you know, press accelerate

really hard, you hear

I already talked
to Traci one-on-one,
and that went well,

so now I want to sit down
with Towanda

and talk about
some of my issues.

I hope this time
she's more receptive
to what I have to say.

Okay,
thank you.
Okay.

Hey, Trini.

- You ordered me
some wine?
- I did!

What's going on,
Trini-wini?

Girl, not a bunch
of anything.

What is it?
It has to be
something, Trina.

Well, do you remember
I attempted a conversation

- with you and Monster?
- Which one?

When I said that I've
been seeing a therapist?

Yes.

It makes me feel
really bad

when you guys
keep telling me
what I can't do.

"Trina can't dance,
Trina can't drive."

Can you drive?

Nothing got accomplished

except for me
telling them how feel.

And it's like,
"Oh. Oh, okay.
I hear you."

But you're not
hearing me.

And I feel like
my conversation

wasn't being taken
seriously.

- Really?
- Yes!

I don't like it
when sometimes

when I talk to you,
I'm ganged on.

- I gang on you?
- Yes.

Okay.

And then sometimes
I feel like, with you,

I'm like Charlie Brown.
I feel like you pick on me
on purpose.

I don't know if I
would define it as

"pick on" Trina.
I probably do, though.

Maybe. Maybe.

You treat me
like I'm slow.

- That's the best situation.
- We do not...

- Everybody treats me like
I'm a little bit slow.
- treat you like you're slow.

- Who treats you
like you're slow?
- All of y'all.

- Treats you
like you're slow?
- Yes.

I'm a very capable person.

Okay. You know how,
like, when you're
so used to stuff,

and we just laugh
and joke and pick on
each other...

we have.
That's just what
we've done.

That's not fun
for me to feel picked on.
That's not fun for me.

Okay.

And while we're
on the subject,

there is another thing
that I don't like.

You give
justificational laughs,

'cause you laugh
at everything.

I do laugh
at everything.
I do.

But it's not
always funny.

Especially when things
make people feel bad.

It's not funny
when people feel bad.

Now, we all know
that I've been "thinners"

- for 98% of my life.
- Yes.

When I was going through
stressful problems

- in my life--
- Mm-hmm.

Do you remember our sister
called Jenny Craig on me?

- Yes, I remember.
- And you laughed.

Because I think
it's ridiculous

'cause even at that time,
I didn't think--
you were not big.

No, I wasn't.
I wasn't.

And then after that,
it just catapulted

and made it worse--
it made it worse.

When you laugh, it makes
other people laugh.

Lifts up that heavy stuff.

But it doesn't
always feel that way.

- I understand what
you're trying to do.
- Yeah.

- But I'm sorry.
- And I understand
the place

that it's coming from
that you're telling me,

but sometimes it's just
an inopportune time.

I'm sorry, Trina,
and I'm gonna really
work on it.

Honestly,
I'ma work on it.

Okay.

Towanda is seemingly
sincere

about changing her attitude
and her behavior

when it comes
to laughing at me.

And I really think

that it's gonna take
a little bit of time,

but I really do believe
that she's gonna work
on the laughing part.

I can't promise you
anything

because some
of that stuff
is funny,

but I'm gonna
work on it.

You're not the "bunt"
of everybody's joke,

just to let you
know that.

- You're not.
- I receive that.

And I know sometimes
you feel that way,
and it's so not true.

Yeah, I do.

Thank you for sharing
and letting me know

how I was making you feel

because had you not told me,
I would've never known.

And now that we
can grow from it,
because you told me.

Traci and Towanda
seemed open to my feelings,

and I'm hopeful
that they really wanna take

everything I said
to heart.

- Oh, Trini-wini-wini.
- Thank you.

- I love you.
- I love you, too.

Stop treating me
like Charlie Brown.

I'm not gonna
do that anymore.

-How are you today?
-Good. Hi.

-How are you
doing today?
- Oh, amazing.

- Hi.
-Can we
get a still shot?

Yes, yes, yes.
For sure, for sure.

- And then with me and Mommy.
- Yeah, absolutely.

You look beautiful.
What are you wearing
tonight?

Oh, my God.
Of course you asked me
'cause I just forgot.

- Okay.
- Yeah. I know she's
an Indian designer.

This is my first time
singing in six months

since I got sick
on "Dancing With the Stars."

How is your health?
How are you doing?

I'm doing amazing.
I feel amazing.

I feel like
the old Tamar.

- Thank you, guys.
-Thank you.

-Have a good night.
Take care.
-Thank you.

Why does it
smell like ham?

I must be really hungry.
All I smell is ham.

Hey, Tay.

It's Toni Braxton,
living--

girl, you better work.

Well, my hair's so fuzzy.
I had to do it myself.

Look at your outfit.

- Oh, don't you look--
- Mm-wah!

- Hey, everybody.
- Makeup man: I got you.

We're about to leave
right now.

So, listen, Toni,
do you like my outfit?

So everybody's
dressed kinda casual?

Casually cute.

So I'm gonna be
dressed I'm going
to the Golden Globes.

No, no.
You good, you good.

What I just wore
on the red carpet
was a dress.

Okay. So now you can do
performance clothes?

- Yes.
- Okay.

I have to go
so you have to
do this one curl.

- You look cute, Mama.
- Thank you.

I think so.

Tamar, do you mind?
I'm just gonna be
20 seconds.

Do I mind if you beat?
Get your life.

I gotta
run some powder.
Let me see.

Turn around.
Let me see the back.
Turn around.

Okay. Let me
see the jacket.

- That's kinda
fabulous, Toni.
- It is, definitely.

See, I can't wear
stuff like that.

I'm too short.
No, it's too heavy
for me.

I look like
mini people.

Do I love it, though?
Now you gave me
doubt, Toni.

Why don't she
have a belt?

No, no, no, no,
no, no, no. no.

You don't want no belt
with no one-piece.

- That's a one-piece?
- Yeah.

- What do you think, Mama?
- Let me see. Stand up.

I just thought
you should've dressed
a little more formal.

That's like rehearsal.

Who goes to rehearsal
like this?

- Livin' people.
- Get up!

Coming up on
"Braxton Family Values"...

Some of Grammy's
biggest artists

is in the audience
staring at me.

And I'm just like,

"You better make
this here count, child."

Coming up to the stage,
Tamar Braxton.

I am really wondering

why my relationships
always turn so sour.

I don't wanna say,
oh, they all stem
from daddy issues.

It still hurts you,
and it's okay to say
it hurts.

Come on, superstar.
You wanna taste Mommy's tea?

- This is what happens.
- Yuck!

Yuck? Okay.

Vince, how your son
come to me talkin' about
he wanna come see me sing,

but "psycho boy" just
wanna lay on the bed
and watch TV

- and order room service?
- That sounds about right.

- Do I hear Logan?
-Yep.

Logie!

Let me see
your new pajamas.

- He got a blueberry.
- You got a blueberry?

'Kay, put it right here
for T, 'cause I'm gonna
eat it later.

Put it right there.
Thank you, nephew.

Such a good nephew.
I love your pajamas.

- Toni!
-

"Auntie Toni."

Who goes to rehearsal
like this?

Livin' people.

Get up!

Talking 'bout
I'm going to rehearsal!

I mean...

- Patti LaBelle go
to rehearsal like that.
- No, she don't.

I performed with Patti.
She did not dress like that.

She had on some
Loubotin flats.

Some-- she didn't
even have on jeans.

She had on "slacks,"
is what Mommy and them
call it.

I never said "slacks."

You know Mommy age group--
they call 'em "slacks."

Like, I wish you had,
like, Mommy's jacket on
with that.

You want this jacket?

- You wanna wear this?
- I can't fit in that.

- You could probably fit this.
- I can't fit that shirt.

I bet you you can.
First of all, I got--

I'm 5' 7" right now,

with my dated
Christian Louboutins.

You gotta be an artist,
you gotta look like a star

whenever you're onstage.
I don't think Tamar

should make it so...
"take me out to
the ballgame."

Wear this.
This will fit you.

I mean, Toni Braxton
tried it and told me

that my outfit
look like I'm fixin' to
go to rehearsal,

but she is Toni Braxton,
living legend.

So I have to listen to her,
and be like,

"Ooh, girl, that ain't right.
Thanks for telling me, boo."

It's a little too long
in the crotch, anyway.

I was faking it.

Try this on.
Let's switch.

Let's switch right now.
Let's switch.

Okay, let's see.

Okay, Toni decides
she don't like my outfit.

She liked hers better,
and we need to swap.

And she's right.
Her outfit do look
better on me.

-
- I did.

- That's what
sisters do, huh?
- Yeah.

I look like I work
at Nordstrom's.

No, you look like
you my sister.
You killin' it.

Perfect.
That's perfect.

Thank you.
Thank you much.

-All right, girl.
Love you.
- Love you.

You got my "ears"?

They're
right here.

Coming up to the stage,
Tamar Braxton.

It's such an honor
for me to be here tonight.

So tonight I'm performing
my Mom's favorite song,

"Who's Loving You."

And I just hope
I do it justice

because she used to
sing the life

out of that record
growing up.

♪ I treated you bad ♪

♪ Ooh... ♪

♪ And wrong,
my dear... ♪

Some of Grammy's
biggest artists

is in the audience
staring at me,

and I'm just like,

"You better make
this here count, child.

All right? You better
remind these folks

why you are here."

♪ Gotta know ♪

♪ Who's loving you? ♪

♪ You ♪

So I do!

She killed it.

Thank you so much.
Good night, everybody.

Hello!

So thanks
for coming back in.

I know last time
we talked about
family dynamics.

How has that been
for you?

Um, it's still
a bit of a struggle.

You know, um--
when you're working
on boundaries

it's never
an easy thing.

But as I am
rediscovering things
about myself,

I am really
wondering

why my relationships
always turn so sour.

Mm-hmm.

And I honestly
really feel like

I need some type
of closure

for my last
relationship.

It was so angry
on both sides

to where
we both didn't make
great decisions.

I have to really sit
and think about

- the role
that I played...
- Mm-hmm.

...in, you know,
the demise of my
relationships.

I don't wanna say,
oh, they all stemmed
from daddy issues.

My dad was always there.
He was always a good
provider.

And like up until,
you know, their divorce,

he was always
a very instrumental part
of our lives.

How do you think
that influenced

how you view other men
in your life?

Um, I think
the relationship

that I struggle with
the most

is the one
with my "was-band."

I still have
some unanswered questions.

Coming up on
"Braxton Family Values"...

What do you want?

There is
a little part of me

that still misses
the relationship with Gabe.

Hey, Gabe.
It's Trini.

Um... I think
the relationship

that I struggle with
the most

is the one
with my "was-band."

Gabe and I
are divorced

and the last thing
I wanna do

is drudge up
old feelings.

But a lot of those things
don't affect just me.

They affect the boys.

So there are some questions
that I have even with Gabe

as to "Why don't you
come around?"

Because they
didn't do anything wrong.

I wanted to make sure
that my kids

didn't suffer
the same fate I did.

You put a lot
of pressure
on yourself.

I just cared more
about our family unit

than I did the situation.

Even though they're
not his biological children,

he raised them
for 14 years.

So he was-- he was
Dad for 14 years.

and now all of a sudden
that's obsolete

and I don't want that
for them.

What do you want
to say to him?

Wow.
One of the first things
I wanna say to him was

"You did some
really (bleep) stuff.

- Mm.
- However,

it wasn't all you.

A lot of things happened.

There was some infidelity
that went on.

Let me see,
we've been married
for eight years

and you admittedly
cheated on me

for five out
of eight years.

And then you
follow me around,

then you put
a phone tracker
on my phone.

You can kiss
my entire black behind.

And you want me to sleep
with you and do all kinds of
all regular stuff

like we're just regular married
people with your diseased
rhinoceros pizzle?

I don't want that.

That went on,
and it wasn't on--

- it wasn't just one-sided.
- Mm-hmm.

It was two-sided.

And I could always go
and make that excuse

like, "Oh, well,
he drew first blood, so..."

Wrong is wrong,
and right is right.

Remember that guy
in the band that I kept
flirtin' with

- all the time
I told you guys about?
-Yeah.

We had an "oral
transaction."

- What'd you say?
- We had an "oral transaction."

I'm learning to have
accountability

for my portion.

And I think
if he and I have
a conversation--

a real, adult
conversation now--

I think
it'll bring closure
to not just us,

but it might open
a door to where

open lines of
communication can begin
again with the boys.

What do you want...

...with his involvement
in your life?

Um...

it's so stupid for it
to still affect me,

but it does.

It's not stupid
that it affects you.

It affects you.

There is
a little part of me

that still misses
the relationship with Gabe

since I was with him
for 14 of my life.

This is still
very emotional for me.

I forgive
the situation now,

but I mean, it's still...
internally hurtful.

- It still hurts you.
- Yeah.

It still hurts you,
and it's okay to say,

"It hurts."

I think if you're ready
to have that conversation,

you can do it.

I have a lot
of deep-seated issues
on my heart.

Things that I have needed
to say for a really
long time,

but I haven't felt
emotionally strong
enough to do that.

Toady I'm gonna
face my fears and
prepare myself

for whatever fallout
is coming next.

Hey, Gabe. It's Trini.
We need to talk.