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You copped out.

Did I?

Don't cop out.

Should we let things stand?

But then I'm left wondering...

What the other day was all about?

The other day?

That's how I feel about you.

“Rock first. Rock, paper, scissors. Again.”

I win.

Let's go now.

Yeah, let's go.

Petal Dance

What was that, Ms. Haraki?

Sorry.

I lost myself for a moment.

A different version of wishing on a star, maybe?

Right?

When you make a wish

and let the wind carry it,

I like to think that it'll surely come true.

Put that in the box in the storeroom.

- Hello. - Hello.

Sorry to make you sweep up, boss.

No problem.

Hey-

Yes?

What is it?

Urn...

Thanks for everything.

Sure, no problem.

No problem.

- Ms. Haraki. - Yes?

How are you spending your day off tomorrow?

Nothing. I'm just going to relax.

I couldn't say anything.

I couldn't say anything.

This is good.

What was that about?

What?

You were...

You were mumbling something.

I heard that when you make a wish on something

that's riding upon the winds, your wish will come true.

You think I'm crazy, don't you?

It's just something I heard.

What did you wish for?

No good can come of knowing someone's wish.

You're better off not knowing.

I wish I could disappear.

What?

What?

What are you saying?

I couldn't reply to what you said.

I couldn't listen to what you had to say.

And then you disappeared.

I don't know where you are now.

Or if you're even alive.

I didn't expect you to come.

Yeah?

Yeah. It's good to see you again.

What?

I said it's good to see you.

You don't look very glad.

Well, but I do feel glad.

Here.

Will the engine start?

It started.

That was easy.

Hold on a sec. I can't see anything.

It's OK, I'll do it.

Don't, you'll get dirty.

What's going on? ls the wiper broken?

It was on this side.

Sorry about that.

I got tired of not seeing you at all.

Me, too.

You're going to visit Miki?

I wonder why?

About Miki.

Hurting herself like that.

I think I sort of understand.

Maybe she felt lonely, too?

Why do you think so?

Well, I sort of...

I felt that way when I was withdrawn.

That doesn't mean she's the same.

I guess so.

It doesn't mean Miki felt the same.

Yeah.

Sorry.

I guess there are lots of things I just don't get.

But I'm sure she'll be glad to see you.

Miki, I mean.

We'll visit her naturally.

Yeah. That's probably the best way.

But it's hard to think of what to say to her.

What do you plan on saying when you see her?

I don't know.

I don't, either.

Excuse me.

I'm doing some research, and...

I'm looking for books on suicide.

Where are they located?

- This way. - Thank you.

Here they are.

They're on the bottom shelf and up here.

There are more in the stack room if you need any.

Ask if you need help.

“Suicide as an Option”

Hello?

- Hello? Can We talk? - Sure.

I have a question.

What?

I have a question.

Why are you visiting Miki?

Because I want to know, I guess.

Know what?

Well, I want to know why

she felt like doing what she did.

What?

I want to know why she felt compelled to do that.

It's hard to explain, but I just want to know.

Do you think you could meet her normally like that?

You want to know? But what if Miki... OK, I see.

I see.

How could we see her normally after being apart for 6 years?

I'm not sure why we're visiting her.

She's probably the same.

She probably hasn't changed.

I borrowed a car.

Thanks a lot. I appreciate it.

I'll call you again.

OK, thanks.

- No problem. See you. - See you.

Good morning.

Good morning.

“Going out of business. Thank you for your patronage...”

The other day, when the boss said,

“Thanks for everything,”

I wonder if this is what he meant?

Yeah.

Since when?

When do people stop saying good-bye to each other?

A long time ago,

we all used to say “sayonara” or “bye-bye”

and bade each other farewell in a proper way.

Are you throwing that out?

I'm taking it home.

You're taking it home?

Can you still use that?

I don't know, but as a souvenir.

I couldn't say good-bye to the boss properly,

so as a keepsake.

“Fashion Shop NEKORAI”

Hey, thanks.

No problem.

“Sayonara-ba.”

What?

Why did you add “ba”?

It means, “if so.”

“Sayonara-ba.”

I heard that it's meant to refresh your feelings

so that you can confront whatever may come your way.

So...

Sayonara-ba, Ms. Haraki.

Sayonara-ba.

Take care!

A train is passing through. Please be careful.

Where else does it hurt?

Here at the joint.

Here? Let me bend it.

- Ow! - That hurts?

- What if I pull? Does it hurt? - Yes!

The bone might be chipped,

so I'll bind it up for you.

There.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Take care.

I thought you were about to jump forward.

On the platform back there.

That's why...

Oh...

- So I apologize. - No...

Sorry.

No, I'm sorry.

I was trying to move on, actually...

But, well...

OK, here you go.

2,070 yen for today.

I used to be on the track team up until high school.

Yes.

And what I was doing...

It's how you get set for the long jump.

I lost my job this morning. So I wanted to feel...

Well, I wanted to feel better and make a fresh start.

I was trying to bring my spirits up.

I see.

I'm sorry. I misunderstood. Grabbing you like that...

No, I shouldn't have done something so misleading.

No, it's my fault.

I know what you mean.

When you feel like giving yourself a boost.

I get it now.

You see, a friend of mine...

She sort of ended up standing...

On the edge so to speak.

She survived and is doing better now.

I'm planning on

going to visit her.

Yeah.

Does your finger hurt a lot?

No.

But it just occurred to me that maybe...

I shouldn't drive.

Are you planning on driving there by yourself?

I'm going with a friend.

But she doesn't have a license.

I'll drive.

What?

I have a driver's license.

I'm unemployed. I've got lots of time.

Maybe I'll go, too.

What? Sure, why not?

- Just kidding. - I knew it.

Good morning.

Are you all right?

I'm fine.

What happened?

My bone got chipped off.

It got chipped off? Wow.

- Nice to meet you. - Nice to meet you.

She's driving for us.

- My name is Haraki. - Nice to meet you.

I'm Motoko.

This is my ex-husband who lent us his car.

Too much information?

Ex-husband here.

Nice to meet you.

Here's the key.

I'll take it. Thank you.

Shall we go, then?

No, it only opens from the inside.

- I'll do it. - Thanks.

Thanks a lot. I appreciate it.

Oh, your bag.

Do I sit in the back?

Want to put it here?

Thanks.

Sorry.

- Thanks a lot. - Thank you.

No problem.

OK.

The switches are on the opposite side.

Oh, I see.

Thanks for the car.

I'll close the door.

Take care.

- Take care. - Thank you.

Did you say something?

What do you think that is?

Is that a glider?

The Wind's really loud in that thing.

That flies because there's wind, right?

Where did you used to work?

A shop called “Nekorai.”

“Nekorai”?

What's that?

Well, apparently the boss didn't like cats. “Neko.”

So “rai” as in “kirai,” or “dislike”?

No, it's from “rai” as in “come,” so that even cats would come.

- Oh. - Yes.

It's snowing. Isn't it?

Yes, it's snowing.

You're right. It's snowing.

So tell me, Jinko and Motoko,

how do you know each other?

Friends in university.

The three of us, including the one we're seeing.

I see.

Could you pull over around there?

Sure.

Thanks.

It's shaped like the wind.

Remember when Miki said

that she wanted to be like a thick trunk?

And we teased her about gaining weight.

I wonder if I should have said something different.

I think maybe she's like that tree now.

Doesn't it remind you of her?

That tree?

She said she wanted to stand unwavering like a tree trunk.

And even though she wavered a bit, she's still standing tall.

It's amazing how it's still not broken in that state.

So we're on our way to see someone like that.

See you.

Going home already?

Yeah.

I'm going home. But I'll come again.

Did you want to talk about something?

Not really.

Just wondering how you were. Did you hear me?

Just wondering how you were.

What?

Take care.

The light's green.

Oh, right.

She grabbed you because you were doing the long jump?

The long jump?

I did track all through high school, so...

Unconsciously...

What's so funny?

Nothing.

I was in that position unconsciously.

What sort of position?

The position? Well...

You can't do it here?

It's nothing special, really. Put one foot back...

Like this?

Yes, like that.

And she moved like this.

Right.

- And went like this? - Yeah, like that.

So I went like this,

and wham, we fell.

And crack went my finger.

How unfortunate. And now you're here.

How unfortunate.

Really. That's so weird. I'm surprised you came.

They're like that glider we saw on the way.

Same mechanism.

The wind, you mean?

They both ride the winds, right? A glider doesn't use energy.

It soars on the wind.

So those seagulls

and that glider are the same.

Here you go. Seafood ramen.

Yum!

It's good.

It's good.

I'm bent.

I'm all crooked.

I'm not pure white and I'm not straightforward.

Anyhow, I'm just really bent.

I see.

I'm clouded, I guess.

Lots of things have crept in,

and I'm clouded now.

Right, Motoko?

Right?

Say, “Yeah.”

- Say, “Yeah.” - Yeah!

Good!

What?

Hey. What if Miki...

What if it'd been an act of self-harm?

What do we do?

What could we do?

Do you mean if she'd voluntarily jumped into the sea?

What could we do...?

Isn't that what you want to know?

Well... I want to know,

or understand, I guess.

It's hard, isn't it?

Let's stop at a stationery store.

OK.

A stationery store...

What are you looking for?

Pencils.

And an eraser.

An eraser? Pencils?

And a pencil sharpener, too.

What for?

This one. Thanks.

- Excuse me. - What for?

I thought it might be nice to have some time to not think.

Excuse me.

Yes?

We're here to visit Ms. Miki Nishioka.

Ms. Miki Nishioka? OK.

Ms. Nishioka is in room 458 on the fourth floor.

Please use that elevator over there.

Yes.

Excuse me.

Yes?

Do you know where Ms. Nishioka is?

Oh, she's probably up on the roof.

The roof?

Is that the way up?

Yes, there's a flight of stairs.

Yes, thank you.

- Upstairs? - Yes.

Why...?

We came to see you.

I see...

When?

We left

this morning.

How...

- We borrowed a car. - Yeah.

Oh...

My ex-husband's car.

A clunker.

We managed to get here.

Took us forever, though...

She drove us here.

I hope you don't mind... I'm Haraki. I drove the car here.

Sorry. Nice to meet you.

- Nice to meet you. - Hi.

So the three of you...

I see...

When are you leaving?

Tomorrow.

By tomorrow evening.

I see.

There's so much snow here. Off and on, like.

In that case...

Would you mind

coming with me to a certain place?

Where?

The sea.

The sea?

What do you say?

Sure.

Sure.

Is it OK?

Yes.

I see.

That was more natural than I expected.

I think.

No?

What did you think?

I wasn't sure how I should talk to her.

I see.

I didn't like how she asked to see the sea.

I see.

You didn't look like it.

I didn't show it.

Good for you.

Her voice has gotten a bit smaller.

Her voice was smaller.

Miki's?

Miki's voice?

Her eyes had changed.

Her eyes, huh?

Maybe we shouldn't have come?

You think we did the right thing?

I was glad to have seen her again.

That's our reaction.

You're talking about our feelings.

You mean Miki? Well...

But I'm sure she missed...

I can't be sure, though.

I can't be sure.

I can't forget her face when she said, “Why?”

I see.

I mean... I don't know, under normal circumstances...

When you meet...

If something like that hadn't happened...

Well, we're here because it did happen, but...

You wouldn't ask, “Why,” right?

I guess so.

Do you want some tea?

Want some?

Tea?

Yes please.

Someone pour hot water for me.

Thanks.

Done.

On the way here, there was a tree like this.

Like this.

This way.

What?

- It was like you. - Thin, though.

It reminded me of you.

It was shaped like the wind.

A thin tree.

Really?

A tree like me, huh?

Listen...

There's another place

I want you to come with me.

- If you don't mind. - Where?

A different seaside.

Sure.

Thanks.

Sorry.

Hello?

Hello?

Yeah, I'm kind of busy.

Oh. But there's something I need to say to you.

Well, could you do it some other time?

I love you.

What?

Today? I won't be back until late today.

I have to go now.

I'll call you back.

Yeah, see you.

Bye-bye.

You're grinning.

Hey, you're grinning.

No!

Hey you, what's so funny?

Nothing.

Sorry.

Over there.

I stood over there.

This is the place.

I wanted to come here one more time.

Why?

To ascertain

what I was feeling

at that time.

But...

I couldn't come here alone.

You all came along with me.

That's why I could do it.

I'm kind of fond of this now.

This brought us together, you and I.

And here we are.

Is it getting better?

It's becoming a part of me.

Gradually.

And things look different now.

Did you catch it?

I caught it.

What's that load on your mind?

Now and then,

you'd look up at the sky

and mumble something.

I've been...

making a wish.

There's a certain person

who I hope is still alive.

“Please let her be alive somewhere.”

That's my wish.

A wish...

You were praying.

You're praying.

Yes, I probably am.

I hope your wish comes true.

Without giving it too much thought, write down

100 words you think up as quickly as you can.

Things that you can see.

Please write down nouns.

Things you can see?

Then“.

Words like “wind” are out since you can't see it?

But you can see the wind.

OK.

- You have an elastic? - Yeah.

Done.

Done?

I'm finished.

OK then. Take the last words you wrote...

Pick up the last three words that you wrote down,

and draw a picture with them. A realistic one.

A picture.

Together?

Yes, use the last three words and draw a picture.

What were your words?

Seagull, crow, snowman.

Seagull, crow, snowman.

Yours?

Camera, sound, teeth.

You, Motoko?

“Chin on hand,” soba noodles, drool.

That's dynamic.

What about you, Haraki?

Triangle, girl, snake.

I'm curious about your picture.

And?

And what?

Is that all?

That's all.

Oh, really?

That's all.

That's all, huh?

On that last day we met,

were you smiling?

Or were you

trying to smile?

Was your smile

from the bottom of your heart?

What was that phone call?

Who was it from?

Shouldn't you call back?

It's OK.

What?

Oh. It's OK, huh?

It's OK?

Yeah.

All right, all right. I'll call back.

I'll Call.

You know...

Jinko's changed a little.

But maybe she hasn't, really.

I'm dying to know.

Don't, Motoko.

But I want to know.

Thank you.

No.

I didn't do much.

Please say that to your friends.

It's kind of embarrassing, you know?

I'll go turn on the engine.

Ride it.

Ride it.

The wind.

Thanks“.

...for coming.

I'm sorry I can't do anything for you.

No.

I've gotten more than enough.

We're in the same place...

You, Miki...

and Motoko.

- Right? - Right.

- Right? - Right.

Right.

Did you ride it?

That Way?

Be alive,

and be smiling.

Subtitles by Mia lsozaki