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♪ I cannot find
a way to describe it

♪ It's there inside

♪ All I do is hide

♪ I wish that it
would just go away

♪ What would you do
You do if you knew?

♪ What would you do?

♪ All the pain
I thought I knew

♪ All the thoughts
lead back to you...

Jane.

Look, it's you.

And it's you.

♪ I'm unable

♪ Come and take me away ♪

I've missed...
I made this.

I did all the wiring.

Okay. Wow, uh...
Yeah.

Thanks.

Why?

Well, that's
what we did at camp.

Crafts.

It's very good
for crazy people.
You're not crazy.

No, not anymore.
How was your summer?

Uh...

You know,
working full shifts
at the hotel.

What do you want to know
about plaster, grout
or unclogging toilets?

And don't get me started
on caulk, 'cause
that's my passion.

(LAUGHING)

I got your letters.

Not enough.

Yeah. I had to keep
a journal and talk
to my therapist every day.

I got really sick
of myself.

You know, I really
thought that it was
some kind of art camp.

Gentle Acres? No.
(CHUCKLES)

Definitely a crazy camp.

My roommate, Darlene,

she was a compulsive
hair-puller.

Not a good look.

But you had a disease.

Which made me see things
that weren't there.

Which caused me
to break from reality,

and then I transferred
all of my anxiety
onto the hallucination

and invested
my "fractured perception"
or something like that.

But, anyway, I'm...
I'm doing well now,

which is more than
I can say for Darlene.
(CHUCKLES)

She looks like Vin Diesel
with the pulling.

(CHUCKLES)

What are those?

Some books I read
over the summer.

You know, figuring out
how what happened to you

could have
really happened.

You know, seeing God...
Shh!

Adam...
(CHUCKLES)

Nobody knows that part
except for you.

Everybody still thinks
that I was just talking
to people, okay?

So let's drop
the G word.

It's documented.

Look, visions,
voices, bilocation...

Adam, Adam, Adam,

seeing him/her/it
is a sure sign of crazy.

It's like the uber-sign.

Just because
your therapist said so?

(CHUCKLES)

Dr. Dan never used
the word "crazy."

He called it
impaired perception.

Which you knew was nuts,
which is why
you didn't believe me.

But I believe you now.
Well, I don't want you
to believe me now.

Why?
Because I'm sane,

and I... made
all these lamps.

But what if
it's possible?

It's not.

Look, Adam, you've got
to get on board with this
if we're gonna hang.

You seem so different.

Yeah.

'Cause I'm not crazy.

Look, I have to go.

(KISSES)

Call me later.

Jane, wait.
SKATEBOARDER:
Watch it there, Jane.

(EXHALES SHARPLY)

♪ What if God was one of us?

♪ Just a slob like one of us

♪ Just a stranger on the bus

♪ Tryin' to make his way home?

♪ Just tryin' to
make his way home

♪ Just tryin' to
make his way home

♪ Just tryin' to
make his way home ♪

Oh, how could
I have overslept?

Oh!

Here. I made this
for you.

Oh! Whoa!
I, uh, thought we were
done with the lamps.

No, this is...
This is my thing.

Okay, but... But we have
a lot of lamps.

Take the lamp, Dad,
unless you want her
to go nuts again.

See, you can get
a lot of mileage out
of the crazy thing.

I'd work it.

Stop using that word.
Where's your mother?

She left early.
And Luke?

Him, too.

They say where
they were going?

Uh, Mom had an errand,
and Luke had a thing.

They are
so obviously CIA.

Hey, did you look
at that golf brochure?

Yes.

Apparently,
paralyzed people
can play golf.

They can also surf,
ski and/or sail.

We need a common activity.

So, why don't you
learn how to surf,
ski and/or sail?

I'm old.
I'm crippled.

I can't do anything
that's gonna make me
look even dorkier.

Oh, Tiger Woods,
he's dorky.

Yeah.
Yeah!

Well, think about it.

I have to run.

You know, golf is good
for crazy people, too.

Nice.

♪ She was at home
and feeling fine

(BOTH MOANING)

♪ The family life
it was divine ♪

You're into overtime.
Five more minutes.

You've used up
all your minutes.

What am I, a cell phone?

No. But you are
a service provider.

(HORN HONKING)

Okay, that is
definitely it.

Do I really only get
five minutes a day?

Minimum.
Did you even read it?

You know, actually,
I was so thrown

by having to sign
a confidentiality contract,

I may have skimmed.

That's your mistake.
You signed.

But, look,
if you're my girlfriend...

(STUTTERING)
Don't start using
the G word,

or the B word,
or any gender-related
coupling word.

That was Article 4
under Public and Private
Verbalization.

What is this about?

(STAMMERING)
You're ashamed of me?

Yeah. Take it
or leave it.

Dude, is that
your mother?

(SCOFFS)
Yeah.

Great diversionary tactic.

Oh, God,
that is my mother.

What is she doing here?

Who cares? Let's jet.

Hey,
Hardy Boy.
Whoa.

There's no chance

that you're Lilly Watters,
is there?

Every chance.
You Helen?

I know. It's killin' me.

The body's a temple.
I know.

It's my sin.

One of 'em, anyway.

Are you okay?

Uh, Sister Lilly Watters?

Nice to meet you.

Father Ken says
you're cool.

I... I didn't know that
they let nuns do, uh, do that.

(CHUCKLES)

Former nun. I left.

I was not kicked out.

I left.

Oh.

Look, you remember
The Sound of Music?

That's the kind
of nun I was.

Only, it was surfing
instead of spinning
on a hillside.

(CHUCKLES)

Uh, so, you wanna be
confirmed in the Church.

I'm... I'm thinking about it.

All right,
well, come on.

I'm jonesing for
a double espresso.

Come on!

Physics,
my little anthropic
coincidences,

is... everything.

Particles,

matter,

antimatter,

energy, fission,

fusion, neurons,

bosons, quarks,

neutrinos, anti-neutrinos,

dimensions, determinism,

strong force, weak force,

relativity, velocity,

chaos, order,

air, fire, water,

love, sex, death,

time, space and God!

Will the final
be comprehensive?

Oh, this class is going to
wow your boxers off,
Mr. Freidman,

so don't you worry
about the final.

Tell your brother
to stop looking at me.

Grace, we're not
doing this again
this year, okay?

You tell him.

(RUBBER BAND THWACKS)

Is it necessary
for your soul mate
to assault me?

She's not my soul mate.

We don't even talk.
We hate each other, in fact.

I see the way
you look at her.

You're all about her.

I am not about her.

This is like arguing about
Superman's pee or something.

She likes the other
equipment, dude.

(RUBBER BAND THWACKS)

Hey, can you
meet me on the roof
after school?

No can do.
I have work.

I thought you quit
the bookstore.

Well, Dr. Dan said
it would be good
for me to stay,

you know, keep...
Keep busy.

(SIGHS) You know,
Dr. Dan

might not always be
the final authority.

(WHISPERING) Shh!
Lischak is glaring.

Listen, I made you
a list.

Okay?

Adelaide Roncalli,
an Italian woman.

She began having
visions of the Holy Family
at age seven.

Okay? John Leary,

he's a grandfather
in Rochester, New York.
(CHUCKLES)

Daily messages
from God.

You know?
(WHISPERING)
What do you want from me?

I'm just saying,
you're not the only one.

Adam, six weeks of crafts,
and writing down my dreams,

and crying in front
of strangers,

and being grilled
by someone named Dr. Dan.

You're asking me
to undo that? I...

I can't go back there.

I just wanna be
a normal couple
again, you know?

You remember normal?

(SIGHING)
Not really.

(ROCK MUSIC PLAYING ON STEREO)

So, you wanna talk
about God.

What? No.

No, I just wanna
talk about, you know,

being Catholic.

So, you wanna
talk about being Catholic

without talking about God.

I mean...
I'm not a fanatic
or anything.

(CHUCKLES)

Are you at all familiar
with the Catholic doctrine?

Give me a break.
I was raised
in the Church.

Catholic school.
Eight years of plaid.

I just wasn't confirmed
in the Church.

But I'm very familiar
with the whole thing,

so we could probably just,
um, do the fast version,

if you have one of those.

And get right to what?

Fund-raising?

You don't have
to be sarcastic.

Look, I just need to know

why you want to do this.
It's part of the process.

What, you're
screening people now?

What about the rest
of your family?

What about them?

How do they feel
about you going back
to the Church?

Mmm. You haven't
told them.

They'll be fine with it.

So, how often
do you surf?

I... I've heard it's actually
a very spiritual experience.

You know, the first step
of confirmation

is not lying
to your family.

It's pretty much
not even a step.

So, why don't you, um,
flip through this book,

decide if it's really
what you wanna do,

tell your family,
then we'll talk.

(LOUDLY) Okay, well,
it's amazing

that you didn't
fit in at the convent!

Thomas Wolfe.

(CLASSICAL MUSIC
PLAYING ON STEREO)

Tom Wolfe.

Not the same guy.
Both very long-winded,
though.

Are you talking
to yourself?

Yes. But not in a way
that's crazy.

You got here on time,

you did the inventory,

boxed up the remainders,

and now you're
unloading stock.

What did they do to you
at that camp?

Oh, not much. Just drugs,
shock treatment.

I'm kidding.

Uh, so what did this,
um, breakdown look like?

Uh, it wasn't really
a... a breakdown.

I was just imagining things
because of the... the disease
that I had, so...

But not anymore.
No.

Not anymore.

Did you ever think
animals were reading
your mind?

Not animals.

Just this one rabbit?

My wife spends
a lot of time at home.

She's an artist.

She needs a hobby
or a job.

I'm sure
it's just temporary,
the rabbit thing...

Yeah, um...

(SIGHS) Ooh.

Uh, I'm not really
the go-to girl for
crazy behavior.

I had a one-time thing.

I guess it's
a broad spectrum.

Continuum, really.

What's normal?
What isn't?

Without deviation
from the norm,

(DOOR OPENING)
progress is not possible.

That's Sartre.

Or Zappa.
(BELL DINGING)

OLD LADY GOD: Excuse me.

Am I invisible?

Can anyone see me
standing here?

We have a customer.

I... I can't.
Um, I'm busy.

Can you? You're so much
better with people.

The filings.
On the east Nyland
chop shop.

Oh, great.

Thanks.

Anything else?

How's your kid?

The one that,
you know, lost it.

She didn't lose it.
She's fine.

Anything else?

You gonna finish that?

(SIGHS)

Mr. Will Girardi?

Detective Girardi.
Who are you?

Process server.

Oh, oh! What's this?

It's self-explanatory.

You're being sued.

Who the hell's
Andrew Baker?

A disgruntled perp?

Department'll
handle it.

He's the kid who drove
my son home from a party.

Drunk.

You know the rest.

Yeah.

That's screwed up.

If I do this,
I will seal my doom.

I will donate
my genitalia to science,

and as much as I like Dad,
this is just a no.

LUKE:
I have to take off.

Already?

Uh, you know,
I have a physics thing.

Hey, I'm in that class.
I don't have a thing.

(WOMAN CHATTERING ON TV)
HELEN: Honey,
I have to leave early.

There are bagels, somewhere.

I have to leave early, too.
I have this thing.

What is your thing?
What's yours?

JOAN: I need a thing.

You can have mine
after adaptive golf.

Dad, Kevin's making
penis jokes,

and he doesn't wanna
play golf with you.
What?

Can't we look into
white water
river rafting?

Something wherein
we could actually
be killed?

That works better
for me.

I vote no on the
getting-killed sport.

Bye.

Don't worry
about the golf thing.

Yesterday, you were
all over it.

It's fine. I have to go.

(SIGHS) I'm starting
to miss crazy camp.

♪ Save our lives

♪ Can't revive

♪ Your magic place
is nearing hell ♪

We have to pick
another place.

There's a security guard
that drives around.

He's gonna tell
the kids at school?

He could know
people there.

You are so
hyper-vigilant.

Oh, don't use
big words.

You know, maybe
we should just call
this whole thing off.

Freidman is so
obviously aware.
Have you said anything?

I don't say anything
to anyone.

But, you know,
the... the sexual tension,

people are gonna start
to pick up on it.

Did you just use
"sex" in a sentence?

Did I? I'm sorry.

My mistake.

Dude, there's
your mother again.

Is she, like,
a drug dealer?

I have no idea.

Sister Lilly was
rude to me.

Former Sister Lilly.
She was rude?

Yes. And she was
off-putting.

She was off-putting.

Why are you repeating
everything I say?

Reruns of West Wing.

(SIGHS)

Plus, she was smoking.

Yes, smoking.

Which does not seem
very nun-like.

Former nun. And let me
get this straight.

Are you tattling
on the former nun?

I don't like her.

Am I going to hell?

Confirmation is
a long process

of learning
exactly what it means

to choose
the Catholic faith.

(PLEASANT MUSIC PLAYING SOFTLY
ON SPEAKERS)

Maybe you're not
entirely ready.

I had these dreams,

and I was suddenly
aware that God is real,

and I have been
ignoring him,

and I really don't think
he's gonna be
too happy with you,

if you try to stand
in the way of that.

So, now you're
threatening a priest.

Look, when I was
in the Church before,

everything was very clear.

Be good. God likes it.
Be bad. God doesn't.

So, you believe
that Kevin's condition

and, uh, Joan's illness,
for example,

are judgments brought on
by your bad behavior?

That's quite vain.

You are not being
very nice.

Helen, God simply
doesn't work that way.

How do you know?

Because if he did,
I'd be working
for some big cosmic jerk,

and I'd have to find
another job.

You must think
he's kind of a jerk, too.

Which is why
you can't bring him home.

JOAN: You know,
physics is kind of cool.

I think I'm gonna
like it a lot better
than chemistry.

Particles. Wow.
It's fission and fusion,

especially now
that I understand light.

Well, lamps.

You are officially
babbling.

A pastime of the
mentally impaired.

Guys, hands off
Freidman!

This year, okay? Please.

I am so psyched
about quantum
chromodynamics!

I know. It is
kind of hot.
(CHUCKLES)

Jane, you can't
get all happy
about science.

It's totally gonna
mess up our dynamic.

I'm just trying to take
a new approach to school,
you know? Optimism.

Well, keep it
to yourself.

I might have to
drop the class.
What?

I don't have that
much time to study
with the job.

Adam, you can't
drop physics.

Well, I'm only taking it
because of you,

and if you're gonna
be all weird about it...

I'm not being weird.
I'm optimistic.

You guys are doing
the pukey couple thing.

The love of science is
a bonding experience,

like the Curies,
or Voltaire
and his mistress.

Nobody's talking
about bonding.

Hey, listen, guys,
all I know is that physics

gets Lischak even hotter
than chemistry ever could,

and that totally
works for me.

Hey, Grace? I'm bettin'
it works for you, too.

Spend your summer
at the trough,
did you, Freidman?

At least the Freidman
knows which flavor
he likes.

Okay, back off, dude.

Hey, you okay?

Yeah, I'm fine.
I'm... I'm great. I...

I'm optimistic.
I'm gonna... I'll meet you
at the park later.

(IN SING-SONG VOICE)
Cuckoo, cuckoo.

Ow.

Andy Baker was drunk.

Veered into
oncoming traffic,

flipped the car,

walked away
without a scratch.

After Kevin's diagnosis,
lawyers approached.

Helen said, "No.

"We're not gonna punish
a kid for being stupid."

Hell, we could have
used the money.

All the medical bills.

Almost three years later,

they're claiming
emotional damages?

I know they can't win,
but it's just the idea of it.

Will, um,

Kevin called you,
uh, on the phone

before he left
the party that night?

Yeah. He always
checked in.

And he told you
that his friend Andy
was drunk.

Drinking.

Kevin was not drunk,
but he let Andy drive anyway?

Well, he tried to take
Andy's keys away.

Hey!

(SIGHS)
Hey.

My son was paralyzed.

They're gonna talk to me
about emotional damages?

They really wanna
take me on about that?

Their son walked away
without a scratch.

What kind of people
act like this?

Money's a powerful force.

Well, there's no way
that they can win.

We'll give it
everything we got, okay?

Meanwhile, I want you
and Helen to write down
everything you can remember

about the history
of their friendship,

and that night
in particular.

Tom, I... I cannot
take this to my wife.

(FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING)

Oh, good.
You're just in time
for unified field theory.

I'm having a little
trouble with it,

but it is awesome.

LITTLE GIRL GOD:
All magnetic fields
are the same.

All carbon atoms
are the same,

as are all electrons,
protons and neutrons.

It didn't have
to be that way,

but it makes
the universe beautiful.

Who would care about
the universe being beautiful

except for a divine,
benevolent entity

such as myself?

You...
(CHUCKLES)

are not here.

Okay. Then you're
talking to yourself.

I'm waiting for Adam.

Adam got paged
to work at the hotel.

(CELL PHONE RINGING)

That's him calling
to tell you.

(CELL PHONE CONTINUES RINGING)

Aren't you going
to answer it?

This is not happening.

(HANGS UP CELL PHONE)

Mystery is just part
of the deal, Joan.

All right, I'm gonna
close my eyes and
I'm gonna count to ten.

Good luck with that.

One,

two,

three...

(SIGHS)

You are not real!

So people keep telling me.

(SIGHS)

♪ All the thoughts
lead back to you

♪ Back to what was never said

♪ Back and forth
inside my head

♪ I can't handle
this confusion ♪

Okay.

I can't keep this
to myself any longer.

There are gonna be
speed bumps installed
on Peach Street.

Two, possibly three.

A lot more than my job
is at jeopardy
if this gets leaked.

That's my day.
Who's next?

Oh, just, you know,
the usual.

Serving, protecting.

Honey?

HELEN: What?

Oh, um...

Nothing.
Just back-to-school
organizational stuff.

How was your thing?

Fine.

Joan?
I don't have a thing.

Luke is the one
with a thing.

I don't have
a thing.

(SCOFFS)

Is this about me
being crazy?

Because I'm not crazy,

and if everybody still
feels like I am crazy,

then maybe you should
just send me back
to Gentle Acres

instead of
tiptoeing around

like I'm having visions
from God or something

because I'm not.

Nobody's saying
that, honey.

(SIGHS)
HELEN: You were never crazy.

Gentle Acres was a part
of your physical therapy,

a chance to rest
and recover.

(CRYING)
May I be excused?

I need to go
to my normal room

and do normal homework.

HELEN: Of course, go ahead.

You want me
to do that?

No. It's relaxing.

You okay?

Look, I'll just...
I'll just say it.
Are you an alcoholic?

What?

At first, I thought
it was drugs, that you
were buying them,

because, you... You know,
that's what people do
outside of coffee shops.

But then I thought,
"No. Get a grip.

"Who else meets
in coffee shops?"

Twelve-steppers.

So, Mom, I just
want you to know,

if that's what you're doing,

I'm completely supportive.

Luke, one breakdown a year

is all we can handle.
You'll have to wait.

Mom, I saw you.

You were following me?

No. On the way
to school.

Mocha Mike's is not
on the way to school.

I went for a doughnut.

Okay, here's the deal.

You do not get to worry
about my personal life,

and I get to grill
the hell out of you
about yours.

Let's forget
this happened.

(TAP SQUEAKS OPEN,
WATER TRICKLING)

What was that?

All of our children
are insane.

Okay!

I'm going back
to the station.

(TAP SQUEAKS SHUT)
Why?

Paperwork.

Are you okay?

Yeah. I'm fine.

(KNOCKING ON WINDOW)

(KNOCKING ON WINDOW)

(JOAN SIGHING
IN EXASPERATION)

What are you doing?

I'm clinging
to a pipe.

(SIGHS) Grace...

Seriously. Phone?
Internet? Doorbell?

I do things my way.

What's happening here?

I'm working
on my lamps.

I liked you better before.

Join the club.

So, quick question.

Are you in love with Rove?

Well, yeah, I guess.

Well, how do you know
for sure, though?

I just said "I guess."

Well, how do you know
it's not just part
of the whole

psychic flameout?

Because it feels
kind of like a breakdown.

Wait.

Are you in love?

No! We're talking
about you.

No, no. No, it really
feels like we're talking
about you right now.

(SCOFFS)

GRACE: We're not.

Grace, if there's a guy...

Or not a guy.

You know, anybody, uh,

I think I should know.
(SCOFFS)

I asked a simple
question. Forget it.

What...

I was never here.

JOAN: Good night!

♪ I can't hear
the songs he sings

♪ All the jewels in heaven

♪ They don't look
the same to me

♪ I just wade the tides
that turned

♪ Till I learn to leave
the past behind

♪ It's only lies
that I'm living

♪ It's only tears
that I'm crying

♪ It's only you
that I'm losing

♪ Guess I'm doing fine ♪

(BIRDS CHIRPING)

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

(BALL BOUNCING)

(KEVIN LAUGHING)

KEVIN: Hey, Dad, jump in.
I'll take you and Andy on.

What are you doing?

I'm humiliating him,
Mr. G.

I told you
to clean out
the garage.

Look at it.
You haven't started.

Yeah, we did
a little.

You're supposed to finish.

That's conditional to you
going to the game tonight.

Dad, it's homecoming.

You're really gonna
stop me from going?

You bet your ass.
You think you get
a free ride around here?

Stop with the cop voice.

Look, you're not
the celebrity jock
in this house.

In this house
you pull your weight.

Now, get on that garage
before I really get mad.

Come on, dude.
I'll... I'll help you.

We'll get it done.

KEVIN: Dad?

You gonna bring that in?

'Cause my speed-bump
expose is in there.

(CLASSICAL MUSIC
PLAYING ON STEREO)

Joan. What is this?

Oh, that's a book.

What is it doing
in the science fiction
section?

Well, I put it there.

Invisible Man,
one of the greatest
postwar literary novels,

sitting in science fiction

next to The Time Machine.

Are you crazy?

It's about
an invisible man.

Metaphor, Joan?
Symbolism?

Where's your brain?
Did you ever have one?

Are you okay?

I'm having a little
stress at home.

But you're not
helping.

(BELL DINGING)

OLD LADY GOD: Excuse me,
young man.

You again.

Yes, I'm looking
for a book.

It's just been added
to my reading list
for my book club, you know.

It's called One Flew over
the C,

and it's about a man
who pretends to be crazy

to get out of prison.

SAMMY: Yes, yes.
Uh, postmodern classic.
Ken Kesey.

I don't have it
in stock right now,

but I can
order it for you.

Oh, that would be lovely.

Heidi, what are you
doing here?

I wanted to show you
something.

You couldn't get dressed
before you showed me
something?

I'm... I'm dressed.

Why are you saying
I'm not dressed?

Honey, why don't you
go wait in the back room?

Because I have to show you
what you made me do.

If you could just
give me a moment.

HEIDI: You were always
so jealous of...
of me and Lucinda.

You thought she was getting
in the way of our relationship

just because we had
such a... (STAMMERS)

a special connection.

I'm not jealous
of Lucinda. It's just
that she's a rabbit.

She's a rabbit, is she?
(SCOFFS)

Just a rabbit.

Well, guess what?
She's not a rabbit anymore!

Are you happy now?

(HEIDI SOBBING)

SAMMY: Okay, um...

(CLICKS TONGUE)

You know what?
We're closed. Uh...

Out.

(LOCK CLICKS SHUT)

HEIDI: Is it all better
now, Sammy?

Did I fix the problem?

Now I... I can give you
my complete attention.

Lucinda doesn't
talk anymore.

She understood me,
but now she's gone,

and I'm all yours.

Are you listening?

I'm all yours!

(SOBBING)

KEVIN: I can't stand
to see a grown man pouting.

LUKE: Dad's pouting?

You haven't noticed
how quiet he's been?

That's a prolonged pout.

So, I'll strap myself
to a buggy and swing a club.

A little humiliation
never killed anybody.

Is there hard
evidence of that?

Who is she?

What?

Sneaking out of the house.

Excessive aftershave.

Listening to Norah Jones.

Now a bitter reference
to humiliation.

There's no girl.

It's Grace, isn't it?

(GOLF BALL CLATTERING)
MAN: Hey!

You cannot tell anyone.

Why?

Because the whole agreement
is based on secrecy.

One tiny leak,
and the entire thing
blows up and goes away.

(CHUCKLING)
You're sworn
to secrecy?

(SIGHING)
I signed a contract.

Dude!
I had no choice!

You want this
relationship so much,

you're willing
to completely
degrade yourself?

Well, yeah.

It's not so much
a relationship as it is
occasional making out.

How occasional?

Five minutes a day.

(CHUCKLING) Dude.
Minimum.

I can't help it, man.
She makes me insane.

I'm a complete stranger
to myself.

You got to confront this.

She wants you,
or she wouldn't be in it.

And no matter
what they say,

women want us
to be men.

They don't like it
when we back down.

It makes them nervous.

Really?

She's waiting for you
to stand up.

Do it! You're
a Girardi man.

Let her know
what that's about.

What's wrong?
Nothing.

I'm seeing
a nun and a priest.

Uh, why don't we
go somewhere
more private?

I... I hate lying to you,
but I...

Ever since Joan
got sick,

I've been thinking
about God,

and I wanted to reexamine
the idea of going back
to the Church.

I... I was just gonna
not bother you with it,

but that feels
more like lying,

and that feels like
being disconnected
from you,

and that feels like hell,
so I'm telling you now.

I'm, uh, really not open
to this right now.

I know. You never
have been.

But it's not gonna
bother you at all.

You... You won't even know
it's happening.

I can't not know
what's happening, Helen.

And I really can't
take it right now.

Look, I've never been
more certain in my life

that we're all
just at the mercy
of an indifferent universe.

There is no God.

There is no justice.

There is no grand place
we're gonna eventually
get to.

It's just one body blow
after another

and struggling to find
a reason to get up
and do it again.

What happened?

Nothing happened.

Th... This is who
I've always been.

Look... Look, I have
to get back to work.

(KNOCKING AT DOOR)

Grace?

You're dead.

(MUSIC PLAYING
OVER HEADPHONES)

Hi.

I can't hear you.
But you can see me.

I'm ignoring you.

I'm used to that.

Okay, look. I've got
a lot of time
on my hands.

I'll be in the
religion section.

(KNIFE CHOPPING)

(DOOR CLOSES)

I'm sorry.

That's not gonna cut it.

I'm really sorry.

Is this gonna take jewelry?

I'll tell you
something, Will.

You said you've always
been this way,

but I did not recognize
the man I saw today.

I had no earthly idea
who he was,

or what he was
gonna do next.

The Bakers are suing us.

What?

Andy Baker

is suffering
emotional damages,

it seems.

Finding it hard to work.

Half a million dollars
is gonna take care
of that, though.

(SIGHS)

I never wanted you
to hear it.

I wanted to make it
go away,

so that you never
had to know

that the boy
who crippled our son...

Oh, Will...

...and who we never punished
for crippling our son,

is now coming after us

like a common predator.

Oh, no, Will!

Hey, guys.
Uh, sorry to interrupt,

but we have a very special
presentation in the garage.

Not... Not now, Luke.
LUKE: Uh, yes, now.

Let's go. Move it.

(SIGHS)

Ladies and gentlemen,

may I present

to you

golf of the future.

Stand back, please.

(CLEARING THROAT)

(CLANGING)

That was
my warm-up swing.

(KEVIN CLEARS THROAT)

Okay, but you have to admit
that the shoes are hot!

However,
I am slipping.

LUKE: You're slipping?
KEVIN: Going down. Help.

Oh! Just...

(GOLF BALLS CLATTERING)
Ow! Oh, dude.

Oh, this worked
a lot better
in the store.

Don't step on my shoes!
(LAUGHING)
Would you help me?

I can't fight gravity.

Stop it!
Just... Just stop.

Stop!

Dad, we'll figure it out.

Dad!

(PANTING)

We're closing.
Everybody, get out.

Where's Sammy?

Oh, he had
a family emergency.

I'm covering.

You want me
to walk you home?
Nope.

Why not?
Because
you're not real.

Then why are you
talking to me?

You know I'm real, Joan.

You've always known
you're not crazy,

then you got a chance
to see what it really
looks like.

Crazy is destructive.
It tears down.

I'm all about
building up.

Then I suggest
you take up carpentry.

What do you think
this is all about?

Uh, you, I suppose.

It's a creation, Joan.

It's not a destruction.

And that's what
I want you to do.

I want you to be creative.
I want you to build things.

I build lamps!

Relationships,
possibilities,
connections.

Look, have you
read this?

You stole that!

Well, technically,
everything's mine.

It's about a house
called Howards End.

The house is symbolic.

Yes, I know.
I read it in lit class.

All these English people
running around,

misunderstanding each other
because of their manners.

Everything goes
horribly wrong,

just like in every
English novel.

You know,

I like what's written
at the beginning here.
Would you read it for me?

"Only connect."

(VOICE SHAKING)
You hurt me.

Really bad.

Why should I
trust you again?

Why did you ever?

Look, we had
some good times.

And I'm fine
with you being,
you know,

the divine It.

But I don't want
to see you anymore.

It's not you.
It's me.

I... I'm just...
I'm not the girl for you.

I... I had

a taste of normal,

and I really
liked it, you know?

I really enjoyed
being optimistic,

and making my lamps.
(SNIFFLES)

Don't you miss me a little?

Nope.

(SNIFFLES)

Please go.

Do you miss yourself?

Because I do.

♪ All I know

♪ Is everything is
not as it's sold

♪ But the more I grow

♪ The less I know

♪ Then I see you
standing there

♪ Wanting more from me

♪ And all I can do is try

♪ Then I see you
standing there

♪ Wanting more from me

♪ And all I can do is try