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(♪ Gong rings and resonates)

(♪ Lower note resonates)

(♪ Higher note resonates)

(♪ Gongs ringing)

(♪ Several notes resonating)

(Man's voice) You say to the boy,
"Open your eyes"

When he opens his eyes
and sees the light

You make him cry out, saying

O Blue, come forth

O Blue, arise

O Blue, ascend

O Blue, come in

(♪ BLUE, PARTS 1-5:
"Open Your Eyes")

I'm sitting with some friends
in this café, drinking coffee,

served by young refugees from Bosnia.

(Bombs exploding)

The war rages across the newspapers
and through the ruined streets of Sarajevo.

Tania said, "Your clothes are on
back to front and inside out."

Since there were only two of us here, I took
them off and put them right, then and there.

I'm always here before the doors open.

What need of so much news from abroad

while all that concerns either life or death

is all transacting and at work within me?

(Muffled voices at café)

(Footsteps mounting steps)

(Door creaks open)

I step off the kerb and
a cyclist nearly knocks me down.

- (Bicycle bell rings)
- (Man) Open your fucking eyes!

Flying in from the dark,
he nearly parted my hair.

I step into a blue funk.

(Metallic clanging)

The doctor in St Bartholomew's Hospital
thought he could detect lesions in my retina,

the pupils dilated with belladonna.

The torch shone into them
with a terrible blinding light.

(Mechanical switch turned on)

Look left
Look down

Look up
Look right

Blue flashes in my eyes

Blue Bottle buzzing

Lazy days

The sky-blue butterfly
sways on a cornflower

Lost in the warmth
of the blue heat haze

Singing the blues

Quiet and slowly

Blue of my heart

Blue of my dreams

Slow blue love of delphinium days

(♪ "Delphinium Days")

(Woman whispers) What shall I do now?

(Woman's voice) Blue is the universal love
in which man bathes.

It is the terrestrial paradise.

Blue.

(Man's voice) I'm walking
along the beach in a howling gale.

Another year is passing.

In the roaring waters,
I hear the voices of dead friends.

Love is life that lasts forever.

My heart's memory turns to you.

David.

Howard.

Graham.

Terry.

Paul.

David.

Howard.

Graham.

Terry.

Paul.

David.

Howard.

Graham.

Terry.

Paul.

But what if this present
were the world's last night?

In the setting sun, your love fades.

Dies in the moonlight, fails to rise.

Thrice denied by cock crow.

In the dawn's first light.

(♪ "Love Fades")

Look down
Look left

Look up
Look right

The camera flash, atomic bright

Photos the CMV

A green moon

And the world turns magenta

My retina is a distant planet

A red Mars from a Boy's Own comic

With yellow infection
Bubbling at the corner

I said, "This looks like a planet"

The doctor says,
"Oh, I think it looks like a pizza"

(♪ BLUE, PARTS 6-12:
"Back And Forth")

The worst of the illness
is the uncertainty.

I've played this scenario back and forth

each hour of the day
for the last six years.

Blue transcends the solemn geography
of human limits.

(♪ "I'm Home")

I am home with the blinds drawn

H.B. is back from Newcastle

But gone out

The washing machine is roaring away

And the fridge is defrosting

These are his favourite sounds

(Electronic printer whirring)

(Washing machine whirring)

(Washing machine decelerates)

I've been given the option
of being an in-patient at the hospital

or coming in twice a day
to be hooked to a drip.

My vision will never come back.

The retina is destroyed.

Though when the bleeding stops,
what is left of my sight might improve.

I have to come to terms
with sightlessness.

If I lose half my sight,

will my vision be halved?

(♪ "Sweats In The Night")

The virus rages fierce.

I have no friends now
who are not dead or dying.

Like a blue frost, it caught them.

At work, at the cinema,

on marches and beaches.

In churches on their knees.

Running, flying,

silent or shouting protest.

It started with sweats in the night
and swollen glands.

Then the black cancer
spread across their faces.

As they fought for breath,
TB and pneumonia hammered at the lungs,

and Toxo at the brain.

Reflexes scrambled.

Sweat poured through hair
matted like lianas in the tropical forest.

Voices slurred,

and then were lost forever.

My pen chased this story
across the page,

tossed this way and that in the storm.

(♪ "Consecrate")

(Cacophony of voices shouting)

(Man) Jesus Christ!

(Whistling)

(♪ "Gautama Gongs")

(Man's voice)
The blood of sensibility is blue.

I consecrate myself
to find its most perfect expression.

My sight failed a little more
in the night.

H.B. offers me his blood.

"It'll kill everything," he says.

The drip of DHPG
Trills like a canary.

(Electronic beeping)

I am accompanied by a shadow
into which H.B. appears and disappears.

I've lost the sight
on the periphery of my right eye.

I hold out my hands before me
and slowly part them.

At a certain moment, they disappear
out of the corner of my eyes.

This is how I used to see.

Now if I repeat the motion,
this is all I see.

(Beeping intensifies)

I shall not win the battle
against the virus,

in spite of the slogans
like "Living with AIDS".

The virus was appropriated by the well,

so we have to live with AIDS

while they spread the quilt for the moths
of Ithaca across the wine dark sea.

Awareness is heightened by this,
but something else is lost.

A sense of reality drowned in theatre.

Thinking blind, becoming blind.

In the hospital, it is as quiet as a tomb.

The nurse fights to find a vein
in my right arm.

We give up after five attempts.

Would you faint if someone stuck
a needle into your arm?

I've got used to it,

but I still shut my eyes.

(♪ Gong strikes)

The Gautama Buddha instructs me
to walk away from illness.

But he wasn't attached to a drip.

(♪ MIRANDA SEX GARDEN:
"Walk Away")

♪ Walk away from me

♪ Walk away from me...

(Woman's voice) Fate is the strongest.

Fate.

Fated.

Fatal.

(Man's voice) I resign myself to Fate.

Blind Fate.

The drip stings.

A lump swells up in my arm.

Out comes
the drip.

An electric shock sparks up my arm.

How can I walk away
with a drip attached to me?

How am I going to walk away from this?

(Footsteps over pebbles)

(♪ Gong strikes)

I fill this room with the echo of many voices
who passed time here.

Voices unlocked from the blue
of the long-dried paint.

The sun comes
and floods this empty room.

I call it my room.

My room.

My room has welcomed many summers,

embraced laughter and tears.

Can it fill itself with your laughter?

Each word a sunbeam,
glancing in the light.

This is the song of my room.

(♪ BLUE, PARTS 13-18,
BRIAN ENO: "Triennale")

David.

Howard.

Graham.

David.

Paul.

Derek.

Graham.

Howard.

David.

Blue stretches...

...yawns...

...and is awake.

Blue.

Blue.

Blue stretches...

...yawns...

...and is awake.

Blue.

There's a photo in the newspaper
this morning of refugees leaving Bosnia.

They look out of time.

Peasant women with scarves
and black dresses

stepped from the pages
of an older Europe.

One of them has lost her three children.

(Gunshots)

(Thunder rumbling)

(Rain falling)

Lightning flickers
through the hospital window.

At the door, an elderly woman stands
waiting for the rain to clear.

I ask her if I can give her a lift,
I've hailed a taxi.

"Can you take me to Holborn tube?"

On the way, she breaks down in tears.

She's come from Edinburgh.

Her son is in the ward.

He has meningitis
and has lost the use of his legs.

I'm helpless as the tears flow.

I can't see her.

Just the sound of her sobbing.

(Rain pouring)

One can know the whole world
Without stirring abroad

Without looking out of the window,
One can see the way of heaven

The further one goes,
The less one knows

(♪ "Tangible Blue")

In the pandemonium of image,
I present you with the universal Blue

Blue, an open door to soul

An infinite possibility
Becoming tangible

(Muffled voices)

Here I am again,
in the waiting room.

Hell on earth is a waiting room.

Here you know you are
not in control of yourself,

waiting for your name to be called.

(Woman) 712213!

(Man's voice)
Here you have no name.

Confidentiality is nameless.

Where is 666?

Am I sitting opposite him/her?

Maybe 666 is the demented woman
switching the channels on the TV.

What do I see
Past the gates of conscience?

Activists invading Sunday Mass
In the cathedral

An epic Czar Ivan denouncing the
Patriarch of Moscow

A moon-faced boy who spits and repeatedly
Crosses himself

As he genuflects

Will the pearly gates slam shut in
The faces of the devout?

The demented woman
is discussing needles.

There's always a discussion
of needles here.

She has a line put into her neck.

(♪ Piano notes resonate)

How are we to be perceived...

...if we're to be perceived at all?

For the most part, we're invisible.

If the Doors of Perception were cleansed...

...well, then everything
would be seen as it is.

(Wind howling)

(Dog barking)

(§ BLUE, PARTS 19-24,
"Marco Polo")

The dog barks, the caravan passes.

Marco Polo stumbles
across the Blue Mountain.

Marco Polo stops

and sits on a lapis throne
by the River Oxus,

while he is ministered to
by the descendants of Alexander the Great.

The caravan approaches,

blue canvasses fluttering in the wind.

Blue people from over the sea,
ultramarine,

have come to collect the lapis
with its flecks of gold.

The road to the city of Aqua Vitae
is protected by a labyrinth

built from crystals and mirrors

which in the sunlight
cause terrible blindness.

The mirrors reflect each of your betrayals,
magnify them and drive you into madness.

Blue walks into the labyrinth.

Absolute silence is demanded
of all its visitors,

so their presence does not disturb the poets
who are directing the excavations.

Digging can only proceed
on the calmest of days,

as rain and wind destroy the finds.

(Clanging of metal tools)

The archaeology of sound
has only just been perfected,

and the systematic cataloguing
of words has until recently

been undertaken in a haphazard way.

Blue watched, as a word or phrase
materialised in scintillating sparks,

a poetry of fire which cast
everything into darkness

with the brightness of its reflections.

(♪ Gong resonates)

(Whistling)

As a teenager, I used to work for
the Royal National Institute for the Blind

on their Christmas appeal for radios,

with dear Miss Punch,
70 years old,

who used to arrive each morning
on her Harley-Davidson.

She kept us on our toes.

Her job as a gardener
gave her time to spare in January.

Miss Punch Leather Woman
was the first out dyke I ever met.

Closeted and frightened by my sexuality,
she was my hope.

"Climb on. Let's go for a ride."

She looked like Edith Piaf, the sparrow,

and wore a cock-eyed beret
at a saucy angle.

She bossed all the other old girls

who came back year after year
for her company.

In the paper today...

Three quarters of the AIDS organisations
are not providing safer sex information.

One district said they had
no queers in their community,

but you might try district X,
they have a theatre.

(Woman's voice) To be or not to be,
that is the question.

(Man's voice)
My sight seems to have closed in.

The hospital is even quieter this morning.

Hushed.

I have a sinking feeling in my stomach.

I feel defeated.

My mind, bright as a button,

but my body, falling apart.

A naked light bulb
in a dark and ruined room.

There's death in the air here,
but we're not talking about it.

But I know the silence might be broken
by distraught visitors screaming,

"Help, Sister! Help, Nurse!"

followed by the sound of feet
rushing along the corridor.

Then silence.

(♪ Gong strikes)

(I MIRANDA SEX GARDEN:
"White Blue")

♪ Blue protects white from innocence

♪ Blue drags black with it

- ♪ Blue
- ♪ Blue

♪ Blue is darkness made visible

♪ Blue protects white from innocence

♪ Blue drags black with it

- ♪ Blue
- ♪ Blue

♪ Blue is darkness made visible ♪

(Man's voice) Over the mountains
is the shrine to Rita,

where all at the end of the line call.

Rita is the Saint of the Lost Cause.

The saint of all who are at their wit's end,

who are hedged in and trapped
by the facts of the world.

These facts, detached from cause,

trapped the Blue Eyed Boy
in a system of unreality.

Would all these blurred facts that deceive
dissolve in his last breath?

For accustomed to believing in image,
an absolute idea of value,

his world had forgotten
the command of essence:

Thou Shall Not Create Unto Thyself
Any Graven Image,

although you know the task
is to fill the empty page.

From the bottom of your heart,
pray to be released from image.

The image is a prison of the soul,

your heredity, your education,

your vices and aspirations,

your qualities,
your psychological world.

I've walked behind the sky.

(Woman) For what are you seeking?

The fathomless blue of bliss.

(♪ BLUE, PARTS 25-29,
"Blueness")

(Woman's voice)
To be an astronaut of the void,

leave the comfortable house
that imprisons you with reassurance.

Remember, to be going and to have
are not eternal.

Fight the fear that engenders
the beginning, the middle and the end.

For Blue, there are
no boundaries or solutions.

(Waves lapping)

Time is what keeps the light
from reaching us.

(Man's voice) How did my friends
cross the cobalt river?

With what did they pay the ferryman?

As they set out for the indigo shore
under this jet-black sky,

some died on their feet
with a backward glance.

Did they see Death with the hell hounds
pulling a dark chariot,

bruised blue-black,

growing dark in the absence of light?

Did they hear the blast of trumpets?

David ran home panicked
on the train from Waterloo,

brought back exhausted
and unconscious to die that night.

Terry who mumbled incoherently
into his incontinent tears.

Others faded like flowers

cut by the scythe
of the Blue Bearded Reaper,

parched as the waters of life receded.

Howard turned slowly to stone,

petrified day by day,

his mind imprisoned
in a concrete fortress,

until all we could hear were his groans
on the telephone circling the globe.

(♪ Long, mournful woodwind notes)

Mad Vincent sits on his yellow chair,
clasping his knees to his chest.

Bananas.

The sunflowers wilt in the empty pot,
bone dry, skeletal,

the black seeds picked into
the staring face of a Halloween pumpkin.

He is unaware of Blue
standing in the corner.

Fevered eyes glare at the jaundiced corn,

caw of the jet-black crows
spiralling in the yellow.

The lemon goblin stares from
the unwanted canvasses thrown in a corner.

Sourpuss suicide screams with evil,

clasping cowardly Yellowbelly, slit-eyed.

Blue fights diseased Yellowbelly,

whose fetid breath scorches
the trees yellow with ague.

Betrayal is the oxygen of his devilry.

He'll stab you in the back.

Yellowbelly places a jaundiced kiss
in the air,

the stink of pus blinds Blue's eyes.

Evil swims in the yellow bile.
Yellowbelly's snake eyes poison.

He crawls over Eve's rotting apple
wasp-like.

Quick as a flash,
he stings Blue in the mouth.

"Aaaugh!"

His hellish legions buzz and chuckle
in the mustard gas.

They'll piss all over you.
Sharp nicotine-stained fangs bared.

Blue transformed into an insectocutor,

his Blue aura frying the foes.

We all contemplated suicide

We hoped for euthanasia

We were lulled into believing
Morphine dispelled pain

Rather than making it tangible

Like a mad Disney cartoon

Transforming itself into
Every conceivable nightmare

Karl killed himself.

How did he do it?

I never asked.
It seemed incidental.

What did it matter if he swigged
prussic acid or shot himself in the eye?

Maybe he dived into the streets

from high up in the cloud-lapped
skyscrapers.

The nurse explains the implant.

You mix the drugs
and drip yourself once a day.

The drugs are kept in a small fridge
they give you.

Can you imagine
travelling around with that?

The metal implant will set
the bomb detector off in airports,

and I can just see myself travelling
to Berlin with a fridge under my arm!

(Woman over PA) 'Derek Jarman.
Derek Jarman to airport information please.'

Impatient youths of the sun

Burning with many colours

Flick combs through hair
In bathroom mirrors

Fucking with fusion and fashion

Dance in the beams of emerald lasers

Mating on suburban duvets

Cum-splattered nuclear breeders

What a time that was

(Bells tolling, clock ticking)

The drip ticks out the seconds,

the source of a stream
along which the minutes flow,

to join the river of hours,

the sea of years
and the timeless ocean.

The side effects of DHPG,

the drug for which I have to come into
hospital to be dripped twice a day, are:

Low white blood cell count,

increased risk of infection,

low platelet count,
which may increase the risk of bleeding,

low red blood cell count (anaemia),

fever, rash,

abnormal liver function,

chills,

swelling of the body (oedema),

infections,

malaise,

irregular heartbeat,

high blood pressure (hypertension),

low blood pressure (hypotension),

abnormal thoughts or dreams,

loss of balance (ataxia),

coma,

confusion,

dizziness,

headache,

Nervousness,

damage to nerves (peristhecia),

psychosis,

sleepiness (somnolence),

shaking,

nausea,

vomiting,

loss of appetite (anorexia),

diarrhoea,

bleeding from the stomach or intestine
(intestinal haemorrhage),

abdominal pain,

increased number of one type
of white blood cell,

low blood sugar,

shortness of breath,

hair loss (alopecia),

itching (pruritus),

hives,

blood in the urine,

abnormal kidney functions,

increased blood urea,

redness (inflammation),

pain or irritation (phlebitis).

Retinal detachments have been
observed in patients

both before and after
initiation of therapy.

The drug has caused
decreased sperm production in animals

and may cause infertility in humans,
birth defects in animals.

Although there is no information
in human studies,

it should be considered
a potential carcinogen,

since it causes tumours in animals.

If you are concerned about
any of the above side effects

or if you would like any further information,
please ask your doctor.

In order to be put on the drug,
you have to sign a piece of paper

stating you understand that
all these illnesses are a possibility.

I really can't see what I am to do.

I'm going to sign it.

The darkness comes in with the tide

The year slips on the calendar

Your kiss flares

A match struck in the night

Flares and dies

My slumber broken

Kiss me again

Kiss me

Kiss me again

And again

Kiss me again

Kiss me

Kiss me again

And again

Never enough

Greedy lips

Speedwell eyes

Blue skies

A man sits in a wheelchair,
hair awry,

munching through a packet
of dry biscuits,

slow and deliberate
as a praying mantis.

He speaks enthusiastically
but sometimes incoherently of the hospice.

He says, "You can't be too careful
who you mix with there.

"I mean, there's no way of telling
the visitors, patients or staff apart.

"The staff have nothing to identify them
except they're all into leather.

"The place is like an S&M club."

This hospice has been built by charity,

the names of the donors
displayed for all to see.

Charity has allowed the uncaring
to appear to care

and is terrible
for those dependent on it.

Charity is big business.

Well, we go along with this,

so the rich and powerful
who fucked us over once

fuck us over again
and get it both ways.

We've always been mistreated,

so if anyone gives us
the slightest sympathy,

we overreact with our thanks.

I am a mannish Muff Diving Size Queen!

(§ MIRANDA SEX GARDEN:
"Muff Diving Size Queen")

♪ ...mannish Muff Diving Size Queen

♪ With bad attitude

♪ An arse licking Psychofag

♪ Molesting the flies of privacy

♪ Balling lesbian boys

♪ A perverted heterodemon

♪ Crossing purpose

♪ With

♪ Death ♪

(§ MOMUS: "Lesbian Man")

♪ am a cock sucking
Straight acting Lesbian man

(Chorus) J He is a cock sucking
Straight acting Lesbian man

♪ With ball crushing bad manners
Laddish nymphomaniac politics

(Chorus) J Ball crushing bad manners
Laddish nymphomaniac

♪ Spunky sexist desires of incestuous
inversion and incorrect terminology

♪ I'am a Not Gay

(Chorus) J He is a Not Gay

♪ I'am a Not Gay

(Chorus) J He is a Not Gay

♪ I'am a Not Gay

(Chorus) J He is a Not Gay

♪ I'am a Not Gay

(Chorus) J He is a Not Gay

♪ I'am a Not Gay

(Chorus) J He is a Not Gay

♪ I'am a Not Gay

(Chorus) J He is a Not Gay

♪ I'am a Not Gay

(Chorus) J He is a Not Gay

♪ I'am a Not Gay

(Chorus) J He is a Not Gay
He is a Not Gay

♪ am a cock sucking
Straight acting Lesbian man

♪ lam a Not Gay ♪

- (Crowd) England!
- (Clapping)

England!

(Man's voice) H.B. is in the kitchen
Greasing his hair

He guards the space
Against me

He calls it his office

At nine we leave for the hospital

H.B. comes back
from the eye department

Where all my notes are muddled

He says
It's like Romania in there

Two light bulbs
Grimly illuminate the flaking walls

There is a box of dolls
In the corner indescribably grimy

The doctor says, "Well, of course
The kids don't see them"

"There are no resources
To brighten the place up"

(Man's voice)
My eyes sting from the drops

Infection has halted

The flash leaves scarlet after-images
Of the blood vessels in my eye

Teeth chattering February
Cold as death

Pushes at the bedsheets

An aching cold
Interminable as marble

My mind
Frosted with drugs ices up

A drift of empty snowflakes

Whiting out memory

Cross-eyed meddlesome consciousness

A blinkered twister
Circling in spirals

Shall I?

Will 1?

Doodling death watch
Mind how you go

(♪ Gong resonates)

Oral DHPG is consumed by the liver,

so they have tweaked a molecule
to fool the system.

What risk is there?

If I had to live forty years blind,
I might think twice.

Treat my illness like the dodgems:

music, bright lights, bumps

and throw yourself into life again.

(♪ Fairground music,
people screaming)

("Pill Song")

The pills are the most difficult.

Some taste bitter, others are too large.

I'm taking about thirty a day,
a walking chemical laboratory.

I gag on them as I swallow them

and they come up half dissolved
in the coughing and spluttering.

(♪ Fairground music)

(Liquid flowing)

My skin sits on me
like the shirt of Nessus.

My face irritates,
as do my back and legs at night.

I toss and turn, scratching,
unable to sleep.

I get up, turn on the light.

Stagger to the bathroom.

If I become so tired, maybe I'll sleep.

(Birds chirruping)

Films chase through my mind.

Once in a while, I dream a dream
as magnificent as the Taj Mahal.

I cross southern India
with a young spirit guide.

India,
the land of my dreaming childhood.

The souvenirs in Moselle's
peach and grey living room.

Granny called Moselle,
called 'Girly', called May.

An orphan who lost her name,
which was Ruben.

Jade monkeys,
ivory miniatures, mah-jongg.

The winds and bamboos of China.

(8 BLUE, PARTS 36-41,
"Taj Mahal")

All the old taboos of blood lines
and blood banks

Blue blood and bad blood

Our blood and your blood

I sit here - you sit there

As I slept, a jet slammed
into a tower block.

The jet was almost empty,

but two hundred people
were fried in their sleep.

The earth is dying
and we do not notice it.

It's a young man frail as Belsen

Walking slowly down the corridor

His pale green hospital pyjamas
Hanging off him

It's so quiet here this morning

Just the distant coughing

My jugsy eye blots out
The young man

Who has just walked past
My field of vision

This illness knocks you for six

Just as you start to forget it

A bullet in the back of the head
Might be easier

You know, you can take longer than
The Second World War to get to the grave

Ages and Aeons quit the room

Exploding into timelessness

No entrances or exits now

No need for obituaries or final judgements

We knew that time would end
After tomorrow at sunrise

We scrubbed the floors
And did the washing up

It would not catch us unawares

The white flashes you are experiencing
in your eyes are quite common

when the retina is damaged.

The damaged retina
has started to peel away,

leaving the innumerable black floaters,

like a flock of starlings
swirling around in the twilight.

I am back in St Mary's to have my eyes
looked at by the specialist.

The place is the same,
but there is new staff.

How relieved I am
not to have the operation this morning

to have a tap put into my chest.

(♪ ERIK SATIE:
"1st Gnossiennes")

I must try and cheer up H.B.
as he's had a hell of a fortnight.

In the waiting room,
a little grey man over the way is fretting

as he has to get to Sussex.

He says, "I'm going blind.
I cannot read any longer."

A little later, he picks up a newspaper,

struggles with it for a moment
and throws it back on the table.

My stinging eye-drops
have stopped me reading,

so I write this in a haze of belladonna.

The little grey man's face
has fallen into tragedy.

He looks like Jean Cocteau,
without the poet's refined arrogance.

The room is full of men and women
squinting into the dark

in different states of illness.

Some barely able to walk,

distress and anger on every face
and then a terrible resignation.

Jean Cocteau takes off his glasses,

he looks about him
with an undescribable meanness.

He has black slip-on shoes,
blue socks, grey trousers,

a Fair Isle sweater
and a herringbone jacket.

The posters that plaster the walls above him
have endless question marks.

HIV/AIDS?

AIDS? HIV?

ARE YOU AFFECTED BY HIV/AIDS?

AIDS? ARC?

HIV?

This is a hard wait.

The shattering bright light
of the eye specialist's camera

leaves that empty sky-blue after-image.

Did I really see green the first time?

The after-image dissolves in a second.

As the photographs progress,

colours change to pink
and the light turns to orange.

The process is a torture,

but the result, stable eyesight,

worth the price and the twelve pills
I have to take a day.

Sometimes, looking at them,
I feel nauseous and want to skip them.

lt must be my association with H.B.,

lover of the computer
and king of the keyboard,

that brought my luck on the computer
which chose my name for this drug trial.

I nearly forgot, as I left St Mary's,
I smiled at Jean Cocteau.

He gave a sweet smile back.

I caught myself looking at shoes
in a shop window.

I thought of going in and buying a pair,
but stopped myself.

The shoes I'm wearing at the moment
should be sufficient

to walk me out of life.

(Man's voice)
Pearl fishers In azure seas

Deep waters
Washing the isle of the dead

In coral harbours amphora spill gold
Across the still seabed

We lie there

Fanned by the billowing
Sails of forgotten ships

Tossed by the mournful winds
Of the deep

Lost Boys sleep forever
In a dear embrace

Salt lips touching

In submarine gardens
Cool marble fingers

Touch an antique smile

Shell sounds
Whisper deep love

Drifting on the tide forever

The smell of him

Dead good looking
In beauty's summer

His blue jeans
Around his ankles

Bliss in my ghostly eye

Kiss me
On the lips

On the eyes

Our name will be forgotten
In time

No one will remember our work

Our life will pass
like the traces of a cloud

Be scattered like mist that is chased
By the rays of the sun

For our time is the passing of a shadow

And our lives will run like
Sparks through the stubble

I place a delphinium, Blue,
upon your grave

(Waves ebbing and flowing)

(♪ "Last of Gongs")